missing him =/

gosh.. work stuff.. casues stress and headache.. hope its resolved ..

anway.. slpy liao. .waiting hair to dry

was having my break.. sammy wasnt ard.. then eating. .then looking up the sky.. missing him. .wonder whats he doing. .thinking how nice to walk under this sky and sun with him hand in hand.. haiz..
teary abit... o well

and yea had a long intense brain working bad dream. dunno hwy dreamt so long
argh
disliek the dream

my colleagues all thought im 22, 23 .. i was like.. no... im not. i think.. from the way and u knwo. thats why they also find me easy to talk to. but not always a gd thing .cos when u wanna manage them.. yea. nid to show the diff side o fu.

my colleague rcently asked me where i studied. .then ne. shes liek shocked. in fact. my asm fren also. i dunno why. they all say the same thing. the way i talk sounded like from u know. higher education whatever.
i also dunno how i talk. my language.. or the words i used.. .i dnno. i find it amusing that they were all surprised.
O.o
gd thign?

oh dear... getting tired ... zzzzzzzz
just nid to hang on abit longr..

u know my previous sm.. dunno why she always uses the word yaya on me.
=.= adn shes like ..
still saying down side of stuffs abt us. lie. .asking hows sammy. .if he has gf.. oh not yet huh. like. she said that with a straight face. omg. even if close frens, u wouldnt say that to ur close right. wth
so maddeing. sometimes shes ncie. but her words.. like. ..no brainer. i dunno what to say
seriously i dun
v disappointing.. to hear ppl trying to put down on ur rls like that. .=/
sighs
dunno la

mum say she misses him
when i was back. she asked hows him
did he get anythign fo rme. lol
eya. .she wanted me to tell him she misses him too. my family
think sammy cant standmy mum cos she tlaked mcuh. shes just very concern ba. .and care alot. thats why naturally will ask or talk more. i think

ha. i sitll remember one time. .ealry mrg.. he slpy stil lbah. me gotta go work. .mum talk to him or ask him.. thigns. he was like stomping off after wearing his shoes. i was so upset i couldnt talk to him. was liek gonna cry. even in bus. he didnt knot whats wrong. and i was too upset to tell him. think later on i did ba.
anwyay yea. .cos couldnt tel .he also gic eup and din bother. ha. o well. old days.. .
now we both gorwn p even more. .i wonder .. ha. wouldve be.. funy or opeic imagine mum ever see him again .he'll be liek noooooooooooo XD haha.
i think .lol .
imagine

o well..
if he can ever come back that is

wow. to think one more week to my bday. wth. O.o  i din even realised that. liek how my team that day surprised me with cake. shockingn
i wonder whats gonna happen... on my b day . well soemthign alrdy bad happened. ..so eay. .rrly hope nothign more wil lhappen again..
but dunno ba
always liek that

as long as he ownt lie or hide thigns form me again. .i'll be happy bah.. just. .u kwno. alrdy cant wait to se ehim again.. i alwasy try to remember.. recall.. how his hands feel.. his lips face warmth.. height hugs. .and everything. .
ha. makes me wanna cry

k la.
think i better go slp liao

sobx

ha. o well
been hugging dragon everynight to bed. wakey also scratchy him a lil .. lolXD liek he's my real pet hahhaha. ..
ea. his neck thin enough fo rme to hug without being too stuffy and warm . so jsut nice. haha
his head would fit nicely on my shoulder wasit. .uh huh
comfy

kk. .gtg

mata

difft sm

so slpyyyyyyyyyyyy fell aslp on sofa. gd thing i wokey on time.

today was quiet at work. hmm..

u know.. it is rather nice to have ur love one compliment abt u when u feel that say.. it was not a gd photo of u. and u rrly wishes it to be better .
so when he say he like it, i was hapy and surprised =)
but i rrly do wishes i could look better in his phone though haha.
perhaps its jsut me bah.. gd but i think not gd enough. ha. whereas for him is gd. aw...
soyea. its a gd thing he said that. .and that makes my day =)

ha eyes abt half closed.. slpy ..

