sad life

didnt feel gd today =(
...sighs. sad. very sad.

soetimes wonder why life always like that.

anyway, found iout today tha my fav brand of lingerie couldnt be shipped to my country. =/ sighs. what disappoitmnet

=(
deeply

can u imagien that> ? haiz...

cant believe its only in au n nz.. its ridicuklous

..=/
sighs.. just need to get tback to syd n get them ba.
but wonde rwhen.

these two days nvr prepared home food. so yea=/
dunno wha tto eat ne.
sometimes bread until very sianz.
very hungry a few hours later.
usually have to wait till night then can hav proper food=/
...

sighs.

if only can live alone
then i can do anything i wan liao.

sad =(

.....

haiz ...

wonder if i should eat bread tmr. din buy any though.
or i think i'll tahan with just old chang kee ba
a dollar plus i sbetter than 4 plus.

im gd at taking care of others. but i dunno why. when it comes to me, i dont bother at all. lol.
so weird.
perhasp.. i just don care much about myself

others will always be more important

i am so tired. slpy. and very3 tired. at my max liao. really need a break. need to chill.. .need to let off. sighs. =( stress.. .gosh. i felt the stress... cant believe this...

sobx.=/

baka desu

but yea. i am very tired... very3 tire.d.... u cant imagine  that...
=(

cant take this anymore...

but need to hang on...

oh. long daysss ago, theres this guy buying pressy for her gf. he bought a diary. but wee left with only green. she like red. his gf not ard. he bought it secretly.
so ncie.
another one. an older angmoh man. secretly bought a card for his wife or gf. wife ba given their age.
he ask her to shop her own... lol. so funny. then i sw him pout something inside the card. but dunno what. so swt.
ha.
cute actions

finanly feel so sterss out .ha. baka desu... so fast tired liao...

...wonder if i had any hollidays.. if syd was a dream..

oh had a nightmare today. dreamt of sammy msging in a group msg. 6 or 5 ppl. ( somehow i can see that lol). then nvr msg me in wahst app. ha .was like sad when i wakey. XD

oh ya. then continue on, my day sucks =/

haiz...............

fed up

i wan more money.

mata

No brans n things =(

extremely slpy now... gota hang on=(

short blog k. sorry

mm.. sad. disapp;ointed that the playboy bras cant be deliver to sg. its only for au n nz =(( 9huuuuuuuu 

meaning is i wanna buy, must wait till like. .wat... one year later??? =(( huuu...........

why .. .huu..... 

even though i like bras n thigns, but... the main ones i like is form their playboy collection. huuu... very disappointed=((( now i cant buy liao =(( 

unless i go australia=((( baka desuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu 

if only htey open up in sg=(( huuuu

speaking of which, ... yea. i worre one that dya to work. as im wearing white, i gues sit shows ba. ha. the cross2 one.. then my sm from othger outlet was there.. she was like... mm.. her reaction was like.. .i dunno. surprised.. or what. lol. like paiseh to say anything. well, the designs are bold mah .anwyay i don care what they think. 

as long as i really liek it.

haiz... 

ih did i say my collegau sya my eyes very pretty? 

anwyay, she's a very nice and hardworking staff. i bought her and another staff a small little ssomehting. i think they deserve it=) 

but.. really ? my eyes that pretty? O.o... i dunn o man. nah

anyway, oh. today this staff from brisbane my companmy dropped by. omg. he said hi. i thoguht who sia.. keeop clearing the throat. .like cough2.. .i purposely ignored.. because i was busy. 

he did that like 3 times? omg. then he finally get clsoe and approaches me . lol 

mm.. me never reveal myself ne when i was in syd. LOl. i should rightXD

anwyay, i hope didnt left him with a bad impression. i said i was busy, he said he understand. phew. 

very frenly person =) 

now.. =.= if only everyone cold be liek him.. haiz

i saw this book the other day... its by katie piper. .book title called beautiful.. (i think)

anwyay.. its true story. about this young angmoh lady.. my age i think.pretty, good figure,.. book desicrbes as a young beautiful woman on her to to achieving her model dreams. . til loe day she met this guy at this club. club ba i think.  also through facebook. maybe from facebook then to club they meet in perosn. eya. 

anwyay, after that, she kena kidnapped or somethign im not sure. she get raped over and over again by her new bf. violet.. .and all. so yea=/ in the end he pour acid on her face. ... yea .acid. what can u expect. but luckily she's strong.. after operations n operations, etc.... she recovered. scars still there. but make up helps ba. so eya. u still can ssee scars. but at least she's strong enough to live. 

haiz.. .waht to do. with that type of personaility, age, and confidence, when u know a guy from fb, then meet up in that kind of indecent' place - club, .. thast what happens =/ 

very pity. but. well, she releases a book now. she's storng. and. .yea. 

at least she lives on 

if me, without money for operations and all, i would've chosen the never return road. 

told ya im not strong.  ha

gosh too slpy. gtg slp soon. ..

