Stress About Life

omg.. rush rushrush!!!!!~ been rushing since i got hmoe. online, change.. blah3.. managed to chat with sam for about 15 or less min s before he went to bed.. then bath.. oh.. settle my work before thta.. omg.. cos tmr meeting.. i nid slp!!!
after blog me gonna slp alreayd. onliune abit more. then ya. sory. spelling sucks. cos im so rushing top type. heck care if i type wrong. bear with me. u know how i always type. oops. =P

anywya.. today.. omg..... its wow.... it s that time of that month, and i had heavy flow last night. .and this mrg wokey feeling so wear .. cos blood drained outta me of course=,= so tired .. and i mean really very TIREDDDDDDDDD!!!!!! gosh!!
then at work.. no energy to serve pl. .but have to.. then work.. then luckily hang on til breka.. then eat. .better liao. .somemore daiso open gfinally!! woots!! but gonna be spending money. omg.. so dangerius =.='''
anyway, back to work after break.. felt better.. phew........
but still tired. and cos of menses, feeling down and stress=/ espeially seeing coupoles. .then reminded of how unhappy i am now=/.. haiz...... like yea. .just realsied this aint helping man. it sux. so yea.. me aint happy in life now=./ things missing.. u knwo.. =. i duno what to look forward someitmes.. that aside,  erm. .stress about work. .the review. .im scared me not good enough. .cos i have such hgh expectation of myself=/.. so yea.. afraid.. haiz.. so wish wed be over asap. =/

erm.. then...... yea.. just feeling sucky today=( stress and sad.. work and persoanl love life. .haiz....... sianz. time of month making me feel this way i think.


oh funny hting happened. ha. customer looking for sorry card. ask me got sell any sorry card anot? i reply 'no, im so sorry'. then we laughed. XD
funny right>> ha. .like.. so weird. me also didnt realised mah.. just reply that wya.. then sound funny..

erm.. last min got my regular customer drop by.. then yyay. .maanged to get him buy stuffs.. thiough closing hten drop bny, but good ba. .he at the end happy with our service or what, then gib us free chocolate form chocolat factory. yay!!! oeping soon at ion!!! woooah!!!! =D then i tell u.... omg.. its my fav chcocolate fomr now on. its soooo good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fabulous!!! now i have a favourite chocolate brand =) hehe. royce is good too. but its diff feel. hocolate factory taste like how a real creamy thick cocolate should taste like. i tell u. real chocolate should taste that way. dark is good. milk choco is good. omg... nice!!!! at firts me saw tthet card say great world city and oub plsu changi airport have.. now ion have too.. omg.. glad so.. but. .imagine if im outta ion =( sigh.. but save money though. ha. no nid face daiso and chocolate everyday.


manager was talking ot me. then mention he alreyad reported to hte regional manager in melbourne that he aleryad plan what to bring into the tm shop .. and whih staff to bring there. omg. i was like. .he never ask anyone of us whether we willing anot/?? huu.. but i understand him. .but still =( haiz.......
i got a strong felin gim gonna get kick out. .but i duno. i rather work in suntec. or changi airport though further. cos after all, tm.. haiz..so crowded, and big, and the bus to there.. so dark and dangerous. =( unless train. .but huu. .so far.. i duno. .if i reject, then they'll think i might not be able to hold up toany independable position in future. i duno. its  irritating. =(


k. .dun wan htink now. i duno wha to type in my form.. but.. i duno. .i just type whatever i.. u know. so. .im gonna go press send, and get this rock outta me!!!

erm. .k. .think thats all. sigh... i hope my off come soon. .and please let me have a good review.. =/ glad my fren got a good one.. haiz..


