Weirf awkward situation

my colleague once told me. .she tohought of taking leave in jan next year. then our melb manager was like saying no. then my collegaus say. but our contract staes its only dec and nov we may not take leave. it never says jan. then she’s like. .oh really> cos for australia, for them it is liek that.
=.= wweird. o well. however.. .
anyway good thing it wont crash with that date.. .. sammy say for 3rd or 4th week. good hting mamanger only disalloed on the first 2 weeks. so phew. was like. whoaO.o.. phew. haha
o well.
and yes. im very very dertermine ^^ besides spending the omnney on food,m and redz pressy, im not gonna ever spend another cent on other item. uh huh ^^ strong will ne.
oh today just top up my card though.. ..so yea. but its ok.
as for the uss ticket.. 5 bucks.. no choice. .cos bro bring us alnog mah.. well. .just treat it as dinner ba.
so yea.. 2 weeks to go. i cna do this!!!
=) going smooth.. so far so good.. 2 weeks to go.. uh huh…
then can re write whatever the thing si ned to spend on againb. carefully…. hee
oh . its soooo weird. i think he’s my regular customer. i duno. it slike.. i went to the ladies. then i came back, collegua say ppl looknig for me. girl asking questions. but the guy like.. looking around for me. hten he say maybe most likely the guy wanna get to know me.
then i was like.. puzzled. i thoguht could be my frens. but no ne.
then they really came back. and i was liek petrified. =.= omgggg…. i hate this type of situation. like. .don wanna hurt anyone’s feleings or what also..
then blah3… i try to keepmyself outta the shop floor. .so stayed behind counter. then act very busy. then he girl still cam eup to me say her fren wanna talk with me =.=”” then he did. omg. oh lord… then ask.. hi. .hows ur day going? then looking down at the jar. .i was like. .err… good. .busy. .=.= then so lucky. got cust0omer making payment. so phew. then after some time, cos i kept pretending busy. tlaking to my collegau about work..
then i say im headnig back alrayd. then she called her fren. he didnt come over. like so shy liek that. whatever. then i hurried to back room .take my bag.. wonder how to handle this.. omg. then i come out, my colleagus ask me hurry get out. she tol d them i was gone alryad. then i hurried out. but i felt weird. like. .as though they wasnt gone. and indeed, just as i was reaching the mrt, that girl tapped my on my shoulder again. then asked if im in a rush. i say yes. then blah3.. that guy came up to me. omg. soo.. .weird. how he look like?> well, my fren descried him as macho. =.= like muscular kind of body. but i don go for hunks!! or whoever. i just go for one man. my man. as for the others, im really3 not interested. =.=  so yea. still he looked kinda pitiful enough whne i turned him down. i have to said it twice. then he slowly tucked away his phone. lie poor thng. but. well.. i cant say anyingn.  just apologised, im attached, and excused myself. good thing also my collegaue next to me when i turned. omg.
i hate this kind of situation. goodness gracious. omg.
dread it! -_-
glad its over now. but duno if he’s gona be back again or what.  this situation is diff.. cos usually guy will ask on the spot. while making payment or sumtin. but he’s liek with his frens. .and ask someone else to do it for him. .not do it for himn. but yea. u know hwat im trying to sya. so yea.. like the whole process is so long and awkward =.=
omg.
weird.
anyway…. yea. duno if he’s still gona be back or what. however. .weird. i tought i served him pretty long ago. then again, was it really the same person? im not so sure. rememerb that time i blog about this cusotmer name so unique? like relaly never heard of before? i think thats hinm. but yea.. .rally cant recall how he relaly look like. whatever.
just hope wont se ehim again. so paiseh. dots.
o well… haiz. what a day.
oh my. tmr.. 7am work. .an hour extra to work.. huu. .so hoping to leave at 4 instead. o well.. =/
hm. .supposed to be 4 mah. .haiz.
o well.. anyway, gona so hang on. cos im really super slpy. haiz. sure gonna be sleepier than today. all the best to me tmr!
raining again tonight. quite heavily . but good hting ht etraffic is fast. i just dashed through. so all good. hee. though, im wet of course! =.= o well
hm.. k ba.. hopefull yi’ll be able to fall aslp. sometimes think2 of someone u love, could prevent u from falling aslp no matter how tired u are.XD lol.
kk.. jaa mata ne

Touched By Kindness

omg. soo sleepy now. but so many there's nice shows going on till 3am!!! omg... T_T huu.. cant watch huh? i duno.. sighs..
huu...

