to fuss or not

sighs.. so sad. =/ saw my ex colleague lost some weight. then found out she get cheated on by her bf. =((( sighs. .turned out that his fren who knew, cant bear to see her get hidden with the truth. so told her about it.her bf denied. then end up yes. then i ask if he's sorry anot. she say no. sighs. this kin do fguy, sure breakup one day v fast. then regret breaking up with my fren. idiot .

but luckily she replied she's better now. and she is seeing someone new. wahhhh so fast??? O.o 
i dunno how ppl can get into another relationship so fast ne. they've been together for 3 years.. or longer. i think v long . or 4 yrs. dunno .forgot. but yea. sighs. sad that it edned this way. worked with her bf too before. funny guy. but yea. .too bad bah. 
=/ anwayy glad shes moved on and met someone who deserves her better. that guy can go home cry all he want . tooo bad=.= 

then read a post today. .abt why men cheated. 
then.. number 2 it says.. they think they can get away with it. . something like that. then this guy was saying. .seems like his partner. .she didnt rrly make a fuss when he's only watching soccer on her bday. .and one more dunno waht. things like that. . he say.. i knew it would hurt her.. or upset her.. but i didnt know it would end up this way. 

yea he said sumtin like that,. didnt know it would be that way.. meaning maybe worose than he though tbah. 

was thinkking.. .mm.. get away with it. .sounds familiar eh.. 
=/ then how. is hte girl supposed to be. .if its true la.. so she's supposed to make big noise. throw a tantrum. .etc? then also can end up.. later say oh dislike her behaviour. making fuss. etc. =.= 
a buunch of excuses eh. 

his wife didnt fuss abt it. maybe she understands? or jsut want him to do what he like? 
i dunnoo . but. .eya. .was kind alike. .yea. .upset to encounter this two today .the post and my fren =/ 
sighs. .dunno bah. ..=( 
jsut glad she's getting better now. 

rrly dunno how ppl can jsut get into another relationship so fast .mm.. 

eye itchy. again =.= 

haiz. k bah. mata. ..
hope wiill forget abt it and be happier soon

past team

mm.. cant remember if i'd said this before... forgive if i did. tat day .. perhaps last sat or so. when i was jsut getting rrly sick, i was so surprisedd and happy at this customer's compliment. before she go, she say. you're very pretty. why happy>? of course that made my day! i looked awful. i was sick. i look pale or waht bah. sneezing n sneexing. dunno nose got red anot. makeup also cannot cover up my sickness. gosh .so yea. thats why rrly surprised when i received compliment liek that. even day after i think was still sick. but sstill got complimnet. its always ncie bah. when u think u look v terrible, then someone made ur day by complimenting u. 

rrly.. cant stand previous sm words. does she think im proud? wth .i wasnt in becos i still like k stuff. and miss my ex colleagues. and i wanna say hi to previous rgm .vm incharge etc. 
argh. i dun care. even if the previous rgm disliek me saying hi to them, i still wanna do so. 

=.= i know how or what he msut be thinking alrdy. wahtever bah. that place. .teh ppl.. all one of a kind. haiz. so stress man 
why must misunderstood one anothers words. =/ find troubles cos days too boring? anwyay.. 

am feeling better . perhaps rrly due to the oil fren gave me. shall use it again later before slp 

mm.. soooo sl;py. another 5hrs of slp. haiz. o wel 

hope sammy is ok.. sighs .wish i could hug him.. 

jaa mata. 

bad sleep again =/.

mm.. seems liek the bug i caught tonight.. its injured.. .=)))) even dad say so. well .shall see how it goes.. anwyay, am soooo slpy todya.
woken up couple of times due to pee, the weird feelign of bug crawling..m yabe my imagination i dunno.. .anway. .yea. din slpt well =. as always.
even had a gdream of a lady warnign that i shouldnt go out today. cos bad thign will happen to me. so vivd n real. mm.. yea. then i woke up. and off to work.. luckily nvr die in car crash ahhaha . o well=.=
but disliek that kind of dream.
drema of bb better bb aka bedbug

not gonna give up. even if preparation to slp is taking forever ,=/ still i msut spray etc.

