Always A Great day With Him Around

ok... gonna make this real fast... cos must slp soon!! ytd.. stay up till 3am becos of playing game.. ha. then this morning wakey so early to go out settle some stuffs. then had break with raz.. the timing was good. soon after, me able to meet sam. :)

both of us.. so sleepy.. me even fall aslp on his lap while he was playing psp. ha. like that also can slp. he never slp early.. oh well.. so. yup. 2 slpy tired ppl. ha

so.. yes. its been another long day for me. off day gone just like that. another coming up in the wkend.. after that, back to one day off per week. sianz.. ..

hm.. guess... me not able to get my money back.. :( huu.....

hm... oh.. so.. we were walking ard town... ...sun hot.. woosh. ..hm.. then... had coffee at starbucks.. after we sat down and rest. then we get up, and head off again.. this time, feeling more refreshed. then... he keep pushing me to shops.. XD omg.. and finally me bought a blouse. comfy one. hee. he's right u know! XD i need a new pair of shorts. theres a very2 comfy pair.. but.. a pity no new piece and my size.. so nice just to shop like that.. ..today really din feel comfy at all with what im wearing today. especially the jeans.. ha.

hm... ....so yup.. went out ard 10.30am.. came back at 9.30pm.. ..its just so great to spend time with the one u love. nothing else matters. its just so comfy..and nice..sweet. stressless. ..really happy to hear that he had a nice day out with me.. just want him to be happy... ..

but... he mentioned that 2 words.. maybe doesnt mean it?.. dunno.. but ..really2 sad.. ..well.. ..foget it ne..

hm.. hope his mum wont be giving him a hard time now.. ..really wish he can just bath and slp.. .. i hope he's fine.. ...hm.. worry...

then sam and i went to eat at this jap restaurant.. wanko? XD haha.. anyway, the sake apple drink taste really nice. :) then sam keep saying im drunk. bleahx!! dun have! XD

tmr.. me will be at that boring workplace again.. ...argh... so bored! don think me gonna go out eat tmr. just close shop and break inside. bring bread or something. no mood go out eat... argh.. especially somemore the banquet.. dunno how to go already.. redz brought me there once.. but me forgot.. ha.

hm... ... tch... missing9.... ... :(

oh.. my little finger hurts so much. last night after playing for hours. should get a bigger taller one?? hm.. ... see how ne.. .. gosh.. like can move at all. ha. my poor finger. :P oh yes.. was staring hard at the screen last night.. 3 or 4 hours straight.. x_x haha..

kk, gtg! wanna slp! hm. .if only today got the movie ice age 3... ...wow.. it'll be really great. well.. thurs.. will be another great day ne.. cos got him to look forward to.. ..Always.. ...but after he's gone.. theres almost nothing to look forward to in life... after work.. off day... ... ...heart always hurts so much whenever thought of that.. ..but.. .. well.... still got this web thingy huh.. .. just rush home every time after work to on it.. hoping to 'see' him there.. perhaps.. that'll be what im looking forward to already huh..

...sigh... .... heart aching. kk, gtg....

mata.....

Been Taught Well ;)

yipee!! me finally figured out something out my lappy!! ^^! hehe.. happy..

oh.... tonight me gonna be slping late. after my off tmr, i'll be back to mad work again.. hm.. sort of. ha. lets just say alot of boring fullshifts.

anyway, this morning me found out that afew more stuffs me haven get to try out in lappy.. and now.. yup. found out about it. and.. yup. :) hehehe. cos previously busy with..ahem.. learning how to do...'that' one.. so.. yup. now... okok bah.. so.. yeah. ha. tonight gonna try out some games never touch before. XD huhu. :P

hm... ..ok.. today boring as usual without fail.. but.. dunno why got energy. perhaps over the past few aftnoons, me got enuff slp. hm.. ytd.. not too well though.. especially with my tummy ache.. argh.. not been nice slp for 2 nights or so?

