closeness

gosh so slpeey..

ok so glad my eye is fine now.. stil lred.. but diminish liao +)
hee

soyea.. my frens complimented on my new hairstyle. .but im still not sure. .i stil lfeel weird. lol. nt used to it.. .

gosh had so many dreams. .man im beat =/ so tired n slpy... =/ huuuuuu

so ince when sometimes the feeling u get of ur parnet so close to ya through msgins..
=)
though couldnt join in, but felt ask though u know . .ha.
as though you weere there

zzz im so slpy. gtg slp now..
forgot what else to blog.. mm..........

well, nice off.

haiz. .my final week at this workplace. .=/ soon will be transfer liao. huuu .. gonna miss everyoen =/

and the dang roster.. haiz. so diffifult!
cos not enough ppl

=/=

kk gtg ba

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awful health day

today totally awful day=(((

huu.. so worried about my eye.. checked online.. i think should be fine ba.. but iots really like this thick red bloody vessel in my eye.. one side of my eye only =( huu.......
im scared. .very scared....

anway, got such a bad migraine.. then cut hair. .eat.. .drank coffe... and that coffee... caffine .. oh boy.. killed me man.. =/ suffered till now huuuu
what a bad long day..

sometimes it sliek this.. .when u work so hard n long, when u finally got a time day off to rest, ur whole body just collasp like unused to slowing thigns down.. i dunno man. .haiz... hate it =((
either runny nose or migraine on my off day. huuuuu =(

anyway, i miss him huu. so wanna hug him now. .then all my worries will be gone..
im trying to stay relax now. .coxs scared of my eye. .u know=/

anyway, my new hair cut with a bang. ha. ok not so bad. but me relaly need to get used to it. i think i will like it?

from short bangs.. to side fringe. .tehn long fringe. i get three diff styles. ha. so yea. can keep changing

anyway, mm.. .yea.

. i miss him so much.. but am very glad to be able to hear form him ya know. everyday kinda stuff.
lil stuffs too. makes my heart warm by thinking of him .
he's a very special man in my life.. =)
ha.. uh huh... and im very glad i found him. missing him now. .always. though he's far physically, but he's always so near inside my heart whenevr i though tof him, =) its a very special type of feeling =)
how about u peeps... found ur special one n only person in ur life too?

anyway, what a sick day. huu.
so yea.. im hopign tmr my eye wil lbe better ..reduced red blood vessels is what im hoping for now =/
huu.. wish my luck peeps

today finally got a bit of time to revise my jap. =.='' 'yea.. reluctantly ha
but at least betetr than nothing. gotta pull myself to do it ya know...

haiyo.... waht a day!!!
but so glad he brightens up my day.

mm... so yea. just get used to mynew hairstyle ba. but huu.. i don lie my hair so short.. =/ my back hair. .but. .o well. .perhasp its good to cut away the dryness parts ba

kk. .gtg.
watch bro play xombie game. heh

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lose it, and it will never come back

so stress in moring. glad the nightmare is over now. phew...

gonna slp soon. .been so slpy wakey so early n all.. .haiz

so looknig forward to off tmr onwards

u know my sm said to me todya. .about her ex. she told me he cried for her for 5 years.
men dunno how to cherish when she done so much and nice for them. .then when she broke off with hinm, only then does he know how whats good . but too late. she said that.. ''women ar... once no more feelings, loses the love, no matter how much chocolate, flowers receive, the feeligns will never come back''. she said soemthing like that .but. .well. not sur eif its true. though could be.
i mean.. he is the one who causes her to shut the door and turn away.
of course she wouldnt let him in again no matter how much gifts she received form him.
o well.. true ba.. what to do... too late. sometimes ppl realises it only after they lost something.
but then again. liek this quote i read in fb.. sometime si t could be u knew what you hav. but u just never thought of the face that u may lost it someday. take it for granted. who can u blame?

aw. .sammy was holding this cute lil kushie. yes i just named the panda kushie XD lolllllllllllll wth....

anway, so kawaii. and kushie. XD haha. gosh i missed how he'll play with me or make fun faces and voices of the plushies. i always find that so swt and cute of him =) cos me also do that mah. since young. haha.
so was a swt surprise when i found out he does that ^^ heheh.e

mm.. stomahc nbloated. .not feeling well.. huu.. uncomfy feeling =/

kk. gtg.

haiz. just hope all this stress and fatique will be gone soon...

