happy marriage =)

and so.. that morning. .my previous blog ba. wakey and was thinking of sammy =) today also. then in bed.. so tired also wanna slp. slpt lat eyt dmah. but couldnt slp at all =.= ha. think  of him .mind fuull of him. guess he'll be very happy if he knows huh =)

wow. think my primary school mate same age as me ba. i think .we in same class mah. well,........ he proposed to his gf!!!!!!! OMG> =X was like...huh? so young wanna get married liao ar. Dunno. i think he's working alrdy. yea he did told me. but. wow. this is gd eh. if a man can save enough to marry a woman at his age, yea. thast rrly something.

well, guess theres rrly isnt long or fast journey to marriage ba. once u feel that the time is right, you get married. book' first before someone else gets their hands on her XD lol .
but yea,. or some couple, waited for 10 yrs , lived together, like my previous kind rgm sabrina. then she get married.

anwyay, earlier better ba. haha. but yea. think he placed the ring in a biuquet of flower. dunno hows it like... but. well, seems liek it only two of them. like. nothing fancy ba. .liek those romantic proposal videos u see eh .ha. so memorable.
but then again,  yea. marriage and proposal is always a great thign as long as its sincere and heartfelt =)

hehe .today. wow. after so long.. finally me get to dress up again . =) i rrly like to dress up. but usually too tired to. =// cos u know me. work rrly tired me out. however, its rrly nice. i am excited though. to be able to doll myself up again. i rrly like hte eye makeup i done today.
simple easy and fabulous.
my dress and heels. .nails. all nicely done. ( at least to me i think so hahahaXD)
uh huh. rrly need to doll up once in a while. no id everyday. haha .but. .course i wan though XD just need energy. and a bf to doll up for. sammy no here. so .. .yea. all the more me just need mini shorts and t shirt ,singlet simple will do fine =)

mm.. wat else.
theres a couple of thigns. cant rememebr. ..mmm.. oh

sugergy
read two bloggers from sg . one spend like $130 000 , the oter got sponser or somethign. no. htink she spend alot of money too. she saved hard for months.
anwyay, they do look ok. maybe beter than a few other girls.
but i vcan tell. their face are fake.
like. the features. .cna be maybe nose too narrow and thin.. stuffs like that.
but ... wow .al lsuch money.. spend onto not just their faces, but body too. they dont look normal. like. .abit plastic doll. no sense of realisticness to them.
however, i believe that. if they are happy, they are rich. hten yea. i have nothing against them. so no worries haha
just saying that.. haiz. .soemtimes. ..these undergo the knift to pursue beauty. .can end up making u un natural ... =/ plastic looking.
too perfect may not be a gd thign .just.. not realistic. .unreal ba
wow . all those money onto their faces and body. ... gosh. and those pains.. .
dunno why they wanna do it. maybe cos beauty to them.. .is a huge thig ba. they wan ppl always look at them? they wanna be popular? they wanna be liek their korean girl group stars .. haiz. nowadasy.. .
o well

then today saw this pointed chin girl .i duno real anot. but... omg. its disgusting. how can anyone think thats pretty???
anime looking girls are not liek that .rrly2 not liek that. big eyes, rosy cheeks. .uh huh.. .but. .certainly not alien pointed cheeks like..so ...over the top . gosh.

sad huh. if im a parent. and... my childern.. wanna change their featuires.. features of me and my partner who gave it to them.. features of them who resemblenms us.. .then having to erase it.. .=/ sad. very sad.
rememebr those days ppl say.. ohj ur eyes looked like ur mum. oh ur lips looked like ur dad.. .etc.. .having one day my child wanna say i wanna change my lips. .eyes.. nose.. etc.. .gosh. =/ sad.
no wonder that korean girl group. .erm. i emntioned before. but forgot her name liao. too many of them .
but yea. she say thast such a harsh and sad thign for the compoany to tell her parents stright in the face that they wanted to change her face, and her body.
.. especially when ur parents come form humble family, ..=/ sad

