words.. cant describe how i feel now =(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( sigsh.... =////
stupid action, cause me so heartpain...
and hte loading sooo bloody slow now=((( such a simple thing turn out this bloody way.. sighs.ss...
so stupid...
stupid9999
shi*... how could this have happen>? one simple step could;ve solved everything. but thanks to stupid refresh, sh*t.... =((( so sad now.. sighs. .veyr 3 bottom sad.. i feel so down =(((
this couldn'te suck more. i duno.
sianz... totaly ruined my night. day was good. not bad.
only sam's words manage to calm me down.. still, i feel so .. .sighs..
sianz.. soo overy sianz.. though i found another number i do liek a lil.. stil li feel that hte previous one i sthe best=( sighs... but if i let go of hte number ilike now, duno ..... ....wil li regret again likw now anot. .gosh. .this is disgusting. .i ahte making a choice liek this!!!!!!
sighs.. in the ned . though i do like hte number.. i duno. i guess.. im giving it up.. so yea.. =/
no mood to eat either. .so hungry.. but yea.. =(( where got mood to eat still? haiz.. only nbecos sam want me to eat, then i think i would be just.. tyr to eat abit of meats or what.. so yea. haiz............
=/ feel so down.. may tmr be a beter day.
todya work was alrite. it was all good. me in my top shape to work and stuff.
haiz. .but with a night liek this,.. sianz righ=(
theres 2 angmoh guys drop by our shop today. gosh my colleague soo ofunny. long story. don wan explain. so yea. .i gues to most girls, they are deem as very goodlooking=.= , my fren say he saw the tag on one of the guy.. he;s a doc at ch or sumitn.
then me only do my usual job.. smile and say hi. then somehow when my colleague took them to other side, and show them stuffs, then they walk back,.... ok.. just when they walk back, i was serving this customer. jus nice. so i walk to counter, oh yea.. todya whole day slpy.. haiz. luky busy enuff.. anyway, so yea. .i served cust at counter.. hten when im done, my manager told me that they seem to be wanting to takl to me. i was like NO WAY... =.=''''''
then she say the blonde guy when outta the shop, stil lkeep standing outside and look at me, then my manager was like. .looking back at him, tehn back to me.. like turn2 head.. looking at what he's looking at. omg. maybe she see wrong. then she say one of hte non blode guy walk past shop.. but he neve r look in ba.
i was like. .no.. u saw wrong. .she say its true.. and say im a very attractive person. dotsssssssssssssss... ok.. its nice compliment. but.. omg. .. too much alreayd ba.. me where go tso nice. geez!!
then today, my collegua, came up from behind, and say eihter somehing, or he go boo! then me shocked, and scream out loud. omgggggggggg =.=''''' everyoje including all customer slok at me. all laugh, and my collegaus also laugh till cry sia. omg... so paiseh.. hopefully the custoerm swont complain. hiz. he's so playful. dots... luckily my manger not around. otherwis espells trouble.
so yea. .these 2 events happened.. and tonmight.. the 3rd one. .sighs.. tough luck. trying to refresh apage.. i have no idea its gonna happen. .somehow it wasnt my fault i know. .cos i din know a thing, and ma trying to chec k out the voucher which couldnt be clikc! but i stil lblame myself. sianz..
stupid..
i keep on forgetting. .just take thigns easy.. u knwo.. sighs.. =/ tch.. i shoudlnt get so stress and upset over al lthese. .just let it go.. i duno.. its tough.. i tlak to bro and redz sometiems, like. .sighs. .they never pay attention.. i dun feel so.. =/ lack of care is what i felt.. =( huuu....
sad huh.. o well..
sighs.. then what else.. o well.. tch.. .why is getting a phone numbe so bloody togh.. gosh...
its jus tme i gues.o well.
hai.z.. me haven eat yet.. so not good. .geez.... still no mood to eat. i gotta try and let go... o well. .hope i'll learn it soon.. just u know... o well..
tough on myself isnt good at all. only harmful to me.
suddenly felt as though im back to those days before i met sam.
but not tottaly same.. cos.. yea. .at least i have smoeone to share some woes with.. and.. o well.
tch. .sianz.. kk.. me wil lbrace up real soon eh.. i hope. .being busy at work really helps.. so yea..
sighs.. sianz.. tch. .thinking abou hte stupid mistake.. gosh!!!!!!
oh yea. .my boss husband ne, sold his housem in order to help our boss get her dreams fulfilled, cos he think it could work too. her plans. so he sold it, omg.. so.. wow.. yea. .huge risk, but he relaly did it. and see hwat happen =') its worjht it... gosh.. look at the shop now.. =) aw.w.... tough, but they pull it through. wow.. thats why i really respect them.
mata!!
31 August 2010
30 August 2010
Memory DOwn
oh dear... sighs.. memory been bad enough. not say that serious.. but yea.. like. .thinknig about one thing, hten next second, when wanna note it down. i will be like. .huh?? what was i thinking about just now?? then today, my colleague 's name also took such a long time to recall. not say long.. but awhile.. then trying to remember hwat my 2 other frens names just now, also couldnt remember.. omg.... this is not good. sighs... im focusing my sights on the wrong thing i guess=/
dream.. ha.. yea.. had a deam.. of him.. was like hanging on tight to him.. cos knowing htat im gonna leave.. then.. yea.. snuggle.. walk close2.. ...ha. o well. .better don think now. will sad.
did i mention this>?? i duno.. the other night or last night? i was crossing carpark again. .then initially was focusin on any cars nearby, hten somehow mind wanders off to duno where.. then think4... me alreyad passed the carpark. and was looing down on the road all the time. =.= if a car come runnig down towards me from carpark, i wouldnt be typing here liao =.= dots.. omg.. im sooo gonna do my best to kick this habit man.. haiz... sooo not good. evrythign not good now=( sighsssssssss
oh thta day met my fren sin bugis right, lol. forogt to mention. i was looking at stuff, co smy fren always late. grrr=.=
then i turn my head, right in front of me theres this beautiful bridal gown. lol.. my first reaction? i was like ''oh god, shi*.'' XD lol.. was so funny.. that was my first thought! ha. .cos yea..u know my situation.. thats why see gowns, wil lbe alil.. yea.. ha. .o well
today a customer, very nice, decent looking, with the accent of erm.. i duno.. british accent? hte one harry potter accent. .yea. .that. he bought something from us after me intro him blah3 stuffs.. then like. he ask fo rmy number, insists on asking me out for a drink. DOTSsssssssssssssssssssssss -_-.....
veyr nice person, but that is soo and too weird cos im not single. by dropping by sg 2 to 6v times a year, uh huh.. no.. i hope he wont patronize our shop again. so paiseh. .dots... -_-'''
so weird.. like.. yea.. why so many.. o well.
anyway, couldnt be bother. just hope tmr he wont drop by. =.=
sg is gonna have 6.5 million of population... hmmm.... i don mind... but. .just dont give us anymore bloddy philipinos.. haiz.. yea. .alot of my angmoh customers, say htey alreayd living in sg 2 years ago.. i wonder hwat happened i2 years ago.. hmm....
mnaybe thats when hte gonverment started all those migration eh?
o well.... even on national day, u see angmohs among the crows=,= i was like. . o..k.. something new.. XD like.. uh huh.. imagine they say the pledge as such.. ha.. o well
phone... tch... soo much chepaer.. haiz.. how3??? haiz.. i duno.. .=/
hm.. well.. starhub huh.. .. o well. i duno. but i got a feeling after getting sam's reply. , im gonna decide alreyad.. and i think. .im heading for it tmr night. so yea.. o well..
btw, singtel at ion sucks!!! the service suckx!!!!!!!!!! omg.. dont ever go there. sianz.. =.=
idiots there. but by rading negatives comments with starhub and singel, omg. .i hope my phone whichever line it is, will turn out fine=. / other wise throuble brews.
sighs. .2am alreayd=/ slping at this time again.. haiz.. oh ytd slpt earlier abit. .so yea..
o well.. wake up to another day ba.. i hope its good=/ i duno.. sighs..
haiz.. i thought destress could only be done with his smile and love.. yea. .perhaps like he said.. i should plan a night outside then.. duno what to do yet.. =/ haiz. .o well... see how ba.. stil la long time to go.. but maybe need to 'book' ppl first. dots. arghhh.. .going crazy alreayd. so many thigns to handle.. =/
haiz... ... what should i do....... either go somewhere i liek to relax, or go somewhere new.. to try out new places.. well, lets just hope next day shift wont give me probs!
shrugs* that could wait. its like another 3 weeks to go. let me worry about my 8 shift sfirst T_T....
2.15am.. im slpy and tired.. sighs..
hm/ /.wonderng when was the last time i mention in my blog htat i was happy? wonder which blog was that.
dots. .with my mrmory like that, i dont think i could remember =.= like anything. dots. arghhhh
k.. haiz. .think me gonna hit the sack now =/
tch... why is my off always 6 shifts after=(
mata....................... ..
dream.. ha.. yea.. had a deam.. of him.. was like hanging on tight to him.. cos knowing htat im gonna leave.. then.. yea.. snuggle.. walk close2.. ...ha. o well. .better don think now. will sad.
did i mention this>?? i duno.. the other night or last night? i was crossing carpark again. .then initially was focusin on any cars nearby, hten somehow mind wanders off to duno where.. then think4... me alreyad passed the carpark. and was looing down on the road all the time. =.= if a car come runnig down towards me from carpark, i wouldnt be typing here liao =.= dots.. omg.. im sooo gonna do my best to kick this habit man.. haiz... sooo not good. evrythign not good now=( sighsssssssss
oh thta day met my fren sin bugis right, lol. forogt to mention. i was looking at stuff, co smy fren always late. grrr=.=
then i turn my head, right in front of me theres this beautiful bridal gown. lol.. my first reaction? i was like ''oh god, shi*.'' XD lol.. was so funny.. that was my first thought! ha. .cos yea..u know my situation.. thats why see gowns, wil lbe alil.. yea.. ha. .o well
today a customer, very nice, decent looking, with the accent of erm.. i duno.. british accent? hte one harry potter accent. .yea. .that. he bought something from us after me intro him blah3 stuffs.. then like. he ask fo rmy number, insists on asking me out for a drink. DOTSsssssssssssssssssssssss -_-.....
veyr nice person, but that is soo and too weird cos im not single. by dropping by sg 2 to 6v times a year, uh huh.. no.. i hope he wont patronize our shop again. so paiseh. .dots... -_-'''
so weird.. like.. yea.. why so many.. o well.
anyway, couldnt be bother. just hope tmr he wont drop by. =.=
sg is gonna have 6.5 million of population... hmmm.... i don mind... but. .just dont give us anymore bloddy philipinos.. haiz.. yea. .alot of my angmoh customers, say htey alreayd living in sg 2 years ago.. i wonder hwat happened i2 years ago.. hmm....
mnaybe thats when hte gonverment started all those migration eh?
o well.... even on national day, u see angmohs among the crows=,= i was like. . o..k.. something new.. XD like.. uh huh.. imagine they say the pledge as such.. ha.. o well
phone... tch... soo much chepaer.. haiz.. how3??? haiz.. i duno.. .=/
hm.. well.. starhub huh.. .. o well. i duno. but i got a feeling after getting sam's reply. , im gonna decide alreyad.. and i think. .im heading for it tmr night. so yea.. o well..
btw, singtel at ion sucks!!! the service suckx!!!!!!!!!! omg.. dont ever go there. sianz.. =.=
idiots there. but by rading negatives comments with starhub and singel, omg. .i hope my phone whichever line it is, will turn out fine=. / other wise throuble brews.
sighs. .2am alreayd=/ slping at this time again.. haiz.. oh ytd slpt earlier abit. .so yea..
o well.. wake up to another day ba.. i hope its good=/ i duno.. sighs..
haiz.. i thought destress could only be done with his smile and love.. yea. .perhaps like he said.. i should plan a night outside then.. duno what to do yet.. =/ haiz. .o well... see how ba.. stil la long time to go.. but maybe need to 'book' ppl first. dots. arghhh.. .going crazy alreayd. so many thigns to handle.. =/
haiz... ... what should i do....... either go somewhere i liek to relax, or go somewhere new.. to try out new places.. well, lets just hope next day shift wont give me probs!
shrugs* that could wait. its like another 3 weeks to go. let me worry about my 8 shift sfirst T_T....
2.15am.. im slpy and tired.. sighs..
hm/ /.wonderng when was the last time i mention in my blog htat i was happy? wonder which blog was that.
dots. .with my mrmory like that, i dont think i could remember =.= like anything. dots. arghhhh
k.. haiz. .think me gonna hit the sack now =/
tch... why is my off always 6 shifts after=(
mata....................... ..
29 August 2010
Which lines??
realy didnt feel like blogging.. cos sooo slpy!!!! wana slp now.. haiyo..
k.. today nothign much.. just work as usual. .bought a dress which i called it almost as perfect^^ it totally suits my style. i duno hwat ppl hink, i just know htta its for me. love at first sight! ^^ hee.
today had a dream about this ring, hten when wakey, gosh.. really wish that it was real.. me so wanna buy it!!! so pretty, so unique the design.. haiyo... abit forogt how it looks like.. but yea.. still, wow.. wish it was real.
yawn3.. todya slpy.. but lucky theres work to be done.. gosh.. so much to complete..
-_- anyway, haiz.. ok...
seems liek i have to check out some phoones thingy.. o well...
i never ever expect that i might be going for singtel line. .. ha. o well.
shall see how then.. yay. .glad my watch reparied alreayd.. now my hanging necklace .. hm.. i hope it will be alrite.. i like it so much.. i hope it wont spoiled.. especially only after a few days.
was talking to sam about it.. ha.. he sounds so hyper today. =) thast good eh.
erm.. so yea.. starhub.. hm.. i got a feeling tehy will have free incoming calls.. however,... .. hm.. well, i dont call to mcuhh.. so yea.. should be fine. .
o well. tmr hope will get some answer ba.
k, shan't talk further. im so slpy no.w. .wanna slp =/
mata!!
k.. today nothign much.. just work as usual. .bought a dress which i called it almost as perfect^^ it totally suits my style. i duno hwat ppl hink, i just know htta its for me. love at first sight! ^^ hee.
today had a dream about this ring, hten when wakey, gosh.. really wish that it was real.. me so wanna buy it!!! so pretty, so unique the design.. haiyo... abit forogt how it looks like.. but yea.. still, wow.. wish it was real.
yawn3.. todya slpy.. but lucky theres work to be done.. gosh.. so much to complete..
-_- anyway, haiz.. ok...
seems liek i have to check out some phoones thingy.. o well...
i never ever expect that i might be going for singtel line. .. ha. o well.
shall see how then.. yay. .glad my watch reparied alreayd.. now my hanging necklace .. hm.. i hope it will be alrite.. i like it so much.. i hope it wont spoiled.. especially only after a few days.
was talking to sam about it.. ha.. he sounds so hyper today. =) thast good eh.
erm.. so yea.. starhub.. hm.. i got a feeling tehy will have free incoming calls.. however,... .. hm.. well, i dont call to mcuhh.. so yea.. should be fine. .
o well. tmr hope will get some answer ba.
k, shan't talk further. im so slpy no.w. .wanna slp =/
mata!!
28 August 2010
It's ok to like different things =)
yes.. what sammy said is right. .don think so much.. just know that he truly love me..
yea.. i will try to concentrate on that..
the most important fact. .is for him to love me right..
ah.. he's back.. somehow, i liek my swty who protects me, and keep me grounded. thoguh meaning cant do certain thigns, (like going on trips alone) but yea.. i liek that.
^^ thats my baby.
yea.. me. .suddenly feel lik egoign to london.. one dya... one dya.. maybe backpack alone> ? but so expensive. =/ if only could go with sam.. but yea.. this drema seems so far cetched fo rnow. o well.
10months to go.. cmon.. i can do this..
today sighs.. .bad day =( bad bad day.. haiz.. stupid irritating guy.. got me all so angry again... what to do.. o well..
haiz.........
anyway, today thertes a custoemr, name so special. never heard of. feel so weird when wrapping presys in front of customer, then they start to chat2.. dots.. feel soooo weird. .-_-'''' so stress liek that. just hurry over with the wrappings lor.. waht tdo do.
ah.. u know what.. im gonan have the bext nicest unique name fo rmy children in future. wait. .cannot.. cos.. if i find it unique, most likely hte results will be like.. ppl dont get it, and don like. =.= huu...
i guess thats about it huh.. becos of my taste, i dun think alot of ppl would understand, or yea..
they sure do find it difficult to find me a pressy! lol.
but its ok.. they don understand.. me understand myself can lreayd.. i know hwat i like. how different i like, so? what does it matter. ..i duno.. but. .thats not importantl.. important is, accepting who i am.. and i like im different. erm. .as in taste..
instead of pursuing the thigns ppl like , im glad, that i like thigns which most girls wouldnt understand why.
so yup... ^^ yay...
but downside, haiyo.. so difficult to find thigs i like. .see.. huuu watch broke=( sighs... now no watch. .wanna find one, also duno wher eto get.. cos me taste diff, not say look at 10 watches, i will like 8 out of 10. so hard to find.
luckily still go tmy hanging watch..
o wel.. bear with it for now ba.. hope can be repaired..
i really like my watch.. haiz.. i hope htat unique watch of mine will get done soon =/
one in a miullion ne.. huu.. i really hope it'll turn out fine..
earrings.. haiz.. lost one of them..
see.. so hard to find another..design.. o well. .earrings i try to wear old ones first ba..
gosh, im so slpy,, back pain too.. haiz.. k, better go slp
mata
yea.. i will try to concentrate on that..
the most important fact. .is for him to love me right..
ah.. he's back.. somehow, i liek my swty who protects me, and keep me grounded. thoguh meaning cant do certain thigns, (like going on trips alone) but yea.. i liek that.
^^ thats my baby.
yea.. me. .suddenly feel lik egoign to london.. one dya... one dya.. maybe backpack alone> ? but so expensive. =/ if only could go with sam.. but yea.. this drema seems so far cetched fo rnow. o well.
