zzz need rest asap

maybe cos its xmas ba.. even morning its freexing.. bro wore thick jacket.. lol.
he say very cold. duno why.. maybe cos raining. .and dec alreayd..
nmow also very cold.. runny nose starts againb.. o well...  hate it.
today my manager fainted again. oh deat.. =./ poor thing. so yiung but keep on fdaintin dur to overwoek.. =/ her partetns must be worried sick. omg.. ..
anyway.. today me so weak and no energy
even the new patimer ccan tell. ask me why i look so weak. cos my eyes look puffy, and face very red. then she touches my neck. .very warm. but maybe her hands col dba thats why. anywy....
yea.. she's right rhough.. im weak. don have enrrgy liao.. even wakey also so slpy.. like cant get up ne.. huu
=/
o well.. one day to go.. ok. .i can do this.. hang on.. hang on.....
sighes.. ..duno what happened again.. kena cold shoulder . ..ha.. o well.. ...used to it.. but still don like.. never does.. anyeay.. ..o well.. forget it ba.
me also never take dinner.
took bits of choco.. should last me till tmr aftnoon ba..
sianz..
nvm ba.. sometimes eat rice till sick of it too...
skip it ba..
but today liuchj also sianz. .only hadfd curry pudd. sobz.
cos went shopping while waiting for bro to break.. then end up so crowded.. then long queue.. then cannot eat liao.. T_T then just buy fried puff. haiyo. .ytd also.. but those sales.. so tempting. ha. ..o well
so shoick sia.. but compared to other places, its still kidna exp ba. .depends..

so cold. .i hope tmr can become warmer.. been lnog never feel the warm bright sun liao.. ..
so yearn for his hug.. huu
o well
tch...
ok. one day to go. gambate.. ..yea. ... gambate.. ...
haiz. hang on lots.. have to.
and sincerely hope my manager get well soon.. hope she wont faint agian.. haiz. too mcu wokr and stess ..
mata

Nose

sianz... yea. .its great to see so many huge sales going all around.. but... i think when i went in, alot of ppl , plus with the clothes dusts and stuffs, my nose... again. got affected. yes thats how easy it is. my coleague mentiinoed to me.. that she had the same prob.. she sees a doc .apparantely doc say its allergies.. theres a chim name for it. but i cant rememevr, neither does she.
it stats with.. ...lol. totally couldnt remmeber.
o well
but yea.
i hope to see her again, and try to find out the med name. appratnly theres a med for htis sysmtons.
its not just running nose.. its illness?.. more of like allergy ba.. yea. the name so chim.. forgot liao. anyway she only remember the first couple of letters of the whatever sysmtons we're having.
omg...
haiz... nvm ba.. supposed to be tmr off... .but yea.. i rather work when sick.. than having my off day being sick.
sick of having runny nose while on my off day. so yea

so slpy.. .really2 slpoy. .cannot tahan.. had a nap just not... im so cold... huuuu....

it was nice to have sammy asked me about the july plan to join me himself.. =)
..but apparantly his day wasnt that gd.. i duno.. but .o well . tch.. just stay away ba. .otherwise kena from him


sighs.. feels terrible.. tmr.. haiz..
o well .jia you ba.

today surprisinly store is so busy. wow. hm. .maybe ba. becos its only one day after xmas afyer all.
so yea.. ...

hm.. besides sammy i missed the most, i relaly miss sydney too. duno why. don like hte weather. but yet...
maybe i just need some fresh air and holida. thats all.
would be great to see my fav stores there. really cant wait. =)
omg.. they have such great stationaries there.


hm. .at least.. after 2hours of napp.... felt better abit.. tiny. .for energy level that it. nt for nose.. .o well.
nvm.. gotta slp soon.

hope i'll ge twell soon..
mata

stupid life

so tired of life. sighs. .very sianz... =/
u know.. this is the worst xmas ever. could be. yea.
omg.. .everything went wrong.
work liek frig.. then missed my stop.. so frggin tired..
then now my vcd of fav movie taken gone missing. wtf.
.sighssssssssss =(
really too tired to. .sighs. .i relaly dunow hat to do =(
sianz.

