Loving each other no matter what

aww.. sam went to bed already...

me today only had one meal.. but then brought some food back home.. so me eat again.. full..
hm.. meeting.. ok ba. .me very slpy.. cos never slp at all..

whats past is past.. i dun wanna talk about it ba.. all i know and sure is, i love sammy alot.. and he feels the same.. and thats all it matters.. sometimes when u care too much about someone, something might happen.. but yeah.. learn mistakes, find solutions, and just get over it iguess.. .. as long as by the end of the day, he still love me..

so yea.. tmr all the best to him.. i mean later on... really hoping all the best for his exam.. he worked hard.. and i hope it pays off... so yeah.. whatver the results is, im still very prooud of him .=)

hm.. so. .yeah.. me very slpy and tire.. but just now play the wii tennies.. omg.. arms sure gonna hurt alot by tmr=/ o well.. bear for 6 days ba.

its nice to know.. that sam is on holiday now.. becos menaning when i get back home, he's there.. and he doesnt have to rush early to slp that often.. though.. he might still have to watch football.. so ya

give and take... hm...

u know.. its knida sad.. when he said hcos were a[art, he didnt knw what im thinking... it hurts abit.. but... cant blame him... but. yeah.. i thought.. he should be the one to understand me the most... so yeah...

anywya, hmm... im just letting things take its natural course now.. cant force anything... if antyhing unhappy about, either talk about it, or srugh it off. its better this way.. cos even if wanna talk, its aint face to face nor voices are there. .so.. its really difficult to communicate properly whenever theres important matter to discussed.. so yeah.. i understand that.. and.. will do my best to see what kind of solutions will suits best for the situations. .whatever can be hold back, just hol dit..

and.. was kinda shocked he uses the stubborn word on me again... sad.. but... o well. .cant blame him huh.. not like he's here.. and know what im doing.. how i;ve changed and stuff... i dunno..

dun wanna think of these now ba..

glad i get to hear his loving happy comfy voice beside he went to bed. but a poty my credit ran out.. haiyo.. however,. yeah... no matter what happen, all i wanna hear by the end of the day is the voice like his.. happy and comfy..
last night.. didnt get to hear it.. but.. yeah.. let it bypass eh..

so wish to see him.. i have lots of faith and hopes in him.. he's my man...
one year.. will pass quickyly eh.... ... huu

gos.. mish him so much now=(

k.. i'd beter dry my hair fast, and head to bed. i need plenty of rest! only had about less than 3 hours of rest when i came back from meeting.. so tired.. body gonna collaspe..

hm.. so yeah..
i pray.. this kind of thing wont happen again.. if i didnt get to slp whole day, i rather it be becos we're watching movie online together or chatting or sumtin..

yea.. someitmes its difficult.. cos all u see are words... thats why i say.. i really love it when he's on teh bed, then we get to concentrate on each other.. then we talk abou tlots of stuffs... its quite easy actually.. and talking about past.. future.. now.. and hear each others laughters.. before he slp is the best time to chat i think. cos he;s concentrating only on me...and nothing else.. =)

yeah.. o wel.. lets just hope the free skype for iphone could help us... but think might have to pay for the credits or dunno what.. hm.. wonde rif theres a free calling.. howver , at least theres the cheapest skype availabl;e. still go tmsn, and msging.. apps. but i think msg is better than msn in iphone.. msn.. someitme.s. o well.. u know.... =/

kk.. hm.. think i'd better stop here now..glad tmr mrg.. cant wait to get back home and see sam.. i mena chat. yup..cant wait..
hm.. dunno when will our movei date be.. =. my borthday ar.. so long ne.. o well

mata!

Pour In Somemore!

o well...=/

just blog roughly ba. .erm.. morning.. raining.. heavily.. didnt expect that'll causes a flood in town.
very weird.. the last it happened somewhere else is in 1984. o well.
anyway. its funny. at first i didnt take note of that. my fren was saying.. 'y is there a flood at orchard.. now i cant even get chocos from watson.' i thought menaing its flooded with ppl. as i din tka enote of hte word FLOOD> i took it as flooded with ppl kinda meaning.
then sam asked later on.. town got flood ar.. i was like.. oh, maybe his fb frens are tlaking about how crowded it is.. so i replied lucky me not working today. cos if theres lots of crowds, meaning shop ve very busy. so ya.. haha.. then he showed me the link to the pics.. and i was like.. o....k......... lol. so its a flood they were tlaking abt!XD all these while i never really thought much abt what flood.. ust naturally took it as humans crowds... haha.. flooded with ppl.. geez.. anywya, its the tlak of the town right now.
big news.but with sg kinda way, its gonna be back to normal in no time. i do not worry abt this at all. ppl are kinda happy and amused i think. ha. cos so rare this big news happened.

