heavy hearted days

its great to have sammy back.
great partner and support too.
but so sad he couldnt be with me here.
or i dunno how to get there

toda still didnt feel very happy. trying very hard otbe. especially at work.
all the more i need to be

anwyay, throat hurts very badly in middle of night.
=/ now still hurts. but i dunno why. not enough water u think?
imagien if i trasnfer. cannot even drink much. will be alone most of the tiem. how to go toilet =/ ridiculous i know. haiz

can feel the stress hitting me. i think maybe im the one giving myself alot of stress too ba
so eya=/
jsut thigns happened alot.. and. .it hit me quite hard ya know.

o well. haiz

now dunno whats next step. wanna hokiday . but.. .yea
need to clear leave before end of fy
mm
o well

oh yea. mom visited our store.
this uncle so nice. he took down our particulars. and also mine of course. then say oh u same year as my son.
then blah3... talked abit. say his son stil lschooling.
blah3. .lol. this uncle studied 2yrs of jap u know. he's quite good. but he gave up cos jap msut learn kanji. his chinese not good . so he deciede to give up. aw. .wasted eh
nothigns easy
but cna sense he's trying to u[sell his son or something. v funny and abit awekward

kk. gtg

dunno why my heart is still so heavy. =/
i gotta think brighter man.. otehrwise its hard=/
slpy liao. though slpt more than eight hours. dunno why. too tired or wat.
suddenly it dawned on me today that i am back to the tired mode pl.
yea. but im pushing myself to head out .so yea. i don wish to go back to the every off day stay at home pl.
maybe once wil ldo fine. but not all the tiem

rrly wondered if i shouldk head ot clark quay from my frens advice. but inn the end i decided not to. im stil lscared to do so.

jaa mata

lonely sometimes.