same old day

sighs.. rrly cant bear to watch. tis youtuber the one with swt honeymoon remember?
yea.. posted her wedding vlog. she herself say cant stop crying everytime she watch it.
so i refrained from watching it too. this kind of love dovey swt weddign touching video will jno doubt make me cry=(
though its a happy things for them, but yea. .will make me feel so touch till wanna cry huu.
o well=/
but i bet its a v v v touching and gorgeous wedding they had. not to mention their honeymoon too
=)

soooo slpy and tired .mrg was like. .bang bang bang.. tidy tidy.. so early. .din rest well at all. not tnough time to slp n rest=/
o well
doubt tmr also

haiz. o ya. so finally he reply me.
dunno ba. he's busy packing n getting ready. ..theres time for online but none for..
o well.
nvm ba
just need to get more used to it


kept forgetting something i wanna blog long ago.
oh man.. .
haiyo memory sucks

mm....
nothing much exciting to blog=/
no fun
same old day
not the life i want

mata

down days sometimes =/

sammy.. so busy nowadays cos of his sports...

he couldnt even msg me... 

but i understand.. maybe he'spacking.. or.. jsut trying to res.t.concentrate or stuff eh.. 

even when i finally try to msg him. .he also nvr reply.. took me alot of affort to do that though.. cos... yea.. i rrly don wanna dis his concentration before his bgi sports evemt

so yea. when he din reply.. i rrly wondered if i dis him.. feel so bad=/ .. 

..haiz... 

but yea. .hope everything will go well for him

though he online fb.. nvr msg me. .sad.. but.. maybe cos of his sports thing ba.. so he nid to online

sad indeed iam.. but. .i understand. .sometiems.. thigns need to come before me for sure........ 

heart still.. u know sad and down today.. i didnt even fele liek talking to anyone. 

but i forced myfel to. smile n tlak. 

but i..... =/ 

i drank the relax hing themoment i woke up.. it was ok. .tehn osmething snapped. my stuff went missing. and i have to buy anjother one. and... yea. psedn money,,, and.... i was totally awake . the med effect snapped.. (the relax drink) ... and yea.. was so sad... 

and v v v bad mood.. i didnt even feel like talking=/ 

..fele bad for my mum... sighs

cos i was out with her. i wanted to be alone.. but i cant bear to u kiow.. leave her at hom.e.. 

he nvr go out unless somebody brings her

anyway.. when he didnt take not eofme.. u knw. human nature.. will think of rgm comments... 

.. but yea.. 

just tink only.. i shoudlnt think so much eh?

he's jsut busy preparing for his sports eh... 

sighs

butyea. hoepfully good news will coem from his side nonetheless

sighs

thought of talking about singers.. from x factor..

nvm ba

haiz

ohh... wnana mentione this woman.. so great.. she does her signin in subway..akwa mrt... but.. 

yea... 

she didnt remarried ever since her husnabad dies.. omg... ..

wow

i dunno her story behind though.. but.. aw

still awome.. abpity she din ge t thought the top 10- =(

haiz

anyway.. miss him. but........

sighs.. 

i dunno... what sammy is busy about

i wonde rif he will misse me as i id to him

too busy.. till he  coulstn even reply me a signle msg eh... 

i wonder why. how..and.. yea..why...

o well

sighs

anyway, my days not been gd

i'd msg him.. .but he din reply... so wanna msg hi again.. but... figuered that ..perhpas not a too gd idea huh. what if he  need to slp.. or talk to his tennis mates huh..(thats why he online fb).. ... yea.. better leave him be... he'll be better without em ba... 

sighs

though he din reply.. bu rrly wish he''' ll get a great result fro it

wish me luck mata

ouch!

shoooottttttttt u know that moment.. when u wonder why ur finger. .or whichever area suddenly get so irritated.. itchy... and u scratch n scratch... next thing u know, theres blood=.= yea. thats whazt i did. its a smal lcut. but stil lhurts badly k. its healing alrdy, not tat deep ba. then now, omg. i've pry my wound open!!!!! hellll noooooooooooo
tch
=.= crap. dig n dig till.. argh
rrly... argh....
feel safer now to have it all wrapped up. thought its fine. . thats why ttook out plaster.. huu
dang
so ncie. a csutomer gfave me plaster today. =)
so touched. rrly such a nice warm feeling. like.. wow. somebody cares.