oh, its colddd.... haha. its nice. but i still on my fan. ha. open up the door, stand outside, if added with more wind blowing in, it'll be the excat kind of cold while i was in sydney. everywhere u go, once the wind blows, ha.. freezing.

i dun mind once in a while like this. its really nice. just nice the coldness it is... ah..

hm.. so.. my day.. mrg wakey to cold.. wakey so early. .tummy ache.. then couldnt slp no more.. online, sammy then just offline. sianz. ha. o well.. .then.. do my stuff.. then eat.. wanted to take a nap.. but thought.. wait what if sam online. .then i got no time to do my nails and stuff.. so decided to bath, then do nails.. for so long .. ha. good relaxing i guess. so ya.. then sam online jst when i was about done.
then... ya.. continue doing abit more.. then hungry.. then eat.. then online and stuff.. then while waiting for sam, me go do my remmaining stuff i was supposed to do long2 time ago. ha.

phew.. finally done.. just a couple more tasks to go.. which.. either tmr, or when im super free again.

not such a bad day i guess...
hm.. tmr meeting.. kinda looking forward to it, but kinda not too. o well.
ha.. so early.. seems like me gonna wakey early again eh

haiz.. stil lthinking abt the weekend of.f. only one.. =/ ...think3.. o well.. decided to put this off ba.. at least sam off for one month.. i mena july. so. .yeah.. my off stil lcan spend withhim.. but.. me gotta work all month in 5 or 6 full.. whcih is very.. ha.. o well.. sianz. if next month theres anything else, then i'll voice out ba. o well.. always giv me so many shifts stuck togethr.. 2 straight off is good.. but.. ..o well.. tiring ar.. =/

hm... k.. next month.. me tell myself gona start saving up.. gosh.. dunno ba. .mayeb stress lots or sumtin.. anyway, ya.. gonna watch what im spending on nw.. wish me kluck.. i hope to save for phone first.. then tickets.. since trip is so long way to go. so ya. .i cant stand my phone alreayd.. somemore no space alrady=/ sigh.

i need memory space!! gosh... been taking too much pics.ha. o well

hm. .been long since i have an off day like thsi ne.. .. not say perfect.. almost.. but not.. yet its still kinda nice. hm.. ... o well.... not so nice at ngiht.. but still... ya.. better than nothing..

o well.. after tmr, back to 6 shifts.. haiz. .hang on3......

sianz.. at the htought of 6 shifts.. o well...

was so nice to hear him say.. darling.. he going to bath.. how swt that word darling is.
after that everything changed.
thought i wouldnt cry today.. but i still did. o well..

i wonder.. up till now, does my way of doing thngs.. still couldnt be understood?.. even through times of reminding..and.. o well, i guess.. as the situation seems,. i relaly didnt make much of any impression.. at least not a deep one for sure...

oh, recorded 2 videos for sam. but one of them coldnt be send. th eother one..can.. but didnt send. cos.. those 2 are kinda linked together.. so ya..

hm... k ba... dun wanna talk alreyad... oh.. 21st seems to be near. .very fast it'll arrive.. so nice ne.. going back to her hometown...... sweden........ with her family... gosh.. when will i have that kind of relaxing days again.. oh.. maybe in a year's time. but definitely wont be for long. huu.. no money mah

i remembered meeting weeks ago, it was good.. i was enjoying it.. hopefully tmr also ba.. just everyhing goes well.. and im feeling happy. i hope i am.

k.. perhaps shall slp soon...

mata ne

Very Cute and Funny Girl

leggie tired... ha. .o well.. finally off.. was hungry.. thought of eating.. but then too late now.. so ya.. o well... nvm ba.. i think et some slp is better ba. hm... craving for soup noodles now.. haha.. o well

erm.. ok.. so.. today i found out htat sabrina when describing about us to the new partimer, she refer me as 'pauline is very cute and funny'. XD lol.. i was like.. awww.... thats so sweet! she actually said that! but. i have no idea what had i done to make her hink im funny XD> i have no clues at all! cos usually i don dare to joke with her much.. as yea.. she's a pro manager.. so.. everything is abou twork..most of hte time. so.. yea. didnt get how she find me funny. XD but thats a good thing eh.