how logn is my zzz gonan last. huu.. cant take this laio =(

mata.. .zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

super tired body =/

just a quick bloer here. im rushing off to work soon.

sorry been so busy and tired i didnt have time for blog. soososososo tired=((((((
can u imagine tat? omg
haiz...

today alot more work going on.
so yea.
i am so tired. i think im starting to forget alreayd. again. ha.
i couldnt remember if i had blog ytd. turns out that i didnt. oops

oh yea. good thing sammy settled his bike thingy with his colleague  before his parents rch home. phew.
mm.. wonder if his mum really bought him 9 pcs of gastby eh. lol sorry spelled wrong.
anyway no tiem for change.
hope they did spend their time walking aroun dsg. if not wasted ne. so long they nvr come back wat.

had yu sheng last night. it was alright. not bad.
but very full ba. gd thing i have my appetite back.
but depends. like now, im having breads most of the tiem just to save money. but its like not so healthy bread. ha. with cream abit only thta type XD
today no bread cos no buy. mm... see how ba. if too hungr go for food, if not go for old change kee eh

so tired n slpy. relaly cant wait for day to end. haiz.
will gambate de.
kk. i gtg soon.
later must settle paperwork. haiyooooo

it was nice to speak with him lst night through phone. though connection not perfect, but at least still can hear eh =)
ha. so nice of his colleague to even prepared for him dinner and garage.
as long as his bike is safe ba. uh huh.

gosh. my body relaly maxiumn liao... very tired every inch of my poor body=/

jaa mata

bike done!

absolutely forgotten what i wanan say.
just a quick blog. its very late. and im super slpy!!

just finished watchng yet another episode exciting one of doctor who. lol
i slpt. omg. so exciting. =( but i fell aslp while hugging my bloster =.= ''
too comfy
haiz

anyway, bro say he'll reply tmr .so hope so ba

im so tired. been slpy the whole day. omg.
not enough rest ba

mm.. .5 hours later theres this ldr tv blog thing. huu. =/ thought of waking early to watch.. but.. not sure if im able to wakey. how ar..

oh yea. finally sam settled himself with a bike.
heh.
but hopefully not too tough to hide from his parents ba

cant think now. lol

mm..........

oh yea. theres that nuts stalker. still waling through our store so often. crayz.. omg. i relaly just wanan give him a slapXD

kk. talk tmr.
im so slpy. need slp soon

mata

slpy mode on!

mm... soooo slpy. had only 4 hrs of slp. lol. huuu not lol. thansk to ebay.. .remmeber last night i said hopefull nohting catches my eye or something. well i found osmething =.='' '
o well............

nvm. for hte next 3 weeks i shall control myself.

today forgot bring bread. huu.. so had laksa for lunch
=/ spend abit moe. but ow ell.... hopefull yi'll bring next time.

gosh ive been slpy n tired. cos so much work need to be done.
then plus review thingy coming up again =/ sighs.
so much thigns to settle
but point is, ive been working since cny. and remmebr ? cny iwas so tired like hell .
gosh

hope thigns will be fine ba. im starting to feel a lil more than stress now=/
will hang in there

ha. my colleague recently her bf went thai or dunno where. dunno how long or what for. me no ask.
she asked me if fring is free. then she's very glad it is after i let her know.
we msg abi. .then she say that yea its hard n only been 1 week, she's very sad alreyad.
she said i am strong. thats why can tahan all these.
i was like. .huh? im strong? OMG.
lol
u gotta be kidding me.
im nowhere near strong.
but weird huh. someone actually se eme as a strong person. ha. O.o
mm.. well.. .its been like... 2 years n a half sort of ldr alreayd eh? but known him for 4 years. wow. time flies.. .
i never expect that. .. it is 4 yrears now.
it  seems as though it was ytd when he put in his msn captions. .'2 yeras and still going strong''.. ;lol. yea i know. sometimes i rememebr well certain thigns XD
ha.
but yea. 4 years huh.. .stepping into 5 years... wow. who couldve thoght tha we've coem so far.
when i first met him, i also nvr predicted future is to be like this.
o well.. .=)

mm. .super slpy. hope i'll feel betetr soon. thirsty too

oh! i think i had a dream of sammy very very clear deram.. almost real. last night? or last 2 nights.
yea. not sure whas it about.. but.. .yea. any dreams of him is nice.
and rememebr the deram i sued to had? me shoppig with him in syd.. me around syd with him... ha. well. finally i get to do that.

certainthings to do, see , say  etc.. i  forgot. because too rush ba.. work tired etc. soemreo din get see him often. plus i was sooo tired everydya in syd. but fun tired kinda.
so yea... a lil aww.... but nothigs perfect. at leats i even get to spend some nice dates. best dates yet . =)
first 2 nights are the best ba. i dunno. every nights are special.
first day i went shopping spree alone. omg. such a nice day relaxing moment in my life once a year. gosh.. ..to feel that way,... =/ i coudlnt ask for more.. .u have no idea hwats that feel like to enjoy for a day with no worries.
..haiz... yea...
tough life eh.
after all ive been through.. i only have such a day to enjoy. but of course. so on and on... i have enjoyed myself too. clubbing, movie, eating.. .dessert... =) haiz... omg. how i wish that can happen every month =/ huu...
jsut wanna be near him.. =/
sighs.
so sad...
see. .me where got strong. .ha. baka.

