stressful off day

so stressed out todya. like another working day =(
even though its my off day.
sighs...

i try destress by playing vr game. its so addicitive. but no memory space. not enough =.= cannot move to sd ard sobxxxxxxxxxxxx it sucks

anyway,
there were time when i wonder..if its all worth it. ..haiz...

i rrly dunno ...
im everydya busy. i ditched my life with family. i rather not go out to eat dinenr cos im always tired. and stressed and moodless . just rather spend that hour to do more work

hiaz duno bah.

work work work

its always haard at the beginning. even when i told sammy not to give up. i also know its hard. but the resutls are there. is rrly just thee key is don stop.
its jsut so difficult to take the first steps ya know

and i can totally imagine. that ever boss or experts, they all started off liek a baby. till they become someone successful .or rather, who they wanna be.

haiz,,, o well.. i will ocnctinue do my best...

takign one step at a time see how bah...

jaa mata

Sacrifices

Hi guys,

I hate it when my off's on on a weekday(besides the standard monday) ... becos =/ ..that means im still working at the same time!
long story short.
but yea. ..sighs.

its like home office day for me . i had to rush out run errands. abandon the task to clean my room and organize my new closet all becos of my nemesis. the rostersssssssssssssssss
arrghhh aussies u are driving me crazy!!!! always. always!! last minute changes and we have to re do all freaking rosters cos of u ppl in HO!

arghhhh

haiz.. anyway im only left with couoke of hours before i need to slp and work AGAIN

ppl thinks being a rm is easy. like what??  fit urself in this position and sacrifice alot of things before u think its easy.

like.. now i have not much time for my favourite hobbyand one of the things im good at. beauty products,, .makeups.. likke.. .literally i hate to give up on that. i haven. but im starting to drift away frmo that =(
and social medias...
i used to read through Everythigmn .now, someitme si din even have timem to look through.

=/ thigns to saacrifice. alot.

i cant even imagine what if my bf is in singapore.
like.. will i reject his date cos of work> ? will i keep looking at phone while we're having lunch?
like. .its terribke

one of the country manager aka head of rm, she ssingle.
the another, married.
like. i seriously. wonder what if they have dates with bf. not single not husband.. like. how.. will htey be less about work? and trying to push us to work on off?
cos our previous main rm she has a bf . (theyr enow engaged in australia)
so she wont rrly sned alot of msgs.. .etc. work on ur off etc.. i think .

o well... haizzzzz

alot of ppl wish this main rm can get a bf. so she will understadn us better.

haha

mm,.... o well. like that bah,

waht to do.
u have to giv eup something to gain something (rememebr that anime? my fav ;))

but.. is this all worth giving up for> ? thatas the main question .
or am i working too hard

=/

i cant do my fav thigns anymore... only wish... in future i get to go syd and work. but.. (i heard syd worse) . unlike sg, , the team memebrs there will call u about 30times a day asking stupid questions. lol. like wherer this.. .etc...

hahah. my syd rm told me de.

o well.

see how future unfolds itself. ..

wish me luck.
objective.... is to wanna be happier. not stress.
= /

ohhhh almost forgot. . had my hair trimmed again!! arghhhh as much as i hate it being shorter=((( but.
its sooooooo much better now after treatment and chopping off the dead thickness of hair. its like, im me again!!

haiz... sammy sure wont liek me with shorter length... but. .o well. bad itming bah.
cos of that stuoid perm  in cny... haiz. damaged m=y hair T_T

anyway, so glad its better now.

i went to this korean haircut outlet at pp,

omg. sooo disappointed!! just choped my hair in minutes, and liek that.
say wanna leave my curls in . blah3. somemroe cut sso much!

if i'd went to this supercut hair salon ' earlier, i might've been able to avoid cutting off so much length!!

arghh that korean salon.. .NEVER am i going back again!!!!!


erm.. ty guys... like. waht? my recent blog of 'stressed!' liike... had a massive views... O.o wow. erm.. ok... thanks... weird though. how come.. furthermore, its such a short blog! somethign is worng i guess. o well.