anvm. just buy gaian ba.
..haiz, wanna a propoer relaxing night also don have. .i hate u xmas. i hate u. =(


everything doesnt feel right at all.. so sianz..
tch..
o well.

at least xmas finally over now.. ..... sighs..
bah. .o well. ngiht


mata

Nightmare Before Xmas (again)

hmm... so tired.. leg hurts.. mayeb sat the whole day.. so. .yea.. not used to work agaib.. anyway..
. hiaz.. no more gifts sending liao.. ..somemore.. tot its a gd thing to get my voice across using that book.. but.. turns out otherwise.. all work turns down the drain..

nvm ba. tlak about today. omg. sianz.. ppl xmas celebratiions.. me. ... hm.. haiz. .nvm ba.
at leats i have pressys.. .. even better htan my birthday ones.. ..

gosh.. i have last min xmas to get. cos me no get anythign..! cos duno whos giving me. haiyo...
anyway yea.. gona get ba.
relaly headache on what to get what these ppl. haiyooooooo
ma fan ne. =.=
anyway yea.. .tmr..
relaly need to rush and buy and think or somethign.

just opened up a gift from my manager. she bought 2 scissors pendant fo rmy other 2 colleagues. me get the postcard. cos when i first saw it, i really liek it so much. but its so expensive!! i was like telling her i'll choose the postcard necklace if i wanan buy it.
then i really get. aw.. was like screaming when i saw it.
wow..
=)

at the though tof.. nt being able to sned him valanetins or bday pressy.. kinda.. sucsk ..but i guess.. gotta get used ot it ba.. me also no get birthday gift ar.. so. .yea. .just get used to this ba..

hmm... yera. seems liek bro and redz like their pressy too. so yea. ..ok.. not so bad.

goodness.. =( so late alreyad. oh yea. i was lost again. bus interchange.. no more bus.. huu.. .was walking ard trying to find a place for cab. .so dark someore.. .like. .haiz. .relaly on the verge of crying. .then tell myself to calm down.. .then yea.. i did thought of slping in store or outside if i cant find cab. sianz.
anwya so glad i did. .omg... i hateeeeeeeeeeee ... haiz. nvm..
so yea. heres my xmas. only the pressy part i really like. otehr than that, .. serisouyl, .. haiz. i don get to enojoy this holiday like otehrs do. o wwell.. at elast. .i have pressy.. so yea..

k.. only have less than 4 hours of slp. sianz.
gdnight...
..and merry xmas to all...............

boy are we glad xmas is finally over this week.. store should be back to normal too...
please do..

mata

True Heart Matters / Freaky Bike Innicident

it was horritfying.. duno waht went wrong .. .but yea. o well..

almost runined my day..

anwyay... im glad to say htat.. wow.. today.. its truly a realazing day fo rme. sneexy runny nose bit. but othe rthan that, its been good.
was out with bro.. to a new mall. i like it alot. cnat wait to go there again.
alot of shops. over 360?
yea.. its huge lpace.. i didnt explore all. .cos wanna return home earl for sammy, plus me forogt to bring wallet =.=
o well.
ah.. bought bro a pressy. for xmas .lol.
he chose it himself.

huu duno why my stomach so bloated now=( just taken med
then yea.. i i did what i alwats wanted to. have a drink , hold it and drink bit by bit and wlak around hte stores..
just done my nails. been ages since i did that. cos no time and tired. plus always runny nose then weak and no strength to do anything else. o well

hm...
lol. today bro got mistaken for my husband. LOL. its hilarious. was tellikng sam about it. then he's like .. yea.. i bought something.. thats why maybe the lady mistaken abut yea..

