dating with love one

crying.. haha. o well .

always so sad when parting with sammy.

its as thhough it nvr happened. .im in my room now.. .and. .he just dropped by ytd.... out of the blue. .i was so paiseh cos fumbling ard thinking of what to wear for him nice2.. .u know. my room messy.. and yea ..ubt glad he din talk abt it. phew=P


miss him so much alrdy ha.

today can tell he's tired. cos we went out mah. .and yea. .didnt rrly slp alot. that happens whenevr not enuff slp. but ...yea. still he's swt.
we went to pool also =)
uh huh.

i ttok pics of him alot. like while he's taking video n pics of uss. yes we went there. though.. .due to hotel prob, we rushed abit. huu. 3hrs only to uss. didnt managed to go all ne. but mostly yes

we also talked abt the trip bait over dinner. .adn how his fren's gfs are like. ..interesting. .2 diff personailities . mm.. yea. but.. .o well .see how bah. scared sometimes ppl last min changed their mind. like my fren's fren cannot make it last min. so my fren ask me go. .something like that .
im quite shy ard ppl. but once im open, im open.
haha. so yea. see how bah.

it'll be great to meet his frens too

i bgouth along clubbing dresses. but in the end nvr wear cos we didnt go haha. but its cool though. uss and nice dinner plus nice whiskey shot. .yup. anythign great with him =)

whenever im with him in hotel, i will dream of him. at least or usually once. so weird haha .XD

he's bulkier now. .and his hand.. duno why.. but feels liek its bigger tooo.. .and fleshier.. .
when i first know him he's pretty skinny but not too skinny. be it now or then, he always look so good . maybe cos i love him bah. so.. yea. no matter whats his size, im loving it =P

and he whispered v softly in chinese love me =P . haha .so long nvr hear that. so happy desu =))

saw a ice top we both liek. but a pity its over 80 bucks. .so i din get. that top wouldve looked great with a pair of short denim

mm.. what else. .

in the end. .my paretns still didnt get to see him. haha. o well. . .

mm... rrly love how his body is so extra smooth after bath. XD

it sok to say that right. cos anyway no one know who he is. and theres no pic of him. so yea.

i wonder when wil lhe return to sg again... will itt be few yrs again ?=./

if he didnt hav to returned home in a hurry, i actually wanted to go with him to marine life park. o well. ..maybe next time bah...

i todl my mum i do not wish to go down for dinner tonight. ..cos .. not in the mood bah.. still asd and all ..

yay. we took some pics togehther. again .acouple blurred. and he sometimes looking down or something .so yea. ..

still better than nothing. but i craved and wish for more haha. nvr enough =) like. .yea. ..i thin knot enuff. i just want more. .more pics and memores of/with him...
however,.... rrly glad at least theres 3 or 4 niceshots.. proper ones =)

seriously.. now i still wonder if thats all a dream.. just ytd with him.. .this time at hotel queuing...
uss... etc..dinner. ..
smilin gchatting. .
even if no talk also comfy.. .

its all like a dream. .so surreal. .i almost cant believe it. .....

but now here i am alone in my room..
he wont call to say he's dropping by anymore. .as in at least for this year)
wont call to ask where to meet..
wont call to ask e dress nice2 to go out with him...

=/

when i went swimmng today, i was abit worried. wonder eh why im kinda bloated.. then realized. .ive been drinking water since night to middle of night and morning =.= ... dang. if i remembber, i wont drink so much lor. =.= grr.. .

anwyay, luckily not alot of ppl in mrg. nto so sunny too. great idea of sammy to wakey v early for swim

he was so hot and charming when he swims.. omg .
i wanted to stay near him but scaared dis his swimming concentrations.. .
then theres this moment when he burst /split out the water frmo his mouth. wow. HOT. XD hahaha.
love it.plus hte view..and sunlight.  apity no cam =.=
anyway ..yea. .. ive always like him regardless when he's skkinner or now bulkier. ..
still feel so smooth adn comfy. to hug as always

finally i get to see him do alilt it of sport =)

polo time he sure sexier than today hahaha. XD  can imagine liao

those secs... and mins spend with him. .so.. surreal.. like dream.. yet..its reality. .i cant believe i smiled so much and laugh so much ever since he left. this has been the happiest days of my life.

