bf/suitors

mm.. wanted to blog soemthing about from las tnight post.. regarding my fren...forog twhat liao=.= agani.

my memory ar..

anyway,
so. hahaha. my fren decided to meet that guy. lol. omg. she also cant believe she agreed either.
told u he's got experience or something. very smart and pro. wahhhh after dinner brought her up to ion sky garden look at night view!!!!! free duh he worked at this mall mah. so pro sia. =.= so many trickls' up his sleeves. lol
anyway, told her what. .he disliek lying. .he rrly wanna be with her etc... hahha.
omg. hes so straight forward man XD
anyway, asked her out again. but my fren say not too soon.

funny thign is. well. .actuall its common for guys  ba?
she say it seems as though her bf can 'sense' that she's contacting abbnother guy. so like msg her really nice now. XD hahaha. how he sense i also dunno. he's in army ne.
anyway, since she'd alrdy told him that she wanted this sat to spend with him entirely just the two of them celebrate third year anniversary, he shoudlve make sure that happen. how can any guy decidedei to spend it with his frens?
omg .
at least last week ok la. he wan, she no choice even though sad. but this week again? =/ wth.
treat her as what. =.=
gf wanna celebrate, then do it la. somemroe shes working. he only free in weekend. cant spend it with her meh?

another colleagu of mine who just quit, rrly lucky. her bf . ha. she always post photos of her n bf. her bf also very swt. now they in taiwan .=) will fetch her to and from work. buy her gifts.. bought her mini ipad leh. somemore arrange chalet for her. wow. think he;s rich ba? anway, she sa down to earth gd girl .rrly happy for her =)
lucky girl.

wahhh saw my manager mac book air . wahhh so slim n small. super thin. only 1300 plusplus
quite ok ba?
though its smaller

anywayyyyyyyyy back to my fren.
hahha. this guy ar. rrly know what to say to a girl u knwo .somemore so thick skin. know got bf liao still wanna come in between them. though he know la. cos the guy liek. .ignoring her or din treat her well enough. .thats why she told him. more of confide ba?
duno real anot. somemore say his ex gf birthday same as hers. lol
XD
but yea. ask her to givec her bf up. wahhhhh this guy ar. he very brave u knwo =. =advances so strong. omg. =.= not a compliment k

poor mum. her neck still aching. haiz. i can understand... =/ head down look down 3third day liao. non stop. sianz... even slping also facing down =/ sighs
hopefully few more days be over soon

ahahahah. today very funny. kena twice goign 'whoa!!' whne customers approached me. first one. jsut about to get up after throwing rubbish at counter, then this lady asked me for direction. like the moemnt im up, her head pops out. lol
i wa slike whoa! XD
she also paiseh la.

then another one. this one abit funny . very funny. so this three frens. looking for gift thigny. i was serving them. but the main perosn approached and asked me lotsss of questiosn about htis gift box. ask so many questions sia. =.= soemmore at a fast speed. how much, how much total, free? doe sthies come wwith it? blah3w... asked non stop sia. question after question i ahev to wreck my brain to reply him correctly. =.= gosh. anyway, he gave out that u know what vibe. yes. the danger, must stay away, in case anoher onlooker stalker vibe. but he's a decent guy la. but somethigns not right when he's looking sraight at me. liek i'd said. i trust my gut feelings now. almost accuate. so yea.
luckily too exp, htey decided not to buy.

so here coems the funny part. apprantly whislt talkign to my colleagues, suddenly i noticed he's back withe his fren.
then i continue chatting la. skali...... lol.
i was abou to turnmy head or what .he say 'hi'. i was like quite loudly, 'whoa!!'. and i literally moved back, and banged or crashed onto the greeting card wall. with both hands wide apart palms down on the card wall. lol.
like totally in shocked. XD forgot whether i said hi back. but yea. my frens all laughed haha. XD
very comical i tell u .

like i'd said before. someitmes i can be so funny u know. like so comical. unexpected. jsut. ..funny in a out of the blue way. liek i din try, its jsut natural fo rme to say or the way i act. haha. funny la. i can be so comical someitmes.
too many sides in me ba. .ow ell
dunno gd or bad thing

mm.. still thinking what to do on my bday. should be another normal day ba. dinner plus cake. still thinking of getting ice cream cake. .though it cost a bomb huuT_T

slpy liao. abit. but too full T_T
runny nose huu. gonna be sick soon . hopefull not. cough sill here and there.

