missing my man

besides my frens... u know id blog before how they said they don swallow their patrnets u know what.

adn this youtuber. shes known for her ranchy .. .erm. fake big booobs.. .shes fat. ..etc. like slutty.. .i watch her cos shes still v funny nd ya. i know its like hard to explain why am i stil l watching her. lol. anyya. even she's saying. she don swallow. im like. oh rrly. my first time and everytime ive been swallowing .. i wonder... 

am i doing a wrong' thing? 

its healthy. it tasted alright and tastless for the past couple of times. which im like yay for. but... yea.. .

i duno. 

most girls wont ddo that? 

was telling sammy.. over lucnh.(cos he asked)  this angmoh guy was checking me out when i was checking in. 

my fren is the one who todlme. u know me. i on look at guys. like duh im not blind i can see them. they are angmohs. bigger bodies. etc. but i don stop n watch them. so anwyy. 

no wonder he stopped abit. i say sorry. i nvr look at him 

but then my fren tells me that he was checking me out and do thte.. erm clicked tongue sound? 

omg. im like what. =.= seriously? 

anyway not interested too bad==. 

i duno if its normal. but im jus tnot interested in gusy checking me out. it bothers me. i only love it   when he's checking me out. u know him. =) 

and i wa stellign him as well. .smamy. abt reecent met with my bestfren. adn he brought along his fren. i hate it when he does that! cos its like alwaysvr telling me beforehnd=.= !

anyway.... blah3 onwards... and at the end of night his fren and i were hitting off. and i kinda felt bad for not talking to my fren u know.. cos we were tlaking so much. 

adn anwya he suddenly shoot (btw guys.. .he is attached so ya. don think anything wrong ok .. ) 

me thsi question abt dc vs marvel .i was liek i dunno who i support . cos i watch literally everything. 

and i like them all .

i was nt too sure where they are from. 

adn he was lie .choose carefully woman. im like XD 

lol.. 

anwyay. so. ended up he like batman.. .etc balh3. i was like yea etcetc. cos im not a huge fan. and im no expert in these heroes. but i know some details. 

he didnt tell me he liek batman. he jsut say i shld wath the trailer. batman got so much money etc. i was liek .yea. h'es diff. cos hes hte only hero who is without the super power.he is just a human. and so on the conversation goes... with through the movies and cartoons..etc... 

lol. 

it was nice though chatting with ssomeone who knows what youve watched and stuffs. 

he was hten liek. you're the perfect girl! he said that twice. i wa slike... (holy crap dont ) .but i took that as a compliment. .and i was like immediately replied him that. .well everyones different... 

cos he was sayig other girls he know is watching stupid lame korean drams etc. 

so  ya. tats why for me who has watch 'men' kinda c artoons, is impressive to him i guess. 

its jsut a compliment nothign more. im sure;. 

if he's single i will feel v uncomfortabel .but he is attached so tatass why im ok to speack with him. 

i watched al lthese due to influence of my brother i guess. and yea. 

i duno. liek i'd said before. i watched and played games of not women normally does. 

cos of my bro. thats why. from games.. ff..iron man.. omg u namme it for me.. .

i love watching bro playing games. 

since young. even towards horror like silent hill... 

resident evil.. 

most women will be like.. eeww.. .omg scary.. so not cool etc. but ifind them so cool  so interesting. .so wow. 

so .. ya. alot of my interestes.. actually..got inspirede by bro... 

anyway.. .

yea. its always a huge compliemnt when a man tells u that youre the perfect girl. lol. i wouldve take that a wron way if he is single. but phew. hes not. so yea. menaing even if my frne ask me out again with this new fren i will be fine. 

i duno. what ur define of a perfect girl ?

girl who watches guys stufss? adn don go gargar over korean dramas etc? 

im  so glad im not that kind of girl though. 

not becs i wnann be perfect' ..etc. but just i like to be diff. 

like. i don wanna go gaga over lee min ho.. over.. .what.. big bang> ? orean gay looking group. etc. 

omg. they are so disgusting lookign with the hairs..bodie...eyeliners... argh. eat mroe !

voice sucsk. dancing alright. 

but yea. i duno why women going gagas over them .

seriously though. whyyyyyyyyyyyy

im a woman. i can be girly to mature to firm. v firm with my team. im fierce as well. 

but im mostly girly into a surrender mode when im with himXD omg why... lol

anwyay.. 

whatever. i just don wnana be define as a normal typical woman. 

like. i look at the womens with angmohs in heels..etc...lauhging away.. .im like. ..... are u so desperrate into angmohs> 

?
=.= argh shrughs

this book im reading now.. jsut statted only.. he

s 35 when he got retired baby!!!! say watttttttttttttttttttttt

he says whenevr ppl was lie talkign everybody has a mentor in their lives. he sliek yea. but he dont. then hewas like tlaking.. ..actually he realized he does. and thats his wife! awwwww

so yea. 15mins into his retirement. .he

s bored and wonder. why. why he's so suc ceessful. he wanna now shares the tips. to ppl .how he achieved all these. 

so yea. omg. he started from scratch... from owning his computer souftward company.. 9(though his comp) ...etc.. .till he sold his company. .etc.. .

tats why hes able to retire... etc. 

yes. u can do it. anyone can. gdluck=) 

tips :81 ask her how is she feeling 

82 if she has been sick in some way, ask for an update and ask how she is feeling or doing

