Not So Happy Day =/

ahh... its a lil boring today.. but.. with the companies of bro and redz,.. yeah.. things are better.. =/ kinda.
sometimes still feels really left out... :(
..
i don know what i am in this family.

hm....... oh.. now i confirmed one matter.. hahaha... when me really hungry(in bad mood), feeling down, in deep thoughts, or sad, me cant walk on the streets.. cos if i do, someone bump into me, i'll go nasty. lol!!
yeah it happened again ytd!! XD!
hahaha.. but this philipino woman really bumped me hard!! then me so hungry.. me went' tch!!!' loud abit bah :P hahaha.. then she apologize. lol
but very rude ne.. me really dont like rude things like these. but.. what to do.. its auto reflex! haiz.. like theres a evil ego me there.. so frightening. im trying to change.. erm.. somehow.. haiyo. auto thigny difficult to control ne.. =/ but me dislike rudeness to the core. really hate it. that swhy dislike cursing. but still, lol.. cos of my frens, i started at it too. haiz.................. dread it. well, can control this one. so no prob. ;) still me :)

..have u ever doubt say...... ppl.. whom u care.. ... hmm...... =/
nothing actually.. sometimes i just wonder how much can the extent or limit a person's concern can go.
sometimes.. life.. busyness, blinded us.. from seeing whats the truth behind. we couldnt notice.. we couldnt see.. we never realise. ..so..blinded.. dont we all need some quiet time altogether, to settle down, and see what have we been negleting or missing out.

hmm............. sometimes i question myself.. whats there to doubt.

oh.. u know.. i really dont wish to go back to those months.. now that i think back, its very scary... i was always crying after he left.. i couldnt eat well.. everynight i was crying too.. a meal a day, or none.. always feeling so upset.
its pathetic. cos its like.. well, a part of u being taken away, and.. its really so hard to adapt back to ur old life again. its like happiness being snatched away from u.
it was so painful..
it took me monthssss before i realised how to stop all these.
well, lets just say the method works abit, but not the best method around =/ but i gotta do it.
i dont wanan end up like that again

hm.. sometimes i think heading out beats better than staying at home. i dunno.. something isnt in the right place. its confusing me.

huu.. so tired..
:( so sad.. really wish to give sammy a call now. its just a mere 10mins! he's off to slp.. then me.. o well.. =/
i guess its gonna be like that.. another thing for me to get used to. we cant expect to chat everyday. there'll always be some silence at bounds.

hm.. k.. think me.. slp later bah.. =/

mata

Shoes, Done!

hmm..... gosh............ i sat for 4 straight hours without getting up!! bacause redz wanna rebond his hair, and colour it. guys... -_- haha. he's so particular about his hair. most men like that eh.
=.=
hhahaha
so..yup. he asked me to accompany him. omg.. sooo long.. 4 hours!! killing my back and neck.. i need a massage!! huu... been needing one u know.. so in need of it. =/

hmm... then ar... we meet bro for dinner.. then redz decided that we wait for him to knock off. cos anyway he's knocking off in 3 hours time. we ate alot of kfc. me took 3 pcs of chicken! XD
one marsh potatoe, and a cuppa drink.full.. ha.. now they're eating again. :)

hmm.. me and redz then walk around.. he wanna get a pair of jeans.. and bro's xmas pressy.. lol! i told them what i want for xmas already!! every year i have no idea. but this year its different. i know what i want! yay! lol.
its a receipe book. or rather a file. something to store and write ur receipes in. :) cooool :) love it^^ really hope can get it.

hm... oh... then me saw this shoes.. yeah.. caught my eyes the moment i see it.. so.. yup.
asked redz and the sales lady for some opinions.. to make sure my taste is alrite too.. and well, bought it. cool. now i wont have to worry about getting my feel wet when its raining :) but wont wear it now. heh. :)
did thought of getting it in aussy.. but.. i know myself.. if in case aussy doesnt have a pair i like, i;ll sure regret why didnt i buy it today. so.. yup. want no regrets. and bought the pair of shoes. yeah.. thats me.. so difficult to find something i like. =/ o well.. haha

today went to get a speaker.. for my lappy. really too soft ar.. the sound quality.. =/ so yup... bought a new set.. hm,.. saw a mouse.. really like it. its a gaming mouse though. but i dont mind. then see the price, lol. forget it .huu..
after the shoes,.. time for me to be extra tight budget eh. hmm.. but.. dunno ne.. should i really be spending lots on a good mouse? i love that brand sammy using too.. but... at this timing,... hm.. can i afford it?.. ..
well.. shall see. which ever mouse catches my eye. yeah.. today 3 mouse caught my eye. but all too expensive :( so.. o well.. and 2 of them are sooo unique!! huu... its from japan. sigh. o well...

hm.. ok.. so.. thats about it.. hm.. gonna test out my speaker now. cant wait.

mata!