yawn...

mmm.. wha els.e. .

o well. thats all i can rememebr fo rnow ba

gd thign my fren still love her bf. he's either 26 or 27 this year. no wonder so experienced. hahaha. my fren only 19 ne. haha .though her parents also 10yrs apart or what. but ye aseems liek she doesnt like it.

wah.. rrly ar. so fas tne. how can a guy say leave ur bf, and be with me.. this kind of words.. when he din msg her for even a week leh. only a few days. mm... he rrly attack strongly eh. comes on strongly.

hmm hoep i wont forget to eat med later

mata

Taking her for granted

ok. much to blog tonight. lets get started

so sad.. this young girl.. famous youtuber.. after her fight with cancer... sadly.. she left htis world... honestly, i don like her. i find her abit irritating with the way she talk. but . i only once once or twice her video so ya. then.. but i know shes a brave girl. many ppl and youtubers are sad over her passing. =/ but yea..

another one.. cory. the lead actor in glee. he's famous. handsome. nice. great voice. im not a huge fan of gleee nor him. but i know he's a gd average guy. but din know he's a drug addict. he's dead. this news.. .so shocking to the world and his fren. plus his poor gf=/
how could anyone leave behind the ppl they love without explainging?!

news satetd that.. his freinds saw him 2 days before and so. he was happier and healthier. better.
no one knows why he died htis way. herione plus alchole

then
u know. like i'd said long time before. rememebr?
if a person.. who is depressive, thats not the time u should be worried most. the tiem and moment u shld be worried most is when that person suddenly changed to be happier. why? becaus ethey've decided to end their life. carefree alrdy. decision made.
hence they appeared to be happier.
like gotten better, nothgins wrong. everythign's fine. tats when u shld be rrly worried and take note of that person.

anyway, its sad. rrly sad. so wasted. his future... and all. =/
sighs

anywya
haiz

my fren. so this conceirge guy always standing in front of our store like i'd said before. they always changes. so one of them asked for her number.
chinese. my fren's malay but looked like chinese.
blah3.... today she say skali he mistook her fo rme. lol!
cios long story./ basically his congerige colleage got her number when she lost her item and retrieve it. so must leave her name n number etc.
anyway,
yea. cos someitmes ppl mistook me fo rmalay =.= cos im tan ba.,
so yea. anyway, i doubt so baO.o
but shes attached. so jsut making fren only. she will tell her bf soon.

POINT is.
see. this guy is smart. not too pushy. say i love u to her. LOL.
don mistaklen .my fren say too fas.tsomemore she stil llike her bf.
cant imagien be with a chinese nice guy. he's willing ot convert into muslim too haha.
anyway, yea. he's nice she said

she also complain about hopw her bf in army now. then keep going out with fren. third yr anniversayr sat also cnaot copany her whole day. say what at night go woodlands.
wth. taking her for granted again>????
that same guy la. that time smitten with the girl... then blah3... broke off with her abit.. hen soon ask her back. soemmore treat her so well....
now different story. thast the bloody problem with guys!!!!!
nvr cherish!!!! >:(((((

anywya, yea. he's smart. so she told him what happened about sat her bf don wan meet her whoel day...
she see him as her future. so she cant see that chinese guy to be the future.
chinese guy was like.
''u see him as your future, but does he see you as his future???''
then shes liek.. yea he's right.

SEE. i told u he's clever right.
=.=
know how to tackle' girl's heart and weakness.
thats why. ppl liek hin can get in between a relationship easily.  ppl liek her bf doesnt know how to cherish. cherish the first part, 2nd part left her aloen most of the bloody time. pissed off for her i knwo. she sa  nice girl mah. somemore my fren >:(
sianz.
but yea she will tell him about this chinese guy soon.
wth.
gf wan go out with u, u chooses be with ur fren most of the bloody tiem. wth .
argh
jsut so pissed off fo rher

so yea. not gonna be her fault entirely if the chinese guy succeeded. though i doubt so as i cna tell she's not used to guy liek him.
she said he's too nice lol

dunno guys are made of wood or what. sometimes they're so insensitive.. too insensitive.. =/ sighs. o well....
waht to do.. guys mah.
they shld reflect on themselves too. don expect front part being swt n nice, the later on part not so nice will keep u in their heart still.
girls are not stupid.

