sick for so long

oh wow. so tempting. the syd trip. 545?? wow.
but hotel still exp.. but.. wow. if ticx always so cheap, hahaha... so cool. anyone can coem back n forth alread huh

anywya, headahce now.
just ate med. had a lot of meds. diff types. lost count=.=
uh huh. very bad. siighs. ..heard news. alot of ppl see doc. cos weather not good. been very warm, then rain then warm again then rain. .then ppl get drenched , then sun again.. plus work stress...
so yea. thats why all ppl sick
including me=(

sighs.... i hope i can get better ..get well before the training with vm expert ^^ wee.... can u believe it? rgm from australia wanted the vm in charge to train me vm =) im so glad something new finally!

me adn my colleaguess were liek thinking.. we're doing the same thigns over n over.. =/
keep saying n tlaking the same things to customers n all. .haiz. so boring =/
but o well.. see how this two days ba. i really hope its a good one=)
wee..

mm.. woke up late. thought haiyo wakey early again? but didnt. yay. wakey late.
god.. what a boring day. no wonder it feels good to head out. somemore only get to msg him late aftnoon

sianz... i relaly dislike being sick=( huu........

makes me all ... goen crazy =/ haiz....
bloody hell... sighs

o well....

mata

another sick day =/

nose still super runny huuuu =(( why sick so long de.. huu..

then somemore daytiem body stil lwarm. .think now no more fever ba?
but nose and throat.. huu.... this type of sickness ne. .usually will las tme weeksss to come. if not, months. or a month
=.= haiz

so bored of thigns sometimes.

anyway, haiz. my poor colleague getting a warnign.. uh huh.. letter... = / from our rgm cos she .. i dunno man. its a small matter. but.. .sighs. i just dunno . i couldnt be bother with it anywaym just feel abit unfair for her ba

shoot my throat now not good either=/

oh man. .so slpy now.....
fainting!

o well.... perhaps should rest soon

mm..

gosh. hate block nose..

kk. gtg. brains dead=.=

oh yea. had a nice slp ytd. ha. so squashy with bloster.. bet my face is smiling huggie tight bloster. weird. i swear i smell him.. o well

mata

feverish

and so................

2nd day of fever flu sore throat and weakness

dang.

i hate this feelign.

=(

sighs.. what to do. cant hold on any much longre. so needed to get home early for a rest.
but it didnt seems to work though
stil lsick as ever
sighs
dammit

=/

i hope by tomorrow will be fine ba.
my nose is blocking like hell.

come to think of it, i looked at my hands the other day.. so many small scars around them. ha. i mena on them.
wow..
little little small cuts n wounds.. overtime, they became scars all over.. so poor thing. ha. as though ppl might think what have i bene doing eh

gosh so slpy
could be the med. but without med also die haiz
=/

anywya,
weird. why do i hav this feeling i wanna blog about sammys call.. eh. when ar.
o well skip ba. cant remember

good thign he sounded fine now. perhaps thasnk to winning the second place ha.
yugioh huh. .ahh... one of my fav memories.. =) i started yugioh even way before cardcaptor sakura ba?
i think so yea
but my very first comin. .forgot if its yugioh or that other one.. theres liek gods.. ner zha, weird animal. about china legend.. but thast a great one man. geez.. so sad too. ending so many heros died=( haiz
so memorable. but too sad to read a second time

wonder hows he feeling now.. should be better i hope.

wonder whats the reason if parent check ur phone. and you're not even 12, or 16.
o well.. nvm ba. hope thigns will be better after he locked it

anyway. .gonna rest now. huu slpy n late now=/

so many thigns to be done at work today . almost sounds liek crazy. can u imagien emailing and wriotng down the emaisl of a few thousands of our stores members/
?
uh huh. bloody hand is bloody pain.
need to search for 9 alphabets. starting from r. guess waht. after 2 hours of non stop writing, (need to check one by one fo remails), i am still stuck at R. letter R.
=.=
uh huh. a4 size of paper. 5pages. still at R.
...dots right? now im starting to think if its more than a fwew thousands.

remind me why i like my job again pleas.e sometimes i wish just to jump over to witchery=/

haiz.

o well.....

so many thigns so little time life is short
sometimes i wish that there can be little ..more little thigns in life to keep me happier
but sometimes.. ppl will be too busy to look fo rit

pray that i'll get well soon. lucky enough i have energy to keep myself form fainting

mata

they brewed troubles again

its gonna be late soon....

actually, it slate now=.=

and im down with a slight fever plus my nose.. haiz... im terrible now =(
just hope i'll be fine by tmr... totally sick mode now. huu

throat still bit of pain. .haiz. shouldntve gone out. but too late to say no. o well

anywya,
im thinking u know.. mm... his family is the only ppl i know who hates me. only htye themselves can get it. fo rme i don. for him he dont know why either. for ppl who know me also don understand.

