Unsure

mm... very tired n slpy today.. guess wat.... when i was headin home, theres this couple standing right in front og me!! near somemore =/ huu....
the she.. ...suddenly hug him =(
.... T_T

..i wonder.. if he still love me like he said he would.. ...

sihgs, anywa

u know me always tired riht.. today.. me.... after reached homne, then went dinner downstairs asap.. then of course get to sit.. then head back home. .guess what,.. i was limping... =/ uh hun... LIMPING. . my leg.. so tired... =/ sighs.....
i dunno what to sya... so sore. .so tire.d.so very 5 weak... very weak indeed......

how i wish.. my life ot have him at my home. i woulve been the happiest girl in the world...... i wouldnt even care about pains or soreness... etc... sa long as im looking forward to seeing him.. ..yea. .u guys know.. ..i'll be happy.... ..sighs...
.but what to do.. ..happiness isnt with me... ..

i.. might have my future plans. .but.. its not gonna be what u think it is...
i  might be somewhere else..
i...  .... it really depends.. ..i night... just u knw...

haiz.. at night ne..  sometimes ba.. im afriad to off. lights.. cos.. the moment i off, i 'll have the imagein of sammy there in my tent. ..=( .... he'll be wanting me there.. .....T_T... sobx.. very sa.d.. but.. ..what to do....
scared.. or so.. i still have to off lights.. i have to face everythign myself.......

do you know wat kind of lover i am?

im the type of girl.. who'll put my partner in the first place no mater waht. .. this is somethign i never realy talk about eh.. ...

yea.. i will put my love one in front of me.. he'll be my everything.
i always.. put him.. as my world.. thast why. .it hurts really badly.. when my 'world' came crumbling down..... ....

yea.. to me.. nothing else matters except for my partner.
im always the type of person who'll put my partner in front of me. .first.. of everythig.. even my family..

i'll love  my partner heart to heart..... phe'll always me the first no matter what...
and i kow.. because.. partner.. meaing.. the only person. you're gonna spend your life with foreevr n ever... not your family.. not your friends.. just your only true love.. ...

... ..my whole body.. no energy at all.. if only my love one is heree.... i'' be so Happy.....

but.. why am i not smiling...


im losing my appetite... im losin g my interest... ..sigsh... im getting sick... what shoudl i do...
i
im... only the type of girl... who wanna put my man infront of eerything.. .. is that wrong?... ..

mata

crazy busy mode

tired out....... omg. another crazy day indeed.. and its not even xmas yet!!!

anyway, i have heaps of work to be settel within the days.. so yea. .keeping my finger crossed.

omg. today i ate this laksa... wow. i asked for more chili.. and guess what. its sooo nice!!! though unhealthy ba.. alot of chili oil.. but its so good!!!
omg.
haiz. if only sammy is here.. can bring him eat that level chossing curry n laksa.. o well.....

anyway,
i do not have enough time to rest.. trying to make do of whatever time i have now
mm.. hungry now. .sighs. .how i wish to eat htat nice fishball noodle at bedok. near his block... used to go there with him. shoick ia.. open till late night u know. eh no.. htey open very late haiz. cannot remember how it taste like now.. i just remember that its very very nice.. delicious.. and make sme wanna order $5 bowl.. ha. so hungry now. .gosh.. realy wanna eat htat fishball noodle at bedok... huu.. so yummy must be.. .im thinking that i might remember how to go... by tracing back the routes i took whenevr i visit him... mm... but... .nha. wont ever do that ba. will only break my heart.. and by the time i reach there, skali not open.. or i'll have my face full of tears liao. haha.
o well....
couple of years never eat alreayd.. really .. miss ..

o well... haiz.... today leg sore sia. zzz cant wait till hair dry.. too slpy ..

what else to type ar... mm.......
.....

nothing much ba..

just so busy during this sales period. imagine standing behind the counter... stuck there for an hour or two straight.. without having the chance to get out. yea. got queues k. i have to really manage everyhting. n the queue too. not so bad ba...

gosh. .hotel.. how sia... i haven book =/
hopefully still go tspace. .no time go search.. mafan ne huu.... skali really have to spend the night alone in the street of syd how T_T omg. will freeze to death!

kk. .not much time to rest. huu.. gtg.

me need to train new staffs soon.. like. .over 10 or 20 plus. cant remember. together with 2 other rgm n sm.
some of them are uni students. alot uni... ..reminded me of him.. ha .imagine training someone like him eh.. nah. no one can ever be the same no matter what happen.. one will always be one.. individual.. nothing can be replace no matter waht.