even my fren was tellin gme i look happy .
whenever im with him, before or after, my frens wil lsay i look so happy

haha

life is so short. and one nvr know hwats gonna hapen ..be it ur health or life. ..
i just.. .hope i have more time with him. .adn am very grateful for now that every seconds soend, be it in tears or happiness, its all well-worth it.
and i sincerely hope that, everyone is able to experience this..

and i noticed.. .when im with him, im fitter. i like that!=)

cherish while u can..

youll know that person is the one among this planet earth with countless of humans.. . then dont let go. happiness will be urs sonner or later..

haha. we took similar snap chats at the same time! XD and oh. we think alike some times too lol. weir dbut amazing XD

ahh took 2 pics of him fullshot pics! haha. wan his pic leh... duno he will send anot XP
oh i videoed him once at uss. hahaa. he tot its pic. so  yea=P

mm.. so everytime he took pic.. or video. .i took his back pic. .ahh. cos so difficult to take his front pic. haha. but nice ne

oh yea i said we took smiliar snapchats right... lol. and the thing is. i din even know he took it too!XD =) few times laio hhaaa.. ..wchie his nsapchats then i was like ohhh the same =P''

luckilly for him my phone phone shld be better now...

oh my hair.. he saw also. frizzy cos after bath n blowed dry hair. tats why i don rrly likew to blowdrymy hair so dry

i just realized. my hair so soft n smooth now lol
the shampoo at hotel not too bad ha.

but yea. rather he feel n see it smooth lor.. not tangked at all.

so swt he let me used hus conb today:3
instead of my frizzy sizde haa o well too late-.-

gosh j almist forgot ... the other tine also like this... see his shadows'everywhere... i miss him in my roommetc...:(((sobx n dating too

as though a dream.. i held his hands and hug him ours ago... so real.. .=/

jaa mata...
stay happy and have a blissful life peeps.. .

one more day exciting !

blogging throygh phine again omw to work.

hehe tmr gonna sepnd sometime with sammy finally!!though time is limited and i wanna go all places with him,... abit hard ba. but even if relax is gd too. duno what are we doing tmr. but any swc spend with him is awesome.:)

my fren say i look so happy. haha i know who to thank tat for :p


im looking forward to tat. rching liao gtg:)

may tmr weather be gd

mata!maybe will blig again tonight if have tjme.
oh man puffy eyes n face drank too much saltysteamboat soup last night.-.- mata!

happy day yet again =))

come to think of it... one of my fav pic with sammy is gone too. along with that phone=/
when i visited him in syd first pic we took together last yr.

anyway. ytd i took a ffew with him.acoupe blurred. but yeaa. rrly love it. =))) soooo happy!!!!!!!!!1
and he stayed back to wiat for me finish work =))) 0so happy. another happiest day of my life.

ha reminded me of last time he also waited for me. from start shift at atz, all the way till l end in late aftnoon

anyway =)))

haha .how i wish all these wouldnt end. but i know he will be back in syd soon huu...

oh. read abit by abit the book. .eh.. so. someitmes when argue. ..women get upset due to the tone of men arguing. men thught women is arguing rejecting them etc. but actually men is not vulerable to change of tnoes and harsh words etc. but women does.
tat makes alot of sense.
yea. .women maybe more sensitive ba. will get upset if anybodt shouted at them or they way they argue is mean and unloving .isnt

kk. i gtg.

oh yea. ..pretty sad that i couldntn change a mrg shift with my ptimer. i have a feeling she just iddnt wanna help. though im able to break a longer time. so. .o well. i'll let that go ba. =/

haiz. but anwyay.

yea. stoma ch not feelin gtat gd today mm

ah. .so ice.. those laughters and smiels we shared.. eating and chatting just sit down together. ..^^ s happy
=) always puts a smiel on my f a ce=)
even if work busy or tiring .. etc. tat dont matter anymore. i realized that when he ask me hows work. its like .yea. all those stress is nothing now. thanks to him

if onlhy everyday could be like tat hah


kk gtg liao .