mata

Happier Times Lies In The Past

gosh... tha bra could kill me.. =.= my right side of shoulder keep on hurting.. so pain =( yea. .especially right side. i duno why =/
haiz... just use my  hand and massage.. what to do.. =/
oh, just now at interchange.. bus there.. theres this couple.. talk so loud beside me. somewhere the bf was actually snding her.. as in waiting for her to hop onto bus. =.= sianz... see that ne. .like .so wanna bash them up -_-..... argh.....................
o well.. what to do=( jus reminded of sam used to wait bus with me ..and send me home =(
he had a bad dream.. i think this is  the 2nd time. .same kind of bad dream.. but this time me cant hug him.. nor can he wakey, and come over my side and huggie.. =( =/ haiz.. sad ne.. if me also swear dun wan this type of dream =( very sad.. huuu... but think he should be able to get over it quickly ba.

day was so slow.. =/ sianz.. tmr .haiz... i dread tmr.. =/

..... didnt had any propoer dinner. .cos too many ppl.. well, explanatiions are long. so yea..

hm.. very thirsty.. throat so dry and uncomfy..
hm.. weird.. i think i forgot to say something here.. gosh.. i cant remmerb =/.
hmm.. o well. .nothing much to say alreyad i guess... tired. =/

oh now i remmebr!!! omg. memory sux. =(

wanted to say.... i was lookey through my pics from sydey.. suddenly feel happy abit. .cos remember all hte views, sam.. good times.. =) then i was in for a surprise.. ..i thought. .i was like. .how come i look so different in thse pics? seems to be the haircuts.. ... then... hm.. i duno.. perhaps it is.. but .. somehow.. i look so much happier then.. =(......
i duno... i wonder if i ever look that wya now... =;( sucks.. =/ ha.. thats why.. sometimes im afraid to look back at photos.. sure cry.. o well...... what to do.. =/
i guess... main potint is.. well.. i have more stress than then. cos.. lesser time to spend with someone.. and relax.. to go out with.. l;ook forward with.. so.. didnt have the past happy times to look foprward to ba.. always finish work.. can look forward to meeting him..eat..go out.. or what.. haiz..... so yea. tha kind of feeling.. but stresses aboiut work when me still in atz.. still.. thres my number support. him. so.. yea.. but htings doesnt make it any easier knowing he;s leaving one day... =/


feels so different.. =/ wish i could be happier.... .. haiz........
haiyo.. my shoulder still hurts... =/ sux..
gosh.. gonna be so tired.. hm.. me wakey still now.. .. but gald to be awake .. cos later slp, open eyes, gonna start work alreayd after couple of houirs=( and i dun liek that way. like.. my day never end like that. as though i tok 3 hours break or so, then back to work =/

yea.. ..so been long since i went out or take a break right?.. hm... o well. .see how ba.. sometimes i wonde rif im a super busy person or what.. like.. i duno.. i just don feel happy =/
last night sam said something so heartfelt touching =')
he say.. sometimes its like just by knowing im right there , he'll be  so happy going to slp.. or falling aslp.. yea.. =) so happy to hear that.. those words are priceless =) sobx..
sweeettttttttttt
tch.. yeah.. how can i slp everynight happily if he's aint with me.. oh.. i got an idea.. but... .. sigh. .wouldnt work well thogh =(.. could try to video call him when we slp.. then slp together. .leaving phone on till batt runs out.. or.. yea.. just kinda cu tit off by itself...
but. .=/ we dont really get chances where we'll go to bed together.. so.. yea.. that might not happen.. but it'll be nice if its possibe eh.. lol. .i don think im gonna keep my eye shut though.. will watch him slp.. and then weeps.. XD ha.. o well. .what to do =P
haiz...
k.. time fo rme to slp eh...
tmr. .gonna be so rush. ..hm.. o well. .i hope time flies
...''if the way they love you isnt what u want it to be, doesnt mean they dont love u just as much..'' duno whats the excat words.. but read it somewhere... and.. yea.. i tihnk its good.. i mena... yea..

opposite attracts.. ha. indeed thats for our boss. and her partner. was talking about them to my colleague. she agrees too. 2 of them so different, yet.. .uh huh ^^
well, love knows no bounds. hehehe.
hm.. i think.... they shouldbe coming back to sg soon... yea.. cant wait to see them. ha.
gonna be so nervous all over again.. gosh.. plus my regional manager from melbourne.. should be coming ard.. sep> ? i duno .. should be.. gosh.. nervous.. hope things will go well.

