just be yourself

mm...

glad another day is over..

its ok.. over fast is good.. busy is gd.. moving on...

wah. was so hungry guru2 till i couldnt take it no more .got up form my bed. hurrily ate abit of nuts and bar.. then quickly go back to slp. guess what. i stil lauto wakey at abt 840am =.= ....'' haiz.... shld i slp eary or not.
omg. wanna wakey late also cannot.
slpy. .dryin ghair now..

so nice. sunday my fren and her bf will go holiday in taiwan. she also like me la. bought sexy nighties. haha.

sighs

anyway. so nice. again this aussie youtuber her house. .wait had i mentioned this before?? ....
oh man i think i did. ..
mm.. .anyway well aa quick mention then. so yea. her house is small .but gd. narrow but u have everythng u nid

i mena i don nid two rooms or anything ya know.
but yea.. .hopefully one day.. can have my own place. or stay with someone

o well

lets not get there
 heart only aches

 mm.. nvr had picnic before. ha. he used to say ot gd. cos will hav ants and mosquitoe. but my frens still go .
duno. aybe diff areas ba.
dunno will i be going anot.. .so troublesome. think rather hea dout .dunno

so cool. when i watched boas performance and recalled. .
her fans commented that during rainey performance. .live conert. the other korean artiste .. girl groups etc. .didnt perform so well. they slipped, (cos raining and wet floor) and just bad performance. boa is the only standing one. think got one time she almost also? but she didnt in the end. hehe.
tats my idol =)
just so cool

like jsut find it irritating in the recent ending of sm entertainment ... convcert. they will alwasy sing ending saong.. same song.
then these 2 or 3 girls started dancing in their own group in circle like v v attention seeking=.= argh. then near them is boa. standin gn smiling. this last song no one nids to dance at all.
some guys also liek show off perform2 dance2=.=
omg. rrly.cannot tak eit. sianz. lol

she an be jus tstanding there. doing nothing much. (oh she took selfie of her gfrens )
no nid do so much purposely dance la. .etc.
 she can wear jsut a checked shirt n tshirt wiht shorts and perform... yea. she stands out jsut by being who she is.
like. who gets to wear so casually yet still look fabulous. sexy pretty and yea.

duno .jsut rrly feel irritated by attention seeking girls .laugh so loud .. .etc... especially in groups. and guys also =.=
i dun even bother to turn my head and look at them. =.= crazy.
talk n laugh so loud purposely for what. sometimes u can tell whether if its intentional or unintentional

mm.. abti hungry.. .
wokey early so get to eaat instant nooodle ..ate finished at abt almost 11am..
then dinner at almost 7... then yea.
thats it. abit hungry now. oh man

better hurry go slp before i get any more hungrier

jaa mata

hungry tired fatique huu

omg im dying.
as in.. dying of fatique

i auto wakey again. 430am. then tats it. cant slp back. head thinking of work here n there. and body too tired. ya kno how body too tired and its difficult to slp?
sighs.
5hrs of slp or less i had.
then meeting
then head out whole day.
been working so much lately that now. at night. im making it a point (though very tempting) not to online for my work. nope. not tonight. i had enough .
im going crazy. my body is going crazy.
i cant think anymore. not rrly
so yea
sighs



so freakin ghappy finally having my aftnoon shift soon omg
mm.. lhad long black coffee before meeting. but not bitter ne. ok i  can drink all. yup no sugar added baby

im abit hungry actually.. but o well

gotta slp and rest. but.. .too hungry also having prob to slp

been having trouble slping lately. not tat bad. just ot as fast as i used to .cos head is thinking abt work..what to do..etc=/

sighs

oh had a nightmare again the other day... house and ghostly thingy. smiliar to my previous one. but not as scary as that one. so ye.
but.. o well. no one to tell
hate this type of dreams

body still weak. din rest today so yea. too bad. nvm next week then rest ba
hoep i wont faint when im up at the ladder. dang aussie ladder so high light and shaky =.= couple of times i thought i was ognna fall .so does the other team memebers
my gosh
dangerous. yet they cant change it ==  .. whatever o well
anything happen... i dunno what to say