o well... review is up again.. .i shall do it. same goal. same request.

k. .gtg soon

mata ne

heavy workloads

as expected. .what a longgg tiring day. so much work to do... yet to be done .but i can do this. uh huh.

i don get it.. why my rgm say he dont think i can handle the fast paced store. i suit quiet store. .. ...if yanika is here, im sure she wont think that way =/
manager in training huh.. .hopefull yhe'll be a betetr sm than that lady

morning such a diaster wakey so early n super slpy.. then received call about staff din go work cos of sm email wrongly. soemthign like that
haiyo. what to do. rgm wil side with her de ba

mm... yea. and glad  sammy found soem ideas n deals he like. he seems to be in such a happy gd mood today =)
just checkoed out the bike he mentioned to me. cool. =) haiyoooo wish i can ride that / huu
so wanna sit! lol
anyway, haiz. i wonder how difficult it is to hide from his mum. ...=/ so troublesome. haiz.
everythign must hide.. =/ but good for him. can seize this chance go around and find bike infos before they're back
just hope he'll be safe

heard of the details hwo his day went =) i think thats pretty gd. for me, gosh. nothing but busy workloads. like i said. one day also cannot finish on time.
before i know it, another task handed down to me .
o well. liek wha i told my colleagues too

im likeone perosn doing 2 ppls job
so eya
one brain but must store 2 brains infomations

anyway, disappointed desu. today only wed huuu =(
time is slowing down.. .

so tired. and slpy. wanna rest soon

mm.. forgot what i wanna say. .
o well

anyway my diary .. ha. i cant believe im writing so much. mine is a daily diary.
soyea
 . cos too much workload liao.

hair still wet.. haiyo

kk. will check out ebay since hair wet. huu.. .but no money liao.

anyway ever since i got back, i didnt shop. uh huh. controlled very well desu ^^
hehe

im glad too.

todya bread n puff. for lunch.
til lend of march ba.. .will hang in there=/
relaly crave to eat laksa..

ha. dunno why.for a moment there, the image of heading down to ntuc gas station below the block of sam's old house.. flashes across my mind.
so wish he's here now n me go buy a tub of ice cream.. then can watch tv n eat...
.... =/ o well..

haiz.

anwyay, my rgm don wanna tell me whats in plan fo rme. he only tell me cannot say much. but theres future plans

im supposed to be the sm for new store opening. however they are now holding back from opening more stores cos now even australia the stores aitn making much money.. so yea///
but i stil lwnana go syd to work if i could
n have a chance to

ha i always joke with sam htat  .. ok la. i go pick grapes in australia!
ha.. .

kk. me go check out ebay

mata ne!!

another person like me

haiyo. today stress sia.
but.. .managed to solved half of it. ....even had a night mare of my rgm... =( sighs.
this familiar nightmare is back
my not so close partimer also cask me. .why never ask for pay increasement since im doing a 2 mens job.
but. .well, how do u expect me tobring up such thing .further more, im not a sm. imagine he go and ask tayissa or head office. omg.

u know. while havign dinner, i told my bro of  waiting for a chance to go aust work. i told him i wanna work there. lol .
he din say nothign .well cos we started the topi of 'why not intro me to ur workplace' . he have so many benefits there.

haiz. very sad. very stress. =/ today. .relly.. ...worked  10 hrs and i couldnt finish my work. hteres too much to be done. remmeber .im doing both asm and sm job k

plus have to hadnle staffs somemore.. .hoepfully they'll help me out too

..haiz.
really dunn ohwo to smile right now =/
hopefully everythign wil lbe alright .

finished early today. tot could msg him but. guess he's too bz.

o well

anwyay, today my fren's gf went backto melb. i feel so sad for him =(((
really wanna make me cry. i understadn his pain.
i am very sad for him. hopefully they'l lstay striong together. at least i think their parents no probs with ldr
just so sad for them. but i really hope he can go see her soon.
which im sure he will .
in every pic u get to see him close with her. very nice n swt
affection is so obvious ne

anwya, todya so slpy. had night mare, not enough hrs of slp =/
sighs
bad day.. bad day indeed... =(
why this year cny so. ...=/ sigs.
cried today too.
... bad signs

..haiz.
=/

heavy heart today =((( very sad.
more of stress knd of sad.
.. haiz..

hope u guys will pray for them too. to be reunited once again soon.
..i thin ki can imagine how their gdbye felt... =( ... mustve been so.. ..sighs.
...
yea.. .hoepfully somemore she'll be back again. .or somehow he can get to aust like how i wish to...

=/

very heartpain... i totally feel his heart. .=(
sobz

mata