me wanan slp soon. been slping so late. haiyo.. watching youtube too.
o well
not otnight though

talked about last night =( such a nightmare i tell u, HUUUUUUUUUu me soooo poor thing!!!!
closing so late. somemore i clsoe alome.. do evrything alone.. huuu....
hen suddenly very scary. .cs  me alone... veyr scared.. then hurry wanna get outta shop.. heart almost jumped out. i wonder.. besides darkenes. do i have a phobia of being alone in a room too? .. brr.. .so scary. i betetr don think too mcuh
anway. .then evrything.. all roads closed. .huu. .duno how to get cab. .cos no way out. .find3.. huu.. .then walk along orchard streeet... then kena ran over by a bicycle. u know those sports ppl? wear helmet ride those sports bike? yea that type. duno why a bunch of them riding along the path outside ion mall. thats crazy .=/ and me alreyad numb ntired totally wiped outta energy.. .losing my snese.s. im tying to reacaleld how to cross over to lucky paza.. then saw underpass.. was reacalling and thinking.. looking at the signage. .hen heeard somoene scareaming omgomogmogmomg... .so many times.. then luckiiy that person stopped on time. or.. i duno. she went pass me. mayeb ishunned her on time? i relaly couldnt rememerb what happen. but yea. i was fine. but .. the bike just next to me! i really have no idea how i managed to escape that.. ..it slike. .losing a couple of secs of ur memeroeis.. O.o
nayway, tats a Miracle.
so yea.. hten me apoligised, walk away before that lady turns her head back. her frne salso stop. but i have no idea what happened.. me just walk away.. trying to fin dmy way home...
..yea. .like drama. but usualy drama will have a hero man to save the girl push her away from the bike. me not. hahaha... no one save me. lucky thebike slow down on time ba. i guess?
then i sep back abit. .maybe its like that. cos too tirded so cant recaleld. .yea i think that shold be it.
anyway...
yea. .walk3.. huu.. all the way till cine..
huu... alone me.. .no one except afew... ..along hte way saw a couple.. so swt and he was putting and shifting a small xmas hat clip on her head.. haiz. .all hte more poor me..
then walk .finally.. =/ cabs... then got into one..
yea home. omg.....
its a long night.. .
i hate.. ye si HATE xmas.
=/
only hate the bx xmas part. its nice to be bz and all. but not when you have to clsoe late and hoem late and start so early the next day.
bz is so tiring enough. imagine the whole trip home. .omg.
haiz...
anyway yea..
it wa a really .. pathetic nigjht.

me drank mocha today. new flav for xmas.
maybe cos of sammy ba. he sai he drank mocha for me.
ha. .then somehow i wanan have a taste of that too =)
hm.. i miss him.
im very looknig forward to the day where i could meet him again.
yay.. ..
i wanna go shops. .but doubt there'll be much to buy.. that other time i went also nothing much. .ba.
i wanna go to this particualr shop .so much. its a stationary shop. of course headnig to my own company stores as well. LOL> really wanna see how they work there!!XD mystery shopper i shall be. lol.
anyway.. .yea.

oh .. =( today heard my cousin tha nigh wedding dinenr. .her bf send her and paretns home.
then was like.. .lucky i never go.. otherwis eif heard that on the spot, wouldbe so.. yea.. =/
sad?
heard it frmo um was like. haiz. .abit jealous and sad though. ha.. cos like. .he can be with them. .while.. yea.. u know..
i'll always be going home in bus or cab with out him physically.
but yea..
so nice.. to have ur bf send you and family back home after a night event which doesnt concernhim.

