bz weekend =/

omg. so busy. sm off on these two busy days. how nice eh. either that or she'll leave at 5pm, or 530. very early.
so unfair =(
then all these bz thigns we need to do ourselves.
so busy like hell.
seriously. i cant imagine tmr= =/ sighs
will be so much worse than todya.
hwoever, these two days sm not ard me very happy though. uh huh
relax abit. no need see her mood changes here and then

anwyay, mm.. my back still red ..kinda. yea. but at lest pain is almost all gone .so scary sunburnt. =/ nvr get so red before my skin. huuuuuuu

anwayy, i still like the sea ba. yea.
cos u knwo me. i like water. so no swimmingpool, at least theres
sea. ha. though not the best one .at one point i thought i saw a small fish swam passed XD lol
i dunno. imagination maybe. but i was scared. still scared. but not of drowning. more of sharks and fishes. .jelly fish.. .read online childern kena jelly fish sting. dunn ohwo long ago la the news. maybe not true. but i dunno. im still scared.
it sliek we as humans are in their world now. sea. so we're the preys. at any time. if in australia....,........ i dun even iknow if i'll have the courage to go into sea anot even if its near. even with sammy ard. cos so many sharks there=( scary

kk omg so late

jaa mata!! huuu bzzzzzzzz=(

whats up ahead?

mm.. actually nothing to blog abt=/
jsut so slpy
mm... v busy n tired. ver  sianz =/
alot to be done
so much customers to serve.
not happy
less enjoyment of freedom
sighs''

dunno the future. dunno wat i want
i think i know but its like not easy
when  think abt it, its depressive=/
haiz. sianz

soemtimes. future. .when its gd its exciting to look forwward to. but when its cloudy,  din know wat to expect
its just so...
mm. dark

soslpy
need to rest =/

hopefuly tmr will fel better

sm not ard, me so happy

mata

sun tanning

omg totally forgot to blog =/
was like. hey got thigns to blog! bt me alrdy in bed lights off ==
rrly too bz with work and everything i dun have a gd memory no more=/

ok lets start

so... erm. sunday.  2 angmohs guys. looked young. one of them came in asked for direction. was with my colleague. he left thanked us, then looked back at me say thanks also. i din wanna think so much. then my colleague was laughing. she said the guy standing outside was checking me out. XD! lollllllllllllllllllllll
omg. i was laughing along. i rrly have no idea. m,y colleague are the ones who'll tell me all these. i find it amusing.
but luckily i nvr go up to htem and tell them one floor down. cos i almost did. but didnt as they were leaving, and my colleague din confirm with me
anwyay

monday. ytd. OMG.
this guy. phillipino guy
he ar.. omg. borrow a pen. returned, then borrow again. return. thanked me shakeed my hand .intro himself.
and keep asking if i need help. twice!! wth. i can do my won job mah. he's totally freaking me out. i told my sm alrdy .* roleld eyes.
its like. omg
i dunno wat to say

two weird encoutners in a roll. omg. sun and mon. luckily today im safe.

again stocktake on my off.
but today im in gd mood. i finally done something i've been wanting to try for a long time. but didnt dare to.
anway, was like. .so worried about hte weather. but good thing din rain till i was outta sentosa.
my first time there. =) at that beach .ha
was like. ..ohhh so this is how ppl tan.. how it feels like.
but me din rrly know wat to do ba. like. .how long. and stuff. if not for my bra strap, i dun think i'll actually go tan so long. ha.
but now my skin is abit painful =/
cos of my bra. .brushing against my skin.. still red mah

anwyay ,
yea.
but godo thing came outta it though.
i actually ventured into the sea!! though i cant swim. but i took a dip. something i wouldnt dare to try. but i decided to try . cos its quiet, i wont be so paiseh n shy. 2nd, my body alot of sandds liao irritating. third, its getting very boring. and i don wanna read my book for now.
so yea. its a nice dip. cmpared to my mini pool at home.
its cool, refreshing. and nice. though at the end of it all, i was like. .cant wait to get home and take a nice bath!!!! omg. hair kena sea water. =.= din wan that. but it happened.
so yea. now bra straps marks lessened, but theres bikjini marks. lol .duh. but its ok ba.
anway, wow. i rlry felt that burning bbq human sensation. omg. scary abit. cos i know its not gd to be under sun.
but i just cant stand that bra marks.XD llol so no choice but to go.
oh. sammy didnt scold though.  im surprised.
yea i know. its dangerous to go sunbathing actually/ =/.

mm. in a way, im happy cos im proud of myself. i stepped outta my comfort zone. into a place i nvr been to. having to do that in public, try something ive nvr done before. all alone. wow. so brave. O.o nvr thought i could do that. =)

anwayy, thirsty... v v thirsty..
huu.. how i wish to take off bra. =/ but  cannot cos im living with family here. haiz.
i wanna get married and live out =.=
XD hahaha.
o well

anwayy , htink i tan too muchXD erm. .shall see hwo tmr ba.
haha.