how ne. .bro later coming b ack..then nid to eat. .how is he gonna play gmame watch tv n eat in living room ? sighs. guess i cant slp early bah. see.. wouldve been better if im not living with family. i don hate it. but.. i'll rather have my own freedom.
dunno what to do ba
haiz =/
hopefully he wil be slpy n wanna slp early

me so slpy stilll.. in bus use hp till fell aslp=.= omg. luckily phone still there. not the first time anyhwa. but yea

rrly hope sammy's exam be over asap.. even when off also cant msg or contact him much=/ haiz
o well..

guess if my slp tonight will be a peaceful one?
or gonna wakey three times again.
haiz
and my cough.. .sighs. today damn bad. especially in bus. HATE it =(( cos its loud n u cant stop cos throat so itchy huu =/
hopefully tmr will be better. wih me luck

rgm happy with sale.s great. she's so moody. hard to fathom. oh man. why all rgm like that. and also forget wahthtey'd said. ..=.= so confusing. cos they too busy ar. still no excuse mah
o well

mata

bugs battle =/

my whole body is so tired. another asm asked me out to jb. like.. she say lots of cheap stuffs there. so.. yea. since she's familiar.. i was like. .ok. cos we happened to have rare same off. first time actually.watsons v cheap stuffs. can stock up on everyday uses . regret not buying hair conditioner=.= abt 5 bucks or less only. yea less bah. haiz. so yea .v cheap stuffs. 

anyway, eevrynight so tired. having to put up 'barriers'.. powder ard.. don dare use blankie. .dunno why .. haiz. just. .haiz. .tmr bro coming back =/ dunno how am i able to slp in living room. even if slp by light i still wanna slp in living room bah. not v gd for my health since im sick thouigh. and i couldnt get a proper slp =/ . .sobx. .rrly feel like crying when think of these stupid bugs. even keep dreaming of it. =( lil movements wakey me to see i ftheres bugs in my shirt or shorts. sighs. .and those dreams.. dang.. =/ 

eevrynight is a battle. 

anywya,.... dunno when. but hopefully i can get back to my normal slp routine bah ..sooon i hope. 

stomach feels so weird. v uncomfy. not stomach. but whole body uncomfy. think sick then still went out bah.. isit. but.. more of after dinner n med. or took too much med together. cough plus nose.. plus victimin.. wanna take separately. but kinda forgot. then took everything at one time .. quite close. gosh feel more sick than ever. =/ 

huu

still coughing.. dun wanna see doc.. but.. i probably shld eh.. see how first.
huu.. my stomach. so weird. maybe too tired.
thank goodness im off.
tmr. if not. .gonan die at work. a twokr must focus 100% if not.. v difficult. cannot not up to standard. .town area standard.

mm. .heard some stuffs abt rgm. .like. .bveing abit.. mm. .controlling? if that makes sense. i dunno bah. ppl talk .. so yea. .i cant tell for sure. but probably the way she work.. and shes also stress or what bah

dunno sammy still busy studying anot.. or lsp alrdy. .maybe when wanna slp then msg him bah. later he difficult to do his stuff.. ..

u know the opposite side of elbow.. middle part of hand. .the joint.. .lol. yea. .that part. like. .kena injection ne. ha. dunno could it be last night? =/ or waht. .dunno is it bugs bite me or... dunno. but its liek three or so red tiny dots. like kena injection =.=
ha. .so .. ..o well 

k. .think better wait for hair dry. .try to relax.. and slp soon. powder ard me again and my body. when will this stop.. sighs.
=/

wish can stay at his place now. .sobx.. o well.
nah. .later depend too much on him how. ha. .o well 

k. feelign v uncomfortable. need to get my health back in shape. wish me luck tmr. gdnight. 