hmm...... o well.... thats about it hten...
hmm........ work hard eh.. haiz.. oh.. these dasy wanna save also fail.. cos must buy useful stuffs.. =/ then expensive when u add up together.. o well.. next month will try harder ba. ..  haiz.....

hm.. cant wait for new phone ne...

o well.. slowly save up..... and.............. get the things i want. .cos i save hard.. and.. .may the biggest prize be unfolding itself in the time fututre ahead..  i... o well. who know shwat gonna happen.. just.... try to save as much ba =/
mata

Tight Week

omg... mornign didnt slpt well... so feeling tired and slpy.. but good thing towards aftnnon, alot of customers, and big sales to keep me busy.. so yea. .its good. =)
been long since this hapened.
anywya, was in bus omw home. .then me fell aslp.. wakey, and found htat my head nearly rested upon htis guy's shoulder beside me!! omg.. i tell u.. huu.. nooooooooooooo ~! me dun wan sia!!  gosh.. hope i wont see that man at the interchange ever again . dotsss

oh.. sorry last night no blog. dunno wat to blog. .tired also.. =/ so yea..
today i felt beter.. throat. .moring gib me prob abit. .but now better..

hm.. im slpy. -_- haiyo.. duno wha to blog about.. hmm.. forgot ne..
o well... .....

ohhh.. hopefully the starhub will bring in the samsung gs phone soon. they say if all things goes well, should be september. they ask ppl to wait a little longer only. so yup.. im guessings hould be fine. gosh, they'd better gib better deals than singtel!
yea.. hope they will ne.

4 days to go.. right after work, reach home. .then me start working on my work stuff again. well. .about done i say.. but. .yea.. hm......

anywya, only these future days ahead is gonna be tight and tiring.. =/ but im gonna pull through it ne.. gambate!!

tch.. miss sam so much.. love him so much.. huuuu.. i wish i could go visit him =(
....haiz...........
my day will come right..? may aug be over asap... =/
then sep. .then oct.. then.. 2 months to go before it ends.. yea. .nov and dec shld be fast eh?>. i hope.. cos gona be busy like mad.. omg. .and plus the opening of new shopO.o.. gosh... cant believe this. .one month to go...

hmm.. =/ k ba. .i wanan rest and destress abit..

mata ne...