mm.. xmas is coming. .haiz. gonna spend money on bros pressy n xmas pressy again. oh dear=/
hope pay wont be late for dec.
bro boght lv heels for me. must be exp huh though its sale item. .wat should i get him. must spend alot too.. .mm=/ o well. shall figure ot waht ba

jaa mata

me so tired now. .and very sleepy but. overall, been a good day =) wow. hard to come by - good day

slow paced day

suddenly recaleld things

ok. and so....... amazingly, sammy actually is fine with me going for photoshoot ha. surprise2. =)
but yea. if theres extra cash why not. see how ba. not like theres always extra job to take on.
where got such eas money job right

mm..
slpy liao. had some quiet tiem. .
shop2.. gosh. rrly liek destress i guess=/
shop3.. haiz
spend money , haiz

anwyay,
im so not looknig forward tow ork at all. haiz. til lend of next week .still not looking forward to it =/
so yea. mood actually not so happy. not especially when sm is like. .haiz. i dunno ba

oh yea. bought my swimsuit XD haha. yea. cos my old pair liek long ago liao. somemore its not strapless.
ha. the sales person say i can fill u the cup, and with natural clevelage, i dun need push ups XD
of course happy to hear that la. lol.
but yea. haha .
nice compliment. like id said. girls compliment are better than men;

mm.. oh yea. i dunno why . whenever i wore nice top just normal top. liek cover up. like t shirt.
then with normal shorts. ppl will say so sexy ar. like. huh? rrly /wahs so sexy about that? O.o
everyone is wearing liek that mah. then all girls are so sexy here n there ar?
even lil malay kids dare say that to me when i walked passed. wth.
i just totally ignored n walk away liek their' idiots tlaking to themselves. me always walked away and looing ahead of me as though i din hear a thing .stupid ppl . no need pay attentiont othem =.=
cos thats waht they wan. attention. watever ba

raining now. .how nice to cosy up with sammy.
been a long day. but yet a relaxing one. kinda. cos of shopping ba. wihtout mum. .just alone time.. relax.. take my time. .walk2..
thinking about stuffs too.. had a nice bath n all..
cleared bit o fmy room..
uhh hu
trying not to think of tmr.. haiz
..
kk.. think i gtg ba
need to rest soon.
oh and read a book too before bro back..
watched movie. not that creepy it turned out==.
dots. but ok nonetheless ba

wat a rare off.

mata

short catch up

i am extremely slpeey and tired. i dun even wish to blog cos its a bad day

sighs. yea.. =/
....
dunn o.. dun wanna say either.

sm again ba

sighs

do this wrong. do that also wrong?

im splpy n tire.d din veen wish to blog this . =/ just hate the day

at lezst sammy is there to listen. sighs
stupid work

gosh cant htink straight.better hurry up and read abit before i slp. headache liao =/

today stocks alot n slpy..

hiz .gonna bad mood again
better slp soon

mata

stressful tired day

so extremely tired. can u imagine i couldnt slp? only had about 4 hrs of slp. then go work on my off day. omg. then niid to nap n rest. then get some dinner itme out iwth fren slast min.
sighs. tough day .glad the dinner's good enough.
had a nice fruit punch and bbq chicken. not cheap, but worth the hard days work ba. plus baka caffine.. haiz.

anwayy. .

this week is very tough like id said. im so not looking forward to it sighs= /

u know. sometimes i dunno what im thinking too.
very confused. i dunno wat is in the next few months to go. money is an issue. sighs.
so many things.
and my manager giving me probs again.. =/
ytd. did i blog? yea. .so upset. sighs. =/ i dunno la..
haiz then my charger got problem. .tch

i rrly wsih to take some time out to relax again .but not now. =/
huu.
busy3 not enough manpower. sighs
help2..

oh. bene getting ppl still thinking im 18 or 19. good compliment la .but. u know me. very shy. my fren suggested me not to cut bangs liao. cos it made me look younger. and i gues thats not good? like.. yea. duno ba. confusing.
i think i'll outgrow my fringe longer then see how. alot of hairstylst since last time keep asking why i dun perm my hair. omg .expesnive mah .see how. maybe one day eh. dunno .ha

mm... o well

k ba. thats abou tit. me been having trouble slpign.
like. din get to slp long.
tch. work3...
haiz

im so tired. xmas period always so tired.
if new store  not open yet, if me stil las asm, i think i'd better apply for few days leave before my sm go into labour leave. but i dunno when ne
then dec she say wat. die2 must take leave help her mum move house. but dec such a busy period for all of us. sighs. .