so yea. as expected. phew. good thing i managed to last till 5.30pm. thats when i started to feel the sleepyness starts to kick in.
yawn.. im so slpy now. .perhpas gonna watch abit of tv then decides if i wanna slp. ha.
o well.. another slpy day tmr. might be. could be.
but its a .. omg. its a sat o.O ha. i thought its fri. keep thinking its a fri. weird. o well.

hm.. interesting happened with a chat with me and sammy today. ha. its cool. =) wow. .hwat a nice dream it must've been..

hm... slpy.. waht else. .o well.. just worked3... as usual. nothing special i think. yea. today's normal. o well.

hm......
what else.. ..
o well. just kept thinking about hows it gonna be like when i see sammy again. ha.

oh!! just now! i was in the rain.. everyone has a shelter of their own. only me. huu. poor girl. out in the rain alone. then suddenly theres this umbrealla shelter ove rmy head. no =.= not prince charming or anyting k. not movie hor. its juts an auntie. so nice of her! apparently we stayed at the same blocl. i duno. mayeb she knows me? i duno. but i've never met her. anyway, yea. she walked me across the lights. huu. .touched. its raining pretty heavily i must say at that time.

kk. i gotta stop blogging now. scary show on. huu.. slping alone tonight. omg. scary!!! huuu
wish sam is here right tnow!!! =(

mata

True Happiness =)

aw.. last night.. was looking through all the pics i took in sydney.. =) feels so nice.. so good.. ahhh.....
then like.. aw.. .. somehow just felt a lil different..
its like.. compare to about 10months ago.. i look so simple and happy. like a lil woman.. simple happy life.. i guess.. there're some stages we all have to go through huh>?
then now.. truly happy times are hard to come by..
ha.. i still feel so shy taking pics with sammy.. hm.. wait.. yea.. i think i would be XD when i see him again that is. lol.
think i;ll gushes or blush eh. lol.
o well...
but yea.. i guess those pics.. i never really realised i do look pretty.. its weird to say this.. but yea.. i think i do look kinda pretty when i lookey through pics taken with sammy together. like.. becos we;re together. .so the whole pic look nice and happy. happiness is what i'll called it. hahaha... .
uh huh... pics taken in the opening time.. shop not yet open.. in toy store.. sammy about to pluck his eyebrows off.. i mena trimmed.. then we took pic.. im sitting on his lap.. waslooking at it last night . like. .incredible feeling..
he was looking.. shy.. cam shy kinda. while i.. happy. pure joy...  yet my face saying i am comfortable and safe with him next to me. i find i look abit like him. i duno.. smile perhaps? maybe thats what they called .. erm.. couple face look? hahaha...
o well...
i just.. find it a .. lil.. hm.. sad? that i couldnt seem to feel nor look thta way as i did with him. i wish to go back..
thats the girl i want to be. thats who i am.
being a man's woman.
erm.. sounds wrong=.= lol. anyway yea..
hhm.... just.. yea.. he brings out the best in me. hte true beauty within me.. haiz.. i duno. i just don think i look the same.. nah.. rather. .feel the same when my pics are out..
it slike. somethings missing.. u will truly look happy. .when u're really with someone u love.
cute eh. ha.. o well. a lil difficult t o explain.. but yea. thats about i t..
makes no effect to smile..when he's around.... =)

gosh.. i hope tmr wont be so tired.... bro tok me and mum out to the uss night. my first time there. so explored a lil.. .it was alrite. but the fire works are spectacular.. wow....!!
throughout whole journey.. i kept thinking. .of how it would be liek if sammy is in sg.. i would take 2 days at sentosa to spend it with him. watch fireworks together..
day time will go coaster rides.. night can enjoy nightviews...
ahh.. .so nice....
hm....
still kinda worried about the hotel.. hopefully there'll still be space left.. and tickets.. weird. .i din know.. so fast ..even the price breaker alreayd sold out if im not worng. O.O this is like. .huh?? so fast>??
oh.. had dinner at 11.30pm/ am soo tired . omg. mum also eat late with us. no space to eat at uss..