so slpy now. late liao. felt gd to slp early last night .ok. not that early, but it is to me
had a nice long slp.. rrly didnt wanna wakey
was wondering if thats beause of the drink i took. the day time relax thing.
but yea. it felt gd
.i get less stress after drinking it.. i was relazed.. not totally. but definitely better. maybe its drowsy formula sned me ot deep lalaland
butyea. was tempted to drink again tonight cos wasnt feeling too happy =/
but.. haiz. not cheap .yea. .rather not drink it ba. unless like yd stress and sad till liek what
=/

haiz

kk. gonna hit the sack in abit
so slpy.
tired too. colleagues can tell that im tired too
sighs=/

very ..emtionally draining on the shop floor sometiems

honestly. .i wonder how to continue working everdya the same.. =/ now that theresno new advemture to look forward to... no new type of customers.. etc
will everything be the same still.. till i continue slog on for years, gosh. i cant imagine

haiz

mata

dream so far

sighs.. so.. as expected.. need alot of money to u know.. so sad... very sad =(
but what to do.
stil lthere's a chance ba.. but.. its gonna take a long time..
sighs. .now i cant go anywhere ofr holiday
o wle.. what to do =/
sighs. .so sad
its gonna take a very long time to save up =/
and i wont be able to see him any time soon

just when i thought there's something new for me to learn or look forwward to at work, then.. .yea
cant believe imma stuck there for another 2years before i can afford a visa
i just need something new to do badly. jsut something diff. something new!!!
i dont wanna be doing the same thign everyday =(
what else is there for me to learn
what else is there for em to look forward to at work
i dunno man

sigsh
=/
i feel disheartened
very

o well.

soemtimes i feel liek just quit ba
find a job i like. less stressful. no need vie for sales everyday.. no need think who could be the mystery shopper
im just so tired ya know
i rrly dun like this kind of everyday life. very sick of it
what new fresh thing to learn.. what..
sighs. i dunno..

the thought of staying at that place even longer, makes me... cringe? sighs..
i don wanna feel like a robot anymore
sometimes its very irritating to folllow ard custoemrs . cos u nid the sales.
even customers sometimes feels irritated. what to do.
sighs
so tired..
dunno ba...

just see how as each day passes on..

shoot .i dun have hte night time relax drink... dunno if drink the day one.. .later can slp anot... ...
shall i risk it
....
so yup.just drank it

so yea. .even when i get to go, its gonna be 6montsh in syd. beter than none.
then 6 montsh in otehr state. cos i cant stay there. aussie rules ba
then 6months
if back to sg, duno still can 6montsh back to syd anot. rrly unsure.
but all these questiosn are gonna be too early alrdy. but yet stil lbetter to ask ba eh

sigsh. wonder if gm is gonna be v surprise at the length of my saving time
but im sure gm will understand ba.. right?
 duno
anyway, that nice position in city area wouldve gone to oterh ppl laio. wha tto do. i cant afford to get there on thime mah

think the drinkis working..

think imma hit the sack soon.

thsi mustvebeen a miracle drink. . ii wonder whats in it
dunno waht weird ingredients

sighs

and at work.. was serving custoems.. customers come first. .then rgm say msut stil ldo stocks .since whe i didtn do. i always do.
soetims i dunno sotkcs first or custoemrs first. sigsh.
also no need to tlak on shop floor i guess..
later tlak abt work oppl also think its chatting. no fun place to work bah.. owell

haiz. .no aust holiday meet up at gold coast with sammy liao ba.. sianzz=/

see howba.. far away future.. .


kk.. mata

another online day

stomach not gd

mm.. nothing much to do.. but great to have sammy company..

oh the other day saw this..sg mag cover. girsl generation i think. its like.. their faces, side by side. .like only their head and neck. on the cover, all of them. guess what. not surprsied,,, haha. they all look the same!!! XD i was like. .whoaaaaaaa every single face.. when u see them all so near together, side by side, its like hte same person. maybe they undergo surgery at the same place ba since its same company right.
but yea. i was like. .. haha. kinda shocked. XD
lol
i dunno how korean girls all look the same ne
mayeb cos the surgeons studied under same korean school also or something?

anyway, just a interesting fin dba haha.
only their huge fans can tell who's who.

mm.. online online. .so bored...
oh bother.

dunno why today i didnt feel too happy.
maybe too tired.
or think alot
or isit stres?
i think its stress

cant wait to slp.
cos only then will be peace and quiet

somehow i feel liek sometimes, my memory is blocking itself form certain things.
u know. thigns that... perhaps u didnt wanna remeber or face
i duno.
jsut a feeling

theres a gumdam exhibiton. im sure sammy wouldve liek it alot. a pity he's not tehre with me
well, hopefully one day ba. as long as im still alive, there'll always be chances eh

i rrly cant wait to live the life in syd. but... yea. many obstacles in front, just. .u know. .hopefully all these can be cleared one by one. .asap i hope. but some thigns jsut cant rush..
o well. .though i wish couldve been faster

sighs

yea.. gotta try to keep myself in a upbeat mood
must try

kk. time to rest.