anyway, tmr.. me need to settle some stuffs.. cant wait ;) then... hm.. got lots of news..back at my workplace.. ppl backstabing each other.. rumours.. this kind of matters, for me,and so i've been taught well(thanks mum;) ), i've got no qulams about it. thats none of my business, let them handle all these kind of rubbish outta the work problems. i've got no part in it. and me glad. ;) these kind of talks.. backstabs or whatsoever, i've been taught since young(love u mum;) ) not to get involve in them. ppl wanna talk or meddle whatsoever, let them be. i dun wanna get myself involve in this kind of futile human matters.

my boss... omg... listen to this.. now we can no longer close shop to eat outside. -_- what the heck!?? omg... must eat after 2pm, canot close shop at all when you're all alone in a shop... aka = no break time. -_- whoa.... ...remind me where am i working at??? argh... so..unreasonable..

haha. .today bought aand eat rocky road again.. this time try the fudge rocky road. taste abit funny.. prefer the original one.. but sold out.. .. oh... think me betetr start buying lots of cup noodles.. maybe tmr.. cos from the way i see things go. me can spend up to $10 a day at my workplace cos of candy empire!! XD all those special unique chocos..rocky road... omg.. :P ^^ hehe

hm... .... just got a bad news... ....me... sigh... thoguht can get my $100 back.. .. :(.. sigh.. ..see how bah.. ....

mata

The Magical Kiss

..whoa.. today is so totally different from ytd. im so full!! cos eat so late! hungry for so long sia.. wait for razali lor.. say wanna come to have dinner.. then took him so long. ha. but its kinda fun.. and nice.. very nice. becos end up 3 staffs eating in my shop.. yup.. all take away and eat in the shop. then sit and eat together.. ah.. nice.. at least for an hour im not bored at all. so.. yup. its a nice night. tmr.. haiz.. that i cant say.. sure bored.. me better bring a book there to read. hm.. ....so.. yup. ..that was my day...

hm.. aftnoon.. ..sam drop by.. ..hm.. said hi.. then left.. ..i got my hair ruffled at by this big warm hand.. before getting a kiss planted onto my head.. the kiss.. somehow it felt so special.. at that moment.. dunno how to describe it.. but it felt so.... Magical. ...yeah.. thats the best word to describe i guess. im sure he felt something too.. .. ..that time.. hm.. my mind still trying to think things through about some stuffs.. so... my smile isnt there yet.. that kissy na... ...hm... ...somehow as if asking me to wake up.... weird sensation went through my whole body. .. ..as though... i've never been kiss for a very long3 time..

..hm...... ...tmr.. im sure will be a boring day... but i hope.. to get it through fast.. for i cant wait for my off day to come.

sales been real bad this weekend. .. ..sigh........ stress.. but.. what to do.. .. the customers doesnt seem to be buying any expensive toys anymore. i hope for better tmr. tmr.. a monday huh.. .. ..wish me luck....

..i hope my day will be better than today for tmr. ..last night.. din slp well.. ..very uncomfy.. morning.. aftnoon.. argh...

hm.. now very2 full.. ..dunno whether can slp anot.. ..oh.. even ate a small bowl of dessert.. plus a bar of cookies and cream rocky road! ha.. craving for that... hm.. tmr full... .. hopefully can have a nice slp.. ..and.. yeah.. hope to wake up to a very nice day.. ...hm.. nvm.. nice day would be enough.. ..

mata ne.. ..

The Past That Matters

..omg.. i just realised im taking something really bad... cos haven eat!! me empty stomach! then took... ... yeah oh well.

i'll just be mentioning abit about today. cos certain things dun bother to type it out. or... i should?.. .. .. i dunno man.. .. he never msg me till like so long? then never tell me he's coming.. then im like.. ... haiz.. dunno man.. .. then he never come cos me never reply back. ...-_- but he never even say wanna come! thats why i tell him.. ..if he really wanna come, he would've really come already. ..when he msg me not coming,... it only left me thinking how bad i am..to miss out on seeing him. even for a few mins.. every secs counts.. .. really2 counts... .. our time.. ...we don have much already... *cry...

