update - mummy

sooo wanted to blog ytd. but too slpy. rrly way too slpy n tired
texted bro.. at first felt like wanna cry.. then ok la.. like when the itme for her opt getting nearer.. then yea my heart felt weird n v uneasy=/
then bro say he like wanna cry too(i msg him wrongly..meant for smamy lol)
then he say shes v brave. like the moment she prepared to go in, v scary like tat.
then yea... i broke down. tch=/ sighs....
yea.. shes always been brave... very.
..haiz.
anyway,
just cried u know. today . now also.


so.. left the store earlier.. luckily i did. phew. met mum .. so poor thing. imagine bow down ur head. close eyes. 24hrs for 5 days (excluding ytd) .
sighs
neck sure pain. v bored. warm. =(
not a nice feeling im sure.
shoulder also pain. sighs. slp also. face down slp. =/
yea

misses sammy
then yea. .guess work. plus tiem of month coming la. .so everything all very.. u know. piling on me ne
=/
nid to stop crying

wish i couldnt off for more days to company her. but yea=/
can u imagien all alone facing down till late evening>? when dad is bck
i can relate to her abit more cos of what i'd experienced in the plabne recently.
knees hurts. totally borewd to the max. nothign to do. wanna slp cannot slp. slp alrdy wakey, tot one hour passed, but actulayy only 15mins... etc...
sighs
soemmore she nid to endure uncomfy slping position for a month ne.
=/
sighs
and also dunno when can she start work again. household chores we nid to helpno matter how tired we are. so yea.
just v tired and yea.. emtional draining. especially im the empathic tupe
so yea.
tats why certain thigns i'll rather not know. cos if i dom i'l lbe sad for ppl.
but of course, if i nid to know and able to relieve the other person, hten i'll rather know la.
rather than being not there for them
sucks

anyway

haiz
shes slping now. hope she can slp for long
she din slpt well,. or at all in the hospital

woke up rrly early toda din set alarm co stoo slpy luckily bro woke me jus ton time

so poor thing mum.. cannot be so energenetic liao=/ for now
rrly hope she will eb well asap .
at least move ard normally

my birthday i'll accompany her back to doc again.
guess my birthday will just be another normal eh.
abit worse than last yr. ha. o well. at least last yr still got zoo
ha
nvm ba
maybe jsut get myself a simple cake tats all
don think will take any pics la.
mum also cannot tak emah

o well... wat a day huh
mm..
maybe next year birthdya will be better huh? =/
wow. so soon.. .less than a weeks time, my birthday laio

tot can plan soemthing. outig or wat. o well.
nvm ba. just another ismple dinenr n cake.
wanted to get mysefl an ice cream cake. always wanted one. nvr had one before. cept for one slice form my fren's birthday party when i was a little girl
ha

i'd also alwasy wanted a aircon in my room.. n space...
so amny things. .yet not all can be fulfilled. .life's like that eh.
only fulfilled for htose with a golden spoon borned in their mouth. worse for the so called brats

mata