my fren was tellnig me.. all the girls and ppl in uni are very stucked. he;s not from sg. so [erhaps he's having more difficultis in making frens. duno ba. .he say all of them owns a car. .then very proud. all the girls like that. lol.
then in lift, a guy like purposely asked him which floor, then asked.. 'carpark?' cos wanan help my fren press hte lift mah.
i dno think thast purposely.. i duno. but yea.. i understadn why he felt this way.. cos naturally you take it that he purposely ask u.. cos this is a schol where everyone has their own car.. and if u dont, well. .yea.
from the way he sounds.. i duno. .har dto believe.. i didnt know students are liek that over tere..
but yea..
for thos egirls.. im not so surprised. .but . hm.. the car part....
well.. who needs a car just for uni? i hATE3 those ppl whos so proud!
having these epx possesions. .doens tmean anything. .waht matters most. .is. .real heart. u don wanna make fren swho's staying by your side because you have  a car, u have money, or big house..
in life. .what maters most are.. who's being true to you, appreciates you for who you are..
at the end of the day, one who just enjoys being alone with u. doesnt have to be in a huge mansion, or having a crusin.. or in a posh car..
its all about the heart. heart.. is where it stays forever.
and real.
i like thigns to be real. not fictional.
..hm. how to say..
like.. if im my cousin, just example .. m eduno hwat shes thinking. cos im not clos ewith her, shes as gd as a total stranger to me.
like. .if im with this guy, becos he's from a rich well to do family, he owes a car, he's flithy rich, and study at the same uni as me...., then... whas the point.. in my heart.. tehre'll always be this part where i'll always be loving his money, car and status.
eew.. i would so hate myself and destest myseklf if im uch a perosn. ihoppe she isnt. but hen againb none of my business.

so yea...
then thogh i felt jealously and feleing envious.. wiht a sense of loss... (cos always swish to have my family and not so clsoe relatives see what an amazing bf i have ^^ ) well, it makes me feel all the more special and glad plus appreciates htat sammy's is with me. and he's my man =)
i miss him ever so much more.
and yea.. im so glad and luck that he's mine =) ^^ so glad that i have him.. cdcc
so lucky me. .to be lvoe by him.
so yea. .this surpasses  all sorts of feleigns.
and im gald i have the best partner in the world. heck care her bf sned her hom eor what.  i have my best partner in my heart. .and yea.. he's the best. waht matter smost, is that i know. he's the best.

Dreams

wow.. i was really beat up and dead tired.... =/
ytd. today too. bros bday countdown celebraztion..
so eya. .went to kbox... been so long isnce i sang with them. wow.. ..
was sooo osuper tired =( after work.. walk arond while waiting for bro.. to finish work before meeting up wth redz..
leg hurt so much.. ..
hm..
was trying to find garter belts.. but to no avail.. lol.XD so dfffiocult to fnid. and corsets are so exp.
XD..
hm... yea.. slpt so late last night.. was back late mah..
so glad no work today.
was supposed to meet bro and his fren whjo just got back from japan. but then mum was ard. .and we decuded to bring her out instead...
so yea
wat a longggggggggggg day...
haiz. just fond out today too.. .=/ shifts are chaning for a week. sighs... so tough. im alreyad so tired as it is..
i duno how ot hang on for the next week =(

ytd had 2 new staffs in our store though. =) they are really gd. not bad. one is  firsty day. another, from aother outlet. glad to work with them. not bad. hope theu'll get to work omre in our store.
haiz. .i try not to think about work ba. bery stresfful now =/
..

today.. mornign wakey. .thought could play game with  baby first.. but didnt..
aiz....
had a dream ironically... about getting pissed off when he msg me tmr he's going out with his frens to party.. then was like.. in my off dya agin??? no gert to play with him???
arh..
then ironnically.. =( ////... . =.='' ..
tm rhe's relaly headin out,  and we wont have much time together,. very sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ...=.=
haiz... duno what to say..
everytime liek that. when im working, he's free. when im not, he's out. =/ tch..
so sianz.. hate it.
very very bad timing.
what to do.. haiz............... ....
os yuea. there goes.. like. .without realsing it, since that one day we had fun paying game, its been weeks passed.. and that 2nd day never seems to srop by =/
argh. that irritates me allot. tch
wat to do. wrong timing.. .... sianzzzzzzzzzzz
try not to think ba.
im veyr tired tonight. and everyday.
stressesful enough..
o well..
at least if im playing. .im not playing alone ba..
thogh not with him sitl lsianz but yea. that beats alone playing.