im lucky my parents are supportive. thogh. ..mm. .onot those. .difficult to say ba. at least i have my freedom and all.
how i wish sammy could have those kind of life.
freedom, wont lead stray, happily do watever he want.
..its hard ot imagine ba .. if i come home. .. late or slpt late.. or... talk too loud. .etc.. .everythign i need to check ard me.. .to see if i can do it or not... gosh .
me wan him to be happy. i rrly do.
if i ever live wit him , i'l lmake sure he'll be the most happiest man in the world=)
wan him to feel free. ..coming home can do watever he wan.. wont missed out on thigns that'll make him happy. that he wanna do..  the kind of life im havin gnow.
of course mine isnt perfect ok. haha .but at least. its good enough for now ba
jsut wish he can be nearer.

my ex colleague is getting married soon. next year june ba. eh.. .or march? htink june.. . then shes gonna head to malaysia and live wit her fiance. as in husband liao. ha.
uh uh. that girl ar. younger than me.
ldr too. his fiance travel here n there. .korea.. malaysia. .sg... blah3... pretty much awat .but at least they stil lcna meet here n there when he's nearer in sg
thin kshe's younger than me? i think so. but happy for her =)

mm.. wat else. ..

oh yea. haha. i was so short. (if sammy hear this think he'll laugh. no if he see , he'll laugh) . so short that. i went in my bro room .mum told me he bought masks. so i see. ohhhhhh ok .nice i took long time to admire it. then when he'd finally back homne, he was talking abt it. then he said the thir mask. i was like. ..huh? wat thiid mask. cos i only saw two new ones. turned out htat theres a much bigger mask.. .hung above the other two smaller new masks=.='''''''''''
i said. .omg. i din see. cos i did tilt my head up, but. .i was so short. i din noticed theres another mask above!XD!!!! lolll then bro bend down so his head same height as mine. he was like. omg...!
lol. sorry la. wat to do. me short mah. tilyed my head up, still canot see that mask hung above XD lol .ssssoooooo funny. i was infact looking through like long itme u know. not say one ,5 secs. lol..........
still i din notice that mask . that third mask above. XD hahahhahaha. so funny.

gosh im tired. kk .thats abt it.

jaa mata

slow paced day nice beginning

mm............ alwys like that. ha. mornign wakey. soemtimes feel so energetic, wanna go out. dress up. then soon after, think3. .dunno where to go..wat to do, then ended up no energy to go out liao XD ha. .o wellllllllllllllllllll
just rest and bored at home. but ok ba. theres sammy =) if not more bored.morning checked out guildwar 2. wow. so interesting. thats the kind of game i'll like to play .
but apity i think my lappy rrly canot. .u know. must buy one. better don spend money. skali doesnt work.
ut yea. to have own story line, its great. n characters can customized.

dang. theres 48hrs special sale from scoot. to syd. me din check. but its saying very cheap.
wait later check, not gonna buy, found out oh so cheap, i'll feel terrible for missing out on chances like this
so yea.
but hopefully they'll hae special offer again soon ba

me still alil tired.

oh poor jill that woman from melb. .rrly died. htink probably kena raped too =/ very poor thing. so young. 29 only. haiz.
..wat to do... =/
if only.. she did not turne down her colleague's offer to send her home. haiz.....
so scary. so close to home alrdy. then they attacked. i thin kits more than one man. cos thers vans parked outside his house. i dunno. i cant wait for more news.
hate men like them . its so ..despicable
argh =/

mm. slpy.. wakey so early. nice dream. relaxing one.

yay bro finally oming back home tmr.
cant wait to see wat he bought
mm.. wonder wat time he'll be back

dunno wat else to type. tired liao. oh but its gd though. slow paced day... at work been busy everyday .. though vip alrdy gone. soon, another one coming. scarier one =( gm. huuu.....
T_T
gdluck to us all
anyway,
customers alot .bz3. .must snatch n hunt for sale. everyday alwasy tired at work can be very sianz at times=/
snatching sales.. .haiz. ...
vying for sales..
anwyy, yea. rush3... but today. off. get tiem to walk slowly.. pour water slowly. .eat slowly... sit and sit.. online...
slowlyyyyyy
uh huh..

