pouring out woes

hey.. haiz. been so slpy to blog

last night slpt at abt 2:45am... due to finisheid work at 12am.. then yea..
slpt till 12 plus pm next day

even now me still tired
and v slpy

just feel so depressed today =(
sighs
.. really bad
very bad

didnt know what to do..
perhasp cos .. u know. new job to deal with.. eevrything.. etx
i dunno.
jsut so stressful.. coudlnt control my tears.
so weak.. yet telling myself to be strong. .nid to.. have to..
=/

didnt know what i was doing.
or what am i supposed to do
this isnt wat i wanna do, but.. u know. life. its all abt life.
but im starting to hate this life

it was nice.. watching this video abt this gay founder of too faced cosmetic comapny
.and he answered one of the question abt what inspired him.. and it brought me to tears.
ha.
u know. he said somehtign abt.. listen to ur gut feeling. ur heart. ur light .
do it fo rurself. not becos ur frens think its right. .ur paretns think its the safe path.. .society think its great. .etc. they may not evole yet to get to .. understadn. .where ur idea is about..
u know. but evantuall ythey will .thats why u should follow ur heart
.. sumtin liek that.
which is very tru eu know.
but.
=/ o well.
one thing for sure. right now, i dont.. i sitll dont feel liek im where im supposed to belong. =/
thsi isnt what i want
i dont like it
i hate it
i jsu tdunno how to get there
its so tough

i know. life's not easy. but.. yea.
im just stucked y aknow.
or maybe im not getting enough support.
i duno
=(

sighs
tough day.
maybe stress and everythign suddenly got me all thinking..

it just sucks. .
sighs. how i wish to have that big sum of money and get away to sydney now.

theres this quote or something ..
what. ..buy a ticket. .get awya.. fall in love, and never come back. something like that.
i want. course i want .
but.
$$$$$$$
or maybe go somewhere where theres no stupid irritating complicated visa requirements eh. ha

i jus tfeel that.. i am going crazy with days liek this.
and i cant see that theres anythign to change it

sighs. ..
better stop crying
later tmr eyes swollen
=/

i hate crying.. =/

sigsh

sad day

baka..

me still sniffing alot .dang those germs

sighs

mata