sammy c ame into my room =) last night. but still shy with my family. not used to it bah. though my parents misses him .haha
o well..

cant wait to spend my off with him .
wish us luck

mata

happy cny 2015!!

hi there.

so... so tired fom wowrk on cny eve... missed tv countdown cos was bathing huu.. haha nvm. then.. yea. but it was soooo fantastic msging sammy while watching tv. thought was able to meet him for the night. then ...yea. its so hard. so yea. ..then last night also.. .as though we watching together ^^ hehe. best part of him being in sg. besides can see him that is

visit2...   gosh. now 2nd day if cny. i woke up. soooo tired and sleepy.

ytd also slpt late and woke up early mah.

today...duno store how quiet.. shall see bah.
quiet. .bad for sales. but. ..gd for me personally. ha. ..cos v tired mah .rther do my tasks slowly.
so yea. gonna be back to work liao huu =/

anyway.
what else. ..

mm... .

tats abt it bah .thank goodness. ytd middle of night rained. so weather abit cool. not too sunny. only buses we missed twice. waited abit. but nothing too bad. cab also. one time only waited quite long. overall, its one of the best cny weather /transportations. haha. the weather is most import. luckily not too hot and no rain.

kk gtg for wokr later liao.


ja amata ne1


enjoy y'all cny!

almost cny peeps.. enjoying ntuc=)

so near yet so far with him..

haha how i wish to spend a day with him at uss XD.
anyway, we might be able to go clubbing while he's here so yea. .
we shall see abt that.

today another offer just ended for aust trip. i hope there'll be more though.. .
mm..

me been liking and enjoying the atmosphere of ntuc.. .u know how supermarket is so lively due to the ocming up cny. so cool.
everyone so excited and all. .though im excited. ..im not that much of a ...excited .. mm... duno maybe cos nid to work and tired. .so not much feel bah. nonethels,, im more excited for steamboat baby!!!!

soyea. looking forward to that.
=)

mm.. yea. msging him now is more fun than in syd though. though still love it. but yea. the way he msges in sg is abit diff. abit more him. i lik eit more when he's in sg and the way he text me XD haha.
bleah.

just so nice to shower him with kisses when i first saw him at my lift there. those. ..no penny couldve ever bought it. cos thats kisses with feelings. =)
precious.

i wont forget it.

mm.. kk .hope eryone wil lahve a v happy lunar new year!! tmr think im going to rush for my nails..diy anyhow bah lol
tired ater work la huu .ppl go do nail me no do meep
do myself lor

mm... so yea... oh.. .i ..had a v v bad terrible nightare. worse than the last few days ago... i hate it. i dislike that dream alot. i asked tat thing a question. i wa slike.why the hell i wanna talk to it? oomgggggggggg baka me in baka dream.
anyway. sighs. i just hate this kind of dreams. been so long alrdy ne. wonder if cos im too stressed. =/


jaa mata

dream came true / best surprised ever

wow. what a start of the day..

sammy shows up at my block today!=D omg.

he was telling me to dress us etc.. .i wanted to.. but i ust woke up. ..then i was like.. what if he's teasing me again. so im not sure f he meant it or not.  ..liek u know how couples teases each other. ..then.. yea. ..i started brushin abit faster. ..and. ..still unsure if i shld get ready. just when i was abt to.. he skyped me. and yea... =) sob.

this moment that ive been waiting for, is finally here. i am so happy. happiest dady of 2015 so far. and yea happiest since. ...the past coming months aded up together.

he has limited time. .so we watched movie. ..eat.. .and talk laugh.. .im so happy. he laughs and smile so much. i lvoe tat most when he does that=))

i will believe him and trust his words next time he asked me to dress up. haha .
cos outta the blue. .so yea. .
=) i'll trust him when he said tht next time . haha. though the day i lost my phone he msg  fly down hug me .how i wish he rrly appear right there n then XD

and he's so swt.
he bought me a dress. but tats not the best part. to me, its the fact that even though he's rushing for time, yet he persuades em to try on the dresses, and massage me while queing. ..and even waited outside of changing room for me11 only him a guy in the store. usually in the past he would be so shy and just stay outta the store.