hm..

today.. diaster..
worea dres.. didnt know its so short adn sexy -,.-.. ....
super hot i shold say. but yea.. im really not comfortable with it.
so boguth a dress.. changed it. at hte end of dya,wnen we wlaing to trainm, mum say alot of ppl lookat my derss,. =.,='... .......
whatever.
=.=
then mmy boots.. .ha. .diaster. tsk. .... gona throw liao.
o well

hm. .cold night. .aftnoon hot .then now cold.
sneecxing. hoep tmr willget better.

yay. redz pressy fo rxmas settled. lef twith bro. .i think i know hwat   to get for him.

i was wrong. i sholdnt be looking forweard to dec. ...
its a stressful month fo rme. usper tired. u have no idea how tired when ever i say i m so tired.
that kind of tiredness if is someting u couldnt imagie. and u have to bring it along with u for a cuple of days. then rest abit, and carry on again.
its relaly.. yhea.. =/
o well.
..
anywa... not lookgin forward to work. really not. i like htis job. but not lookng forward to it now. its super busy. and theres so many newbies ard. .=./
...tough job man.. ..
tch.. hang on ba... cmon. .end of jan.. =/

soyea.

oh had an open talk with sammy todya. gd.. gd... its something every couple needs to do.

its scary when u thoguht of. .u know..
how a couple end their relationship eveb marriage when thigns sizzles out.
simetimes.. if ure' not the one, u'll never nbe..
sometimes.. its just that.. yea. even if u're the one, u do still need to put in effort.. to totally make thigns work.

i hope his mum will be alrite and be pain free.. couldnt sned my best regards to her due to some. .yea.. thingys. .bu yea. ...she should be fine i think. ..
hm. .hope sammy wioll be too. as long as his mums ifne, his dad ok, then he'll be fine too.
peaceful at home again.
hm...
haiz..
dreams came true at the wrong time. but so fast huh .tahst tmr.
wow.. amazing.
k ba. time to go lsp. sooo late and slpy.

somehow. like. .felt as though something is missing. .what i shold b e yping here? o.O.. hmm.
o well.. gdnight

mata

Chaotic Day

omg. you have no idea how busy i was in the aftnoon. it was chaotic. somemore at night.. i couldnt finish my stocks either =./ cos too much customers. its not a mondy at all!! its weekend!! it was crayz. omg.
and im only ledt with 2 new staffs and one older abit stadd to do closing. -.= omg......
luckily still can get to leave on time. otherwise my last bus gone sia. huu
but yea.. imaine all staffs.. one nby one kee[- asking me questions.. =.= very tired. .then me must tend to customer somemore.. so yea =/
wow... duno how i get through this night.. .but yea. .glad hours over very soon. but when i get to wokr, i was so tired...
=/
gd thing being kepy busy kinda puilled my thtough.
haiz
itss crazy this dec xmas.
oih but im sirry. this aint the craziest yet . NO. its not.
me duno how to get ready for the monstrous next week.. or this weekend.. but yea...
what to do.. clench my teeth and hang on tight.. a coupld of weeks to go and i';kk get to see my baby liao.. hang on.. huu
oh ..
weird. .forgot is theres anthing happened ytd aonot..

..hm.. anyway...
todya... feels liiek im the manager or boss though// dots.. cos only ,e know almost everything there. the rest are newbies. haiz...
very difficult..

my throat gettings so itchy.. making me cougfh.. i hope will be fine. i musnt get sick u know. .huu
espeicllay since xmas is coming.. gonna be more thnz just piurre chaotic.. =/
o well.. get prepared ba.. ..i duno how but yea..

today duno why me so many bruises on my knees. .was shocked though.. like. .omg. how dd it get there.. O.o... o well.. duno ba. .maube do stocks or what.. thx to work..

k.. gtg. jaa mata ne