haiyo. rrly slpy liao

kk jaa mata ne

danger always lurking around

ha. so lazy to blog today. omg. cos kept forgettingstuffs.. .

mm

today so boring =/ i dun like.
and walking back home. dislike either. scary and ..just felt dangerous ha. maybe cos after reading the melb missing woman jill case. so scary n poor thing=( only 5mins walk... haiz. but u know. ..fate has it. .sometimes.. even if its 5mins or 3mins walk, if something meant to happen, no matter how safe the place is, u will still get killed or abduct. taken in a way. uh huh. TAKEN> hahahah. that movie. =) oh anway, yea. tkaen=/
haiz.... so poor thing. i wonder what she tlak to her bro on the phone about. luckily theres cctv. if not how. =/ and to think polivce always knew that area is dangergous. or alot of problems time to time. yet, they do nothing. omg. i dunno what have they tried. but. they themsleves can say that, yet. .theres no prevention or improvements to that area? hello? that is so.. omg. humiliating .for the polcies. so useless. =/
if u knw theres troubels there, do ur best to prevent. it. why wait for a missing woman to happen , then come say oh that area always in trouble. =.= wth.
haiz. dunno ba. so scary.
luckily me the most wat. ..7 or 8pm. hmm.... eh i forgot. i went back to hotel quite late one my first day there. yea. i remember the sky alreayd very dark. and i was lost. goodness. so . .scary haha .luckily that tiem i didnt know of this news yet. so many strangers ard.. and those pub. .crawling with indencent ppl.. eew. sacry .there there this one guy angmoh guy. i thought i caught him looking at my bags of stuffs. liek rrly look. i dunno. but yea. im alive. haha.
but still, so poor thing. dunno wat that man taled to her before she's gone. maybe he asked her out? maybe he tried asking her questions to determine if shes alone? like taken . tha movie. that bad guy also start by asking them non scary questions .then the girl tell him oh they're alone=.= then he say to pick them up to a party, she go and tell him their room floor. *head palm =.= uh huh
o well. .sometimes. .ppl tend to take for granted ba.. oh nothing will be wrong. 5mins walk left only. stil lahve lots of cars ard. .still hav couple more ppl walking ard.. .area is bright.. blah3....
next thing u know, car u turn towards u, youre a goner. =.= push u into car, or stab u behind ur back for that one sec when no one see u. take ur possession, then rnu. u left there.. alone .dying. regretting the words u said before. 5 mins walk only? tink again

but then again. its human nature to think nothing of such 5mins walk danger. or with 2 frens, oh it is save for sure. skali u kena ppl with 15 frens. ahhh die =.= thats why. stupid ppl will find fault with ppl when they tot oh 2 frens of mine are so strong. i can act cool by raising my voice and picking a fight . then when 10 frens of theirs come out, ahh.. .all those cocky talk wil lbe 0 points. but all human nature thoguhts ba. especialy if theyre drunk =/ . me also ba? will think shld be fine. but in my heart i know. this cant be sure. if ur time is up, something sure will happen .ppl come out attack me, or kill me.

tats why stil lwill worry for sammy whenver he';s alone or out late in the dark n stufff. syd there. .mm.. rrly cant say safe. day time might be beautiful. .night time,.. .horrible i ithnk .like wat my rgm said before his encountered in melb. rememerb?
beach where beautiful in mrg, but drugs and prosititue at night.. sighs .wat a waste..

