His Ex Story

when me still haven get to know redz,.. this fren of mine who likes me told me about a story about him.. and say that he's devoted... redz and i were in the bus.. me been wondering if that story is true for years.. and finally. .me asked him out of the blue.. ..he say yes its true. ..wow.. .. he got this gf.. ex-gf.. been together for 2 years plus.. broken off for a month once.. cos usual couple's quarrels.. then talk things out,. they're back again. :) then one day.. she starts losing her hair lots.. then doesnt wanna go out that often anymore.. he have no idea whats happening.. ask her dad, also wownt tell. but she die2 not telling.. then she broke off with him.. he didnt know why she does that.. didnt suspect anything at all.. soon... she called him in hospital.. they talked for abit.. but he never expected that thats their last conversation.... :( .. dunno what they talked about.. then atlas.. she say to him.. she'll always love him forever no matter what happen.. then soon after he hang up the call,.. her parents called.. ..say that.. she's dying.. she got brain tumour... ....:( he went dirnking that night..very drunk.. he did not went home.. cos yeah.. after work need to destress.. the news u see.. ...too shocking.. and then.. yes.. u know. .. thats why she broke of with him. ..he say thats his first long relationship... her dad's a singaporean chinese..mum's a japanese.. i feel sad.. yeah. .took him a couple of months to get himself back together. ..sigh..... ... and to think.. .. the time when i met him.. stick to him. .yet. .me din know anything.. he say..(dunno meaning now alos anot..) after a couple of months.. yes.. gotta recover.. but. .sometimes when it cums to the still of lonely slient night,... ..the feeling.. is so........ ... well.. i get what he means.. pain.. sad.. .. sigh.. i hope.. ..in the future.. yeah.. .. then his bro too.. .. .. i hope he's not reading this.. but.. .. i really hope.. ppl who read this.. will really3 cherish the person u love ard u.. every min.. every second.. for u do not know when god or whoever decides to take your life away... away from u.. ..

after he told me its true,.. ok.. i wont ask further. .but.. he actually told me the whole story..
...me always treasure the ppl ard me. .holding them tight to me.. you wont lose somebody if you hold on to them.. but still.. me make mistake sumtimes.. and.. ...yeah.... i hope they wont lose me in anyway.. cos if they do,. .i wont ever get back to them.. yes.. if i treasure u, u hurt me, one time is enuff. and i wont ever hold u dear to my heart no longer. in anycase.. ..yeah.. ... sigh.. i hope reedz..his future will be better huh.. .. with me and bro with him.. yeah.. we'll make sure of that.. ..now i even mention my home as his home already hahaha. he coming home soon.. ..he called me just. but me already at home.. so.. yup. cant meet him up. haha

ah.. ytd night.. he said something about malay guy cant slp in a same room with a girl. unless they're married. i was like. ....omg.. me din know. .and to think i.. ..haiyo.. baka na atashi..

hm.. today.. me wakey.. at early morning. .10.30am.. feeling energenetic.. dunno why.. then.. hm ..bro went work.. erm... me settle lappy stuff.. and.. eat with redz.. mum bought food.. then.. we play... ..erm.. LOL.... barbie as a island princess game! XD omg..... then ..bath.. went out.. he meet his fren, while me meet my fren.. huu.. sad.. wanna bring my mum out.. but.. fren ask already.. so.. yeah.. :( feel bad she din go.. huuuu....

then at city hall... waiting for our own frens.. so walk ard raffles for abit.. searchign for his cap.. hm.. yeah.. then go our separate ways.. meet my fren.. walk2 ard... heard izuan kena scold by ross... haiz... he's so angry. erm.. yeah. .then walk2.. me cant find any warm gel packs,, the kawaii ones..me saw at JP. hm... then... yeah.. me bought this hello kitty dvd.. cos.. finally ofund it!! got one episode is about cinnamoroll!! ^^ yay! hehe. cant wait to watch.. tot can share it with sammy.. but.. .. dunno. ... :( got a feeling cant watch together. ..so sad. cant share it.. ..:( so.. see how.. me try my best see can anot..

hm... think its over sammy's parents budget.. for a house,.. ...hm. .wow.. the price.. dunno.. i hope things went well for them... ..dunno why... got this weird feeling about.. ..

oh2... then walk2.. finally get to luggage fair. over some thinkings,.. finally bought the big one. its huge. -_-.. omg.. i hope i have no problems lifting it up and down.. haiyo..... ...hope not so heavy bah.. really so big for me.. o well... see how bah... packing shld be at end of month.. hm..

wow.. so tired...fren treated me dessert.. cos me dun wan eat.. wanna save money go home eat.. hm... ...well... been out only for few hours.. really so tired.. huu

hm..... went to bodyshop.. checked out some travelling size shampoos and stuffs.. wow. .the auntie staff so friendly. :) very nice.

super duper tired.... -_- got a feeling tmr sure see bosses.. cos stoday they setting up and start the suntec exibitions already.. sianz..

hm.. k.. .just a few more days to hang on.. huu.... ..nov... when will u arrive....

