sad day again

received a shocking news when my colleague told me of another colleague had the same female stalker. same situation.. etc.. whoa
freaky or waht. how dare she prey on my company girls =.=
insane or what. nid to warn all colleagues liao

anywya, another yet to be settle. rememebr this guy came in the other day?
sat i think. yup sat.
well. ytd he was here again. thank god i was off!!!
but officially yes i am kinda freaked out now. its like. .not knowing when he will arrive. its.. omg. sighs... please la............ =(
scaring me ne.
which part of him cant tell no means no?
what. must i reject him a second time or what.
its like. ..gosh. i cant stand it man.
=/
that constant fear of him coming back. dunno how many excuses i can come up with either.
dunno what he wan also =/
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
frustrating to the maz =(
i'll be scared out of my wits for sure.
dont tell me he's one of those guys who will not ever give up O.O crap. i wish not!!!
tch.... sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
=(
what he want ne... huu
creepy.
sadly nobody to defend me tmr. hoping please of all days tmr he will not arrive.. huuuu

mmm.. nice to hear from gm kind reply..
but certain issue u know.. its beyond my control. not like im from some rich family mah.
money could be the main issue ba.
though i tried my best to avoid the disappointment. .yet. cant help but cry about it. =(
i couldnt share this with anyone. not even my family .onl y few know. so yea..
actually i rrly wish to leave before xmas. if i can. but i nid to save up. .so i have a feeling its pretty impossible. =/
but rrly. how i wish to leave before xmas here
if in desperate case, dunno can bank loan anot. though sm always advice otherwise.

sighs.
trying to focus on being happy .. but seems so hard.
=/
good thign happened.. i received a voucher for tangs. yay. so yea.
cos being the toop three perfomer.
uh huh.
think i'll get something from nars ba
but not v sure what yet. mm

not in a gd mood.. in a foul sad down mood... last thin i wan is to see that man again.
its ognna be busy these days. so yea.
maybe if its busy maybe he wont dare do anything ba.
sianz.. .why always kena these guys

wanted to slp early. but perhaps not feeling well ytd.. rested some alrdy.. so end up at night diffcult in slping.
tonight shld be easy?
though last night i had alot of things on my mind.. making me sad and cant go to bed =/
will it be the same for tonight eh

ive always wanted to go there.. now that its coming true.. semes liek it might be taken away from me.. so near yet so far..
honestly. i don know what i need to do .
wha ti want to do. if this didnt work out.
i don know whats my goal ne..
the moment i though of that, ..yea. tats it.
dampening my mood only. ha

tired.. so tired. .lifes back to the same as it was
need shopping therapy
but.. must control.
guess im starting to shop once im stress huh. but after shop stress more .
so yea. sold be fine ba. still in control eh

mm.. k ba
maybe i should try to get an early night. forget al lthese problems
forget everytign for a few hours
mm

jaa na