Just Rest!

hmm.. just sang a couple of jap songs.. had an urge to do it. .and yeah.. it helps to destress abit. i mean.. just sing it out. .let it out.. i don wanna lose touch with my singing..

today.. just rest.. online.. tv abit. .basically online.. and yeah.. jst sit. .and rest. .as much as i possible can.. cos im preparing for 6 days full shifts. .=/ i gotta chilled in between though.. will see how.. if not. .i dunno how can i get past 6 days of full with just wokr online and slp.. anyway , yeah.. shall see.. but i think yeah.. i should hang out with my frens for abit one of these days. .just talk and laugh or something.. oh well..

hm.. what else oh.. relly wanna cook somehting today. =/ but bro not home.. so yeah.. cant cook.. perhaps see tmr how huh.. o well..

erm.. oh.. theres this interesting thingy.. my workplace.. we have our own website.. shop website.. where. .like. staffs liek us, could online,. and read up posts.. and stuffs given by other staff around australia.. say.. my shop is all around in aussie.. so ard there i could read up on what they say about tips.. work.. and even got the shops info of each staffs! mine havne pop up cos im stil under probation. need to be 3 months first. then i read up on my frens info.. hahaha... like. .basic infos on them.. then some of my colleagues got post their pics too XD its cool! becos from aust, they might've never been to sg.. they can just read our infos, and know who's working here.. and we likewise. haha.. its cool... if im in aust again, i just cant wait to see the shop. perhaps might be able to say hi eh? lol. my colleague went to melb.. i think she went into the shop.. but didint get to meet the boss.. cos big boss is very busy! o well..
yup.. i hope my info file will get up there soon. and be part of their team. hope my probation all ends well.

hm........... if wanna say theres any downside for todya.. i would've say its.. sam told me his mum doesnt like him to stay up late chatting... at first i was upset.. but i know.. a son gotta listen to his mum if she's right... so.. i stand back.. sort of.. 'alone corner' is what i'll called it.. i knew it.. so i search for it.. yes.. htere... if my son is doing the same thing.. how would i react... then... yeha.. i knew my answer. .just wanna double confirm.. cos it was all too sudden. caught ,e a lil' off guard htere. and felt abit sad.. then.. yeah.. am ok now... i would've reacted the same way.. worry for his health and stuff.. i.. might've said the same thing to him too.. 'go slp.. its late.. u got school''... but.. =(... sigh.. i cant bring myself to use those words.. for its hurting me if i use it.. becos i don wan him to go.. i cant lie to myself and hurt myself.. so.. i dont ever tell him to slp.. unless its ridiculously late.. or.. he's really slpy.. and.. something like.. long story. anyway yeah... me huggie him in slp now.... huu....

hm.. wonder if i missed out on anything.. =/ o well..nights peeps! thx for reading up yo

mata ashita na!

Im On Fire!

yay... after receiving sam's msg, ha.. me fell aslp again.. then dreamt of him.. ^^ naw... me gib him his fav kissy look.. then he dun wan gib.. me that time felt like its cos ppl were around.. then he kissy.. then another kissy on my head.. XD naw!! surprise kissy desuuuu~! hehe.. i remember i was so happy. =) aw.... its so nice to kissy him.. hehe. ^^

wow.. finally the day is over.. its kidna fast.. i like it. today.. i dunno why.. but.. customers are willing to buy, and theres quite alot of them.. so yup.. very busy.. and din have much time to ponder about stuffs.. nor the time.
so yup.. good.

ha. sometimes i'll stare into space for a while. .then this couple me served just now, was like waving at me and saying goodbye to me.. then me didnt realized!XD cos was staring outta nowhere.. like freezed! haha.. then they were laughing.. so did I..XD its funny. ha...
i must've been looking like a statue huh.. XD

today.. sabrina say i was on fire. and hope to see me continue htat when i get back to work. lol. i dunno why.. hm.. i think ne.. maybe its becos.. one thing, theres alot of customers for e to do business wiht, interact with.. another, cos sabrina is there.. and she's the type of person who'll push for good sales.. so i feel at ease working with her.. unlike other stuffs. .just stand and not much talking.. =/ makes me feel 'down' too... so yup.. together, power.. yeah.. sales hit the target, and hit more extras too. =) haha. yeah.. my day improved today. =) perhaps thats why im feeling kidna relax now i guess... haha.

