floods

so tired. and yet sooo boring at work =.=

nothing much to blog about i guess? haiz. .just so tired... and dunno what to do. so boring.
oh. imma start on the jap thingy yet again. LOL. o well. maybe i'll stop halfway again huh. haha.
anyway, will give it a try

mm.... so eya.
his birthday is coming up.
mm... dunno waht i can do for him. .basically nothing ba. cant send him aything. so yea. .
o well. .its hte htought that counts ba
so wish i could do something for him to make him feel happy

geez... so really ne. the flood .. .haiz. i hope he'll be fine. at leats he knwos how to swim. if me, sure dorwns. lol
anwayy, yea. i ownder when htis flood thingy gonna end huh.. its not sg mini stores flood. thats a hugeeeeeeeee flood we're talking about here. so eya
haiz. hope he'll be fine ba
=/

im just wondering.. .what can i do..

oh yea. the fierce important big figure is coming to our store soon. very scary. and very strict. huu. i hope everything will be alright .
haiz.
coming soon.........

k ba. gonna rest liao.. supernatural is awesome ^^

mm.........
hopefully wil lget to msg him more tmr ba.. =/

i wonde rif he's excited about his borthday coming huh.
or waht. but im sure his frens will plan something out fo rhim ba.
and a nice family dinner.

gosh.. reminded me of my birthday last year.. diaster.... haiz.
don even wanna think nor talk about it. ... =/ super sad birthday
after that day, i think im afraid of birthdays liao.
just scxared its gonna turn out to be another sad day though been looking forward to it. ..haiz


mata

love knows no boundaries

keep forgetting to blog about this...

i think i understand what she's talking about. .my sm.. 2nd marriage. married with this man... good family background. .uni graduate. .her sis in law a doctor... her bro in law a dunno what earns alot of money. .so basically yees. they are one hell of a rich family. and her husband's frens.. = doctors... lawyers.. .etc.. .she was saying to her hubby that next time if thers frens gathering, dont ask her go. lol cos she dunno what to say to his 'big' frens. yea i understand... when you're coming from a so called not same level as htem, more or less.....
this wil lhapppen..

anwyay, glad her husband didnt mind that at all. and neither does his parents.
so eya
good.
but heard he once look down on her.. htat i dunno what happen .maybe before they were even frens? i don wanna ask either

haiz. so tired.
=/

sigsh.. days to go tam is getting nearer=( i don wish to leave... huuu

..soemtimes this job makes me wonder... but.. ...haiz.. will stay on for now ba..
if only i can find a job to get me into that country

anyway,
haiz. i really need ppl t o oush me learn jap language ne.
somehow i couldnt keep the momentum going.. wil lgive up soon after. lol. cos no time and too tired.
ive so much thigns to do.
=/
as little as wanting to read my cookbook, tidy room, tidy lingerie, etc.. sometimes after finishs al lthat, i'l lfeel so slpy n tired.
ahiz.............. =/
o well.............. see how ba.
but... that spark's still there...
and.. uknow u knew something's in you. or u gotta do it. but u just didnt. or couldnt.
due to god knws hwat reason=/=
or excuses. haiz
nothign is easy. but.. .someitmes it makes life tiring

mm. what else...
haiyo slpy n tired.

oh been watching super natural every night with bro. ha. so exciting. supernatural is my fav series of all tiems... so far. yup. bro bought the whole set. weeeee ^^
such an awesome drama ;)
go check it out

oh and that 995 drama? remmeber? from ch 8.
yea.. finished liao... awww.... so swt. everytime i watch my fav actress with pierre png
ha. like. the
perfect boyfren or husband' eh. lol

nah.

and guess what. my ex colleague paid me a visit.. .and  yes.. .she went for a hokiday with her bf to korea. she spend 4k. ....on shopping alone. OMG. how did she saved those up and spend them away!?? 2 k i understadn. .but...4??? omg. wow.
i have a feeling her family is well to do type ba.
anwyay, she's engaged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her relationship is the ldr type. her bf not from sg. form malaysia i think? so yea. his job requires him to travel often.
thats hwy.. .aww.w. .im so glad htigns worked out for them. i think she's younger than me abit u know. mm.... should be.
anyway, his fiance thoguht of coming to sg to work and stay with her here once they get married about march 2014. but since u know.. he need to quit his job and all. .she thinks its better to go over his area instead because his houshe is htere.. no need buy le.
so yea. but her parents alrayd know la.. that she's moving outta sg once she get married.
awww im sooo happy for her.
her bf is short lie her i think. she si very plumb and fat. shorter than me. wear specs. but with a very sweet voice. funny gal. despite her size, she is still lovable.
=) and im so glad that her fiance pops the question =) and tell her to choose the ring herself. lol .awww
so yea.
glad their ldr worked out ^ thgouth i think they see each other a few times a year ba?