83 if she is tired offer to make her some tea

84 get ready to go to slp together and get in bed at the same time

85 give her a kiss and goodbye when you leave

85. he spot on. sammy did that. sat mrg. fri night we slpt so late..at 530am after clubbing. 

he nid to get out and get his car. i was like.. aww..he's dressing up n leaving. .then he looked at me  and natural reaction i pout adn kisses me . before he left. like a peck on my lips. its as though the eye contacnt though. befoure i pout our eyes met adn he is alrdy coming towards me. that one sec only. so  ya. im so happy he did. 

and slp together in bed same time? omg. yea.... im loving that with him .full on pointssss

i rrly love that. 

so ya.. missing him lots still.. .haizz..

oh ya  thres this bbras thingy he was saying. .cheat. lol. its like . f  threres notin gto cheat i couldnt even cheat
 XD

anywya. its lik.e   i do . i only buy bras due to its desigsn. end of story .
i will take out the boot' if its takable.
and yea.

the insominia.. .she was like.. oh ono padding u don nid big sie. ...im like.. ok...=/ then i tried.. and i tel her.. .its too smal=.=

hey small built asian girls .and when short. doesnt mean u hav small ubst! so ya, i ask her to change a bigger sizr for me.
cos ven though im wearing a tshirt doesnt mena they can tell what size i am .

so ya. 

ja amata

another blog from syd im so proud of =))

i duno how. i duno why. my bro. he lightly touches me, like poke me, literally poke me v v v lightly.. and i get bruised days after.

i found this out ater coupl eof times i was like. hey when did i get this bruise? then i realized its my bro. =.=
then he will jokingly not liek previous times he rrly pressed harder. ..now he jokingly press/poke my thigh. and i still get bruise =.= ...im like. wat....
how the hell..

i rrly3 like the plasters sammy got me. i shoudlve bought it before i left. =/ it was that gd. best ive ever used.
must note that down in my july list.
though.. .its so difficult now. cos.. .the dates he might be free, alrdy been booked by my colleagues. so ya.. .see how it goes by.

so.... i was watching this youtuber.. she got married last yr.
her bf proposed to her on a hotair balloon. hha. nawwww

anwyay. they were togeether since 15yrs old. they've been together for 13 yrs .

she was giving tips on realtionships.

she said (between them as couples imprt tips)

trust

frenship

effort

effort and trust equally important u cant do without one and the other

respect
dont treat them jsut as gf/bf. treat them as someone special (as a special person)

make time. movie . date night.
twice a week. same place. second other day

effort is when u make time.

omg. when she said that. im like. on point. EFFORT IS WHEN U MAKE TIME. =)

even if u dont wanna watch the movie that ur partner is watching, just watch it anyway as u know your partner wanna watch.
she say most of the time she rrly hate hte movies his husband is watching. yet. she still watch it with him.
i totally agreed with that. if sammy wanna watch a movie im not interested in, i will still watch it. oh ya. liek the instellar. i liek space. i wasnt sure whats that. but i fell aslp . becos im so tired slpy n he is so omg comfy.
i wont fall aslp cos movie is bboring. unless im freaking tired.
even the hero 6. its so nice yet i think i fell aslp for abit. thank god not a long time.
so ya. as long as he is happy. i will be glad to watch with him at all times=)

do you still do the things you used to do when you first got together?
put in effort

be realistic.

watched too many movies? abt sex, abt proposals, abt surprises? DDONT be fool  by movies, dramas, porns,  etc....

valentines day.. dont expect to have a new cat/ chocolates/ flowers and teddy.. .
the higher expectations...the mmore youll get disappointed by ur partner

dont set any. no expectations.
expect nothing.

and do not compare. between other couples n other celebrities.
dno say... oh u see this couple of my fren.. he did so n so for her.. she did so n so for him.. etc etc.
do not ever ask. ''how come you nvr do that??''
omg i can imagine. that will hurt so badly=(
it will only make ur partner feel shitty =/

she got heaps of compliments from her fans and frens saying oh how perfect u two are as a couple eetc... (before htey got married)

she said. again. u duno what happens behind close doors.
many times they were rpping ea ch others hair off.
adn there were many times where they nearly breakup for good.

omg

so shock right. but hey thats a normal couple.
every couples bickers. gets mad. etc etc.

like at the bar. sammy askded me orde rdrinks. this man took me over. and i have no experience at ordering drihnks frmo club whrer its dark nosiy n iduno u hav to shout across or get their attention especially when im short et.

i was trying to be polite n queue. and that man. o well. ..then sammy quesiton me . .then ya. i know he was just asking. .but i .. got a lil upset cso he asked me twice.
then he ended up thinking im angry. i told him im not. i rrly am not. just abit rustrateed. but not angry. then ... i think he felt angry> ? id uno .cos after getting dinks. .he walked away simply to his frens leaving me behind his trails............
=/

have i shouted too loud due to music ? then he tot ima angry with him>?  i duno...
anwyay.. its over. and .. .ya. .
i love hugging him behind his back when he's brushing. and i still love the fact that he still transfers his halfchewed bubbleteaballs into my lips whenever he kisses me(whislt drinking it) .. .
lil things liek that im so grateful and lucky for.

today as usual. im missing him soso mcuh. you wouldntve understand.
he's working. .and he said he was having dinner.. .now 2hrs plusplus passed he still ahsnt msg me.. .but. ..yea im guesssing he ko in bed.. .i understand though. .rrliy wisehs for him to get mroe rest n replenish his energy

though last sat i was kinda wishing to go to his fren's bday party to meet his other frens. but i udnerstna we are both tired. and  he's worried abt his frens abt . .erm.. well.. .jsut. ... not the kinda of frens htey are as his other 2 frens he shown me.. .if that make sense. he was telling htem they are not liek them.. and yeaa h e don rrly wan them to meet me. .so ya but i know he is trying tobprotect me. :).. .

anyway...

im still missing him so mcuh. ,and yea..it sure aint feel gd.
my heart.

for a man, i think maybe with his hectic lifestyle. he might be able to take it better> ?

but fo rme... .im taking it quite hard i think.
and my heart still trying to get over the fact that im in sg now.. .