haiz.. my heart is in aust. wanting to go. but at the same time. wan to save. but to go , i'll feel happy. and i felt that it is all worth it .
so how.. waht should i do.. ..=/ dunno yet.. but for now just save ba. .anyway new phone will be coming out sooon
..haiz.
also dunn ohow.
btu if cant meet him, i think probably i'll travel around australia. llol. visit my frens all over australiaXD gosh. and getting al lost. hahahahaa... .=.=''...nah. not funny. its frightening k.

kk gtg

wish me luck peeps...
haiz...
=/

stresses that could not be told

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my friend's scary gf =X ?

huuu =( just received news gonna hav aussie peep watchign over in the store the way we serve customersT_T huuu very nervous........ later kena scold how.
but wil ldo my best ba. but very stress. huuu cant wait for the day to be over=(

my fren ar... omg. i knew it.
 his gf.. so scary. theres this app called where is my android. and she'll use it to find out where he's at. she asked for his password for his emails access and facebook. etc.
omg...............
so scary.
everyday call him non stop. remember what i said that time? yes its nice and good to call ur up partner. .ask hwere are they. hows their day... eaten? etc. .thast sweet. but not this type of every min keep callign ur partner just to ask where he's at, with who.. few times no harm. but everyday without fail is frightening. somemore she demanded to know. its DEMANDED. not sincerely wanna know where he is.
its like scared he's with god knows who. omg. ... so scary gf =/
and he's so stupid to give her all the passwords. as a gf u don ask for passwords from ur bf. neither does the bf has a right to.
anyway i duno ba some ppl.

for me i relaly don like nor agree to such a way.. get passwords.. check on app to ur location... gosh.
can faint sia
dunno how he can stand that.
=/

i tink shes nuts =X

anwyay, haiz. yea.. he just kept lying to her when the need arises. or when thers a chance. cos no choice. if not she'll keep haunting him.
i told him. a relationship that builds up on lies and deceit wouldnt be happy and long lasting .
he said she asked for it. as in  no choice but becos of her actions, he need to lie to her .

sighs. i understadn insecurity... but to her extent, its too overboard.ur partner aint a missing dog. why wanna keep track of his whereabouts on android app?
concerns , cares,. jealous worry for ur partner is one thing. good sweet and nice. but to do the extreme overboard style, its such a turn off

i tried to imagine what if sammy did something like her. liek keep calling throughout my day, ask me where am i now. .do what.. with who.. etc.... will i be happy?
my answer is postive. one hintg, i love him to call me. cos i get to hear his voice and more detaisl of hows he been.. etc.
ive done nothing wrong to him. so i don have to worry about anythign cos i am not lying to him. i trust him to trust me. and i trust him yes. =)
he called meaning he's concern and care about me. so no matter how many times i'll still feel very happy to receive his call.

so u see. its about who you're with. and your intentions.
if wrong person, all the things aboved mentioned wil lseems impossible eh.
but i wouldnt mind. cos i love hinm. i know him. and im very comfortabole with him. =)
so yea.

just pity my fren. dunno why stil lwanna be wit her /= haiz.
soemre slp lia ostil lmust wakey to pick up her phoen call. =.= omg.

but o well. thats their business ba. im just an outsider. i wouldnt know much of anyting so yea.
my fren told me its perhaps cos of their country's women. all like that. very scary'. haha.

well, im jsut contend and happy with my one and only sammy. uh huh.
and im glad im not from my fren's country. haha.

hope he'll be fine ba. ha. so poor thing. like having a fierce policeman watching over him XD

but my sm husband.. received her call .. mm.. said thsoe nasty rude thigns.. perhaps he also kena that type of scary ex gf before eh. maybe thats why when my sm called, he scold her call fo rwhat. trying to question his whereabouts ar.. etc..
so mean right=( how hurting.
anyway, he lloe her in another way. =)

so yea. just watch out what u're saying to ur girl. don misunderstand their love and swt concerns for the scary woman i mentioned above. as in my fren's gf. and that, is very importantr. u might just wronged them and hurt them badly. till if skali they decide to show their concerns to other guys, ahhhh don regret ar!!

huu me still no time revise my japT_T see hwat i mean? me no time huuu
i need time. haiz....

kk jaa mata ne

lovey dovey always!

