bad day. saved by game. regretted decision

there was a coupe of great fights tonight in my gameplay.
pretty exciting..
the storyline is getting interesting finally..

mm.. but. ..i duno why i nvr go with my hear.t like. .i was trying to mae a decision. to save viallage or the couple.
tch. now i regretted.
=(
i wonder hows it gonna be if i'd chose the coupe instead. but then more ppl wil die in the viallage. haiyoo... .duno la. but if turn back time. i think i will choose to hel him .
oh man ...
wish i could turn it back.. .

anywya, getting used to u know and stuffs. .. but luckily also theres sammy helping out. so yea.

so slpy todya. and.. .v bad mood.
feeling down cos stress abt bad sales and all . sighs.
=/
i duno what else ot do.

i feel liek ive lost control over my life. its not balance now.. .and.. yea. im kinda lsot here =/

at least duering game no nid think too much.. for now.

jaa mata. gonan slo soon

yet another stressful day/lecher

sighs. so stressed out yet again =( .. long story short. but pushing real hard for sales and the extraas... what couldve been done better? what ...
=/ i duno. m starting to feel negatve abt it.. .

sighs

was taking lift up .. waiting... this uncle was liek busy n his phone. then i walk.. he saw me he looked me up and down. =.= omg. we are n the same lift afterwards. from reflections ofdoors, and . omg i can see he's looking at me. wth.

my colleague say.. '' beware of ur cleveage i know u have big tits'
 i then realaized. gosh my dress got down so low. cos theme day by rm. so.. haiz. inthign to wear but that.. abti lowcut.

tats why that man look at me eh. omg .lecher!!!!
the length of dress v short. thats why i word a mini saffe shorts underneath it. but.. yea. ifthats why me din wea that dress for so long liao

eyes tired.

gtg.

glad off tmr.
finally...

how muuch more stress can i take ne.. =/

jaa mata

stressful day and kinda sad night

i am sad=((((
just found out the game i purchased recently,.... is now having a 50percent off deal. sobxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxT_T omgggggggggg whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy only few days apart sobssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

sighs. what to do. whats done been done. =((

had such a great pain on my left shoulder when i played last night. then using the phone when sammy called without earpice.. .is a bad idea. i have no idea wheres my ear piece.
i think its my position height of chair?
its bloody sore .cos. used to be my right. first time its on my left.
v v painful
anywaya. was shocked i played till so late.
and yea. .
unsure if its due to my normal mouse (not gaing mouse ) and no mousemat, i find it difficult to use the cam functon. anyway. will see how it goes. still need to gt used to it.
its like my first proper game throiugh lappy. allthis while ive been playing playstation

mm.. yea. so thats that.


today i was so stressed out i wanna cry. y team mates also pretty stress. i don wan them to know im stress. but. ..sighs. its jsut so obvious .
so rm wan avg above 35. by 6 we nid to call  her if we cant hit it.
then heard one asm in town area kena f by rm in mrg. cos sales aint that gd. that asm actulally open 30mins longer in orde rto hit abit more. but not up to her standard. so yea. i heard my asm told me.. she kena f. omg.
told u so. rm gets moody and mad, shes badass kicker.

then blah3... .thank god. when she called her mood changes for the better. always like that. lke another person sudddenly.
gosh .i was almost shaking when i spoke to her on the phone=/
and breaktime no appetite. was so stressed out i wanna cry.
sighs....
ppl quit... not just look at sm. u gotta look at ur rm too.

haiz. liek that ...

was tlaking abt having own business or somethnig with him the other day. then was like.. i dunno man. then .. end up... i was like. .maybe sell spicy food ?v v spicy type. ha. or with level type lol
but yea. he's liek will it sel...

well... .if youre talking abt aust.. .it might. cos. ..hello>?????/ where can u find spicy food u tell me =.=......... gosh i will definitely head to a place wherer they sell extremely spicy food.
or the authentic say.. spicy curry or spicy laksa.. .spicy fishballs... etc.
sambal sauce can be lvl for 1.
cos its.. .well.. .erm. for me aint spicy at all.
belachan higher levl abit. the mee soto type of chii. . .wooo my fav. even higher. i asked many ppl. many ppl gave me dif recipe and tips. dunno who to listen ne.
tried once myself though .

anyway.
ok thats that.

wish me luck tmr.
oh yea. on  a side note, me and colleague even spend money to hit 35 becos of rm. haiz

jaa mata

eat well

so slpy

gosh i realized nowadays i had my lucnh late aftnoon. and if im heading back for dinner, i wil lonly eat old chang kee for lunch. like just 2pcs.

ytd din had any breaks at all ocs it was hell bbusy man =/
its crazy sighs.

anyway. long story short.
i went back abit earlier due to no break. i din feel the hunger anynore. thankfully my collegue nice enough to get me a cuppa smoothie. aw

cant wait to slp more tonight.