2015.. i can say for sure. highlight of the yr. in syd. with him. though only few days. though i see him slping all the time.. .yet. every secs counts. every secs is so precious to me. i held onto it so ever tightly n preciously (new word again)

i cant wait to be on the dance floor.
soemtimes u jsut nid to release the wild cat lol .
safe that its=.= with trusted ppl.

though i couldnt dance with hjim liek i wanted to... but ya.
i get to drink withhjim and all. .so yay.

i wwas... oh ya tot of this. i was walking towards him in club at my first toilet trip. i walked out.. and i was looking ard a sec and i saw sammy.iw as smiling n walking towards him. then from cronder of my eyes i saw this angmoh man like literally smiling a tme almost moving towards me. liek for a se he moved his body. thank god i alrdy found sammy.
O.O

i rrly had a fun ngiht with them. so what f music sucks. i stil  rrly enjoeyed that sat. that sat of my lift of 2015.

still im praying his frens not hating me. .. cos i thnki might hav a phobbia alrdy.

my frens asking me why u know who disliek me. cos they all like me so mcuh . and my   aunties customers liek me also and wnna intro me to their sons etc. =.=
so ya ... i ahv a phobia now.. .kinda. not a phobis that serious.. but just worried.. .wil lthey disliek me cos i tlak lil .cos im so shy . .not liek western country so open etc...


haiz. se ehow ba.. mahybe i shld ask sammy.. he jut replied my msg

im just not that gd with warming up to ppl i just met bah..

liek id said. i can totallyy do fine with new team emmebrs etc. and
if im one on one with stranger.
with groups.. that might not be my forte.. but wiwth one on one. i cna definitely tlak more.

like when im with his fren gf in hotel .
i asked her abt sg and countried she visit. i ask her to lower the aircon cos it might get hot cps it was freezing tha time and i on it and she said yea its fine. (though sammy questones me twice like i nvr tell her..and im to blame.=(  ) ...abt roaches be  careful..

with his f rne rob he asked abt sammy and me.. i coudl tlak more but cos music is loud and sammy is getting drfinks. .i duno kinda afraid when he's back will he think why ami chatting up with his fren so much. i know dilly right but still i worreid. lol

and his chubby fren the funny guy. todl me abt how he dislike xlub getitng into quuee and drinks cos etcetc.and i was ike. on point. i totlaly udnerstand and i 100% agreed. haha.

oly wish i have more time to talk to them and get ot know them .



jaa mata.

wish me luck peeps

loving this blog. power. look back and appreciate your love now.

yes. i shoudl rrly try to control myself from watching horror movies. not helping when insidious 3 is coming soon. and god knows if its coincidence or what... i watched the trailer last night .and.. .i had nightmare last night .twice at that. continous  someomre= (

sammy wouldve said it. .i tod u so'' .

it was a rather horrible one. im trying not to reall it. but i rememebr that it was rather real? i duno.. .and... its abit like nightmare before xmas boogie man.. .meaner one. .and i woke up. frightended.. .soon i fell aslp and i dreamt the same dream again. something like tat. i just r ecalled this.

sammy suddenly skype . i was rrlhy surprised and yet v  v happy. anad excited. but he couldnt talk much due to his location. and i was trying to think of what to tlak abt.. and. .yea. haha. =) then phone cut off. cant reach him etc.. .then y.ahrs later he's back in msg.

and so... i think im guilty of.. u know how. ppl  took for granted. of lil thigns ur partner done for u. no matter how hard u try to appreciate every single lil thng.

still. no one is perfect.

and.. .i was watching this bf tag video. from this youtuber. and. i was so blown away. like how. swt they are. and how he kisses her on her cheeks(not on lips cos she had lipstick on) multiple times. i was like aww... so swt.and so touching. iw as like. how come this  looks familiar to me.. .

then it dawns on me that. last week. more of i recalled on the clubbing friday night. sammy he kisses me on my cheeks couplel of itmes i think.

and ruffles my hair too .couple of times.

instead of thinking.. don kiss my blusher off my face or don make my hair a mess..
i shld be rrly grateful of the fact that. he's willing to do that for me.

this is a great example of .. .how even though i rrly do myst best each time. ..to make him happy. .to be the best i can for him.. to appreciate him.. there will bound to have times when. u know. humans aint perfect.

 and im so so ggrateful to've watched that vidoe. cos. that reminded me of how lucky i am. though im so touched and into tears somrmeo haha. ..by watching their lovey dovey actions.. .

im so happy that i had a bf who actually does that kissy on my face too.
if theres a video videoing us, i wouldve gone awww too.

and ya.

i just sent him a msg as well.
telling him how i appreciate the lil thigns he done.

u know. who  cares. i don c are. if he messes up my hair or rub off my makeup. or wwatever. hes my bf and he c an do watever he wants=)

and . im a lucky girl to deserve his love of actions.