i am soo otired and slpy to type... =.=

oh today nearly wakey wrong time again. omg. i cant believe this .to think i was quite wide awake.. counting my hours of when to wakey.. i still miscaculated. .haiyo. whe too slpy will like this huh?=/
anway glad i rush off just on time. phew

so tired.. huu

mm............. oh.
it was so nice to hear his voice and chatted  todya. =) though at last part of conversation the words were much clearer and louder. nonetheless, its sooo nice to tlak with him always =)

he tol dme his fren just got attached , aww.. .=)
but i understand that feeling. so . its like i'll always make fun of my frens.. .hey stop it! for being aso lovey dovcey in fron of me. sobxxx..... haha
joking sobx. so funny.
anyway yea.. .i still don like xeeing couples in trian bus or escalator.. anywhere XD lol. but i don wanna find someone to anyhow love just because im like living in sg and its convenient or hwat. thats so wrong . -_-  cant imagine doing that. so yea.
but im happy to know my special swty is somewhere thinking of me too.and its long lasting swty with me. hehe.

but.. sint that a very specaial feeling to you guys too? to have someone special in ur life. just belong to u and him or her.
isnt that great to find someone like that. one and only. big world. to only come across one as unique and special as ur partner. .aww. ... learn to cherrish peeps =)
its such a wonderful special feeling.

aw... miss him . ha...

huu so slpeey..

love chatting with him too. like those nights.  in ns. before he slp, wil lcall. just chat here  n there...
i think its very sweet eh. talk abit about each othes day even for a while .cos ns mah. don get to see often.

oh yea. hehe. was palying with my jap app.
yay. my kanji not bad. wont say expert or what. but basic stil lok. cos gd thing i learnt chinese mah. somemore i used to sing while looking at jap lyrics.. so yea. can here n there rememebr abit of the kanji.
wa so happy when i know most of the words. not most. but good enough =)

today not been reading jap much. ytd none too. tired n slpy =/
haiz.

wil ltry to fin dtime to revise later ba.
i hope

ha

oh yea. and one thing i really agreed with sammy.
though 4 years liao... i really like this lovey dovey moments with him everyday =)
very swt. very lovely. hee.
and im very grateful and glad for it.
who says ppl can only be lovey dovey sw stage only in first 3 months of dating. down the roads even after marriage , if both parties work on it, thigns will definitely be well and better, its all about you with ur partner. compromise give in and take.
respect. care. treasure.. pay attention. if u hav them in ur heart, anythign u do or say will always sparks happiness. uh huh.
even old married couple stil lcan hold ahnds and be so swt together =) its all about 2 of u. not others.

kk. gtg. tv rest then slp ba. zzzzzzzzzzz

super slpy

jaa mata

happy birthday sammy salim ^^

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tiredddddddddddd HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU =((((((((((((((((9 veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy tiredddddddddddddddd body numbed. ..sore.. .pain... huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu im sooooooo tiredddddddddddddd =(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

=(((((

sighs.. .tired till massager counlnt hurt me. .im so tired... to the max.. beyond max.. huuu .. .walked around tampnes mall areas all day with sm ther.. .huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

get to msg him fo ra while ba.. thin khe's busy too with online work and school..
but overall, yea. at least the most i can do is made him a birthday video .eh din say nothing . but i hope he'll like it.
couldnt do much u see... .he's in a restricted xzone given by his parents. .anway................
i think he;es happy today. uh huh

ok. so. ...shoot.. had i ever mention this?
that time went for potluck.. then the lady from australia (one of our staff) mentioned that my leg so skinny where did all my fats gone.. .cos i was having another piece of cake.. i ate alot. i think i mentieodn that eh?
anway, i was then wondering what shes tlaking about. what skinny legs. i hae normal legs mah.
then recently, i saw my pic... i was wearing a casual shorts... and i saw my l;egs. ....skinny. like.... boney. not boney. but... skinn yea. skinny!! omg.... so scary.... liek as though i'd lost so much weight =/
my shorts was looking like so loose.. especially my thighs area. i dunno. my pic looks so skinny... as in m ylegs.
so scary.... but my appetite been gd.. cept for todya ba. but im stil leating though. cos tonight too tired. very hungry, but no appetite.. so forced myself to eat abit.
but yea.. .my eating habits ,time, very irregualr=/


u knwo that day i was just standing there, o rwalking past my fren in store. then suddenly she tell me.. ''haha you looked so cute!''. .... i was like. ..dots. now what did i do??? /=.=''''' O.o
i looked normal.. .i just stand there. whats so cute????
im not posing or doing anythign mate.
then today the tmapines sm when saw me, first thing asked me.. 'why you look so pretty today''. indicating my make up whole look etd.. .i was like.. huh? no. nothing mah.
so weir dne. i don get ti O.o
=.=
so nice ar. stand there do nothign and ppl will think u good+
?
ha. well, am i lucky to be such a person, or its just piure coincidence. -_-

anwyay im so beat up righ tnow.
imma slp soon
...

