Love Between 2

hmmm......... =/..

had a dinner with my fren. ..things aint looking up.. :( feels kinda sad for him...
its like.. i dunno man.. =/
i really pity my guy frens. i hope tonight he's gonna be fine..soon. cos.. yeah.. things just aint good for him tonight.. i was standing on the girl's side initially.. then even now i don think she's good no more. and he's like whoa! even i give up on her too. haha.
but give up wouldnt be quite the word i'll use. instead, i've got the rough idea of what kind of a unsure perosn she is. so.. theres no point in.. ya know.

hm.. its just really.. hm..... ...poor dude. seeing him almost going crazy. and now... hm... family step in.. ... =/ such a tactic.. a low one. whatever's her intention,.. sigh.. i don think they'll make it past tonight.. ..

i thought.. isnt it enough already? to love someone. its just between u and ur partner. why must other ppl step in too. ..=/
is it that complicated?. ... i supposed huh.. .:(

hm............

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i've always think that.. to have someone who's belong to you, whom u could love wholeheartedly, ..its a very beautiful and nice thing to do... but... .. :( when some outside issues step in,.. and make things look all so complicated,... i wonder why..
isnt love just about the 2 persons.. in private?
hm.. i dunno.. perhaps some think not. if one could think that way.. isnt that great..
care nothing else but for the one who's in front of ya.. the only important thing that matters. just treasure it and hold on tight.
who knows if u make one stupid mistake of letting go becos of some outsider issues, u might regret for the rest of ur life.. much less talking about losing the one who's Part of Your Life.
and trust me. losing part of yourself aint happy at all. :(

hm.......

oh.. had a short day at work today.. finally gotten my energy back. not so tired.. but abit sleepy. cos wokey very early. yeha. .thanks to this month schedule..

hm........ was wondering today about working as partime in dec.. but really not sur eyet.. cos if i work, its gonna be pretty relaxing.. and i can earn extar cash for my trip.
but.... hm..........
theres reasons to yeah..

hm...... .... haven receive any msgs yet.. but... ...hmm... perhaps my fren's having a very serious talk right now.. ..
hm......

they say when a girl is having their monthly time, no man should be near them. cos they're very easily to be provoke at this time.. but.. i dunno man.. for me i don sense anything. is there anything wrong with me?? @.@ for me its like. just.. u knows.. few days will be gone.. but from what guys say.. its best for them to stay away if they want their life.
are girls really like that when they having that the of month? i do heard of. but i din know its that bad. lol. till my fren told me. hahah. then the girl will start to talk and think lots of negative stuffs.XD
well.. i don know about them. im just glad the way i am is.. ok for me. lol.

hm..........

my throat.. pain.. but.. yeah.. still craving for chips. ...oops... .. dunno wanna eat later anot.. ..
hm... abit sleepy.. ... coughing abit now.. got a feeling tmr will get worse. =/
but wont mc...
yeah...

mata

Love Spokes

ok.. i've been feeling so sleepy for the past few days.. and today finally get a chance to rest plenty, morning can sleepy late i think.. yet.. got so many phone calls thx to someone who wants a shift change with me. till me get wakey in mrg again!! argh.. wakey.. feeling sleepy.. head obviously not enough rest..

haiyo!!! I CANT WAIT TO COOK!!!! AND MAKE MILKSHAKE!!!! im so gonna do it soon man. hm... .. =(.. this month though.. i really cant spend on anything else again.. except for food. yeah.. love food. haha. my frens always say i eat like a monster. lol.

hm.... december........... ..... gosh i cant wait... i really3 cant wait.. ...

