Sickening Off Days

dunno what to do.. nothing to do.. so blog ba... =/ then at night dont have to do so alreyad..

gosh.. since from the early morning me wakey, till now, night alreayd.. my nose still keep runny... haiz... i feel so sleepy and weak. so far haven gotten any good rest yet. =/

what to do.. tmr back to work already.. off gotta wait till next week then have.. o well..
no time to rest le.

sigh.. sooo irritating.. maybe becos me never slp well? dunno ba.. sianz.... i hate today.

o well.. what to do..
just hang on till slping time ba.
what an off day. =/

hm.. todya.. basically nothing much to do. just feeling sleepy and sick. weak. and yeah... hm. .dunno wanna make a trip to ntuc anot.. nothing to do.. feel so sianz... =/ haiz.........
o wel..

cya tmr.. haiz....... hope tmr will be a better day this time... =/
if not, i come back to complain k. o well..

mata.

New Team Members!

gosh.............. i am BEAT!!! omg.. im soooo sleepy............. huu.... im sooo gona slp nice and long tonight.. i hope so... cos. im so tired and sleepy.... =( i cant wait to sleep!!! shall see how ba. will sleep asap.. so yup.. better blog this first..

my eye is ok.. phew.. good thing ne.. wow.. i really gotta be more careful now...
erm.. so today me wore glasses to work just in case u know.. put lens.. then dunno whats gonna happen.. anyway, ha... my manager commented on me looking cute. twice on that!XD cos of the spec ar. hahah... hm.. perhaps next time i should wear more often ne.. my spec to workXD
not bad.. ha...

gosh.. the new team leader is coming to singapore already!!! next week!! O.O deng3*... then another sumtin manager from victoria(dunno from melbourne or sydney..) is coming to work with us for about.. a couple of weeks or sumtin!!! OMG....... such a important figure... i gotta work harder! erm.. at least yeah.. serve customers better XD haha.. gosh.. really need to buck up during this period.. hopefully they'll be nice ppl ne... cos ppl from there can be very work wise.. so yup.. hope not too strict ba..

aww... my current manager is leaving.. =/ so fast huh... haiz... we're thinking of getting or doing somethign for her before she's gone.. hmm... not sure what yet.. but kinda got the idea.. anyway, hope can hold a farewell thingy for her or sumtin. at least a proper goodbye? dunno ba. . what they wanna do. anyway, sabrina deserves it. she really do.

hm.. u know... realy.. i like the fact that sam is having holidays. .doesnt have to wakey early for school.. keep me company.. can spend time with me.. doesnt have to slp early.. feels relax and nice knowing he's on holiday.. =)
soon.. he;s going back to school again.. ha.. o well............
just hope.. his school end soon ba ne.. still years to go for it.. o well.
hope time flies....

zzzzzzzzzz gosh.. i really need to slp soon...
but first gotta settle my stuff.
gosh.. so glad tmr off.... me so tired.

mata ne.

Pinkeye (conjunctivitis)

this morning me wakey found out that i had Pinkeye (conjunctivitis) =(

i was so scared.. so worried.. so glad im off today. i cant imagine having to apply for leave so last min if i were to work today! gosh..

anyway, yeah.. one of my eye is all so red and swollen. then me checked up the website.. found out tht i had the pink eye.. sigh.. so scary.. cos im scared like my frens.. previously i heard of it.. like. .teh eyes wil lturn so swollen.. then cannot open up.. then put med very pain =/

so yeah.. i try to find out from the web how i can help myself.. without having to go see a doctor.. then yeah.. i gotta 'help' myself.. so.. the only tiing i can do.. is to use a small towel, at first i add warm water. .then compress it onto my eye.. then i changed to cold water.. yeah.. i keep going back and forth. to the kitchen and to my room. .keep applying it.. till finally.. about an hour later, my eye not red anymore .PHEW>......... then i went to slp.. while.. u know how those tv drama also show.. theres a tub.. then ppl get fever, and will keep changing the cloth.. dipping in water.. then put on forehead.. me the same. cept that im placing on my eye. so poor thing ne.. huu.. wish sammy is here.. =/ keep thinking of him.. but my lappy no sound coming in.. ..so yup.. finally me slp.. but still got the towel on my eye.. then didnt slp well.. cos gotta keep making sure its on my eye.. =/ then me wakey.. called mum.. ask her to buy eyemo.. its a eye drop.. then yeah.. tehn.. wondering.. why sam never online yet... thought.. first thing he;s gonna ask is about my well being.. he's always anxious mah. .so yeah.. but..

