superly duperly depressive day =(((((((((((

sighs. .woke up with a bad dream... theres sammy. .but not gd dream.. but one psmall i wa shappy. .ot be back in aust

been having vivid weird lonng dreams.. especially hated the zombie ones. .then wokey..slp.. dreamt of zombie again.. anyway thats like not todya

omg.

been days alrdy.. since last week? last two weeks/
?
i dunno
but today i can say its the worst.
i am so depress.
i dunno what u called that

i was feeling so negative, angry, frustrated, sad. sad, and more sad, and more anger and more negatives..
sighs.. its.. terible.
even till now.. 1130pm now as im typing this line..
i still didnt feel any better=((((((

was crying half the day...
pclean my room..
tried to slp.. tried to read.. but. .i cant concentrate. =(
then back to crying mode

i think i am too bloody stress out. or im heading towards depression
im bloody serious.
cos im not feeling right
my period jsut over. .so ..i don think the way im feeling now has anythign gotta tdo with it..

i dunno

or maybe im saving too hard.. or maybe im stress aboutlife, personaly life work love and helth?

i dunno
i bloody dunno and that rrly annoys me =((
here i am, upset ,and crying over these negative feelings which i dunno whazat or why
i feel liek punching something or someone.
ya. thats how terriblke i feel=(

sighs...

wth. i dun even lnow why am i crying???

if this isnt stress nor depression, then i dunno what else ne

=/

sighs

its getting worse each day.
only at work am i able to smile.
or at least i forced myself to .
the rest of the day i felt like a living zombie

sighs............
cant take this negative feelign anymore=(
its terrible

or pehaps im not having enough slp due to work

i dunno.

wow. my arma, yet again. theres red strp[es form the 5 or 3 mangos i carried.. yea in plastic bag.
told ya before eh.
i get marsk easily.
the redness will not disappear within a long time.
=/ too weak my body eh
only mangos leh.
that time was coins. but yea..  mangos stil lcauses my arm to have red marks from carrying heavy stuffs

weak body.
i hate it

sighs
yea see. told y aim in a hating mood=/
feel liek scareaming. .punching.. biting someone.. .to vent out all my anger

rrly catn stand today =(

sighs

its so terrible. i am not happy.
i am depressed
i cried and cried
i feel so helpless

am i overly stress out by work?
what is happening to me? =(

sighs

i dunno.. but one things for sure. ive not been smiling on my off day .
work days i smield cos i have to. for hte sake of my colleages and customres
but off day, i could harldy ever smile=/


scary eh

sighs

cant have any shopping therpy now

so yea

perhaps.. i shld give up on pandora and some lingerie insyd

sighs dunno ba
nid to see hwos everything within the next month. month not yet even tell doc about when will her operation be

i might felt a bit tiny weney bit better after bloggin here

but still ... =/
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

im slpy tired and negative

this isnt a gd sign rrly. for anybody.
if i have a fren liek htis now, i'll be dang worried
of course i wont tell anyone la.
told sammy abit ba
but ya hes' slpign

though off today, but i gotta say.

its been a terrible day.
wasted day
boring day
lonely day
sianz day
and duh negative day
tearful day

sighs

=(((((((

i miss my smile.. =(

i wanna be happy againb...

thats what my best freind always ask me. .are u happy:?
i want ou to be happy
we dont contact nor meet often. yet, i apprecriated this kind of concern.

i feel lie slping alryd. hope i wont wakey early again
seehow.. if bro play dvd maybe i wont slp

wanna watch weeping angel form doc who. =/ but he watched liao.. i missed it.. haizzzzzzzzz
then he say tourblesome to play again cos must put in two dics=(
o well.............nvm ba

jsut don regret not playing when im gone one day.

=.=

sorry ne. jjst so negative these days.

will my next off be this bad too??? =/ sighs...

im doing my best to hold it altogether

wish mye luck

sighs

mayeb will cry to slop later
dunno why just cant stop ccring and feeling sad=/

mata =/