im rrly happy when especially he holds my hand and hug me and rest on the bed in forn tof his frens.
that to me, is rrly... yea. a great feeling.
for a man who aint afraid to show his love and affection for his woman in front of his mates.. .is well worth a praise.

that to me alone, is a mega plus points.

so ya.

agina. im so thankful to watch that vidoe just now. and im so thankful that countless of times the way he loo atm em stare at me and smiles at me.. ruffles my hair. touches my cheek with his hand... etcetc.. .

im so grateful for all those. and yea. i rrly2 appreciate the lil thigns he done fo rme.

and im missing all that right now=(( sobx

so yea.

think back now.

and look at how you mightve missed out o loving the lil thgins which your partner had done for/to u

appreciate those lil moments in life.
cos ppl are pining for it. and they may nvr get it in life no matter how rich they are. how much money they have in their bank.

no amount of money can buy u true ove true feelings true affections. .

so yea.

be v grateful.. treazsure and cherish the moennts  u are having with ur partner now.

and dont...ever let them go. .

u wouldnt wan them to show these affections to somebody else now would u...

just watched another vidoe. yea i just edited this. again.

this youtuber spend 7 hrs time at this workshop creating this new wallet for her husband.
there are times like this i wishes i could done for him. lil htngs. big things.. but. .due to family restriction.. i cant send him anything etc.. .and so yea...

its so touchign to watch that . cos. i wouldve done the same. and i understand why she did that.
she was saying her husband was questinong her.. .where is she going.. why so long out... lol. omg. is he suspecting her?? haha.

anyway yea....  things that we don get to do often...will onlhy make us treasure.

3am now... gosh. ...wish he's here. .and why am i still watching youtube lol

jaa mata

no tips tonight. tired.

gomen

syd trip again

i rrly nid to get this off my chest right now.

sighs. back to my homeland now... so surreal. its always like that. 1 week passed by so fast =(

my heart in so much pain,
=(
cant control my tears. even now my heart still aches.

espe cially when i think of his warmth and smiles.. .=/
i miss evrything abt him so much.

no matter how many times ive been though this. i still cant stop crying.  eevry yr i tot ok maybe this time at depature gate i wont cry. but still i did.
i hate airport. i hate the depature gate back. no matter how many things ive gone though that door, i seriously still hate it. it malkes me v v sad =(
ut i dun understand why sammy say i talk like a lil girl. O.o
but seriously. i hat that gate. if theres a choice i wish i will nvr haveto face it again. my heart breaks whenever i need to go through that gate phase again. =( sobx.

i hurried walk off towards the slope through the gate. as much as i would love to look at him longer. i resisted. cos if i dont hurry, my tears will be pouring out like a fountain.
i took a quick glance at him and turned my head back . for i know. more secs i look at him, the sadder i will be,

movie nights in hotel is always the best with him. though i always ended up falling aslp =.= cos its so comfy with him.. and ya.

anywyay. last night we watched this longgggg movie. and i fell aslp. i nid to wiki it later on and find out what happen. but sammy say its gd ending,

u know how lil things can make me v happy n grateful right.
so last night we were uddling and watching movie, our hands underneath the pillow.
our fingers locked onto each other tightly and v long. at one point i think i went toilet.
then when i got back, my fingers slide through underneath the pillow searching for his.
and his fingers 'caught' mine quickly =). we hold on tight...
and yea. guess thats how comfy tat was till i fell aslp evantually.

i will blog more maybe tmr or so onwards.

this time round i din cry as badly .as in the last few days there.
cos usually by final 3rd/2nd last day. and last day.. i will be super sad and cant control my tears. even on the way to airport.
but this time . i only cried the most when saying gdbye to sammy.

could be due to the pill im taking . the one that regulate my hormones /period
and also due to on the way to airport, i was rrly sick. quiet .. and just feeling so sick. due to the not so fresh fruits that i ate in the mrg.

so ya. i wasnt rrly in the mood. all im feeling was wanna throuw up. and wanna poo.
cos tummy v pain

so ya. guess that also helps to take away the attention of remembering my last few moments in syd.
ya i feel so upset whenevr its like. oh its the last day left. last night here. last few hrs left with him. etc.

its just a v v sulky feeling bah =/
i just hate saying gdbyes.

so far. its been pretty awesome though. feb i met him.
april i met him again .
though not long. but better than none.
and i treasure thsoe moments

at the syd airport this angmoh security was checking my luggage,
while scanning he asks questions why am i here. hows my trip etc.
i was telling him i visit my bf. he was like. so funny. he said something abt how he don get like how does ldr works? once  ayear?! isit worth it.
haha. v funny. but frenly la. their security check quite mafan also. so ya. anyway.

im so tired and slpy now. i feel like my throat is getting abit weird. hopefully i wont get sick.

i feel like sometimes im missing out on alot of things tats happening in his life.
and i wanna know all abt them .
u know. bubt. especially for men bah. its not liek all of them will rrly talk alot abt stuffs. i guess. cos i duno. women talks more. like going into details? but from what i know men .. u know. men.
but luckily sammy said before that he don mind me talking.
cos sometimes i wonder if i talk too much. or jsut talk too much abt boring stuffs ya know.

ahh tummyache again .

kk. shall blog real soon.

gosh i think i look rrly terrible lor. i slpt v v few lil hrs. and ya. gosh.
i didnt put on makeup when i board the plane. but i liek my bareskin face. fresh. and ya. im confident with them. XD lol .

anyway. kk i gtg.

jaa mata.

still so much i wanted to share. so ya. will do it soon!

tips 76 when she prepares a meal, compliment her cooking

77 when listening to her talk, use eye contact

78 touch her with your hand sometimes when u talk to her

79 show interest in what she does during the day , in the book she reads, and the ppl she relates to

80 when listening to her, reassure her that you are interested by making lil noises like ah ha, uh huh, oh, mmhuh, and hmmmm

yesssss. all these tips. v gd! yet again =)

sammy basically does 77-80.
but sometimes he's too focus on his phone . so he wont make eye contact. and he wont touch . ya.
but its ok . at least he passed =)

hehe jaa mata again

syd first blog nights out with group :)

In syd now. So sad tmr is my last night here:/

Im gonna miss him so much.

