syd trip again

i rrly nid to get this off my chest right now.

sighs. back to my homeland now... so surreal. its always like that. 1 week passed by so fast =(

my heart in so much pain,
=(
cant control my tears. even now my heart still aches.

espe cially when i think of his warmth and smiles.. .=/
i miss evrything abt him so much.

no matter how many times ive been though this. i still cant stop crying.  eevry yr i tot ok maybe this time at depature gate i wont cry. but still i did.
i hate airport. i hate the depature gate back. no matter how many things ive gone though that door, i seriously still hate it. it malkes me v v sad =(
ut i dun understand why sammy say i talk like a lil girl. O.o
but seriously. i hat that gate. if theres a choice i wish i will nvr haveto face it again. my heart breaks whenever i need to go through that gate phase again. =( sobx.

i hurried walk off towards the slope through the gate. as much as i would love to look at him longer. i resisted. cos if i dont hurry, my tears will be pouring out like a fountain.
i took a quick glance at him and turned my head back . for i know. more secs i look at him, the sadder i will be,

movie nights in hotel is always the best with him. though i always ended up falling aslp =.= cos its so comfy with him.. and ya.

anywyay. last night we watched this longgggg movie. and i fell aslp. i nid to wiki it later on and find out what happen. but sammy say its gd ending,

u know how lil things can make me v happy n grateful right.
so last night we were uddling and watching movie, our hands underneath the pillow.
our fingers locked onto each other tightly and v long. at one point i think i went toilet.
then when i got back, my fingers slide through underneath the pillow searching for his.
and his fingers 'caught' mine quickly =). we hold on tight...
and yea. guess thats how comfy tat was till i fell aslp evantually.

i will blog more maybe tmr or so onwards.

this time round i din cry as badly .as in the last few days there.
cos usually by final 3rd/2nd last day. and last day.. i will be super sad and cant control my tears. even on the way to airport.
but this time . i only cried the most when saying gdbye to sammy.

could be due to the pill im taking . the one that regulate my hormones /period
and also due to on the way to airport, i was rrly sick. quiet .. and just feeling so sick. due to the not so fresh fruits that i ate in the mrg.

so ya. i wasnt rrly in the mood. all im feeling was wanna throuw up. and wanna poo.
cos tummy v pain

so ya. guess that also helps to take away the attention of remembering my last few moments in syd.
ya i feel so upset whenevr its like. oh its the last day left. last night here. last few hrs left with him. etc.

its just a v v sulky feeling bah =/
i just hate saying gdbyes.

so far. its been pretty awesome though. feb i met him.
april i met him again .
though not long. but better than none.
and i treasure thsoe moments

at the syd airport this angmoh security was checking my luggage,
while scanning he asks questions why am i here. hows my trip etc.
i was telling him i visit my bf. he was like. so funny. he said something abt how he don get like how does ldr works? once  ayear?! isit worth it.
haha. v funny. but frenly la. their security check quite mafan also. so ya. anyway.

im so tired and slpy now. i feel like my throat is getting abit weird. hopefully i wont get sick.

i feel like sometimes im missing out on alot of things tats happening in his life.
and i wanna know all abt them .
u know. bubt. especially for men bah. its not liek all of them will rrly talk alot abt stuffs. i guess. cos i duno. women talks more. like going into details? but from what i know men .. u know. men.
but luckily sammy said before that he don mind me talking.
cos sometimes i wonder if i talk too much. or jsut talk too much abt boring stuffs ya know.

ahh tummyache again .

kk. shall blog real soon.

gosh i think i look rrly terrible lor. i slpt v v few lil hrs. and ya. gosh.
i didnt put on makeup when i board the plane. but i liek my bareskin face. fresh. and ya. im confident with them. XD lol .

anyway. kk i gtg.

jaa mata.

still so much i wanted to share. so ya. will do it soon!

tips 76 when she prepares a meal, compliment her cooking

77 when listening to her talk, use eye contact

78 touch her with your hand sometimes when u talk to her

79 show interest in what she does during the day , in the book she reads, and the ppl she relates to

80 when listening to her, reassure her that you are interested by making lil noises like ah ha, uh huh, oh, mmhuh, and hmmmm

yesssss. all these tips. v gd! yet again =)

sammy basically does 77-80.
but sometimes he's too focus on his phone . so he wont make eye contact. and he wont touch . ya.
but its ok . at least he passed =)

hehe jaa mata again