july schedule.. gosh.. gonna be either 5 shifts straight in a row, or 6. glups... and only one wkend off=/ o well... thought of telling my manager to change..hen like. .hm.. not nice ba.. last month i also voice out laio.. then.. yea.. anyway july sammy wkdays will be at home too.. thst why i never voice out ba.
plus.. its kinda nice to have 2 straight offs. only hard to bear part is the 5 or 6 straight shifts.. ha. o well..
tmr.. so gonna make use of my day to rest.. but couldnt slp too late i guess. cos have a meeting. o well.
everyone is attending the meeting for he first time. ha. cos have free drinks mah. starbucks! today was craving for it. but didnt buy. cos expensive. alreyad spend so much on a plate of nasi padang =/ cos didnt feel like walking all hte way to outside and eat.long story ba.

anyway, kinda looking forward to the meeting.. hm.. ...
o well... lets jus concentrate on tmr ba. may i have a nice enjoyable day tmr. yay. cheers. gonna do my nails tmr^^ hehe. hope will have ime for it. so much things i left undone yet. geez.

kk, will be ne.

hm.. certain thing si never ask.. but.. hopefully the other party..wont get the wrong idea that i do not care ba..

mata ne!

Fruitful Trip

finally! tmr aftnoon shift, so i could replenish my neergy. haha.

hm... somehow i htink im supposed to blog abt something.. =/ but.. as my memory is failing me,(kinda) i couldnt remember ne... haiyo.... o well.....

hm.. today.. slpy as usual.. but good thing i got htings to do.. os yup.. kept me awake for abit.. hm..
breaktime me slp for half an hour also...

thats about it ba.. ha. boring day. but alrite. hm.. schedule. wonder if its gonna be out by tmr.. cant wait to see it.. at the same time, wondering how it would turn out.. ha. o well..

hm.. interesting way eh.. catching world cup thorugh internet led by sammy. ha.. tlaking with him while he watches.. =P

u know, he's right. i feel comfortable about doing anything with him. he's my other half. when i visited him in sydney, alot changed. good changes. i realized.. i didnt know i could be so comfortable and whats that call.. hm... like.. i dunno.. ha. it feels just so right ba.. to do anythig in front of him. which i never imagien i could! nice surprise. down moments.. hm.. thought he changed abit. .cos we're having cold shoulders=/ i seriously thought he'd changed, and doesnt lov eme that much anymore. ha.. i know.. baka ne..
but also learned the ways to compromise.. to love.. msut communicate well.. a trip back, it seems as though i know him for yearsssssssssssssss..... serious. like theres this book, about love queztions.. i read it before i went there. and i wasnt so sure about the answers.. but after i got back, i read it again, and the questions (about one's partner) seem so easy like 123 to me. O.o i was like.. o..k... how did i suddenly feel so confident. lol. XD hard to explain ba. but yeah... im so glad i made the worthful fruitful trip. only regret is i blame myself i didnt take enough pics with him, and i loses my cool soemtiems. yeah.. and things were kinda rush.. and we were exhausted.. so.. next time me go there, gonna make sure everything is all good. slowly we shall go.. no rushing anywhere.. just walking slowly with him even to supermarket, or malls, will do great. cos i m with him, that time so rush.. i think htats becos i;ve never been to anywhere beside sg. somemore i presume i would never get a chance to go there again.. so i didnnt wanna have any regrets of not going to somewhere. well, now i know.. theres still chance.. but. its a very3 very longggg chance to come by.. uh huh..=/ thats really the downside man... o well.. what to do.. mmoney is difficult to save=/

o well.. .... as much as i would like to head there soon, i know tiem and my finance wont allow to make things go fast.. somemore gottta wait till he's on holiday .
for now, just kinda force.. u know.. step back.. even if i dont wish to.. but gotta...
just step back.. save money for phone.. then a cam.. a normal cam would do. cos iphone cam sux!! XD erm.. yeah.. then next should be the trip .. that is, if really july he got nothing on..and he really have a month of holiday again. on the same month. ha. so yup.

gosh.. me got nothing els eto do on net now.. hm.. maybe will read mag.. or go sit down.. rest my leg.... uh huh..

hmm... =/ wondering ne.. what else to say.. i thoguht htere should be somethng to say here.. .hmm... -_-... couldnt rememebr.. ha. o well. =P

aw.. so wish i off on sun.. so sat night could stay up and watch football with sam.. its great... but sigh.. i was working.. =/

mata!