late alrdy. .me nono feel gd.
i dun like this feeling=/
huu
wish i wont think too much

mm. .wat else. .ok. saw a young man alone in pandora today..
buying dunno wat. choosing charms ba. .or sumtin

mm.. ohhhh

am happy thogh. =) dad finally dare to order food. he never ever dare to or wan to order food at hawker. he'll always ask me mum go buy. no matterh ow much mum tried to persuade him to get up n go. i thin khe's paiseh ba? maybe cos he always drink2. tere... then paiseh to buy food form those stalls.. .nearby.
but that day, he actually finally get up and go cehck out the food after mum as usual kept asking him to go see wat he wanna eat.
=) i was so surprised.
then lately, he did it again. he go... and he looked at the stall's menu.. and he ordered. omg. i was so taken aback. 2nd time alrdy. even at bugis. he also queue up for bean curd drink.
by himself.
=) just so glad and happy that finally thigns are getting better abit for him.
like. yea.
all thse years of drinking. .i wonde rif he ever regret now..
his fren asked him to go join them for a drink. he declined .say his leg not well. yea. .his leg.. i dunno .but i think he's not fully recovered yet.
another time. think his fren  called. he say.. daughter and wife wanna go out, if he free will go find him. that fren is a drinking fren.
but i tin k he's turning him down . cos. he himself wanna go out. with mum . and me wanna tag along of course ha.
then by the time we're back, of course he no time go find his fren.
so yea. mm.. yea. .hoep this will be fine ba.
in the past mum want him to bring us out on sunday, or on his off. , he also always say dun wan, tired, or in the aftnoon, will head down for drinks with frens.
now, every sunday he off, sure will go out with mum. =) im impressed though hah .one day off only, he still wanna go out. omg. if me,... comepared to him, i sucks. lol.
dunn oba. cannot compared the same tired level ba. my job workload is hideous.
one day off not enough .
v tired.

mm. late alryd. think he fallen aslp eh
haiz. dunno how to play with him. rrly wan to too.
but. if use my old lappy, wonder wats gonna happen eh. maybe i shld try=.=
maybe it wont be that bad. haha .o well .gotta find out .

kk. gtg.
bro is coming home soon .finally. hahahahha wonde rwat pressy he got me this time=P mm. .but then.. maybe he not much money left ba .ha. maybe less pressy ?

k jaa mata ne

short quick blog

i have so much to type. butit late. im having a headache.. and slpy .huu

so. quick blog again

mm. ok. had terribel ghostly nightmare again. though not as worse as previous one.. but still very bad=(

watched this the possession movie. not scary. predictable. but still very nice. watched it cos of the actor from supernatural.
after movie just wanna hea home asap. dunno .just felt. .uncomfy. not cos movie scary or wat. but.. just .. i dunno =/ cos of my nightmares perhaps

therees a cope of contentants i lie form x factor. they are not those typical gd looking handsome or beautiful ones. but their voices are incredible.
i rrly3 like them
saw this girl. think shes young ba. has this bf accpmained her. god. i dunno wat her bf see in her.
such a bitc* . nobody like her . shes so nosey ard. anwyay,

short blgo. imma slp now. sammy headin to bed liao

,,. wat else.

erm

yea. tats it. cants think liao .late

kk jaa will continue soon.

restless day

gosh. so tired.............. =.= suddenly afetr such hectic week, no work. my body gonna crumble liao
can feel every inch of my body muscles trying to relax..

anwyay, alot to blog. lets see if i remember

so.. ytd. i thought i saw redz at taka. from the corner of my eyes... but its liek he wore a hat, the way he stand (leaning against the wall and looking at his phone was like 100% his style.  i think its him. but i dunno ba. that time thought i saw him at mrt too. reason why i don wanna see him not becos im scared of him watsoever. its because i dunno what i'l ldo. i'll probably gib a dirty evi lglare, scold or shout at him in public. i will u know. those anger are still inside of me. thigns i wanna scold him upside down but din get a chnce to do so.. all inside of me. so wanna lashes out at him. pfft
ow ell... hope i wont ever see him again

