fainting

had too uch blood flow going on here.. .maybe thats why im like more dizzy than ever.
last night and today. =/

though 3 days agao without time of month... me yet again felt dizzy at the counter. agan. deja vu. was ike hand on my head.. not as bad but almost aas the last time. tot i was gonna faint.
then  blood flow came last night. and dizzy...and today... dizzy worse.. yea.. =/

its terrible. feeling..

told my collegaue had heaps ofdreams. din slpt v well. she said it riaght away. youre too stressed. she said she had thta before. cos too stressed. and dreamt heaps..etc.
v uncomfy =/ .anad words.. are in my head. Loudly. like as though i was awake =/

just occured to me. .when aft shift.. my breaky sometimes might be like at 6 or so ish. menaing.. .yea. u know m e.  i din take no lunch. so yea. ..tats m first meal start of the day.
atook me abit to realized eh. im too engrossed in work
pi just.. didn trealizzed u know..

today whislt having my break i rrly tot i might faint. at one point i almost wanna call my team and tell her i might faint. ha. owell luckily i didnt

too focused on work man.. =/ i .. nid to. cos.  its for my reputations and future..and. .. yea..
if not

anyway... i jsut hoep that the bra store iwll open in sg soon. .cos.. tat store.. .sells se* toys... my colleague say thast why its not easy to find a location store for sg. ..sighs=( so sad.. ..
i rrly  wish and hop ethey do fin dit soon... im nottoo ssure yet. but.. i rrly hoep.. i;ll get to work there..
though iunknown abtthe pay and all..
 though... in au the team there. .do wear abit like yea... and the angmoh ladies are kind awild..they ...erm.. in tattoos...and... yea. leopard prints. not my style but...
yea. i woulndnt andsg store wont ..let us wear hald shirt to show our half bras ba. hahah.
but.. yea. im looking forawd to the store ooeing
hopefully soon..

my colleague tat pretty nice one. she say. .she's been crying(time ago) dunno how long ago...
.. cos one night herhubby say his ex in bed better. .. he's her first .. .u know... and .. he said somethign like that.. .how sad can she be =( such nice girl. and.. .sighs...
man...
ike comparing his exs to her.. -. =/ i feel sad for her oto. .and i know how she feels...
haiz..
stupid. so baka of men. wso insensitive.
=/
rrly

ivebeentryign to tape for my snapchat the resident evil show... omg. finally afetr the one past hr, i got gd shots=.=  like timing aint right ya know or shots aint gd enough etc. finally got some actions for it. gosh .dunno .but snapchat kinda.. fun in a way. i mean..o well
halfway watchign and blogging now... bored.


anyway.
i think tats abt it.

ptonight. .weir.d for s asat.. heaps of nice movies going on till v late night.. gosh. my slp.... T_T

mata

dizzy..back

dunno why same pace doing same thing doing cashiering.. then felt dizzy again. though not as bad as the other time i'd mentioned. but yea. was lie.. touching my head.. wonder why did i feel i out of the world dizzy for a sec there
too stressed, or overworked. i dunno . just weird sometimes

gosh late alryd. i cant wait to hit the pillow. soooo oslpy. my eyes half closed.. .

finally we're heading towards the nightmare before xmas month. .haizzzzz........... uh huh... bless me .
meep. its gonna be one hell of a ride. i catn wait to get over nov and dec!!!!!!!
omg. nightmare is coming... and.... yea. .im not sure if im ready... =/

two movies i rrly wanna watch this week and next. cant wait. when no movies to watch. theres none. when have, theres two  or three==. haiyo

kk gtg slpy like mad.