Last night finally get to meet his uni frens and go club with him. But .. well the club music sucks. So ya... however im v thankful i get to spend the night with him n his frens. One of his fren is v funnybthe other is like smart and stable kinda guy.

While sammy was ordering drinks atvthe club his s fren ask me me. Isit tough or hard when sammy isnt around. I was surprised cos nobody ever ask me that before. not even my frens  . But ofc  immediately i know whats my answer.   he then ask me do we skype often or everyday. I say no.he say mdg?i say ya.

Im shy la when it comes to meeting new ppl other than new team member .if nee team member i know wat to talk abt work wat to chat etc cos its like one on one.
But ya... hopefully his frens find me ok.
I din talk much cos im so shy. But i find tat one on one i can openbup more. Like i talk to his fren gf when we are alone. And literally ivtalk more than she talks to me.

But anyway having said tat. I feel happy n lucky .
Abd to be able to know more abt his life and frens.. and whats so happenibgvthingy he nvrv ell me before.. ya. Im always happy to find out more abtbhim.

But..rrly so wanted to dance though.. apity the music nit myvtype..couldnt get me going. And not high enuff from drinks lol.

Anyway its a nice night. So ya :)
Abd im glad he let me meet his frens i rrly do. .

Though even if a night spend woth him again wth movie lappy in bed together aint a bad idea either. Love it

He must be so tired n slpy now.
Cos we slpt atv530am.
His frens left late .

Oh and it was swt n nice when his fren was talking abt parents age gap. And he was saying '..well my future wife here..' whilst pointing to his gf nextvto him whos slping. Like in front of frens,tats a frly rrly nice thing to say!haha.

Theres a moment when i had a dejavu ...flashback. it was when his fren talking halfway n snap2 his fingers i was like. Omg. Its like deja vu in dream or sumtin. So hard to explain the feelin. Its like i dreamt before. Sammy next to me  his chubby fren sitting there etc... i was like..quite stunned.

Sonya tats my last night.

Though sammy was v engrossed with his frenz n i did felt left out.. but ya wat to do. Im too shy bah.
But its nice his frens talks to me too. Eh no. Its rob only who started . I think his human relationships is v gd.

Sammy tells mebtat ladies there will ask for free drinks after whichbthey will walk away. His fren bought this lady a drink. And it happened.
Im like.. mm.. wow . If its sammy. I don think i will be happy to know my bf rrly buy a drink for a strange(r) lady. But watvto do. Its their chiices.

Rainibg again.. haiz

I rrly like this hotel locations and the hot air condition. But omg. I shouldve complain earlier abt roaches!! Why didnt ibthink ofbtat earlier till his fren mention! Anyway better late than nvr bah:/
But ya suffered for 5nights liao. Sianz

As always.. today went into libgerie store . Always china staffs there.
Im always thinkjbg.. how i wis i canbtake their place. Like how did thevget theere in the first place... etc. How i wish i could work and just stay here ya know..:/
O well...

Ytd weather was so nice n perfect. Only mrg still abit hot.
Autumn is nice withoutvrain! My skin so smooth . My face felt so smooth n nice..n ya. Wow.

T0day sammys fren bday party. Part of me kinda wish he wll bring me and meet more of his frens.. Part of me wishes he will not go n rest instead.

Haha. Sammy as me bring 3 dresses. In the end i still haven wear themxD cos raining. N clubbing night im alrdy wearing another outfit.

Next time bah.

Gosh i think im getting fat from those instant noodles intake:(( huu.

At first i was kinda frustrated wothbthe techno in club. Then sammy so nic.e  say most omprt is the company  im with. Ad ya im so touched:)
He reminded me tat. Awws. Hehe

I went out with him waiting for lift.. he kept looking at me im so shy n blushing atvthe same time i love it when hes looking at me... i duno and i might think i know wats he s thinking..butbya..
Which girl wouldnt love the wayvur man look at u.evenbifbyoure shy and says no.

Imma miss everythign abtbhim..

Im certainly not lookjbg my best i think. Cos im on med for my period. . Bound to be bloated. Not helping with instant noodles..
Im trying to rest moe buut jetlag.. o well

My longime fren facing dame thing as me...

See she will go audt to study 2 yrs.
Her frens telling her end now. Better pain now then later.
She broke up with her longtime beau.jerk beau!! Anywa . She found someone better  . And ya . I was telling her. P wiill say tat cos they duno. Scared u getbhurt. Etc.
But.. truth is. Only u urself know the best.when u love tat one perosn throuugh billions n billions of humans in this world..how can u let go so easily.
Somemroe they cant rrly visit. Cos he will be in ns. Maybe not even msg much.

But ivtell her. Its only 2 yrs. Time will pass. Its gd hes in ns. Meaninh he wont anyhow meet new girls right. Not high chance tat is.