my sensitive nose

so tired....
sigh.. im so tired..
oh.. took mc.. =(
my manager best fren is coming over for one week.. just to visit her.. im so envious... ='(
i wish i could be happy like her.................. =(
oh.. sam finally tested out the galaxy phone.. i knew it was good.. so yea.. glad he tested it out finally, and end up liking it. well. .seems like. .he gota decide on plan s eh.. not too sure how the plans there work.. but yea.. .sighes..
i wish i am next to him..
i still rememebr how he llooks.. hoiw he talks .. how he ignored me.. how he was angry at me.. how he love me.. its gonna be a long time before we meet again.. im so scared....  thigns may will change(i hope not)... but faith.. and trust.. are the keywords..
without  it, we're nothing..
not say totally nothing.. but yea. u know wha i mena..
\he's my first love.. one whom i treasured alot....
i dun care how many guys out there is trying to get me. becos all i ever want is to have him by my side.. ='(
today.. me went to see doc.. huuu... all the memories that i had.. was hte only memory that i had with him.. he accompany with me to doc.. thast is.. i couldnt rememebr anythign else=/... today. i waited alone.. i see doc alone.. and thoguht i didnt have a high fever.. but doc say i have,... i was like.. gosh.. i din know that =(  i din know that i have such fever dude =/.... my house's thermometer suckxs.. =/
i din kbnow i had fevers before.. so many times. =(
sigh.....................................
however i survide.. but.. yea.. with a rpice that is.
its tough.. but i gotta do it... ...
tmr. .i  mc. i rarely mc.. only when i couldnt take it anymore, and when theres ppl to cover me, then i will take mc.
but i still don like it.. =/
im so scared....
my future to happiness is so far-away..... no one is gonna know whats gonna happen. .3 yrs? 5 yrs? or even 10 yrs in the future...  FUTURE... that is frightening..indeed...
are u afraid of ur own future??
its what makes us move us.. but at hte same time.. its frightening us to move on...
u gotta knw for sure what u are into.. for there might not be turning backs yea..
i love salim..
and it pains me everyday not being able to stay by his side..
but... some things.. u cant get it for granted...  listen peeps... that is important...
very =/
if ur partner is beside u now, slping or what, look at him  or her... give a kiss.... and wakey them softly.. tell them.. look into their eyes. .say it and mean it.. that u love them dearly..as ur life... some words.. simple as it might seem.. Mushy as it might be...
it can be a very powerful tool. powerful force.. to keep them with you.
let your feelings known.. Be known...............................
do not regret spending not enough time.. nor never say what u got to say when u have the time to..
tell them.. you love them..
oh wow.. by this time. i should be aslp by now..
but.. tonight is a lil' weird.. i couldnt slp.. not really..................................
u know.. my mucus is as sticky as glue now?? =/ haiz.........
i dun feel well.. doc say i have fever =(((( and.. i din expect that seriously ... =( and.. i so wish sam is here with me.. i could only remember him bringing me to doc='( as in my only vivd memory of going to doc is with him.
anyway... ... haiz...
i dunm feel so good right now=(..............
hm.............. ....  oh yea.. bored.. =/ nothign to do much whole day.. sick and tired to do so..
nothign much..
me so full now.. haiz... =/
k.. im tire.d.. i dun wanna talkno more..
mata

3rd Day Sniff

phew.. finally after night.. nose started to stop its dripping.. but stil lstucked.. andim feeling so tired and weak now =/ wanna go out today.. but i couldnt. i was so sick feeling that wya when i wokey in mrg.=(
online.. then blah3.. forgot to eat and take med.. cos online and didnt feel my hunger at all. i dont feel hugnry when im too sick=/
then make porridge.. mum not back. .she thoght i was at work.. so me cooked porridge.. watch tv. .. the whole image sounded like a poor girl scene eh? dots... but yea. .anyway.. bath.. online.. then sam showed up when i needed to ask him things badly. or tell him stuff.so yea .i did. which is great.. hm.. then drank  pleanty of water.. watch online movie.. alwayas found movies that never airs. anyway.. feeling so slpy.. and weak.. tired.. me deicded to take a nap.. since not hungry.. couldnt feel it.. anyway..
nice to huggie bloster and slp.. then realises i gotta wakey.. otherwise would have such hard time slping later.

my throat.. starting to get sore.. didnt regain my voice back yet.. glad tmr not working. .toehrwise would be using my voice to talk and talk. .=( and its terrible. very uncomfy. haiz................
o well... perhaps tmr night see doc ba=/ im so gonna ask him how come me sick onc eevery month. but at least me don take mc once eevry month like my colleagues does.
 but.. gotta settle some stuffs if i wanna do that .tch.. o well.. its ok.. ..
oh, saw the video for he movie i wanna watch badly. music viddeo. it was really good. very nice. touching. i cant wait to watch it. =)
nice video. but.. duno whats the song about. ah..
yay. .finally the movie is coming...
hm.. what els.e....
=/
o well.. just feel kinda stress i guess... hm..

its boring...
haiz. .so many htings need to get=/ outta my budget man..
still must get the lappy anti virus thingy.. haiz.. anyway, hope wil lknw how to install too ba..
oh.. i was having a lollipop while watching movie.. and guess what. try as hard as i might, i couldnt taste anthign!! yes... not a single taste of sweetness... omg...
=/ its so.. ..weird i guess.. imagine u are licking something, and u cant taste it. cos ur nose blocked, and u're sick.. eew.. .wasted my lolly=/

my throat should be swollen now.. i drank alot of water i think.. which is goodthing. cos usually i don get to do that often=/ ...well.. my job my job...
i wish i could work from home..

