oh girls/ im smiling again! =)

will try to remember what i wanna blog. theres quite a few. bt just slipped outta my mind throughout the day

so... well... my slp is back to normal i guess. sammy msg me.. and we talk again and all... im just so grateful to have him in my llife.
i rrly do. and i dont wish to ever change.cept to love him more.
but yea.. didnt quite know what sort of week he had.. but... yea.. jsut hope all will be well.
thought he didnt wan me anymore.. baka me.
it was my foolish thoughts after all.. =)

ok dogs first before i forget.
just found out theres this new breed name pomsky. omg. mini version of husky!!!! great for ppl like me who like a husky, but cant afford to tc of a big one for now.
but stilll love big husky. theres this family who owns four huskies. one of the husky though no two colour eyes, yet it has this smile on his face. among the four when they take pic, u can see. he appeared to be smiling!! v v v v v vcute n smiley dog. awww lucky family!!! imagine taking care of them al lday long. wow. i wan that job. haha

and poor doggie.. .i could not bring myself to watch this disgusting video. 3 pinos, tortured and crushed this puppy to death=(((((( its horrible. i rrly cant watch it. i nrv even attempt to press play. ppl must know. how cruel they are!!! im so disgusted by them.
poor pup. =( sighs... v painful death i can imagine.. .huu... no worse.. =/
sighs... these ppl... rrly

speaking of ppl... gosh. watched this movie with mum today. alot of students groups of them
.keep screaming loudly, tlaking loudly behaviour is unacceptable. omg. i hate groupies.
then at one point even throw oen popcorn at me. my mum kena a piece of cardboard or paper. probably they throing at their frens. omg. rrly almost wanna scream at htem.
irritating bunch of ppl/kids./students. rrly hate it .
spoiled the ambience. argh
my mum also say heir manners are v v v bad / nowadays the ppl. argh. especially the gourp of girls sitting next to us!!! and behind!! that why i dislike sitting next to groupies. cos so noisy!
especially girls!

and.. .speaking of that... haha.
saw this pic. well. what boa once said. but its true la. 'I like to drink with people who can talk about creative stuff. However, I don’t really gossip or talk behind people’s back, so I don’t frequent places where females gather. There’s probably a 100-year-old grandfather living inside me.'
-boa

which i agree.
i know what shes talking about. same thing. if u hang out with the typical omg girls group ,..gosh.
thats why i'll rather go out with one gf or 2 the most. i remember tht time the adventure cove trip with 3 females. gsoh. though not rrly their fault la.. but... two headache la.. then tired la.. then hungry... buy food nvr rrly share properly.. etc
argh. though fun still abit, yet ..its kinda like. .u know. torublesome
whats the point of going then
=.=
thats why it can be rather difficult.. ' as in.. troublesome when they whine here n there.
not all moments are bad, but still. u get the drift eh

i agreed with sammy. he say: girls=problems
true bah
especially if u encounter the immature, attention seeker, gossip, /etc types of girls.
and if they come in group,... haha. gdluck =.=
babysit them bah
=.=

i encountered those ppl when i was in my teens. its horrible feeling ba. jsut don like it.
like theres the popular ones.. .etc... leader' type... argh. v v irritating
bitch abt u here n there.. or pretencious
nie to u, then ignored u.. join the girls chitchat group. *rolledeyes
yea... horrible memories. rrly dislike it.
ESPECIALLY the attention seeker type. do thigns or wear nice nice  jsut to attract guys attentions or be the top popular girl=.=
*facepalm
bimbo

k ba. .there goes reality

so tired even if its my off=/ dunno why

mish him alot.
so happy to contact him again.
for the first time since so long, i finally had a better night last night.
i can smile again
love sammy. my love.
=3

oh yea.mum fell. huu... worried. hope that wont affect her eye, or injured her bones=((

mata

lost weight?

actually didnt feel like blogging... but o well.
bored anyway.
just v slpy. took the relax day drink. need to get more of those tmr. hopefully still hav stocks. thought i saw it left one or none the other day
at least make me slpy and not think too much of sadness
its difficult to try and keep up with a smile these days botha t work and at home

dad asked me jsut now have i lost weight. he indicated to my cheeks.
he said i lost weight. i say no la.. dont have. he's like.. yea leh.. like youve lost weight(signal towards my face)
dunno ba. i also didnt notice much.
perhpas appetite not gd these days.
been eating half. depends ba. i lvoe food. i do eat still sometimes

man.. haven got a chance to watch insidious 2. =.=
hopefully this week i'll get to watch it. yea. .but this week. hopefully
cant wait.