my fren was telling me today.. about how his girl din know he love her so much.. till he broke down and cry one day. she say she was shocked. and belive now that he truly lvoes her and she meant so much to him. she thought he wasnt that serious.. and.. well.. im glad half matter settles now. he still got more worries though.. =/ doing my best to help him.
yeah...... i remember the first time when sam cried for me... ... i think i was surprised too.. and like her, i truly belive he loves me more than i know.. and im more important than i think i am to him.
hey. men who cries is nothing to be ashame of. in fact. i lvoe it whne a man shed tears for a woman he love. it hard to explain.. but.. i truly belive that that is one of the most sincere and sweetest thing to do.. :)

and thx mum for the long hours of waiting with me... really appreciated...
ahhh.......... ... i dunno what to say.. but yes.. im grateful for the ppl who love me.. thank you..

sammy....... .... i miss sammy,,,,,, huu... ...
i cant wait.. i gotta be prepared.. and do my best when i get there. my special trip..

hm.... ..

my cousin's wedding dinner almost here... cant wait.. been so long since i attend one! :) hm... married huh.. ... all the best to them ne.. ...
my auntie's sons all married now. ..

hm.. tongiht gonna be slping late maybe? just don feel like slping early.. =/.. .hm...

well...
my throat's been irritating me too -_- argh. very uncomfy ne.

jaa mata ne :)

Huggie Them Tight

oh,.. yesterday ne.. 2 colleagues who's super late for stocktake, never say sorry. -_- is that rude? or what.

omg i am sooo sleepy!!!! huuu
hm.. i head theres a new schedule.. .. gosh.. please do not send another new one.. im fine with the now schedule already... pretty relaxing.. huu.. if they change, arghhhh -_-

today.. hm.. missing sammy lots... .... like those sudden lots kind.. .. then.. me went to this corner of my shop.. where there the teddy bears are.. me sat down on the floor.. huggie 2 of the teddys tightly.. head's down.. just close my eyes.. ...peaceful.. .not long before zuan step in with a shocking face. .'what are u doing with those teddy bears!?O.O ' lol.
..ha.. hm.. o well....
anyway that feels nice.. so.. yeah.. ..

today was doing the halloween decorations for party shop with izuan.. alot to be done.. but yeah cool. at least theres something to do. :) so.. hm... well.. hope its up to the standard of u know who.

tch... ...argh...... got things to settle man.. after shower and stuffs... hm.. i'd better rest while i can.

mata

Stocktake Final

hmm.. today morning. reach shop at 7.10am. -_- in teh end ppl with shop key late. cos they took MY key. thinking he'll arrive earlier. -_- dots. crazy. in teh end, cant wakey on time. causing me and another colleague to wait in vain. waste our itme. and most of all for waking up so early -_-
argh.. was so sleepy!!mansoor treated us breakfast.. :) then aftnoon, pizzas!! haha. was famished man. :P now having my curry chicken. ha. mum's best at that ;)

hm...
ok. .so.. stocktake.. erm.. abit better today.. cos.. yeah. more ppl working this time. so.. yup. faster. though it took us 11 hours to finish up whole thing. -_- ha. all tired man..

gosh. this morning.. half through sleep, woke up feeling all so shivering!! gosh! i was like. .wow.. so long since i experinced that kind of cold. shivering.. gotta rubbie myself to keep warm.. :( its hard.. so cold... cos especially.. .. =/ o well...
so.. yeah.. thats like. .so long never happen.. and.. .o well... ... so it kinda weird for me to be shivering all over again..
tonight im so gona make sure i cover well, and the fan is at its correct speed. ha

hm... ...
so.. yeah....
stocktake throughout... my energy got back. .so.. uh huh.. pretty good. i guess.. ..
but tonight gonna slp like a dead cat. hahah

hm... .... =/

well... tmr full again......