mata

Sick for 2nd day(not worse yet)

ok.. so.. i should've heed the advice of my heart and take mc today. =( thought by mrg wakey would be fine.. but i was wrong.. still not good =/ sigh.. somemore, shop inside sooo cold. gosh.. im freezing.. T_T.

hm.. cut short ba. me no mood to type.. very tired.. and sick=./

hm... duno hwat els eto type.. sorry.. =/ my head.. spinning.. i cant think of naything right now.. blanksssssssssssss


but well.. at least i get knock off about 20mins earlier.. better than nothing.

mrg.. manager was late.. dots.. not say late.. but yea.. cos forgot keys. =.=
well.. sometiems ppl still makes mistakes. .yea..
so full!!!!! no wodmer all hte more me duno what to type about.. gosh..

haiz. .see how ba.. i hope by my off days.. finsih, can get well. .if not.. hten.. o well.. anyway fri they enough ppl i think.. should be fine iwthout me.. anyway...
see how ba...
may tmr be better ne.... sianz.. cant eat my fav food now =/ sick on my offs.. haiz..

hm.. if u ask me, yea.. including me, theres 3 staffs in my shop sick. omg. .duno why.

hopefully by the itme me back to work, i'll get well alreayd.. this cold hing.. happens every month =/ haiz. .someitme sii wonder.. if go see doc, mc one day, the med might jsut save me for months.

maybe me just overworked.. work3... no rest much.. or. i duno.. my life pretty inbalance i guess=( yea.. what to do. .haiz..
huu.. me sneeze till nose pain =/

still rememebr that time.. sick.. then work.. till hte 4th day.. still work.. wah.. come to think of it now, why me so foolish> 4th day alreayd.. ppl take mc liao. .me never go take. O.o what am i thinking?
duno.. perhaps its time for me to act smart. .or .. i duno. ha
hm.. so full.. haiz.. wanna eat choco biscult.. also cannot =/ cant taste anything too ba.. haiz.
life been busy.. =/ but aint good. cos sammy isnt ard.. =( everydya aint good fo rme.. sad ne..
k.. ognna stop here. .cant breathe.. huu....
wan my man here=(... huu
mata

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Prelude To NAtional Day

gosh.. so tired.. o well..

hm. .today ... veyr busy.. but theres a bbig sale.. and with the help of my collleague, yea.. we clinched it!
and glad tht my form thingy. .gosh.. no nid to submit by tmr ba.. but. .haiz. .duno ne.. ..
thinking of what to do with it. ... hm... o well.. in anycase.. ...
....

tmr will ask my manger. .sure gona kena do the report thing =,.= whtaever. .me just take it as learning.. .then yea. .prepare for future or what.. learninug is good... as long as they don ask me to do it. .cos me not manager eh.
anyway,... gosh.. intervioew day.. i hope its safe.. glups.. *

hmm.. hteres somehting i know i gotta say.. but i really forgot. .hmm..
aw.. poor bro.. after 5 days off.. .i emna. .today the 4th day. .tmr finaly day off.. he today so sad=/ o well.. i know how thats feels. .sucks... like. holiday overm ,u're back to work slp work slp day... what to do.. we all nid money.. theres always a price to pay.. ..haiz.

but in anycase.. o well.. at leats he off so many days.. me no have ne =/ huu....

hm.. what else.. .. tmr. .so early.. go work.. but vcan go back earlier.. but. .no sammy of course.. there.
gosh.. i MUST keep to my budget!!

hm.. been feeling alil stress lately.. ...
=/  o well... .will jia you ne.. ..

oh my poor fen. .totally lost voice ne. .omg.. .i nevaer heard anyone sounded like that ever =/ so sccary. .so serious.. =/
gosh....
don think tmr mc will help ne..
anyway... at elats tmr me don have to yea.. night shift ..tmr gonna be busy like mad.. huu han gon ba
hmm... wnna watch movie ne.. online movie..

kk.. me gtg.. tryign to do things keep my mind off the form for now..
mata