=/ someitme sits difficult to balance out al lstuffs.
...

why suddenly im sad. guess im too stress out ba. a short dinner trip helped a lil only. thats all.

haiz

mata

tired out again

i am sooo slpy n tired.xsoryr bene so tired out to blog=/

nothign much.

bad day at work. not enough slp and res.t my brain headache n slwloolem
think my eyes also affected =( like swollen huuuuu
not gd

gonna slp now. less than 6 hrs of slp again sighsssssss
 =((((((((99 boooooo

i du even know wast goin on in my life now. work3... busy3.. im so frustrated. very sianz. haizzzzzzzzzzzz

help

gonna break down liao.

sorry blog just bene boring lately i know. nothing to write. have. but sometimes i cant remember anything at all =/ dfang it

jaa

haiz. .long day

omg. =/ bad morning sighs. but anway, .. long story ba. just glad day is over. lots of stocks .its crazy =( haiz...
more thigs to do in days to come .sianz =/
..baka desu
unfair

anway, at night at leats happier ne.
but. .still abit slpy ba. long day. like fullshift =/

haiz. tickets still ever so expensive. .=/
wonder if sammy always so kind to gib rides to his frens. hope he wont be taken advantage of eh

mm// like. .now abit tire.d more slpy ba. but.. .weird. kinda like. .still got strength left .O.o i wonder why

anwyay, liek always. rgm alwasy expect his staffs to sacrifice. wat take early break. .wat 15mins hsort break.. where got enough u tell me.

anway forget it

my book... ha. yea im trying to read more. on the way there. ..
not so interesting much yet. .but getting there i think .XD

today used my basic jap skill on jap customers. ha. cos they paying mah. so yea.
sometimes simple english they don undersatnd.

anwya, it always makes me feel so good when i used jap. be it with japnese or with frens. i ffel happy and comfortable .=}) mm.. haiz. if only i have the wil to keep learning eh. see how ba. o well

jaa mata

another long day to coem =/

boring day.. busy soon =/

my long week just about to start. =/ todya been pretyt boring and peaceful since stocsk not here. but. .tmr. .o well. .we shal lsee=/ 

haiz. ..

been stress lately dunno for what. gosh. no wonder face now pimple pop out =.= 

mm... just gotta get through this period of time ba. sianz ne

i cant wait to off=/ 

soemtimes just so stressful at work. 

soemtimes wanna get out of sg . not living here..not working here. nothing wrong with here ba. .jus that maybe.. i wanna know more ppl, i wan new place, i wan new workstyle .dunno. weird huh

ha. ive been repeatingly playing boas only one song. XD

o well

hope im able to read somemore before i slp.  uh huh. 

mata

reading time

so slpy. wil lblog fast.

huuuu fell aslp again .nvr completely watch finish nightmare before xmas. bro just played it. he tried wakey me up. i fell aslp once again =/ feel so bad. =/
huuu
but yea.... too slpy n tired

saw this trailer of upcoming movie. so i bought the book. and another special book. i cant wait to start reading them up.
reading.. yea. somehting i wanna do but not been doing. like. not very me ba= /ha
but  i wanna try. cos the imagination of reading is so vast and fun. =)
you'll be hte only perso to know who n hows the charscters looked lke in ur head

anwyay, yea. the book with no name. .i didnt read finish at all . hte one i bought from kinokuniya at sydney. XD! lol...... omg. i hope my two new books wont end up liek htat

huuu drench again .o well... =/ rain3.. sianz

me ver tired n slpy now huu

kk mata time to rest!!

sleepy day short blog =/

so thirsty... anway, fast day.. kinda. but boring in abit
gosh. slpy. v slpy...
think maybe cos of energy drink tats why im thirsty?? i dunno... im starting to think so

haiz... rrly wish to go back australia. .though wanna go travel esle where too.. but money3.. =/ haiz............... then bro saying next pay then pay me back. =/
how ar.
= /tch duno ba. .se ehow...........
hopefull ycan go back. .budget3.. haiz

ytd too tired. nothing to blog. so yea. me stopped halfway. decieded to blog tonight instead.

mm. .something happened. .wat ar i forgot. ..mm............. omg. bad memory again =/

anwayym hauizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i dunno wat to do

sianz

think imma sing more. .then slp soon

huu =(
boring

i dunno wat to type.

k ba. sorry

mata

wet from head to toe =.=

omg.

and so... hey wait. have i blog about xmas dinner? i did right? i rrly cant remmeber wahst been blog or not =(
so busy.
anwyay, yea xmas dinenr just simpler . dinenr. tlak abit. bioring. eat =.= then takeaway leftovers. by rgm la. he say giv me and otehr managers. anwyay, mum n bro loved it. ha. they ate all .
mm. yea. so funny. then when we left, the food staller say 'goodbye pauline' . at first i thought i heard wrong. so i just smield say gdbye. then my cilleague say how come he know ur name ? htne i was like. huh. omg. he rrly know my name. so scary .lol. nah think becos my rgm or colleagues called me by name so somehow the foodstalelr also know ba. so weird. say gdbye in my name=.=

oh. todya . i just recalled. out with mum .then as i was walking, this chinese man or china man. standing behind opened carboot. stared at me!!! i get frustrated. so i look at him purposely. but he not scared. kept staring non stop. OMG..................... help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee so i walked on faster. sianz =/ =omg. some men.. so thick skin .