mm.. throat still hurts..
abit

ok.. so like the typical manager.. dunno la.
was glad she make the effort to buy a surprise bday cake for me.. i was rrly caught off guard when they sang song fo rme ha. but.. to say buy a drink and gone for 25mins is like... =/
and also gondola v empt. .asked if i shld do something abt. .say nvm she wil lhandle. .then today she off. today still nothing is done. what if imagine the c manager is here cos she stays near here. if she ocme in die. if ceo come in see die. luckily todya they nvr. phew
if rgm see even more double die

if compared to my sm from town, she wouldve change everything.
i have to ask 2 times. then shes likes.. ok. she wil ldo somthing later.
wanan help but she wanna do then end up nothing. end up mrg i do abit of sumtin. =.=

and wanted to mentioned this. .so the other day doing vm.
yea.  i did mentieodn eh? i complteted so mcuh
somemore she can tell rgm in mrg that she completed all the frames vm. so wan me help with htat to complete in case she come s in.
=.=
alot haven do still wanna lie.
then say the rest can complete tmr.
hello? ofc not.
if rgm hear so many not done yet. ofc she wil lthink how come mrg completed so much. then whole day didnt complete anything else? then next mrg i die lor
maybe she'll think i do very slow. cos that sm off mah next day.
but luckily rgm also off. if not she wil lquestion why audit submit so late. why took so long to complete.
if i cuold be bad , i wouldve replied cos they lie to u abt completeing the frames
=.=
argh o well... anyway glad i push on and completed most of them at night alone huu

its gd to vent it out a little.

seriously yea.. this sm abit.. .mm.. dunno la. only worked thrree days with her. she's ncie and frenly. but... town sm still consider a better sm.
even thoughstress. but i know she's doing her job

so yea.. gonna be back to the stressful store.. pros and cons. haha.
nonetheless, o well.. .lets do this!

ah.. bro away for holiday.. .o well..

kk. think gonan slp. hair stil ldrying=.=

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busy days

so.... i only have one day off for this week..=/ ... was like. .rrly looking forward to having 2 straight offs.. o well..

anyway.
finally i've given a great feedback to this bra store. for htat lady who served me.
seriously.. in syd.. i didnt find hte service v good.. which i thought shld be... then yea..=/ perhaps sammy is right. they are lazy or.. u knwo

anywya. where shld i tart.. ytd adn day before... day before was ncrazy. sm only doine one big one.. vm.. one tiny one..and one simple one. =.= then other team member. .one big one.. the rest... abt... 10 or more.. im the one who did it.
=.=
yea. i was like. .crazy. doing it. thank god alrdy hit the sales. if not stress.
then next day. imagine suddenly country manager drop by and also say ceo coming. luckily its the frenly ceo.
so yea. she was observing me i think.. dunno why she was looking at me when i was talking to my cust. when i look at her, she smiled and look away O.o. .
anyway. lucky me. the cust when making payment... told my country manager( she happened to be at that area) how gd i am. and y c sm say yea im one of the best team memebr they have=)
aw.. soon.. the cust say again.. im rrly v gd. cos i help her. .yet give her the freedom to browse...
if only every cust can appreciate the work weve done for them .
thats why i wanna feedback to that lady at that bra store

mm... wat else.. oh! dunno la. was so shy seeing thatceo again hahaha. he got that magical frenly chamrm bah .this itme he was wearing more formal like blazer. he even shake my hand and wink. lol. old man alrdy still know how to do that eh XD
but when he going off, he say to me that i look fantastic. =) and yea. thats a huge compliment coming from ceo himself! its pretty imp bah to make gd impression for him. cos rgm said before.. no one rrly see him or talk to him much..its rare chance.. and after that meeting she had with him... soon, he wanted her to go sg be rgm.
so yea.

it was nice talking to sammy abt my concerns.. .
aftert the talk.. ive decided that i do wan to switch over to bras store. even if pay is gonna drop. ..i dunno yet. the detaisl might be even moer complicated. the contract etc... but... for now. thast what i want bah. i like accessories.. but... its not rrly my thing.. .to style ppl.
i dunno. its just.. not rrly waht i wanna do.
i think the bras suits me best. and i'll know better of what to say to cust.
i think .

anyway, see how bah.
mm... seems like im missing somthing..
waht i wanna blog

nowadays.. been thining so much in my mind. .like think3... almost head into males toilet or exit door. like.. out of this world. suddenlky then wakey like. waht?? where am i heading . so scary .
lcukily not on the road.
dunno why im thinking till so deep

it was great heairng samms voice again. =) its always a joy to hear him talk. to chat2...
wonder if this is gonna change once his uni start again..... o well.. cant help it ba

gonna slp soon .bro playing movie la.. almost finish bah.
slpy..
jaa mata

im a gem haha XD

wow. so had a long tired day at work ytd. scrubbing hte floor liek cinderella.. =.= 

anyway.... dunno why. once i sat down i don wanna move. jsut wanna chill and relax after a hard day long at work .

then,.. ednded up slpt at 4am. ha. omg. 

but yea. 