mm...
hungry. gosh. ancnot. i must try to slp

but hope wont be like last time hunger woke me up T_T supr early somemore. then i ate cup noodle.
shoot growling guru2 no.w. .=/

mm... dunno wha els eto say
forgot

so yea im rrly trying not tocheck work stuffs from home
T_T

haiz. kk.. gtg.
im so freaking tired.
poor bro
too bad hav to tahan my slping early patterns.
but i ask him to go ahead and play t or wahtver. i will o sl iwht lights on =/ what to do

dunno tmr if im eating late anot.. mm.. .
hopefully can finsih some stuffs up and quickly go makan

on time

hungry nowwww huu

jaa mata

hope i wont wakey for food
not 430 again at least huu

oh did i mentioned last night? I only had one meal ytd. For since such a ..quite a rather long time. Huu

jaa

fainting moment =/

life is worse when u realized that the everyday lil things u enjoyed ...ex msging. is gone.

.. i wa ssurprised today.
rrrly. i . mm.. as usual... mrg again.. i was sly and all... not enough slp even for 7 hrs
.. no breakyfast... usually my  lfirst meal at town area woudlve been  1pm
bubt now after changed, its 230 or 3 at my own accord. cos i wanna ge thigns done. ya konw
so yea,... todya i went break at 245. but.. at abt 240 i think.. .i nearly fainted.
=( yea. that was frightening. the first time i went all wobbly was so many years back ... long story . bubt yea. dad was with me luckily

anyway.
i was halfway doing cashiering when i went blank for a sec and i was like. .'oh!'.. then regain my senses and apologize to cust and tell my fren im dizzy.
she told me to go break fast. then halfway through break also felt so dizzy ...with my rgm in fron to fme..
looking at my rgm.. i wa slike. .i rrly can do this too...
the sg rgm... so yea. rrly hope in two years or so timei could get there too

anyway... so yea. even now im feelign kind aweak. i cant.. .i dunno .my heads in a mess...
ive been pushing myself far too hard. my previous store sm tell me to relax.. don so stress... eat med and rest...
but.. .i don nid med. its just that. .main thig is im mmmpushing myself too hard. trying to compete hepas of tasks.. .and.. u know... =/
ended up destroying my health..

not destroy but you know.. . damaging perhaps.
sighs.
just didn know this would happen.. shoudlve been more careful..
but. ..i cant. cos too much to settle. .
and. .eya. buried myself into work i gues.s.

i feel like. .i can faint anytime time. i wonder if i am bale to wake up for my meeting tmr ,, will ready more alarms i guess.. ...

sighs.

how i wish.. its feb now. . so i an rest...
o well.. .

today this customer... i was telling her our stores promo.. then shes liek okok.. oh this ar.. .okok... your butt very nice.

i was like stunned. O.O ...say whatttttttt
*blink2 my butt very piao liang?? lvery pretty?
 omg

why aunties always notice such thigns ar. like. .features i mean. .i was like. .huh? O.O
butt? ofc i didnt ask more as my rgm next to me
oh gsh

anyway. yea wil ltry to tc of myself bah. its gonna be a touch week ahead for me and my tea, this week. .but we willl pull it through. new role new challenge. .and.. .ofc. also a challenge to my health..
will do my best.

though.. in my heart i know.. .my body is crumbling...
its os difficult fo rme to relax. .even whe slping.. .
o well. .
wish me luck n gdhealth zzzz

i miss.. rrly niss those happy days...

mata

workaholic . yes im working hard!

just a quickie blog

rushing to bed.
work3 mrging shifts straight so slpy every morning wakey like.. zzz wanna slpppppp cant wait for aftnoon shift. even off day also mst go meeting
so yup no slping in i guess

woooo lappy strat up in secs. haha .wow. great2 ^^

so yup. ive been such a workaholic.. omg. rrly i am. if nvr finish task i rrly cant eat nor hav the mood to break.

