u know how sometimes when youre stress. .and u need to talk.. but u didnt wanna affect the ppl ard u. cant let colleagues feel stressed dtoo when their leader is down.
or just afraid that they only hear u , but they dont listen.
sighs.
so stressed out abt every aspects of my life. these days i felt so messed up.
from work to personal. .stuffs u know.
and .. intially i feel like crying. but then i controlled cos was at work. now home.. wanted to cry while bathing.. but couldnt. duno why. maybe long day tired bah. somemore the moment i stepped in, theres more work to do. its nvr ending piles of work.
how to relax ar.... mm..
then holiday trip cancelled due to fren's new bf surprises her with a trip. i msg her today. and shes liek oh he just told her. im like thinking in my heart. .. long story short. she shld actually knew abt it perhaps at least couple days back. or even earlier.
so now. im stucked. i duno what to do.
shld i go somewhere else. my fren adviced me to go america. or somewhere alone.
im like jokingly asked. .u wan me get shot ar. haha. anyway.
yea. actually i just wanna peacefully go someone alone. do my thang. shop. etc.
i misses the times when im in my hotel room and my hand reaches out to the cold ouotside the window... and it was like aircon.. so cold. and it was raining.... i breathe in deeply the air... into my lungs.. ..trying to feel every inch throughout my body... i felt the cold and the wind blowing against my hair and skin....
its as though.. .im still there when i relives this moment.. .and some others bah. dun wan say liao.
with him also.
so yea.
though he's not free for me. but now i have this thinking... like perhaps heaad back to syd for a couple of days. perhaps 3 or 4?
cos hotel is exp... so probably i cant stay a week again like the previous time.
i duno peeps.
but yea that would mean i have to spend abt 100 over on transportation fee. cos back n forth mah. dun think he will be free for me ba
frens always asked me why don wan try elsewhere.
i duno. im alone. and besides the reason hes there la. .and syd is like my '2nd home' close to my heart. and im getting used to the places.. .more of shops ha. just ard the small comfortable area i alawyas liek to hang out.
till now i still didnt get to eat the chinatown creme balls=.=
long queue!!! forever==.
anyway ya...
guess im jsut so comfortable bah... like. i know .. where to go.. what to do for the day. usually out of the one week i love to spend 1 long day shopping from qvb to meccas to westfield. haha. menaing.. .abt from 10ish or 11 head out .and shop all the way till 6pm. or 7pm. when headin back i have a habit of stopping by woolworths. cos its along the way. and yea. haha.
thast my typical long shopping day in syd XD
most stores are still there.. .but few of them.. no longer there liao=/
o well....
and bras n things. omg. all the way to bondi. luckily not that far. mm... i wonder if on my own.. will i be able to make it there without missing my stops... cos theirs is not liek.. .i duno. not v loud? and only announce the location once? or i duno. not when rching bah. forgot.
sg mrt is like when leaving and when rching will announce.
so thats gd
mm... oh. i remmeer. .when coming back...
this angmoh guy at mrt so rude. he was eating donut.( ikr... u can eat in mrt?? =.= i mean subway train... watever)
then he threw the paper into the rails!! wow.
so rude was that. =.=
haz. so yea. .anyway.. .im rrly considering that option. coupe of days in syd.. but i duno... i duno jjust yet.. .
i don feel like cancellign the al cos.. im rrly stressed out.
at this stage. so yea.
or spend it in sg? uss hotel? go uss on my own?
i duno man...
spending days in sg aint bad. i just duno what shld i do. i misses syd so bad =/
i ..might go back to same hotel T_T cos its cheaper abit.
though i gave them twice bad reviews liao.
and ive sorta memorised how to walk ard frmo there. XD
see how ba
but fo rnow... , yea. im rrly thinking abbt that(going to syd short trip_)
shall see how it goes bah.
haiz. or ask bro or frens...
i can start a conversation with cusotmer. a totla stranger. but with ppls frens. it can be a lil hard.
i duno.
my personaility is on the mm... multiple sides. ' XD
sometimes i envy my frne. bubbly personailities with everyone she sees.
then i remind myself. im diff. indiviual .everyone is diff.
i shoudlnt dislike myself for that..
this is me u know.
i cant even explain.. u have to get to know me.. to know me..
i surprises myself too with lame jokes and .. haha.
v funny la. XD not praising myself. but seriously i cna be v vfunny. omg. so lame.
and yea..
getting along with guys whislt chatting doesnt mean flirt.
i like to chat with anyone if they can chat.
but with girls they're so... i duno. i like manly' topics. i do liek girls topics.. but more on beauty products. makeup etc.cos thats where im stronger at. i know abt those.
but if tlak abt brandeds.. etc.. .this fashion. .this diamond..etc.. img like. wat?? oh dunno.
but if tlaked abt certain animes.. games or cartoons.. all guys type. .. i will be able to elaborate more on those. cos. liek i'd said umpteen of times. i grew up with my bro.
so yea.. .
but my guys and gay frens been pretty busy lately so yea.. =/
haiz.
feeling abit betternow...
tal next time bah..
jaa mata
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