10months to go.. cmon.. i can do this..
today sighs.. .bad day =( bad bad day.. haiz.. stupid irritating guy.. got me all so angry again... what to do.. o well..
haiz.........
anyway, today thertes a custoemr, name so special. never heard of. feel so weird when wrapping presys in front of customer, then they start to chat2.. dots.. feel soooo weird. .-_-'''' so stress liek that. just hurry over with the wrappings lor.. waht tdo do.
ah.. u know what.. im gonan have the bext nicest unique name fo rmy children in future. wait. .cannot.. cos.. if i find it unique, most likely hte results will be like.. ppl dont get it, and don like. =.= huu...
i guess thats about it huh.. becos of my taste, i dun think alot of ppl would understand, or yea..
they sure do find it difficult to find me a pressy! lol.
but its ok.. they don understand.. me understand myself can lreayd.. i know hwat i like. how different i like, so? what does it matter. ..i duno.. but. .thats not importantl.. important is, accepting who i am.. and i like im different. erm. .as in taste..
instead of pursuing the thigns ppl like , im glad, that i like thigns which most girls wouldnt understand why.
so yup... ^^ yay...
but downside, haiyo.. so difficult to find thigs i like. .see.. huuu watch broke=( sighs... now no watch. .wanna find one, also duno wher eto get.. cos me taste diff, not say look at 10 watches, i will like 8 out of 10. so hard to find.
luckily still go tmy hanging watch..
o wel.. bear with it for now ba.. hope can be repaired..
i really like my watch.. haiz.. i hope htat unique watch of mine will get done soon =/
one in a miullion ne.. huu.. i really hope it'll turn out fine..
earrings.. haiz.. lost one of them..
see.. so hard to find another..design.. o well. .earrings i try to wear old ones first ba..
gosh, im so slpy,, back pain too.. haiz.. k, better go slp
mata
27 August 2010
Whatever new goal that is =/
bro say he was knocking so long at my door.. but.. i didnt hear anything at all!! maybe cos my fan is on.. plus im doing alot of thinking... o well..
bah
u know.. todays topic.. how to destress myself. i truly thought about it, and i cum up with no answer.
my only happiness lies with sammy.. u know. .time always spend with him happily.. that is how i look forward to life.
then suddenly.. work starts again.. tch... reahc home, clos eeyes, back to work.. endure the 9 hours. u know how that feels? then close eyes, wake up, work again.. tiem i spend with my colleguaes, my customers.. i think before long, i would've remember more than 10 regualr custs alreayd.
yea. definitely.
hm... .stress huh.. i never realy look at it and wonder. till jus now.. and.. yea. .theres no solution i guess.
today thought of heading back , then ask sam about the ieda of me going to see him.. in jan. but hten.. yea...
u knwo>
then .. chat3... was like.. .realized.. theres a limit.. and.. by july, i nid to get out.. to some place.. fresh air.. i duno. whatveer. i made a plan.. the most 3 months before july 2011, i should be bookign my tickets. and i will be going to sydney before my birthday. in case sam for whatever reason, couldnt come see me, i dun wanna risk spending myh birthdya all alone in sydney. so yea. im so gonna do that.
but i wont be so stupid. like my manager.. lol. .go walk ard beach at that time. alone somemore. yea.. even if walking ard alone, at least the park, or pubs outside still have ppl ne. .so safer abnit. .
but anyway, yea. .htat shold be my plan for now.
at least i have somehting to hold onto.. i know where im going. with uncertainties, i find it so hard, so so difficult to move on...
if only i could learn to be like sam.. look far, and hold on..
but im goig crazy alreyad.. just wanna see him. .and u know. .mish him too much.. i guess.. my intake aint that strong compared to him..
sighs.. whatever happen, happens. .i have my target now. duno if i will change it in futture, but for now, at least theres plans to hold on to.. let me know where im going, how im gonna get there..
so yes..
sighs.. .couldnt wait any longer i supposed.. ..
anyway, after his holiday, even if dec or nov i couldnt take anymore leave. might as well on july. just do it. don waste it.
ah shoot.. then so troublesome if wanna bring laptop over. oh dang.. never thoguht of it =.=
ahh.. whatever!! thast liek next year. sooooooooooooooooo long later. sianz.. donw an thi nknow. o well.. just grab a goal and move on.. =/
almost 2am.. guess imma slp late abit huh... o wel..
hm........ o well. whatever it is, will try out his way huh.. try out his ..
try to look forward ..far one.. long3 ahead one. .i duno.. but. .just . .try i guess??
oh. .hope next year will have natas fair again. .at the right timing.
should be alrite..
argh.. sianz. at the thoguht of so long later =(((((((
sighs.........
why one year passed, me still .. like.. sighs... like couldnt find a way to accept yet?to get use to..
sux..
sigsh..
o wel.. work my way off for now. .
u know, i got 8 bloody shifts straight? ha. .i duno.. like. .=/ .. sighs........... what to do... ........
tch. ......
sianz..
sep is gonna be tough, oh btw, yay, finally can change back to white colour tops. woots! been waiting for that!!! haha... so yup.. great.
.so many things.. i thogth all must be share it out. .now i realized.. its actuall ynothign to just keep quiet.........
its weird..
its confuses me.. but welll, just learn along hte way..
was chatting wiht my colleague. .how to handle ppl.. erm, that sort of thing. sighs.. u knwo, lets not tlak about this. =/ alrayd.. thigns revolving ard me.. its yea.. too much.
haiz.. k.. so.. thats all folks..
...........may i find my way.. somehow.. back to those days....... =/
its not near that time of month.. i think i might know why im so sad right now.. its almost fullmoon. =/ yes.. if u guys been reading since day 1, u might remmeber sumtin about it eh> ? yea.. thx to my horoscope =.= argh.... anyway, yup. i hate it. sighs... thc ar.. fullmoon.. make me suffer so much more by realising more.
ohm colleague also ask me to watch out for coleaguers.. i understans. .but duno isit becos they said sumtin behind my back or what. that, i duno. then the stupid guy, heard from my colleague that he say im more like the manager alreyad.. liek so sarcartisic, sianz.
o well .i dun give a d***n about him. whatever. all i can do now, is learn, work, learn.. hang on for my dear life.. blah3...
look forward to my ultimate july let off... .thast it. if ned be mwill smuggle my lappy there. though its gonna be one hell of a trip troublesome for my lappy -_-
so sianz..... tch.. k.. just hang on for another day ba..
sighs.. i hate fullmoon when its causes me sad...
i hate it.. .=/
mata
bah
u know.. todays topic.. how to destress myself. i truly thought about it, and i cum up with no answer.
my only happiness lies with sammy.. u know. .time always spend with him happily.. that is how i look forward to life.
then suddenly.. work starts again.. tch... reahc home, clos eeyes, back to work.. endure the 9 hours. u know how that feels? then close eyes, wake up, work again.. tiem i spend with my colleguaes, my customers.. i think before long, i would've remember more than 10 regualr custs alreayd.
yea. definitely.
hm... .stress huh.. i never realy look at it and wonder. till jus now.. and.. yea. .theres no solution i guess.
today thought of heading back , then ask sam about the ieda of me going to see him.. in jan. but hten.. yea...
u knwo>
then .. chat3... was like.. .realized.. theres a limit.. and.. by july, i nid to get out.. to some place.. fresh air.. i duno. whatveer. i made a plan.. the most 3 months before july 2011, i should be bookign my tickets. and i will be going to sydney before my birthday. in case sam for whatever reason, couldnt come see me, i dun wanna risk spending myh birthdya all alone in sydney. so yea. im so gonna do that.
but i wont be so stupid. like my manager.. lol. .go walk ard beach at that time. alone somemore. yea.. even if walking ard alone, at least the park, or pubs outside still have ppl ne. .so safer abnit. .
but anyway, yea. .htat shold be my plan for now.
at least i have somehting to hold onto.. i know where im going. with uncertainties, i find it so hard, so so difficult to move on...
if only i could learn to be like sam.. look far, and hold on..
but im goig crazy alreyad.. just wanna see him. .and u know. .mish him too much.. i guess.. my intake aint that strong compared to him..
sighs.. whatever happen, happens. .i have my target now. duno if i will change it in futture, but for now, at least theres plans to hold on to.. let me know where im going, how im gonna get there..
so yes..
sighs.. .couldnt wait any longer i supposed.. ..
anyway, after his holiday, even if dec or nov i couldnt take anymore leave. might as well on july. just do it. don waste it.
ah shoot.. then so troublesome if wanna bring laptop over. oh dang.. never thoguht of it =.=
ahh.. whatever!! thast liek next year. sooooooooooooooooo long later. sianz.. donw an thi nknow. o well.. just grab a goal and move on.. =/
almost 2am.. guess imma slp late abit huh... o wel..
hm........ o well. whatever it is, will try out his way huh.. try out his ..
try to look forward ..far one.. long3 ahead one. .i duno.. but. .just . .try i guess??
oh. .hope next year will have natas fair again. .at the right timing.
should be alrite..
argh.. sianz. at the thoguht of so long later =(((((((
sighs.........
why one year passed, me still .. like.. sighs... like couldnt find a way to accept yet?to get use to..
sux..
sigsh..
o wel.. work my way off for now. .
u know, i got 8 bloody shifts straight? ha. .i duno.. like. .=/ .. sighs........... what to do... ........
tch. ......
sianz..
sep is gonna be tough, oh btw, yay, finally can change back to white colour tops. woots! been waiting for that!!! haha... so yup.. great.
.so many things.. i thogth all must be share it out. .now i realized.. its actuall ynothign to just keep quiet.........
its weird..
its confuses me.. but welll, just learn along hte way..
was chatting wiht my colleague. .how to handle ppl.. erm, that sort of thing. sighs.. u knwo, lets not tlak about this. =/ alrayd.. thigns revolving ard me.. its yea.. too much.
haiz.. k.. so.. thats all folks..
...........may i find my way.. somehow.. back to those days....... =/
its not near that time of month.. i think i might know why im so sad right now.. its almost fullmoon. =/ yes.. if u guys been reading since day 1, u might remmeber sumtin about it eh> ? yea.. thx to my horoscope =.= argh.... anyway, yup. i hate it. sighs... thc ar.. fullmoon.. make me suffer so much more by realising more.
ohm colleague also ask me to watch out for coleaguers.. i understans. .but duno isit becos they said sumtin behind my back or what. that, i duno. then the stupid guy, heard from my colleague that he say im more like the manager alreyad.. liek so sarcartisic, sianz.
o well .i dun give a d***n about him. whatever. all i can do now, is learn, work, learn.. hang on for my dear life.. blah3...
look forward to my ultimate july let off... .thast it. if ned be mwill smuggle my lappy there. though its gonna be one hell of a trip troublesome for my lappy -_-
so sianz..... tch.. k.. just hang on for another day ba..
sighs.. i hate fullmoon when its causes me sad...
i hate it.. .=/
mata
26 August 2010
BORED
sigh.. back to work soon. .shifts changed.. sux.. =((
what to do.. can only hang on.. duno what else to do.. i kinda miss hanging out at night =./
anyway, today been so bored.. =/ online9 till sick of it. .nothign to do.. =(((
very bored.. same old hting. .sighs... =(
was htinking.. of how to change my lfie... =/ how to makeit different.. while let some thigns remain the same...
i duno.. answer yet.. sighs..
so sianz..............
i really dread heading to bed right now=/ meaning im headin to worksoon.. sighs..
not all that bad. it does keep my mind off certain thigns.. yet.. yea.. its tiring u know..
hope tmr busy ba=/
o well...
if u asked me between today and ytd,... i duno which day to prefer. to head out, or be at home being bored and waiting..
i duno.
tch... relaly wish tmr off.. ha. o well.
hmmmm
coming to sep eh.. thats a good thing..
next 3 months are gonna be crucial.
busy and busy i hope. just let the periods gone.
im stress today. heavy hearted.
very. im not sur e why either. just felt a stone in my heart. sux dude.. =/
the stone aint relaly lifted yet. goodhhting i get to watch a movie with sam.. ashort while..better than nothign eh.
haiz..... o well. k.. i htink i;d better get a shower, and slp..
...weird.. just realsied.. my neck watch still moving.. i didnt twine it ne.. it stopped... then it moved again O.o i like it so much that i thought of slping wiht it lastnight.. then like.. hm.. nbah.. doesnt feel right. lol. betetr dont. ha. newly bought item ne.. u never know. XD naywy, cant wait to wear it to work tmr. yes.. hope its gonna last.
haiz.... argh!!!! hang on for my work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.. just han gon..
better than to stay at home huh.. todya.. feels lonoely abit. .cos bro and redz went out.. yea..me at home. .duno what tod o.. so bored.. no sam.. no one. .just wnt to eat with mum.. sighs.... =(
i duno what to do with my life somehtinms.. the empty space left behind by sam..
oh.. hope he get to earn money tmr ba..
=/ wish i could tak eit the same way as he do...to me.
mata
what to do.. can only hang on.. duno what else to do.. i kinda miss hanging out at night =./
anyway, today been so bored.. =/ online9 till sick of it. .nothign to do.. =(((
very bored.. same old hting. .sighs... =(
was htinking.. of how to change my lfie... =/ how to makeit different.. while let some thigns remain the same...
i duno.. answer yet.. sighs..
so sianz..............
i really dread heading to bed right now=/ meaning im headin to worksoon.. sighs..
not all that bad. it does keep my mind off certain thigns.. yet.. yea.. its tiring u know..
hope tmr busy ba=/
o well...
if u asked me between today and ytd,... i duno which day to prefer. to head out, or be at home being bored and waiting..
i duno.
tch... relaly wish tmr off.. ha. o well.
hmmmm
coming to sep eh.. thats a good thing..
next 3 months are gonna be crucial.
busy and busy i hope. just let the periods gone.
im stress today. heavy hearted.
very. im not sur e why either. just felt a stone in my heart. sux dude.. =/
the stone aint relaly lifted yet. goodhhting i get to watch a movie with sam.. ashort while..better than nothign eh.
haiz..... o well. k.. i htink i;d better get a shower, and slp..
...weird.. just realsied.. my neck watch still moving.. i didnt twine it ne.. it stopped... then it moved again O.o i like it so much that i thought of slping wiht it lastnight.. then like.. hm.. nbah.. doesnt feel right. lol. betetr dont. ha. newly bought item ne.. u never know. XD naywy, cant wait to wear it to work tmr. yes.. hope its gonna last.
haiz.... argh!!!! hang on for my work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.. just han gon..
better than to stay at home huh.. todya.. feels lonoely abit. .cos bro and redz went out.. yea..me at home. .duno what tod o.. so bored.. no sam.. no one. .just wnt to eat with mum.. sighs.... =(
i duno what to do with my life somehtinms.. the empty space left behind by sam..
oh.. hope he get to earn money tmr ba..
=/ wish i could tak eit the same way as he do...to me.
mata
25 August 2010
Whole Day Out
no wonder it sounded so familiar.. O.o sep 16... thought his event is on the fri.. then he say thurs.. cos usually its on fri.. o well... no wonde rme get confused.. then theres another event going on... -_-
i know.. so many eh? i wonde rwhat all these ppl do seriously. sometimes it just pisses me off. but.. o well.. sometimes things couldnt be help the way u wish it would be..
o well.. .
like.. how he would feel feel ervey day and night cos im all alone here.. i dno.. i never heard him say that before.. so. .yea.. was a lil surprised.. like.. oh.. isit? i didnt know u feel that way.. yea.. kinda that feeling..like.. was wondering..wow.. its reaL?
wow. .so cool.. our sg school uni.. nus is actually the top school.. i mena. .as in. .like if u get the cert there, then yea.. wow. so cool right! didnt know its like that.
hm... nothing much todya.. like whole day passed by so fast.. but i duno.. good and bad ba.. at least i dun have to stay home hte whole day.. then wondeirng u know... =/ at least i have something to get my mind of..
hm.. then.. yea.. frens always late. gosh.. can die ne.. -_-
then .. found very special thing ne. .its a auto' watch necklace. its sooo awesome looking and unique to me. at a cheap price! yea.. thats why so happy. ha.
oh, theres lappy me like too.
huu.. .went to arcade today.. then.. so many new very2 cool machines.. haiz.. and reminded me of sam so much =( heart so sad.. .. hiaz.......................
todya so cool. cos was out with ex colleagues, hten ione of htem bump into one more fren on the way. omg.
so sudden.like a reunion!! hahha.. been so long sinc ewe met. omg.. but am glad. cos wondering how each person is going ..
nice.
haiz.....
u know.. just came to realise.. maybe i always get stress, and being unhappy.. becos all the time of my free time i spend, is stay at home, or just work.. i hardly have any time to destress. actually today also neve reall ydestress much =/ the last tiem i truly destress was about couple of months ago. with my frens at the pub. thast all. then.. yea.. form then onwards.. nothing much alreayd..
no oneto destress with.. no sammy to pick me up from work. nothign to look forward to. .everythign is same .. =(
haiz..besides coping for work, i gotta cope with how i could move on and stuff..
u know =/ .. haiz...
very tough. =/ but gotta hold on to faith..
heart still hurts.. theres so many things to think aboutl... tch
today phone... hmm.. i duno.. no idea if i should make an order or whta.. haiz... duno which line to get..
o well..
suddenly. .stomach not good.. so bloated.. like. uncomfy..
haiz............
what good are white lies.... =( the aint white at all.. only hurt ppl =(
and so easy to see through... =/
haiz. another night gone... another day gone.. at least today i speak to sam alil more..
yeah.. at least me din wait by the lappy till 9pm.. dots.. wouldve been so. .yea..
bah......................................................
come to think of it.. though i don hav eso many parties going on.. oh yea.. just recalled.. i just turn down one today=/ hjaiz..... o well. .... otherwise sam sure worried.
anyway..
when was the last time i had one?
tch... i duno... like.. monthssssss ago??/ yea. u bet it is.
hmm... i wonder how to get life abck in shape.. i duno... =( really dont...
so difficult to do anything..
sighs.. k.. me tired alryad.. so late now.. gotta slp soon.. but too full=./
o well....
stomoahc still uncomfy.. huu..
kthen.. me log off now.. haiz.......
tch. .what to do ne.. .... =/
mata
i know.. so many eh? i wonde rwhat all these ppl do seriously. sometimes it just pisses me off. but.. o well.. sometimes things couldnt be help the way u wish it would be..
o well.. .
like.. how he would feel feel ervey day and night cos im all alone here.. i dno.. i never heard him say that before.. so. .yea.. was a lil surprised.. like.. oh.. isit? i didnt know u feel that way.. yea.. kinda that feeling..like.. was wondering..wow.. its reaL?
wow. .so cool.. our sg school uni.. nus is actually the top school.. i mena. .as in. .like if u get the cert there, then yea.. wow. so cool right! didnt know its like that.
hm... nothing much todya.. like whole day passed by so fast.. but i duno.. good and bad ba.. at least i dun have to stay home hte whole day.. then wondeirng u know... =/ at least i have something to get my mind of..
hm.. then.. yea.. frens always late. gosh.. can die ne.. -_-
then .. found very special thing ne. .its a auto' watch necklace. its sooo awesome looking and unique to me. at a cheap price! yea.. thats why so happy. ha.
oh, theres lappy me like too.
huu.. .went to arcade today.. then.. so many new very2 cool machines.. haiz.. and reminded me of sam so much =( heart so sad.. .. hiaz.......................
todya so cool. cos was out with ex colleagues, hten ione of htem bump into one more fren on the way. omg.
so sudden.like a reunion!! hahha.. been so long sinc ewe met. omg.. but am glad. cos wondering how each person is going ..
nice.
haiz.....
u know.. just came to realise.. maybe i always get stress, and being unhappy.. becos all the time of my free time i spend, is stay at home, or just work.. i hardly have any time to destress. actually today also neve reall ydestress much =/ the last tiem i truly destress was about couple of months ago. with my frens at the pub. thast all. then.. yea.. form then onwards.. nothing much alreayd..
no oneto destress with.. no sammy to pick me up from work. nothign to look forward to. .everythign is same .. =(
haiz..besides coping for work, i gotta cope with how i could move on and stuff..
u know =/ .. haiz...
very tough. =/ but gotta hold on to faith..
heart still hurts.. theres so many things to think aboutl... tch
today phone... hmm.. i duno.. no idea if i should make an order or whta.. haiz... duno which line to get..
o well..
suddenly. .stomach not good.. so bloated.. like. uncomfy..
haiz............
what good are white lies.... =( the aint white at all.. only hurt ppl =(
and so easy to see through... =/
haiz. another night gone... another day gone.. at least today i speak to sam alil more..
yeah.. at least me din wait by the lappy till 9pm.. dots.. wouldve been so. .yea..
bah......................................................
come to think of it.. though i don hav eso many parties going on.. oh yea.. just recalled.. i just turn down one today=/ hjaiz..... o well. .... otherwise sam sure worried.
anyway..
when was the last time i had one?
tch... i duno... like.. monthssssss ago??/ yea. u bet it is.
hmm... i wonder how to get life abck in shape.. i duno... =( really dont...
so difficult to do anything..
sighs.. k.. me tired alryad.. so late now.. gotta slp soon.. but too full=./
o well....
stomoahc still uncomfy.. huu..
kthen.. me log off now.. haiz.......
tch. .what to do ne.. .... =/
mata
24 August 2010
About Work
hmm.. abit worried about how the pay is going on.. and the public holiday.. haiz..
o well..
cerain thigns if only they could act like sabrina =/
anyway, my dya.. gosh.. met this irritating guy =,=
long story. like a bug. so .. argh.. now i dont dare to stand near entrance , both entrances!
like.. dun likeppl watching =.,= difficult to explain.. anywya, gosh.. im so full now
and so slpy..
hm... tch.. wonder how the working life would be like after 2 weeks. .when my fren is gone.. haiz...
long story. .anyway, today sale aint bad ne. hehe.
hm.. k.. stop tlaking about wprk alreyad ..
hmmm... nothing much to say here.. o well..
