Bubble Pops!

i dont.. feel so well right now.. my nose.. giving me the trouble...

erm.. just to say.. well.. i wont be adding in so much of my emotion talk from now on.. i'll hold them back however i could.

well.. i get to sing today.. for abit.. so yeah.. i miss singing.. hm.. o well

erm.. so.. what happen todya.. erm.. wow. .on the phone with sam for quite long hours.. uh huh.. watched anime together.. talked about the july trip.. erm.. really never expect the ticketsd to be so expensive.. i was so lucky last time. .anywya.. yeah turn out the hotel is quite a good price.. so. yeah. didnt expect that.
erm.. not sur eif will really get to go.. but yeah..

erm

then sam was asking me what if i cant see him for the longest time. then he say i might not be able to see him in his summer holiday.
i know what that means already.
hm,.... =/ o well.. so if july couldnt make it there... it'll take me around more than 1yr and 6months time till i see him again huh. unless he found a job and save lots.. i dunno..
so.. i never get to reply his question.. what happen huh.. i think my answer will be.. of course it wont be happy right. ha. so ya....

whatever happen, happens.. anything and alot can happen in this long2 time.. just hope.. yeah.. i'll get to see him next year indeed ba.
and will love each other as much as possible as we do now..

o well... tough day for me..

erm.. tired and sleepy. .didnt sleep well.. hm.. yeah.. basically just not my day.. well, get to chat with sam.. so yeah.. good.. same off day..

erm.. so.. hm.. he's asking me to look at his fb in case i need to know anything of him.. so.. yeah.. wonder why not email. .but since he said so.. ya..

erm... so.. i hope tmr will get well..
hm. .yeah.. i relaly cant wait to get the day over with..
hm..
yeha..

so change of plans alreayd... i can even most likely go for my course this year.. see how..
hm.. yeah.. ust felt abit weird ba. like.. so sure of the plan.. then end up liek this.. but yeah. .all cool..
its not up for us to decide sometimes..

me.. dinner.. never take.. decided not to take.. very yeah.. =/
well.. at least i had half a bowl of noodles..
and abit of chips..
wont die eh.
hm..
yeah.. finally get to listen to my cd.. uh huh..

gosh. .suddenly my nose is killing me..

sigh.. =/ got a feeling i didnt make sammy very happy today..=/ tch.... ..


k.. signing off now. .hoping for a better day tmr if theres one.

mata

JOBSSS

wow.. this couple.. geez... i don wanna end like like htat wife of his!! i think they are husband and wife. quite obvious ba.. husband carrying a big bag of LV stuff. they werent smiling much.. nor appeared to be lovey dovey.. then she made payment.. then she walk aside!! i was like.. o..k......... i knew whats gonna happen. and i was right. lol. her husband come to the front, and collected the bag of stuff she just bought. like slave sia!!! gosh.. men aint supposed to do all those! anyway.. pity her husband =/ sigh.. get such a wife.. o well..

sigh....... =/ dunno what to say.. how to begin...

im just kinda afraid was being outcasted.. =/ tch.. u know.. sorry.. i dont think i feel like saying anything..=/ not my day to confide tonight. sorry..

so.... .... erm.. well.. today.. same as usual.. hm. .theres a staff there ok.. can talk to.. so not bad.. i guess slowly ba.. get used to the peeps there..

oh.. heard theres a angmoh man applying for our manager position.. but sabrina decided not to hire himXD lol. reason??? cos he was too strict!!!LOL!! what is she thinking!! hahaha... my fren and i were like.. strict.. is good! so there wont be any unfairness going on! haiz.... o well... just hope she'll find a nice manager who knows black and white soon.=/
we really wish they'll transferred someone from aussie or new zealand to sg like sabrina. at least they will know what they're supposed to do, and how to do. instead of getting someone from sg who knew nothing about our system.

..............

=/

sigh.. what to do...

oh.. my colleague, holds 3 jobs. lol. bt not what u think.. ha.. lazy to explain. then the other one. still schoooling. working 3 times a week here. always nightshift. then after work, at10.30pm,go off to work at zouk.
wow. gotta hang it to them.. my time.. wel.. not enough.. plus its really save up for sam. so yeah..
imagine if say.. tmr i off, tonight after work i go zouk and work, not bad eh. ha. but gonna be so dead tired. but anyway, sammy will kill me if i go work there eh. ha.
but theres extra cash.. wow.. come to think of it.. not a bad idea.. but.. =( really tiring. and i will have no free time already.. no time to cook, learn, and.. yeah.. wil lalways be slpy and tired. worse than now im sure. ha. sigh.. to give up which one.. u tell me...

poor sabrina.. her partner's health aint good at all when they went over to batam for few days of holiday.
wonder how they gonna enjoy all these.. anyway.. well.. i guess its good for her too nonetheless.. as she's heading back to new zealand on may.. then her partner will be staying here till september. lol. maybe will be the same case as my fren huh. imagine when he go back, see her, then say i love u to her. lol... guys... nah.. maybe he's a romantic at heart alreayd XD

=/ dunno should i slp or not.. outside.. no one... bro in his room.. stop playing game already... =/ u know.. i hate these kind of lonliness and quietness.. =( sux like mad.. would rather head out =(

my feet hurts.. =/

tmr.. o well......... tmr huh.............. ....