man. .thought of slping early. but think theres the tv going on.. see how ba. more slp = less pain

may tmr be better=/

jaa mata

destress needed

runny nose when clearing stocks for ytd.. terrible..
glad today better
guess mustve been the dusts huh

not a very gd day..
jsut yea..
after crying for days.. tired.. emtionally strained
so tired
..dunno where to begin..

baka..

cant wait for tmr..
gonna destress if i can. dunno how.. but see how ba...=/
think imma shopthough i shouldnt..but.. owe ll
not liek anyone cares

think im too stressed out recently..
not good
dunno how to get back on track again

sighs

hate crying in bathroom. so pathetic
..let alone crying in the room at night

both body nad soul tired already..
so tired..
every ounce of energy drained

forgot to buy the night relax drink
tch..
how can i..
o well. tahan for one more night ba

jaa mata

another sad night

was so hard thinking of how to reply his msg last night. without geting too angry over it or soemthing. or too harsh. i dunno .nid to let him know how i feel. but.. not wanting to make it harsh. especially over msg.. u nvr know the tone..
 took me awhile to figure out how to write it..kinda
yea. he finally msg after so long
just a couple of words only
what to do
busy huh.. i wonder what sort of busuy he meant
tried as hard ... but still. .sometimes.. oen day .. theres always a limit.. and the limit snapped.

wonder if rgm meant somethign like this, so called i'll be disappoined by him

that sounds like a big word huh..
..o well. wil ltry not to think ba.
though still rather upset.. sighs... but what to do =/
cant force ppl to msg me if they don wan to

truth to be told, i am sad still.
=(
pointless to be sad isnt it. he shld be enjoying himself now

tch. .got a few small cuts doing stocks.. if ppl dunno, might think i get mistreated eh

sighs

mata

a fool

so slpy. lethargic day
rrly

long day.. jsut tired.. n v v slpy.
gd thing i slpt early last night. well. thoguh its stil l1130ish ba

in case you're wondering, nope. he stil ldidnt bother to msg me.
i felt liek a fool. waiting for him to skype. ha.
so baka
now i knwo.. how he treats a lady..
 cant believe it.. but well, its the truth after all

just how many times must my heart be broken...

o well...

anywy yea,.. so slpy...
wonder if its due to the drink i drank. the night relax drink thingy. gosh. was so .. slpy.. though had a ok slp.. but.. dreamt too much-/
think i need to stock up on those soon eh.
shoot. not cheap la

mm..
so yea. v v slpy still. slpt liek what in the bus jus tnow. ha
o well

tired alrdy...

feels like a fool....
being played like that.. .

sighs

mata

disappointments...rrly

and so..  yup. did u guess it?
..
he still yet to reply.. nor did he skype me..
he just left me waitig there.. like an....

perhaps im not gd enough to be on his mind that he remembers to notify me
i dunno what else.
he jsut didnt keep his words
and im truly disappointed. ...
very i am
duno what happen..// but.. sighs
o well
perhaps im ju tnot important enough to be ya kow. .reme,berd. or.. to think of or.. i dunno.. .
what went wrong

that feelign when somebody tells u .. wanna skype.. then oh in bed alrdy.. ok fine.. next day then.. .but that didnt happen..
then.. no words.. no explanation,. no apologies..
etc

uh huh.. then thats it.
just left all alone.. dunno..

tired alrdy...
no girls shouldvebeen reated this way at all
seriously

sorry. too ..hard for em to go on..

mata

no calls

sighs..
he asked shall we skype.. then he's in bed.. so i let him slp.. he said he'll call me..
but then that didnt happen..
no reply msgs..
soyea.. dunno why i  waited after all..

o well

so scary. this man on the bus. like. .keep turning his head to look at me or my phone i dunno. jsut s o freaky. other place dun wan sit, but sat down next to me . argh
nowadays im wary of weird guys. but ..o well .waht to do. they're all ard

oh hav i ever mention that when i went uss, haven meet my fren yet. due to free breakfast, so i went in first. this girl who was escorting me there, asked me if im lovcal. i say yes. she say.. oh i thought youre japanese!
XD haha. but that makes me kinda happy. lol

mm.. not been slping well lately =/
wonder how to night will be
hopefully cna slp long and hard
so tired
work stress.. personal life stress

sighs
nvm ba

probably he's slping alrdy, forget  or out to party somewhere
ow ell

haiz. k jaa mata
maybe tmr be a better cheerful day ..