-forever his girl-
mata
o well..
cerain thigns if only they could act like sabrina =/
anyway, my dya.. gosh.. met this irritating guy =,=
long story. like a bug. so .. argh.. now i dont dare to stand near entrance , both entrances!
like.. dun likeppl watching =.,= difficult to explain.. anywya, gosh.. im so full now
and so slpy..
hm... tch.. wonder how the working life would be like after 2 weeks. .when my fren is gone.. haiz...
long story. .anyway, today sale aint bad ne. hehe.
hm.. k.. stop tlaking about wprk alreyad ..
hmmm... nothing much to say here.. o well..
-forever his girl-
mata
23 August 2010
Work!!
so tired.itss been a long day. long2 day.. so much to leanr and absorb… well, got my first email report send out to th eimportant ppl todya. gosh.. hope i done a great one.
bt yea. good thing its a fast passing day.
tmr still got some work to settle. yay.. glad im able to stay at this workplave.. but… .just a lil worried if i might be doing the job more than what i should do in future? cos.. yea.. when u have 2 ppl in charge left in the shop. basically u’ll be doing alot more.
o well.. see how ba. will hang on and pull through xmas. the ta da, 2011 alreay! i cant wait.. as long as i see 2011.. that’ll remind m ethat i cna se ehim soon. and not in a year’s time.
while having a talk with my manager todya, he mentioned that my melb manager is comfortable working with me.
i was abit surprised. did my manger said tha to him>? if so, i mena. .well, thast nice.. nice thing to say.
hm.. tmr.. o well.. i hope i can perform as good as the past few days .. i was good.really. but when gotta work in front of manager,.. abit shy and.. i duno.. im doing my hardest to change that. strived my best to open up, and yea. .
hm… hai. .just work3 today..
hm.. very2 slpy…
took a nap just now.. then wakey.. gosh.. liek so tired and miserable. .dots..
k, me wanna go rest i guess.. wah stil learly ne. ha. but yea..
jaa, mata
bt yea. good thing its a fast passing day.
tmr still got some work to settle. yay.. glad im able to stay at this workplave.. but… .just a lil worried if i might be doing the job more than what i should do in future? cos.. yea.. when u have 2 ppl in charge left in the shop. basically u’ll be doing alot more.
o well.. see how ba. will hang on and pull through xmas. the ta da, 2011 alreay! i cant wait.. as long as i see 2011.. that’ll remind m ethat i cna se ehim soon. and not in a year’s time.
while having a talk with my manager todya, he mentioned that my melb manager is comfortable working with me.
i was abit surprised. did my manger said tha to him>? if so, i mena. .well, thast nice.. nice thing to say.
hm.. tmr.. o well.. i hope i can perform as good as the past few days .. i was good.really. but when gotta work in front of manager,.. abit shy and.. i duno.. im doing my hardest to change that. strived my best to open up, and yea. .
hm… hai. .just work3 today..
hm.. very2 slpy…
took a nap just now.. then wakey.. gosh.. liek so tired and miserable. .dots..
k, me wanna go rest i guess.. wah stil learly ne. ha. but yea..
jaa, mata
22 August 2010
CHanged
let me tell u my day today aites.
so.. morning.. forfe myself to wake up even though im very slpy.
cos i slpt at 3am last night.
then. .had breakfst with parents.. no appatite.. but just et..
then went ntuc.. but was so slpy.. i couldnt go on anymore.. so head back first.
then, decided to take a nap. then sam finally online.
then.. cos happy, me go make coffee, and go find movie for our date tonight.
then =/ sighs.. such a difficult time to find. took me about 2 hours=/ .. sighs....
i want action adventrue movie, but none of them is available.
hten no choice.. just setle on another movie. which is quite good..
but.. soghs.. it just .. =/ ends.. liek. ...o wlel. i dun wnan think back. =(
anyway, after thatm me get to my work, gottta do a report, prepare for tmr. yea. so.. o well. finaly done. took me about an hour =.=
then.. work. .then bath.. then nap again =/
its a .. i duno. .boring day, quiet day> i duno =(
sighs.. sux to end it this way.. movie half way, then a goner. =(
it reminded me back to 2009 again.. i duno what shoudl i do. i feel confused all over again. but i won look back at my blog. something is diff back then. so yea..
oh god.. it totally sux.. i thoguht finally after a long wait, i could ifnally enjoy my night be ahppy wiht a movie. then it ended up liek this. =( wth. its too late to load. =( and we ended up halfway. .it was a good night. .adn it could be a gd night to end with=(
sux... =((((((((((((( o well.. haiz
i wonder if i should change my thinkings sometiems. i should. but im afraid it might not be good.
chatted with him for about 2hours today. yea.....
o well..
duno wat to do now.. .
looking bakc at my whole day down today.. what do u think?
*breathes out...
how should i change these...............
ha.. gosh.. suddely i feel like isngins in ktv.. huu.. so long since i did that =/
last week or so, long ago.. i push through th eheavy doors to go toilet.. a bunch of guys was behind me. .then so paiseh.. one of them said 'wah so stong..' =.= omg.. so paishe sia.. but me yea.. me like that wat.. wont push softly like u know.. o well. thats me.
i hate to sense changes.. it sux...
it makes u wonde rwhy, and whats the prob.
=/ o well.. some thigns are not meant to look back=(
and i tyr not to....
that'll be good eh ..
o well. beter not tlak now.. gotta rest huh.. haiz......... tch... what should i do..
'
mata
so.. morning.. forfe myself to wake up even though im very slpy.
cos i slpt at 3am last night.
then. .had breakfst with parents.. no appatite.. but just et..
then went ntuc.. but was so slpy.. i couldnt go on anymore.. so head back first.
then, decided to take a nap. then sam finally online.
then.. cos happy, me go make coffee, and go find movie for our date tonight.
then =/ sighs.. such a difficult time to find. took me about 2 hours=/ .. sighs....
i want action adventrue movie, but none of them is available.
hten no choice.. just setle on another movie. which is quite good..
but.. soghs.. it just .. =/ ends.. liek. ...o wlel. i dun wnan think back. =(
anyway, after thatm me get to my work, gottta do a report, prepare for tmr. yea. so.. o well. finaly done. took me about an hour =.=
then.. work. .then bath.. then nap again =/
its a .. i duno. .boring day, quiet day> i duno =(
sighs.. sux to end it this way.. movie half way, then a goner. =(
it reminded me back to 2009 again.. i duno what shoudl i do. i feel confused all over again. but i won look back at my blog. something is diff back then. so yea..
oh god.. it totally sux.. i thoguht finally after a long wait, i could ifnally enjoy my night be ahppy wiht a movie. then it ended up liek this. =( wth. its too late to load. =( and we ended up halfway. .it was a good night. .adn it could be a gd night to end with=(
sux... =((((((((((((( o well.. haiz
i wonder if i should change my thinkings sometiems. i should. but im afraid it might not be good.
chatted with him for about 2hours today. yea.....
o well..
duno wat to do now.. .
looking bakc at my whole day down today.. what do u think?
*breathes out...
how should i change these...............
ha.. gosh.. suddely i feel like isngins in ktv.. huu.. so long since i did that =/
last week or so, long ago.. i push through th eheavy doors to go toilet.. a bunch of guys was behind me. .then so paiseh.. one of them said 'wah so stong..' =.= omg.. so paishe sia.. but me yea.. me like that wat.. wont push softly like u know.. o well. thats me.
i hate to sense changes.. it sux...
it makes u wonde rwhy, and whats the prob.
=/ o well.. some thigns are not meant to look back=(
and i tyr not to....
that'll be good eh ..
o well. beter not tlak now.. gotta rest huh.. haiz......... tch... what should i do..
'
mata
21 August 2010
Trust The Inner Beauty
oh yes.. everything changes when u lok from another point of view.. aske dsam what esle are there in sydney that is niec, he say anything with me is nice. and yea. .thats true. .it doest matter wheere i am, where i walk, if im with him, holding hands, i htink thats a blessed alreayd eh.
ha.. was missing him so much after the cam session ended..dots. then ye.. had aother cam session just now..
oh no.. so late alreayd. .me tot of mrg head for breakfsast with mum. been way too long since i had sunday off=/
haiz.. but tmr still got some work to settle-/ sianz. .feels like homework =.= yea.. that kind of feeling. o well. cant wait to get it over with.
hm..
im soo tired now. .gosh.. huu..
headache just now.. during closing.. till now.. but after med, me better liao.
oh, was crossing at the opening of carparks.. i forgot. soo ototally forgotten that its a carpark =.=''''' dotsssss ah bishy me. was on the phone, and totally3 forgotten that i should be careful when crossing that path. dotsss so baka. everyime me on phone,will always forgot about the cars. =.= wth.. haiz.. anyway, a car was coming down towards the opening.. i was talking. .then i turn to my right, and theres a car up there coming down =.= imagine if it was driving fast comign down, i would've been whack!! omg.. that was close man.. phew.. so scary.. especially after watchign the car video.. posted on my facebook btw.. so scary.. anytime cars could've knock u down as easy as a picec of cake.=/
o well.. im gonna try harder to be alert. but.. gosh i duno. so fr.. maybe i kept forgetting eh>? i always tried so hard to look out for cars liek since i met sam, but.. alwyas still so .. ha. forgotXD. esepcially when im thinking of sumthing, or lookey at phone. =.= thats so not good ne. omg..
yea. .gotta try harder and harder not to .. yea..
oh. .forgot to tell sam about work. haizyo.. =/
o well.. sad ne. .next week onwards. wont be able to tlak much at all ..=/ o well.................
haiz ..waht to do.
oh, i know im ok.. good at work.. but. .i didnt realised how good i mightve been. after the review with manager.. its liek. wow.. i didnt know i was that good.. its like. .wow.. im glad to be able to do so =')
and im proud of myself.. sobxx. .ha
oh. .forgot to say this to sam too =( haiz. .see. .alot of thigns .. haiz..
u know.. my shop was playing this song.. like. .calssic.. whatever.. erm. those music that ppl play when dancing in ballroom? yes.. thats the kind of soothing musical music.. omg.. i was liek dancing away.. lol. i hope no one see!!!! i was moving my feet as i picture myself dancing with sammy.. lol. XD soo onice. =) cant help my legs.. ha.
so auto.. relaly like. .yea.. ballroom dacne. with him. .aw.. auto move. ha.only leggie moving aorund.. my hands not moving of course. =.= dont think wrong.
today busy.. but.. yea.. not so bad. .at least theres thigns to do, and time flies. .thats good.
time pass.. is always good now =/
haiz..
what else...
oh, feelt so special.. when saw sam smiling onlyh to me.. =;) ha.. yea.. he turn to face me with such a vibrant smile.. =')
sobx.. im so glad and honour to have that for me..
slpy,, gosh.. gonna be 3am. .how am i gonna wakey.. o well. .must force myself. .i dont think im getting another sun off anytime soon.
hm.. k.. gona log off now and go o bed..
'will love u forever, no matter what happen.. always loving you..'
today theres like 3 guys came into our shop. then my colleague was liek asking me, oh they very handsome right? i look, at hte entrance to where he's pointing.. i turn bck, asked.. where? then i saw.. i look back at him, shake my head.. =.= with that expression on my face. lol. then he 's like so surprised.. no meh?? well, to other girls, they should htink they are consider as handsome or gdlooking ba.
i gave a quick turn and look, tehn face him again and say. nope. shaking my head. LOL. he really asked the wrong person. XD! lol. then he ask then what kind of man is handsome? i took a long time to think ,. haha.. cos i only think sam is the most charming of all. then try to think of tv stars.. duno . lol. so difficult . hahahha...
but above all if u ask me, my answer is still the same. the one with the personailty wins. not the face, not theclothings.. u can tell form a person's vibes.. their insides.. yeah.. thats the koind of charm with all ages and bodies, is what i called the true er.. beauty? dots.. anyway yea.. hwat im tyring to say is.. yea.. u have to see the inside, thats the true beauty.. pretyt face alone doesnt work on me yea. =. it just dont. and.. yea.. im glad i feel that way.
well, im lucky enough to have the best man ever. hahaha... =P
but its sacry soemtimes. .to love someone so deeply.. putting your faith at risk.. and trusting them not to hurt u, or tear u apart..
..its very firghtening.. but.. well... thats part of what love does eh...
k, 3am is up. gonna head to bed. gosh.. .hope i wont regret wakey early. stil lgot work to do after breakfsat, then must find movie.. haiyo.. hope wont take long. .
so yup..
ps. i hate bringing work back tohome. thast so not right
oh, and yes.. the 'old' me when i first started out is back. i am back. and i do hope to remain this way, and not lost myself again.
mata ne
ha.. was missing him so much after the cam session ended..dots. then ye.. had aother cam session just now..
oh no.. so late alreayd. .me tot of mrg head for breakfsast with mum. been way too long since i had sunday off=/
haiz.. but tmr still got some work to settle-/ sianz. .feels like homework =.= yea.. that kind of feeling. o well. cant wait to get it over with.
hm..
im soo tired now. .gosh.. huu..
headache just now.. during closing.. till now.. but after med, me better liao.
oh, was crossing at the opening of carparks.. i forgot. soo ototally forgotten that its a carpark =.=''''' dotsssss ah bishy me. was on the phone, and totally3 forgotten that i should be careful when crossing that path. dotsss so baka. everyime me on phone,will always forgot about the cars. =.= wth.. haiz.. anyway, a car was coming down towards the opening.. i was talking. .then i turn to my right, and theres a car up there coming down =.= imagine if it was driving fast comign down, i would've been whack!! omg.. that was close man.. phew.. so scary.. especially after watchign the car video.. posted on my facebook btw.. so scary.. anytime cars could've knock u down as easy as a picec of cake.=/
o well.. im gonna try harder to be alert. but.. gosh i duno. so fr.. maybe i kept forgetting eh>? i always tried so hard to look out for cars liek since i met sam, but.. alwyas still so .. ha. forgotXD. esepcially when im thinking of sumthing, or lookey at phone. =.= thats so not good ne. omg..
yea. .gotta try harder and harder not to .. yea..
oh. .forgot to tell sam about work. haizyo.. =/
o well.. sad ne. .next week onwards. wont be able to tlak much at all ..=/ o well.................
haiz ..waht to do.
oh, i know im ok.. good at work.. but. .i didnt realised how good i mightve been. after the review with manager.. its liek. wow.. i didnt know i was that good.. its like. .wow.. im glad to be able to do so =')
and im proud of myself.. sobxx. .ha
oh. .forgot to say this to sam too =( haiz. .see. .alot of thigns .. haiz..
u know.. my shop was playing this song.. like. .calssic.. whatever.. erm. those music that ppl play when dancing in ballroom? yes.. thats the kind of soothing musical music.. omg.. i was liek dancing away.. lol. i hope no one see!!!! i was moving my feet as i picture myself dancing with sammy.. lol. XD soo onice. =) cant help my legs.. ha.
so auto.. relaly like. .yea.. ballroom dacne. with him. .aw.. auto move. ha.only leggie moving aorund.. my hands not moving of course. =.= dont think wrong.
today busy.. but.. yea.. not so bad. .at least theres thigns to do, and time flies. .thats good.
time pass.. is always good now =/
haiz..
what else...
oh, feelt so special.. when saw sam smiling onlyh to me.. =;) ha.. yea.. he turn to face me with such a vibrant smile.. =')
sobx.. im so glad and honour to have that for me..
slpy,, gosh.. gonna be 3am. .how am i gonna wakey.. o well. .must force myself. .i dont think im getting another sun off anytime soon.
hm.. k.. gona log off now and go o bed..
'will love u forever, no matter what happen.. always loving you..'
today theres like 3 guys came into our shop. then my colleague was liek asking me, oh they very handsome right? i look, at hte entrance to where he's pointing.. i turn bck, asked.. where? then i saw.. i look back at him, shake my head.. =.= with that expression on my face. lol. then he 's like so surprised.. no meh?? well, to other girls, they should htink they are consider as handsome or gdlooking ba.
i gave a quick turn and look, tehn face him again and say. nope. shaking my head. LOL. he really asked the wrong person. XD! lol. then he ask then what kind of man is handsome? i took a long time to think ,. haha.. cos i only think sam is the most charming of all. then try to think of tv stars.. duno . lol. so difficult . hahahha...
but above all if u ask me, my answer is still the same. the one with the personailty wins. not the face, not theclothings.. u can tell form a person's vibes.. their insides.. yeah.. thats the koind of charm with all ages and bodies, is what i called the true er.. beauty? dots.. anyway yea.. hwat im tyring to say is.. yea.. u have to see the inside, thats the true beauty.. pretyt face alone doesnt work on me yea. =. it just dont. and.. yea.. im glad i feel that way.
well, im lucky enough to have the best man ever. hahaha... =P
but its sacry soemtimes. .to love someone so deeply.. putting your faith at risk.. and trusting them not to hurt u, or tear u apart..