haiz.

anyway, my fren went taiwan with her bf now. so nice... .expore taaiwan. someitems hear form frens who they go travelling with bf. so niec .ive always wanted to experience that too.

ok . so. i walked past this guy with girl right. think they belong to a giupr of frens.anyway i was serving customer so din noticed. as i wlaked past, i thought from the corner of my eye i saw him turn to look at me.. i was like .ok la. mayb e he's lookign elsehwere. or just look. as u know. guys always sneak peak at girls=. =used to it. but sianz. so i just ignored him and busy my thing.
then i do cashiering. skali this girl with him, pukled him to the counter. apprantly this other girl is fren of this guy and girl.
so yea. she was like pushing him to say somehting. then he tell me. you have a ncie face' .or u have a pretty face. i cant rememebr as i was too shocked. i think he said nice face. hten i was stunned. rlry stunned. O.O i was like. .eh..err...huh? huh? i lok back and forth at his frens. wa slike... what did i just heard?? O.o
then his frens was like.. don mind him., he's crazy. i was liek..hUH//? orh.. huH? still very stunned and confused. lol. of course i kept my eyes on the girls la. =.=
then finish off the transaction. lol
 very weird. i was completely caught offguard and .. my fac.e lol .so funny. tat stunned and surprised look of mine .gosh .classic=.=

sm been staying in backrrom. claimging to do her paperwok. i wonder.
its like. i duno. when i was alone and busy, i also didnt stay in there so long.
maybe she srlry bbusy ba. or is she trying to avoid facing the mystery sho**er?
o well. i dunno. but yea. .still busy in the store room.. dunno do what ne
she's better now compared to in the past..

anyway, haiz.
today whoel day. . dunno what to do. just feelign so damn down =/
sighs. before work still feeling wanna cry. sighs.......... now still feelign terrible =(
dunno what i wanna do ba.
i feel so sianz. about alot of thigns.
nothing seems to resolved. argh. msutve been the period coming. hate it. playing with my head so much. sighs. feel so depressed =(

so much thigns. cant expect me to typ ethese all out to sammy. ha.
o well .
doubt he could too with the thigns happening in his life

sianz. negative thoughts. .so much.. .these days... making me worse=(((
hoep will be over soon

mata ne

update - mummy

sooo wanted to blog ytd. but too slpy. rrly way too slpy n tired
texted bro.. at first felt like wanna cry.. then ok la.. like when the itme for her opt getting nearer.. then yea my heart felt weird n v uneasy=/
then bro say he like wanna cry too(i msg him wrongly..meant for smamy lol)
then he say shes v brave. like the moment she prepared to go in, v scary like tat.
then yea... i broke down. tch=/ sighs....
yea.. shes always been brave... very.
..haiz.
anyway,
just cried u know. today . now also.


so.. left the store earlier.. luckily i did. phew. met mum .. so poor thing. imagine bow down ur head. close eyes. 24hrs for 5 days (excluding ytd) .
sighs
neck sure pain. v bored. warm. =(
not a nice feeling im sure.
shoulder also pain. sighs. slp also. face down slp. =/
yea

misses sammy
then yea. .guess work. plus tiem of month coming la. .so everything all very.. u know. piling on me ne
=/
nid to stop crying

wish i couldnt off for more days to company her. but yea=/
can u imagien all alone facing down till late evening>? when dad is bck
i can relate to her abit more cos of what i'd experienced in the plabne recently.
knees hurts. totally borewd to the max. nothign to do. wanna slp cannot slp. slp alrdy wakey, tot one hour passed, but actulayy only 15mins... etc...
sighs
soemmore she nid to endure uncomfy slping position for a month ne.
=/
sighs
and also dunno when can she start work again. household chores we nid to helpno matter how tired we are. so yea.
just v tired and yea.. emtional draining. especially im the empathic tupe
so yea.
tats why certain thigns i'll rather not know. cos if i dom i'l lbe sad for ppl.
but of course, if i nid to know and able to relieve the other person, hten i'll rather know la.
rather than being not there for them
sucks