=/... seems liek some little thigns that happened,.. me not bloggy it down no more.. i wonder why.. .... perhaps... because.. ... im too tired from work to think and type?..
or simply wanna keep it to myself..

anyway glad today's finally over.
now should be around sammy's 1.45am.. i wonder whats he doing.. must be lying in bed again?.. ha.. with the all so kawaii blue hug blankie.. :)

...well.. one day to go.. gosh.... gonna busy again. no time to rest.
personal matter to settle.
geez.. im tired ne.. to do anything. i just wanna find a free nice day to cook. make a nice cuppa milkshake.. perhaps in teh next2 week's off. see how ne.. cant wait to try out my new receipes!! :D hehehehe ^^

........hm....... ..i really like cooking huh.. .. :) i really do.. and to cook for others, especially for love one, i think thats a wonderful thing to do. :) makes me feel excited and happy..
i want to be a great wife in future. one day perhaps? in anycase.. just wanna be really good and sweet to my future husband. massage him when he's tired from work.. cook up something nice to cheer him up.. at night make him feel all the more better.. hey doesnt that sound so blissful? ^^

well......
hm... think imma go shower soon.. rest well.. wash away all my fatique..
hm..

haii...

mata ne!

Happy Mooncake Festival

=/.. ..was just confiding in sammy.. ...today is mooncake festival.. union time for family.. .. bro not at home though.. theres work to be done.
im feeling terrible after dinner.. perhaps too tired i guess. not enough slp.. argh. zzzzzzzz.....
but.. yeah.. i just felt that... ..tch......... alot of dislike being alone at home..and stuff. and my bro.. i dunno.. =/ theres alot of feelings there i supposed....
i just wish i wasnt at home.. cos for so long i've never... ..u know.. then suddenly sam who's always been a part of my life,... now gone.. so its like.... ..its tough for me to get use to this feelings again.. =/
i cant belive its a sat today...
...sux

gosh im sooo slpy.. ..can fall aslp anytime now.. .
.....

then sam's fren.... =( sad sia.. so long together then broke off... and its cos of the girl. i thought usually men are the ones who want what so called 'space'. but its like.. she's still at the abit like.. immature age i guess.. perhaps they still wanan have fun.. explore the guys out there=.=
but who could know the truth but her.
but its such a pity though.. well.. all the best to the guy.. who knows.. if they might end up together again.. ..after cold war

sometimes me pity men too.. like.. =/.. haiyo
.....

hm... oh dear... my schedule is so packed till dunno when.. i wonder if i'll have the time to replenish my energy. gonna be tough for the early coming week... i don thnk i'll have the energy regain back fast. been going late nights.. my energy all gone.
shoot.. cant help it.. gotta nap abit.. i know still early. but.. yeah.. cant take it!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

hm.. 3 hours of differenc.
between us.. .

ok........

oh.. mooncakes are fine. the strawberry flav is good:) yummy
hm..

oh ytd... ate cat and stuff.. surprise cakey!
cool

kk.. catn take it.. mata..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Stupid Van

oh... theres this once, i was wearing a mini dress that night.. fetching a cab. then in fornt of cab theres this white van. with a few mens there. they thought i was waving at them! tehy got the cheek to stop tehir van in front of me. -_- geeez... good thing the cab also stop. so yup me fine. stupid men still can smile2 laugh2.. crazy.. anyhow stop. tsk.
..sory doesnt feel like blogging tonight.. theres things to do..

mata

-lets celebrate ppl!-





are matters really alrite with me?.. i need alot of attention.. and love and care.. i need concern.. lots.. i need to feel really secure.. ... :(

No Words To Be Said

=/.....

suddenly ytd night my energy gone.. ha. so... o well... sleepy now.. .. =/
hm.... ....

sam say got alot of other things to talk to me about.. ..
but me.. huu.. forgot my lappy.. was rushing outta the shop T_T
huu... but at least still can blog for abit here bah.. ...

but what makes me sad is.. :(
i dunno why he doesnt wish to speak to me.. i don know.. and i feel sad.. maybe he doesnt wanna speak to me anymore? maybe he feels really stranger with me already...
..i dunno.. feels weird he rejected my call.. so sad.. :..( then now leaving me full of worries of whats going on.. ..:(

sigh..

:(

its really so unlike him.. i thought.. he would love to speak to me. but i was wrong.

perhaps he's busying with repairing stuffs again.. dunno..
yeah.. ..
i wont.. disturb him..
maybe im sad for nothing.

mata