..its very firghtening.. but.. well... thats part of what love does eh...
k, 3am is up. gonna head to bed. gosh.. .hope i wont regret wakey early. stil lgot work to do after breakfsat, then must find movie.. haiyo.. hope wont take long. .
so yup..
ps. i hate bringing work back tohome. thast so not right
oh, and yes.. the 'old' me when i first started out is back. i am back. and i do hope to remain this way, and not lost myself again.
mata ne
20 August 2010
Living Lifestyles
wasnt the best mornging..
o well.. i duno..
haiyo.. now my thorat.. abit weird.. thx to my fren =.,= wjho keep on coughign.. omg.. and i sort of make fun of that tooXD my karma.. lol
hm... sianz... tch
o well.. just work it out ba=/ tonight can do watever i want. .just think of it this way
ever wonde rif u should tell somebody's mistakes? or when you need them to change somethin? its alwasy a must if u wan improvement. ppl tell me my job mistakes, i iomprove, i tell them, they improve. just so that they know. but other thn work, say between ppl.. family.. frens.. etc.. what if u are wondering should u be telling them about it becos u knew that there is this possibiility that they might changed. and say its good of course if they do change an feel happy.. both hapy. but hwat if.. that person changed while feeling abit distraught, and forces him or herself to change? ah.. now u get what i mena eh> i wonder.. how to deal with this kind of situation.. when u knew that the person might be forced to make changes cos of u. and.. forcing isnt always good. cos its insincere. and that'll be another mistake coming from the same person. add on to that =.=
o well.. duno ba. just wonding about how some life matters could be resolved.. life is so difficult alreyad.. every day is a struggle.
haiz.........
o yea. .future huh.. last niht sam was talking about how it would be if i really do 'climp up' to my poisition one day, IF that is, then hows it gonna be like. .
u know,. i think thall be great. anyway, my company wanna takeover this world. XD lol. not that serious. but yes.. they wanna open in every part of world. like how LV, prada.. u know? eveyrwheer u could see them.
i think.. next stop besides sg.. would be KL, then they'll start looking at hong kong.
after hong kong.. i duno. but i know japan might be one of it, and definitely paris. becos my boss really wan a shop there. and i think she like paris france=) wow... imagine our shop in france.. omg.. grand!!!!! =)
haha.but.. i duno. i suddenly have the urge to travel around the world. hm.. australia.. sydney iwill always be the place i'll frequent.. not say familiar. but yea. .thats where sammy lives.. hm.. somemore.. wait. .bother than that.. hte place.. i duno.. .like. .nothign much. .and its so expensive.. dots.. beautiful scenary. .only beach. .erm.. i duno =.=''' dots.. suddenly like. .how come its boring ne? yea.. lol.. never really thouigh of that.. come to thin kof it now.. hmmm............... -_-''... o well.. anyway, theres the indonesia island to look out for.. sad.. i forgot the name=.= haiz. .but i think should be indonesia..
and.. theres the shoot. .forogt name again-_- the what falls.. nvm,. its in my facebook.. still can check name. but the country in brazil? or sumtin. .which.. gosh.. if im ever going alone, its soooo ofrightenig i tell u. -_-
then last night watched a tv show.. about floods. ha. theres this small village.. duno hwats hte nbame.. but.. aw..so peaceful.. though kena wash away by flood. haiz. .not safe.. well, me lucky enough to be in sg,. anywy, yea.. so many beautiful palces..
my hooiday.. i think only once a year. haiz. .so sad right.. just once, and its only for about 1 week or so T_T thast why.. if i save up for that 1 week stay or more, im so gona sniff out every coner of sydney -_-
i duno.. maybe just go to get suntan or wat. LOL. me like the sun which burns, but gets me darker. lol. i duno. just abit of change, so yea. .like the darker me abit. for awhile mah. not say permmanant. XD
nice buildings.. shopping malls.. abit boring, and expensive. my manger was telling us htta in sg, we ate 20 steak or so. over melbourne, its 50, 60!!! my collegaue stil lcan ask. .oh but the living fare pay is high isnt it. .i was like.. =.= dots... so???????? high, and u end up spending all away. isnt it the same like sg then? of cours egoverment wont be stpid. gib u 200 one day(exp) then let u save alot on food? no. cours ehtey make u pay 100 for food. anyway, just a simple exp. im sure u guys know what im talking about.
my fren's auntie in holland also say same thing. yes they get paid so high, but the living expenses,.. ha.. very high and exp like mad too.
omg. cant type further. k, gtg. gwetting ready for work!! will cont at night
mata
o well.. i duno..
haiyo.. now my thorat.. abit weird.. thx to my fren =.,= wjho keep on coughign.. omg.. and i sort of make fun of that tooXD my karma.. lol
hm... sianz... tch
o well.. just work it out ba=/ tonight can do watever i want. .just think of it this way
ever wonde rif u should tell somebody's mistakes? or when you need them to change somethin? its alwasy a must if u wan improvement. ppl tell me my job mistakes, i iomprove, i tell them, they improve. just so that they know. but other thn work, say between ppl.. family.. frens.. etc.. what if u are wondering should u be telling them about it becos u knew that there is this possibiility that they might changed. and say its good of course if they do change an feel happy.. both hapy. but hwat if.. that person changed while feeling abit distraught, and forces him or herself to change? ah.. now u get what i mena eh> i wonder.. how to deal with this kind of situation.. when u knew that the person might be forced to make changes cos of u. and.. forcing isnt always good. cos its insincere. and that'll be another mistake coming from the same person. add on to that =.=
o well.. duno ba. just wonding about how some life matters could be resolved.. life is so difficult alreyad.. every day is a struggle.
haiz.........
o yea. .future huh.. last niht sam was talking about how it would be if i really do 'climp up' to my poisition one day, IF that is, then hows it gonna be like. .
u know,. i think thall be great. anyway, my company wanna takeover this world. XD lol. not that serious. but yes.. they wanna open in every part of world. like how LV, prada.. u know? eveyrwheer u could see them.
i think.. next stop besides sg.. would be KL, then they'll start looking at hong kong.
after hong kong.. i duno. but i know japan might be one of it, and definitely paris. becos my boss really wan a shop there. and i think she like paris france=) wow... imagine our shop in france.. omg.. grand!!!!! =)
haha.but.. i duno. i suddenly have the urge to travel around the world. hm.. australia.. sydney iwill always be the place i'll frequent.. not say familiar. but yea. .thats where sammy lives.. hm.. somemore.. wait. .bother than that.. hte place.. i duno.. .like. .nothign much. .and its so expensive.. dots.. beautiful scenary. .only beach. .erm.. i duno =.=''' dots.. suddenly like. .how come its boring ne? yea.. lol.. never really thouigh of that.. come to thin kof it now.. hmmm............... -_-''... o well.. anyway, theres the indonesia island to look out for.. sad.. i forgot the name=.= haiz. .but i think should be indonesia..
and.. theres the shoot. .forogt name again-_- the what falls.. nvm,. its in my facebook.. still can check name. but the country in brazil? or sumtin. .which.. gosh.. if im ever going alone, its soooo ofrightenig i tell u. -_-
then last night watched a tv show.. about floods. ha. theres this small village.. duno hwats hte nbame.. but.. aw..so peaceful.. though kena wash away by flood. haiz. .not safe.. well, me lucky enough to be in sg,. anywy, yea.. so many beautiful palces..
my hooiday.. i think only once a year. haiz. .so sad right.. just once, and its only for about 1 week or so T_T thast why.. if i save up for that 1 week stay or more, im so gona sniff out every coner of sydney -_-
i duno.. maybe just go to get suntan or wat. LOL. me like the sun which burns, but gets me darker. lol. i duno. just abit of change, so yea. .like the darker me abit. for awhile mah. not say permmanant. XD
nice buildings.. shopping malls.. abit boring, and expensive. my manger was telling us htta in sg, we ate 20 steak or so. over melbourne, its 50, 60!!! my collegaue stil lcan ask. .oh but the living fare pay is high isnt it. .i was like.. =.= dots... so???????? high, and u end up spending all away. isnt it the same like sg then? of cours egoverment wont be stpid. gib u 200 one day(exp) then let u save alot on food? no. cours ehtey make u pay 100 for food. anyway, just a simple exp. im sure u guys know what im talking about.
my fren's auntie in holland also say same thing. yes they get paid so high, but the living expenses,.. ha.. very high and exp like mad too.
omg. cant type further. k, gtg. gwetting ready for work!! will cont at night
mata
Cold COld Night. Need Warmth
hm.. slpy and tiring. very cold!! bene raining. .thats why. .cold2 night..
o well. .but its ncie kinda cold.. didnt expect to be nice.. anyway, was watching the opening of olympic sg .. then they were saying. .usually for other countries, they'll reveal to htem 7 years or so earlier. .so they have time to prepare for opening ceremony or waht.. but sg, only uses 2 years! they inform sg in year 2008. wow. .but yea.. i agreed with teh narrtor or duno who. indeed, within such a short time, still suhc an amazing performace were carried out.. its awesome. and theres so much fireworks. lol. more than the national day i think. i duno.XD
o well.
aw.. sam's sick=( haiz... tch.. he always have hte same problem..helath issue.. =/ howvever, yea.. i hope he'll get back in shape one day.. have a betetr health system yea..
o well. so.. busy abit today. yea. .not bad.. its good to be busy.. can concentrate on things ans stuffs.. i duno.
hm.. o well...
nowadasy.. my early and offfs.. doesnt feel like its u know. 'special' anymore. its like the same as other days.. sighs... sad.
me just gonna blog breifly.. gona slp soon =/ i djuno. sianz.. bored... and.. yea.. sitting in front of lappy with nothing to do... godness gracious... =.=
hm........ o..k.... so... o well.. i duno.. like.. my memories of my dyas. .perhpsa its alil too.. .normal and same,... plus... theres.. i duno.. ,.. i couldnt even recall certain things.. o well..
its always to be at home after a day outside. home swt home.. .
yay.. great thta sam found the app he want, and bravo, he's lucky again! got a voucher =) haha. well. .though no work no money, somehow... hm.. still its a day off.. and yes. .lucky he can rest abit at home fixing boat or what rest.., cos he's not so good health now. so yea. .hope he get totally well ne.
gosh. .cold today.. tonight too.. either never felt his tempature in sg before, or me never notice this before =.=
hm..... .o well. .thats that ba...
hm..
oh, heard theres this flood going on back in duno which year.. 30 000 ppl died. but only 1000 bodies been found. the other bodies probably got washed away =( haiz.. then 150 000 ppl no home.. haiz...
then today, china, and parkistan also flooding now=/
its scary... houses destroyed eberywheer.
=/
mata ne
o well. .but its ncie kinda cold.. didnt expect to be nice.. anyway, was watching the opening of olympic sg .. then they were saying. .usually for other countries, they'll reveal to htem 7 years or so earlier. .so they have time to prepare for opening ceremony or waht.. but sg, only uses 2 years! they inform sg in year 2008. wow. .but yea.. i agreed with teh narrtor or duno who. indeed, within such a short time, still suhc an amazing performace were carried out.. its awesome. and theres so much fireworks. lol. more than the national day i think. i duno.XD
o well.
aw.. sam's sick=( haiz... tch.. he always have hte same problem..helath issue.. =/ howvever, yea.. i hope he'll get back in shape one day.. have a betetr health system yea..
o well. so.. busy abit today. yea. .not bad.. its good to be busy.. can concentrate on things ans stuffs.. i duno.
hm.. o well...
nowadasy.. my early and offfs.. doesnt feel like its u know. 'special' anymore. its like the same as other days.. sighs... sad.
me just gonna blog breifly.. gona slp soon =/ i djuno. sianz.. bored... and.. yea.. sitting in front of lappy with nothing to do... godness gracious... =.=
hm........ o..k.... so... o well.. i duno.. like.. my memories of my dyas. .perhpsa its alil too.. .normal and same,... plus... theres.. i duno.. ,.. i couldnt even recall certain things.. o well..
its always to be at home after a day outside. home swt home.. .
yay.. great thta sam found the app he want, and bravo, he's lucky again! got a voucher =) haha. well. .though no work no money, somehow... hm.. still its a day off.. and yes. .lucky he can rest abit at home fixing boat or what rest.., cos he's not so good health now. so yea. .hope he get totally well ne.
gosh. .cold today.. tonight too.. either never felt his tempature in sg before, or me never notice this before =.=
hm..... .o well. .thats that ba...
hm..
oh, heard theres this flood going on back in duno which year.. 30 000 ppl died. but only 1000 bodies been found. the other bodies probably got washed away =( haiz.. then 150 000 ppl no home.. haiz...
then today, china, and parkistan also flooding now=/
its scary... houses destroyed eberywheer.
=/
mata ne
19 August 2010
Stop Breathing
hm....... tired day. been so tired. .and slpy abit.. i duno.. perhaps days been a lil too crazy these few dasy. u know i even forgot that i;ve not been having dinners? =.= haiz. baka desu.....
oh, had a nice dream in mrg ytd. hahha.. its always nice when a guy tell, or introduce to everyone he know about his gf. its swt eh.
anyway, yup.. had a dream of me and sammy.. then theres alot of his frens ard. .but he's holding me close.. oh, then when wakey, i thought it was real for a moment there..
its as though yea.. it felt so real when i wakey.. only for a few secs ba=. o well..
anyway.. been so stressful.. hm..
yea. .i dun feel like eating whenever theres any sort of stress or troubles going on =/
geex. totally forgot about that. no wonder i was so hungry just now..
watched a tv show.. real true life story.. erm. .short cut. .well, its about this girl kena misfortune , and ended up with bad health.. then the bf is like. .keeping vigil by her side everyday after work.. wil lvisit her. .waiting for her to wake. lucky enuff, she woke up finally after about 6 weeks.anbout one mothh lther then she can talk abit. however her body is bad now.. cant walk properly. .cant talk properly.. poor thing. she used to be so sporty..
but her bf stil lwanna marry her. alreayd wannted to propose.. but this thing happen.. then yea. they still got married.awwwwwww and he said hte most wonderful touching thing ever. 'if she can even wait one year for him to come back, even if it takes 10, or 20 years to wait for her to wakey, im willing to do so. ''. aw.... yes. .so touching i tell u.........
about the 1 year thing, well ,he went overseas to work for a year. so yea. before misfortune happens, they are like. .just normal bf and gf.. nothign serious til lwanna get marrried type. so yea.. so nice eh.. for a man to u know. .still idnt mind all this even if its painful, and keep by her side. .not willing to leave even when she ask him to(cos she dun wan be a burden to him).. aww....
=;)
so yup.. hm. .day.. been boring and tiring =. / im just tired.. so yea..
hm.. .=/ duno what to do now. .so blog abit. .before i forget..
hm.. done a lil bit of work. .oh, great.. my mamanger fren comingn down to sg .. from melb.. im sure they;re gonna have tons of fun in sg.. aw... so wish i could do that now. .must be so exciting and happy when u have someone close coming over to visit u eh.. aw.. i want it so badly.. haiz.. o well.. my turn will soon.. in monthssssssssssss
o well.. hm.. some work haven done yet.. but. .later ba. .heart abit stress and heavy.. =/
i duno hwy.. im trying to find ways to relax.. hm. .so yea...... tmr back to work. .i duno.. what to expect and stuff... cos.. yea. .somemore opening with that guy =,.= argh.. .o well.
hm.. just read something from facebook... sad... =/ its like... hmmm... i duno... its kinda disturbing... haiz.. ppl's life...
...... i duno what to say.. its horrible o do that to anyone who's been with u all hte way for 10 years.. u know.. spending her life and giving u everything.. ..haiz... its pitiful..
i guess.. life's like that ya know.. u can see some old couples out there.. still holding each others hands carefully.. walking together slowly.. smiling.. kinda blisssful look.. i mean.. those are really lucky couples eh..?
haiz.. so weird. .such a weird feeling its giving me. .touched my heart i guess...
hm. .abit slpy..
i felt something inside is shaking.. i couldnt breathe properly.. =/ its terrible..
this aint another day good...
=/ o well..
oh, i made a mistake. .that chocolate palce. .gosh.. not the one openign soon at my workplace there. .so yup.. nvm ba.. me can save more money that way. ha. ...
things been cutting back and short. it cuts deeply.
very tired... duno wht to do..
waiting and waiting always...
so.. im gonna have a new position.. ..wow.. like.. uh huh. .gotta be even more serious at work now eh.. just keep on doing waht im doing. .so yea.. .. future will be bright huh.. ..
=(
haiz... tch.. o well.. i gtg.. been sitting here.. done all that im supposed to..i think. duno what else to do now.. i duno.. do i?..
o well..
mata... ....
...
oh, had a nice dream in mrg ytd. hahha.. its always nice when a guy tell, or introduce to everyone he know about his gf. its swt eh.
anyway, yup.. had a dream of me and sammy.. then theres alot of his frens ard. .but he's holding me close.. oh, then when wakey, i thought it was real for a moment there..
its as though yea.. it felt so real when i wakey.. only for a few secs ba=. o well..
anyway.. been so stressful.. hm..
yea. .i dun feel like eating whenever theres any sort of stress or troubles going on =/
geex. totally forgot about that. no wonder i was so hungry just now..
watched a tv show.. real true life story.. erm. .short cut. .well, its about this girl kena misfortune , and ended up with bad health.. then the bf is like. .keeping vigil by her side everyday after work.. wil lvisit her. .waiting for her to wake. lucky enuff, she woke up finally after about 6 weeks.anbout one mothh lther then she can talk abit. however her body is bad now.. cant walk properly. .cant talk properly.. poor thing. she used to be so sporty..
but her bf stil lwanna marry her. alreayd wannted to propose.. but this thing happen.. then yea. they still got married.awwwwwww and he said hte most wonderful touching thing ever. 'if she can even wait one year for him to come back, even if it takes 10, or 20 years to wait for her to wakey, im willing to do so. ''. aw.... yes. .so touching i tell u.........
about the 1 year thing, well ,he went overseas to work for a year. so yea. before misfortune happens, they are like. .just normal bf and gf.. nothign serious til lwanna get marrried type. so yea.. so nice eh.. for a man to u know. .still idnt mind all this even if its painful, and keep by her side. .not willing to leave even when she ask him to(cos she dun wan be a burden to him).. aww....
=;)
so yup.. hm. .day.. been boring and tiring =. / im just tired.. so yea..
hm.. .=/ duno what to do now. .so blog abit. .before i forget..
hm.. done a lil bit of work. .oh, great.. my mamanger fren comingn down to sg .. from melb.. im sure they;re gonna have tons of fun in sg.. aw... so wish i could do that now. .must be so exciting and happy when u have someone close coming over to visit u eh.. aw.. i want it so badly.. haiz.. o well.. my turn will soon.. in monthssssssssssss
o well.. hm.. some work haven done yet.. but. .later ba. .heart abit stress and heavy.. =/
i duno hwy.. im trying to find ways to relax.. hm. .so yea...... tmr back to work. .i duno.. what to expect and stuff... cos.. yea. .somemore opening with that guy =,.= argh.. .o well.
hm.. just read something from facebook... sad... =/ its like... hmmm... i duno... its kinda disturbing... haiz.. ppl's life...
...... i duno what to say.. its horrible o do that to anyone who's been with u all hte way for 10 years.. u know.. spending her life and giving u everything.. ..haiz... its pitiful..
i guess.. life's like that ya know.. u can see some old couples out there.. still holding each others hands carefully.. walking together slowly.. smiling.. kinda blisssful look.. i mean.. those are really lucky couples eh..?
haiz.. so weird. .such a weird feeling its giving me. .touched my heart i guess...
hm. .abit slpy..
i felt something inside is shaking.. i couldnt breathe properly.. =/ its terrible..
this aint another day good...
=/ o well..
oh, i made a mistake. .that chocolate palce. .gosh.. not the one openign soon at my workplace there. .so yup.. nvm ba.. me can save more money that way. ha. ...
things been cutting back and short. it cuts deeply.
very tired... duno wht to do..
waiting and waiting always...
so.. im gonna have a new position.. ..wow.. like.. uh huh. .gotta be even more serious at work now eh.. just keep on doing waht im doing. .so yea.. .. future will be bright huh.. ..
=(
haiz... tch.. o well.. i gtg.. been sitting here.. done all that im supposed to..i think. duno what else to do now.. i duno.. do i?..
o well..
mata... ....
...
18 August 2010
The Good And Bad
its been a different night.. however.. i duno..
erm.. well.. been feeling stresssful since the whole day.. only time things got better is when i learned thta i got promoted, and got such great awesome reviews from my manager. which is really3 great. erm.. yea.. happy kinda.. excited uh huh. i can learn more stuff now..
erm.. so.. i duno.. my manager was saying.. i am a very charming person .. i have that charm over customers alwasys. .so tell me to keep using thta charm.. i was like.. ???? huh?? what charm? i have no idea what she's talking about -_- but anyway, i guess whatever that is, its a good thing ba.
erm.. yea.. didnt expect tht she pointed out thigns i thought she never see.. but yea. .its great.. she saw it, and yay. .good fo rme.. and she also dais that im hte first person to impress her . i was like. .wow.. thats such an honour.. =')
and yes.. first impression is good.. then .. well, i keep on impressing her she said.. so yay.. thats why she wanna keep me under her. unlike my manger =.= he actually tot of putting me in another shop as a fulltimer. =.= dots. kick him!
anyway.. yea..