ohhhh just recalled.. my book!XD hm.. if theres a couple of mins left, i would love to read it later.. yup.. before i slp.. though slpy now.. but yeah..
jsut read ba. if not never finish. and im gonna make sure i memorise them
hm.. suddenly i feel like cooking.. well, cant wait for a new day.

mata!

Not A So Good Day

2nd day of working after off, ha. .very tired indeed.. hm.. not a good day for me.. =(
tch... sigh..

oh.. ytd theres this nice angmoh man.. we chatted abit while he's making his payment.. he bought a something.. then add another lvoe card. .said for his wife.. she should be happy when she's back from holiday. aww.. .so swt right.. ^^ then ask if this is my weekend job.. i say no. . then he say well, he's working on weekends too.. just to make me feel better. yea. he told me that. and taught me to look at it in a better way. .yes.. im standing and working on weekend.. but take it as like im saving money too.. instead of walking ard and spending it. then he walk off, and wink. lol. not bad huh. .so swt to his wife.

today, at night.. i noticed theres 2 man standing at the front of our shop.. erm.. how to say.. they're those ppl workign under the mall. and giving directions.. then they turn their heads ard, like looking in our shop direction. i dunno if thye're looking at me. so me look away just in case.
then me closing dorr time.. one of them came up to me and ask wha time shop close. i say about 10. but haven 10 yet.. so i was wondering.. gosh.. would it be ok?.. then he ask me.. am i local?? =.='''''' he say i don look like singaporean. ....... dots.............. what the.. why ppl keep saying that. =.= i dont look like one?? geez..........

hm.. so.. =/ well.. i got 6 full straight shifts to hold on to... gotta stand.. and.. yea.. wil lhang on as much as i can.. o well... ...haiz....................
=/

k then.. shall stop here.. just.. not my day today...

sometimes feels like.. as though my routine of life.. got stuck in a way.. was wondering if..i could add some nice new balance to it... otherwise its gonna stuck like this...and.. i dunno.. if thats a good thing.. well.. i do go out with my frens once in a while.. but.. not much time being spent with them though..

oh.. was thinking the other day... before i met sam, my life was in a mess. then.. .everything fall into place.. then he left.. then i guess i just realized that.. i think i was in abit of confused mess again.. kinda.. then.. i see him.. then.. i forgot.. was kinda on teh right tracks..? tehn.. now. ...hm.. no mess yet i think.. cant say for sure..

was reading this mag today.. where they teach u how to tell guys are cheating. then........... a couple of hte guys was saying they kiss another girl at a party, or they almost kiss another girl from workplace.. then thigns aint the same again with their gf.
i was like. .wth... like......... wthh??????
freaking jerks if u ask me!!!! they deserve to get dump.
but yeah.. its.. disturbing.. =/ and i wonder why all the guys have the same signs after they cheated. becos they're all male humans?

my stomach aint feeling good. .since last night. .think had a full tummy thats why.. forgot. .i shouldnt eat lots when slping.. =/
then mrg wakey.. also tummy not good.. =/

me slpt early. .feels so tired.. morning wakey also tired. .body like.. so weak or something..

now. .very tired too. .leg hurts.. slpy..

i think me got alot of aftnoon shifts cos my manager wanna train and make sure i know how to do closing... hte email boss and stuff.. o well.. sigh.. nvm ba.. just ganbate...

hm.... *pouts o well.. me try not to think of anything yet.. just concentrate on getting towards off day.. one day to go peeps.. huu...

hang on!!!

mata

Memory Photos

wow.. haha.. am i starting to get nervous? yeah.. im opening the shop with no one to help tmr.. gosh.. i can do this... gotta do a good job!! ok.. keeping my fingers crossed...

