eyes prob..night's a prob too

today.. night onwards kinda badlucky going with me.. =( so sad.. sigsh

and i totally missed out the fact that... im wearing lens for more than 15hrs =(((( my eyes red and irritated now =((

to tired and slpy to notice that bah. thanks to a meeting early mrg at duno where sentosa... somewhere near sg most exp hotel.
taxi driver say 2 tables two night stays is 10,000.
im like whoa... skali its near there. like a apartment. i duno. but its nice. and spacious. ..
not the hotel hor.
but yea its for a meeting. and yea. the so called office ... its there. =.=
wow.

anyway still a exp place bah.

and.. .yea. i keep thinking ok bear with 12hrs... wih the lens. but i miscalculated.. its more than 15=( i totally regretted that now=( sighs.. my eyes rrly bad = ( huu

theres just liek u know lil things that went wrong.

onwards

then omw back. this old man tap on my hand to indicate leg go of the pole cos he wanna pass.
bus not even stop yet.

liek the kind of no manner taps.

imm like ok. .liek what my mum todl e. sometimes old ppl like that its becos they had no education .
etc..
duno manners
so im pissed off. but i tell myself. .maybe he rrly.. u know no education watso ever in the old itmes...
maybe he's mute. maybe he's deaf?

so yea... but ..still alrdy sad.. still makes me more upset and frustrated =(

theres this black man on elllen show.

omg i cant believe i forgot his name=(

but he was saying how he was so poor.. homeless..and live in a car for 3 yrs.

lbut yet every mrg he wakes up and feel grateful to be alive and thankt his god for being alive 10mins every mrg.
then i duno wat happened... but he's rich enuff to be on elllens show.

and yea...

he wa ssaying... a man will not perish without education (he drop out of high school i think..he din complete it) .. but a man will perish without a dream.

im like. wow. blown over by that.

true thou

he reminded me of that guy in jurassic park.. that main lead character. .that guy trainer.
he also lived in van for like duno.. .2 yrs or how long ...3?

then he end up beocming famous. .

read this mag ha.. he was saying how he detest the celebrities trying to flirt and chitchat with his famous wife(when he's still not famous)... right in front of his eyes somemore.
anyway they are still together and hav a child now so yea dun worry haha.

but yea.

it all comes down to luck i guess... and nvr give up...and.. yea. u know. u nvr know whats gonna happen.

ppl say don do this do that etc.. .but end up.. u missed out some great paths

u knowo my sm... also due to her luck.. her pay is 4k. retail u know.

cos tat super store sales v v gd that time when not so many stores as of now..
she herself say yea she srrly lucky. but after that.. no pay raise liao.

shes says her bro graduated from uni also still lower pay than her.

anywayyyyyyyyyyy

yea. today im feeling down.

and..  i just dun understand why am i shedding tears over the same thing over again.

is this how one supposed to be treated this way?

i dun even know.

but yea...

so weird. how when i was looking through his photots and he msg..

may tmr be a happier day .
mata..

-wat am i even pining for...-

hiii long time no blog gomen ne

oh wow its been ages since i last blogged. cos.. u know. ... youtube and all... lazy to type hahaha. oopps.

anwyay... didnt hav much to talk abt i gues.s..

just wanan say hi everybody

and erm ... yea. just been so busy. recently went back at abt 2am again. rushing to end at 1am cos rm say its ok to leave earlier then changed of mind when senior rm wants to be tough' and say cannot leave earlier.
o well. watever.

recently went on online purchased. gosh shoudlnve.. .if i wanna go on my trip... but.. .see howba..

anwyay finally bought this brand of makeup brushes ive been wanting to try for the longest time!!
and today came my dress.. .soooo onice. wow. love it. though material wise. .i tot couldvebeen better.
nonetheless, it fits me, and its stunning .clubbing dress eprfect!

god knows when will i wear it haiz=.=

so difficult to wanna wear anything nice and dressup when ur partner is not in sg all the time.

made a mistake a work in mrg. .o wlel... =/ why oh why

mata

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supermodels after birth bodies

soooo slpy11 =( booo huu

sorry been gone for quite some time eh. also forgot what to blog abt ..so much. =/

oopsy.

had a haircut. last week. few days back actully. at first i like it. then.. i realized... mm.. not so . i duno. perhaps hair too dry bah.
i duno im not used to the shorter bit of fringe. he chopped off quite abit

been trying to stay hea;thy. well. alil healtier ver last week. though i still have my fav food. like curries.. .rice.. etc.. .haha.
late night dinner. what to do. my working hrs is not easy.