but u know what. my conscience is clear.. no matter hwat they think of me, i know its unreal. sometimes, ppl just need some weird excuses pretended to be reasons for them to backup their hate for that person or matter ba.
u knew its untrue. but u need to think it is true, so that u get the result of what u want. perhasp its that way for them?
i thought.. sighs. i thought for a parent, whats most important is for ur child to have their happiness. listen care n be there for them. but.. somehow i dunno... everyone is different ba..
i just wish.. sammy couldve been happier with his family..if only his family isnt that complicated..

its not that right isit.. to stil lwanna control somebody when they're alreayd all grown up, and step into adulthood..

its just hard huh.. when u wanna get along well, but yet.. they aint giving a dang about u. .they don wan to listen to u.. i hate it when anyone takes my explanation for excuses. especially at work. or even in personal life.
why cant they just sit, listen with respect, and take it in as well> ? give n receive mah..
..but liek i sadi. .everyone is different. .i think this way, doeant mean my boss or anyone else would huh.
perhaps they know. but they don wan to admit theiy're in the wrong

just worried for him.. with or without me , if they wont change, he's not gonna be happy with them in future either =/

one of my fren say if his familly make thigns diffifult fo rhim, he'll get outta house. and he did .
yea........... brave huh.

i felt that.. sammy alreayd done his best.. but u cant expect him to do all the work alone right. trying to listen n all. .explain..etc. if they don do the same, nothgins gonna ever work out .. i just don wan him to be so unhappy in that house u know

i hope he'll feel betetr soon....
i understand how he's feeling now...
course aitn a good feeling.

u know.. i think perhaps his family blames me for everythign they dislike him doing.. but even without me in the picture , they'll still find fault with others ba? liek perhaps next target.. his frens? his work> ?

so weird huh... to be hated for the thigns n reasons you've not done n deserved. if u know what those reasons are, i bet you'll go huh'?? thast the reason they hate u??

i don know ba.... no chance for me to say or do anythign anyway.. imagine me wanna speak with them, also no chance.
yea... very strict n .. i dunno..
just diff form other ppl sfamily ba..

u dont need reasosn to hate or dislike somebody. all u need is excuses.
anything can be used against u

but yea.. my main concern is him. i really hope he can smile n be happy.
liek without any worries..

oh man.. my  fren going melb. did i post that last night? i think i did?
her relatives lives there. fren study there too so yea.
man so nice. free tic n accomodation. oh hey wait. yea i did blogged abo thtis! =/.= gomen..
bad memory sometimes

so yea. i'l lalwyas stand by his side n support him.
he done nothing wrong.
as for his family.. i have no palce to judge so yea...
just felt that they are diff from other parents thats all...
only important person is him. and thast all it matters. just him.
no one else.
so yea..
i wont think of hate, angry or what. i try not to think of anything. just only him. and i feel at peace. with only him i think about. just concentrate on him

kk. .gtg.

later fever got worsen =/

don worry about me too..
false thigns set again me.. but yea. i wont argue liao..
cos i only care about sammy now. how he's feeling and all.. if he's ok. .etc.. so yea.
even if his family wanan think of false facts about me.. .then. yea. what can i say. i cant brainwash them or what. they are so adament huh

just dont ever become u know... like.. trying to squeeze a banana.. too tight, they will burst. and get squashed. or sorry2.... take a puppy for example. after u squeeze n suffocate them, u think when they grow bigger, will they run towards u and give u licky on ur face, loving u? no they wont. course they wont.

is that what u called love for your child? i dont understand about that kind of 'lvoe'.

once bitten, twice shy

or somethin gliek that

kk... pray that he'll feel betetr soon. only wanna think of him, not me.

please be ok dear..

mata

remember

oh dear. i fell aslp while watching supernatural. =.= dots.
wakey.. tried hard to stay wakey.. then unknowingly fell aslp again haha. haiyo...
now better liao.
so bloggy abit

throat hurts alot today. huu... but dinern got curry so yea cant resist. ha

mm. .getting slpy.. and late too.. think i'd betetr catch some rest.

what a busy day today. alot of tasks to complete.. haiz. job of asm eh. store in charge.

anwyay, met a long time agoooooo ex staff today. haha .so long liao.
heard another ex staff graduated adn working now. aw.. how time flies eh..
uni i think. so yea. once its over fast, its work time. ha

mm.. so yea..

