today bro bought me the pandora charm. was supposed to be happy but
guess i made a worng stupid joke.
then we had a tiff
then cried so badly..
its lie havin gmy heart break once again..
thats what u expect isnt it. .when u han dover ur heart to the one u love.
bad thing was. i couldnt even stop cryinginfront of my dad. thogh i locked my room, i think they stil lcan hear. i was kidna near my door. and was crying out loud.
no wonder mum asked soemhting like. .if im alright or waht. cant rememebr. too tramatised
my family like that one..
and im glad they do..
cos. .doubt i can handle if they come over and ask me whats wrong. .then give me advide.. etc.. lovey dovey.. i ratehr they stay away for me.. and leave me alone
thogh its not the best option. but . yea.
i had some bad thoughts .. rrly bad thoughts
not gonna sy it here ba
its unhealthy
but yea
so this is how unimporant i am
can just htroaw awya liek that eh
cant stop crying.
heartache .. is so painful
so painful i can die
hoow would u have treasted me
wated to eat 6 pandaldos at one shot.
had four now.
ha. first one dropped and roleld to bro side. had a shocked. luckily he was tlaking on phone. and apssed me back the pill
don think he suspected anyting ba
so tired of life
everday is a struggle
so depress right now. at htis moment. day tiem thogh was getting better. .guess i was wrong
dunno who started this.. i don even wanna start any argument.
think i wanna hrurt myself isit
i wonder how can i stop myself from crying to slp tonight. seems hard. v hard.
k ba. gonna have another two pills then go slp liao.
nobody wil lknow anyway
so tired. .so tired
dunno whast the meaning of al lthese
jaa
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