jaa mata

mish sammy

another night(mare)

gosh. not enough rest and slp rrly make me so sxick.
im still slping on the floor. today parents say they por hot water to wash my mat. so ask me slp on it. sighs. dislike =( but will give it a try. feel much safer by putting powder all ard. =/ what a hassle for me to go slp eh. sighs
waht to do when bro get back. i cant slp early anymore. sometimes hell play game till 2 or 3 am if he off. =/ sighs.. .rrly didnt hav any gd night slp.
still hoping for the best .
=/
jsut wish i can get out of here. huuuT_T
from liking and looking forward to slp, to totally opposite. pouts* haiz..
o well

k bah. gotta go rest. haiz. wish me luck for tonight with the mat. so wish i can burn it all

forgot what else to blog desu.
just. .so.. tired of these thingy. sighs. hate bugs

mata

sick day again

i am so sick. rlry wish i can mc. anyway, .. ytd. since ytd. then dunno. mum wasnt feelign wel either. say dad passed the germs to her. then she was coughing n sneezing abit too. then soon after, i kena. was terrible. maybe weak immune alrdy. then kena the germs.. haiz. no matter how much water i drink, stil lthirsty throat so dry and pain. v v dry. today ive drank more than 8 cups of water bah.overshot liao .shld be. cos rrly drink alot

i feel so weak . dunno at work how ne haiz= /

was jsut doing my own thing. sammy fri again nvr msg me. just. .o well. 

if onl lil things can be apprecitate b someone..

gomen. cant rrly think. cos im feeling so weak and dizzy . even though sick yet i still slpt on floor in living room. 
i jsut cant stand having the thoughts of htingy on my body. and having me for their meal. Omg. that disgusts me =( yet still. .inner thigh of mine. aftnoon i found three red spots. dunno when or how they do it. theyre experts. sighs. =( 

i put lemongrass.. as adviced by  my fren. haiz. .ncie of sammy to help me ask his dad.. yet  my stubborn parents will not agree to throw thigns out. but i understnad too. its newly bought. his first thing bought for us. not cheap. so yea. =/ 
sighs... i rrly kinda enjoy the night alone tiem i hav in living room though. i liek it. peace n quiet. bro holiday. parents slping. im all alone .freedom. 
haiz. the forced me to slp on mat. to be honest i dun wan. cos mat also got small tiny holes=(( sighs. but i know htey meant well.. yet.. i rather slp oin cold floor. even if sick. i dun care

so how. jsut listen to them eh =/ 

when can i live alone. sighs. i need my freedom . they meant well. yet i feel suffocated 
sighs 

life will vr be perfect

mata

seeing him soon ^^

so......... sorry. yea. ytd was feeling abit crap. so yea. 

forget it bah. today is a better day

wow i had many big few hundreds sales today. awesome .though nvr hit budget. yet hit the benchmark that they wanted. 

anwayy, yea. today my selling skills liek so gd liek tht .lol. 
oh got auntie complimented im v pretty again. asked me what ra ce am i XD i rrly look like mixed blood aar? 

dunno la. but that day another auntie say my eyes v pretty. haha. gd. must blink2 more at themXD then get mroe sales hahah

but yea. as long as its  compliments from women, its all gd. gusy ones.. nah. don bother. unless its from sammy la

like i'd said long time ago. if a woman complimented a woman, or even look at her( not les) , its a great compliment indeed. cos its like even a woman thinks u look great. compliments u. and take a 2nd look atcha 
for guys needless to say. always look3=.= at women. typical . 
but yea. i heaard it from somewhere. dunno where. that yea. if a woman look at u(you're female) , meaning you're rrly pretty indeed .
cos even they think you're pretty or wahtsoever. unlike guys who thinks every woman is pertty and sexy whenever they loo at front and back. i think. i dunno. not all but most. oh well. what to do =.= irritating, but true for most. haizzzzzzz

mm... ok. hopefully no thief in our team. haiz. this kind of thing so hard to... =/ u know. catch or predict

kk. gotta go slp soon 

i rlry need to amp up on my health. and stop taking too much pills. 

though din take alot la. but yea. kk slpy liao

mm.. did i missed out anything... .o well .

so nice. my fren her frens gave her syd tix as pressy. 5days. then she added two more days herself. at least her aunt is there. so she stay with her aunt. 
but yea. ive always wanted this pressy. its the best gift . imagine wahhh a trip to syd! wah happy .tehn can tell sammy ha. 
lucky her. soyea. she went alrdy. get to see her bf too. she say got cry abit too when she left .duh. i also alwasy cry. sad mah to be separated again 

asked her wheres the best place to go dating. she also dunno lol. its more of like shop and eat huh .
haha. but anyway, best is to spend time together. even if having dessert. eat. walk and hold hands.. yea. .little thigns counts. and i'll cherish it. unbelivable. from 3 months, now countdown to one month and abit less than 2 weeks. wow. 
yes. im sure can see him before i know it =) 

my time of month is v near .. as in. .probably by the time i fly off, is abt the day i just end my period. so keeping my fingers crossed that it will coem on time. no delay. so i can finish it on tiem and enjoy my holiday withouth the hassle. =) 

mata ne .