mata

sad day

my parents bought me a closet.
and m room as small enough as it is,.. .. htey shifted my stuffs all ard. now my room isnt like a room anymore. i dont veen feel relax at more either.
it sso messy .
thats why i love hotels. cos it my own private room. i get nice bed. and aircon. with fluffy blankie and proper pillows.
a desk to do my work. tv. i c an do wahtever i want.

sighs .

bad day today =( sad. so sad. so tired. liek all at once.

and my rm.. the aussie one. like so scaary. sometiems very nice. soemtimes very ... abit like. ....mean =/ i dunno

that is what i noticed. id un  even wanna talk much abt them. but seems liek aussies, alot of them are so.. judgemental

=/

anwyay, haiz.

i had a long cut on my finger today =/
this other aussie lady came to sg. blah3... seet up new store. .then she thought she fixed this fiture on wall. but when i staarting putting hooks' on it, it fell right on my hand. the other part of skin teared, but thank god just an inch befor it gets the blood. but my other finger, long cut. =/ o well

so tired. sighs

will i love this job?
i don even feel happy anymore

=(

sobx o well

sighs. so nice. rm get to travel so often like that. still can say rm can apply al only if its big matter. fren come sg they go travel big matter meh?  maybe i shld lie bf coming sg we go travel 14ddays.
she travelling to hk and viet 5 days each. so long.

makes me wonder. what kind of reason can i give.
=/   if only its real. if my bf is here. i could easily say that kind of thing.
o well. cant bah. later they ask to see photos

anwya, hoepfully tmr will be bette.r=/

sighs

mata

i hate rosters and pt who cant waork =(

stressed

you know how   irriating when u tried to call someone and threes no response???? argh 

sighs.. anyway . supposed to have a conference meeting tofya pohone call on my off day

but

it got calcelled last min 

so frustrated

i spent 1 and half hour doing my conference call detailss and didnt dare to step foot out. now, ... its canceled

and.. damm** 

sighs

saw some nice pandora chaarm. so wanna get my hands on them

sammy and i called.. no answers through wats app 

perhaps watsspapp sucks still 

o well 

he is busy whole day if only that is my working day

sucks to have off day and someone else busy

sighs

..watched dr oz show today

if youre super stressed, u will need ppl ard u to  help u 

and im thinkg

 

my family, nope. frens yup.. but all of them too busy iwht work. sg somemore. then how

 sighs

o wllel

siighs.. .gdnight ppl =(

mata

to be my best

hey guys

so stressed uptdoay. big set up coming soon .
cant help but feeling nervous

plsu approving rosters

sometimes i wonder like.. its ust 2 weeks of trainings my rm gave me. triningaper says 4 wks.
but she trained me only 2 weeks. and i dunno. i tink im doing good. but im so stressed out too


days i will work from home. more than 10hrs. perhhaps even more thana 12 or 13.

and .. i kow its not a gd thing. but

i keep telling myself. 'most wont, bu t i will.

event oday out with parents.. i was so .tired n slpy. i didnt have any mood. only sammy kept me up for the day when he msg me.. coupe of oents i almost cry in the day. cos i was so.. bored and fatique i wanna go home i dun wanna stay out ya know. see the unhealthy signs there? =/

sighs

just keep mving forward i guess.

this yutuber been with her bf for yrs right. thehn she recently mentioned how she mentioend to him that pandora charm mmatches her pandora ring .and they went to swazzie store, they were looking ard, by the tmie she got to him, he bought a ring and neclace frmo threre, plus pandora charm the one she wanted.

awwwww

liek even for years right, even before  or after mariage, that is the kind of lil thigns u will do for your partners . for lifetime  its not the gifts or cost that counts. but. the ability to listen, to show, to give, is so worth it.
it takes tme for couple sot learn but yet so... needed. .in a relationship.

