gdbye website

had a fever tonight. colleague was telling em about it. but id dint believer her. but. .yea. turned out she was right.
terribel sick feeling peeps.
but...
its as though i am pushing myself to the limit. i don wanna rest.
the more quiet i stayed, the more i cant keep still..
sighs

throat still hurts
wokey in middle of night .. cos slpt early. maybe. dunno. but the pain woke me up. so pain. i was crying. rrly pain n terrible feeling.

i think .yea. perhaps. it is time to stop everything.
u know how i talked alot in fb.
well. i think its time to stop(if i can).
becos theres limited of ppl i can say things to. soemtimes they are not there.
and i cant keep track of my frens lives.
etc
but yea. i think i should try to stop.
anyway i've always kept everything to mysel. wont make a difference.
everything will be in my own private life.
nobody will know anything of what im doing or how im feeling. when i say im fine, they will believe.
when i say im happy, they will believe.
so be it ba.

its ok.
i'll see how things go eh.

such simple happiness.. .such difficulty to attain. at hte very least, i still have my own lil space here to type it all out. but who knows.. maybe one day i'll come around and decieded to stop everythign too. no body will know anything about me then.

yes. it is most important.
care for others. always do. put myself last.
im used to it anyway.
so used to it. though it still hurts. but.
what more would i dare to ask for eh.

k ba.

just hope tonight i'l lget to slp well and throughly without waking up in middle of night in pain again

its itme to say gdbye. i'll do my best.

but after i let go, what wil li be doing..