and yea. im so grateful and happy he actually dd that fo rme .=))
tats so special to me and it meant so much .tat efort and thought, i love it.

i was so nervous and duno what to wear can u beleive it??! lol. althese times i want him to see what i can wear with i go out. .etc. then when its here. i panaicked. cos nid to rush out .i kept him waiting long . huuu.... .so hurrily picked up skirt and top. alamak.
yea. ..tot wanna dress.. .but scared overdressed later he'l lsay i overdress...haha.
anyway. he ended up disliek ht etop haha .i like that he's being frank with me. though. instead of hiding it. othat one of the thing i liek abt him. frankness. =)

so yea. when panicked and shocked,, od not just grabbed something to wear lol

the book says..

when women think s shes giving him care and love byh concerning and askin ghim questions. ..
but they dislike.

then if guys.. .thin ktaht by ignoring her to give her space is what she need, and also to say. ..oh its just a small prob. no big deal;..
but women dislike actually.

cos men does that to his own guy frens. buddies. they din know its didff for women.

same goes for women. women shows love and care by asking wfemale frens questions.. .tryign to help them. but.. .actually. .men dislike it.. =/

so yea. ..

without proper understandings ..no wonder many couples wants a divource

and when men thoguth they had given the enough lov eassurance or fulfilled it to women, they thought nvr do they nid to do it again. but. ..women nids it every now and then. not just once. to feel love by them

this book is gd. my fren said she read it too .its gd.

i was kinda afraid to believe he's rrly here to visit me...at my place for fear of disappointment..              not that i don trust him (he said it in a joking way) .. .but yea. i was so nervous. .and when i see him, my wolrd is all light up again. and i didnt have to wait till april =)
advance see him haha .
this trip with him is our first ba. to other places.. .and yea. its gonan be interesting. and. .im gonna trust hi with all the infos and stuffs.
he's good at those=)

glad today i didnt order the pasta at peppers lunch haha. i was abt to. then he's lie. pasta??? doubtful sound. haha . i rememebr his words in syd. .he knows whats gd in restaurants..etc. so i trusted him .i ordered the non pasta. and i lov eit. omg so gd the salmon!

thigns liek that makes me happy by trusting him correctly. and yea. gosh . im jsut the happiest girl in the world now. tmr at ork i will be extra happy too i bet=))

anyway.

today is such a memorable happy day

and guess what. my weird dream sorta came true. omg O.O weird ehhh

abt him telling me he's here long ago.. etc. but. .thank goodness.. .he didnt leave this weekend or sumtin .phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

tats a relif. if not i'll be liek in the dream v sad.

kk. gtg

hoepfully i can meet up with him soon.

wish us luck

gdnight

jaa mata=))

home and frustrated

sianz

once reach home getting all frustrated. maybe im too tired ...and worned out. its liek after a weke's long of break, everything back to square one.

i gotta chill man.. .=/ i hate myself like this. why angry so easily.

im not doing this right eh.
for one im not exercising.
i din slp normal ppls time
i bath late
and worst i had my one meal very late in one day
worst if im in night shift.
tday i had my first meal at 617pm
thats my breakfast lunch and dinner. though before i start i hurrily gluped down 3 old chang kee gyoza.

yea i know. its so difficutt for me to change my lifestyle though ive been wanting to badly =/

i dunno how

arghhhhhh forget it.

=/

somemore eve day also cant go back earlier to have reunion dinner. haiz.

all for money huh .

i wonder if HB also liek this anot. ..


i dunno....

haiz

a pity though .today saw valentines day promo. but min nid 2 ppl to go . haiz. nvm.. .see next promo how ba . wish me luck

thankfully sammy cheer me up right away.. if ot maybe me still upset ba..
jaa mata