tired3

my rm say theres alrdy 2 ppl resigned in her region. anow my fultimem also gona resign due to her knee injury. haiyo...
o well .soemtimes. .no choice ne. i shld visit my fulltim when she's in hospital. hoep her surgery wil lgo well

not sure anything else to add ne. .

jaa mata

slpy day

gosh.... todya.. whole day is a slpy day for me=(  its s o gloomy and dark cold day.. raininig3

omggggggggg

i cant wait to slp. i bath rrly quickly ya know. but cleaned through tuh

mrg.. .wakey early. .todl myself not to look at phoen for work msg.. but i sitll didi. ..stayed on till an hr.. then slp again before woken up by mums pohen acall=.=

gosh.


then online etc.. stomach rrly not gd last night.. .and.. yea.. .now much better than mrg

then late evening sighs. .a pity=

spoke to him on thephone abit.. before i ko.
from waiting so yea...

so wasted. its my off.
and.. from nap.. now im still slpy=.= \at the.. .

anyway... finay staredted a new game.. wow. cant wait. but.. .i still dunno how to play.
huu.

however.. .will try again ba

tonight rrly not enough time and energy to do it. wasted huu

wanted to blog somethign but forgot

anyway. wish me luck from rhe crazy csutoemr imma call tmr=/

haiz... .

so weird.. stil lcant belieev i spoke with him on the phone afteer so long. .liek so surreal... i asked him.. did i rrly spoke hwith him.. .

its liek a dream. .weird eh.. but gd dream in a way =)

tough luck

jaa amta

another tired day. massage no help

ytd.. .my team member suddenly wanna talk to me. i was shocked. tot she wanna quit.
but she actually wanna confide with me. telling me all her family probs etc...
both of us the same i realized.. .we don talk to anyone abtour probs. we knew its not healthy yet we cant help it.
i didnt tell her abt mine i just say personal prob.and she also didnt ask.
i listened to her. .and gave her my best advice...
the advice i gave her... ha. its simple. .and.. i rrly wish i could do it too myself. .but liek id'd said.. im better with advicing ppl...rather than myself. meep=.= ikr. haiz. .
its esay to advice other ppl.. but so difficult to do it yourself..to do it alone. .

such a tiriing day. i was thinking. .the massage power gone liao=.=
so freaking tired. sighs.
tmr gotta continue the work.. gotta find stuffs..etc..
and prepare for my team meeting. ..
sales... gosh. thank god i pusehd through the final 3 hrs. yet still ..so close=/

im so dehydrated.. each day... dunno. less than 5 or 4 cups of water.
cant drink too much alter eep going toilt is one hting. that aside. but biggest prob is. im alone. i cant close the dang store. so yea==
and yup. rgm don allow it either. uh huh. high pay? get on with it =.=

time passes so quickly...
and yea.. .

gosh.. i misses my longer hair. don worry. i learned my lesson. next time just an inch will do=.=
though... mm.. i... kinda like shorter abit too.. ha. still long la. but used to be V long
below my booobs
its... great that i cut away the u know. .abit split ends or dry ends...
hair.
and give it time to grow again. .
m..i think i miss more of playing with my hair..u know..twirl it ard with finger.. ha.
so shoick. bro in kl then to indo.. .
haiz. my holiday... .many months to go..


will do my best. xmas... 35 days(it hink) to go...
get the hell over with working till 2am and 12am shits etc.. .
i rrly3 cant wait for nightmare before mas ot be over....
=(
i keep telling myself. ..all these hardwork.. its becos of the pay...
so its worth it. .
thats what kept me going on.. .
luckily this sg rgm is way better to talk to than the aussie one. aussie one. .once bad mood, omg. gdluck.

kk. gtg. just got home and bath...
nid to slp in less than 2 hrs of rest+(

i wanted to slp early. but am so hungry now.
had my breakfast and lucnh combines at 5pm plus...
yea no breaky.only chicken essence.
then had satay bee hoon for my breaky /lunch/dinner combined.

gues snot filling enough. cos such small portion .=(

think imma eat maggie cup noodle again.

kk.. jaa mata ne
don think can slp that early liek i'd wanted to.. =/

u know. someitmes i cant wait to hit my 30s? lol .weird right.
thogh still theres few more yrs to go.
but i think that.. its the sexy age ya know .  like. abit yougner version of desperate housewife type. i dunno .theres something abt. .it. thats kinda special like. a total full woman with power now. hahha. =)

jaa


-go ahead and talk to all the girls. go ahead and tell each one you want them. continue to fool yourself. and in the middle of the night when u face reailty and you're done playing games, youll close your eyes and see who really matters. the memories will hurt you... you;; remember how much she cared... how much she kept holding on... and how she forgot about you just like you forgot about her. -

poor tired body

omg. past few days been wanting to blog. but rrly too tired and overworked. huuuu
i cant even spare 5mins typing here.