mata

my day oor week

brought work home for a lil.. so yea.. thoug i tried not to.. .but sometimes.. cant help it

today i found took out my bra padding. the bra i bought ofrm sydney.
was like. how cum uncmofy and as though theres space inbetween. though is the bra too big for me? then turned out... after i took it out, its perfect=.=
so comfy. no nid padding at all.
so yea.
gd thing i found out

they usually pt padding in ti os she said that brand f bra is design mostly for asians. ttas why alot of desigsn i cant fit cos too small for me =(
cos im not the usual flat chested type. so yea. sad i can tbuy my fav design

last week or so, i saw the actress who 'looked liek me ' said from my previous company lil fans. three girls. lol .i mentioned this before. anyway .
i saw her on tv and i really.. .see the resamblecne
. .lour cheek dimples' the way we smile .. yea. its especially when smiling.. thats the cheek dimples.. art. look most alike .
lol .
so weird. but im still me. one and only m e. no one can replace me ever.

haven eat. =/ gotta wakey early .haz. cant wait to slp soon ne

dunno when or how.. o yea. saw this gordan remsay book..
cook book.. then form thre. .watch his videos and get to know more abt him. he's so real and cool
yet kiind and swt.
like he love his wife alot. his daughters alot too.. .for a tough man liek him on tv, its always nice to see someone hwos not afraid to show some love on tv. and towards his mum. they had a comp. and he was kissing her head. and her lips too even though he found out he won.
like. in front of tv, a man in his prime age aint afraid of showing love. .wow. amazing.
especially for his tough fierce chef image. u know. yet he shows love towas his mumg

his book is exp.
in fact, i keep goig to bookstore jsut to touch and feel and looksat his cookbook... his ingredents v difficult and exp to buy... thats hwy i didnt wanna buy the cookbook. .os it slike. .buying it for what. .perhasp 10 out of200 recipes?
i dunno. .but.. im so tempted.. .wanna know hwat he's saying i his bookya know...
so curous. .. oh man.. ..=/ its like.. going into a store.. keep looking at something u wanna own.. i cna.. but i didnt want to ..yet. cos its not cheap.
o well...... liek a lil girl yearning for her lolly..

this noshup or something
restaurant in syd world square.
been following me ard or somehting liking my pics..
i know hwich store cos in chinatown i osw it always whenever i withdraw money over hte years there. its near the atm yellow balck machine

and.. i dunno i wa slike telling myself. i bett rstay away from there when im in world squaer. cos   i liek world sqaure i frequesnt htere whenever im in syd.
and. ..no knowing someone form there is looking at my pics and all. .commented once. .
but yea. .
i just.. .yea. abit freaky. i'll be careful when i walk past their store next time.

jaa mata

5mins bloggy

wanted to blog ytd but.. gforgot. just 5mins here... felt like wasted my ytd off.. .mm... o well

=/

i rrly didnt wanna get out of bed. im enoying slping so much
love to slp
just so nice to rest ur tired body . and slp away

had a long dream jusst now.. consists of quite a few ppl i think. but rrly ant remember much at all.. just felt that its a ncie long dream. not tat v v nice. but just. . ok. .

kk. gtg getting ready for another day. so fast days gone just like that. oh man

o well jaa

mc donald memories

so warm... though at night was raining i think

finally settled some work stuffs. .phew

i forgot how to be happy most of the time. bad huh
i bought the book but i nvr read it either. just a coupe of pages. =.= dang
i recalled i was laughing at a joke made mby my colleagues weeks ago. i said .. wow that feels gd. its i duno when i was happily laughing like that. . ever since that deathful' july month
..still feel like cryin gha. o well
especially when its near time of month ba. haiz.. .
but yea.. then my colleague say.. yea. cos you alwasy sad mah .
i keep quiet lor. spot on mah
but that was a gd feeling. though. .i kinda forgot how it felt... o well

talking abt itstill makes me sad. . teary liao ha

oh ya. mc donald. lets say it mc.
so i was cravin gfor fries with chili sauce. wanted to go to the mall's one. but my colleague say go to the quieter one. at princess there. i was like.. .eh.. sounds familair. like the movie there.. .then there i walk...by her instructions. .then i was like. ..erm..... o..k... thats the mc i used to frequent with him when i stayover at his place== ha
the place where he first drew my nickname owith chili sauce on the paperon the plate.
i was like. .o..k... thats...yea. .coincidence eh... ha.
so weird. so o well. jjust eat lor.
food at that area not bad.
can rrly explore. but dislike the way ppl look at me. jsut os im dressy. alrdy doin gmy best to dress down k.. haiz.

