feeling down

ha. seems liek now i have the habit of listening to boas disturbance whenever i type blog.

gosh i feel terrible =(
sighs... feel so down and sad..
i dunnno what happened either.
its like every ounce of happiness jsut depleted off form me
=/

haiz.. .oh yea. so scary. heard rgm talked about his cat suddenly so fierce cos it seen a ghost.
hey wait ive blogged abt this eh
O.o

o well.

ah.. finally this third time .. lavender earl grey tea.. taste so much better now. wit the right amount of sweetness yet not too sweet.
i needed soemthing like lavender i guess... to relax abit. though i dunno how much thats gonna help.. but at least.. o well

soemthigns aint right with me i think. =/
its liek i cant smile at all. i just wanna be alone and keep quiet..
still feeling stress and sad .. feel like crying ..
its terrible. .extremely terrible =( ..
sighs.

u know .. it was so nice to sit at teadot cough. .drinking a cuppa nice tea.. reading book... it was a ver short while. yet so nice..
imagine if i have a small area like that... ha. probably i wont be onling all day long liao.
will jsut sit in comfort.. reading.. sipping away my tea along with my comfy kusy couch.
how nice

sighs.
rrly dunno whats wrong..
ever have that feeling where u cant feel any ounce of happiness in you> ?
i think i'd probably had this before. before i met sammy.
sighs.. wish this seventh month thign to be over soon..

cant wait to slow down my life alittle

mm.. could it be me?.. how come always felt better when drinking this tea.. lavender or me?
o well. dunno. at least tiny bit of better is better than jus tnow..
mm.. should try camomile necxt time eh. heard its good to relax one's mind too

am i all too stressed out or what
or too much happned , or too little time to make myself happY>?
i dunno what

o well..

everyday is a battle.

mm..
dunno what to say..

oh the other day had this customer. this lady.. bought so many thign. spend so much. from malaysia i think. she say her bf is from far away. i aked her long distance isit. she nods her head. ha. well.. nowadays alot of ppl does that ba.
so.. yea. .guess im not that surprised anymore.. even the v famous youtuber also. yea.. ppl always say their match make in heaven cos her bf is a model. french i think .v handsome
thats what ppl always says. ha

anyway..........
lvoe know sno boundaries ba

i miss him.
if only this visa thing can go through successfully
ahh.. changed to another boa's song now. sad one. ha.

k ba..

gotta stop brooding about it

slpy day its bene. cos slpt late last night.

jaa.. mata..

may i smiel again.. soon