Furthrmore. My start time of ldr... is the worst cos watsapp sucksssssssss

U tot ur partber received msg but no he didnt etc. In fact ya watsapp sucks tat frwyrs back

Abd im totaly grateful tat its gotten better. Without watsapp. I dunno..how

Sam asked me to shownhim watv i bought at brasnthings.

Im happy. Cos ..to me he cares. Kkdna like..lil thibgs tat coubts for women likeme:)

So yea.i showed him. Cos its my passion. My passions for lingeries.and..for himbto ask what id bought..i feel happy:)last yr he didbtat too.with insominia lingeire tat is.

Oh ya. I resisted honey birdette. Cos... im v sure they will askme to spend 400:/

I like playboy the most. Indominia its becos it gives heaps of oopmhd tobur natural beauty pilloes.
Honey b quality is superb. But. I fin feel as fitting as the others.
Anyway i try to convunce myself ifbtat fact so i wont spend at hb.
Haha.

O well




Jaa mata

bye sg!

huuu im sick. shouldve gone to see a doctor sooner=((
dang it.

anyway. kinda worried i my med will get confiscated anot... =/ so ya.. see how ba when i declared it. so nervous. like .. thinking of finding transportation alone..

and.... theres rain=.=
haiz. o well. nvm lor. just walk in the rain.
shop2 and walk2 in the rain. ha. i rrly nid to learn how to take train. though the train area.. abit uncomfortable ne. like got ppl asking for money fromsammy yrs back

see how bah. duno wanna buy opal card anot.

rrly hope the rain is not too heavy. even if it is... mm.. hoepfully its easy to walk and get ard bah.
i dun wanna get stuced in hotel and do nothing just wait for rain to stop. next thing u know, stop alrdy, and shops all closed=.=
oh pls may this trip be a gd and lucky one. wanna rain, pls rain after shops close.

this rrly is a sick week haiz. tot wanted to take this chance go for a run and all.. u know. keep fit abit and get ready to feel gd look gd for my holiday.
but ended up sick. din do anythig . as in didnt get to run and all =/ so yea.
o well. .

mm.. excited to be back in australia.
but if only its not raining period T_T
o well.

and so tired too. last 2 days not been slping long enough. 3 hrs and 5hrs. dreamt of work somemore.. omg.
zzz now v tired. bought this relaxing drink to aid inmy slpin glater on the plane. cos most of the times, i only slpt for like 2hrs more or less then auto wakey. on n off bah. hopefully no baby on board. meep.

tips: 71 offer to carry the groceries.

72 offer to carry the heavy boxes for her

73 on trips, handle the luggage and be responsible for packing it in the car

74 if she washes the dishes, or it is her turn, offer to help scrub poots or other difficult tasks

75 make a 'to fix' list and leave it in the kitchen. when u have extra time do somehting on that list for her. dont let it get too long

sammy will be working though this week.. don wan him to get too tired. hope he'll enjoy htis week with me as much as i do . ha. its liek i myself alrdy tired liao. slpt so lil then auto wakey brain cant stop thinking alrdy =.=

mm... am thinking first day... wanna go sephora first thing . see hows the rain first bah. cos i will most probably spend houors at sephora . if sammy is with me, its gonna bored him ouot i think. later i paiseh make him wait so long.

kk wish me luck on this trip!


jaa mata ne

somehow im still praying for a sunny weather. ...

decision.. .how....

tips :

66 help with recycling the trash

67 read out loud or cut out setions of the newspaper that would interest her

68 write out neatly any phone messages you may take for her

69 keep the bathroom floor dry and clean after taking a shower

70  open the door for her

not feeling well today =((

rrly hope i'll get well soon enough.

mm.. im still wondering what should i bring to syd.
like. .do ppl wear shorts in autumn?
shoudl i bring my long green coat. . i was thinking.. perhaps i shouldnt...

i duno. mm... first time autumn there.. .so wasnt sure how cold or u know can it get. can i wear just a short. and t shirt?
no right.

anyway.

will try to figure that out.

dang. if i know its nto that cold i wouldntve brought my coat to dry clean and spoiled my buckle..adn in the end im not bringing it along== dang it.

argh

cannt thinki of what happen. i think there is.. but im not too sure. i forgot.

sorry its sjust a boring post.

been rrly loving this china restaurant near my block. omg. the mala woo hoo.

mm.. so many malls i wanna check out in syd. gonna be tired. but will try to rest while i can bah.

nid to check off shopping list.
and.. sephora... o.m.g.
yessssssss


might go on my first day. shall see how.


and.. .still deciding how.. .to take train.. or not to take. arghhh so frustrating =(

mata

RIP teacher in nsw australia

no tips tonight.. but jsut a quick blog...

just found out. .this woman.. only 26yrs old .. been murdered by school cleaner. shes a teacher. her body... been found. .day before her wedding... her fiance. .was devastaed =/
its.. .suc a sad new.s.sighs. ..i.. .cant describe my feelings.. .her bidy... burnt.. .and hiddden at national park of nsw australia...

it reminded me of the case i will nvr forget of the irish woman.. .who got murdered and raped.. she souldve so took the ride even if it means 5mins walk to her home only .

anyway thats another story... im rrly curious what happen to that murdered..of that irish woman. last time i read hte news.. he appealed.

but. .eltss jump back ... so... yea. .v sad... sighs. like. .how can u murder such a nice teacher. i think hes definitely sick!!

somemore her body found beofre wedding.