anyway

haiz
shes slping now. hope she can slp for long
she din slpt well,. or at all in the hospital

woke up rrly early toda din set alarm co stoo slpy luckily bro woke me jus ton time

so poor thing mum.. cannot be so energenetic liao=/ for now
rrly hope she will eb well asap .
at least move ard normally

my birthday i'll accompany her back to doc again.
guess my birthday will just be another normal eh.
abit worse than last yr. ha. o well. at least last yr still got zoo
ha
nvm ba
maybe jsut get myself a simple cake tats all
don think will take any pics la.
mum also cannot tak emah

o well... wat a day huh
mm..
maybe next year birthdya will be better huh? =/
wow. so soon.. .less than a weeks time, my birthday laio

tot can plan soemthing. outig or wat. o well.
nvm ba. just another ismple dinenr n cake.
wanted to get mysefl an ice cream cake. always wanted one. nvr had one before. cept for one slice form my fren's birthday party when i was a little girl
ha

i'd also alwasy wanted a aircon in my room.. n space...
so amny things. .yet not all can be fulfilled. .life's like that eh.
only fulfilled for htose with a golden spoon borned in their mouth. worse for the so called brats

mata

blankness on my face

=/ pouts. so bored. feel left out. sammy busy online.
tch. .dunno what to do.  owe ll. guess imma have to continue rush through my books again.
tmr is my mums opt. rrly hope everythning will go well.. these dasy are gonna be tough ba. sianz .aunt will be coming to help put the clothes out =(
paiseh ne. somemore we don talk at all. at least for me n bro. so yea.awkward. haiz

anywya, =/
mm.. maybe time of month coming .so been feelin not gd. like .. jsut not gd. oh ya. hope i wont fall sick. been coughing here n there. with a irritated throat. i shld be taking throat med by now. btu it nvr occured to me till now. ha. anyway i'll sure forget ,and i'll sure be like. .ahh nvm heck careXD troublesome la
when it comes to others ok. not when it comes to me ha

wow. rrly like karen millen clothing line. but. so expensive=( sighs. cant afford la.
but omg .her clothing line is elegant, posh, beautiful, gorgeous, sexy , femine, and yes oh so femine with elegant touch. rrly3.... gorgeous. everytime i walked past, their cdresses , omg. rlry. i like it so much. im not into branded. but this brand, rrly.. wow. amazing. all women shld own a piece from karen millen.

haiz......... super bored la. maybe after rush through books, can find a day like what sammy said.. go twitch? ya. too bored la. making me feel more down than ever= ( sighs

kk.. better get back into my book world.

tch. weighing a ton on me. things just.. yea. =/ i dunno .sighs

oh ya. today also blank face ne. totally couldnt put up a smiley face. . cant put up ay force front todya .
will leave tat for tmr ba=/

oh also slpy  causes my blank face too ba. cos wakey early suddenly out of the blue by my aunts knowcking on the door. delivering coffee powder. =.=
whenevr i get wakey halfway, tats it. my head not right liao .rly nid continue slp to cure it. but most of hte time once i wakey cant slp back liao. must wait till late aftnoon or wat=.=

haiz. kk.. jaa... think i better go ba. reading might do me help abit

oh and so sad. the glee star is dead=( so young. so talented. sighs. and good personailityi htink) .=/ wonder if its the limelight that causes him to... haiz. celebrities... many dead becaus eof rugs, stress, love, blah3.. not easy to be in the lime light either. and the bad influences=/ wasted.. .rrly.. sighs
mata

Stupid customer!

too tired n busy to blog

anwyay, mm..... sm still can noticed somethigns wrong with me today. i looked blank' kind... maybe me still htiking  abt rgm matter sighs

anway, =/

oh had a happy dream. in dream, me happy. went to australia. wow. so vivid. so nice.. rrly.

mm.. will blog briefly maybe.. just still trying to u know. make sense of everything =/

anyway.was telling sammy the other day. saw this customer in my store. shes weird looking. alot of makeup on, but.. .her features.. oh my god.
it slike. her nose is unusally long and straight. her dimple, is the scariest ive ever seen =.= so deep, it pentrates into her cheek. yea. very ugly deep dimple when she smield.(gomen)
but its true. her nose also. .so fake looking. too straight. its not nice=/
shes young. but maybe shes rich to undergo the knife. maybe im wrong. but i dunno. its.. .brrr... .igives me the shivers=./=
too unatural =/
alot of ppl now undergo the knife due to their favourite korean singers and actresses influences. =/ so yea... haiz.