hmm.... the results.. ha.. totally different. he.. also online very late.. though i off today.. yet he know im waiting for him to online..
then.. he broke his promise.. he got angry u know.. i thought he'd forgotten about that.. but he didnt.. which is good.. but.. bad cos he'll be sad.. then yeah.. thoguht he changed. and didnt care for me alreayd like how he used to.. but yeah after talking.. i do understand.. perhaps.. u know.. he';s just tired.. and no desire to talk.. and.. o well... don wanna thinnk about this alreyad.. yeah. .let it pass by.. .. im sure tmr will get better ne..
actually now already good.. i think.. he should be fine now.. ...

erm.. so.. yeha.. it was really scary.. gosh.. inflammation of the membranes... and swollen membranes at that =( sigh.. disgusting.. frightening.. can u imagine how i felt? huuu =(
what a mornig.. then up till now, my eye stil abit uncomfy ba.. still can see abit swollen.. but.. yeah.. at least not itchy anymore.. nor its red.. i relaly hope by tmr wil be fine. good thing thurs off. so yeah.. can rest one more day.. hope more time for my eye to heal....

my parents say i lost weight already.. dunno ne.. if thast true.. =/ but.. o well..... tch.. should be fine for now ba..

oh.. me was going through checking phones... gosh... i have no idea when to get a phone.. plus.. what type of phone should i get.. i thoguht i knew.. then i saw another.. thenn now im confused.. =/ gosh.... but im sure the new one will be more expensive.. haiyo... .anyway very confusing ba.. cos.. i really don like the idea of using the same thing everybody is using. that sux. i know.. its just me.. i just dont like the idea of having something everyone wants, or alreayd have. its so.. argh.....

anywya.. shall see how then... o well...... better be worth my money.

redz worked in same shopping mall as me. so that day during break while waiting for bro, me go his shop.. then eveyrone like know me sia. O.O...'' dots... liek they are whispering oh your lil sis.. blah3.. i was like.. what the..... then one staff commented on my hair longer now huh.. i was like.. erm.. have i even met u?? lol.. then another was saying.. oh, u finally drop by here! so nice.. tehn i was like.. o..k... -_-''........ when did i even met u guys... dots... maybe through redz ba.. but.. it felt so weird. lol. .like as though they know me, seen me. while i never!

hm.. =/ feeling weak now.. perhaps.. not enough sleep or what.... ... geez.. thoguht i could have a nice long sleep.. who know.s. get to wkaey at 7.30am just to suffer all the wya.. =/ huu.

anyway.. still can feel my eye a lil uncomfy.. =/ just hope tmr wakey will be fine.. not red.. =/
if last min mc, wont be a good ting. haiz. so yeah.. praying for the best..

hmm....... so yeah.. thats my day.. oh.. helped my bro get through his game just now too... yeah.. at least someone in the house at night is good.... tv on.. theres sound.. someone to talk to..

just now redz was asking me to tilt the fan down.. till u can hear the fan go click sound. but wow.. i tried.. cannot!! after that incident, i got the phobia alreayd.. fan is still running.. and no way i could tilt it down.. =/ o well... weird phobia eh... .. ha. i used to be able to click here and there.
nvm ba.. just trouble abit, and off the fan first..

oh, another new place to explore in singapore! marina bay finaly opens today. =) shall explore it soon i hope.

k. .get well soon to me...

mata ne.