..k.. today feel so much anger in me.. nothing much to kick ard.. so.. spin some cards racket.. kick abit.. poke abit.. and yup. thats my bad evening. oh no. actually from the aftnoon i knew something wasnt right. i dunno. i just don feel right. wanted to take abit of dinner today. but blah3... end up no mood to eat anymore. wanna know what i've eaten the whole day? erm.. lets see... at ard 2plus.. a bowl of wanton noodles. thats it. was talking to adilah..late evening.. sudden felt this sharp in my stomach. twice. but cant be bother. a meal a day wont kill me. then.. lets see.. mum justa sked if if i'd taken my dinner. i felt guilty.. i look at the floor and say yes softly. i cant look into her eyes.. sure she's gonna see through im telling a lie..

ironically... i was looking at my alc bottle last night.. thinking so long since i touch it. and well, i get to touch it tonight.

...sianz.... so sianz.... ....

.....and so this happen.. ...thought i could get a chance to joke him about it.. .. not say joke.. but.. ... oh well. ..so.. he said i could just go ahead and look it through. and so...i decided ok...just do it then.. and....... ..lets just say the results i found wasnt expected. it come across as shocking abit.. surprise.. and.... ... wondering if that actally matters to me. ...i wanna find the answer of how i feel inside of me.i wanna know should i be bother by this. ...perhaps... within days i should be able to let it rest. ..hopefully.... ..i wish.

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erm.. oh.. why am i talking so much here.. ..

ok.. so.. one interesting thing happen. not say interesting.. theres this customer ask me for the cd im playing.. cos he wanna find out the song name of this music we're playing. i say cant. cos thats a burned cd. from my colleague. he say he really wanna knnow. cos that music is from this.. dunno what dj... or whatever song playing in mos.. or dunno what. he say very nice. then this part.. ha. i say the song like..very hypnotizing he say yes.. you take PILLS with that song, very nice.. i look at him for one sec, then he say.. no! not asking you to do that ar! lol. left me thinking.. hm... pills huh.. ..-_- geez...

oh.. that day, sales was sooo bad that i heard mansoor was so stress till he took 6 pills -_- oh my goodness. me never ask him.. but.. wow.. seriously, this company give us nothing but stress. all of us.

...hm... ....dunno if i should eat anot.. no mood.. tired also.. .. hopefully tmr can slp till late again then wakey. ..

...sigh.................

... ... bothering day... ..

...was shocke dwhen mum remind me that today is sat. -_- so fast.. me totally caught unexected. like.. yeah.. so fast.. july is coming.. ..

...my birthday month ka....?.. .. ...sigh.. ...

chalet... its after my b'day month.. ... ...really drag going man.. ... having the thought of staying overnight there, gives me chills... -_- omg... kill me.. who wanna shares the same under one roof with the bosses for even a night?? -_- eew.. ha

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...i think. ...i should be able to feel better soon.. just need to.. erm.. yeah.. ..find out what am i thinking about just now 'that'. .. after i figured it out,.. would be ok ne.. .. hm...

.....well.. din expect me to type so much.. ..guess.. ..i still cant resist.. .. but.. certain part been cancelled off.. dun wanna mention it.. .. drag it.. ..

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mata.....

The Past Shall Be Forgotten

omg... so nice to be home!!! XD haha... me really3 cant wait for the next 4 months to come! argh!! almost cant stand it!