oh.. whil waiting for fireworks to start, theres this kid.. i duno if hes' nuts, or.. yea.. i duno. its as though either he's u know.. thos etype of erm.. yea.. somethigns wrong with him. or becos he lack of discipline. he kept kicking me!! but its weird.. usually only when im very tired or not feeling right, i'll be rude unknowingly. like. .he kicked me.. i went 'oi!', ppl turned to look. i was like.. omg. what had i done? but it puzzles me.. i was feelign ok.. not so tired.. but.. yea.. i duno... it slike another me or sumtin.. anywya, he kicked and kiced. even kicked my mum!!!! how dare he!!! then this time i came to my senses. i dont care what ppl are thinking. i just rais emy voice.. gib him a hey!! or sumtin like that. i dun even care if ppl are watching. wth. kick real hard u know! somemore so big alreyad. still sit on stroller.. howvever.. i keep having this feeling that he's a.. u know. .those woodbridge kind of kid.. erm. .yea.. but anwayy,.. i don like ppl kicking my mum!
arhg... so rude.
then mukm have to end up at the back.. let them go front. sighs. wth...
o well.... my mum also get angry and say how could he do that... i knwo my mum. like me. usually we are peaceful angels. if we get angry over something, that something usually is something big and wrongful.
and i mean very3 wrong. thats why.. no wonder mum get angry too. me don wan her to angry.. =/ haiz.. poor mum.
but yea.. evolved huh. .or changed for hte better.. i wouldn't used to .. hm.. fight for myself.. i think ..most likely.. ytea.. after i met sam.. he taught me alot.. adn yea..

haiz.. if only.. i could be with him always.. and.. i could be his number one in everything..

oh.. suddenly.. was wondering what to do when i see sam again.. gt some plans.. but yea.. its best if we need not spend money... but.. hm.. yea.. i don care. i hitnk hwats most important is he's by my side. and we can finally have some real dates liek other couples does. hehe. =) walk and wakl.. hold hands.. sit down.. look at the crowds..
..yea... wouldnt htat be the best alreayd?. . hee ^^
i believe.. simple pleasures is hte best. .a lnog as we have one another.

today.. read a news about this couple.. who are married for 35yrs.. and they .. they are glad to have each other. just each other. money doesnt matter to them.  even when they striked lottery. that. is the type of love i yearn for.
nowadasy.. ppl are so busy with their own life.. carreers.. or even theyir own busines.. health.. or children.. they kidna. .forgot.. how dang important it is.. to have a good look at ur own patrtner.. and appreciates who he or she is(to u). this couple. .is what we called.. almost extint rare type of couples. haha... but i believen they exists. adn yea.. as long as both feel the same way of each other.. they do will be able to own such love as them. for money doesnt matter.. as long as they have each other. that is hwat true love is all about. erm.. part of. lol .true love. .mystery.. yet.. lots of amazing reasons behind it all..

ah.. my fren is saying they are offering more pay for htat job. i ended up forgetting all baout it.. and never reply! lool. so yea.. but now. .im starting too like my job better and better.. so.. .yea. i wont go to his side for now. not now. no way. i think.. higher pay doesnt mean u will get happier in life. no no.
u get more money. but everydya u'll rather be happier.
do something .. in lfie.. that'll get u to where u will be happy. not for the sake of money. or any other outside worldy things. find a job.. that will make u happy .let u feel where u are or needed. not for the sake of higher pay. well, if u cant feel happy, hten yea. head for pay. lol.
pursue happiness.. not something.. which u can buy or get..anyhow..

ouch.. m shoudler achign. oh no. i gtg. slp time!!!! hope tmr not tiredddd

ouch.. shoudler..

mata!

Time Tight

hm...
today.. tired day.. duno why.. kept slping throughout.. restless..

hm.. think i had weird dreams..

this is weird.. feeling weird.>
unexpected..
duno why..
maybe tired.
unexpected reactions. .don get it.

haiz. boring day.
but o well.. just rest ba. what to do..

trying to find a nice hotel to settle in at sydney.. but the time could be a lil tricky.. not much rooms left.. alot of expemsive ones..
sighs. if only could stay for 2 weeks.. =/
thx to the hotels..
o well
so yea.. hopefully the tics and hotels wil lsettle breatifully.. leave. ..hm. .should be fine ba. jus say book already. ha. hm.. o well

hm.. not bro coming home tonight.. mum company me abit.. but.. i duno what to say to my parents.
oh.. good thing my throat seems fine now. phew.. ..
shouldn've sang right awya last night.


mata

Throat =(

huu.. haiyo.. =( throat .. haiz.... =/
voice changed .. jsut now playing bro's new game.. singing one. .then yea. T_T... never warm up. .too excited.. then sing.  hurt my throat liao. haiz.......
o well... poor me.. really poor me......................
...