kk. gtg,late liao. hair stil lwet.T_T haiyo... wat t do. .watch drama mah...

go check out the rest of 995 episodes k. after 16 17 18 to 20. all very nice. nice whenevr theres scnenes of them . ha. cute couple ^^ their actions reminded me of............

jaa mata!!!!

lovely pen

so slpy. imma slp asap.

same as sammy todya. this mornign totally sooooo slpy huuuu i really didnt wanna wakey =/
so slpy..

nyawya today soo obored and quiet at work .haizzzzzzz
my coleagues were making fun of how my voice changes when i asked my customer to sign up for free members. lol. omg. sounded like so sweet  this voice.. well they mimic me . so yea. i wa slike. .huh? did i do that??
lol i rrly have no idea
trust me.

haiz. .jut now abit frustrated.. just found out from dad the pen i bought for him in syd, is gone. =( and come to thinmk of it, my magic stapler i bought form my store, is gone too . sighs.. .i didnt used to think much of it. hten now cos of my dad gib abit sad face that its missing( its a good pen.. .very smooth ) then i realised htat yes. it mustve bene redz who stolen it. i really wanna post soemthing about htat on my fb.. or tell bro.. but.. .i dun wan bro upset.. so i din post anything. .nor say much.
but sighs... =(((
that stapler not selling anymore=( huuuu
and his pen. .sighs. .if i know i wouldve bought one for him when i was there recently =/
just so .. disappointment..
he frowns. .i can tell he like that pen. me too. its very good to write u knwo .sighs.. that idiot.. small thigns also wanna steal .argh!!!!!!

kk.. gotta let it go. .if not im very stress.. .
just happy eenough sammy is happy and cheery today =)
^^ makes my day to just msg him happily. hee.

so slpy.. oh treated myself with a tub of ice ceram todya. stomach today not good=/ but stil lyea. .craved for it. so boguth a small tub. yummy. i alsmot finished up the whole thing XD
yea my appetite is back in a way ba. yay

kk. gtg soon

mata!

attracting who? O.o

so slpy and tired.

mm...bro bought a new comp today.. luskcily got his fren to help out..
wonde rhows he feeling nwo..

haiz.. work.. so many things to worry about =/...
...
i don feel happy . haiz.. .
try not to think about it ba. .what to do

gosh. my feet hurts=( very badly. pretty hoes wil lbring u pain. uh huh. u got thta right. =.=
its pain was so extreme.. .gosh. if theres a daiso htere, i wold've buy a pair of slippers there and then.

mm..
feb was such a slow one. .march.. mm.. hope it'll be a quickie one..
hoep time flies...

sometimes i really wih theres a hole for em to jump over his side. ha. just reachout a hadn for him to pull me across, or i jump right in.
wouldnt thigns be so much nicer eh.

haiz.. tyr not to think of work... gosh. its killing me =(

anyway, met another weird custoemr that day.
asked fo rmy name. and held up his hand to shake mine. holy crap. but i pretended not to see it. me so bad huh .. haiyo.... but dun wan la...
but so weird. it like.. i thought i saw him kept looking at me.. liek turning his heads back a couple of times when i walked past. but i thought ok. perhasp just looke look' only. then skali intro himself. omg. =.= '''''
wah lao.. .
...
dots.
so awkward.
my colleague was laughing at me.. asked me how many weirdos hav i attracted so far.. liek alot.
i was like. where got alot. . coincidence bah. .the recent one with bro at the store.. and that day this one.. haiyo. yea. why ar. i keep attracting like. .funny2 weird pplne =.= makes me very uncomfortble. huu..
come to think of it.. one month how many liao ar.. i get this type of situations. .omg.
my colleague say maybe im too pretty. =.= i was like. .noooo........
 gosh. sooo o.. argh.
but what to do. i have to serve them mah, part of my job. all i can do is to step away. just liek in the store. ha. so lame. my colleague was lauhging so much,,, ''so you're shopping alone today?''
XD omg.
haiz.. some guys.. i dunno what to sya...