that day was out and went into my store. rememerb? then that colleague of mine kept saying kawaii.. asked who am i.. ha.
nowadays my memory not good again =.= she told me that i wore something very sexy. if she didnt know me, she would've have thought i am a japanese whe i walked in. lol. so kua zhang.
anyway, i thnk3.. .recall3.... then i rememebrd what i wore. was like. .huh. me never wear very sexy outfitmah.
then i remembered! geez.. that was just a dress. what sexy. don hav la haha dots.
normal dress only. but i really like that one. hehe bought it in syd. really nice =)

anwyay , yea. sodiffcult for me tryign to rememebr a single small thing. haiyo must think realll hard then can remember.
cos of work isist? to many thigns to do. plus fatique ba

but hey! its a good compliment u knw to be liek a japanese. hahaha. they are so pretty.
nah. im not like them ha. they are too good ba XD

hm... hopefully tmr my throat will feel better

aw. .so envious. .my colleague going melb cos her relatives there. can stay for free =( huu.. so nice!!!
if  only don have to worry about accomodation fees..
anyway, her tix are free given from her dad who worked at sia. always got free tix for family. dang. .sonice

but yea. thats abot it ba

slpy. kk gtg mata.

Ayuni ^^

morning stil lvery tired. cos no rest went out mah.. .but somehow.. all these forcing to go out. .relaly help me out. i feel more refresh now. mm.. tired yes. but just feels different ba.
better. ne..mm.. good thing ba.
but just still tired.. ha

mm...
everyday msg sammy am happy. of course nothign beats being with him in person.. doing everything together in person.. but still, yea.. .at least work hard towards the future ba.. thogh alot of things i really wish i t can happen..
it is always nice to be with your love one huh. no matter what kind of a situation it is. .
its always nice to stay close n near each other.

oh hahaha... quite happy. today found a muslim name i like!!!!! =D after so many.. but this one, i really like haha.
hahaha..... ayuni. ^^  ayuni, separeates them = a yuni. i like yuni. and i like ayuni ^^ haha.
now i've found my fav muslim name.
just u know... ...not like its happening now or what.. but i like to search ard hahah. so funny right. XD
but o well, wonder if ... mm..
o well. just like the name thats all . they say if u married a muslim guy, yo'll have to get a malay name. so yea. lol. been on the lookout. XD i mean well,.. .nvr know the future mah.. somemore my malay frens quite alot. but i relaly like sammy hahahha. =P bleah

throat been dry i think? uncomfy.
gosh slp y liao

last night so nice to company him though was so slpy =)
but worth it. ha... i like ^^
msg2... as though he's next to me

mm............ oh another fren dropped by to see me today haha. so nice to see them all while im here.

no matter how hard it is, at least i have a dream n goal now. i do wanna go far. i like it here. but.. the person i care most aabout is there.. so yea..

sometimes. .like is so tricky eh.. u cant have everythign u want nor easy.
nothing is easy to gain somethign sweet n nice.
you have to fight for it, be firm, believe, and cut ur way through. needs alot of courage, but it is definitely possible.
and at the end of it all, you'll know htat it is all worth to fight for =)

rgm mc again. wonder hows his back now

for me * cough3.... gosh. .throat really not gd =/
continue. .for me.. , just simple. love care understands, respect trust me.. not asking that if you're my partner, u have to provide me with riches, notes, prada, branded, big house , car, credit carrds.. i don need those. i only need the above mentioned. those aint money can buy for ya.
if u have those, and u give it to ur partner, good thigns wil lonly happen to u.. =)

but i don understand how certain ppl.. craves for those fame, and stuffs liek that..especially most women isnt it? im not sure. but i think so?
too superficial eh =/
haiz. good luck to u guys out there=.=

kk gtg. gona be late need to go!
before too late ha

mata

long holiday please...

sooo tired n sleepy. but its quite a nice feelign whne u forced urself to go out. but.. i dunno. ended up sitll super tired.

short trip out with parentes left me bloody tired again

cos i auto wakey early ba?

anyway, had a sudden surprised call from sammy today. ha... but due to some reasons, thats the final call for the day. but so glad its our off today ^^ yay...

gosh. my back is aching..i cant sit up straight
have to try

yawning alreyad..

my brain is empty now. no idea what to blog about. everyday you'll see me type. .so tired so sleepy.. ha

gosh. i need all sorts of victamins!

so nice. my melb manager went for a holiday to paris. i thin kher fren is living there so yea. going there fo r a month =/ sooo envy. huu. 5 weeks off form work!! if sg, i dunnno wil lapprove anot. but. .huuu... sooooo shoiock =( so wan that too.
haiz.
its always nice when u have someone u knew overseas huh. only then can u save ur expenses. but then again if not familiar with each other. .nor close enough, will be pretty much awkward... so yea.
but.. omg... me always wanna stay longggg longgg over in syd huu

haiz... just so wish i could do the same .but well, im not her so yea...

o well...

so ncie huh =/

i also need that sort of super long break.. after workign for years...., you;ll crave fir something like this

goodness. that day the banker asked me if i'd just finish work. even if he's beig frenly, seriously, .. i just wish fo rhim to shut up . =.= uh huh.
goodness. irritating guy. pfft

kk. gtg.
backache from sitting. huu

mata