mata

To Dos And Not To Do

now i know why... i keep wanting to shop.... because i wanna vent my stress on it. arrgh............... im sooooooooooo freaking tired.... tmr my off day, and yet they wanna touch it? forget it. don eve think about it. i rejected them without any 2nd thought.
oh gosh.. everyday like this... sigh..

oh good news! dad found a job. with his sis. tmr gonna start. its very3 near my workplace. and.. yup. i got a feeling this time its gonna workout. so.. yeah. .keeping my fingers crossed.

what happen today.. .. ...quite alot of chatting.. yes.. finding ppl to chat.. ppl finding me to chat..
-_- bored... used lappy on and off. cant live without it in my workplace. argh.. hm... risky. but its a risk i gotta take. its pretty boring today.. oh. .at the end of night, there's this very2 nice customer. i love chatting and recommend toys to this kind of ppl. super friendly. :) if only everyne is like that.. man.. i'll sure be super happy with my job.

i duno what zuan is talking about today. he gib me a missed call ytd. then today called, and i asked him abt ytd. cos me bz, so never dunno whaat is he talking.. i thiknk he's drunk.. hahaha. but yeah.. his words are so weird today.. =.=..

me just ate finished.. with bro and redz.. redz was drawing his money out when my bro suddenly ask redz if i'll convert to muslim. i was surprised.XD why he suddenly ask me that ar??? then he ask redz also.. do i have to? redz say ya.. then also must get a malay name. my bro..and zuan.. their words are so random.. hard to fathom.. XD

ah. .foudn so many travel agencies contacts... wohohoh,, :) through news oaoer.. so happy to come across it. :) then get to know there'll be a fair coming up.. so. .yup. hoping for the best.. :) may be there to aust for 3weeks.. really wish for that to happen now.. hee cant wait :) then sam was teaching me all teh stuffs need to know at airport.. what to bring. .uh huh... yup2.. me note it down.. theres a luggage fair. .me may be going to buy tmr. :) see how. cos after hearing what redz say about his $25 luggage, erm... me having 2nd tots.. hahahXD
so.. yup... may be getting a very2 big one.. sine goin for long. :) so.. uh huh.
hm.. yeah.. abit nervous more or less.. cos will be alone when the time comes.. but.. with the ppl ard there.. should be alrite i hope. ... anything me can just ask ard.. tehy sshould be friendly enuff to guide me along if theres anything.. yup.. ..

o well.. ant waiat for this end of month to arrive.. at least me settle the visa thingy today:) so simple.. now is the prices and stuffs..
well, tmr we shall see then:)

huu.. then after talking to sam about the airport to dos and not to do, me gtg eat. .haiyo miss him ar...

anyway. 3hrs of difference huh. ...:( dunno when its coming. .but. .me sure sad.. but.. its part of the deal to endure... everythign comes with a price..

ah.. was so disappointed when sammy say cant watch dvd together online.. tot can at first.. but then, me bought one, and gonna try. hope by sat night ne :) hee. sumtin new to try...

kk, me gotta agar2 figure out whats the size of my luggage gonna be..

mata ne!!

Caught On Cam

ah.. ytd forgot to mention this.. ne2.. deosnt just feel nice and sweet if someone u care about, drop u a msg out of the blue, saying miss u? ^^ hehe. ii na..

the tix me searhing for. me tot its consider cheap.. then my fren say its expensive. so.. yeahXD was surprised ne. haha. hm.. tmr.. gotta ake a call and find out something. .so... ..yup. .hope my plan works.

morning met sammy for abit in webby.. ha. .so nice.. very3 short while but enuff..

...actually.. ...tonight feeling down.. ...cos... sigh.. .boss found out me using lappy during work. he never made a big fuss and talk to me personally.. cos he's like that one. so.. yup.. ok.. then.. .. ha.. sigh...... dunno what to say bah.. ....
just aint feeling happy now:(.. ..

haiz... sianz.. so tired.. really... :( huu.. when is nov coming..

mata

It's Correct ne?

hm... lucky me never go to chan's b'day.. heard there're all guys left when the only one of ur gf is gone. -_- imagine if me go there.., ..erm.. .. sounds weird ne.. they all drink alot2. alot of them knock out.. -_- so.. yup. me glad never go. haha.. go there, food also all gone i heard from raz. poor him.. hm.. adilah. ... i hope her fiance is alrite.. ..feel sad for her.. :( me know how that feels.. sigh..

hm. .finally.. syah let me in on what happened.. to him and his ex.. ..dun wanna disclose too much here.. ..lets just say. ...hm.. ... i dunno.. i knew she's this type of person.. but.. well.. love is blind sometimes.. anyway, me sure he's gonna move on, and find a greater girl! yes.. his wish.. to gwet a chinese wife.. wohohoho gdluck syah!! ;)

wow... me came across this website. .teaches ya how to measure your correct bra size. out of curiosity, me took a try on it. hahaha. and to my amazement, wow! its correct!XD 'c' desu. :) so yup. next time can be more confident when searching for my size.. now that i ki.nda confirmXD haha. :)

haiyo. .so tired.... tired3....