haiz... how will my birthday turn out to be....
alread thinking abou tit..

ha. oh yea. hope tmr he wont get weird birthday sabotage or somethin from his frens. haha .
if me, i'll be very worried about my crazy frens doing that =.= '' dots. haha.

haiz. k ba. gtg... ...

at least ne.. i can do a lil something for him.. nothign big.. nothign super special.. nothing much.. nothign expensice.. but just a pure heart , the most sincere thoughts,love,and wishes for him. .hope he feel it too..

haiz. though i wish o do so much more than that.....

oh recently found a very nice app to play with from my phone. at least kills my time and all. ha.
so yea.
thought of playing legends . .pocket legends again.. but so far no tiem yet. i have nso mcuh to do u see...
so yea.
will try to play again soon ba. ha.
stil lremmeber the good old times. im sure thigns improved liao.. .so yea. cant wait to getback into the game.
hipefully when time is right, i have openty ofg time to play ba. heh

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lazy guys

ha. my best friedn fianlly called me after soooooooooooooooooooo long!!!! i knew it!! knew sort of his situations and all... but din think it could be that bad. anyway he couldnt take it anymore and got to call me. lol . said he was very stress. .i wa slaughing away at that.
suddenly at so late at ight sia.
but i nvr like to dis my fren who's attach. i understand their situations mah.. some gf can get very insecure.. and i cant afford to lose another one of my fren cos of some girl's jealousy... =/

anway, so long story. .yea. his gf is like erm. .well. .accorind ot him. .even if he called back home to his parents , she'l lbe unahppy too.
i then asked him.
did you msg her the whoel day or something then? perhasp u never msg her, yet u got the spare time to call ur parents, htats why shes mad. not even a simple i miss you msg.. or i love u msg.. .

then he kept quiet =.= . he replied hwat u knwo.. lazy. he replied he's lazy  =.= i wa slike. .dotsssssssss then u cant blame ur gf for getting angry over something liek that mah .
he's like.. .well, im lazy mah. .sometimes guys are lazy.. im sure ur boyfren also do the same right.
i kept quiet. well, all humans are different. htey have each to heir own situations.
but yea. at least he admits that he's lazy. =.= dots.
just a simple one msg wil lkill your 5 seconds of time?
omg.
anway yea.. .not entirely her fault.. .but stil lmore or less ba..
asked him to tlak it out with her. .but he doesnt seem to lie the idea. said he wanted to meet us after she went back to her country abit.
so eya.
gosh...
to think having a gf keeping track of ur phone.. thats why ilike i said. i don wan contact much of my male frens who are attached.
anwyay yea. this phone check thingy .is one of the worst thign to do =/
haiz...
but what to do. perhaps shes insecure ba?
i heard alot of couples do that though. .checking phoens and all...
if casual checks maybe still might be  ok. but if digging up personal msgs, not gd

oh met this woman form hong kong. holiday in sg.
she said she studies in australia for 6 years. asked her why din she stay there. she said she couldnt find a job ther.e cos osmetimes it depends on who they need.
so eya. i asked her to try onlin esearch. she said she did. but that was 3 years ago. and it was real bad that time. very difficult to find a job there.
wlel, i asked her to try again . it was 3 years ago mah. .perhaps now its better ne.

mm.... so full .stomach bloated =/
haiyoooooo been about a weke liao? stomach not gd. huu

mm... getting soooo slpy....

mm.. what else.. .so yea.. today din get ti read up on my jap book.. haiyo... will i do it?? i hoep i can do this man =/
so slpy. .yet so many stuffs to clean up adn do. if one day go out, that it. no time do other thigns laio. haiz.

kk.. gotta resst my stomach for abit ..take med first ba..
so slpy...

si yea. just rememebr. .don be lazy to ur girls peeps. there are alot more guys waiting to work hard' on ur girl. and if they do  work hard on ur girl, don ever regret for you yourself being lazy! ha... it'll all be too late before you know it.

oh yea. today get to msg sammy abit. better than nothing ^^ so yea.
heh.... and so glad his side is ok today .sunny. wee

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