mm......... headache abit.. .
pouts*...
very sianz.
....im yearning for  a holiday already..
haiz

oh and yup. i buy whatever i need to buy nowadsay .like if i need to use it now, then i buy. if not i'll wait.
=)
good girl eh. ha...

mm.. hope my dad's leg will be fine soon.. haiz.

so much things. .yet the plce to store it all in will enevr be (big) enough..

oh. so scary.. u knwo. .my sm say.. oh btw its her 2nd child. and she's in her 30s.
anwyay, shes' due in april. and soemtimes she can feel her baby moving around very pain.. then.. if the baby's head turn towards her vagina area, it feels like a penknife poking or cutting through ur vagina. =X.. .......  cso it sliek the baby wanna come out laio..(head at that area mah_)

omg. .penknife???... huuuT_T........
having a baby is so ... wah. super pain. sammy said he prefer boys. and he like 3.
erm. .well. .dunno . maybe he changed his mind alreayd? XD lol
anyway,... she said ppl says that if carrying a gril, is more easy.. gentle.. but if boy, will kick2 move2 alot. yup. her unborn is a boy now.

wow. so frightening.. .
but no pain no gain .
imagine the moment ur child is out, the features he'll have of u and ur partner. . the blood flowing in his veins belongs to u and ur partner... .
=)
uh huh. theres nothing but a miracle eh.
something one and only. belongs to both  u and ur partner.
but i ownder . .why ppl don cherish them..
and treat them as dirt pest or soemthing they hate.
=/
well.. even if their own parents dislike them, .. im sure they'll always find soemone else out there who'll love htem and cherish them double the amount. =)

i have found mine. how about you?

slpyyyyyyyy

kk. gtg slp soon. last night slpt at about 330 am plus.. zzz

mm..=/
hope my worries wont keep on piling..
 =/
i hope there'll be a pleasant surprise in store fo rme. .
or soemthing good wil lhappen soon.. its tiem for one. .for there's too much misfortunes happened within these few months=/

haiz

mata

dreaming of going there

is it cos odf sale ending soon thats why sooo busy??? 

anyway....

so tired.. .busy non stop for hours. almost liek xmas coming

haiz.. sianz.. .thought of transferring out.. =( huuuu

..haiz.

anwyay ne. .=/ 

mm... yea. today feels liek a weekdya. not sat. dunno why. everyday basicaly is the same ba

oh that dya out with bro right. after walk2 abit in the store, this sales man approaches me and ask ''oh so you're shopping alone?'' 

omg.... htta . is. so. lameeeeeeeeeeee. -_-

....... dots............

then i just say no. im with my bro.. .hten i hurried to my bro side. omg. sooo weird n paiseh la. lijke. .eewww =.=

anyway, very onmg. so llame. if my bro not around, i wonder hwat would i have done. runN? lol

so....

mm.. found out that redz lied somemore to our mutual frne. like stole money cos ot pay bill. then stole my bro's tickets for what???? crazy. liar. 

i wont believe redz ever again./ 

kk. .enough abou thim

mm.. .forgot hwat to blog ne... 

eh.. as always.. mm... .what else ar.... 

haiz. htats abou tit ba. 

sometime wanna say.. but.. dunno hwo

oh. heard sammy say sg about 1000 pay can buy house le. 

ha. so nice n easy eh =)

how i wish hee's here. or if things are so easy over there.

oh yea. now it'll be easier for couples.. especially young couples ot buy house and settle down soon eh. nice. 

haiz... =./ so bored man... 

sianz... 

soooooo slpy like hell. u know me. not been slping well and resitn gwell.. .sick. stress... im still stress actually. .just not as much laio

just worried about family and if he'll lie again.. thigns like that.. trying not to but.. =/ haiz. 

i try to spend time with bro too ba ..but not every time our off will be same

..but i prefer spend my time with sammy

was tlaking with colleague about wanting to go work in aust again.. ha. i always tlak baou tit. lol. 

tyring to find tips and solutions at the same time form ppl who lived there.