cos .. suddenly i wanna relive that moment... in syd . i will also slp in the late middle of night with sammy. 3plus. or usually 4,5am... yea... i love spending eveny secs with him. 

so.. even though hav worktoday. yet.. i still feel like doing it.. jsut enjoy... haiz. all like a dream as though. swt2 dream. stil lcant believe i've been to syd alrdy . but its a gd one. 

just wish i couldve stay longer.. .o wel=/ 

ha. my sm say she rrly like me. 

this new outlet sm i mean

ha. she say so sad im leaving. its like she got a gem , now lost it. 

cos im leaving back to my previous outlet mah. 

my fren say. yea. this gem is from her. hahahaha

tat fren of mine sm. she say her review of me is v good. everythign good. tats why this new sm wan me more 

kk. gtg. late liao. 

mata

2nd blog on same day 7th july

hehe. posted a video quickie for sammy. glad he liek it. i think. he was laughing out loud he said. XD aww wish i could see it!!

glad to hear that i am headin gback to the old store. phew.
more fun over there.

anyway, throat still uncomfy... =/

mm... yea. so far. .slpy liao cos woke early. rememebr i blogged jus tnow? yea now is my 2nd blog of teh day. well now its night. i seldom blog twice a day

mm... mish him..
huu

wow. bro jsut gave me early pressy. O.o ha so early. but okok bah. its lotion perfume thingy... but i have alot of lotions liao. its ok. its the htought that counts

its certainly great to be wearing my lipstick again. my lips back to the baby smooth condition. weee
=)

sooo slpy. gosh. kk gtg slp

mm... today so busy. thought will be quiet desu. but gd bah. hit target

jaa mata

still wishing im there with him

just a quick blog before i head to work

it was rlry nice to skype with him for  awhile last night again. scan picture him driving... and yea. cos my lappy was having prob. as much as i wanted to blog ytd, i couldnt.

slpy abit now. dunno why i wokey at 8plus am =.= haha. still at syd time bah.. my body. anywy. hope wont get too slpy later

dreamt of packign my luggage. and trying to shove dragon in haha.
so nice to hug dragon to slp. reminded me of samy. cos he also hugged it too. and yea. like v comfy .cos his neck is thin. so my hand can wrap ard it nicely.

mm... cant believe this week is over. this long awaited holiday. time flies. and also rrly flies in a yrs time.
cos. .suddenly im like. oh im meeting him again! So surreal. v unreal.

today gonna start work at new location. so yea. wishme luck.
targets v high.

mm... see la. my lips ok alrdy=.= ha. for that whole week not nice. cant put on red lipstick.. then now back and ok alrdy. what timing=.= baka desu

mm.. .kinda excited to go back to work. but also kinda wish im still off.
ha. o well

jaa gtg bah

somehow i still feel like.. this isnt reality.. like.. as though ytd im still in syd.

mata

sydney update. sammy and I. love is in the air =)

so much that i wanna get it out...

so its been a great trip for both of us. even though i was tired and slp. not enough slp, it is all ok. becos i spend every sec with him. i video... yes. him slping and all... took pics.. i tried took mroe pics of us both together.. he shy la i think ha

mm.. i cried alot last night. cos.. found out his dad think he saw me. dunno how sure. but yea. sighs
=/
i rrly hope everything wil lturn out alrgiht. rrly hope they'll treat sammy as a grown up man alrdy to make his own decisions. ..rrly keeping my fingers crossed.. .hope all will be fine. .and the storm be over soon...

jsut when i hav plans. it got all cancelled cos of what happened. sighs. now hav to wait to next yr bah.
and also part of the plan is to make him erm.. 'c munchie omfy' . then no mood cos yea... if only we nvr bump into his dad.. .
rrly regret not being able to comfy him. should've done it earlier when not so tired. maybe first or second day ..sighs... =/
wasted ne.
just when i have plans.. all hings gone wrong =/

my skin.. rrly corse and itchy /painful. cos of the weather. my lips as well. last yr like that. this yr also=. =
so dry. not enough fluid also.
then come back, bought at airport this lipbalm..gdone. now so much better.softness returns. omg why didnt i get that earlier!!??