oh... speakin gof which reminded me.. a lady asked me if im interested in working for her. she say somehtign abt. not massage. but its like full body something. duno isit slimming center or what. anyway i didnt check out their website. not intending to leave yet bah

so. my fren is pregnant. shes v young. 20yrs old this yr. but gd thign is her fiance loves her alot. and also dun mind having child with her. and he even asked her to move in with him (and his family) . so yea. i think thats v responsible for a man bah.
rrly wish them all the best. though my fren say her parents sure angry. cos her sis got pregnant when she was 17 (elder sis ) .her dad straight away bring her to abort.
but my frne is the kind whos not afraid. she say shes gonna tell her dad and mum. not to seek approval. the most kena kick out she will just move in with her fiance anyway.

i admired her dare to do attitude someitmes ha. shes wild la. she used to be even more wild. like slping with guys ard . till she met this man. awww..... =)
glad she met a nice guy. and yea. hopefully after she give birth.. .soon then get married.  will sure attend her wedding =)

i kinda envy that u know. shes gonna have a family of her own with a man she loves.. .etc.
naming her baby (she had the names ready since last yr). oh yea. they been together for a yr. but.. yea.
guess madly in love eh .

anyway.
i saw this youtuber. 6months or more? since she gave birth.. .she suddenly shows her tummy. its like a video to encourage women accept who u are. nothing to be ashamme or upset abt etc...
her tummy... gosh. saggy. rrly saggy.
it nvr occured to me shes pretty on the outside. u know. not fat. ..but... wow.
i duno. im quite shocked to see that.
at first she was fed up and all. then she realized.. .its ok.

and i was tellin gmy other colleague... i have no idea how victoria secret models (few of them are mamas alrdy with few kids!) can get back into shapes. like.. .wth?
through operations tug in or what??

somemore one of the vs model actually walks the runway after8 weeks given birth. like.say whatttttt????

her 2nd daughter btw.
u can tell her belly button like. .abit big? abit diff. but not that super ugly or what.
but her abs. flat and toned. omg.well her trianer says she workout like rrly intenesely. 2 -3 hrs twice a day. 7days a week.
can u do that right after u give birth??? wont that be damaging to ur body?? thats what i heard but i dunno.

that saggy skin scares me. gosh. but if one dya im ever pregnant. after birth, imma try out this whatever 7 days a week kinda hardcore routine. though ofc hers is like professional trainner who guides her to skipping and boxing. but yea.

wow. no wonder these models c an walk runway.

fastest record is actualy heidi klum. walks runway after 5 weeks giving birth to her 4th child. say what???

but she say she eats alot. and she watch what she eats very closely. shes healthy and shes partially  lucky .

omg.
like wow.

my fren abit fat la. like. . yea. so.. .hpefully she wont gain too much weight.cos shes hungry easily .=/ and kep eating. somrmo doc say don eat fried and oily food. mon she stil ate fried chicken and tue laksa. i look at her=..= ....
say what

anyway...

being pregnant cna be both a v v exciting and happy matter. .yet aat the same time. .gosh.. the pain level.s.. the body changes...and... ofc school feees..
those can be a real pain in the...u know what.

and yea. all the best to them. hopefully they will get through whatever they need to.
can tell the guy loves her alot. and is a gd man. so yea.. .shld be alright ba


ha.  all girls faces the same prob. she was telling me someimtes her bf say go toilet or what. then nvr reply her long time.
she wil lmsg him. u get stuck in toilet isit. lol.
sammy also. but im not like her i don say it liek that de XD lol. shes funny la.
then same. nvr msg her but can go like photos in other websites. shes like. .ye ala u willing to likeother pics rather than text her using 10secs of ur time. lol.

o well.

m.. i don feel so well. think its the med i took.. =/

jaa mata

family/relationship woes

so my fren of 9yrs..'s fren... he rrly like this girll alot. somehow his parents dislike this girl. (he's form a very rich family) ... and... they lived together for 2 yrs. or been together not living together. not sure.

then... this girl.. .(duno isit their plan or just the girl). she lied abt being pregnant to his parents. his parents ofc not stupid. asked her to test it on the spot. and duh. she snot pregnant. 

anyway. i duno he has this gf for few yrs now stil ltogether. duno he cheated on this currant one with that 2yrs relationship.. or during that 2 yrs relationship he cheated on her with the currant gf. get what i mean> ?

so i dunno which way round. 