anwyay, guess still the same ol dhting.. need heaps of money to study n work there... or work there plucking fruits... easiest i think. 

or the same old standards.. get married dfrom a man there, or my job puts me through there. even if its a year or so. im willing to. at leats betetr htan nothign. and form one year, i can request for longer period. .till longer and longer. .then wee...

anwyay, heard my fren say chinese are too hardworkign . so mayeb they scared we earn all their aussie money ba. 

haiz. in any case, im gonna be saving hard. dunno for what also. so many thigns i wanan do. but to make me happy, i know what i want. i wanna go australia again. 

soemitmss.. to save up so much, and long yet not happy one bit,... thistype of life is.. .veyr poor thing=/ ..very stressful... like. .no lights at all.. .cos its too far. and the lights are out.. .

i dunno ba. see how. 

imreally looking forward to go back one day. 

if only he can coem back for hokliday.. haiz. 

woudl so take him to uss. ha.. ...haiz.

o well. its liek that mah

so yea.. wil ldo my best to save this month... hopefully i'll achieved my target .then moving on and saving3.... will see how thigns go ba... anyway even if im back ... liek he said. .perhaps who kwnos. he really cant take me around anymore. 

but wil lbe prepared..(kinda0 fo rhta ba. 

like how i walk around th ecity. though perhaps wil lforget le ba.. all the thigns he taught me. .streets.. .ha. might forget abit here n there?

but anyway, ... mm.. ...alone.. should still be fine ba.. ....... mm......... i dunno. what do u think? 

but this time, hotel relaly frightens me out. huuuuuuu..........

mm.... yea... ....whgat if i suddenly walk to kingston? or what king something.. .the very bad street? that time whiel looking for qvb building, i almost headed that way. lol. erm. .not near, but its further down. .somethign like that. XD 

i still don get their st. 

ha

mm..........

a pity i din get to learn how to take train ride form him =/ haiz....

oh eya.. and i missed eating that fried rice.. super spicy one. .huu.. din get to eat before i go.... 

huu.... 

but couldnt find my way there... dang. must relaly walk so much. geting lost, then walk3... till tired and frustrated. haiyo. really ne... 

i cant imagine beign alone do ing all those. i'l lrrly be lost there for gd. i mean.. emr.. must ask ppl again n again ba. but not safe. i felt so uneasy doing that first night i was lost. somemroe ppl there alot drinking outside bars n stuffs...

one lok and they can easily tell you're lost. thats why i was very uneasy. but so glad when i finally find the way home. 

phew. 

nope. no one follow me ba. =X

well im safe now aint i. XD ha

phew

its nice. bt.. yea. even if other country, ... i think also will be dangerous. 

same mah. 

not liek sg.

anyway, somehow i do lie the idea of travelling alone. not with frens or family. of course it snice. but alone, has its sense of excitment and freedom to do what ever i want. .shop where i wan. but. my shoopping. haiz.. no one to control me sia. lol

no wonder spend so much this time=.='''''

cos sammy not with me most of the time. gosh. but nice to shop. i derserved it.

so eya

o well. 

wil ldo it again one dya. soon i hope. se ehow ba

ha was telling bro. how nice if we could stay at hardrock hotel for 2 night sor soemthing. first sday whole day stay at uss... the other day can go snetosa explore or something. so realaxing n cheaper

but.. he don dare to take the rides. .so... now no redz.. i wonder.. .if i'll ever ge to go there take the rides again =( 

ahiz....

wanna arrange with fren salso difficult. either they not enough money tight budget, or not free. or only free on weekend. but i don like. cos crowded and long queue. mm.. dunno ba. 

o well

transformer ride. .huu.. i wan..... 