super slpy mode

soooo slpy =.= fell aslp on floor gosh 

oh nice. so long nvr get to msg him alot. though he's stil lbusy with assignment. then i fell aslp. then.. yea. think he's gone liao . ha. wish me wasnt asl p then. o well 

cant wait to hit the sack .though too full 

first day of work theres this indian auntie. v nice. talk so long though. she kept prasising me. say im beautiful.. etx.. omg. so shy. then asked if my colleague is working here. i say yes. then she say.. but not as pretty as u. she shakes her head.LOL. omg.... ofc i nvr tell my colleague la. but she kept prasing me u know . gosh. 

soo oslpy. k ba. think me go liao. 
mm.. rrly tired. ssomemore time of month. if timing right .think my month will be finished jsut nice right before my trip. keepign my fingers crossed. 

so nice to be ho me alone for few hrs. parents went out to attend funeral. so yea. was like. .full of freedom for few hours.ah how nice. 

kk yawns.. jaa mata

wonder if sammy is aslp alrdy anot. mm.

new environment

oh so slpy. losing my energy. so wanna slp this instant .

gosh.. looking forward to this serenity of working at a quiet store. 

not much customer. .and relax..though boring also la 

but somehow today time passe so fast. yet. .stress is the sales and stuff. haiz.

o well. 

but anyway, been abt 5 yrs? since ive work at fast pace town store. finally reminded me of the days in atz. thoguh not exactly the same. cos atz no need to serve 

but yea. nice experience. though on,y till sunday we'll be there. 

jsut a small change. a small break .yet still mental; stress abt not hitting gd enough target=/ sighs

so yea. rched at abt 705// .. 

i rrly like the japanese pickled 

COCO ichibanya restaurant  fukujinzuke

oh so gd. many ppl like it. mum too. am not a huge fan of pickles but this is great cos it dont tast liek pickled .no weird sourly taste. 

k. better go now. zzz so lspy .hair not dry yet. haiz. .how to answer to rgm regarding the sales ne=/ 

jaa mata

bug fight

huuthe mattress is back in my room. so is its cover. gonna blog fast so i can slp earlier. 

sammy has been v busy bah. imagine slpy all day. gosh .me one day can ttahan alrdy .

yea me awoke v slpy too. just another typical boring rest day fo rme. everyday need rest. 
mm.. last night was a nightmare. dreatm few times relating to bedbugs. i don think sg have the bomb to kill bugs thingy. checked online but only mention au. 
haiyo. but came across this post. someone say it doesnt work. but i guess that worked for msamy 

mm.. .yea. so woke up couple of times .. feelign so .. argh .especialy since im  not feeling well. in the end spend an hour cleaning the strawmat. then parents return my mattress abck after taking off hte buggy cover=./= 

how nice. imagien if sam still at bedok. can slp at his place everynight. wah shiock. love it when we go for supper at fishball noodle store.so wish tome can turn back... .o well 

so yea. tonight shall be another. .unknown one. dunno will be able to slp epacefully anot. dunno bugs will coem back anot. sighs .

wish me luck=/ 

wah ceo coming tmr! gosh. al lthe best

mata

sick day =/

so sos o slpy =.= omg. been hell of a day for me . was so sick. dunno colleguae say i seems ot have a bit of fever. 
huu.. was running nose from mrg till night sighs =/ so so terrible. didnt perform v well at work. duh. sick mah 

but glad my plan worked out rightly. bought mum stuffs. and brought her to steamboat .so yea. 

mm.. waht else. 