but he confesses to his gf that time. cos he say he's not a playboy. and he dun want to be..=.= 

anwyay. 

so yea. then he saw this ex (of the 2yrs living togethe or being together)... and he was so pissed. cos he still has feelings for her. 

so pissed cos shes with other man. thenn somehow this girl keep popping nearby him. then she rejected the same guy shes been hanging out with. probably hinting that shes actually not with him . 

so that guy fren... like. duno. pretty upset. liek seeing her again. .. small world. 

and yea. 

im like. i duno whats their situation.. but. he's with his gf for few yrs now. 5 ithink. then now see his ex still acts up? 

liek. ..who is the one he love? 

wouldnt it be unfair to the girl he's dating now with? 

i duno bah. im just curius. but im not close with him so i cant and shouldnt ask much. 

o well... 

so yea. forced to let go of that girl? cos of parents? 

could it be cos she's a **tch? 

or.. shes from a lowdown family? or simply the fact his parents want him to marry a higher status girl form a higer class gd family? 

all these i wouldnt know ofc. 

but.... yea. 

just hope he'll be fine bah and don bump into her again haha. 

jaa mata

movie time

was so yearning to watch insidious 3!! torned betwene another movie too.

ahh.. .that australia poie... finallhy get to eat it again today=) 

mm.. . so yea. frustrated my item delivered whilst im away. ==. arghhh now i have to travel somewhere else to get it. 

sianz

definitely ytd was feeling better. today still .. nah. okok 

guess i still gotta work on relaxing myself=./

wonder what sammy is up to whole day at uni without a word. 

duno. half the time i duno whats he doing  . 

ow ell

haven sortout my sephora spree.. slpyyyyy so lazy =( 

wish i could pull myself up and go for a run. and not be so slpy al lthe time 

and tired. and sianz

yup. 

o well. 

hopefully tmr will be a better day bah.

just msg him. and shoudlnt even had done that.
he always sya anything just msg. so now im msging . he tot im having probs? i said notin. its liek he don believe. liek he's angry cos im not saying anytin? liek wat...
i don even know anymore.

forget it . shouldntve msg.
shld just tell him next time he's busy remind me not to msg him at wrong timing.
thats why i like ot ask are u busy. ofc if busy i wont dis him .

anytin bah.

jaa mata

most amazing phonecall ever. =) saved my life

it was quite amazing. like how a phonecall from him... would just eliminate my stresses. like literally just halfway through the call . i was like.. i felt lighter'.. .relax... and tight feelings in my heart was gone. we didnt even talk much abt my stresses. i just say im stress etc. he din say much either. u know. then fullstop.
then .. .yea. soon after i realized im back to me again. normal! and.. i duno how that happened! i also watched him played game..through skype. so cool. u know how i like to watch my close ones play game. meanning my bro. and now him. so yea.

=)

its weird. like.. issues with work.. life.. trust.. all aspect.s. .suddenly.. just melted down.. all. im very grateful for him c alling. and happy. cos. todya i woke up. feeling normal again. happy. getting ready was  happy as well.. .u know

wow. wat a powerful magical phone call. though .. i duno how that happened. its not like we talked abt problems. .u know. we didnt. he just say don stress. etc. tats it. i didnt talk abt it either. last time we talked was even before i headed to syd..

but yea... so thankful for hm and that call .al li need.

if only that came earlier haha. XD

but anywayyyyy

yea!

and i went shopping at sephora todya . had a great day (not at work).. .so yea.

awesome.

wow. after so many weeks of.. hell?

3 new upcoming movies are coming up. i wanna watch 1 of them in imax. seehow bah


jaa mata!!

tytyty so much again.. .for that amazing phone call. though din tlak much. yet lil detaisl counts. .and watchign that game. .yea.

could it have been his voice?
i duno.

but yea. wow.

hopefully tmr onwards im still as normal.

mata

my lovely typical day in sydney =)

u know how sometimes when youre stress. .and u need to talk.. but u  didnt wanna affect the ppl ard u. cant let colleagues feel stressed dtoo when their leader is down.
or just afraid that they only hear u , but they dont listen.

sighs.

so stressed out abt every aspects of my life. these days i felt so messed up.
from work to personal. .stuffs u know.

and .. intially i feel like crying. but then i controlled cos was at work. now home.. wanted to cry while bathing.. but couldnt. duno why. maybe long day tired bah. somemore the moment i stepped in, theres more work to do. its nvr ending piles of work.

how to relax ar.... mm..