No One's Fault

i was.. abit disappointed. .cos.. tmr is my off day.. then bro say not coming back. =( sad.. cos me don like house quiet... ... like. .parents slping .then left me alone.. .. sigh.. bt yeah.. got sammy online. .still.. the house is quiet.. then me in my room.. ..
then.. somehow sammy cheer me up when we started with the msn.. trying to avoid this mosquito anime thingy... then.. i thought we were having fun.. then.. suddenly.. he changed his tone.. ask him if he's angry.. he deny it.. then.. i said something.. like. he reply me so short.. one word2.. i also can.. but i dunno.. maybe he mistook it for u know.. in the bad tone attitude tone? like.. 'i also can!' yeah.. i didnt sound like that at all. .i was jokingly typing that out.. wodering why he wanna sound so .. don wanna tlak to me like that.. then.. i think he mistook it.. and.. o well... he got pissed off or sumtin =(

this whole thing tonight.. ... makes me recall the first time we had a 'cold war'. i finished work.. he got off bus.. me happy to see hinm.. then he gib me the angry face.. i was so confused.. i didnt know what wrong i did.. to receive that kind of reaction from him.. ..
that was a deeep memory for me.. cos.. yeah. .first time. .somemore.. outta the blue i kena.. ..

tonight.. about the same ba.. happy.. then upset.. cos he's angry.
and i didnt know what wrong i done. then.. he finally admitted he's angry.. then think back.. i think.. maybe play too much ba.. have fun too much huh.. then.. irritated him with the mosquito kiss anime msn without me realising it.. =( plus that line.. he say he hate it when i think doing bad thigns same liek him will make thigns right. thats when i realized its that 'line' ba.. but... i never think that way... i didnt even think anything will made anything right.. so.. yeah.. i got kinda.. confused.. o well.. so i explained to hin.. i didnt mean anything at all outta that 'line'.
foolish ba.. its like.. im having so much fun.. yet.. didnt know that irritates my love one already... =/ baka ne..

sad ar.. very sad... but. .what to do. msn ar.. cant hear the tone.. nor do much.. so.. explain2...then just forget about the whole thing.. so.. yeah. .

thats right. after this blog, im gonna forget this.
yeah. .good thing we tlak again before he went off to bed....

well.. i guess.. i gotta be more careful then huh.. in future.. i dunno how.. but.. o well...... ...

just glad its over now.. just happy he's better now..

i was so sure i'd put a smile onto his face when the whole thing starts.. who knows.. it turned out the other way round..
me.. gotta watch it more ba..

no one's fault tonight.. just that.. if only i watch my behaviour.. if only i didnt keep playing with the anime thingy.. though.. i was just trying to play with him and make him laugh.. .. and.. if only he never deny he's angry.. baka me. .never see that coming.. but then again.. msging really is difficult to know how one is feeling.. cos.. all u can see is words. its hard to predict whats coming..
o well.. forget all this!! it shall be stored in this blog of mine.

i dont like this.. feeling.. of.. wondering why my love one can get angry at me for nothing.. tehn gotta think3 back.. what i done.. isit something seriously offense?
so yeah.. its a sad2 feeling.. and i dont want a 3rd time ever.. i hope not.. so.. yeah. .will watch it ne... .....
couples.. willl go through those ba.. just that.. ..i love those days when theres no anger nor cold wars at all.. jsut sweetness...
well, then again.. it gotta go through roller coaster.. not just a plain road with only one flav right.. ha.. i dunno. XD

so.. yeah..

no one's fault here.. i wont let him say sorry.. and.. he didtn want me say thta either.. haii... .. forget this whole matter.. i'll be careful from now on...


oh.. last night. .my colleague finished work. waiting for her bf.. then i waited for my bro.. then she met her bf first.. then first thing they do when meet, is to kiss.. long2 stick together kind of kiss.. like.. never separate liek that.. i lookey abit.. then was like.. awww.......
so sweet ne...

haiyo.. .. sam was saying he reading my blog just now. haiyo... hopefully he wont find again ne..
haha.otherwise me dunno how to blog alreyd. anyway my blogs all in frenster better. yeah.. sometimes lazy, then i wont blog here.. if too slpy that is. but frenster is a must. ha.
so yeha.. he read my blog.. and say don like the way my fren joke2 to me tell me get a partime bf.. i know.. me first heard tat, also taken aback., like.. how can someone joke about this.. im not that type of person. so straight away of course say no. i wont. then i walk away do other things. also don liek of course.. hope he wont put it to heart ne..