...hm.. ytd.. watched trnsformers twice. wow.. never done that before. haha.. once in the morning, another in the night. but 2nd time.. ohw ell, understand abit better. met sam's fren. frenster fren. hm.. first time meet his frenster fren bah.. but... okok.. hm... ...she brought along alot of other ppl.. so... ..yeah.. watch together. ..quite fine. hm... yup.. .. ..makes me think of...lets just say alot of things..

hm... ..... morning we went watch that movie.. ..while waiting for his fren to arrive, we walk ard.. town.. ps.. cathay.. then we're trying to catch this cinnamoroll plushy.. big one. reall3 cute and fluffy. XD haha... but.. well... quite a few attempts almost caught it.. but... .. haiz.. too bad. its alrite.. at least i got the memories.. ne?

read abi of sam's....ex journal. din read it too clearly.. cos he wont let me. -_- just the first few lines.. ..about what.. drinking lots of vodka. ..hm... .. :( me sad.. like.. .. i cant imagine he got that kind of a past.. ..he seems to have... ..almost everything.. nothing much to worry about. but... not fully. im glad he's..alrite now. so much happier now i hope.. and... me glad to be by his side all this while..and to witness his smiles and happiness. so... yup.. ..glad that all happened. he's right.. whats past is past.. me really2 grateful and thank god for whatever brought him to this right track.. and whatever makes him the way he is now,.. he's full of smiles.. bright and cheerful now.. anger.. not so much..though sometimes..caused by his parents..or afew times me? XD haha.. sorry.. :P he..should be fine now.. busy uni waiting for him.. ..he can make it ne.. .. as long as.. he's back onto this right track.. and stay away from alc XD ha. hm... oh well.. i just hope uni life would not be so 'messy' and complicated.. especially the ppl there.. :( kinda worrying.. well, will always be praying for him.. worry is a must. ..missing... is a must too. .. in anycase, a lot of musts! haha.

hm.. today... mansoor called the shop.. cos i wasnt in. so he was asking the other staff where i am. she say me went to eat. then he's like.. i start what time only.. how come so fast go eat already. i was like... wth... ppl wanna eat what time its their choice ar.. somemore me whole day never eat.. of course wanna eat at ard 5.30 the max. somemore me eat at the none busy time.. what? want me to to eat at 7, or 6 ar.. then if sales all gone, don blame me. tsk

but me heard one great enws though. hohohoho...*so evil.. XD erm.. that milo.. that auntie2.. got scolded or blame becos she trun the shop unside down. :P hohohoho.... the boss ask her to maintain the way before she's here. not like change it to another outlet. hehe.. even mansoor was saying me sure would be so happy to hear this. haha... whatever ar.. let her anyhow put the things.. or dunno whatever. then make a mess, and they shall see who can handle that busy shop better. tsk

...hm... .. slpt till 2 today.. wont wakey if not for work.. ...tired still.... ...hm...........

next month.. my company is having 3 days of bbq chalet... omg... sianz.. does feel like going sia... ... dunno who else would be going.. ..hm.... dunno ar... see how.. argh.. sianz3..... hm. hope the partimers are able to go though..

...k... gotta go... so tired.. my lunch cum dinner is so little.. doesnt even fill me up.. -_- too tired to eat ar.. ha.. feel like slping early.. hm.. dunno.. see how..

oh.. my boss arrive last min before wanna close shop. then ask to put tv.. omg.. lucky he left early.. so irritating.. always disturb ppl's closing time. -_- ha

mata

Back To Threesome Day

tired long day man… hm.. oh well… managed to get pass my day..safely. haha sales good. me really glad. my first day after all. and glad redz my fren is there for today. show me where the foodcourt is.so yup.. had lunch together.. and at least.. reali.. not that bored when you’re all alone on your first day. and erm.. brought along my lappy. haha.. at my very own risk!! whoa.. imagine the look on my bosses when they find out. ha. anyway, theres nothihng i cant handle. hahaha.. yup.. busy for a few hours.. hm.. very quiet place.. without lappy, realli dunno what to do.. sit on the chair for hourss?? i don think so.