it may just be a char. or breakfast. or a ring only.
but.
the thought that counts. is perfect

her partner, truly s a gentleman

my bro mentioned bought a chamr back frmo syf. its only avaialble in syd! oh an.. i hope i will find something like that when im tereh in amonths time

tbh... i dun feel good.
as much as i would love to see him asap.. i dun feel im ready yet.
cos oth pysiically and mentally, im just so messed up.
comepared to how i met him a year ago.
like.. now.... im so tired out. messed up... not feeling gd abt myself. noo time to go for a run, ike. litera.lly, aint the best of mysefl. and since i see him once a year, i so wish i in my tip top condition whne i see him. =/ but now i don feel like it. im so not ready. and not myself. like i feel so ... not me ya know. tired and.. stressed. and.. not happy.
sighs..

one month left.
what else can i do.
still getting usde to my new role as r.. and.. haiz.
i only wish im more psyically and mentally hapier so i can meet him in my best form

afraid. .and adding to stress that im unable to fulfill that.

whne u get to emet ur partner for once a yr, hell youlll wanna look your best. but.. im too streessed and busy to do that. i cant find my time. for myself . between work and all. sighs..

hoepfuly all tur out gd with sammy. =/

i hoep somehow i can be my best or at east 80% when i se ehim.

things so crazy esp druing saes period =((

sighs

jaa mata

wish me luck

no pain no gain

Hey guys,

been so lonog .gosh. tahnsk to sammy , it inspired me to blog this. i totally forgotten about it.

thigns i used to do to unwind, or fav thigns to do. etc, now its all been taken up by my workload. i no longer can enjoy my lil treats of scrolling through snapchats etc.. lil thigns liek that u see.

but i understad the thigns u need to give up . though i hate to say it. it isnt right. but.. the thigns u need to give up for work .
sounds wrong eh.

my syd rm was telling me how she lieks to play (dunno what thing is taht) every sat. ubt when she got promoted, she gave that up. and look. time flies, and shes in sg now.

im good with my job. but. i dont love it. love what u do is so important.but.. i dunno..

sighs. im just working 24/7. im letting the workload get ahead of me. and i understadn starting out in new roles is alsways so difficult. even syd rm also says the same thing.
she cried to her state manager. took her 4 months to get used to rm life

4 months . yup. ,my next coupe of montsh sure is getting prettier each day till 4 months. =.=

anyway jsut a lil rant. gonna get some rest now.

had 4hrs of slp and phone call from owrk woke me up.

and yea..

beenw orking till 430 since then =/

jaa mata

happy belated valentines day

hiiiii seems like i ant blog as often as i want still... =(

anyway.. better than none. happy belatedvalentines day peeps.

whenevevr it comes to this day.. i always envy whenevr i saw pics of my f rens posted... like pressies.. proposals.. flower.s.. bbears. ..fancy restaurant .. dayout.. pressies ofc... like lots... etc. so nice. so envy..

bt o well...

even thou im with my guy for many yrs. yes ofc every day can be valentine. but if u rrly wanna askk abt 14th feb celebrations.. its.. only... the tiem when he was here in sg. well... twice? i think.  at leats last yr after v day he did went out with me and bought me a dress (cos he commented he dislike what i was wearing)XD bt.. lets treat that as a v day pressy yea.

tatas why ive.. nvr rrly.. i duno. like.. .. the strongest memory ..best memory was the one when he gave me a ring i love frmo a masg i showed him (i truly had no intention of hinting him to buy k i was so innocent back then ) ..
he treated em to swensons too..

and also.. he surprises me with doggie softtoy underneath my tent in my room... and a flower( my first rose form him) ..
that was my 2nd surprise from him i think

anyway..

its been soooo long isnce i had any happy surprises.
in many yrs. i only had few.

beside shim suddenly appearing in sg..

few days back i ordered a facemask and they came iwth big nice fancy smaples and packaging etc. iw as blownawya.

well..

im.. rrly looking forwards to the day when 14th feb will be a blast that i get to post a awesome pic to state my memory

one day.... ...

mata