kk must hurry go slp! no time to rest liao. huuu

jaa mata

level 5 spicy curry, do you dare to challenge it? ;)

gosh.. finally can rest..

again! this morning. .omg. cannot let go of my bloster sia. ha.. sooo comfy the weather. .it was cold.. i was cover fully by my blankie... snuggle underneath blankie with my blsoter.. huggie tight... warm n cold at the same time. .gosh. .perfect!! hopefully next morning will be so as well.

oh forgot to mention.. very weird.. had 2 straight dreams in one day of sammy. O.o
erm.. 2 days ago>? cant remmeber. anyway yea.. 2 diff dreams. but same person. holding hands iwth him.. in 2nd dream he seems impatient though.. n keep on looking at his golden sharp star watch. ha. yea.. can flip open watch.. like a ninja. weird dream.. but. .yea.. 2 dremas of him in one night of slp. O.o

so funny.  a 31yrs old phillphino took a liking to redz!!! she confesses her attraction for him through sms! omg. XD lOL.... like.. ' so may i know if we have a chance?'
lol.. he replied no.. cos he only treat her as his sister.
then today she wanna ask him out tmr treat him eat shark fins!!! XD lol... .then asked him where to eat that... hahahah. but he suggested they ask 2 other colleagues to go along. he say of course he wont wanna go out with just the two of them after knowing she like him! XD
he said she's a very nice lady though. but yea.. only treat her as a sis.
omg... seems like after he slimmed down, finally ppl approached' him eh. haha.
what to do. sometimes.. appearence.. tyea... thast why...
its difficult to know... whos true..and whos not..

anyway... took heaps of photos. cant wait to upload.
haiyo.. sadly though, gotta delete all the pics n video in my memory card. my camera tha is. cos suddenly canot work. omg. i was so scared! scared cam spoiled or what . luckily the guy good enough to help me out. phew.......
so yea.. the memory card is corrupted!!!!!!!!!!!! wthhhhhhh i done nothing wrong sia. why corrupt. anwyay, glad its fine now after re formating. no choice. .gotta delete them all

woo hoo. raining now ;) hehehe.......... gonna be a cooling good night slp i hope. waiting for hair to dry. cant wait to get into bed.
love this weather. ^^

mmm... besides the dream about him.. ..strange. .had i missed out anythign again? O.o

oh yea.... finally today i had proper meal. i took the highest level of spiciness. lv 5!! curry. japanese curry.
=) its spicy. but ok for me. my bro n redz took lv 5 also. got 1 - 5.
i was like. .u sure anot redz??? =.='''' lol. and i was right. they find it very shoick and delicious. but very spicy. too spicy... then redz was telling bro wah veyr spicy... then bro was like.. catching his breath.. yea... then at the same time, LOL they turn their heads n look at my direction. i say...
dont look at me, im fine. to me this is like little tiny bit spicy only'. XD lol. it was funny at that moment... like. .sudenly they look at me. XD hello.. duh.. lv 5 is nthing. if i can take yellow ginger beancud /chicken rice, this lv 5 is NOTHING. lol. so proud seh. XD nah.. im just very confident when it come to spicy food. nowadyas verydifficult to find such spicy level. glad finally sg have this popular jap food

oh!!! michael korrs open up a store in sg at somerset 313!!!! how cool is that!! he's even in sg!!!! whoa. he's one of the judge for this reailty show ' waht.. designer... ' haiyo i cant remember. but yea designer show. competition.
so cool. he's in sg sia. =)

mm.... sianz. blood mistake. .wth. nearly give up on my hard earn game. =/ luckily still can re do n try to savage abit here n there. phew.
so yea... guess i wont give up playing after all
..speaking of playing... he must be enjoying himself playing with .. o well.

so yea.
gosh. been busy nuts. tmr.. whast gonna happen. i dunno. wish me luck peeps. hope its gonna be another good day

gonna hit the sack asap! enjoy the rain mah.. =3

nights ^^

mata ne!!

small part of beautiful memories

this is weirdc. .how do u guys play the sim in fb?
how come i can only accept his request.. he couldnt. or perhaps he didnt accept at all.. i dunno. the relationship htingy. must both parties reach the same level or waht. very weird..