oh.. that day dunno what happen.. sam had a bad bad headache.. =( wow.. i can imagine that.. it sux to have a headache.. and cant do anything with it on.. glad he's fine now..

we talk late.. im glad we still get to talk with him.. last night and tonight.. yeah just skype with him..
it was nice=) and yeah at the same time i was going through the photos we took in sydney.. argh.. wishing if only we took more pics together!! if i ever see him again, i dont care how outsider think or look. im so gonna stop in the middle of street, or anywhere, and take pic with him. hmph.
then yeha.. was like.. aw.... so sweet.. the way we kissy each other, and say i love u.. its sooo affectionate.. =) i didnt know we look like that.. usually when i see couples behaving closely, i'll be like. .aww.. so sweet... so nice.. but i didnt realized i have the best ever partner with me...who always make others envy. yeah.. im pretty confident alot of ppl envy us.. ha. just like i did with other ppl.XD so yup... aww... just so sweet.. if only the video is in my phone.. aww.... ^^ we should really take more vids.. hee. i like the way we behave so affectionately and very happy. happiness is written all over our faces. =)

met a new colleague the other day.. she was telling me how sabrina is very lucky.. and got another job she dreamed of.. we were tlaking about how bubbly and happy she always seem.. then yeah.. she told me.. yes.. she found another new job.. at first she didnt know if she should go for it. .then my colleague tell her to go for it! and yeah.. she did.. she's gonna live in a small town. cos her fiance was from a small town in new zealand. so yeah.. its not a happening place.. yet i can tell.. its a small town with nice ppl .. peaceful.. and with a nice husband to be.. and with a brand new job she like.. its everything she wanted. yeah.. im happy for my manager.. seriously.. professional. i like the way she work. gosh.. gonna miss her when she's gone. but. she did say she'll be back in sg. so yeah. i hope so...
aww... envy her abit... ha.. with a husband.. new job, and living in a peaceful small town.. thats what i would like too.. instead of busy dangerous nightlife place.. no.. i'll rather choose a peaceful one. =)work, then home. .then cook.. and enjoy life with ur life partner. ^^ aww............ sweet. thats nice life =)
lucky her.. im glad thigns turn out the way it is for her... really. she deserve it.

hm. .morning.. me wakey early.. thought sam online already.. but haven.. so yeah.. hm.. went to have lunch outside.., walk ntuc abit.. then.. abit tired to cook.. cos me very slpy. been slping at 3plus. =/ last night.. also cant slp.. then watched videos of sam with me.. then got all eyes teary. ha. o well....
then found out he also lookey at our pics at night.. im glad i uses his phone to take pics of me.. i didnt do it cos i wanna look how pretty or how i dress.. its becos i knew i'll be gone.. then at night he's slping, he can always have a look at my pics.......... thats, my motive.
but.. liek i said.. haiyo.. i dont feel its enough... really regret man.. oh and some stuffs i never get in sydneyT_T i saw it, bt never get.. ha.. o well...

u know.. for july, i really wish to go.. i talked to my mum abou it.. i thought she'll say ok.. but like sam.. she said the same thing.. she tell me dont go.. if for 2 weeks at least still worth it. but for one week only, waste a few hundred bucks like.. yeah.. not worth it.. ask me to see him in webcam can alreayd.. i know.. i definitely know what they are tlaking about.
but.
sometimes.. its difficult to explain how i feel... yeah webcam.. still. .u'll yearn to feel the person in touch right?... and... sigh... i really wanna make more memories with him...
well.. we shall see how thigns go.. hopefully the natas fair will have something good too.. ..

ha.. like.. me feel like taking alot of pics now... cos just watched finish the movie shutter. by the hollywood version. theres this part.. the guy say.. ''forget about work.. i will quit this job. .and look for another one. I will Not RIsk you.'' as in not risk losing her. aww.... so sweet right.. =) thats the man.. the what i might called the perfect man.... =)

hm.. u know....... i really still prefer the old of of how u print out the photos... get the film, and print them out. hm.. well.. still can do it with digital cam.. ha. .but yeah.. feels alot different..

