future

hellloooo ... still din get to blog as much as i would like to.. used to do it every other day=/

been so busy.. stressed.. and tiring.. .

my previous company.. her husband side.. be it relatives and such etc.. .they are all with big roles. like rich etc.
whikst she's just a retail sm

she// been through alot.
... her pay shld be pretty gd,,
i fogot.. what did she say abt her husband family..his parents ofc..

lookdown on her? or sumtin> ,,, ?
i dunno.... etcetc...

im glad her lie is better now.

just.. dawn on me thou...

ur partner.. ..being judge by a family due to great 'reputation',... they earn heaps.. etc..doctors..lawyers.. etc...
how woud u protect her / him
..
..why does that matter..

in life.. love who u love.  be with them forever.. it sur life. and it sucks having relatives... or i eman htnking.. oh relatives gonna  judge ur partners..

i don have a huge cert . bt i work my as off. off till... personal problem arises... etc.

i don thave a choice. im not born under golden spoon...
don get me wrong. i love who i am.
i would rather be poor than be a spoilt brat( youll see heaps nowadays) .

but.. yea.

i d not know what futue holds..
i have a bf for 8 yrs. first love..
and. i wan it to work..

future seems dimmer now than ever..

adulthood sucks..
sighs... anwyay.....

i need somoone to pamper me .

my fam cant do that..

and i feel awkward even sitting next to my mum.. i duno what to talk abt..


future is .. so unknown.. i .. wanna find out.. whats in hold fo rme this yr..

mata

hello again =)

omg. cant believe my last blog was in dec

i just wanna drop by say hi. miss bloggin.. tlaking...

still busy as always.. htings slowing down a lil... but yea..

anyway.

in need of holiday soon. cant wait. wish me luck peeps.

so wanan tlak heaps.. but yea.. whne im not so lazy bah haha

will and wann blog soon!! aasapppp
jaa mata

birthday specials

omg it suddenly dawned on me abt blogging!!! =.. // been extremely busy and tired without social ife lately sighs. due to xma snad work.

so yea. hoepfully next wek will rememebr to blog

life just been so hectic and busy. shockingly its almost mid of dec. like whatttt

today came across fren posted pic of her bf gave her the latest rose gold phone and planned a surprise hotel or sumtin with her best frens for her.

duno leh. it slike. .when frens liike talkled abt how much money they spend on their partners. im llike..
mm.. ok,.. i wonoder how that feels.
i duno
im curious. yet i doubt its gonna happen cos sammy didnt konw my frens and bovi we're not in same country
and.. yea.

maybe one day eh.
who knows

but its intriguing... like..
cos i didnt eperience any big birthdya kind y aknow..
so yea

anyway.

umst rememebr..don envy others.
love hat u alrdy own

and be grateful

jaa mata

ranting abt work

omg frgot ablt blog again gomen=((

so.. xas.. omg. shockingly nov is end now.

dec week s hectic...

my fren told me... rm form sydney was saying...if sm cant handelde a 6 days work of 53 hrs, then they aint fit to be a sm

ubt hey . thats australia.

this is sg.

we worked night shifts.
we have family and frens.
we need slp

like. .i undertsand why she cant uuderstadn that cos shes aussie. but.. /=

a lilll too harsh ya know

if only the aussie worked our shifts of clsoing etc

she wass so sure oh aussie stocks to sg is gonn be stickers with sales prices based on her 11 yrs with htis company. guessed what. nope. its alwayas been like tht. nvr ever stickered. welcome to sg. wellscome to aussie way of orking in warehouse

haiz

just wanna rant abit.

or more

 i woke up so early. me and my colleague evevn dreatmt the samme thing abt vm wokr

and.. .i duno isi anxiety or what. ive been so nervous heart umping etc...
pumpng..

cos when i think abt work and rm =///

haiz. ..

jaa mata

go for where your love and passion is. choose ur own life.

was watching this youtuber blogging abt how he returned to uni. cos its either he wokr this job for the rest of his life, or he take a risk/chance at this uni thing

he said that he glad he chose to quit and do uni. his gf was supportive if ont he wouldnve gone for it either.

though alot of ppl his family and frens discourage him to go bck to uni he still did.
and.. he said htat he made the right choice. like. .wats there to lose right.

anwyay,
i tihkn most importatnly is knowing what u want despite what other ppl keeps telling u.

u leadur lfie and all .he ofc worriede he if might disappointment his family etc.. but in the end. its shi choice. his life. so.. .yea

i rrly admire that.
like.. no matter how hard it is, u go with r gut feelings, ur choic.e u lead ur life. u chose ur life. no one is making the decision for u.

he's enjoying hwat he's doing now. he dun wan to be miserable for hte rest of his life working for something he didnt like. and coming home be shitty abt it. thats why he decided to quit it.

yea. ..i think thats cool .and so admiring.

sometimes it makes me think abit of my life too. ha.

ofc i wish to be doing osmehting i love and interested in doing.. but

o well

just syaing

go for what u love

mata

exam period/ disappointments

wanna blog before i forget

gosh... saw this camera i rrly like. like my dream camera.

and.. argh.. its definitely on my bucket list.

canon something where u can flip the screen and seflie and video. i htink i would love the video part cos its so amazingly clear. and say u were out at uss, u'll know where ur video is going even if u wanna shoot urself.in the vid.if that make sense=.=

ahaz. anwyay. yeaaaa why did i go test use ittt arghhhh i gotta get it outta my head

finally get to relaz abit this wekeend. time flies when its ur off.