Walking Long...

just done with my shower.. yeah i know its late.. was waiting for sma to hit the sack first..
glad he enjoyed his day.. he deserved it ne..

my day? gosh............
i don even know where to begin typing..
erm.. first.. me went to collect my visa and tickets.. then.. head to pp with the intention of changing my money.. but omg... -_- dunno what happen, the rates all up sooo high. -_- what a wasted trip.
hmm.. bought a packet of instant hot and spicy ramen.. then a chilli sauce.. :P
hm...
then 2 cup noodles. lol. all darn spicy. ha

tehn.. head to my workplace.. aww.. miss them.. hm.. then.. drop by redz workplace.. then went to ion.. wait for my bro to knockoff... omg.. waiting3............ walking3............. alot u know..
then before redz arrive, we went in this supermarket. omg........... they got the best chilli. erm not say best. haha.
theres this chilli sauce, cost $8 plus. another small bottle of chilli powder, cost $22 plus. -_-......
wow.
but its special.. thats why exp. and its not local. sigh..
then i thought of what i said in my previous blog.. since end of world is coming, i dont have to bother so much on money.
but still... gosh. its in my blood... i cant do it. so..never buy.. :(
huu.. plus theres this $14.90 chilli oil!! omg........ really wanted it soooo much.. huu......
:(

hmm.......... ... we had dinner at thai express... hm....... not bad... omg.. they got the yellow ginger tofu!! its good :D heee...
the prawn something also vey very cripsy..

hm...... gosh.. i think tmr might wanan wakey very early... hmm.. so late already.. how ar... ...=/
miss doing that. hm.. k.. think me wakey early ah. :)
ah. back home.. then watch dvd.. REC. hm.. yeah.. we walked alot today. wow.. me and mum. yup..
glad she off tmr. otherwise will be tired for her ne..

..

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how much can u feel a person's concern towards u....

mata

2012 What Would U Do

great news :)
the stocks has dropped yet again. but so sad!:( me cant go change today. haiyo.. wrong timing.. but i hope tmr will still drop somemore.. shall see how tmr.

yesterday.. its abit different.. im talking about my fren's birthday bbq.
its like.. yeah.. yeah.. quite alot of ppl.. come and go.. come and go.. unlike that time.. my fren's bbq, they come, stay longer, then go off in one group or so. last night was like.. mix2 here and there.. come and go.. haha.. confusing :P

hm... yeah.. nice night..
food.. ok ba..
hm.. yup. not bad bah..
o well

then in the middle of the night, ppl started to talk about ghost stories..
about 2012

hmm..... talking about 2012..
lets cut to the chase shall we.
the disturbing thing is, the guy who predicted it, is the one who predicted the titanic and tsunami.
and he's right on them. but no one belive him at the time.
and i didnt know till last night theres actually a fire comet passes by downtown east in year 2000. everybosy who's there to celebrate, saw it.
wow.

hmm..... then the girls there were like saying.. they don care. they are so gonna get married in jan. or early next year. and gonna have children before end of world is here.
dec 21 2012.

:(........
i know.........
heres the thing.... alot of ppl are skeptics. i think including sam.
but.............
..lets say what if.
ok.. its a what if.
this matter is true. some ppl dont belive its gonna happen, yet it will. let ssay its that case. i mena.. woulnt it be utterly pathetic when u realised its really the end of world, and u never cherish anything around u, or do anythign u've always wanted.
wouldnt that be such great regrets?

ok.. lets talk about me here...
hmmm
..
if say its true.. ..i guess i know how those girls feel when they say they wanna get married now.
hmm..
i'll like to improve on my languages ability..
i'll treat myself well.. treat my mum better..
hm...
cherish and treasure sammy all the more..
hm. .do whatever i like...even if it means abit bad. lol. hm..
lets see.. will try not to get stress at anything else much..
since world is ending right. hahaha...
hm......
money issue.. wouldnt be a prob anymore..
no need to consider about so much now......
can do anything i want without hesitations..
freedom eh..

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o well...

hm.. waiting for sammy to get home.. now watching tv.. then gonna wait for bro to come home.. then can have dinner together with redz too..
yeah.. gonna have a nice dinner.
me whipped up pasta today :)
its good ^^
each time i cook a new dish, i learn something new. and i love it.

hm.. after the aussy holiday.. .. i wonder if there'll be any other chance..
who knows.. theres the 2012.. might be abit tad too difficult to save up huh.. but.. well, who knows the future..