at first when his fiance report, family memers thought he's having cold feet(of getting married) ...  but.. .yea. .its acutlayy trus.. she's rlry missing. now  ..

sighs...

then they foudn out she's dead. and burnt somemroe =(((

anwya.. .may she rrly rip somehow... =((((

sighs

today work sos busy. like rrly non sotp busy. thank goodness time passed fast as well

i've bbeen feelign full lately duno why.

can tahan till 5pm or today 6pm and im still not that hungry.

weird. i wonder why
but yea one meal a day not gd i know2.. .but... .o welll l

haiz

lst but not least.. .my trip .. .mm. .some probs. . maybe he's too busy with his life and stuffs that he overlooked bah. but.. its ok. i will do what i can..i hope.

atransportation. .first imte imma be alone so yea.. .i'l lsee what i can do bah..
though kinda afraid of the scene from the movie 'taken', (sharing a cab duh) and news abt .. as u all can tell.. rapes and murders.. .

but shld be alright i guess.s.. its daytime. i wont share cab.
im not gonna tell the driver im staying which floor(duh i wont know yet) and who am i with. i could say... im meeting a big bunch of familyin hotel for celebration. right?

when my au sm told me few yrs back.. sg news is like.. ok and safe. minimal big news.. for them its liek. .everyday u get to see big news and murders etcetc...

thats why she say sg is v safe.

i think i understand what she means now...

im glad.. .here. ..we dont have all these time to time... rapes and burnt and kidnapped.. .murdered. ..etc... thrown body into national park. .into cemetary .. .etcetc...

no country is 100% safe. but here. its stil lconsidered as safe thoughout the world. .

so yea.

mm.. tats why imma bbe v v careful when im picking the cab. i'll make sure i wont divuldge too much info.

wish me luck peeps. .and hoepfully. easy to find. no long queue.. .and afforadable c ab fare au .. .

btw. wow just recalled. met two nice aunties who rrly liek me alot. not the typical sg aunties. but nicer ones... the more upbringing ones..

first one. she's living in america.. she came ytd. .i served er. today she looked for me. .and say she rememrv me.. looking for me etc. she say im pretty so cute .. .etc. and she asked if i hav bf. before i can repkly,(i was like thinking pls don intro anyone to me) she then continue on to say if u have a bf, your bf must be so lucky. im like.. htinking. .aw... shes so swt and nice...  ahha. she keep saying im cute lol .

then the other. .she spend $88 for her daughter.

shes so nice. her daughter choose3... .she helped her daughter choose and tryons..etc.. .
at the end, she pay for her daughte.r .im there thinking.....
(cosits pretty obvious they're from well to do family) ... wow. ok. her daughter definintely .. looks like. .20sish.. in mid> ? i duno. jer daughter look... abit mature... cos shes with makeup i cant tell rrly precisely.
but maybe... 22 /23? i dyno.

anywya...
so yea... its like. .shes willing to pay for her daughter.. and all. .and .. .
i duno. u know me. im like.. ok. wow. so lucky. to have ur mum pay for u. and so nice. she also check to seeif she like it. help her choose..etc.shes a nice mum.
duno ba. her daughter seems half cool half aloof..
but im glad to've emt her. shes a nice perosn. (tat mother i mean)

mata

boa alike

ahh i just rememberr! the other day my part timer was telling me i look like boa lollll XD i was so happy. and she's a very gd team member. shes v honest so 100% she wont say thigns to humour me one.

cos we were talking abt the korean fair downstairs. then got songs. .then she say used to listen to korean songs in the past.

then i told her my fav has always been boa. then she suddenly commented that oh u actually look like boa! iwas like no... shes like rrly! XD lol.

i wouldnt even dare to think of that. shes the queen of kpop ne. gosh. too much of a compliment to accept.

anyway, still happy lol.

she did mention that boa sometimes look abit proud.
too coo.l.

well. if u know her and watch her, you'll know shes very funny and quirky and kawaii.
cool is becos of work. shes more mature. cos shes been in this line since ... 10ish? then 13 release albums.

so yea .
i can understadn la. cos ive been ba;s fan for so long alrdy.

usually her photos vv cool de.
haha.
well lets just say.. she got tons of diff styles.
so yea. tas why i like her alot.

don tlak abt appearance bah. actually we're pretty similar in ways of being fluence more from bro, and we dont rrly hav alot of female best frens? like we find male frens abit more .. not bitchy? if that make sense.
and not whiny. not pretencious. but having said that, i prefer gay frens. cos al lmale frens turn out to have .. motives. liek yea. only few male frens ok.

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy

kk. gtg today quite stress from work sighs=(((((((((((((((

61. treat her in ways you did at the beginning of the relationships

62 offer to fix something around the house . say ''what need to be fixed around here? i have some extra time'' dont take on more than you can do

63 offer to sharpen her knives in the itchen

64 buy some good super glue that fixes things that are broken

65 offer to change light bulbs as soon as they go out

i cant stress enuff how important 61 is. wow this guy rrly hit some spots on in these tips .hope u all jot it down inur notebook.