..sighs...... yea.. work is kkinda like alrtie.. hm.. but... i think i have no tiem to learn my hobby nowT_T huu... yea. . guys shld know what it is if u read my blog every now and then.. erm.. i duno. lol. perhap u dont. hm.. i duno.. lets see what happen in future=/
haiz.. ii am ver very stress... i duno whas with my life now..
i;ve been stress for days.. and.. i duno =/ im hinking of how to resolve it. .i duno =(///...
personal life doesnt seem great to me.. =( amd.. i am so confused at htings. unlike work.. u could ask ppl what to do abt this and that.. but... certain aspect in life, u cant do that... =/
i duno.. im stress about my personal life now.. things u wannted to ask, u cant open up.. thigns u wanted to know, u cant find an answer.. =/ its very frustrating... =(
cried in the shower again... =.='' so useless.. but.. well.. i guess i nid to destress abit...
so yea...
i duno.. im trying to figure out how my personal could get into place.. be less stressful.. how to get less worried.. =/ i duno.. its tough.. erm.. ..... sighs.. i duno =./ really...
.....very tiring.. its like.. ... u don know.. what should or shld not be..
..... may faith get me through...
gosh..=./ i duno hwat to do...
stop thinking? or think for a solution? =/.. sighs..........
i duno peeps...
haiz.. tmr i got work to do=/ so yea.......
long way to hang on.. .i........
future will be great no matter what eh. i duno.. for now. .i guess i just gotta do whatever im doing now... believe and move on... have faith.. thigns will get better.. easier somehwo.. i duno. but yea. hopefully..
hm... ... so yea..
i don wish to see anymore bad changes from now=/..
mata
erm.. well.. been feeling stresssful since the whole day.. only time things got better is when i learned thta i got promoted, and got such great awesome reviews from my manager. which is really3 great. erm.. yea.. happy kinda.. excited uh huh. i can learn more stuff now..
erm.. so.. i duno.. my manager was saying.. i am a very charming person .. i have that charm over customers alwasys. .so tell me to keep using thta charm.. i was like.. ???? huh?? what charm? i have no idea what she's talking about -_- but anyway, i guess whatever that is, its a good thing ba.
erm.. yea.. didnt expect tht she pointed out thigns i thought she never see.. but yea. .its great.. she saw it, and yay. .good fo rme.. and she also dais that im hte first person to impress her . i was like. .wow.. thats such an honour.. =')
and yes.. first impression is good.. then .. well, i keep on impressing her she said.. so yay.. thats why she wanna keep me under her. unlike my manger =.= he actually tot of putting me in another shop as a fulltimer. =.= dots. kick him!
anyway.. yea..
..sighs...... yea.. work is kkinda like alrtie.. hm.. but... i think i have no tiem to learn my hobby nowT_T huu... yea. . guys shld know what it is if u read my blog every now and then.. erm.. i duno. lol. perhap u dont. hm.. i duno.. lets see what happen in future=/
haiz.. ii am ver very stress... i duno whas with my life now..
i;ve been stress for days.. and.. i duno =/ im hinking of how to resolve it. .i duno =(///...
personal life doesnt seem great to me.. =( amd.. i am so confused at htings. unlike work.. u could ask ppl what to do abt this and that.. but... certain aspect in life, u cant do that... =/
i duno.. im stress about my personal life now.. things u wannted to ask, u cant open up.. thigns u wanted to know, u cant find an answer.. =/ its very frustrating... =(
cried in the shower again... =.='' so useless.. but.. well.. i guess i nid to destress abit...
so yea...
i duno.. im trying to figure out how my personal could get into place.. be less stressful.. how to get less worried.. =/ i duno.. its tough.. erm.. ..... sighs.. i duno =./ really...
.....very tiring.. its like.. ... u don know.. what should or shld not be..
..... may faith get me through...
gosh..=./ i duno hwat to do...
stop thinking? or think for a solution? =/.. sighs..........
i duno peeps...
haiz.. tmr i got work to do=/ so yea.......
long way to hang on.. .i........
future will be great no matter what eh. i duno.. for now. .i guess i just gotta do whatever im doing now... believe and move on... have faith.. thigns will get better.. easier somehwo.. i duno. but yea. hopefully..
hm... ... so yea..
i don wish to see anymore bad changes from now=/..
mata
17 August 2010
Uncover The Truth Behind
so stress.. been such a stressful night. .only night part. .morning and yea.. it was all alrite.. im so motivated. .and the old self is back again. i chatted with customers so much.. blah3... its weird how i lost myself for so long. .anyway. but.. yea. its very tiring.. yet.. its alrite..still.. very tiring. =/
night time. .what ahppened? i.. couldnt say it now. im so tired.. and erm i missed the chance to talk with sammy about it.. and yea.. i rather keep it to myself fo rnow.. im just so tired and .. yea.. no more strength to reconsider and stuff.. thign sjust gone wrong. .and after wrong, mp player wrong.. luckily busn get on time. .back home.. samy not home.. then ya.. hten abth.. sitting under showe rfor so lnog.. crying.. =/ .. tch..
erm.. so yes. good day.. ver very bad ending nighttime =/ o well. was so pissed. o wel.. =(
erm. oh.. theres this custome today. so sweet. he;s from italy/ . i duno whats his age. maybe 17, ar dthere.. the other day.. think ytd or hwat.. he came in with his gf. i remember his gf say she wanted our diary so much. she love it. then todya, i saw him. my fren served him. but i reacalled.. so i asked him. .and yes.. it was him alrite. he say his gf like it alot. so he decided to drop by and buy it. $49.90 k!!! so swwet of hinm. then i asked him.. never tell gf right> he say no. awwwwwww...... haha.
so ya. very swt indeed. he say they been together for 19months. aw.. (me thinkits his first love. duno. ogt htat feelign). but she's headin gback to duno italy or where.. then he's gona be in sg still.. but they are both from italy. so next yera they gonna be reunited again. =) aw.. nice.
haiz. .so thats abou tit.
oh, just not confirmed with bro.. indeed.. the trip to tm.. omg. i tell u. can kill me sia. =.= im not surprisedf ne u know. seriosuluy. sianz. one day. sianz. so freaky scary i tell u. cross bridge..no one at bustop.. so remote.. walk3.. omg.. siao.. really crayz.. maybe if they in case die2 wan me to go tm, me ... haiz.. no choice. .maybe me coudl suggest going to changi.. haiz. .see how=. ./ dun wan move.. but. .if wan imporvement, they might do just that. mostlikel;y=/ o well. .just so sianz i tell u... the journey to and from work.. from work back at night worse.. 11plus. .imagine how scary??? haiz... crayz man.. i tell u.. crazy.............................
haiz..................................... but strong feeling me heading htere.=( sianz.. tch
u know... most 'stupid' lookin gppl may be the smartest creature of htem all. .they managed to figure out every intention and ideas becos ppl underestimated them..
and. they coudl just easily detect the reason u wanna lie. or u are hiding something.
adn teh words u are using to hide something.
they figured them all out.
ust some puzzles pieces them out altogether, u know the reason behind it all.
those lies, those white lies ot begin with. .those lying intentions......... god.....
...........
the trust of bond has been broken. ...
and u know eh.. what ppl alsways say.. retribution.. karma... trust that once its gone, its gone. its broken, it could never ever be amended... its a very serious offense.. very... it destroys thigs u could never imagine upon..
soemtiems.. u see it coming.. and yet.. u pray it does not..
still... the one u fear.. still happens..
youb don nid to ask further sometimes.. for u know. .whats the motive behind it all..... ..
meeting itme, my manger emntioned that he nearly got robbe.
gosh. .so sacry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.O.!!!!
its at erm.. 10mins walk next to his hotel beach. he say at 8pm. menaing looking and feel like 12 am in sg for their 8pm. haiz. .long story.. sory peeps.. =/ i really cant type all. .im so tird and not in the mood to do it.. =/
so.. erm.. its recommended by my manager in melb. so. .he walk there... but stupid. .he wen tat 8pm. he say he stupid k. erm. .so.. blah3... he ened up punch the robber, and he walk away. omg. so cool .wha if robber have a knife??! gosh..... cant imagine.
its called erm. .waht saint keith ??? not very sure. but yea. its about 12 degrees. my manager say his lips bleed. omg.. huu.. so scary=.=
then my melbouirne manager say yes.. it might ruin the reputation of mebl by saying this, but yea.. my manager admitted it. .that place, k.. me use caps.. ppl who ging australia, be careful!!!!! do research!! as well as other places!!!
TAHT SAINT KEITH OR WHATEVER THAST CALLED PLACE, IS WELL KNOWN FOR BEAUTIFUL SCENERY, BEACHES AT DAY, BUT!! FOR DRUG DEALERS AND PROSTITUTION AT NIGHT!!! YES!!! SO FRIGHTENING!!!!!!!
omg.. it sliek. .shocking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant imagien have any placve liek in in sg famoiuse for drug dealers =.=''''''''''' NO WAY!!!!!
but yes.. now i get a better understaning of... how it is so dangerous to go out alone at night.. blah3.. however, if i ever get the chance,(i told myself i shoudl travel one day) i will not be so foolish as in to go out at 8 or 9 pm to beack or remote places i duno =.=.. crazy................. will dide2 stick to ppl ard crowded palces.. haiz.. duno what my manger thinking ne. luckily he ;s strong enuff to hit back. gosh!!
mata
night time. .what ahppened? i.. couldnt say it now. im so tired.. and erm i missed the chance to talk with sammy about it.. and yea.. i rather keep it to myself fo rnow.. im just so tired and .. yea.. no more strength to reconsider and stuff.. thign sjust gone wrong. .and after wrong, mp player wrong.. luckily busn get on time. .back home.. samy not home.. then ya.. hten abth.. sitting under showe rfor so lnog.. crying.. =/ .. tch..
erm.. so yes. good day.. ver very bad ending nighttime =/ o well. was so pissed. o wel.. =(
erm. oh.. theres this custome today. so sweet. he;s from italy/ . i duno whats his age. maybe 17, ar dthere.. the other day.. think ytd or hwat.. he came in with his gf. i remember his gf say she wanted our diary so much. she love it. then todya, i saw him. my fren served him. but i reacalled.. so i asked him. .and yes.. it was him alrite. he say his gf like it alot. so he decided to drop by and buy it. $49.90 k!!! so swwet of hinm. then i asked him.. never tell gf right> he say no. awwwwwww...... haha.
so ya. very swt indeed. he say they been together for 19months. aw.. (me thinkits his first love. duno. ogt htat feelign). but she's headin gback to duno italy or where.. then he's gona be in sg still.. but they are both from italy. so next yera they gonna be reunited again. =) aw.. nice.
haiz. .so thats abou tit.
oh, just not confirmed with bro.. indeed.. the trip to tm.. omg. i tell u. can kill me sia. =.= im not surprisedf ne u know. seriosuluy. sianz. one day. sianz. so freaky scary i tell u. cross bridge..no one at bustop.. so remote.. walk3.. omg.. siao.. really crayz.. maybe if they in case die2 wan me to go tm, me ... haiz.. no choice. .maybe me coudl suggest going to changi.. haiz. .see how=. ./ dun wan move.. but. .if wan imporvement, they might do just that. mostlikel;y=/ o well. .just so sianz i tell u... the journey to and from work.. from work back at night worse.. 11plus. .imagine how scary??? haiz... crayz man.. i tell u.. crazy.............................
haiz..................................... but strong feeling me heading htere.=( sianz.. tch
u know... most 'stupid' lookin gppl may be the smartest creature of htem all. .they managed to figure out every intention and ideas becos ppl underestimated them..
and. they coudl just easily detect the reason u wanna lie. or u are hiding something.
adn teh words u are using to hide something.
they figured them all out.
ust some puzzles pieces them out altogether, u know the reason behind it all.
those lies, those white lies ot begin with. .those lying intentions......... god.....
...........
the trust of bond has been broken. ...
and u know eh.. what ppl alsways say.. retribution.. karma... trust that once its gone, its gone. its broken, it could never ever be amended... its a very serious offense.. very... it destroys thigs u could never imagine upon..
soemtiems.. u see it coming.. and yet.. u pray it does not..
still... the one u fear.. still happens..
youb don nid to ask further sometimes.. for u know. .whats the motive behind it all..... ..
meeting itme, my manger emntioned that he nearly got robbe.
gosh. .so sacry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.O.!!!!
its at erm.. 10mins walk next to his hotel beach. he say at 8pm. menaing looking and feel like 12 am in sg for their 8pm. haiz. .long story.. sory peeps.. =/ i really cant type all. .im so tird and not in the mood to do it.. =/
so.. erm.. its recommended by my manager in melb. so. .he walk there... but stupid. .he wen tat 8pm. he say he stupid k. erm. .so.. blah3... he ened up punch the robber, and he walk away. omg. so cool .wha if robber have a knife??! gosh..... cant imagine.
its called erm. .waht saint keith ??? not very sure. but yea. its about 12 degrees. my manager say his lips bleed. omg.. huu.. so scary=.=
then my melbouirne manager say yes.. it might ruin the reputation of mebl by saying this, but yea.. my manager admitted it. .that place, k.. me use caps.. ppl who ging australia, be careful!!!!! do research!! as well as other places!!!
TAHT SAINT KEITH OR WHATEVER THAST CALLED PLACE, IS WELL KNOWN FOR BEAUTIFUL SCENERY, BEACHES AT DAY, BUT!! FOR DRUG DEALERS AND PROSTITUTION AT NIGHT!!! YES!!! SO FRIGHTENING!!!!!!!
omg.. it sliek. .shocking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant imagien have any placve liek in in sg famoiuse for drug dealers =.=''''''''''' NO WAY!!!!!
but yes.. now i get a better understaning of... how it is so dangerous to go out alone at night.. blah3.. however, if i ever get the chance,(i told myself i shoudl travel one day) i will not be so foolish as in to go out at 8 or 9 pm to beack or remote places i duno =.=.. crazy................. will dide2 stick to ppl ard crowded palces.. haiz.. duno what my manger thinking ne. luckily he ;s strong enuff to hit back. gosh!!
mata
16 August 2010
Stress About Life
omg.. rush rushrush!!!!!~ been rushing since i got hmoe. online, change.. blah3.. managed to chat with sam for about 15 or less min s before he went to bed.. then bath.. oh.. settle my work before thta.. omg.. cos tmr meeting.. i nid slp!!!
after blog me gonna slp alreayd. onliune abit more. then ya. sory. spelling sucks. cos im so rushing top type. heck care if i type wrong. bear with me. u know how i always type. oops. =P
anywya.. today.. omg..... its wow.... it s that time of that month, and i had heavy flow last night. .and this mrg wokey feeling so wear .. cos blood drained outta me of course=,= so tired .. and i mean really very TIREDDDDDDDDD!!!!!! gosh!!
then at work.. no energy to serve pl. .but have to.. then work.. then luckily hang on til breka.. then eat. .better liao. .somemore daiso open gfinally!! woots!! but gonna be spending money. omg.. so dangerius =.='''
anyway, back to work after break.. felt better.. phew........
but still tired. and cos of menses, feeling down and stress=/ espeially seeing coupoles. .then reminded of how unhappy i am now=/.. haiz...... like yea. .just realsied this aint helping man. it sux. so yea.. me aint happy in life now=./ things missing.. u knwo.. =. i duno what to look forward someitmes.. that aside, erm. .stress about work. .the review. .im scared me not good enough. .cos i have such hgh expectation of myself=/.. so yea.. afraid.. haiz.. so wish wed be over asap. =/
erm.. then...... yea.. just feeling sucky today=( stress and sad.. work and persoanl love life. .haiz....... sianz. time of month making me feel this way i think.
oh funny hting happened. ha. customer looking for sorry card. ask me got sell any sorry card anot? i reply 'no, im so sorry'. then we laughed. XD
funny right>> ha. .like.. so weird. me also didnt realised mah.. just reply that wya.. then sound funny..
erm.. last min got my regular customer drop by.. then yyay. .maanged to get him buy stuffs.. thiough closing hten drop bny, but good ba. .he at the end happy with our service or what, then gib us free chocolate form chocolat factory. yay!!! oeping soon at ion!!! woooah!!!! =D then i tell u.... omg.. its my fav chcocolate fomr now on. its soooo good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fabulous!!! now i have a favourite chocolate brand =) hehe. royce is good too. but its diff feel. hocolate factory taste like how a real creamy thick cocolate should taste like. i tell u. real chocolate should taste that way. dark is good. milk choco is good. omg... nice!!!! at firts me saw tthet card say great world city and oub plsu changi airport have.. now ion have too.. omg.. glad so.. but. .imagine if im outta ion =( sigh.. but save money though. ha. no nid face daiso and chocolate everyday.
manager was talking ot me. then mention he alreyad reported to hte regional manager in melbourne that he aleryad plan what to bring into the tm shop .. and whih staff to bring there. omg. i was like. .he never ask anyone of us whether we willing anot/?? huu.. but i understand him. .but still =( haiz.......
i got a strong felin gim gonna get kick out. .but i duno. i rather work in suntec. or changi airport though further. cos after all, tm.. haiz..so crowded, and big, and the bus to there.. so dark and dangerous. =( unless train. .but huu. .so far.. i duno. .if i reject, then they'll think i might not be able to hold up toany independable position in future. i duno. its irritating. =(
k. .dun wan htink now. i duno wha to type in my form.. but.. i duno. .i just type whatever i.. u know. so. .im gonna go press send, and get this rock outta me!!!
erm. .k. .think thats all. sigh... i hope my off come soon. .and please let me have a good review.. =/ glad my fren got a good one.. haiz..
mata
after blog me gonna slp alreayd. onliune abit more. then ya. sory. spelling sucks. cos im so rushing top type. heck care if i type wrong. bear with me. u know how i always type. oops. =P
anywya.. today.. omg..... its wow.... it s that time of that month, and i had heavy flow last night. .and this mrg wokey feeling so wear .. cos blood drained outta me of course=,= so tired .. and i mean really very TIREDDDDDDDDD!!!!!! gosh!!
then at work.. no energy to serve pl. .but have to.. then work.. then luckily hang on til breka.. then eat. .better liao. .somemore daiso open gfinally!! woots!! but gonna be spending money. omg.. so dangerius =.='''
anyway, back to work after break.. felt better.. phew........
but still tired. and cos of menses, feeling down and stress=/ espeially seeing coupoles. .then reminded of how unhappy i am now=/.. haiz...... like yea. .just realsied this aint helping man. it sux. so yea.. me aint happy in life now=./ things missing.. u knwo.. =. i duno what to look forward someitmes.. that aside, erm. .stress about work. .the review. .im scared me not good enough. .cos i have such hgh expectation of myself=/.. so yea.. afraid.. haiz.. so wish wed be over asap. =/
erm.. then...... yea.. just feeling sucky today=( stress and sad.. work and persoanl love life. .haiz....... sianz. time of month making me feel this way i think.
oh funny hting happened. ha. customer looking for sorry card. ask me got sell any sorry card anot? i reply 'no, im so sorry'. then we laughed. XD
funny right>> ha. .like.. so weird. me also didnt realised mah.. just reply that wya.. then sound funny..