oh. so today. was checking ot this korean singer wat banana song.
canadian korean i thinK? omg. that girl. she was dancing and singing live. its quite rare though. cos i heard they don usually sing live. cept for boa. =)
anwyay, yea. i dunno that was a pre recorded live, or live performance. i think its live performance. so her dancing was minisie cos if dance  , u need to restrict abit. if not ur singing will not be very good. will be tough ba
and soooooooooooo i was like .oh great! finally a live performance form korean. then......... =.=
o.m.g. she suckssssssssssssss. her dancing as expected some moves. .but not so great. worse thing is her singing. like teenagers karaoke. like that also can become singer? wat to do. u have a face, body, can become star liao. voice just need to edit through dunno wat. so yea.
but.. omgggggggg
her live really sucks. i couldnt bear to watch finish the video .i just close it. =.=
so disappointed.
=/
hopefully there'll be a good performer  like boa coming up soon.
like that also dare to come out and sing live? omg. image shattered =/
too bad. thought i would like her .
but yea. rrly liek the fact that boa didnt have to blend in with the other girls. lke they'll be wearing skirts and all.. dressy up. then boa will be wearing a casual top with jeans or something. and she looks beautiful. yea. u rrly don have to blend in with anyone in iorder to look beautiful. if u ahve it, ppl can see it. =)

anwyay,
mm... im forgetting something .i dunno wat.

last night was quite a gd one =) though day wasnt.=.= due to fren asked me and another fren last min msg wanna head out for gathering anot. then last min also let us know oh cannot make it. wth.
stil lgot time to fb. then say too busy to msg us. excuses. =.=
o well. no hard feeling sba. soemtimes pppl does forget thigns. .o well

huu.... =/ appied for leave cos of bro la. voucher gonna expire then use. omg.
haiz. waxted my leave. o well.
once in a while family dinenr ba ..

im so tired and nono energy today.. huuu =/
terrrible.
oh back to last night. was finally alone. msging sammy. on the couch comfy. sat night. tv playing my fav movie resident evil. chips. if only he's here, omg. everythign wil lbe perfect. but anyway, still its comfy and cosy. .nice to relax. its been such a hideous week for me. =/ busy liek mad. huuuuuuu
uh huh. =(
and then tired. not enough rest. etc.haiz. then finally last night get to have a dinner outside with parents. then ntuc. then home. online bath, then fav movie. its such a short lived moment. but yet its almost near perfection for a night. uh huh. sat night at home quiet and peaceful. then sammy gotta slp early. then me just watch movie.
thinking how nice it wouldve been if he's here with me
hopefully this kind of night will coem soon ba.
nice night. uuh huh .
simple. but rrly relaxing.
bath... .was like .under the shower... for a good few mins letting water splashy onto my head and face whilst im sitting down...
just relax.. htinking.. oh how nice it is. finally this hectic crazy week is over. finally my off day tmr.

o well. liek tat ba. so short lived. but at least betetr than none eh

mm... anything else anot.. =.=
mm...
thast abt it i guess?

hoep bro is having a great time in rome now .
k. .gtg.
though im pretty bored and slpy tired restless...now.. huu
seeknig joy with msging him

jaa mata

nice customers

and so... i find that i llost interest in speaking with my fren after i knew wat lies he told me of.. and  ..stuffs like tat. liar.
i hate it. after betrayal liek that, i rrly cant trust tat person again. i mentioned before so yea.
but . .o well. jsut felt like strangers now. who ask him lie to me

mm... wat else

oh. spotted 5 youngs men checking out pandora today. O.o i dunno why. they seems to be younger than sammy. or perhaps about... 20s? i think ba. yea . maybe they maybe for pressy ba. ha. din know guys liek them would know or even heard about pandora

mm.. i forgot wat else im supposed to type =.= dotsss just few secs ago i still remember =.= '''''

anwayy, gonna rest soon. sighs. long day =/

another staff gonna quit. uh huh. o well. .watever ba

wat else. .mm.... '
ohhhh yeaaa

haha. ytd a customer so funny. i was being nice to her. she wanted to meet my rgm for business purposes. then asked if he is as nice as me.  XD lol. then say i have a bf anot? cos she has a brother. LOLLL .she tell her colleagues 2 ladies .that i have very pretty eyes. incase youre wondering is that the reason why i changed my fb cover.. -_- no. i swear nothing to do with her comment. always got ppl talked abt my eyes. mm.. =.= dunno ne. rrly that nice meh? =.= nah. .just normal ba. i think alot of ppl hav diff pretty features

kk. gonna go. hair dry alryd?
oh. someone approached me to join anothers company =.= ha. tat person told me its higher pay than wat im earning now. o welllllllllllllll dunno ba.
omg. imagine if i quit also, my rgm wil lgo nut. then my sm quit, then everythign go nuts hahahah

kk. nighst

jaa mata

aussie way of living?