ehh.... .... what did i wanna say.. hm... today national day.. nothing much ne.. bored.. also dunno how me get through those hours.. -_- ha.

mata

Great Mother

Huu........ soooo shy... cos.. cos.. send some pics to sammy.. and like yeah.. then so shy.. super shy.. yeah.... but cos thinking.. its for sammy only.. so.. yup.. ..only one person to get.. so.. yeah.. *blush.... then in case miss me. ..yeah..

hmm.... today.. wakey.. very2 tired.. weak and slpy.. .tonight me staying at home. .isnt that so much better.. yes.. turned down my frens.. one person is more important than anything else.

todya a little boy ask me how much am i selling the skateboard. i say.. $49.90. then he shouted out in surprise.. 'wow so cheap!!' yeah i know.. not the first time me mention this here. .but still.. haha. .look at these children.. omg.. if me have any children in future, me sooo not gonna let them becum like this.-_- argh.... sickening.. oh.. speaking of which.. that other day, me saw this mother.. she got 3 children.. all girls. then the way she encourage her girl to get on the swaveboard,.. wow... aspiring.. then before they went off, she ask her children what they're supposed to say to me. .tehn they all say 'thank you!'.. then she also.. wow.. thats the kind of mother im gonna be if i have any children. calm, supportive, understanding, yet doesnt lose her erm.. gosh whats teh word.. ...her.. 'w' sumtin. .i cant rememebr now! haiyo.. .. ok lets just say her 'power'. haha. so. yup. knows when to show her stand, yet with such kindness.. ha. anyway yup. so far thats the kind of mum me like most:) she's really good. :)

hm.... today regreted not bringing any lappy to work.. huu.. so boring.. me tot boss so gonna cum down today.. hm. .tmr dunno how. .cos its national day.. ..so. ...yeah.. ..

but at night very crowded though.. for over an hour me stand to serve customers. tmr.. hm. .either very quiet, or crowded..

hm.. k.. tahts about it i guess?.. hm.. o well.. gotta get ready for my fullshifts.. huu...

mata.....

Protect In My Own Way

ytd.. sam showed me some nice fountain pics.. yes. .so nice.. one of the pic, shoeed this hugeeee fountain! long wide.. wow.. i can swim, in there!XD hahaha. cool:)
so nice ne..^^

ytd night before i slp.. i was looking at my saved msgs of sam.. so many.. suddenly.. realised.. how amazing.. now right before me..beside me.., i got this man so close to me. more than my family. i never really tot of how close we are now.. but come to think of it,.. ..ya.. ..me happy... to find such a person...
I will protect him.. though im not a manand cant protect him the way he protected me.., but i'll do it in my own way. I wwanna make sure that he's happy,safe and sound always.. thats.. only the basic..

hm... -_- that last time i was gonna takeover shift with mansoor,.. i was right on time. mins before 4pm. then tmr me gona takeover again. and today he called me and say. '.tmr just make sure u come on time this time.' as in not a bad a bad kind of tone.. still ..the way he say, as if im late last time! cos i was already outside the building..making my way there..then he called me. but me arrived on time. .so why is he saying that today? implying im late the other time? -_- but me really not late. huu.... why is he like that.. then got one thing. .he say to test me alert enuff anot.. hello?? -_- why need to test me?? weird.. .

3 fullshifts coming up.. huu.. so dun wanna go tmr night to chan's b'day. :( my heart sure whole night would stay with sammy.. yearning for home now..in front of my lappy.. happily chatting away... so dun wish to stay away from him even for a night.. only make me feel super terrible.. :( really... i wish i don have to go.. ..

and so yup.. my blog diff sometimes from frenster hor.. let ya guys know again. .to god knows who reading this.. ha

mata ne..

Stupid Msn Prob haiyo

tonight.. ...was especially looking forward to seeing him.. .. so many things wanna tell and ask.. but........ ...am i too tired from work?.. .. i dunno.. maybe huh.. .. msn went haywire.. .. msn kena stop.. .. then.. .. somehow sad.. .. cos no reply given. .was waiting and waiting infront of the screen.. .. o well... lets just say.. tonight.. isnt like those other nights.. its a quiet one..
he say im angry.. but me not.. just kinda frustrated at the thought that me so excited wanting to talk. .yet.. ..getting slow replies.. i wonder why.... msn will have prob... me.. just wish he wont misunderstood me.. over little things me angry?.. am i such a person?.. ..am i that bad ?.. ..not good enuff huh.. but no.. im not such a person.. i dun wanna get angry.. get angry is mean tfor work.. am i too stress there already?

so now ... its all silence.. .. of cos heartpain.. but.. yeah.. ...i hope he's not too sad.. ...cos i am.. .. me after work.. after a long hard day of work.. just wanna talk and see him.. thats all.. will cheer me up everytime..
now.. he's busy with some...things else.. so.. yeah.. cant concentrate on me ne.. ha. .thats why say its quiet tonight..
well.. . at least i still get to see him through cam huh.. ..
days been tough and tiring... me gotta.. .. gotta..... ...with family matters on my mind as well.. ...its difficult not to have a breakdown one day.. trying to smile more.. im trying to..