erm.. last min got my regular customer drop by.. then yyay. .maanged to get him buy stuffs.. thiough closing hten drop bny, but good ba. .he at the end happy with our service or what, then gib us free chocolate form chocolat factory. yay!!! oeping soon at ion!!! woooah!!!! =D then i tell u.... omg.. its my fav chcocolate fomr now on. its soooo good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fabulous!!! now i have a favourite chocolate brand =) hehe. royce is good too. but its diff feel. hocolate factory taste like how a real creamy thick cocolate should taste like. i tell u. real chocolate should taste that way. dark is good. milk choco is good. omg... nice!!!! at firts me saw tthet card say great world city and oub plsu changi airport have.. now ion have too.. omg.. glad so.. but. .imagine if im outta ion =( sigh.. but save money though. ha. no nid face daiso and chocolate everyday.
manager was talking ot me. then mention he alreyad reported to hte regional manager in melbourne that he aleryad plan what to bring into the tm shop .. and whih staff to bring there. omg. i was like. .he never ask anyone of us whether we willing anot/?? huu.. but i understand him. .but still =( haiz.......
i got a strong felin gim gonna get kick out. .but i duno. i rather work in suntec. or changi airport though further. cos after all, tm.. haiz..so crowded, and big, and the bus to there.. so dark and dangerous. =( unless train. .but huu. .so far.. i duno. .if i reject, then they'll think i might not be able to hold up toany independable position in future. i duno. its irritating. =(
k. .dun wan htink now. i duno wha to type in my form.. but.. i duno. .i just type whatever i.. u know. so. .im gonna go press send, and get this rock outta me!!!
erm. .k. .think thats all. sigh... i hope my off come soon. .and please let me have a good review.. =/ glad my fren got a good one.. haiz..
mata
15 August 2010
Happier Times Lies In The Past
gosh... tha bra could kill me.. =.= my right side of shoulder keep on hurting.. so pain =( yea. .especially right side. i duno why =/
haiz... just use my hand and massage.. what to do.. =/
oh, just now at interchange.. bus there.. theres this couple.. talk so loud beside me. somewhere the bf was actually snding her.. as in waiting for her to hop onto bus. =.= sianz... see that ne. .like .so wanna bash them up -_-..... argh.....................
o well.. what to do=( jus reminded of sam used to wait bus with me ..and send me home =(
he had a bad dream.. i think this is the 2nd time. .same kind of bad dream.. but this time me cant hug him.. nor can he wakey, and come over my side and huggie.. =( =/ haiz.. sad ne.. if me also swear dun wan this type of dream =( very sad.. huuu... but think he should be able to get over it quickly ba.
day was so slow.. =/ sianz.. tmr .haiz... i dread tmr.. =/
..... didnt had any propoer dinner. .cos too many ppl.. well, explanatiions are long. so yea..
hm.. very thirsty.. throat so dry and uncomfy..
hm.. weird.. i think i forgot to say something here.. gosh.. i cant remmerb =/.
hmm.. o well. .nothing much to say alreyad i guess... tired. =/
oh now i remmebr!!! omg. memory sux. =(
wanted to say.... i was lookey through my pics from sydey.. suddenly feel happy abit. .cos remember all hte views, sam.. good times.. =) then i was in for a surprise.. ..i thought. .i was like. .how come i look so different in thse pics? seems to be the haircuts.. ... then... hm.. i duno.. perhaps it is.. but .. somehow.. i look so much happier then.. =(......
i duno... i wonder if i ever look that wya now... =;( sucks.. =/ ha.. thats why.. sometimes im afraid to look back at photos.. sure cry.. o well...... what to do.. =/
i guess... main potint is.. well.. i have more stress than then. cos.. lesser time to spend with someone.. and relax.. to go out with.. l;ook forward with.. so.. didnt have the past happy times to look foprward to ba.. always finish work.. can look forward to meeting him..eat..go out.. or what.. haiz..... so yea. tha kind of feeling.. but stresses aboiut work when me still in atz.. still.. thres my number support. him. so.. yea.. but htings doesnt make it any easier knowing he;s leaving one day... =/
feels so different.. =/ wish i could be happier.... .. haiz........
haiyo.. my shoulder still hurts... =/ sux..
gosh.. gonna be so tired.. hm.. me wakey still now.. .. but gald to be awake .. cos later slp, open eyes, gonna start work alreayd after couple of houirs=( and i dun liek that way. like.. my day never end like that. as though i tok 3 hours break or so, then back to work =/
yea.. ..so been long since i went out or take a break right?.. hm... o well. .see how ba.. sometimes i wonde rif im a super busy person or what.. like.. i duno.. i just don feel happy =/
last night sam said something so heartfelt touching =')
he say.. sometimes its like just by knowing im right there , he'll be so happy going to slp.. or falling aslp.. yea.. =) so happy to hear that.. those words are priceless =) sobx..
sweeettttttttttt
tch.. yeah.. how can i slp everynight happily if he's aint with me.. oh.. i got an idea.. but... .. sigh. .wouldnt work well thogh =(.. could try to video call him when we slp.. then slp together. .leaving phone on till batt runs out.. or.. yea.. just kinda cu tit off by itself...
but. .=/ we dont really get chances where we'll go to bed together.. so.. yea.. that might not happen.. but it'll be nice if its possibe eh.. lol. .i don think im gonna keep my eye shut though.. will watch him slp.. and then weeps.. XD ha.. o well. .what to do =P
haiz...
k.. time fo rme to slp eh...
tmr. .gonna be so rush. ..hm.. o well. .i hope time flies
...''if the way they love you isnt what u want it to be, doesnt mean they dont love u just as much..'' duno whats the excat words.. but read it somewhere... and.. yea.. i tihnk its good.. i mena... yea..
opposite attracts.. ha. indeed thats for our boss. and her partner. was talking about them to my colleague. she agrees too. 2 of them so different, yet.. .uh huh ^^
well, love knows no bounds. hehehe.
hm.. i think.... they shouldbe coming back to sg soon... yea.. cant wait to see them. ha.
gonna be so nervous all over again.. gosh.. plus my regional manager from melbourne.. should be coming ard.. sep> ? i duno .. should be.. gosh.. nervous.. hope things will go well.
hmm...... o well.... thats about it hten...
hmm........ work hard eh.. haiz.. oh.. these dasy wanna save also fail.. cos must buy useful stuffs.. =/ then expensive when u add up together.. o well.. next month will try harder ba. .. haiz.....
hm.. cant wait for new phone ne...
o well.. slowly save up..... and.............. get the things i want. .cos i save hard.. and.. .may the biggest prize be unfolding itself in the time fututre ahead.. i... o well. who know shwat gonna happen.. just.... try to save as much ba =/
mata
haiz... just use my hand and massage.. what to do.. =/
oh, just now at interchange.. bus there.. theres this couple.. talk so loud beside me. somewhere the bf was actually snding her.. as in waiting for her to hop onto bus. =.= sianz... see that ne. .like .so wanna bash them up -_-..... argh.....................
o well.. what to do=( jus reminded of sam used to wait bus with me ..and send me home =(
he had a bad dream.. i think this is the 2nd time. .same kind of bad dream.. but this time me cant hug him.. nor can he wakey, and come over my side and huggie.. =( =/ haiz.. sad ne.. if me also swear dun wan this type of dream =( very sad.. huuu... but think he should be able to get over it quickly ba.
day was so slow.. =/ sianz.. tmr .haiz... i dread tmr.. =/
..... didnt had any propoer dinner. .cos too many ppl.. well, explanatiions are long. so yea..
hm.. very thirsty.. throat so dry and uncomfy..
hm.. weird.. i think i forgot to say something here.. gosh.. i cant remmerb =/.
hmm.. o well. .nothing much to say alreyad i guess... tired. =/
oh now i remmebr!!! omg. memory sux. =(
wanted to say.... i was lookey through my pics from sydey.. suddenly feel happy abit. .cos remember all hte views, sam.. good times.. =) then i was in for a surprise.. ..i thought. .i was like. .how come i look so different in thse pics? seems to be the haircuts.. ... then... hm.. i duno.. perhaps it is.. but .. somehow.. i look so much happier then.. =(......
i duno... i wonder if i ever look that wya now... =;( sucks.. =/ ha.. thats why.. sometimes im afraid to look back at photos.. sure cry.. o well...... what to do.. =/
i guess... main potint is.. well.. i have more stress than then. cos.. lesser time to spend with someone.. and relax.. to go out with.. l;ook forward with.. so.. didnt have the past happy times to look foprward to ba.. always finish work.. can look forward to meeting him..eat..go out.. or what.. haiz..... so yea. tha kind of feeling.. but stresses aboiut work when me still in atz.. still.. thres my number support. him. so.. yea.. but htings doesnt make it any easier knowing he;s leaving one day... =/
feels so different.. =/ wish i could be happier.... .. haiz........
haiyo.. my shoulder still hurts... =/ sux..
gosh.. gonna be so tired.. hm.. me wakey still now.. .. but gald to be awake .. cos later slp, open eyes, gonna start work alreayd after couple of houirs=( and i dun liek that way. like.. my day never end like that. as though i tok 3 hours break or so, then back to work =/
yea.. ..so been long since i went out or take a break right?.. hm... o well. .see how ba.. sometimes i wonde rif im a super busy person or what.. like.. i duno.. i just don feel happy =/
last night sam said something so heartfelt touching =')
he say.. sometimes its like just by knowing im right there , he'll be so happy going to slp.. or falling aslp.. yea.. =) so happy to hear that.. those words are priceless =) sobx..
sweeettttttttttt
tch.. yeah.. how can i slp everynight happily if he's aint with me.. oh.. i got an idea.. but... .. sigh. .wouldnt work well thogh =(.. could try to video call him when we slp.. then slp together. .leaving phone on till batt runs out.. or.. yea.. just kinda cu tit off by itself...
but. .=/ we dont really get chances where we'll go to bed together.. so.. yea.. that might not happen.. but it'll be nice if its possibe eh.. lol. .i don think im gonna keep my eye shut though.. will watch him slp.. and then weeps.. XD ha.. o well. .what to do =P
haiz...
k.. time fo rme to slp eh...
tmr. .gonna be so rush. ..hm.. o well. .i hope time flies
...''if the way they love you isnt what u want it to be, doesnt mean they dont love u just as much..'' duno whats the excat words.. but read it somewhere... and.. yea.. i tihnk its good.. i mena... yea..
opposite attracts.. ha. indeed thats for our boss. and her partner. was talking about them to my colleague. she agrees too. 2 of them so different, yet.. .uh huh ^^
well, love knows no bounds. hehehe.
hm.. i think.... they shouldbe coming back to sg soon... yea.. cant wait to see them. ha.
gonna be so nervous all over again.. gosh.. plus my regional manager from melbourne.. should be coming ard.. sep> ? i duno .. should be.. gosh.. nervous.. hope things will go well.
hmm...... o well.... thats about it hten...
hmm........ work hard eh.. haiz.. oh.. these dasy wanna save also fail.. cos must buy useful stuffs.. =/ then expensive when u add up together.. o well.. next month will try harder ba. .. haiz.....
hm.. cant wait for new phone ne...
o well.. slowly save up..... and.............. get the things i want. .cos i save hard.. and.. .may the biggest prize be unfolding itself in the time fututre ahead.. i... o well. who know shwat gonna happen.. just.... try to save as much ba =/
mata
14 August 2010
Tight Week
omg... mornign didnt slpt well... so feeling tired and slpy.. but good thing towards aftnnon, alot of customers, and big sales to keep me busy.. so yea. .its good. =)
been long since this hapened.
anywya, was in bus omw home. .then me fell aslp.. wakey, and found htat my head nearly rested upon htis guy's shoulder beside me!! omg.. i tell u.. huu.. nooooooooooooo ~! me dun wan sia!! gosh.. hope i wont see that man at the interchange ever again . dotsss
oh.. sorry last night no blog. dunno wat to blog. .tired also.. =/ so yea..
today i felt beter.. throat. .moring gib me prob abit. .but now better..
hm.. im slpy. -_- haiyo.. duno wha to blog about.. hmm.. forgot ne..
o well... .....
ohhh.. hopefully the starhub will bring in the samsung gs phone soon. they say if all things goes well, should be september. they ask ppl to wait a little longer only. so yup.. im guessings hould be fine. gosh, they'd better gib better deals than singtel!
yea.. hope they will ne.
4 days to go.. right after work, reach home. .then me start working on my work stuff again. well. .about done i say.. but. .yea.. hm......
anywya, only these future days ahead is gonna be tight and tiring.. =/ but im gonna pull through it ne.. gambate!!
tch.. miss sam so much.. love him so much.. huuuu.. i wish i could go visit him =(
....haiz...........
my day will come right..? may aug be over asap... =/
then sep. .then oct.. then.. 2 months to go before it ends.. yea. .nov and dec shld be fast eh?>. i hope.. cos gona be busy like mad.. omg. .and plus the opening of new shopO.o.. gosh... cant believe this. .one month to go...
hmm.. =/ k ba. .i wanan rest and destress abit..
mata ne...
been long since this hapened.
anywya, was in bus omw home. .then me fell aslp.. wakey, and found htat my head nearly rested upon htis guy's shoulder beside me!! omg.. i tell u.. huu.. nooooooooooooo ~! me dun wan sia!! gosh.. hope i wont see that man at the interchange ever again . dotsss
oh.. sorry last night no blog. dunno wat to blog. .tired also.. =/ so yea..
today i felt beter.. throat. .moring gib me prob abit. .but now better..
hm.. im slpy. -_- haiyo.. duno wha to blog about.. hmm.. forgot ne..
o well... .....
ohhh.. hopefully the starhub will bring in the samsung gs phone soon. they say if all things goes well, should be september. they ask ppl to wait a little longer only. so yup.. im guessings hould be fine. gosh, they'd better gib better deals than singtel!
yea.. hope they will ne.
4 days to go.. right after work, reach home. .then me start working on my work stuff again. well. .about done i say.. but. .yea.. hm......
anywya, only these future days ahead is gonna be tight and tiring.. =/ but im gonna pull through it ne.. gambate!!
tch.. miss sam so much.. love him so much.. huuuu.. i wish i could go visit him =(
....haiz...........
my day will come right..? may aug be over asap... =/
then sep. .then oct.. then.. 2 months to go before it ends.. yea. .nov and dec shld be fast eh?>. i hope.. cos gona be busy like mad.. omg. .and plus the opening of new shopO.o.. gosh... cant believe this. .one month to go...
hmm.. =/ k ba. .i wanan rest and destress abit..
mata ne...
12 August 2010
my sensitive nose
so tired....
sigh.. im so tired..
oh.. took mc.. =(
my manager best fren is coming over for one week.. just to visit her.. im so envious... ='(
i wish i could be happy like her.................. =(
oh.. sam finally tested out the galaxy phone.. i knew it was good.. so yea.. glad he tested it out finally, and end up liking it. well. .seems like. .he gota decide on plan s eh.. not too sure how the plans there work.. but yea.. .sighes..
i wish i am next to him..
i still rememebr how he llooks.. hoiw he talks .. how he ignored me.. how he was angry at me.. how he love me.. its gonna be a long time before we meet again.. im so scared.... thigns may will change(i hope not)... but faith.. and trust.. are the keywords..
without it, we're nothing..
not say totally nothing.. but yea. u know wha i mena..
\he's my first love.. one whom i treasured alot....
i dun care how many guys out there is trying to get me. becos all i ever want is to have him by my side.. ='(
today.. me went to see doc.. huuu... all the memories that i had.. was hte only memory that i had with him.. he accompany with me to doc.. thast is.. i couldnt rememebr anythign else=/... today. i waited alone.. i see doc alone.. and thoguht i didnt have a high fever.. but doc say i have,... i was like.. gosh.. i din know that =( i din know that i have such fever dude =/.... my house's thermometer suckxs.. =/
i din kbnow i had fevers before.. so many times. =(
sigh.....................................
however i survide.. but.. yea.. with a rpice that is.
its tough.. but i gotta do it... ...
tmr. .i mc. i rarely mc.. only when i couldnt take it anymore, and when theres ppl to cover me, then i will take mc.
but i still don like it.. =/
im so scared....
my future to happiness is so far-away..... no one is gonna know whats gonna happen. .3 yrs? 5 yrs? or even 10 yrs in the future... FUTURE... that is frightening..indeed...
are u afraid of ur own future??
its what makes us move us.. but at hte same time.. its frightening us to move on...
u gotta knw for sure what u are into.. for there might not be turning backs yea..
i love salim..
and it pains me everyday not being able to stay by his side..
but... some things.. u cant get it for granted... listen peeps... that is important...
very =/
if ur partner is beside u now, slping or what, look at him or her... give a kiss.... and wakey them softly.. tell them.. look into their eyes. .say it and mean it.. that u love them dearly..as ur life... some words.. simple as it might seem.. Mushy as it might be...
it can be a very powerful tool. powerful force.. to keep them with you.
let your feelings known.. Be known...............................
do not regret spending not enough time.. nor never say what u got to say when u have the time to..
tell them.. you love them..
oh wow.. by this time. i should be aslp by now..
but.. tonight is a lil' weird.. i couldnt slp.. not really..................................
u know.. my mucus is as sticky as glue now?? =/ haiz.........
i dun feel well.. doc say i have fever =(((( and.. i din expect that seriously ... =( and.. i so wish sam is here with me.. i could only remember him bringing me to doc='( as in my only vivd memory of going to doc is with him.
anyway... ... haiz...
i dunm feel so good right now=(..............
hm.............. .... oh yea.. bored.. =/ nothign to do much whole day.. sick and tired to do so..
nothign much..
me so full now.. haiz... =/
k.. im tire.d.. i dun wanna talkno more..
mata
sigh.. im so tired..
oh.. took mc.. =(
my manager best fren is coming over for one week.. just to visit her.. im so envious... ='(
i wish i could be happy like her.................. =(
oh.. sam finally tested out the galaxy phone.. i knew it was good.. so yea.. glad he tested it out finally, and end up liking it. well. .seems like. .he gota decide on plan s eh.. not too sure how the plans there work.. but yea.. .sighes..
i wish i am next to him..
i still rememebr how he llooks.. hoiw he talks .. how he ignored me.. how he was angry at me.. how he love me.. its gonna be a long time before we meet again.. im so scared.... thigns may will change(i hope not)... but faith.. and trust.. are the keywords..
without it, we're nothing..
not say totally nothing.. but yea. u know wha i mena..
