fainting moment =/

life is worse when u realized that the everyday lil things u enjoyed ...ex msging. is gone.

.. i wa ssurprised today.
rrrly. i . mm.. as usual... mrg again.. i was sly and all... not enough slp even for 7 hrs
.. no breakyfast... usually my  lfirst meal at town area woudlve been  1pm
bubt now after changed, its 230 or 3 at my own accord. cos i wanna ge thigns done. ya konw
so yea,... todya i went break at 245. but.. at abt 240 i think.. .i nearly fainted.
=( yea. that was frightening. the first time i went all wobbly was so many years back ... long story . bubt yea. dad was with me luckily

anyway.
i was halfway doing cashiering when i went blank for a sec and i was like. .'oh!'.. then regain my senses and apologize to cust and tell my fren im dizzy.
she told me to go break fast. then halfway through break also felt so dizzy ...with my rgm in fron to fme..
looking at my rgm.. i wa slike. .i rrly can do this too...
the sg rgm... so yea. rrly hope in two years or so timei could get there too

anyway... so yea. even now im feelign kind aweak. i cant.. .i dunno .my heads in a mess...
ive been pushing myself far too hard. my previous store sm tell me to relax.. don so stress... eat med and rest...
but.. .i don nid med. its just that. .main thig is im mmmpushing myself too hard. trying to compete hepas of tasks.. .and.. u know... =/
ended up destroying my health..

not destroy but you know.. . damaging perhaps.
sighs.
just didn know this would happen.. shoudlve been more careful..
but. ..i cant. cos too much to settle. .
and. .eya. buried myself into work i gues.s.

i feel like. .i can faint anytime time. i wonder if i am bale to wake up for my meeting tmr ,, will ready more alarms i guess.. ...

sighs.

how i wish.. its feb now. . so i an rest...
o well.. .

today this customer... i was telling her our stores promo.. then shes liek okok.. oh this ar.. .okok... your butt very nice.

i was like stunned. O.O ...say whatttttttt
*blink2 my butt very piao liang?? lvery pretty?
 omg

why aunties always notice such thigns ar. like. .features i mean. .i was like. .huh? O.O
butt? ofc i didnt ask more as my rgm next to me
oh gsh

anyway. yea wil ltry to tc of myself bah. its gonna be a touch week ahead for me and my tea, this week. .but we willl pull it through. new role new challenge. .and.. .ofc. also a challenge to my health..
will do my best.

though.. in my heart i know.. .my body is crumbling...
its os difficult fo rme to relax. .even whe slping.. .
o well. .
wish me luck n gdhealth zzzz

i miss.. rrly niss those happy days...

mata