wanna talk more.. but... bored.

took some pics i rrly2 like at aquarium that day. ha.
selfie also. soyea. rrly like it XD
gosh. say wanna upload since before new lappy. now hav new lappy and haven upload anything=.=

ha

gdnight all
slptight and swtdreams.

im going to my lalaland in abit.. my fav lalaland to escape all worries and troubles.
but ...sometimes still bu,ped into it =.= exp alwasy dreamt that im working. haizzzzz

jaa mata

stressful day =/

omgggg gomen. =/ had wanted to blog ytd but so tired and slpy

huu.. been away for so long =//
haiz

over the wekeend spend time with family. cos long story. cos mum had some tickets from company.. but turned out to be... some boring place. so plan B yea

anyway, its abt once a year... so yea. i know. we hardly spend time together as a whole family

mm... sighs. so stress today=(
things to get complete today are loads. yet this t member say shes sick. so.. .i dunno why am i always the one rushing to get work complete ono time
am i rrly pushing myself too hard= /

sighs
then got home .saw bro having ice cream. straight away i took it too. chocolate flav. destress and to relieve tension
had a nice bowl of ramen today too. yummy soup.

sighs.. i rrly hope to get the work completed by tmr
=/
so tired out
cant wait for the weekend u know
 though busy, yet a good thing time passed faster

oh .haha. did i mentioned that few weeks back ktv session
this girl group. 4 girls i think? my fren say only one undergone sugergy (ubt she looks freaky. =( face too fake)
they are called korean's ugliest girl group. sad right=/
haizheard of their name before. but now i forget

then saw anothre group. tara or dunno which one. my fren was like saying.. they all look the same dunno who is who
XD
lol. told u right. i said the same thing longgg ago. haha. so im not the only one who realises that haha
maybe they go under company's same cosmetic surgery ba . one doc changes all korean artises. maybe

dunno what else to type..

just mind blank.

had the porridge at bedok recently.. the other day... brings backk memories... anyway. sadly its not as nice as i remember. not taht spicy though i added heaps of pepper. or is my spicy intake increases lots over the years ?
dunno bah. just find it abit bland. okok only. my block hawker is nicer. my hawker here rrly alot of nice food haha.

sometimes i wish to go  back being simple.. .and not stressing so much.. .

our job.. many ppl quit especially newbies. ha. mia or say mc sick ba c kache..etc
haiz
turnover v high

becos they all thought oh high pay. relax job. dress pretty2
=.=
gosh. they couldntve been more wrong
even rgm say she thinks so too. cos on the outside ppl see that we all everyday dress up pretty2. nice2. like glamarous, but actually tehres alot of hardwork. rgm said so herself ne... the angmoh one.
yeaaaa hardworkkkkkkkkk

kk gtg slp liao. bro say bedbug still at sofa. dunno ba. as long as it don crawl to my mat can liao

another battle dxay ahhead. i gotta stay strong
hate those words but o well

jaa mata

time out for my off

heyy... .its just been crazy... for work ya knw.. blah3. ..before i off after work, i visited my much love previosu team .. .it ws so great to see tham again they hugged me the moment they saw me..
yea... i wa reluctant t o leaave.. but what can i do =/ ...

anyayw, haiz. though tired, yet i had such a long day out with a rare triip with family .yea.  we head out.. like.. abt once a year as a family? something like thazt=.= ikr... pathetic. or rather..more than once a year. haiz.. anyway.  ., nonetheless, its great to hang out together... i do my best to forget aabt work. .to ignored the msgsof work.. .etc...

so tired. so slpy. btu i pulled on

gnna try slp in abit. super early to me. but yea.

 how i wish... to hav someone hug me to slp and tell me that  when i wake up, everthing is ognna be ok....

i think i might be getting alil emtional now as the time of month is closing in...

anywya...

mm.. yup.

jaa mata