hm=/ i know how sam feel.. we both hope that he can find a job soon.. well.. he's doing his best.. now im just praying there's still chances alongside.. or his emails will get a reply.. but usually.. alot of ppl dont really bother to check their emails about job vacancy.. if me relaly want it, will go into the shop and ask for it. otehrwise.. yeah. .email lots also no harms.. well.. lets just hope he'll walk past shops who need ppl... isnt it great if he can get a job at the mall near his house.. around 5mins only.. wow.
well, so yup.. slowly.. and steady.. he can make it.. even redz also took such a long time to find a job. sam becos he still got alot of things to do.. cant search everyday..

gosh.. still slpy.. k.. imma get ready for bed in abit.. may god watch over my love..

mata

Druken call

weird.. very weird indeed.. as though its predestined.. ha.. i wakey early, get ready early.. yet didnt realised about it till i saw a miss call in my phone.. i call back my shop.. turns out that one staff last min mc.. so i gotta reach shop earlier. and turns out that.. when i was ready to head out, its the right timing for me to reach early on time. weird.. very bizzare indeed.. haha... as though.... yeah.. funny right. .so weird.. such a super right timing..

lol.. my cousin contacted the other day.. ask wanna go drink anot.. now.. my bro say cant.. then he msg.. how about next day.. then my bro dont dare to msg back.. lol. my bro ar.. hahaha... so afraid he'll call back.XD lol. well, weird.. he last year say wanna call and ask us out for a drink , but didnt.. then this time, suddenly pop outXD hahaha...... so yeah.. my bro is shocked. XD lol. but me ok ba.. come to thin of it, i think he's the cousin we're kinda closer to. as for hte other cousins, (as well as other relatives,) i dont give a da**. seriously. i dont. i dont care at all. not one bit. but at least this cousin still can always joke ard.. and yeah. .talk abit about anything.. so i don mind.

erm.. tonight.. i was closing alone as a fulltimer.. but theres a partimer who know how to close properly.. so yeha.. im glad.. kinda.. yeah.. did it. .ha. slow, but ok.. just need to get the hang of it..

ok... letting go is kinda easy.. just gotta convince myself.. so far alrite.. still will shed a tear or 2 sometiems.. but try to convince myself otherwise..

yeah. .feel more relax abit.. so. yeah.. i hope to keep it this way.............

hm.. waiting for my turn to bath.. cnat wait.. i need to chill......... just now chilled out abit .. so yeha.. not bad.. relax a lil........... phew..

hm.. me need to get to ps.. well.. not tmr i gues.. sam will be back home..

was telling my colleagues.. weird.. the earth nwadasy.. for sg, see. .its been so warm all of a sudden!! then suddely pour oiut a heavy rain. =.= gosh.. very nuts indeed... outside too.. earthquakes here and there.. sigh.......

hopefully this earth of ours will hang on for abit more longer..

mata

Good Day

hm.. slept for an hour and half.. gosh.. felt so weird waking up.. like.. gosh.. perhaps my slping position? anyway, it aint comfy at all. hm. .wonder if i can fall aslp later or not .. abit warm.. so.. yeah.. kinda uncomfy.. cant wait for the rain again.. will be so cool... very cooling.. especially in the night if u're walking outside..

hahaha.,.. today really been good. never been this good. feels good =)
perhaps of the morning blog i wrote this morning. i felt like.. yea.. that should be what i should doing. .and focusing on.. so.. let go of it.. lighter.. and. .ha.. theres a very good news. my gm got fired already =) i know.. i didnt mean to sound bad.. but! he uses my code to give discounts, then keep giving discounts to his frens... and yea... finally... my manager sabrina, fired him =) i never talk to him at all. perhaps its my 6th sense? anyway, glad he's gone. now the shop should be better. i hope. ha. yeah. its good. =) he even ask the partimers to lie for him! that they bought the items, and not his frens who did it.