Off, where are thou!

aw.. sam say im funny. and i make him laugh. that meant soo much to me. i didnt know that.. but yea.. =) its great to hear him say that. ^^ i wonder how i make him laugh.. how im funny to him.. ha. sometimes me blur2, could make him laugh. aw=P

oh, ha.. he;'s waking up in abit.. o well.. wonder if im gonna be slping by then.

was so slpy just now.. while waiting for sammy;s reply, me reading through some apps.. then fell aslp!! then wanna slp, but scared the night would be over.. i knew i musnt slp yet.. then wakey.. bro is back. .sam haven reply.. me getting grouchy.. ha. cos just wokey mah.. then feel so irritated kinda.. ..
then.. yea. .wakey.. watch tv abit.. bro then play dvd.. and soon i felt better...

of course. stll feelnig slpy. i cant wait to slp. tmr mrg shift again.

my poor finger.. knock onto the wooden shelf.. blood gushes out.. small cut but deep.. a tiny bit piece of skin been sliced off.. ha. my colleague was like.. gonna faint. lol. then apply med for me.. andplaster. good thing have plaster. oh.. =. forgot to tell sam about this customer.

ha. erm.. middle age man i think. after payment, suddenly ask me if my pendant is a bear. i say no.. its wombat. then he ask if i've been to australia.. i say yes.. and i like wombats. ha. .then he still stand there. i straight away say, ok, hope to see you again in our shop soon.! then i say bye. lol. otherwise im thinking if he's ever gonna leave. =.= he's not from usa.. sounded as though from france or.. dunno.. that kind of accent.. english not that good.. but he;s holding a sg blue nets card.. so i presume he's living here as well like many others before him.

its really nice when u hear that those customers from afar(excluding china, philippine,india,malaysia..) like our country so much. its an honour. cos they are from palces where theres high towers, mountains,.. blah3.. yet they love it here. so yea its relaly great. always glad to hear they love it here =)
its still kinda.. abit.. i dunno.. weird.. how sg is so different now? from all these foreigners coming in.. its like.. nice.. but yet. .ha. .so.. erm.. refreshingly weird? XD now we have all sorts of ppl in sg.. from all over the world. yea... erm.. black ppl rarely see them live here.. but yeah. thata about it. ha .but we do haveblack customers. they are cool. some are very frenly. while others, look totally so stuck up. -_-

hm. k enuff about htat.. waht else.. .gosh.. i gotta plan my time eh.. oh!!! on the 21st, im gonna have breakfast with kristina and paul and axel!! gosh.. im gonna be soo onervous to see her. im happy of c ourse. cos its like.. wow.. i finally get to see this super wonder woman. =) awesome. so wan her autograph.lol

nah.. o well.. .o.. cant wait for wed. .huu.. tehn... gonanbe another 6 shifts again=/ haiz... tired.

oh, oh no... it turns out that sam is free on my b;day. =/ sigh.. tch.. o well.. i just send an email to my manager.. ..i hope she will receive it.. and could make some changes to it.. abit troublesome ba.. not ncie.. but.. o well... just do it ba..
hm.. hope can change ne.. movie on my b;day.. duno hows it gonan be.. maybe will decorate my house first? lol.. XD then.. watch early movie.. then night can eat cake , sing b;day song with family ba... o well..

so sad huh.. if only i have enough money.. then july.. cna go see sam liao.. bt then again, my leaves isnt 2weeks as i just started. o well. dunno how to count ba. ha

mata ne

What Days?

sianz... =.= now then the internet back to normal.. .haiz... so slow since ytd!!

anyway.. today.. =( bad day ba.. o well.. dunno how to tlak about it..