oh been wanting to say this. that day at ion. three korean students. think.. sec or poly.. maybe sec? anwyay. china tourists asked them for mrt directions. maybe cos they look at them as u know fair skin .thought they chinese. then these three girls keep laughing loudly, and talking to each other. .maybe saying some stuffs bah. then the tourists couple so paiseh like that. and walk away. =( so poor thing. at least say sumtin??? apologize for not understanding or what. omg. so pissed off at them .
then somemore  can make a scene of themsleves. talk so loudl. attention seekers. 
bloody rude students. 
poor tourists. hope they wont thought those girls are singaporeans. 
argh. so angry with such actions! how can u ignored them and keep laughign and tlaking to  ea ch other. they are not transparent u know =/ 
argh. great example of students with ill manners. 

sooo oslpy .gotta hit the sack soon. had a tough night last night in bed. weird dream or dunno real .jus tsome eerie stuffs. hate slping now. bugs.. .argh... my gosh. living in ocnstant fear. or slping in fear. huu 

feel so afar.. 

haiz

k bah. gtg. been having bad health lately. =/ 
gotta tc.. 

may i get well soon. sucks to be sick. =/ 

mata

bloodsuckers

absolutely slpy dead tired

shortcut blog k

so happened that both sammy and i were out. he went partying or sumtin. and i was like  kidna the same. wcan u believe it? i was worried. .rrly nervous when i sang in front of ppl. O.o yet at the end, ppl applause for me. wow. they nvr applause when my collegasu sang. 
my collegau say i sang like ayumi hamasaki., whao. too much of a compliment.cant take it. u knwo hwo my bro is a huge fan of
yea. so. .thats abt it. nice night. kinda. wish it was longer. was like. .nah.. i cant sing. .then.. after that. .was like. .ok u knwo what. lets do it. i can do it. lol

ceo coming.. omg. 

mm. thought i hva more chance to msg him oday. but yea... since we both off. .but. .dunno ba. cant be help somethimes if hes busy with other things. ..

rrly fed uo with bedbugs matter. sighs=/ 

wish can kill them all =/ 

nasty bites they give.. rrly wana throaw away mattres.s. but dad bought.. .and its not cheap. =/ sighs. .. if im living alone, wouldve throaw it away liao 
cant stand slping with blood stains.. sighs
rrly hate it 

k bah. gonna slp with hair wet bah 

wish me luck tonight. hioepfull ywont get suck too much

mata

cherish ur dog too

just a super quick short blog. 

v v sad. cried whilst watchign this vlog abt her dog died.... sighs. .and shes not in her country. ..and somewhere along the line she admitted after getting her dogs she kinda forgotten abt her old first dog.. so poor thing =/ the dog i mean. sighs. .can imagien the pain.. if u know ur fav dog died.. u felt guilty.. and u aint there for hinm.. 

its true. when u have new dogs. .you'l ltend to forget abt ur old one bah. neglect it. .. no wodner she fel tso guilty. cos shes so far away from home. then having new life hubby n new dogs. .ofc will teend to forget bah... haiz.. so sad. i cried. cant control. cos i know how that couldve felt.. though ofc for her more unbearable. .especially with those pics taken with her dog. .. haiz. .from pupz till old.. till illness..blind then die. .diabetes also. =/ 

sighs. .havign a dog is so blissful.. but yet. .theyre family.. .rrly mnust be prepared for this day to come.. =/ 
haiz........ ....sigsh. jsut .. u know. cherish ur dog. .walk them love them. cos they'll only have u. and they only know how to love u. you're the person they love most... dont neglect it. they only have such few short yrs=/ 

sobx. .teary again. kk gtg . sooo oslpy today

mata

happily ever after

haiz... still feeling so slpy as ever=/ 

dunno why i got such a werid painful black bruise mark on my butt =( and mmy back of head. .so painful... when i pressed it =/ dunno what happened ne ..tch 

haiz... so frustrating. .someitmes off day or mrg shift just  cant tally with sammys, i miss those days when we msg the whole day =/ 

sighs

al labt stupid timings bah. watever 

.. =(( so sad

sighs

sorry. gotta let it out

oh yea. was gonna bklog ytd. but didnt cos too tired or so. its like. .ppl ard me been getting married! engaged. ... everything. then today . i came across this bridal fair. with u know those bridal gowns on display in the open square.etc. i was like. .whattttttttttttttt coincidence or waht? ?

is that a sign? lol .