tried to be perfect for sammy. but plan failed.
too cold. cant wear certain outfit/dresses. haiz... skin breakout on the day im leaving for airport=.= wth right.
arghhhhhh
lips also.
so yea.. .stomach indeed not v good. yakult taste liek diluted.=.= didnt work much. then now i just thought of bananas. next time i must buy bananas. keep my bowel moving.
yakult alone wont work. make me bloated still only

my babydoll lingerie nightie wore once only. think he also nvr rrly notice. perhaps too tired and slpy bah
o well

he asked me why i love him. i heard it as why he love me. i replied dunno. luckily he asked again and the misunderstandsing cleared up .
when u love someone. u love almost everything .its hard to put a finger into it. u cant just say it all out u know.
i love his intellegence , care personaility.. protect me.. swt, cute, fun, he suits me well
and i accept his flaws. thats what part of love is all abt bah .
no one is great at all aspects. and i still love him even though mm.. like he can be pretty firm on me .like.. very manly ar. lol. but he is manly.
but yea. im a lucky girl. and its gd to hear what he liek ab tme too.
fro today onwards, i made it a point not to be upset or angry when he cant msg.
will do my best desyu. he's so busy and tired.. .and yea... as much as i wish he could ,. .but yea. its ok. i understandnow. its great to hear what's he been doing.. his concerns.. uni job etc. makes me understand him more liao. =) we can only change ourselves. not change ppl. once u stop trying to change ppl, you'll realised how great that person is. i read it from a book. rgm lend. we both agreed its true.

he caught me this toy dragon from the movie how to train your dragon 2. i was soooooooo happy. i was over the moon!!!
=) rrly din expect he rrly caught it ^^ hehe . so gonna hug it everyniht. cos he hugged it too.
i love late night suppers with him. walking down the dark night... =) we were near darling harbour. after rushed to  a bar. yea.. .we walk2... then so cold. then he hugged me and spin. =) i was looking up at the sky too.
so nice. so swt. romantic.

gotta slp soon. wil ltype asap. maybe continue tmr or what.

finally we had more pics taken than lsat yr. not huge amount but hey. look on the bright side .itss more than last yr =)
hoepfully next yr even more ha.

wat els.e. mm. .
oh i wasnt feeling so well. my throat. sore throat whole week. huu...

oh we did somethign new. he drove me to wollongon. so beautiful the scenary. i fell aslp along the way here n there.. =/ cos only slpt abt 1hr or so mah. but still. all worth it. =)

love watchign late night football match with him. though i do fell aslp soemtimes. btu yea. cosy up together in one room. watch together. what more could i ask for =)

rrly glad he love the watch. phew. haha. the pressy he like, always took me so lon gand hard to fin dit. its like.. limited edition.. or its selling out everywhereXD but hey. worth it all. cos he liek it after all =)

so yea. first ffew days. .as expected. we still hav some energy.. .ha. then soon... i was like... not much energy to talk liao. haiyo .
oh we went to the bar... 2nd last night before iim supposed to leave. iordered fish n chips. not nice. ha.
but we had a great tiem drinking and tlaking =) thumbs up. hehe. happy

oh .theres this door incident.. .i was sad. =/ cos open up nad bang into this metal bar. i tried to be as careful as possible alrdy. but the door there's this... u know how it will sprint' out? it was too strong. din expected that. cos uses one hand open the door. from then, since then. i always open with two hands to control the weight in case it 'sprint' out again.
but yea. felt so bad and sad that day =/
anyway. lesson learnt. thats most imp

haiyo. wasted. instax camera... got flash.=.= if not hav a pic of us can put in wallet liao.
oh rrly3 like this pics though. i uses this remote control to tak eit. only one T_T huu.... but yea. its so nice. like. .first or 2nd day togerher. we all still look refreshed and good. like not that tired lookin ghaha.

mm... so yea. im back alrdy. that sucks.
i love looking back the pics and vids. its as though i am still there...

he's there fo rme. .and little thigns like lugggage. jsut when i was abt to give up closing it, he say its ok. and he did it effortlessly . he din get frustrated or say why i buy so much etc. but yea.. .he jsut helped me..
sobz. gonna teary liao =/
i mish him alot.
rrly wish to be by his side 24/7

its weird. when im with him, i become a xiao nu ren. like a little woman. like. .i dunno. all gentle and weak liek that. lol. maybe cos hes' too manly bah. its not a bad thing.
i trust him. and i listen to what he say most of the time bah .yea. if not he angry . lol. no la. he knows what he's doing. so yea. clever man mah =)

at one point i was laughing out loudly. he asked if thats how i always laugh.
i hope he dint find it  too ugly or what lolXD
rather he like my laughter and smiles.
so many nice memories i had ...
6 yrs and a half... he's still charming as always =)
alwasy my man .
my love.
my everything. my all .

rrky want to overcome this hurdle with him tmr.. .
anyway. will type soon .hopefully tmr bah. long post eh

jaa mata