=/

mata ne

Remeber

i have this customer today.. when he's making payment today, he say to me.. ''dont u know that u have a killer smile? don (ever) use that.'' i was like.. ^^ haha.. kinda happy.lol!! cos i like the word 'killer'. lol... killer smile eh.. hahahahha....... so funnyXD i like that\. now2, don get th ewrong impression. he's a a angmoh living here for 6 years already in sg.. and has a 6yrs old cute daughter. he even showed me her pic. aww.... so yup.. ^^ nice man with a cute black daughter. yeah.. her daughter's black. =) erm.. or abit brown. yup..

today is sam's off.. i didnt know about that......... i was wondering. .how come i didnt know about that... then.... i try putting myself in his shoes..(i always does..) if i were to have a party going on.. and its about 2 in a week..., and.. i have fun at the parties.. i am sleepy... would i be able to tell my partner way before that? or in time...... well, i think.. i might've already know mon is my off by thurs or fri right..? so.. would i be able to let my partner know about this? well.. its a good thing. .and happpy ting. its holiday.. im off! so.. lets go back.. ah........... say.. lastest by fri... say.. i got to learned about it after school.. and i gotta run for the party.. would i have time to tell my partner about this?....
.......
u know... ya'll know me........ you should know my answer..
yeah.. thats my answer. im sure u guys know.

working.. yeah.. only nice part s the compliment from customer.. as i said.. i don care much about compliments.. but i do like the word 'killer smile.''. LOl.
hm. .nice chat with my fren.. i think we're closer now.. hm... tmr.. sigh.. closing with my manager.. ha. but. well, kinda miss her. XD
hm........ yeha. hope she had fun in batam with her partner =)
cant wait to hear it all from her.

sigh...... somethings.. still yet to be fulfilled..

ah.. guessi forgot to ask sammy how come theres no email today huh.. well. i guess its what he said in sms.. slp eat.. chat.. stuff like that huh.. we just chatted abit in sms only.. yeah.. my card running outta money again =( sigh............................ =(

so.. my night. .hm. .sam wasnt online no more when i got back.. then.. blah3.. got abit.. erm.. u knw what... then.. funny. chatted with my fren.. ok.. not bad.. then right after im done, another came on ..XD but i really gotta shower.. so.. yup.. off i go.. haha.. a pity i couldnt stay for long though. aw.. feeling alil bad.. =/for my fren.
but anyway, its a nice chat.. relax alil.. so yeah.. yay .
i hope i can keep on staying of the right track of thinkings..

aites.. feeling fuller now. .after a drink plus chips.. was so hungry when i got home. =/ mum no cook today.. so yeah.. gotta have abit of food .. which is chips. ha.

hm... was planning the cost about the trip today.. well. i cant do it now as i've not yet received the website from sam. but seem slike. the hotel rellay cost alot. .so.. yeah. .shall see how.. yay.. cant wait for tmr to be over..

mata ashita.

Questions Afraid To Ask

hmm...... well... today.. basically i am sooooooo sleepy.... very sleepy.. rest quite abit.. still.. not enough... gosh.. nights of slping late really took a toll on me.. zzzzzzzzzzz hopefully tmr can just pull through the day.... dreads it.. but yeah.. what to do....

=/ don u just.. u know.. sometimes have the feeling of wanna discuss something..but afraid to do so.. that sucks isn it... tch..like.. u wanna know some answer.. but.. afraid to know.. and afraid to ask.... cos u got this bad vibe about the answer.. yea... =/

haiyo.. just don feel like its my day.. im so sleepy.. no mood to talk =/ haiz

oh.. sam was saying he msg me alot.. but we both couldnt receive anything.. =/ dunn owhats the reason.. when i msg him at night, he still got it.. so.. yeah.. o well..

argh.. me still no read even a page of my book .grr... so gonna compromise my time!!