61, super power.
every men should know this.

mata ne!

flying off soon!

hi guys! omg been long since i last blog. trying to work and settle my hotel and tix blah3. finally all settled now just need to get them all print out.

and yea... so... too long nvr blog forgot what to say as always..

gosh. oh. ive been looking into this camera i saw on youtube. and i rrly like it cos the shape is pretty unique. cost ard 400 plus. canon. most of the local tech stores don hav. i elieve i might hav to look ard at canon flagship store. its like a compact mirror kinda shapre... f that make sense. haha but im travelling soon. sadly i will not be able to own that for now. to video syd and all. but, yea i will try to do as much of that in my phone. since my phone has none of syd pics nor vids liao=/

theres old places and shops i wanna visit and all.. sadly bras n things is located at plaes im not familiar with=/
nid to sak sammy i guess

whyyy they clos down at broadway=(

mm.. waht else..
yea.. .hotel must book erly too early*

eh.. rrly thank goodness i encounter one way tix promo. phew. if not.. yea. trouble

eh.. thats abt it bah... mm.. duno waht else happened..
o well

tips

56. drive slowly and safely , respecting her preferences. after all, she is sitting powerless in the front seat

57 notice how she is feeling and comment on it '' you look tired'' or ''you look happy today'' - and then ask a question ''how was your day?''

58 when taking her out, study in advance the directions so that she does not have to feel responsible to navigate

59 take her dancing or take dancing lessons together

60 surprise her wiht a love note or a poem.

ahh. .60. is swt

so yea...

hmm.. think something slipped my mind again

o well.

ahh saw my fren todya. my mum also kinda recognize him.but i quickly walk away beore he could see me hahaah. that same guy fren lor. my mum was quite shocked to learn that he's separated. o well..

mm.. thats that for now bah...

maybe cos i booke dtix late.. so its like. .sudeeenly. .omg. im heading off in abt 2 weeks! yay. just nice my fren is heading there for her work as well. haha. what coincidence.

k thats that for now. jaa

mm.. i wonder if that cam is available in syd. ..but..

getting things and life together

hi peeps...

since tues.. .went through crazy heaps of vm....

was so drained out and etc...
glad i didnt have to meet my best fren

omg. so drained out indeed...

even my colleague asked me to hurry home when i was almost finished with my shift. .tot wanna stay put u see..

my right leg... got two long slashes of cuts =((((
one with blood and swollen which i snapchat it. .huuuu u
my fren applied   vaseline on it saying it will heal..
and i seriously mean... two long cuts. .one on my thigh, near kneee... naother near ankle.
sighs
 =/

u know what my coleague say... when she won (along with another perosn) a trip to ausrrlaia  ... shes asm. and the other person is sm. they get to go syd and melb.
and visit their head offcice (ho)

she say.. they all seem so slack and relax and(lazy).. liek nothing to do.. at the office. .. and the vm ppl,
told them that. .oh they have such a tough job. they are always thinking how to put this vm accessories etc to which location then take pics.
i like. .say what????

they say its tough job??

holy cow. what abt us then.

multi taksing. .trying to do vm.. serve cust.. .and raise our sales avg ips etc....

omg..

i rather work in their shoes. if thats tough for the aussies, then, i think our team in sg is liek the strongest and most superior in this company. pls.
don talkl or say tough jobin fron tof my sg team
evenn they c an tell they are so relaxing with their obs. no ofense. not syaing all auusies are like that. but. ... o well. u will know if youre a singaporean woring in aust.

anyway. i was so overworked.. etc.. .(still slping more aint enough for me=/)


i totally went abitc crac when i was tlaking. abt fixtures to my tema.. etc. ...

chocker gondola i pronounced it as chondolas.

omg.

uhuh . ofc i joked with the,. mixnig two words to one. haha.

sighs.. im so. messed up peeps.. .
and theres nothign to keep me grounded.

he's busy. and. i don wanna disturb him..
..o well..

will find elsewherer bah..

hai. trying to balance out my life is so difficult. .

i feel like ... im losing this battle ya knw what im saying =/
i feel like. .i cant.. =/ .. 'recover' from it...

sighs.. .

i rrly hope this shopping trip is gonna help me...
i nid to relax. destress.. and.. just do waht i want.

told my rm and team. im notgonna look at any of sm group msges. ..

two young boys. i believe.. .they are in sec school.. after serving htem and whislt cashiering. .i heard the two bboys whispering and saying. .just telll her la.. etcetc.. .her as in me.. icant rrly describe what they're saying. .then... thank goodnes.s.. my collegaue came back from break!! omg. then they left wiwthout saying anything .phewwwwwwwwwwwww. i wa hoping theres no confessions or thing slie that

oh.. just recalled. .think i had nightmare again... cat rrly rememebr the detaisl whihc is great.. though the previous one is nasty T_T huuuuuuuuuuuuuu

i was like. .omg. .pls be back soonnn now...

am i too frenly toardsmy male cust? but they're only in sec... meep... why will i encounter frmoe them,... weird thingy

haiyo

tips

51. take short  romantice getaways

52 let her see taht u carry a picture of her in ur wallet and update it from time to time

53 when staying in a hotel, have them prepare the room with something special , like a bottle of champagne or sparkling apple juice or flowers

54 write a note or make a sign on special occasions such as anniversaries and birthdays

55 offer to drive the car on long trips


52... wow. super plus bonus. super happy ...he.. used to put my photo as his walpaper.. cept when he return to camp or somtin. anyway that makes me happy...

51./duh. .swt

53.. .dream come true.. haha. ..imagien rose petals... along the way to bed(onbed) or towards bathroom..or in tub...woo;)

54.. .duh// nvr forget..

55if i nknow how to drfive, then yea... that more bonus. if i don, its still bonus=)
if he's patient still that is..

anyway these tips.. wow. rrly awesome desu ne.

hehe. =)

spot on again .

learn frmo this author peeps.

mata