=/ 

who wil leb tkaing the first ride with me eh. mm... i wonder

oh and the madgadascar

haiz. k ba... 

that abou tit.. 

i just hope... 

yea.. moments to happiness will surface soon enough..

 a pity his parents dont allow him to come here alone. he's a man and an adult now. .but... o well. .. what to do if they wanna control him.... ...so yea.. if not. .pay fo rhis tickets to come here so much easir and cheaper than to go there

..and yet stil lge to see him, and spend some quality time together. 

now they allow ppl transfer money overseas ne. at the post!!! amazin gright O.O i was like. .huh. to think i was wondeirng how to do it..(before he said his parents said no). 

anway, 

o well

....

will envy my frne when he go melb se ehsi gf ba. hee. 

but lie i siad. one day wil leb my turn

mata =)

case closed

and so... very longgg story...

i got my money back.

i was so nervous.. .so worreid.. and all. .etc... in my mind i kept cursing him.. imagine how i woulda scold him.. but when i relaly met him to get my money, he din say a word. im glad too. cos otherwise i wouldve flare up at him

very glad my fren very ncie kept me company all the way through msging. really appreciated, was supposed to meet up with another fren.. btu sadly last min she say cannot go.. something crop up. but anyway, yea... then soon after bro last min msg woill meet me up. he last min took off after he sarted work shortly after.
im very glad. os yea.
anyway... i can tell htat bro was in a daze todya= /
..sighs... im very sad fo rhim too... yes i got my money. im glad. but the painsand hurts left behind by that jerk... cannot be healed instantly =(
..what a trauma.. .i hope bro will be fine soon.. .sighs.. i relaly do efeel very sad.. =( but.... u know. he did the right thign by suggesting me go police. i got my money now.
and we know who that jerk rrly is

now i can eat my dinner again. these past dasy perhasp lack of proper meal, my stomach hasnt bene well.
so yea..

been a very long day out.
i just hope.. bro will be fine soon =/
haiz..

...as for rez.. well. .hoep he'll really keep to his words and slowly repay bro his money

i cant believe he stil ldare lied to policeman about how he stole my money.
long story i rrly don wish to tlak about it now.
i really hate this feelign when i thought of him.
..places we went together.. sighs.. so sad.. =(
its liek hwo when u part with ur love one... but he's more of a kin .. and .. sighs.. .just so sad. happy times are over.
trust are no longer htere.
nothign will ever be he same again....
...
he brought this upon himself.


sighs..

tch.. so much happened.. but.. i can only say this much. soryr. i mean type.
typing and tlaking are two different higns.
=/ haiz..

well.. though he's not with me, but i know his heartt will be..
just liek him. wish thigns couldve be easier.
but well. tough period is almost over now.
to have someone important in my life is the mnost important thign to me now

but after this incident, .. i really have alot of doubts and questions..

haiz... so wish i can celebrate his happy day with him.. but.. cant do anytingmuch now. no pressise and all =(
but whats more important ,is the love that binds us together.
thast somehting nothing could ever be bought with

i rrly wish to be with him one day soon.

...haiz.
o well...
gonna hug bloster tonight again ba.
as long as i can feel his heart with me.. thats all it matters at the end of the day... not other stuffs that money can buy u with.

mata

Sick of him

dunno why, but i have a feelign that redz is keepign in touch with my family.

anwyay i sledom talk now .very sianz.. like relaly wanan move out =( sighs.. wanna go his side also cannot. his gov make things so complicated and strict. sighs..

anyway, because of him, i've fallen sick, crestfallen.. body too.
totlaly no appetite...
last night no dinner .morning .. gosh. .. i din eat med cos no dinner. .skali middle f night wakey to runny nose again =( then no choice bt to eat med.. then drowsy and tired. .slpy.. morning was terrible =( sighs

anwyay think my nose still unwell =/
im so slpy like hell. im sooo stress about meeting him again.
sighs. .very stress about him that bloody jerk.
stress till now also sick=( haiz..

i ahev a strong feeling i wont get my full amount back like what he said to the police.. i wonder whats gonna hapen now
=/
thought i could get all money back. haiz.. see how ba tmr
if only can rest. im so tired n slpy.. and stress.
just wanna have a gd rest=/
me not enough water tooo

gosh. i thin kimma collaspe soon

so tired=(((

haiz.....
i really wish he's by my side now. at leats i don have to worry nor sterss so much about meeting him.

morale support ba..

so yea.. today totaly cannot tahan.. like. .soemtimes need to sit down... and i could slp while sitting. so paiseh. haiz.
but maybe cos of med.
then stomach not good either=(
not been eating properly thats why ba haiz

..tch. haiz... if onlky can slp tmr...

o well..

i wonde rif i could trust my family again.. in a family way...

cos once u've break my trust, .. nothigns gonna be the same again.. hwo do u fix a mirror thats broken.. u cant..

mata =(