mm.. haiz. another same day eh..

mata

first time at seoul garden

just a quick blog. gotta rush for bed

wow. first time eat seoul garden today. not liek wow.. but ok ba. not bad. though expensive. but worth it ba cos can treat my paretns

anyway, what else.

slpy liao. ytd slpt late.
mm...
lets see..

so sad. at seoul garden this mute indian guy kena reprimand by his supervisor or soemthing. whos also a mute. tru ewhat. this woman stand in the way of kitchen trying to get ice cream. he hand sign her go out, nothign wrong wat. but her mum go and tell the supervisor. then he's angry.n hand signal scolded him. so poor thing=/
sighs
this kind of rich ppl ar.. i tell u. argh! so irritating!! whose fault isit. sighs
anyway, before i keft, he kena scold again. but yea. .i feel so bad fo rhim =( i feel him man.
that feeling rrly sucks.... somemore he's u know.... a mute. .like. .haiz. .so poor thing=(
i rrly hope that mum and daughter will reflect upon themselfes and feel bad.
haiz

mm.. geez.. alot to type.. why forgot again haiyo
mm.. maybe ocs im rushing for bed ba

m.. oh pandora new releases.. i want.. ha. quite nice
o well .maybe not now?

mm... kk. cant remember lol

jaa mata

triple down day

what a long day... stocks again... gosh.

not a gd day. u know.. things happened at work.. blah3...
and half the time u didnt know whats going on behind those backs

then theres this question.. by rgm and sm..
tat i dont seme to be myself today. something isnt right with me.
etc

i couldnt answer my sm. it slike. .what?? i myself for one iddnt know what is wrong with me
i am slpy. tired. legs aching from clearing 85ctns, slpt abt 5hrs. go on, concentrate on clearing stocks.. then new vm... then yea.
do.. tats abt it.
or do i look too tired. i dunno
butyea. both sm and i think tat i looked pale today. dunnow why
oh yea. the previous sm commented i lost weight. rrly ar? well..
so,metimes there're questions wheer. .perhaps ppl think theres something deep into it, but in fact, teheres none eh. then if say nvr, maybe ppl will hink oh shes lying. shes saying shes fine.
o well

besides that. .sm talked alot..

i just wanna get this whole ppl talking thing over with, and work .just concentrate on work.
sick of humans mouths. the way they relay the msgs.. words.. the way they interpret ...
imaginations.. etc
sighs

yea. .wahtever..
jsut nid to work . be it liek a robot or not. just do it.
all for hte sake of survival

these thigns that happneed... makes me wonder who am i. or what am i. its not a v .. yea. liek i'd asaid. not a gd day

anywya, gonna slp soon

poor thing. gotta wipe off tears before stepping into the house. .and during dinner... o wlell
 waht to do

and i dunno.. somehow rgm just so worried abt me being disappointed in samm when i get there.. that guy.. he said..
at first i thought s, was sayign disappointed if i din get to go. she say defeinily will go though. i dunno la.

askde i fi'd gone down tothe embassy.. ut ive called. and hey are not gonna advie me which visa im applyingetc. tat only for agent ba
im still confused. later dunno if they'l lsay im losing interest.. or dun wanna go isit. .lose the eagerness..
hopefully not ba
cos im jsut stucked. which is the next step i dun even know.
all i knwo is i nid to know when and if they will submit the spoonderhip fo rme.
etc

o well

sighs

nvm ba
humans.. so difficult to fathom
i shld yea. .jsut shut my mouth and work.
but i dunno man .later ppl also can say.. too cold. .too quiet.. dun wanna talk etc.... then if talk. .skali ppl sa. .talk to o much. .etc
can nvr please anyone so yea.
stop it

humans.. so bloody damn irritating soemtiems!

nvm tat

so this youtuber went on a honeymoon. and  oh so swt. jsut when she thought they're headin back, her hubby surprises with another trip!!! =) wow. how cool and happy can u get???
tats aso awesome!!!
its a big deal man.
imagine sad abt leacving syd. .skali someoe say we're actuallinnot headin gback to sg. we're heading to paris!!(or somewhere)
it slike. what?? u kidding? honeymoon not over, and still get to spean more lovey time togethr? wow.
such a lovely and nice surprise ocming from her nerdy hubby. yea. he's kinda .. a nerd ithink ..specs and all.
but hey. nerd is cool ok!!
nerd is better than jerks

wow. they travelled fo r21hrs in order to rch their beautiful destination. all worth it

and see. he can be romantic too
ha

mata

sighs.. away from this bad day i hoope.