gosh tire.d

today dinner worse. very hungry. but decided not to spend money eat.. so yea. omg. only a few pieces of fried calamari. huu.. hungry. o well.. but gots slp soon so yea. .canot eat liao anyway

today so busy liek crazy. omg. but its good.. keep me busy.. yea.. o well

haiz. .
oh so nice. hear my colleague tal about getting engage and all.. she don really want actually. .2 years u know the engament. but he want. cos he wanna like 'book' her first. lol. yea like so she will belong to him only mah . ha. clever man

haiz..

u know.. i walked along the late night quite street of town... sometiems memories just.. u knwo. .got forgoten.. slipped through ur mind time to time...
as i walked past this 7-11,.. i recalled.. we once ate at 7-11... instant noodles.. standing u knwo. ha.. yea... so isimpel. .yet so nice.. n wonderful... heading to the bathroom of marina square.. madarine hotel?
but yea.. how i wish.. sighs. .to eat through supper of instant noodles with someone.. this kind of relationship never end.. o well...
just so.. beautiful memories to me now..

haiz. .the road we walked. .sighs.. so missing it all...
the only thing that makes me happy.. be taken away like that.. ha. .o well.. cruel life it is..
i realy miss everything

mm.. weird thought im missing out on something. .waht i wwanan type ar.. =.=

o well. nvm ba

today im feeling better.

jaa mata..

pains + fake your own happiness = no one worries

...=/ bad day. .waht to do..

stupid sia..yes i undersandt my sm is prgnant. but its ridiculous.

i arried earlier, and shes late. im hungry! she said to me she's going for break later. she's very hungry. ok. i was shocked . but ok whatever ba. she didnt even ask ok. she just say wanna go break.

then today, right in front of the newly come staff, said she shouldve been the one to go break frist.. (i went first cos i arrived first and im the asm )
i was like.WTF. ..... she said that in front of me and the staff. ...omg. im lost for words.her words. .also so fu king sharp. ...
seriously have no idea what to say.
then she go first ok?? ?then todya my fault>>> wtf was that>/
?

..sighs..........
o well...
i really cant wait for 6months or a year to pass by. seriously.
i dunno... this sucks.
lfie sucks. everything sucks to the core

sighs. .just gotta.. ya know.. put up a brave front. .and face everyone. she's right.. i shouldnt keep everything to myself. but what can i do. tlak about it and cry out loud while at work?

ha.. and tell me wat do you think of this type of guy...
mm.. .totally ignored you, and flirt,.. no i mean chat? whatever. yea. .chatting happily away with other girls.
o well.. think you dont have to tell me, i know alreayd huh...

o well... what to do..

always so innocent.. so baka me.. .
ha.. .

yea.. its nice to blog it out.. just. .dont feel like talking about this to anyone. .too tired alreayd..

..just when i need someone..

you know perhaps they are right...
this quote or phrase or soemthing...
says it all..  something like this.. when that one guy.. didnt cherish you or be there for u when you need him to be,.. there's heaps of other guys waiting in line just to take this chance and say it all to you(the girl).

guess.. humans are all the same.. you see a loop hole, you'll dash in to make sure you get in first..and no one else take it.. or.. that person who took it will never come back..

mata

standing below..

tiring day..

weird. .manager shifts can just adjust anyhow according to her like.s. i dont get it. come late put early.
always... o well.. what can i say?

..didnt have any appetite again. .though ewas really2 starving... .. o well.. sighs..

heard consuming calories below ur weight or something. .not good.

o well. .guess i tried.

so tire of all this shit..
so tired....

wonder why i put so much energy into something.. only then realized am doing it alone. wtf.
..ha. .so baka of me. .waht to do...

..

gosh. .so tired...

u know. .soemtimes its so easy too see where you stand in somebodys elses life.
important or not, ..you know best..

i really shouldnt count on anyone..

mata

tired me =/

gosh so tired... very3  slpy to the max now =/
cant waitto slp asap.. huu...
been a long busy day.. can u imagine? yesterday i just off! ..gosh.. like no off liek that.. totally not enough rest. ytd i satyed home k =/ duno why... sighs..
i need heaps of vitamins ba.. sighs.. but.. haiz.. cant bear to buy ha. so yea.. but anwyay, so tired.
yea.. whole body... =/ sighs. .dunno wheres all my energy... all spend away at my work palce huh..
so tired...

my bro asked.. will i get lost at the airport anot... in australia... ha... i wa slike.. duh. .of course!
he asked if i could cancel my tickets. go japan instead.. o well.. think he's heading to japan again. copy cat. lol. going alone too. ha. o well.. dunno ba..

sighs. .tmr should mhave plenty more to do =/ hang on pl.. huuu... im way beyond tired=(
how to be happy like that. .sighs. .help

mata