then… hm.. finally..nothing much to do online already.. msn..facebook..all done.. bored.. then.. thought of the horror game hotel 626. but not yet 6pm..thus cant play.. then.. no choice.. check out my gaia online.. my fren aint there.. so.. walk2 ard in that world.. then… yeah.. time for me to get ready for closing time. ha

tmr.. gosh.. gotta wakey very early. hm.. well.. me need to get some stuffs.. ..so.. … eh.. anyway , after work, me and redz head to town and waited for bro finish work..then had supper. hm.. went to take with redz..then…far east..then…eh.. yeah. find bro.. then bro shock to see us. lol. erm.. then.. just buy a drink, and waited for him…..

ate at boat quay.. hm.. so long never been there.. the atmosphere as usual.. full of that ‘kind’ of womens.. and mans..lots of angmohs. alone theer for a girl realli aint good.. scary.

redz.. hm.. i guess we got about the same thoughts.. he dun wan his position as a manger he said.. after rested for 2 months, he’s gonna work part time. he’s tired of so many work for him to handle.. under such low pay.. he say.. my bro’s pay even higher than his. lol. he just wanna listen to ppl telling him what to do now.. instead of him doing so much work..and the bosses keep giving his workloads and stress.

haha… this angmoh customer commented my very blue eyes are beaautiful. LOL!!XD!! wow… like so… lol.. funny.. hahahaha!! but ok ar.. ncie compliment..

hm… .. so long never been out with bro and redz like this already.. .. sudden reminded me of the past.. where thata time me still single.. ..though happy to laugh ard.. going out.. ..still.. beneathe that smile.. theres always something missing..yeah…behind those smiles.. now… ….i finally got someone i can smile to(for). and yes.. .. yokata na.. honto desu..

hmm… think wanna rest early bah.. so tired… ..but…. eh.. ..hm… … dunno. hahaha… hm… so tired………..

isnt it great… … if you can ever meet someone you really love…and tell them that you love them so much..? and they do the same wa too….i wonder.. ..how many ppl in this world actually get to do that…

sometimes.. i can feel so super insecure.. ..that really sucks.. grr..

mata

Bloody Blood Boiled Day

argh... had wanted to blog in the night as usual.. but.. tch. bloody pissed off now. all thx to some freaking downloading system. testing my darn patience. idiot.... darn angry. darn bad mood. bloody spoil my of day.

been sitting in front here for like..5hrs already. freaking sianz sia. not say nothing to do. but.. cos of that stupid thing, me no mood to do anything already. freaking hell. stuck at home.. wanted to go check out my new outlet, but.. argh.. dunno la. might as well if wanna get lost, tmr also can. hope can find on time bah.

argh.......... so pissed off man. think i wanna stay clear of gadgets for the whole one night. before i slp then look again. -_- ...hm.. say2 only i think... ..dunno.

oh.. then my bro is saying my eyes are gonna pop out already. cos been sitting with my lappy on for so long. me kinda scared about tmr.. ..tch. me very blur wan.. dunno if i can find he place anot.. ..shoot.. . .what to do. no choice. just gotta do it on my own. keeping my fingers crossed.. ..hopefully all well ends well. argh............. sianz.

seems like everyone's busy. ...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... -_-

..i wonder if i done something wrong with the games.. ...sianz. -_-

anyway.............. ...

me had lots of dreams about work today. -_- got working at the new outlet one.. got about dunno ar.. all about work. sianz. freaking sianz. even my fren also can tell i sond so stress and moodless. ..not say stress... but... tch. really freaking boring. argh...............

tch

ahhhhhh.!! forget it la. duno why im still here. say gt already wat.. no gadgets for the day!! ..erm.. except for phone abit..

oh.. .. and.. hm.. .... tch.. wonder what is life.

sorry, when angry, me = negative.

tch. so wanna go out.. .. after dinner bah. hopefully .

actually... got all the time to do my stuffs, and clear my stuffs. but.. argh.. bloody hell. no mood. pissed off. not gonna do for today already. tch...

mata!!!