another good news.. kinda. we have a new manager! after sabrina is gone,(she still got around 5 weeks left =/ ) theres this new manager will b joining us.. seems like he handled alot of big erm.. jobs before. ha.. like in new york.. hongkong.. i dunno.. but he's very nice. and very friendly. but. .abit worried though.. =/ im afraid he's too nice, nicer than sabrina. that he wouldnt dare to take any action if anything like what the gm did happened again. =/thats the thing im worried most. i hope he can be very professional.... so.. yeah...

ah.. another thing.. quite alrite.. =) erm. i feel like more of a fulltimer now. ha. cos i got my own shop keys!! and then i started to do opening shop. like todya, i do it all on my own.. though my manager is with me. but this sunday, i'll be opening alone!! with only a partimer. and im the only one who knows what to do in morning.. gosh. i hope nothing messed up.. keeping my fingers crossed! ha..

u know.. i;ve encountered quite a few of those. jesus followers ppl... who'll come into shop. .and tlak about it with u.. then asking u to join.. then.. today. i was greeting customers as usual.. theres this angmog red hair blue eyes guy.. very blue eyes.. liek. he's a student here or something.. i randomly say hi to whoever i haven greeted.. but i didnt look at him straight.. i think he look up at me for abit.. then i walk closer to the counter, he came up to me, and say hi , how are u... blah3... i asked back the same thing.. then i knew i must stop talking already. cos i saw his shirt, theres this badge which says jesus something... then i was like. .oh.. dont tell me he's gonna start the jesus talk!! XD haha.. but he didnt which is good. he was telling me he's waiting for his fren. and i dunno why so many angmoh asked if im from singapore. =.= anyway yeah.. i say yes... then phew.. his another angmoh fren arrived, and ta-da! they left. phew.... good thing never start all these talks.. but yeah.. good thing my job hav ealot of angmoh customers. its nice to chat with them.

oh! and theres this uncle i served today, another angmoh.. but he's working in indonesia.. i served him.. he's a nice man.. then when he's leaving ,he thank me for the service i gave him. aww.... thats what i called a job satisfaction. and, its great.. cos my company is all about giving the customers 'world wide first class service'. and to inspire them..and wow them over with our services. yea.. thats our motto.. ha.
which is cool. i wanna be someone whom they can say to other frens or ppl they know.. that i provided a great service there. =) isnt it nice? like say.. ''wow.. her service is very good. very nice''.

and so.. im gonna start do closing tmr night again.. hopefully i'll get the hang of it soon. then yeah.. can be a good fulltimer.. hm.. yeah. hopefully can do it professionally.. cos so far i did.. =) hm.. my fren good.. hm... other partimers.. they sometimes doesnt do so.. well, anyway sabrina gonna have a talk wiht them on sunday. see.. her off day u know.. thats why i say.. hopefully hte new manager will do it professionally like she does.. hope so..

Bubble Pops 2

oh.. i didnt mention huh.. this.. so.. tues night.. after work.. i went to slp first.. cos sammy was aslp alreayd.. so i left the comp on.. in my middle of the night, he online.. so.. chatted abit.. was slpy.. then.. he reminded me of the 2 days he supposed to head out..

then.. skip a part.. then.. me.. couldnt slp already.. was crying. i dunno.. perhaps im too sleepy that time or.. yeah.. not good. =/

u know... i dunno.. but perhaps im a girl who needs alot of love. and alot of care definitely. need alot of time with my partner. always hanging out with each other.. always in contact.

i felt as thought theres something i need to say.. but im not sure.. so .. bloggy abit now..
=/ abit not in the mood for work.. but i gotta pull it through and hang on til evening. so wanna get home..huu..

sigh.........

well2, trying to let it go. gotta have my own life now. perhaps i have not move on yet isit? i should learn now. situation i totally upside down now.. things wont go the same way..
its perhaps time for me to stop rejecting too. gotta have some fun eh

mata.