my break now is 230 and ytd 330 . cos ive been working non stop trying to settle the store and all gosh .
great that time passes fast
but yea.. .was like.. wow... .my meal time rrly.. not gd i know not healthy but.. u know . i just cant. cant go break unless i settle my work stuff. its os hard to leave liek that ya know.
so yea. anywya
hoepfully i can change it. though i doubt so. mm.. .land yea. somemroe me nvr eat breakfast so... yea.

then after break come back to store. .wow. body so shag and sooo tired.
rather no break lor. haha

anyway... will try to look after myself bah. jsut. .so tired out

mata

and im feeling......goooodddddd

wow. last night i was feeling rather gd, todayi woek up also talakative. mm.... strange
ok. glad im feeling good =) weee though alot of work in my head still.. gsh u have no idea how much thing i nid to get done

anywya. also happy pay is in woo hoo early somemore =)
think wanna head out later. uh huh. gonna drink water.. online abit... eat. .then head out bah. hopefully ill feel this gd for the rest of day

finally ihad 8 hrs of slp. though i slpt at 3am last night. online and all
wonder whens the last time i had 8hrs slp gosh.
went k box the other night.. and i was singing this song... and. .wow. the finally part mike was handed to me.. and.. its abt my story ya know. .u related to ti.. for the first time , i think. .yea. i sang it all out. the emotion was there... i finlaly got a taste of what ppl means when they say sing it with emtion. the singer sang it with such huge emotions. it  can even make the ausdience cry.
u know words like that. .so yea... was rrly ...feels gd i guess... like.. u gave it al lout and emotions came poruring out.. u vent ur frustrations into it... yea. ..good to ven tit out.. sing it out.... ..


not like im totaally fine but o well. weird. next week i hav aew activites coming along. nvr happen before . and. .think imma be tired ha

i nid my slppppppppppppppp
fav time of night

kk gotta run some errands and get stuffs for store too

mata ne

crazy day

Had a gd news. And.. anyway.i didnt share it with anybody. Just colleagues knew. Cant believe im blogging in mrt lol first time

Was like.. so bloody stress out man ..sighs. just ..heaps of things . And its breaking me down. Was trying to hold my tears back at work he whole day
U gotta be strong when youre leading a team eh...
Anyway. Yea. I cant for for this say to be over. I feel sad most of the time. And .i dunno wherre or how to get stress out and..its bad i know.

Be strong and do it i guess. Tats what everyday says of me. Im strong.though i don rrly like it. Strong on tge ourside in the end ill still be crying alone at night or bathroom.

Heaps to be dpne again today. Wish me luck

Wow. First time since so long ytd i ate so lil.
Uh huh. Thanks to a v v crazy hectic day
only had 1 old chang kee  sausage at 230 and  a salad. How craz is that =_=
For a person like me who loves to eat

k. Imma work like mad later.

Still hav the feeling of wanna cry..but o well. Im so freaking slpy right now

its  kinda irritatjng when you dressed up and its not town area youre at,.. they will look3. Like.. argh. Sianz. Vos neighbourhood kalls or aea they don usually get to see ppl dress up bah. O well. Wat to do

jaa mata

love and life decisions

had flowers in my hair and received many compliments. alot of customers complimented that i look great. my hair is so pretty.
=) made my day. and ofc i sold those too
i even posted it on snapchat. ha.

just watched a video abt this guru .. talking about caught her bf cheating. she caught it. he denied...blah2... he finally broke down and cry his balls out. asking what he can do to make it up to her..etc. don wan her to leave his house. .she made him text her or sumtin abt cant pick up her cos his gf is there.. cant pick the 3rd party up i mean.
so yea... and she tried for a week. still shes thinking everyday abt the cheatin gpart that she decided to breakup with him.
he wtold her the plan.. .at first he lied abt headin gout with his mates.. (said couple of names whos going)... then to where.. .but actually he's picking that bit** up at a party before headin gto her place and slp with her.
thats the plan. but she found out cos that girl called him so yea...
anyway... haiz. heard he's a pretty good guy too.
was like crying and tellin gher dunno what hes doing.. .blah3... seriously. like seriously ?
 sighs. anyway. they were young so yea...
too bad i guess. o well
=/
..haiz

mm... wonder if my typing will be improve after keyoboard changed..