haiz =/

anwyay, though tof movie. but din. then wanna shop. but couldnt get the thing i wanted. v exp too. mm...
huuu i nid more money. =(

howwwww

mm.. anwyay, was drenched again .comepetley totally. luckily nvr wear white. omg. heavy rian. no shelter. rain so long. hair wet. veerything wet. wore white shorts. but luckily not wet la my shorts.
geezzzzzzzzz

mm. but very slpey. worke up too ealry. =.= yet not tired=) i rather be slpy than tired.
the feelign of not being tired is awesome .omg.
so yea. even htough i was out for abit, im not that tired u know =) just yea. wan slp more now ba

mm.. thats abo tit? i hope wont have to go through heavy rain again =( so far i think i can rememebr. ..about 5 times alryd? i encountered such like shower in rain kinda situation.
omg. sianz.

kk jaa mata ne

good day. but not quite. haiz

busy lifestyle

mm... bad bad day i guess=/ ..
u know. sometimes in life stuffs happens..
youre confused.. and.. dunno what to do.. which is which. .wat is wat.. .wat u want.. what is real.. wat is just illusions... .
=/
its pretty much confusing.
life is so difficult and full of challenges ahead
soetimes. .it can be more of pains than happiness

so slpy today

imma head to bed soon. though just eaten only
... mmm

dunno wat else been ahppenin
work has beenso crowded every single day. busy7..... non stop. so much to do. not enough time
v tired
slpy. i nid more energy

haiz..... stress. went t o shop today
=/
o well
but yea.
just shop.. ..

slpy. .kk. gtg ba. i think im just not that happy today. ...when u thought everythign is right, ..somethig happened andtookk that thought away from u..

mata

finally sg beach

i ma SO tired. morning and work today din go well. sighs. i dun wanna say anything ba.
cos very stressful. sm not gd today. alot of thigns. blah3
sighs. ... hiours doing the lights.. detangled it. .etc

ok. i gotta try and relax.

anyway
mm........
yea. oh ytd went to beach. omg. sentosa beach. my first time! sea was so blueee =)
blue and nice. sunny .for an hour? i duno .short while only. then it started raining. too bad i cant swim. and im shy to wear swimwear. lol. so me walk along beach only. BUT. i still like. cos get to suntan . haha .always wanted to try it out. though its the same in syd. with sammy. just walk.. then that time omg. syd sun power. make my skin so red.
my skin also abit red ba. but im naturally nborned not so pale and fair. so i think im easily tan ba. not super tan type. but just darker abit u know. =)
still nice.ahh those vic d. me don have the habit of putting on sunscreen so yea haha. oops

anyway
so tired. ive got 0 energy left=(
hate my sm huuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

okok.enoug about work. im stress.

wat else. omg. im tired till dunno wats been happening in my life =.=
rrly. been busy with xmas work stuff. its.. haiz. so much to do within a hosrt time

kk .i rrly gotta rest n catch up on my slp.

jaa mata=/

stupid woman

sometimes its like. .when u thought u get to know everything, then.. .ended up therere questions again.. humans are difficult..... sighs

anyway, my middle finger. .after a few weeks. .finally  bettter... not 100% healed.. still numb abit. but yea ... better liao. still not gd. but better than before
am tryign to peel off hte blood cot dead skin though
huuuu

stupid manager today said somethign got me al lpissed off and wanting rto cursed. badly.
baka woman. sighs. .job job job.. .i dunno ba. .sianz

oh yea. todya my long itme no see fren dropped by!! omg. still din get to see his gf. but he said shes heading back to melb soon =/ .. cos she couldnt find a job in sg. aww......... i thought it'll be easy. u knw. seems like alot of rules been tighten liao. if not signaporean, then v difficult to get a job in sg. sg now standards so high. eveyrthing is good. if can work here, its like wah so blessed. haha.

anywya, yea. so nice to see him =)
send my regards to rest of our frens too. a pity we dont have much tie too meet up and stuff. haizzzzzz
then alwzys like that. soon after, my colleagues off today. dropped by say hi. one of them nvr see for a long time too. haha .so nice to see them =)
alwyas like that. no eon vivist. then if have, more than one will drop by. lol

mm.god. late alrdy. gotta rest. tough day at work eh. bz while manager relaxes in storeroom .head home early. leave the bloody tough work to all of us.. .

sighs forget it.
tmr will be a better day

mata