then holiday trip cancelled due to fren's new bf surprises her with a trip. i msg her today. and shes liek oh he just told her. im like thinking in my heart. .. long story short. she shld actually knew abt it perhaps at least couple days back. or even earlier.

so now. im stucked. i duno what to do.
shld i go somewhere else. my fren adviced me to go america. or somewhere alone.
im like jokingly asked. .u wan me get shot ar. haha. anyway.
yea. actually i just wanna peacefully go someone alone. do my thang. shop. etc.
i misses the times when im in my hotel room and my hand reaches out to the cold ouotside the window... and it was like aircon.. so cold. and it was raining.... i breathe in deeply the air... into my lungs.. ..trying to feel every inch throughout my body... i felt the cold and the wind blowing against my hair and skin....
its as though.. .im still there when i relives this moment.. .and some others bah. dun wan say liao.
with him also.

so yea.
though he's not free for me. but now i have this thinking... like perhaps heaad back to syd for a couple of days. perhaps 3 or 4?
cos hotel is exp... so probably i cant stay a week again like the previous time.

i duno peeps.
but yea that would mean i have to spend abt 100 over on transportation fee. cos back n forth mah. dun think he will be free for me ba

frens always asked me why don wan try elsewhere.

i duno. im alone. and besides the reason hes there la. .and syd is like my   '2nd home' close to my heart. and im getting used to the places.. .more of shops ha. just ard the small comfortable area i alawyas liek to hang out.
till now i still didnt get to eat the chinatown creme balls=.=
long queue!!! forever==.

anyway ya...
guess im jsut so comfortable bah... like. i know .. where to go..  what to do for the day. usually out of the one week i love to spend 1 long day shopping from qvb to meccas to westfield. haha. menaing.. .abt from 10ish or 11 head out .and shop all the way till 6pm. or 7pm. when headin back i have a habit of stopping by woolworths. cos its along the way. and yea. haha.
thast my typical long shopping day in syd XD

most stores are still there.. .but few of them.. no longer there liao=/
o well....

and bras n things. omg. all the way to bondi. luckily not that far. mm... i wonder if on my own.. will i be able to make it there without missing my stops... cos theirs is not liek.. .i duno. not v loud? and only announce the location once? or i duno. not when rching bah. forgot.
sg mrt is like when leaving and when rching will announce.
so thats gd

mm... oh. i remmeer. .when coming back...
this angmoh guy at mrt so rude. he was eating donut.( ikr... u can eat in mrt?? =.= i mean subway train... watever)

then he threw the paper into the rails!! wow.
so rude was that. =.=

haz. so yea. .anyway.. .im rrly considering that option. coupe of days in syd.. but i duno... i duno jjust yet.. .

i don feel like cancellign the al cos.. im rrly stressed out.
at this stage. so yea.

or spend it in sg? uss hotel? go uss on my own?
i duno man...
spending days in sg aint bad. i just duno what shld i do. i misses syd so bad =/
i ..might go back to same hotel T_T cos its cheaper abit.
though i gave them twice bad reviews liao.

and ive sorta memorised how to walk ard frmo there. XD

see how ba

but fo rnow... , yea. im rrly thinking abbt that(going to syd short trip_)

shall see how it goes bah.

haiz. or ask bro or frens...

i can start a conversation with cusotmer. a totla stranger. but with ppls frens. it can be a lil hard.

i duno.
my personaility is on the mm... multiple sides. ' XD

sometimes i envy my frne. bubbly personailities with everyone she sees.

then i remind myself. im diff. indiviual .everyone is diff.

i shoudlnt dislike myself for that..

this is me u know.

i cant even explain.. u have to get to know me.. to know me..

i surprises myself too with lame jokes and .. haha.

v funny la. XD not praising myself. but seriously i cna be v vfunny. omg. so lame.

and yea..
getting along with guys whislt chatting doesnt mean flirt.
i like to chat with anyone if they can chat.
but with girls they're so... i duno. i like manly' topics. i do liek girls topics.. but more on beauty products. makeup etc.cos thats where im stronger at. i know abt those.
but if tlak abt brandeds.. etc.. .this fashion. .this diamond..etc.. img like. wat?? oh dunno.

but if tlaked abt certain animes.. games or cartoons.. all guys type. .. i will be able to elaborate more on those. cos. liek i'd said umpteen of times. i grew up with my bro.

so yea.. .

but my guys and gay frens been pretty busy lately so yea.. =/

haiz.

feeling abit betternow...

tal next time bah..

jaa mata