hm.. talked to sam about thinking of paying him a visit.. thought of even at least for a couple of days.. k,. see the good parts first.. erm.. he holiday.its my birthday month. we see each other in less than a year's time,which is a very good ting for ldr. plus.. say if cant make it.. i was wondering.. if im really to get a 3 weeks off on jan.. thats one thing.. another is.. after spending all my leave in jan 2011, i wouldn have any left. and its only at the beginning of the starting year. hm.. thats all so far.. so yeah.. i couldnt tell what is possible or not.. cos.. my managers they took their leave recently.. and.. its only about.. 4 days or so?
well, anyway... me just see how things go.. and what days sam is free.. after that. .gonna start to think or plan ba..

hm.. well.... gotta clear my head a lil i guess... cant wait to hit the sack.
=/ if u ask me if the weekend's good... i have to say.. im not sure.. its a different one..

mata

Think About What You've Lost

tired day.. chill out is good.. but not as good as the other night... anyway.. gosh. .im soooo tired... was waiting for my fren so long=( o well.. anyway... glad its over now.. glad tmr my off day..
never receive any msgs from sammy.. =( dunno.. could it be so called reception prob again or what. .haiz... o well...=/

hm.. -_- my eyes are gonna close soon.... gosh.. wow. .late already ne...
oh.. good thing me last min still able to get a pressy for my fren. haha..
she wanted an egg hunt for tmr. but. .ha.. i heard all the easter eggs sold outXD but she's checking out ntuc tmr or something.

haiz.... abit slpy ba.. plus tired... tmr can rest.. so yea.. good...

lets see... ...hmm... me and sam.. tonight no web movie date... but.. we gained something else.. by sacrificing that, we gained leisure from frens.
u get what i mean?
u always loses something when u gained something else. it happens all 24/7... its kinda amazing.. but.. yeah... well, i like to look at that point of view sometimes.. its kinda.. yeah.. good. ha. cos its true.
what have u lost by gaining something today?

i hope.. sam's tummy will be alrite.. especially in night or by morning tmr... yeah.. from the chocos he ate.. hope he's ok....

hm.. o well.. nothing much to talk about... i guess.. i'll talk tmr then... cant think much for now..

mata

My Part Of Life

sammy.. did talk more about his day now.. =) which is good.. i can imagine how his day is like..and stuff. but.. i just hope he's comfortable with talking about it.. otherwise.. yeah.. no use right...

sleepy... huu.. gosh.. so late=/ not gonna have much slp.. o well.. finally.. final day to go. hang on till evening!!

morning.. me wakey.. go work.. feeling energetic.. and relax abit.. thinking like. .wow.. how come energy so good. haha... then.... by late evening, =.= slpy already.lol. typicalXD
but anyway, its good to destress a lil.. o well...

last night.. met my frens.. long time no see also.. my birthday fren also know them. all knew each other. long story.. anyway, yeah.. but such a waste.. couldnt hang out together =/ cos already bought movie tickets.. haiz....

i believe sam.. so for certain matters.. i know that a girl may misinterpret it.. so me...always tries hard not to head for that.
and.. well.. i hope im doing a good job. ha..

gosh.. i miss him.. everything.. everything.. just WONT ever feel right without him around. even while watching a live band performing.. u know... =/ laughing is one matter.. missing something is another... it wont feel the same.. wont be so.. 'happy'. get what i mean?

he's a part of me.. of course naturally.. no matter what i do.. i';ll always feel.... yeah....
wont be complete.. or wont be completely happy.. that kinda thing.. but.. he's always in my heart no matter what i do, where i go.. every sec..

hay.. k.. i gtg.. hair haven dry.. but i think its so late.. tmr gonna be looking like a zombie. ha.

mata!

Happy Easter Day

ok. i shall make this a real quick and short one.

as i just got back, and drying my hair. otherwise don wanna blog..

erm.. so.. ytd.. movie date was canceled. so.. just chat alot ba..
erm.. today.. after work went out.. treat my fren dinner... cos yeah.. belated birthday. another coming up too.. erm.. what else.... ...hm............ oh yeah.. thought.. kinda like regretted to go out.. cos tired abit also.. but then.. me.. not used to the loneliness in the house when sammy aint home.. what if bro aint home too.. anyway.. whats done been done.. so... was out... and.. aint such a bad night. .still./. wishes sam is here... glad he's slping soundly now... and safe. =)
erm.. so yeah.. been so long never catch a midnight movie.. its good.. last time i watched was last year. if minus the australia trip.. so yeah..
hm.. headache all day ba... after shower felt better..

tmr.. haiz.. dread it. have 20% off.. plus! its public holiday...................... =.= gonna be so... BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! definitely3... sigh.. busy. =( somemore... me slpt late now.. plus.. yeah.. gonna be hell tmr. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... i thoguht start at 1pm. .to my dismay, its 12pm!! T_T
baka desu... haiz. .hang on!!! what to do... 2 dasy to go! yosh!!!

argh.. was sick of eating breads.. =( lunchtime also never finish it up..

mata