hm.. k.. im glad im feeling all better now.. sigh.. just wish.. i could see his face.. and kiss him gdnight. .so as to let him sleep even better....... =/
i hope he's feeling ok too..

kk! a;reayd my off day! brand new day..

tmr will blog happy stuff ne!

oh this morning soo sleepy!! in fact, whole day im so slpy.. huu... even now also.. me slpt in bus to.. cant control... gosh.. waited for bus 21mins.T_T sigh.. my colleagues ar.. intro one another.. till 7.45pm.. arghh...... cos couple of us already intro to the new manager this mrg meeting. yeha. .so far alrite. .he seems ok. hope to work along well.

yosh! mata ashita ne!!

''I dont drink''

oops.. oh yeah.. sorry.. last night was too in a rush to hit the sack.. erm. .so.. what happened was.. me watched a movie with sam via skype.. then for 6 hours! even now i wonder how did we stay on for so long.. hahaha... then.. i recalled also.. i was singing.. gosh.. i moved my mike away! i thought he coiuldnt hear me.. at the end, he say i sounded sweet while singing. =.= i was like. .ehh... i thought he said he couldnt hear?? anway.. omg.. yeha. .so paiseh.... haha.... to think i keep singing and singing... haiyo... he heard everyting alreayd.. =.='' gosh.. i f i know.. i should've sang properly. lol... anyway, o well.. its a ncie day.

tehn me just ended my skype with him. video one. aww... it was sweet. i dunno why. but.. since mrg wakey me miss him so much.. then really cant wait to get home and video skype with him!
then yay.. im home finally. glad he's not aslp. =) then waited for him to have his ice cream.. then yeah.. soon i asked him to skype with me. =) aw... hehe.. its a nice one. =)^^ sweet.

i was watching this drama 'house' .. then theres this part. .where the main character he's a doctor.. just got away(unlike his other colleague) and attend to a lil boy patient. then this woman asked him( '' weren't you at the party?'' the doctor replied '' I dont drink''. omg!!! he said it with a the coolest face and tone! i was like. .wow. .that is soooo cool!!! thats the coolest thign u can ever say to anyone =)
oh the story is like. .the woman is asking him if he's at the party. .cos she thought he must've drank some stuffs.. and so how could he still attend to the boy when he's not so sober. so yeha.. he replied 'i dont drink'. omg.. i tell u.. really cool.. i love that line! that part. haha. what a coolest reply look ever. lol.anyone can do tha too. =) who says one doesnt drink at a party cant party at all?? or who say one must drink in order to party. stupid right. =.=

anyway, yup.. just shared with u the nice part of the drama i like =)

aww.... =/ sam is going to ice skating thingy.. huu.. me always wanted to try out ice skating.. =( that time ne. .almost do it with sam.. but cos no one's on the floor.. plus its so wet.. and no one attend to us.. thus we din try it out.. =/ aw... i hope my first time wil be with him..
anyway.. yeah.. ..still trying to get used to him going out to those places i don really like.. but. .well... just tell myself to get used to it.. and.. u know... o well.. as long as he know how to tc himself.. and.. yeah.. don let other ppl affect him. .. he's sensible.smart man. he should know what to do.. so yeha.. just.. try not to worry so much.. thought still will. ha. cos.. yeah.. u never know wha will happen to those places.. thigns always happen as though.. ..so yeah... firghtening news i must say.. so.. uh huh.. just hope he's safe always..

today.. gosh.. sales sux.. my sales ok.. but the target.. wow. .cant hit for the day.. sunday is hard.. =/
and its abit boring? cos not so busy at all! ha..

..my close frens were like asking.. why dont i get a part time boyfren in sg.. (jk i think) or. .arent im afraid he's gonna cheat on me?.. these questions are common and yeha. .ppl will be interested to ask.. still.. don u ppl think.... ... uh huh.. thats human nature huh.. to ask those. .but still....... only me and him wil lbe the only ones to know each other and to trust. .is he trustworthy? only i will know. its pointless to explain these all i guess... cos.. they wouldnt relaly understand anyway.. so.. yeah.. i dont relay like tlaking about it too.

only we know. .whats right from wrong.. what should we do.. and stuff.... the hearts.. guides us... trust our hearts.. our hearts.. will guide us there.......... towards the path we dream..

-Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over.
just because somebody doesn't love you the way You Want them to, Doesn't mean they don't love you with All They Have.-

i really like the lines above. especially this.. 'just because somebody doesn't love you the way You Want them to, Doesn't mean they don't love you with All They Have.' yeah... this is something. .we all need to understand. .and really truly learn it by heart....
heart.. relaly tells it all.. i also.. ...wanna follow my heart..
i wanna love him.........
and i wanna remember the lines above... i believe.. he love me with all they have...

k.. gosh.. tmr gonna be slpy again.. only a couple of hours for me to slp. haha.. o well....... hope meeting is well. =)

oh.. sigh.. plans failed yet again.. good idea from m yfrens though.. but yeha.. stil not working.. kk gtg!!

mata!!!

Forgot about Dinner! XD

omg.. im just gonna type everything briefly and then im gonna slp!!

so tired and slpy!! lucky tmr aftnoon shift.. gosh..

erm.. i was basicxally waiting and watching tv.. online. .while waiting for sam to online.. so thast my first half.. then.. until late evening, we finally get to watch movie.. so yup.... and we skype for 6 hours!! i also forgot all about my dinenr! and the time!! gosh.. then by the time i wanna eat, alreyd about 2am.. my mum. .go and keep all rice and food. .so i ate hal a cup of instant noodle.. then gonna slp now. .yeah.. ate it like less than 15mins ago.. ha.

have to eat abit. .cos feeling kinda weak now.. ha. so slpy. .k..

so erm.. yeah.. nice o hear swtys laughter over skype tonight.. nice movie ..

hm.. k.. all the best for tmr.. gosh. .slpy!!

hope his tummy get well soon ne..

mata! gonna slp now! in a hurry to!

Happy Morning! =D

ah.. whole day feeling very slpy.. cnat wait for my hair to dry, then go slp!!

hm.. this morning ne.. was feeling abit.. u know.. i blogged it.. soemmore slpy.. then was wishing sam could online. and he did!!! much to my very surprised =D and he made my day. like magic=) lol.. i even almost wanna smile in the bus!! haha

we webcam for abit.. erm.. end up quite long? XD ha.. then i realised its getting late.. and i went 'ahhh~~!' then waved my hands around in the air.. XD he was laughing like.. omg... glad he din hear me say ahh.. otherwise sure laugh more. .or say kawaii9... XD hahahah.... he asked me whats the hang waving for... haha.. i say i was shouting ahh! then yeha.. natural reaction. XD

aw.. his smile and laughter.. so much.. oh! and i get to see his morning smile! and hear his mrg voice^^ awww..... one of my fav.. =)
he really turned my morning around.. into so much better one. and for that, my day gets on beter..
ha.. i really laughed alot.. and smile so much. so does he. =)
if only.. i coiuld wakey beside him every morning like that..

so slpy now. .erm. .wat else...

oh!! i found a special pressy.. then showed my bro.. he say something.. then i was like.. hm.. relaly?.. lol.. aw.. but.. but... im sure the contents is what most important right.. anyway... yeha... gonna take me a very long time to do this.. but.. im gonna try.. and see how...
double challenge this time!!! but will be worth it eh =3

so yup. today morning im at my happiest!

tmr.. dunno what time swty waking up. .i hope late abit ba.. so he get to rest...

hm... =.=... i think.. theres more things to type.. but.. im not so sure now....

forgot.. haha

hm. .dunno when to start,, o well.. see how ba.. but i couldnt do much.. till...... ha.. its a secret. not gonna say now^^ hope will be the best pressy ever

hm... tch... sometimes im scared....... i dunno... like... to focus on the most important thing..... ..o well...

anyway, k.. better stop now. think i wont wait for hair to dry.. im too slpy..

shoulder hurts abit. .dunno why..

sigh.. i wan sam back here with me.......... =/

mata