anwyay,
speaking of which. so fed up. u know how ppl or celebrities always claimed that their photos are bareface natural looking pics .. .then upload and caption bareface. .. going to slp. .etc... omg. please.
please3. look carefully ba. the pic. theri so called no makeup on face.
why look pretty gd?
because it may be..

concealer

lightly powdered face/tinted moistrizer/base foundation/primer on

lightings

Photoshop. duh=.= they know how to use for sure eh

eyebrows alrdy drawn

photo apps(smooth out skin etc)

bit of blush

etc etc etc

celebrities mah. u think they stupid ar? =.=
let everyoen in this world see their acne scars, pimples, short brows thin non existent brows and all..
argh. rrly irritating. ppl stil lthink oh so beautiful.. .etc3... .
*facepalm

fans mah.. what to do. cant blame them=.= but yea.
its so obvious the 'tricks' they used. then claimed oh goig to bed.. show no makeup look face. .oh just woke up.. no makeup look face.

=.= o well

mm........ slpy.
gosh. tot ive found the best appp. but guess what. wats app can video too. better quality i think? somemore can be saved in album right. ?
i haven check. but yea. bro just told m.e i was like... whattt???? i din know. thast why dl snapchat. ./=.= omg....
sammy didnt tell me either. dunn ohe knows anot

anwyay
haiz........ why am i not feelign happy now=( sulky.

sighs

btw, today met these two girls. shoukld be ard my age. or younger abit?
tis girl, can tell maybe she oversea study or what. abit of accent. her fren.. dunno signaporean or what. din notice. but still can tell this girls accent mized abit with singlish tone. cos when she speaks with me, its in singlish . as in not jialet singlish type hor. then she talked to her fren abitore accent.
anyway.... so bloody rude.
took two of our products, walk3... then keep saying what.. so expensive.. then nvm. don buy its ok. gues swha.t i was standing nearby them behind. she left the bloody items on the gondola, and walk away with her frens. out the store they went. WTH. cant she passed to me?????? if other adults.. .or old ppl i understand. hello????? u study in uni or what????? what such ill manners is this!??? hoenestly. so stuckup. bloody hell. rrly pissed off with ppl like this >:(

proper basic manner dunno isit. this one, sure beomce a mother who dunno how to teach her childern in duture. bloody hell. rrly cannt stand ppl like that. dunno shes rich anot. but IF she rrly did study overseas, pls . at least be more polite. so bloody rude.bloody2 rude!!!!! rrly u know. angry. i just cant stand ill manner spoilt child brats. with or without money. don show off. and dont be proud. be humble. it will get u everywhere one day.
stupid girl.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

mata

recent stresses

mm.. tonight.. i feel so stress.. due to work stuff... .rrly3.... stresss/= =/. i didnt know what to do. .how to handle it. ..yea. just. .stress...
and then.. luckily.. i get to skype with sammy.. so yea... at this moment, at this point of tiem, i am so glad tht im able to relac abit.. i totally froget about my stres,,,... even for  a few hours.

i am v slpy n tired. but yea.
,,.. hmm.. i rrly hope tmr will be fine .

why did i feel bad. me dunno eithher

so much going on in my head.. about work.. i rrly nid to .. sigsh... clear them out. and i dunno how. so sudden out of hten blue.
so tressed out. sighs

but yea. .at first rrly nid him. but din get to msg hin alot. think he busy with work n games.  then he skype with me.. yea. abi also meant alloto to me. ha.
but yea.... so ncie =)

now he nid to go liao.. but yea..
mm.. dunno tmr how.. but .... no matter what . i just wish to be nearer to him thats all..

been a tough evening n night fo rme.. wish me luck peeps..

sighs.

i wish i can be stronger and fiercer .

due ot mums opearation, if she rrly cant wash clothes for weeksx, i think imma help her woth that. by hands, she might stop me. and i might have tio do only in night. byut eya... (cos imworking) .. i rather her be safe.
anway, ive learnt how to wash clothes by hands before. so not a prob for me. its kinda fun. but.. tired whne im a grown up. cos i nid to work. .then after work wash clothes.. abit toguh ..see how ba. will discuss ..