very tiring day.. .omg. =( by the end of night. .im like dead meat xombie. huu... 800 -1000 then 1230-2230.. uh huhT_T can faint liao. huu worked non stop every sec throguhout the day. OMG
andits not gonna be over yet so soon huuuu
=/.

anway... was just lookey throgh my frens fb.. so his gf is from melb. anyway he rrly dislike sg i think? not say dislike .but then he jsut prefer overseas ba i guess? at least he's sure he'll wanna buy house in melb.one day. someone with his gf. h eknows where he wanna be. but he's tinking.. difficult part is to intergrat the way of their living.

mm.......... i try to put myself in his shoes. .if me, will it be difficult? i think its fine ba. just that. ..
no spicy hot food =.='''''
haha. yea. wat a pity. ohh!! hav!!! ut its difficult to get i guess. i stil lrememebr that spicy friend rice indonesian store i think. sammy ate. a pity i couldnt find my way there n eat it again =( but at least i tried the noodles. hehe .

weather. too cold sometimes. hair slapping across my faceXD .couple of times i thought i was gonna blown off XD hahahhaa. =_= yea im not kidding.

mm........
yea. basically just chilli ba. XD haha. and the after bath step out part. omg. can die. *faint.
haiz............. =( me miss tha place so much. and times spend with him.
anwyay, me resisted to look ard at the pandora started kit. uh huh.
hopefully it'll go away soon XD haha.

mm...
o well. thats about it ba. just so tired. exxtremely tired... workload a million tasks to complete. deadline is near for everyone =/ wish us luck. haiz

oh yea. not so close childhood fren.not even fren ba. just no contact type. anyway, found out his gf of two yrs. went pearth or melb. i duno .just australia. study i think. then few weeks later, somehow i think something happened. maybe a guy flirted with his gf. or she replied back in a not so gd way.. (hmm. .i dunno if i blog this before or not)
anyway, somehow he's single. posted. .. ''soemtimes u shouldnt bite off more than u cna chew'' . ''some guys shameless. .knowing ppl has a bf, still wanna come in between them ''.. .yea. but anway, gd news. phew. somehow, he went to melb , dunno he got meet her anot. i dunno. but he's with a couple of frens whos staying there. so yea., then soon after, he came back, they both put up their couple profile pics liao.
so yea. i think they're back together again .
think he lost 8kg in one month. but dunno .. due to previous heartache i guess??
i couldnt eat well nor live well when i was in pain either..
anwayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
uh huh .
thats about it ba. wa slike .huh so fast broke up liao O.o then was like ..ohhhh yay. think they're back together again

serioulsy.. no matter wat happened to her. .or my fren misunderstood.. .dunno. but. 2 yrs relationshoip. .if less than one month busted cos of stupid ppl(that guy) , then its so not worth it. its so wasted=/
cos blinded by stupid guy, or truth, then causes years of relationship to fail.. haiz.. .rrl not worth it.. =/

kk gtg slp

OMG> time to resttttttttttttttttt =) finallyT_T huuu
cant wait to hit the pillow

oh one more.. XD

omg=.= the ho ppl. .dunno how they work. it comes to me and my sm that.. they are lazy . slacking. sorry harsh words. but. they couldve done better. always last min. then say things not clear.
omg. ended up so much trouble causes for my team. and we .. omg. last two days? did some much changes to the store, in the end, foudn out couldve save the trouble if they had gotten back to us earlier, or more accurately. etcetc
so many times alrdy. kk .gtg liao

jaa mata!