i woke up. feeling so aweosme on sunday morning. oh am iw orking: ? oh yayyyy finally can sl in and im offffff no rm phone with me either haha

i think that. in a relatinoship right. u gotta give and take. and ofc trust.
annd sometimes ur partner may be pushing u away be it intentionally or  not, due to some.. busy reasons and stuffs.
like.. it makes u wanna act.. action on someething i mean. then u stop .
like.
i duno haha.

oh gosh. im hopeing this week at town im going to... perform better than last time.
and. .yea thats my goal.

slpy.
 slpt late woke up late

but soooo nice to slp in whiel its raining today

kk. .gtg enjoy some vids and rest

sammy think he's stil lbusy with his studies. .he say wil lmsg when he's done since last night .so i nvr drop him a msg today ow ell

exmas huh... i dunno hows it liek to tress on abt and so.. u knoow.

cos my parents nvr forced me or push me to pass or get into top 10etc

i nvr study before exam .and yet i passed and i even got into top 10 in class.

perhaps nowadyas studies are more ...stressful eh?

i duno .whenever i heard my frens saying how they stress abbt studying etc.. im liek. ..huh? i don even study or stress before exma. its like life is as per noramll.. .not braggin .but i just dunno how it feels liek to study and stress abt exams before the date.

im glad though. ..that evemnwithout parents pushing, im stil able to do my thang and able to pass. haha. thank god

i am so sad now. cos so nice to slp in. i silent my phone. bro caleld me in mrg i didnt hear. etc. long story short. he left sephora alryd

now shop closed. he say last day there proabbly wont go .cos going ot other places. i so sad onw=(

sighs

liek sad.... rrly sad and disappointed.
i say will pay for his cabfare.

haiz.... why oh why am i aslp at wron gtiming

whyyy

=/
so disappointed. ..sighs

my bro say ask me ship to sammy then he ship to me.

but like. .duh. what if his parents saw its frmo sephora or wat. ..haiz... nvm bah.. .

so exp to ship to sg even from online=((

theres this nz youtuber.r poor thing. at a club she got a glass threw upon her head andwith alonside shattering glass... like... wat... tat person couldntve been a hate or wat. cos she knew whats her youtbe name. she sliek calling out her nae. .before thorwoing it against her heaad.

seriuosl.. in au... thank god im not anyone famous... now htese youtubers cant even go on to have fun = /
are the ppl there usulay so vilent after dirnks> .?? apprantly what theys aid.. its  maing me think yes=/


mata ne

Im back!(hopefully i wont forget)

OMG i just realizsed!!!!!=(( i didnt blog for sooo long!!! is that part of the reason why im so stressed out more than ever recently?

holding onto my rm phone again...
totally lost it. my temper i mean when i was on holiday mood off days.. due to something2 need to do more work at home

roster s etc... took a nice bath then suddenly tema emmebr asked blah3... she sclose to me so yea. she understand .  i was legit shouting and cursing over the phone. using cured words. haiz.. .

and i was crying again.

the  other day my ptimer wanna say cant work on imprt day. i cried as well. its somehting i cant control. cos i was so tired working long hours. after 9hrs work yet still trying to make the changes at home. owrking extxra hours

 when i read news why one shouldnt bring work to home, i understand. but i din grasp the reality of the truth. which is  rrly hard. it totallys blends into ur personal life.

i dun tlak tomy family .i get moody and angry and frustrated.. etc

sighs

its rrly ..not gd. for anyone= /

why did i kena the worst days

again rosters changes.

i done my best. calling and noting etc everything

i felt great having achieved it WITHOUT anyone teaching me
by right shld have mah

even when this rm from sg get promoted theres my syd rm teaching her along the way =/

they think im super capable ar

even if i am, itd taken a toll on my mental health and physically

anyway i try to relaze as much as i can by sihgs tmr till 1am again

i should blog more. how can i rememebr not to forget=/

i was out today and was literally ...upset that i have to do more roster work at home

sighs

anyway

...

and thres this wedding thing.

ok. this pinoy changed off for her wedding day no fri.
rm approved it. but the top (state manager) rm didnt

so she was liek. u cant. why . u knew ur based off not fri why u wanna change

blah3..... .if she can find pt to replace then u can off. if not u work

in the end she found

but thats so sa.d

=/ she cried in the midst of it all

on the other hand i understnd why shes so adamant abt no chanign offs.

cos for rm to do rosters , it takes 1 full day or 2. and for them to anyhow change, its liek an insult to the rm face.
like what are u treating these rosters as> ? toys or rubbish?

cos its allhardowrk thats been putinto it...

haiz.

o wlel.

anyway. oh this aussie lady shes a pretty famous youtuber. then couple of times ...alot of itmes infact, she got boob grabbed. and now she say she snot going to club anymore. even her youtuber fren as well.
cos she say onoce ppl gets drunk, they will be rude' to her.she had fake boob job. so thats why more ppl will like... poke her or smoething or grabbed her and say. oh its fake!

haiz... poor hting

anyway.

otdya was having a destress full on meal. then my fren went get something. i was alone watching tv. then this waiter , walked past and say hi plus waved to me.

i was like. ... .wat... O.o
then i smiled abit and watch tv again pretended nothing happened... =.= omg. soooo oaawkward. i was praying for my fren to be back!!!

somemroe i have no makeup on. in my old home clothes kind. ..so yea.

omg.

sooo stressful.

my frne asked im uncomfortabe ard guys ar. i say yea. she then asked if i don have any guy frens then? i say no. but just that if i knew or sense hwat intentions he has, i will avoid that situation ya knowo

my 6th sense is almost always accurate.

gosh i miss blogging...

onto youtube too much eh =/ and work..

ohhh just relaized my last blog... almost once a month blog! cos i wa stkaing over my rm role!! if.. jsut IF in future im a rm.. will i give up on my bloggin> like totally foreget to blog? =/

talk soon.

ja amata =/