hmm.......
haven eaten anything yet.. not hungry.. weird..
but had a small bowl of pasta just now.. later tehn eat with bro and redz.. yeah.. for his birthday. ha

mata

First Day Of Freedom

hmm.... ok.. so.. today is my first day of getting back to 'real' life.. haha.. erm.. not abd.. me feeling happy... hm... cleaned up my room abit.. but...... huu.. T_T got a runny nose now cos of teh dusts.. :( yeah.. me very sensitive to that.. so.. will bit by bit clean i guess.. =/

gosh.. now im so worried about my tickets and visa.. so troublesome to print them out!:( huu... i hope my frens have a printer.. one day no print out, me dont feel safe :( like a big stone lying in my heart.. so scary.. i wanna settle the tix soon.. =/

today.. wow. .so happy to cook again! :D haha... cool. :) really happy to be in the kitchen. :)
exercise abit, clean up, cleared my photos.. memory card.. cool.. :) not bad for the day. just that my nose... haiyo.. still sneezy..

i hope tmr will be a great day with a perfect weather.
tmr redz's birthday! omg.. he invited me and bro to his birthday bbq. wow.. i hope this will be fun. anyway know quite afew ppl there.. so should be alrite.. i just hope the fire can be started! haha..

hm.. tired...
sleepy ba ne..
today auto wakey early.
hm..
yeah.. tmr wonde rwhat to settle next.. need to make a trip down to p.p soon..
when the stock market is right. yeah. .change all money.
k.. gonna do my nails now.. wow. .another thing to do.. sooo long never done that =/

mata ne!

Abit Sad To Leave Ne.. T_T

hmm.. was feeling a lil sad.. down.. cos.. its like. all the fun at work.. no longer there.. :( .. sigh.. sad... but..well.... what to do..
gonna miss everyone, and all the fun i had.. :( huu.........

gosh.. now i feel so sleepy........ gonna slp asap after online!!
yawn*..........

hm.. morning... soo busy. tons of stocks to do. non stop for 3 hours straight. alone doing it. then boss came down.. argh. gosh. what a last working day. -_- not good. kidna busy whole day.
hm.......... .. kinda couldnt belive its really over.. ..=/
my boss ask me call him when im back.. haiyo.. -_-

hm.......... oh! i think its ytd. my fren nisa say she dreamt of me eating mee goreng! and true enough. i ate mee goreng that night!! O.O... she say me wearing dark blue.. but actually me wearing light blue! i ask her if me wearing spec in her dream>? she say no..
but i did.. haha. if she say yes,.. OMG... shocking sia..
haha., hm.. yeah.. interesting:)

wow.. just now izuan.. passed me a farewell card so suddenly... aww
me really happy. .so touched :) and when he gib me, so funny! the atmosphere is so right! background playing a chinese romantic slow song.. wah... so nice sia.. so touching. haha :)
yeah. what a sweet surprised :)

theres this lil girl.. sometimes will drop by our shop with her bro. her name is ahshikha. haha.. she hug me today!! then also hug my arm so tight.. like.. aw..
haha.. first time i think.. a lil girl hug me like that . haha.. was so surprised. lol.

hm.. well.. overall... its a bad last day for me.. hahaha.. so many thigns went wrong early morning.. geez..

hm......... yeah. .had a last meal with nisa in aftnoon.. then at night also eat again.. hm.. :( sad ne..
nisa always ask me take pics with her... :( sooo gonna miss doing that.. as well as her. sigh.. :( ...

well.. guess imma start all new days now.. hm......... yeah.. so many things to settle now..
perhaps tmr get to cook! haha
shall see..
hm.. yeah.. gonna see how my new days be like.. gonna start all over again without a job days..

mata ne

Expensive Cut

haiyo... sooo full ne.. cant join bro and redz for supper tonight...

wow.. so fast ne. less than a month's time.. to prepare my trip.. and be happy again.. ...
hmm.. so many places to go.. and buy.. o well.. my visa.. haiyo...
oh.. perhaps ask my manager to help?.. haiyo.. ee..

hmm... sooo sleepy...
lets see...
after work.. trim my hair alil.. gosh!!waited for sooo long before they cut my hair! argh! and soo expensive somemore :( huu....
but.. hm.. okok la.. haiz.
at least not bad can le..
ha.. so surprised when they shampoo my hair first thign before cut.
hm.. then.. window shop around.. trying to keep my budget down right now... =/
o well.........
hm... yeah.. long day..

..gosh.. tmr working with soul.. omg.. been ages since we work together.. hmm...
...tch.. o well...... see how ab..
so gonna remember my day tmr.. last day..

haha.. my boss in good mood eh?.. asking me if im gonan have a farewell party.. going pub or where to celebrate anot.. hahaha... i say no.. then he's like.. why ar.. ,my relationship with my frens like that ar.. haha.. geez.. -_-
o well... as if we got alot of money ar.. -_-
anyway, when he walk outta the shop, he mentioned.. ok.. we shall see ar.. whether we'll have a surprise party anot..
... dots.. as if!! -_-

hmm... =/ these few days stop feeling so hungry now though.. today had one meal.. and im full..
*yawn..
-_-.. sleepy ne..
last night slept for 10hours.. still aint enough..

mata