cos i need slppppppppp

so whats been happening. .
mm.. .yea. recently met up with my longggggg ago parttimer. when i was abt 20 i think? ard there. i met her. and suddenly she msg me. i can sense she needed somebody to be with maybe somehting is wrong. so she texxted me first. then blah2.. she say shld meet up one day.i say me free ...she say oh great she too etc

so yea. turned out that she just broken up. so yea..... i kne wit. there is something wrong. if not why ppl outta the blue text u.for  girl la. for guy usually is .. .u know=/=

so yea. ..
we were chatting. .and she say i look the same after all these years no change at all. and she complimneted me alot . ha. which is like in mrt. .and i was like. .err...thannk u.. like. .yea.rrly awkward.
i was looking away=.=
then she ask me whats my age. and she s liek whattt f***. no way etc. her fren happened to join us in  the middle. she asked her fren guess my age. =.= her fren guess is younger than her. she's 23. so what. im still 20 ar. vampire isit.
lol. .mm.. .i like that.. vampire!

erm. yea anyway.
at this bar. this waiter suddenly came up to me whilst we're chatting. he's like ..erm.. just wanna let u know. you're really beautiful. me and my fren were like.. .O.O... err... .i wa slike. .ok thanks....
then he took a few steps forward. then back again. say to my fren .. 'i mean you're beautiful too. '. he then say to me. .need to tel lur fren also later she catfight and scratch ur eyeballs or what.
haha'

...soo... i must thank him la save me from my fren =.=
omg. he then check out our table few times.
goodness

anyway, its gd though. glad im able to be by her side when she neede someone. her fren told me she couldnt company her. cos busy.so rrly glad i company (myfren).

i saw this lady next to us. with her partner.
shes'... she dressed up young. but her face features can tell shes mature. like. .35ish or so?
liek her makeup hair and dress liek v young but her face give her away.i think

then ...omg. LOL .she was taking a selfie... yes of herself.
and do the act cute innocent' face pout lip look. OMG................ inside a bar take selfie whilst her partner was away from table. sooooo ....omg. daring. but best part is. her face .. .so funny. i was gonna lol.
sorry to say this. i feel bad .but .. its like. ...she shouldnt do a cute' face. shes abit.. mature right .shld do a make sexy but noto too made up sexy lip natural look? if that make any sense at all.
if shes cute . .like certain staars still has a baby face even when 35. great exp : ch 8 actress fann wong.  .fann can do that la. but.. .not her la.. .omg.
i feel bad say ing this kind of things. .but. ..jsut wanna share thats all. like. .shes so daring man.if me sure v paiseh. somemore do till so obvious

went for a bloody painful massage again=.= omg....
my pain endurance is v good. but when i say pain. it rrly is dang pain. i straight away tel lthe guy. at this certain part of my knees...abit upwards..
he say my lower back at lot of wind=(
and my right feet big toe, v stiff. he ask i think alot isit. i say yes. haiz....
what to do. work3
i dreamt of work everydya=(((((((( today also sighs
oh yea. then the massager also get a shock of my age. he's like. maybe im small size thats why. ahh.. .oh i think gotta do with my genes ba. shld be right.

erm. did i mention this?

a guy came in looking fo rmy fren. hten send his regards and hi five me.
my fren say she dunn rrly know him. liek mysterious man. ask me why i anyhow hi five back. like. ..eh i think i talked abt this alrdy hor.
anyway. since type like. .yea. i wa slike. .paiseh la.. if i didnt he will be paiseh. like. .yea. dun wanna make ppl feel bad mah...
just so weird la. wanna a ct angmoh isit. that guy. weirdo

oh yea . then went trim my hair. .huuuu regret. next tie shld cut only one inch=.=
anwyay. this lady washing my hair and massage my neck .guess what. miss you're very tired ar?
even she can tel lfrom massaging my neck .=.=
see. tod u right. every massager always forever say the same thing to me. '' miss your body very tired'.
i knowww im tired. my body and mind ofc also tired.
=(
what to do.
sighs.

my fren the sm say she might quit next year look for better job. though her pay rrly is alot.
i dunno how much la.. but have a afeeling is over 4k.
cos if u went up...  Bplus store  shld be ard  3800 then town area she handled is aplus store.. .yea. u can calculate liao. wah.. liek that rgm job ...more pay la. siao liao. lol

anyway. noooo it came with a tired body.. .
yes.thats the rpice ba.
yea so sm say she's very tired. shes starting to feel draggy at work. .like not trrly looking forward to it. .
i understadn shes tired. cos rrly.. .its an insane job. pretty on the outside. but the truth is u gotta work ur ass off for this kind of pay.

it all comes down to.. health.. .passion.. worth it or not question. .or money 3.

k. .gtg.

gonna hol dmy first meeting this weekend. wish me luck

oh my poor body. .T_T

mata