was good.. wakey.. then.. chat.. then sammy ask about should get a pet or child first.. when i ask about names..hen found out he's going for dinner.. then my dad wanna go out..
then.. me doesnt feel like going out.. cos was thnking if swty didnt have to study so much today, wanna watch shrek with him.. then.. since everyone is going ou. .so i no choice. .i go along too.. otherwise will be all alone at home. sigh.. worse. .so me go out.. bene pulling a long face. .somehow the aftnoon passes so superfast... .. and when we're heading home, i realized its alreayd 7pm.. so fast.. a lil wasted i felt...

then got home.. still aint feeling any much better.. then saw sam's words in fb.. lets see.. don have to tell someone, oh who is btw, me, don have to tell anything, just type in fb and i can see. its alreayd hurtful enough for somebody to tell u once. and for the 2nd time round, ...ha.. u tell me.
=/
so.. o well.. he just read my msg in a different way.. and presuming im doing the same as him.. so.. yeah.. o well.. apparently i didnt. cos i dislike the way u found out somehting in fb. rather than the person to tell u. its not that big a deal, till when the matter is something important u think the person should share it, or tell u in person. personally that is.
am i wrong.

ha.. headache now..
..i think.. overall, i think im just having the most sensitive moment of the month.. i feel so neglected. very. but i understand.. this is all part ofthe process crucial exam period..so on..etc.. ya.. so ..anyway.. sam sounds kinda.. i dunno.. in tip top condition i guess. only after the misunderstanding part then.. =/ o well.. don wan him feel bad.. but. . ha.. o well, words kill.

..its a bad sat. sat supposed to be an enjoyable one. but.. o well....

..lets just wait till july is here, then we shall see.

oh, though of applying for leave during my birthday month. but.. sigh............................ =( dunno ar.. the manager ask me instead about my ot hours. i was like. .wth???? i dunn even know if i have any leaves, or whatever shoot.
forget it... sometimes things liek that i cant be bother. abit only anyway.. .just get it next year ba =(

sigh............... so freak up day eh.

ytd.. today.. i dunno.. i forgot my days.

sigh. .so full now. i dunno wanna slp anot. i cant slp.. im too full. drink alot, eat alot. gosh.. =/ nvm ba. .enjoy my sat abit more. .then go slp.. see how.
tmr mrg shift.. o well.

k ba. couldnt think of anything nice to type. oh wait. yeah. .the mrg part tlaking about the child and pet. thats a nice question. uh huh..

k.. me go watch bro play game. get out of my room ba.. =/

mata

Worldcup!!

ok. haven blog. was online searching stuffs. no time to do so. was too late. erm.. .so.. .ok... what happened ytd? gosh.. my memmroy aint that good. ha. .i think something happened.. i dunno

oh, i had dreams.. about sam i think. then today, i had weird dreams O.o like im in a movie. cept' that im a bad lady. lol.

oh yes.. football i guess? was just telling sam abou tthe 4years ago kinda hting.. gosh.. i like zidane soso much.. was so upset he kena outta hte field in that way. =/ boy if i find out the name who did that to him... =.= grrr.... anyway, sigh.. its very upsetting. he's a great man. much better than .. nah. forget it.
well, even though he retired alreayd, he played his last. sorry to end up that way, but ya . =(
that means alot to me.. i know.. been so long ago.. but yea.. its means so much. somemore he's a man i respected alot. do not know much about him. but kinda do. but ya... glad he's back home enjoying his days with his beautiful family. lovely wife and children. (unlike those disgusted football players who keep having flings outside=.=)
gosh.. still, i miss him for the worldcup man!!
so yup.. still feeling upset for him =/ weird ne. lol. but i guess, well, there isnt alot of ppl i respect in this world. so ya... erm i mena respect.. as in in a very.. really someone who deserves the respect form me. like. .what they done.. and stuff. ha. o well
hm.. and i didnt realized that till i come across sabrina, and kristina.. i mena.. yeah... i guess i respected about.. 5 or so.. ppl in my life. thast all? hahahaha... o well. anwyay, yup. i like that. meaning i hold htem highly in respect. so.. thast a good thing eh.

hm.....

i dunno.. what else... nothing much.. working was alrite. .quite cheery.. ont so bored. so thast good.
hm...

o well.. shall keep track of the football eh.

oh, gosh.. i cant waiwt to watch shrek again. lol. so gonna watch it again man.
ah.. watign for the dvd too. hahaha...

k, gonna settle my stuff. then check them out.

oh, i shall see if tonight there's anything to blog about. ;)

mata