\he's my first love.. one whom i treasured alot....
i dun care how many guys out there is trying to get me. becos all i ever want is to have him by my side.. ='(
today.. me went to see doc.. huuu... all the memories that i had.. was hte only memory that i had with him.. he accompany with me to doc.. thast is.. i couldnt rememebr anythign else=/... today. i waited alone.. i see doc alone.. and thoguht i didnt have a high fever.. but doc say i have,... i was like.. gosh.. i din know that =( i din know that i have such fever dude =/.... my house's thermometer suckxs.. =/
i din kbnow i had fevers before.. so many times. =(
sigh.....................................
however i survide.. but.. yea.. with a rpice that is.
its tough.. but i gotta do it... ...
tmr. .i mc. i rarely mc.. only when i couldnt take it anymore, and when theres ppl to cover me, then i will take mc.
but i still don like it.. =/
im so scared....
my future to happiness is so far-away..... no one is gonna know whats gonna happen. .3 yrs? 5 yrs? or even 10 yrs in the future... FUTURE... that is frightening..indeed...
are u afraid of ur own future??
its what makes us move us.. but at hte same time.. its frightening us to move on...
u gotta knw for sure what u are into.. for there might not be turning backs yea..
i love salim..
and it pains me everyday not being able to stay by his side..
but... some things.. u cant get it for granted... listen peeps... that is important...
very =/
if ur partner is beside u now, slping or what, look at him or her... give a kiss.... and wakey them softly.. tell them.. look into their eyes. .say it and mean it.. that u love them dearly..as ur life... some words.. simple as it might seem.. Mushy as it might be...
it can be a very powerful tool. powerful force.. to keep them with you.
let your feelings known.. Be known...............................
do not regret spending not enough time.. nor never say what u got to say when u have the time to..
tell them.. you love them..
oh wow.. by this time. i should be aslp by now..
but.. tonight is a lil' weird.. i couldnt slp.. not really..................................
u know.. my mucus is as sticky as glue now?? =/ haiz.........
i dun feel well.. doc say i have fever =(((( and.. i din expect that seriously ... =( and.. i so wish sam is here with me.. i could only remember him bringing me to doc='( as in my only vivd memory of going to doc is with him.
anyway... ... haiz...
i dunm feel so good right now=(..............
hm.............. .... oh yea.. bored.. =/ nothign to do much whole day.. sick and tired to do so..
nothign much..
me so full now.. haiz... =/
k.. im tire.d.. i dun wanna talkno more..
mata
11 August 2010
3rd Day Sniff
phew.. finally after night.. nose started to stop its dripping.. but stil lstucked.. andim feeling so tired and weak now =/ wanna go out today.. but i couldnt. i was so sick feeling that wya when i wokey in mrg.=(
online.. then blah3.. forgot to eat and take med.. cos online and didnt feel my hunger at all. i dont feel hugnry when im too sick=/
then make porridge.. mum not back. .she thoght i was at work.. so me cooked porridge.. watch tv. .. the whole image sounded like a poor girl scene eh? dots... but yea. .anyway.. bath.. online.. then sam showed up when i needed to ask him things badly. or tell him stuff.so yea .i did. which is great.. hm.. then drank pleanty of water.. watch online movie.. alwayas found movies that never airs. anyway.. feeling so slpy.. and weak.. tired.. me deicded to take a nap.. since not hungry.. couldnt feel it.. anyway..
nice to huggie bloster and slp.. then realises i gotta wakey.. otherwise would have such hard time slping later.
my throat.. starting to get sore.. didnt regain my voice back yet.. glad tmr not working. .toehrwise would be using my voice to talk and talk. .=( and its terrible. very uncomfy. haiz................
o well... perhaps tmr night see doc ba=/ im so gonna ask him how come me sick onc eevery month. but at least me don take mc once eevry month like my colleagues does.
but.. gotta settle some stuffs if i wanna do that .tch.. o well.. its ok.. ..
oh, saw the video for he movie i wanna watch badly. music viddeo. it was really good. very nice. touching. i cant wait to watch it. =)
nice video. but.. duno whats the song about. ah..
yay. .finally the movie is coming...
hm.. what els.e....
=/
o well.. just feel kinda stress i guess... hm..
its boring...
haiz. .so many htings need to get=/ outta my budget man..
still must get the lappy anti virus thingy.. haiz.. anyway, hope wil lknw how to install too ba..
oh.. i was having a lollipop while watching movie.. and guess what. try as hard as i might, i couldnt taste anthign!! yes... not a single taste of sweetness... omg...
=/ its so.. ..weird i guess.. imagine u are licking something, and u cant taste it. cos ur nose blocked, and u're sick.. eew.. .wasted my lolly=/
my throat should be swollen now.. i drank alot of water i think.. which is goodthing. cos usually i don get to do that often=/ ...well.. my job my job...
i wish i could work from home..
mata
online.. then blah3.. forgot to eat and take med.. cos online and didnt feel my hunger at all. i dont feel hugnry when im too sick=/
then make porridge.. mum not back. .she thoght i was at work.. so me cooked porridge.. watch tv. .. the whole image sounded like a poor girl scene eh? dots... but yea. .anyway.. bath.. online.. then sam showed up when i needed to ask him things badly. or tell him stuff.so yea .i did. which is great.. hm.. then drank pleanty of water.. watch online movie.. alwayas found movies that never airs. anyway.. feeling so slpy.. and weak.. tired.. me deicded to take a nap.. since not hungry.. couldnt feel it.. anyway..
nice to huggie bloster and slp.. then realises i gotta wakey.. otherwise would have such hard time slping later.
my throat.. starting to get sore.. didnt regain my voice back yet.. glad tmr not working. .toehrwise would be using my voice to talk and talk. .=( and its terrible. very uncomfy. haiz................
o well... perhaps tmr night see doc ba=/ im so gonna ask him how come me sick onc eevery month. but at least me don take mc once eevry month like my colleagues does.
but.. gotta settle some stuffs if i wanna do that .tch.. o well.. its ok.. ..
oh, saw the video for he movie i wanna watch badly. music viddeo. it was really good. very nice. touching. i cant wait to watch it. =)
nice video. but.. duno whats the song about. ah..
yay. .finally the movie is coming...
hm.. what els.e....
=/
o well.. just feel kinda stress i guess... hm..
its boring...
haiz. .so many htings need to get=/ outta my budget man..
still must get the lappy anti virus thingy.. haiz.. anyway, hope wil lknw how to install too ba..
oh.. i was having a lollipop while watching movie.. and guess what. try as hard as i might, i couldnt taste anthign!! yes... not a single taste of sweetness... omg...
=/ its so.. ..weird i guess.. imagine u are licking something, and u cant taste it. cos ur nose blocked, and u're sick.. eew.. .wasted my lolly=/
my throat should be swollen now.. i drank alot of water i think.. which is goodthing. cos usually i don get to do that often=/ ...well.. my job my job...
i wish i could work from home..
mata
10 August 2010
Sick for 2nd day(not worse yet)
ok.. so.. i should've heed the advice of my heart and take mc today. =( thought by mrg wakey would be fine.. but i was wrong.. still not good =/ sigh.. somemore, shop inside sooo cold. gosh.. im freezing.. T_T.
hm.. cut short ba. me no mood to type.. very tired.. and sick=./
hm... duno hwat els eto type.. sorry.. =/ my head.. spinning.. i cant think of naything right now.. blanksssssssssssss
but well.. at least i get knock off about 20mins earlier.. better than nothing.
mrg.. manager was late.. dots.. not say late.. but yea.. cos forgot keys. =.=
well.. sometiems ppl still makes mistakes. .yea..
so full!!!!! no wodmer all hte more me duno what to type about.. gosh..
haiz. .see how ba.. i hope by my off days.. finsih, can get well. .if not.. hten.. o well.. anyway fri they enough ppl i think.. should be fine iwthout me.. anyway...
see how ba...
may tmr be better ne.... sianz.. cant eat my fav food now =/ sick on my offs.. haiz..
hm.. if u ask me, yea.. including me, theres 3 staffs in my shop sick. omg. .duno why.
hopefully by the itme me back to work, i'll get well alreayd.. this cold hing.. happens every month =/ haiz. .someitme sii wonder.. if go see doc, mc one day, the med might jsut save me for months.
maybe me just overworked.. work3... no rest much.. or. i duno.. my life pretty inbalance i guess=( yea.. what to do. .haiz..
huu.. me sneeze till nose pain =/
still rememebr that time.. sick.. then work.. till hte 4th day.. still work.. wah.. come to think of it now, why me so foolish> 4th day alreayd.. ppl take mc liao. .me never go take. O.o what am i thinking?
duno.. perhaps its time for me to act smart. .or .. i duno. ha
hm.. so full.. haiz.. wanna eat choco biscult.. also cannot =/ cant taste anything too ba.. haiz.
life been busy.. =/ but aint good. cos sammy isnt ard.. =( everydya aint good fo rme.. sad ne..
k.. ognna stop here. .cant breathe.. huu....
wan my man here=(... huu
mata
-share with me everything-
hm.. cut short ba. me no mood to type.. very tired.. and sick=./
hm... duno hwat els eto type.. sorry.. =/ my head.. spinning.. i cant think of naything right now.. blanksssssssssssss
but well.. at least i get knock off about 20mins earlier.. better than nothing.
mrg.. manager was late.. dots.. not say late.. but yea.. cos forgot keys. =.=
well.. sometiems ppl still makes mistakes. .yea..
so full!!!!! no wodmer all hte more me duno what to type about.. gosh..
haiz. .see how ba.. i hope by my off days.. finsih, can get well. .if not.. hten.. o well.. anyway fri they enough ppl i think.. should be fine iwthout me.. anyway...
see how ba...
may tmr be better ne.... sianz.. cant eat my fav food now =/ sick on my offs.. haiz..
hm.. if u ask me, yea.. including me, theres 3 staffs in my shop sick. omg. .duno why.
hopefully by the itme me back to work, i'll get well alreayd.. this cold hing.. happens every month =/ haiz. .someitme sii wonder.. if go see doc, mc one day, the med might jsut save me for months.
maybe me just overworked.. work3... no rest much.. or. i duno.. my life pretty inbalance i guess=( yea.. what to do. .haiz..
huu.. me sneeze till nose pain =/
still rememebr that time.. sick.. then work.. till hte 4th day.. still work.. wah.. come to think of it now, why me so foolish> 4th day alreayd.. ppl take mc liao. .me never go take. O.o what am i thinking?
duno.. perhaps its time for me to act smart. .or .. i duno. ha
hm.. so full.. haiz.. wanna eat choco biscult.. also cannot =/ cant taste anything too ba.. haiz.
life been busy.. =/ but aint good. cos sammy isnt ard.. =( everydya aint good fo rme.. sad ne..
k.. ognna stop here. .cant breathe.. huu....
wan my man here=(... huu
mata
-share with me everything-
08 August 2010
Prelude To NAtional Day
gosh.. so tired.. o well..
hm. .today ... veyr busy.. but theres a bbig sale.. and with the help of my collleague, yea.. we clinched it!
and glad tht my form thingy. .gosh.. no nid to submit by tmr ba.. but. .haiz. .duno ne.. ..
thinking of what to do with it. ... hm... o well.. in anycase.. ...
....
tmr will ask my manger. .sure gona kena do the report thing =,.= whtaever. .me just take it as learning.. .then yea. .prepare for future or what.. learninug is good... as long as they don ask me to do it. .cos me not manager eh.
anyway,... gosh.. intervioew day.. i hope its safe.. glups.. *
hmm.. hteres somehting i know i gotta say.. but i really forgot. .hmm..
aw.. poor bro.. after 5 days off.. .i emna. .today the 4th day. .tmr finaly day off.. he today so sad=/ o well.. i know how thats feels. .sucks... like. holiday overm ,u're back to work slp work slp day... what to do.. we all nid money.. theres always a price to pay.. ..haiz.
but in anycase.. o well.. at leats he off so many days.. me no have ne =/ huu....
hm.. what else.. .. tmr. .so early.. go work.. but vcan go back earlier.. but. .no sammy of course.. there.
gosh.. i MUST keep to my budget!!
hm.. been feeling alil stress lately.. ...
=/ o well... .will jia you ne.. ..
oh my poor fen. .totally lost voice ne. .omg.. .i nevaer heard anyone sounded like that ever =/ so sccary. .so serious.. =/
gosh....
don think tmr mc will help ne..
anyway... at elats tmr me don have to yea.. night shift ..tmr gonna be busy like mad.. huu han gon ba
hmm... wnna watch movie ne.. online movie..
kk.. me gtg.. tryign to do things keep my mind off the form for now..
mata
hm. .today ... veyr busy.. but theres a bbig sale.. and with the help of my collleague, yea.. we clinched it!
and glad tht my form thingy. .gosh.. no nid to submit by tmr ba.. but. .haiz. .duno ne.. ..
thinking of what to do with it. ... hm... o well.. in anycase.. ...
....
tmr will ask my manger. .sure gona kena do the report thing =,.= whtaever. .me just take it as learning.. .then yea. .prepare for future or what.. learninug is good... as long as they don ask me to do it. .cos me not manager eh.
anyway,... gosh.. intervioew day.. i hope its safe.. glups.. *
hmm.. hteres somehting i know i gotta say.. but i really forgot. .hmm..
aw.. poor bro.. after 5 days off.. .i emna. .today the 4th day. .tmr finaly day off.. he today so sad=/ o well.. i know how thats feels. .sucks... like. holiday overm ,u're back to work slp work slp day... what to do.. we all nid money.. theres always a price to pay.. ..haiz.
but in anycase.. o well.. at leats he off so many days.. me no have ne =/ huu....
hm.. what else.. .. tmr. .so early.. go work.. but vcan go back earlier.. but. .no sammy of course.. there.
gosh.. i MUST keep to my budget!!
hm.. been feeling alil stress lately.. ...
=/ o well... .will jia you ne.. ..
oh my poor fen. .totally lost voice ne. .omg.. .i nevaer heard anyone sounded like that ever =/ so sccary. .so serious.. =/
gosh....
don think tmr mc will help ne..
anyway... at elats tmr me don have to yea.. night shift ..tmr gonna be busy like mad.. huu han gon ba
hmm... wnna watch movie ne.. online movie..
kk.. me gtg.. tryign to do things keep my mind off the form for now..
mata
07 August 2010
STUPID MAIL!!!
omg . i am so stress. =(((( haiz... gosh.. goodness me..
been a wth day =(
received msg from manager. .knew something bad is gonna happen.. worry... then somehow forget abt it.. then ikea.. with bro and mum.. relay no mood ot type this. but i need to get away from my stress work.
anyway, i guess the pain makes me forget about stress msg.
my heels.. gosh!! stupid! me go wear it. alreyad swear musnt wear, stil lwear. i for got mah. =( then got blister again. 4 toes together. =( pain all theway.. huuuuu... soemmore u know ikea so huge righ the place=( then yea. huu.. no slippers avcailable too.. =( then walk3... knew blister is coming.. every step felt like a knife being cut through my flesh like that.. huu =(
then so tired nad pain.. still need too eat..h ten wait for bro collect stuff.. waste time abit=( huu. then taxi. .good hting nbever wait too long. .then ya.. home. .got the email. .haiz.. trouble brews. =(
then difficulty to get the thign done. .but with sams' help, phew.. .omg.. finally i know kinda what to do.. but then, omg.. the thigns to fill up........ drop my jaw... really.. like. .omggggggggggggggg... T_T
now im confused of what needsx to fill up..
blah3... =( haiz.. and still need my colleagues email comment.. .blah3 somemore.. me duno wanna bring laptop to work anot.. haiz.. so sad.......
i duno what to do. i guess im just so tired and pain.. and. u know.. come back home. .straight away this happen =/
and didnt get to talk to sam alot. then yea. .jiust asked him about those steps on how to get thigns done.. then late alryad.. he went to slp.
shoot. =./ *shakes head.. .this suckssssssss
i duno. =/ shall see how then.. sigh.. duno wanna bring lapy or what. .so sianz...
somemore me no time to do alreyad.. its important stuff. .i nid to think and reply carefully..
tmr me mrg shift. .gotta slp soon. .if not, tmr .. haiz... sianz..
and i think no choice but to ask that irritating guy. cos he and my fren are the seniors. so yea .sianz.. duno what he;ll say in my reviews.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hiaz.. i find it so difficult to get to tampiines.. got strraight bus.. but the place so ulu.. as in.. so.. remote.. =( somemore.. if i get back home,... duno isit same bustop anot. .but if so... =( omgg... .its scary.. duno how to explain. .next time then talk ba
erm, and so.. the other night bro came home. .say he walk towards anotehr route.. erm.. he say dark. .and no one walk usually.. me walked before.. cos i wanna try new route see if faster reach home.
anyway, he say a guy followed him up behind.. he got frightened. lol .cos his fren got robbed before while having lv items on her.
so yea.. he's carrying a big lv bag.. my bro got worried.. then call redz.. pretend to talk and hint to ppl behind that yea.. he's arrving soon.. blah3.. then he purposely walk slow2.. then let that stranger walk in front of him. .omg.. scary!!!
that hapened to me once before... lol. i know how he feels. its soooo frightening u thought u're in a movie. its reaally sooo scary . omg...
but anyway, yup.. glad he's safe. he say its scary.. cos the guy like follwing him, and behind him, and usually ppl wont walk that way!! i agree... hm.. yea.. so far everytime i walk there, no one walk there. well, it was nighttime for him. me last time walked there.. hm.. about almost 11 ba. or 11. cos just finshed work. but.. i find it ok. theres cars lights.. so.. yea. .XD
o well.. anyway, should alwyas be extra careful when having ur branded item ard eh
haiz.. what shold i do tmr with the email?.. =(
..o well. .just do it ba. i also duno how.. forgetit. . so stress alreyd. .thinking abou tthis also futile. .=/
what to do..
just do whatever i can ba =/
sighes.. what a day.. what a day =(
haiz.. may tmr be betetr =(
gosh.. the next 6 dasy shift gonan be so tough.. huu.. i wan mc? =/ haiz. .baka.. i cant do that..
my collegaues.. including that tiem my manger. .timing so good.. mc, then next day off. like.. straight offs sia. =,= i wanna do that.. but. ... thats not in my blood.. perhaps. .htat shold be somehting i should learn eh ? i duno.. =/
haiz.. anyway, yea.. thank you sammy for his everything. if not , me still .. haiz.. .huuuu.. me so wan him beside me =((((
mata
been a wth day =(
received msg from manager. .knew something bad is gonna happen.. worry... then somehow forget abt it.. then ikea.. with bro and mum.. relay no mood ot type this. but i need to get away from my stress work.
anyway, i guess the pain makes me forget about stress msg.
my heels.. gosh!! stupid! me go wear it. alreyad swear musnt wear, stil lwear. i for got mah. =( then got blister again. 4 toes together. =( pain all theway.. huuuuu... soemmore u know ikea so huge righ the place=( then yea. huu.. no slippers avcailable too.. =( then walk3... knew blister is coming.. every step felt like a knife being cut through my flesh like that.. huu =(
then so tired nad pain.. still need too eat..h ten wait for bro collect stuff.. waste time abit=( huu. then taxi. .good hting nbever wait too long. .then ya.. home. .got the email. .haiz.. trouble brews. =(
then difficulty to get the thign done. .but with sams' help, phew.. .omg.. finally i know kinda what to do.. but then, omg.. the thigns to fill up........ drop my jaw... really.. like. .omggggggggggggggg... T_T
now im confused of what needsx to fill up..
blah3... =( haiz.. and still need my colleagues email comment.. .blah3 somemore.. me duno wanna bring laptop to work anot.. haiz.. so sad.......
i duno what to do. i guess im just so tired and pain.. and. u know.. come back home. .straight away this happen =/
and didnt get to talk to sam alot. then yea. .jiust asked him about those steps on how to get thigns done.. then late alryad.. he went to slp.
shoot. =./ *shakes head.. .this suckssssssss
i duno. =/ shall see how then.. sigh.. duno wanna bring lapy or what. .so sianz...
somemore me no time to do alreyad.. its important stuff. .i nid to think and reply carefully..
tmr me mrg shift. .gotta slp soon. .if not, tmr .. haiz... sianz..
and i think no choice but to ask that irritating guy. cos he and my fren are the seniors. so yea .sianz.. duno what he;ll say in my reviews.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hiaz.. i find it so difficult to get to tampiines.. got strraight bus.. but the place so ulu.. as in.. so.. remote.. =( somemore.. if i get back home,... duno isit same bustop anot. .but if so... =( omgg... .its scary.. duno how to explain. .next time then talk ba
erm, and so.. the other night bro came home. .say he walk towards anotehr route.. erm.. he say dark. .and no one walk usually.. me walked before.. cos i wanna try new route see if faster reach home.
