true intentions

oh gosh. so sorry. ive been .. not myself of late. and. .yea. rrly dislike my blogs. i dunno whats overcome me.

its weird. trying to force tears outta ur eyes. as though too tired to do so anymore .or cried till theres no more tears left to flow

anyway.

i just find it so. i dunno .weird. its like. for a outta the blue a guy fren suddenly come along and msg u. so hows u and ur bf.
=..= ''....
like. what???
are u trying to find out if im single or waiting to hear news of us.
like. so weird. especially coming from a guy who used to like u.
thats double weird

pretty obvious whats his intentions i guess.
bt. .yea.... are al lguys like that.

i..stil lwanna force myself to cry out. cos... i cant cry right now ..and i know thats not healthy. cos im keeping it all inside of me.. .adn. .i didint talk. and.. yea. .i stil lhav to forced a smile for the customers.. .
i just... yea. .didnt know what to do.
i thought they say its gd to cry and relieve ur stress and probs out. im at a loss.. .

i love this vid.

gordon ramsay.
he was trying to help this restaurant owner. adn she was crying and saying she wish she could end this misery etc.. adn he looked at her and his voice. so sincere i tell u. so sincere. he siad.. 'im here. im here.''. (as in he's here to help
coming from a foul mouth like him. wow.   and his eyes. rrly sincere.  his voice as well. .u can tell genuinely he wants to help her. and yes. im touched by that .

nowadasy pl only say.. i wish i could help.. im here for u... etc etc... how may meant and stood by their words. how many. its jsut trying to make themselves feel gd and look gd as a kind hearted person.
=.= yea. lik duh

that tone of his voice and sincerity and his look ithrough his eyes.. those aint for show. u can tell he rrly wants to help her. and i think thats very impressive.

.. today im back to myself alil more for blogging.

gd

o well..

sighs

mata ne