sad xmas dinner

sighs... now still stressing over how am i suppoesd to strt this conversation...to quit my job.
very stress. =/
hopefully they're free tmr. i need to settle it this week =/
though when they are nice, they are very nice. can joke can laugh. tlak frenkly etc. but sometimes.. its difficul for them to understand.. or trying to tlak to them.. or maybe their expectations wil lalways be so nhigh.
i dont know. i rrly dont.
but yea.
ytd morning was a nightmar. having slashed at for god knows hwat ive done. i am clueless.
ive done my best. i am clueless. what went wrong
i rrly dunno.
whatever ba
haiz
even if they are gonna get angry, ... =/ nothign i can do. jsut kena scold ba
was rrly crying out so badly  u know. maybe cos sterss all break loose
but yea. eyes swollen.
whole day crying .somemore not enough, rgm tlaked to me. not in a scolding manner but yea tlak3...
i din even bother to explain or fend for myself. useless. pointless.
yes. it is tempting when ur colleagues ask u to think thrice. one of them even came back. soon after quitting.
rgm was also saying how ppl wanted to return cos they thought its greener over the other side of job)
even in australia.
he was saing how all his working experineces, this company is the best.. the ppl all so nice. etc.
yes. all very tempting. but the unhappiness and the job wise ..the things to do..etc .its too much. enogh is enough ba

ytd  .worst day ever. sad day ever =(
sad looking face, swollen eyes, no mood at all. din even take more than 5 photos
sighs. rrly no mood. rrly. ruined the bbq.

i know what my heart is saying. its not in this store now. i do want to get ot of here. i dislike working here.
i rrly do.
i am not happy working there.i am not looking foward weither. yes. ppl ar efrenly n nice to talk to. but sometimes u dunno what they're thinking either.
who kwnos maybe they are jealous youre close with certain higher ranking ppl, or u instructed them too much. etx
that happened before wat. with the melb sm and me. they jealous,.
wahtever

ok. finally tmr is the day. i know they're busy. but i do wish to se ethem
or talk to sm first.
i think they'll be shocked
i must be prepared for their angry or negative faces eh

lecturing ur staff in front of the other staff saying so tat person can learn from it,  its such a .. wtf thinking.
seriously .
wth.
i dont get it.

ha. itz interesting to se esammy saying working with frens these days
at one point he used to always tell me. frens are frens. colleagues are colleagues. htough i was trying to tell him colleagues can be frens too. but of course. when it comes tow ork, its all abt business. work. not play time. though yes, htere canbe play time. but at the righ ttime. with right amount .
so yea. maybe he see the point now huh? =)
thats why it seven more tricky n difficult whne you're telling someone close to u to do this and that. yes htey understand. but if they are those type of ppl who dont understan , thats it.
o well.
thinking they can get through anything cos they are frens with ppl in charge=.=
someites htey meant no harm , but jsut that they are not serious at work
jsut too playful

slpy. din slpt much... headache is coming.
late iao. dang =.= wakey too late huuuu

bro slp liao. im all alone.
sammy also slp liao .he slpt early today

im slping late otnight

oh yea. saw 3 bras i rrly like today. similar to the desigs i was searching for in aust. anyway, sadly,. .one of the design i wanted, is out of stock. and wont be coming. huuu =( sad.
rrly want all of them .so ncie u know.
one of the sales person sucks. a malay girl .dunno shes new or what. =. =
told her my size ,but i wasnt tat sure. then she measure. i told her c cup. but she say b. s i ry it on. luckily another china lady help me see.haha .she say i am very slim lol. XD shy me.
then yea she ssay i may need c cup. which is the size i was telling taht malay abt. but i jsut wasnt 100% sur eu see. dunno how she measure one .=.=
then ask that malay girl if these two bras deisgns are the same only diff colours? she say yea. same deisng only diff colours. then when the china lady handed me the black one, i realzied its diff desigsn from the purple one. =.=
dots
but yea. luckily she show me the black. but anyway, thats cos purple one no stocok liao. what a sham,e

kk. better get this blog over with.
gonna slp after watching abit mroe of cesar heh

mata