so weird. like. perhaps its a gd period to get amrried and engaged? i duno. its like. .yea. happening to ppl ard me. .adn now this fair too ? so weird. such conincidence. noep. im not getting married. no one wanna marry me yet ha

o well

liek so sad huh. haha

mm... jsu twanna slp it all away 

tryig hard to change. but so difficult .feels like my lifestyle is weighing a ton on me = /

how shl di do it. .sighs

ah.. bros instant noodles smeels so gd. wanna eat.. .msut tahan.. cos nid lsp liao

jaa mata bah.. 

can i sighs it all away

shoudlve taken my pill just now. nvr thought of it

day off

so tired still.. why. was it somethign i ate wrongly  .. i keep giving myself excuses no tto excercise. .etc.. ..sighs .perhasp im not working it hard enough. .. im alwsy so tired n slpy and. .i dun feel like moving.

but felt great when i wawa smaking smoothie. i like ot cook and make thigns. 

haiz.. .i dunno why.. but.. jsut. .lacking of motion i guess... .

=/

still didnt spend any gd offs with sammy.. just abit here n there msgs. .but yea. .better than nothing. 

i think i wanna slo asap 

mm. slpy

and tired

wait.. think i miss somthing.. i wann blog abt.... omg. i forgot=.= yet again. forget it. til lnex time bah sighs

i had a dream of my sm and asm .an. .etc. then. .abt work. .omg. so real .loud and clear. 

and i suddenly wakwe thought i was supposed to work morning. omg. like. literally sat up!

ah.. when i wrote this.. then i realized i have my memores of it.. 

kk. .gtg slp soon

forgot what i'd wanted to blogf=// 

mata

true best performance live

oh dear.. still so slpy =/ .. its like.. nvr enough... haiz.. 
o well 

mm... omg. .i forgot waht i was gonna blog=(( 

memory so bad

huu

cesar is in sg alrdy. gosh.. so nice. wonder hwo long he's gonna be here. perhaps just for a day or two. 
but yea. .a pity junior cant come with him. .dot think he can bah. yea. thats his dog=.=

i knew it. my childhood fren.. recently blah3 talk abt his gf pregnant .. a pino who works in pub.. bartender. .so yea. gut feeing. shes a w***e or ***ch. its natural .jjust a gut feeling. she alrdy had two kids. so yea. was like. .i felt sorry for my fren... like. .. u knwo. why he chose her. anwyy... so now.. by readin ghis posts. .u know he's having probs ... no more news abt her being pregnant. .duno what happen... but yea. 
its just that. .soemtimes ..its so maddening to have ppl play u along like that. 

sighs.. speaking of which.. i dunno.. haix. forget it

so was dining at a korean food restaurant with mum today.. they played korean songs. .u can tell ..like. .all very act cute type. was kinda...irritated by the songs. but when boas song is up, haha. was liek watching. but.. yea. then i wonder why they cant sing. cos their dancings, is not as tough as boa. they pose sexy' ..so called sexy moves.. stope her and ther for asec or two .its pretty easy .they get to breathe.. etc. they have many ppl to sing. its liek liek oen person get to sing for 3misnuts straight . adn they take breath in turn. so why cant they sing live. becos boa can .and her dance moves is liek hte toughest ever. hello. then i realised. .. was it cos thehy aint train enough> ?  i dunno. i thoguht they had the toughest raining though.. or was it through some dance moves.. focusing on that. .thus neglating hteir voices.. 

its a great idea... clever move though. .to have a huge girls group. cos if 10 guys like girl 1, 100 guys like girl 2, 10000 guys like girl 3 in the group, and so on,... yera.. how many albums u think they could've sell"? 

i believer the videos i watched was from girls generation. cos theres this song. .ive got a boy on my chin.as in part of their lyrics. as in perhaps tats not what theyre singing. but.. due to their pronouciations, it soudned that way.  lo. hey i didnt say that. the popular youtuber said it. and i mean v v v vpopular ones. 17millions over subscribers. ) 

so yea/. mm...slpy and tire.d. sammy not tdoen with his stuff yet. .

same sm enetermaitn as boa. so all gd. 

haiz

... o well .ordered new relaxtion pills today. didnt consult a doc though. but. .yea. hipefully it'll work fine. 

can u believe ur love one of what they say

mata