this sm form other outlet kena sacked. cos team members tell on her to aussie side. not to rgm u know. but to aussie. gosh so evil. somemore one of them is the swt spoken kinda malay girl. haiz... v bad. cant believe it. in order ot become sm, do such a thing.
=/

and the ex sm droppe dby todya. haiz. feel so sorry for her. she say im v pretty. i don dare dsay no just shake my head and say thank u
v wasted... heard sm say rgm was htinking of making her the next rgm

gosh. bro bought a handsoap from bath n body works. its the smell of sammys perfume ...o well...

i went out cos my fren in trouble that night.. .
she and her bf of 4 yrs.. or 5?
broke up.
they always hav probs.
and fihgts.
but yea. sm na di v worried.
shes drunk before she asked me out.
i was so afraid other guys will take her home u know.
first time saw my sm crid.
cried. and the silent type.
cos htey been long frens sfor so many yrs.
found her. then she disappeared. again.
she said to me.
hoep u and your bf can be together happily ( something like thath)
then kiss my cheek. say love me. (did she say i forgot)
then she say wan go take phone call. then gone again

haiz

me and sm so scared and worreid.

=( i even cried abit
cried for fren after duno whens my last
scared the blessings hse gave is her last words.
iw a sleft alone in bar again. yea. one person.
got one guy even cheers his drink with me. i wa slike =.= wth. anyway just one sip.
luckily he nvr tlak to me. i was sad mood to the max. so worried. htink i sat alone for an hr or so plus. haiz. cos sm went looking for her . i nvr even touch the drink

found her. and she was crying and shouting wanna die.
her bf ask her borrow from ppl$ 20 000 . wth right. if he's a man he wouldnt do that. not even as a husband.
she cant give him .feels bad. bbut brokeup over fight of other thigns.

when sm called me foudn her, wow thats such a huge relieved. when i reach,ed, they were struggling. she threw herself towards the road with a big lorry coming so near. me sm and two other guys were shocked and pulled her. ofc i couldnt pull much cos they were pulling and all. imagine she pushed one of us towards the lorry instread how??

anwya. sm then slapped her real hard. few times. she ast down crying. she don care for us. but i know socos shes drunk upset and angry
i don blame her
but yea. was like so shocked.. she dashes out liek that.. .then kicked sm in the stomach and stepped on her foot
real hard

cos drunk ba thats why. plus so upset

haiz... then sm called her bf here. .etcetc... dunno what happen between them now.. .hope shes feelign better bah... =/
she say no money alrdy(when she was crying)...
say what she can give will give.. what she cannot, do not blame her..

sighs. .stupid guy. shes pretty and i like her personaiity. stupid. he's fat also u knowo. ugly. (sorry to say tht. ) but cmon. count his loss for losing her. so baka to the max of his life. u have a beauty for ur future wifey(they bought a house together recently) , u wanna breakup just liek taht? dun wanna win her back?
iw as like telling sm... its his big loss if he break up with her.
bloody baka. i dun understand why. somemore he's fat and not gd looking. got such nice gf what more he want. omg.

borrow money on his own s a MAN better aint it

sighs anyway. yea.

her pain i understand. .sm also. sm say when she broke up with bf of  5 yrs, she also tot of commiting sucidie.
she still dreams of her ex to this day. shes also shocked.
haiz...

its the truth when ppl say....

sometimes.... your one true love... only happen once in a lifetime.... once u missed it, u missed it forever.....
it is a blessing and lucky if u met ur true love one  in this planet of billions of humans all ard...

will u be able to keep ur love one. or missed it and regret for the rest of ur life.. .?
the decision it is all up to u.
u made ur own life decisions. .for u are living for urself. .it is ur life. ur own lifetime.. .
what will you do. what would you could've done. ..

i just wanna slp.. .jsut wanna slp all my probs away...
tht is why i wanna slp

jaa mata