bah...

oh today another customer asked for my name.cos like my service. yay.
yea.. its good..

hm.. feels kinda weird..

oh after about 4days, finally today have a chance to speak with sammy.
but seems like our days stil lthe same

hm... yea.. i like serving customers.. instead of working behind counter.. or do changing the display..

hope tmr wil lheal ba..
haiz.

hm.. hmmm... sianz. o well..
don wanna blog anymore.

mata

Tanner? O.o

hm.. ok.. today abit.. not so busy. .however.. o well.. still okok ba.. .
tired.. abit. ha.
hm.... got a lil ciut on my thumb today.. the other day my lil pinky too.. T_T haiyo..
gotta be watchful ne.. nails not so good too.. dry i think..

then today.. omg. -_- so pain!!! toes cramped!!! cos took off shoes to push the heavy caton boxes!! about 4 piled ontop? then wanna find stocks, omg. =.= go puch using feet, then kena cramped. omg. -_- haizz... but now ok .but pain when cramped. omg..
as for my bruise.. no worries.. will heal in time. .just let it heal ba.. 
ouch

oh.. duno hwy.. when trying fo rmy lingerie, i saw that my skin tone. .like so much darker. i duno.. then i ask bro if im tan. .he say a lil ba. O.o
weird ne.. me no go out much.. neither do i head out in sun.. only at work place. .duno why like htat also tan. lol
but nvm. i like my skin tone colour. i dont like if me look so pale and white and weak.. like no energy..
yea.. met girls liek that before.. skinny like bones , so white and pale looking.. like so fragile. .i dun like. i wanna me to be fleshy, volumpous. ah. .thats the word. lolllll.
must have curves and plus at the righ t place. minus at the right place. XD lol.
nah.. but whats most important is to eat well.. don force oneself to eat too much.. or don eat. thats not good.
so far.. yea. .i m ok. i eat alot as always .lol. snacks.. drinks. .coffee, soda even at late night.. basically if night shift come home.. yea..eat.. o well.
hm.. o well. .abit slpy now .shall head tobed liao..
hm....
weird. .wonde rif im missnig out on anything.. ..hm..
yea thats about it..
i think.

o well. i think anyway.. yea.. i almost forgot. .lol. since young im always darker than my frens. i guess. .thast cos of my dad? no.. lol. mum once told me..
hm.. nah. its a personal thingy. i don wanna share it here. llol. nothing bnig nayway.

mata ne!

Poor Foot

huu.. ouchie... my foot.. kena drop a big heavy box.. onto my foot.. thus hitting my veins.. and swollen..and black.. aw.... a bump now. huu.. =/
o well.. just abit more to go.. with the stocks.. hm.>

oh.. today ne. .manager had a tlak with one of the erm.. eya. not nice ppl who tlak about me. duno.. but. .hm.. i don htink its anything good. .but o well. who cares.
whatver.

haiz.
oh... i don think i ever mentioned this.. cos its like.. such a happy things to say.. but then shortly after, that matter happened. yea.. that bitc*ing matter. .thats why totally no mood to blog about happy stufs...

the last day i met my manager, before she went off, well, she gib me hugs cos i gib her nice pressy.. then when she's leaving.. i truly felt sad, maybe my face expression or what.. then she's like aw.. then hug again.. she say ' you're such a lovely person..'
i was like. .awww... thats such a swt thing t to say to someone. and im happy that she said that.
cos i turly treat ppl with real heart. innocent pure thoughts. unlie ppl.. some ppl trying to get something outta ppl. haiz.. i do like this innocent part of me.. but. .haiz.... sometimes still gets very hurt..


hm... aw.. time to slp again.. soon. o well..
hm.. wow.. imagine . if i head to ssydeny.. oen night. .then next mrg gotta go back.. O.o.. hahaha... its like.. wow? like will have the feeling of.. dd that just happened?  its magic! ah.. if only we could use time travel.. its true ya know thta. its proven. its true.

hm.. k ba.. time to rest again. .times up. .aww....
need to slp liao..
hm.. o well..

todya.. alot of thigns to do. .almost couldnt get em all done.. but yea.. rush them off.. and tada.. tmr continue the bits and poieces ba..

huu.. bruise.. *pouts..  i think my arms not strong enough to carry those boxes huh.. always drop on me =.=

kk.. gtg..
theres good news form sam today. yay.

jaa mata ne^^