mata

Happiness with him =)

heyyyyyyyyyyyyy omg im back!!!!!!
as in my internet is back on phew... but somehow theres still some probs going on so yea..

anyway, i dun even know where to begin! been so many days. felt liek forever .gosh terrible ne to use small phone online.. anyway

am sick today. not so serious. but down with a headache n runny nose=/ just feeling weak and all. huuu terrible. so weak. then just rest in my room all day. haiz... and just liek tahta, my day off is over.
still tired. i need more rest

dunno why my sm said to me.. that i looked tired ytd. and the day before. like very quiet.. she thought something is bothering me. but no leh. im ok.

ohhhhhh hehehheeh so happy =D went into pandora and saw sydney opera house charm!!!!!!!! $71. my fren say its cheap =.=; i was like.. mm... eh.. still exp la... but well pandora mah. what u expect ne.
so yea. ive even went in. my wrist size suits a 17 cm.. wait. inches> ? anwyay, its yea 17. for adult bracelt. the standard one. luckily the lady kind enough to tell em when i asked her which is better and wahts the difference between the bangle and standard type of bracelt. she told me the bangle will. . dunno waht3 . but the orginal one , no matter what, will never what3..... the what 3... stands for dunno i forgot what she said. .dunno isit will dent. .or rust.. i think she meant dent. hahha i was so excited that i didnt pay attention. anyway, yea. was rushing back to work mah. haha. asked whils ti was omw to toilet. cos not much customer there. but soon after, crowded again. rrly u know. everyday full of crowds intheir small store. poor sales ppl there=/ so busy. omg.
they must handle everyone . only 2 or sometimes 3 staffs only. jialet.

mm.. what els.e

oh u know. theres like 10 iut of 10 men all help their wives push stroller, or/and carry the baby on their body. u knwo those carrier thingy.. u wrap ard ur body n put ur baby in it so ur baby is ight in front of ur chest.
sammy doesnt seem to be u know.. willing to do that kind of man . like. .cant rrly picture him willing to do ba. but then i guess its gonna be years before he become a father. who knwos eh. ha. anyway yea. its impressive. like. .they are actually enjoying it! =) help push.. and sometimes carry baby at the same time.. u know right. soemtimes the baby 'pouches' is not the best manly looking design.. though theres balck n alll.. but yea. its liek wow. everytiem i see the men rrly willing to do that for their wives ne. O.o very impressive. and thoughtful plus swt. even my sm husband also. somemore hes; very very tall. and skinny. but he wear the baby pouch and yea with the baby in front of him.

anywayyyyyyyy lol. reminded me of when me and sammy almost step into the baby deparment in supermarket, he's liek nono baby. no looking at baby stuff. somethign liek that. hahaha. so cute la he. very funny. hes so humourous. love him to bits. ^^
rrly miss him.

he asked me send him a pic of me smiling. i wonder if hes feelign down=/ cos few yrs back after work.. he also asked me smile for him.. then he say.. ok , he's feeling better alrdy. huuu... rrly hope he's ok.. =/

its scary to trust someone with ur full heart . i handed mine into his hands.. and yea, 5 years and 5months plus gone, im still very happy. happy now. of course every relationship have its ups and downs.. tears and joy.. but righ tnow, im still feeling very happy. in fact, more tha ever. especially now i know who am i to him. =)
so yea. everyday i think of him. looknig forward to see him again very soon. rlry hope so

haiz. .mum goin for her op soon. she say no nid take leave leh.. to company her. =/ hooep she'll rrly be strong. luckily next day after her op im off. can see her liao

what els.e. mm.. .gosh i cant think liao. but yea. jsut the main thing. .im happy now. he makes me so happy  too. happiness desu =)
rrly cherish desu..
one day, can live with him ne..? i hope soon.. can feel he love me so much. ^^

i rrly enjoyed my australia trip. he did too. =) which is totally awesome. =)

oh ya. huuu lost my opal ring. sighs=( ..... i dunno why no fate with opal isit.. ... haiz.... its rrly nice though. its uniqueness.. the colours. .so magical.. tats why i like.
but ow ell... =/

mata ! so great to blog again =) and sharing my thoughts plus feelings.