anyway, he say a guy followed him up behind.. he got frightened. lol .cos his fren got robbed before while having lv items on her.
so yea.. he's carrying a big lv bag.. my bro got worried.. then call redz.. pretend to talk and hint to ppl behind that yea.. he's arrving soon.. blah3.. then he purposely walk slow2.. then let that stranger walk in front of him. .omg.. scary!!!
that hapened to me once before... lol. i know how he feels. its soooo frightening u thought u're in a movie. its reaally sooo scary . omg...
but anyway, yup.. glad he's safe. he say its scary.. cos the guy like follwing him, and behind him, and usually ppl wont walk that way!! i agree... hm.. yea.. so far everytime i walk there, no one walk there. well, it was nighttime for him. me last time walked there.. hm.. about almost 11 ba. or 11. cos just finshed work. but.. i find it ok. theres cars lights.. so.. yea. .XD
o well.. anyway, should alwyas be extra careful when having ur branded item ard eh
haiz.. what shold i do tmr with the email?.. =(
..o well. .just do it ba. i also duno how.. forgetit. . so stress alreyd. .thinking abou tthis also futile. .=/
what to do..
just do whatever i can ba =/
sighes.. what a day.. what a day =(
haiz.. may tmr be betetr =(
gosh.. the next 6 dasy shift gonan be so tough.. huu.. i wan mc? =/ haiz. .baka.. i cant do that..
my collegaues.. including that tiem my manger. .timing so good.. mc, then next day off. like.. straight offs sia. =,= i wanna do that.. but. ... thats not in my blood.. perhaps. .htat shold be somehting i should learn eh ? i duno.. =/
haiz.. anyway, yea.. thank you sammy for his everything. if not , me still .. haiz.. .huuuu.. me so wan him beside me =((((
mata
06 August 2010
CoincidenceO.o
gosh.. tired.. and slpy.. duno hwat to type now=/ hmmm....
hows my day? i forgot. .kinda.. hm..
oh well, make it short. erm.. so. one of my colleague bf isnt in town. and its like. .ok.. .is this coincidence or what ? i have 2 colleagues in the shop kindal ike.. having this ldr thingy going on.. O.o weird..
anyway, me tried to find out and confirm about the msgin gtol .hm..
wha else.. .oh, glaaxy phon eso cheap now!
and huu... =( news saying end of year airfares wil lrise .. duno 10 to 50% T_T huuu.... sux..
hm.. well, me duno what else liao.. juts wanan go slp and have good rest..
at first abit sad sammy will be out tmr. thought of watchign a movie.. but.. yea.. wait tired and slpy.. wrong tim to watch too ne.. but o well.. will still ge to talk 30mins or so.. better than none at all
gosh.. duno what else.. hm....
certainly i've forgot alot of stuffs to type ..dots. .but yea.. cant help it.
today.. so crowded and .. ok.. not so super busy.. but yea.. crowded.. and poor manager. .kena scold by one of the customer.. =/ haiz..
yawnnnnnnnnnnnnn gosh.. kk i nid to slp.. tmr.. duno what to do.. see how ba.. gosh. .so much to clean up and stuff.
see whats gonna happen then,
mata
hows my day? i forgot. .kinda.. hm..
oh well, make it short. erm.. so. one of my colleague bf isnt in town. and its like. .ok.. .is this coincidence or what ? i have 2 colleagues in the shop kindal ike.. having this ldr thingy going on.. O.o weird..
anyway, me tried to find out and confirm about the msgin gtol .hm..
wha else.. .oh, glaaxy phon eso cheap now!
and huu... =( news saying end of year airfares wil lrise .. duno 10 to 50% T_T huuu.... sux..
hm.. well, me duno what else liao.. juts wanan go slp and have good rest..
at first abit sad sammy will be out tmr. thought of watchign a movie.. but.. yea.. wait tired and slpy.. wrong tim to watch too ne.. but o well.. will still ge to talk 30mins or so.. better than none at all
gosh.. duno what else.. hm....
certainly i've forgot alot of stuffs to type ..dots. .but yea.. cant help it.
today.. so crowded and .. ok.. not so super busy.. but yea.. crowded.. and poor manager. .kena scold by one of the customer.. =/ haiz..
yawnnnnnnnnnnnnn gosh.. kk i nid to slp.. tmr.. duno what to do.. see how ba.. gosh. .so much to clean up and stuff.
see whats gonna happen then,
mata
05 August 2010
My Real Sam Beneath =)
hmm.. didnt say slpt very well.. all i know is.. im soo tire.d. my body so tire.. even at point point wakey and thought i was gonna be working later in abit. dots.. haiz.. thats tehh result when u overwrked tiredly for 6days straight. anyway,
morning.. clear my room up abit. .actually wanna find my item.. gone missing=( sigh.. gotta spend money buy new one knowing its somewhere ard in my room .. , suxxx big time=( haiz.. what to do=/
duno where ppl place them. haiz..
hm.. then.. what else. .later into aftnoon.. paint my nails.. i like them. =) elegant looking. ha.
hm.. accompany sam thorughout his school. so fast ne.. one week is gone.. fo rhis school.. anyway, hope tmr he get to work and earn extra cash ba.. ..at the same time, he can enjoy himself with some sports. lol. nice=) but i cant join =(
oh the youtube video quality betwee nsamsung and iphone, so huge. the samsugn really have suh beautiful colours. but.. well, u gotta see the real thing before u say anything right?
anyway, hm... online3... gosh.. by night time, duno what else to do sitting in front of lappy le. =.= bored.
oh, finally told sammy about his pics.. models pics.. so touched up and plastic looking =/ not liek the real him. when i lookey, yes.. its nice looking. .but its all to made up. and im the type of girl who wont get attracted by goodlooking guys like. .just based on gdlooks . . so.. pics.. hm.. not say bad. yes. .of course he's my swt looking handsome swty pie=) but yea. .something is missing.. and.. i seriously prefer his natural pics. au natural =) alwyas so smiley, so real, so swt.. so warm.. make sme smile=)^^
always make me smile and go all fluttery.. XD> naww... uh huh... that is what i called flesh and blood. real, and true. my very own swty =)
he look soooo good the way he is now =)aww.. huuu now saying all this, i miss him!!!T_T
hm.. wrote down acouple of htign si need to do.. so yea. .comppleted them! chers=)
time to get organized XD
hm.. .well.. ...
hope tmr be over asap.. wonde rhows my manager now=/
hm.. tired and slpy.. but don wan night to end yet.. one day to go.. wil be my off. .wil lenjoy another day with sam ba..
hm.. k. .thats abou tit. .
mata
morning.. clear my room up abit. .actually wanna find my item.. gone missing=( sigh.. gotta spend money buy new one knowing its somewhere ard in my room .. , suxxx big time=( haiz.. what to do=/
duno where ppl place them. haiz..
hm.. then.. what else. .later into aftnoon.. paint my nails.. i like them. =) elegant looking. ha.
hm.. accompany sam thorughout his school. so fast ne.. one week is gone.. fo rhis school.. anyway, hope tmr he get to work and earn extra cash ba.. ..at the same time, he can enjoy himself with some sports. lol. nice=) but i cant join =(
oh the youtube video quality betwee nsamsung and iphone, so huge. the samsugn really have suh beautiful colours. but.. well, u gotta see the real thing before u say anything right?
anyway, hm... online3... gosh.. by night time, duno what else to do sitting in front of lappy le. =.= bored.
oh, finally told sammy about his pics.. models pics.. so touched up and plastic looking =/ not liek the real him. when i lookey, yes.. its nice looking. .but its all to made up. and im the type of girl who wont get attracted by goodlooking guys like. .just based on gdlooks . . so.. pics.. hm.. not say bad. yes. .of course he's my swt looking handsome swty pie=) but yea. .something is missing.. and.. i seriously prefer his natural pics. au natural =) alwyas so smiley, so real, so swt.. so warm.. make sme smile=)^^
always make me smile and go all fluttery.. XD> naww... uh huh... that is what i called flesh and blood. real, and true. my very own swty =)
he look soooo good the way he is now =)aww.. huuu now saying all this, i miss him!!!T_T
hm.. wrote down acouple of htign si need to do.. so yea. .comppleted them! chers=)
time to get organized XD
hm.. .well.. ...
hope tmr be over asap.. wonde rhows my manager now=/
hm.. tired and slpy.. but don wan night to end yet.. one day to go.. wil be my off. .wil lenjoy another day with sam ba..
hm.. k. .thats abou tit. .
mata
04 August 2010
Wondrous Nature
ok.. wow.. and so i got one off only... .. its ok.. glad to be over.. my 6th day.. sooo tired. .gosh..
hm.. what happened. .
ok.. will make it short..
erm.. just saw alot of pics.. todya.. pic's day . haha. .amazing3 places.. views. . all which i never knew of. its totally wow3. =) its incredible. wow. .i seen through so much today. its awesome. there is never ending to all this earth's wonders.
oh. and i found a last name i like so much. if i rememebr the spellings correctly. its salvator. very cool eh?? =) hehe.. really like it alot.
its form a customer of mine.
cos yea.. for membership and stuff. .so i nid to grab their names. and today came across salvactor. =)nice^^
hm... just had a cuppa mocha... hm...
what else.. ....
very full today..
hm.. weird. .i think i missed out of saying some other stuffs.. what could htat be.. >_<''...
hm... ...
tch..
oh.. i got so freaked out =( after hearing the creepy voices of the poor girl . the girl who must not be name.. dots. .i duno.. i dun wnan mention her.. but yes.. huu.. i had never been this frightened before.. somemroe its at night.. so thank goodness bro is outside living room.. omg.. cant imagine if i were to be alone in room .. huu
so scary ne. .sooo disturbing!!!
hm.. so yea.. and i learned of this new place.. iguazu.. omg.. the waterfalls.. its heaven!!! its incredibly amazing!!!
sooo many water fal\ls..
theres even 2 layers!! and a bridge or sumtin to let visitors to watch!! gosh.. i wish i was standing on that spot.. plus theres a hotel where u could see that too.. omg.. .beautiful.. no idea what to say of htis.. but yea.. ...
wow. .today had views on so many wondrous places.. its.. wow.. earth.. alot of beautiful amazing spots we might enver get to knwo about.. yet... ...could these really all come to and end soon> ?
beautiful earth.. yet.. getting destroyed by the min.. ...
k, will stop here now. .wanna slp before bro hit the sack. hu.. otherwise me scared!
jaa, mata
hm.. what happened. .
ok.. will make it short..
erm.. just saw alot of pics.. todya.. pic's day . haha. .amazing3 places.. views. . all which i never knew of. its totally wow3. =) its incredible. wow. .i seen through so much today. its awesome. there is never ending to all this earth's wonders.
oh. and i found a last name i like so much. if i rememebr the spellings correctly. its salvator. very cool eh?? =) hehe.. really like it alot.
its form a customer of mine.
cos yea.. for membership and stuff. .so i nid to grab their names. and today came across salvactor. =)nice^^
hm... just had a cuppa mocha... hm...
what else.. ....
very full today..
hm.. weird. .i think i missed out of saying some other stuffs.. what could htat be.. >_<''...
hm... ...
tch..
oh.. i got so freaked out =( after hearing the creepy voices of the poor girl . the girl who must not be name.. dots. .i duno.. i dun wnan mention her.. but yes.. huu.. i had never been this frightened before.. somemroe its at night.. so thank goodness bro is outside living room.. omg.. cant imagine if i were to be alone in room .. huu
so scary ne. .sooo disturbing!!!
hm.. so yea.. and i learned of this new place.. iguazu.. omg.. the waterfalls.. its heaven!!! its incredibly amazing!!!
sooo many water fal\ls..
theres even 2 layers!! and a bridge or sumtin to let visitors to watch!! gosh.. i wish i was standing on that spot.. plus theres a hotel where u could see that too.. omg.. .beautiful.. no idea what to say of htis.. but yea.. ...
wow. .today had views on so many wondrous places.. its.. wow.. earth.. alot of beautiful amazing spots we might enver get to knwo about.. yet... ...could these really all come to and end soon> ?
beautiful earth.. yet.. getting destroyed by the min.. ...
k, will stop here now. .wanna slp before bro hit the sack. hu.. otherwise me scared!
jaa, mata
03 August 2010
My Sam My Phone
ok.. thought of not bloggin totday.. but.. nvm.. since now got abit of time.
but actually i have noidea what to blog. .cant really think righ tnow. .im so sleepy.. so tired.. .cant wait to slp..
duno what time slping.. but not now i guess. i duno.. anyway, hm.. nothing special today i guess.. i duno.. just work. .stand.. cant wait for my break.. mrg so boring.. then fianlly got better after break .gosh.... ... the hours .. so slow.. =.= me was looking at clock. .cant wait to go home. .and tmr.. one more day.. my 6th day.. finally T_T so tired ne.. huu..
ahh.. gosh. knew i cant watch it. the video of sam and me.. just cried sia=.= hiayo....... omg.. sad . haiz..
hmm.... so... o well.. i just hope there'll be nice apps all around.. hm.. and yea...
keeping my finger cross that we could find apps to video call free, and msg free. have, but gotta find the right one desu=3
me suddenly not so slpy liao.. stil am.. but bettter.. ha.. cos talking with sam mah..
hm... gotta ask my colleague again what app again.. she mentioned about android app.. msging overseas for free... .. anyway, hm.... o well.. guess will have to leave it for later on ba.. sammy nid to save up.. and yea... find the right apps..
so.. yea.. see how ba.. when willl it be? ha.. its like.. suddenly excited again..XD cos looking htorgh phones ba.. checking out the apps.. ..o well... .....
anywya, i will announce big2 when theres a new phone on my hand. duno when.. but yea... ONE DAY. ..ha.. so yup.. one day that is....
for now.. haiyo.. stupid ne.. my phone the wifi.. cannot work like that=,= sianz. o well...
and yay.. tmr .. huu.. finally my 6th. oh.. i just said that eh?O.o haiyo.. baka desu..
anywya yea.. gosh.. so cant wait for tmr to be overT_T huu... over3!
k.. i think. .its best not to htink too much now.. the phone thing got me abit confused as in.. yea.. always best not to think about that first. wait get my in trouble and upsetting again. ha.
mata ne.
but actually i have noidea what to blog. .cant really think righ tnow. .im so sleepy.. so tired.. .cant wait to slp..
duno what time slping.. but not now i guess. i duno.. anyway, hm.. nothing special today i guess.. i duno.. just work. .stand.. cant wait for my break.. mrg so boring.. then fianlly got better after break .gosh.... ... the hours .. so slow.. =.= me was looking at clock. .cant wait to go home. .and tmr.. one more day.. my 6th day.. finally T_T so tired ne.. huu..
ahh.. gosh. knew i cant watch it. the video of sam and me.. just cried sia=.= hiayo....... omg.. sad . haiz..
hmm.... so... o well.. i just hope there'll be nice apps all around.. hm.. and yea...
keeping my finger cross that we could find apps to video call free, and msg free. have, but gotta find the right one desu=3
me suddenly not so slpy liao.. stil am.. but bettter.. ha.. cos talking with sam mah..
hm... gotta ask my colleague again what app again.. she mentioned about android app.. msging overseas for free... .. anyway, hm.... o well.. guess will have to leave it for later on ba.. sammy nid to save up.. and yea... find the right apps..
so.. yea.. see how ba.. when willl it be? ha.. its like.. suddenly excited again..XD cos looking htorgh phones ba.. checking out the apps.. ..o well... .....
anywya, i will announce big2 when theres a new phone on my hand. duno when.. but yea... ONE DAY. ..ha.. so yup.. one day that is....
for now.. haiyo.. stupid ne.. my phone the wifi.. cannot work like that=,= sianz. o well...
and yay.. tmr .. huu.. finally my 6th. oh.. i just said that eh?O.o haiyo.. baka desu..
anywya yea.. gosh.. so cant wait for tmr to be overT_T huu... over3!
k.. i think. .its best not to htink too much now.. the phone thing got me abit confused as in.. yea.. always best not to think about that first. wait get my in trouble and upsetting again. ha.
mata ne.
02 August 2010
Sabrina's Magic
ok.. forgot what happen. .hm. .me try not to rememebr it.. well. .think my day started off not so good.. got 2 irritating customers.. bad.. o well. .dun wan stress myself over this.
nyway,.. weird.. today got this angmoh uncle.. like the rock and roll kinda dressing style. .say im so beautiful. =.= he said it to his fren according to my fren. i was like... wth... =.= omg. .no wodne rwhne i reach teh cashier area, he asked me to smile fo rhinm. i thought what. then was like.. hee.. erm.. if u were there, u'll think i look so funny and u wanna laugh. yea. then like. .weird. .eh even ask me to call him if i nid a bf or sumtin. =.= joking i know.. but.. lol.. funny=,=
anyway, weird ppl all ard ba... or funny ppl? duno. don care
hm.. seems like. .according to our staffs.. alot of ppl dun like the new managers.. =/ especially the onie from mellbourne. haiz..
i knew it.. based on performance.. u know alreayd.. ..
todya. .was so glad to see sarbian drop by. she's having lunch with my fren. wow.. it was so great to see her. she's in radiance =) haha. anyway, sure her fiance also love to see her now. but htink she's leavin gon fri. ok anyway, me get the chance to ask her about my leave. and as expected, she's so pro!! she know what she is doing. she work for about 2 years. the manager worked for 3 years. and see?? gosh....
i think our new manager too young. only 22 or 21 this year. so yea.. .. =/ my collegaue also could tell too young = no experince to work cleverly. erm.. hard ot explain. this aside. anyway, seems like i gotten the answer from sabrina. so yea.. yay! i know agar2 how many days i have for leaves. she'l be back in sep.
aww....
anyway, htis time she'll be leavin gwith her fiance back to nz.
and yes.. they are going to bali for holiday first. so nice right!!!! so envious desu.. o well
hm.. what else... tired today.. hm.. sihg. .like. .nowadsy.. not much hapy mood to work.. like. .atmosphere is different now.. owe ll..
anyway, 2 days to go.. gosh. .i cant wait for my off..
oops.. huu.. ognna slp alreyad.. 1am.. yea.. mrg shift. .better go slp..
haiz..
hm.. so like that ba..
hm...
thinking abit about phones. .suddenly.. like.. it isnt so important to me alreyad. thats so weird. O.o i changed so fast.
hmm...=.=
anyway...... ...... i wonder what am i gonna do with the phone.. ok.. bets and first thing of course is i get to msg sam for free.. ... then what? oh yes. i book.. i do like to read.. but.. because no time, and im so lazy to carry ard my book .no space ne my bag.. so would be lovely if i could read. but duno how thigns will be. so yea..
hm.. whas next.. .. i duno already .. .i dun reall ytrust alot for the cam.. i might just get a camera. so yes. .double saving hard. hm.. ...
lets see... what else... .... video .wont be alot. unless got go anywhere special. .duno.. itune.. gosh..so troublesome.. =.= dots.. hope wont be too difficult to transfer and blah3 ba..
ok so.. .... .hmm... ..... what else.. =.=.. .... i duno.. what kinda apps will i like.. ah.. language^^
hm.. very few eh.. but i guess.. better than nothing ba. o well.. k time fo rme to slp now.
think too much also useless.
hm.. nothing much happen huh for todya. i guess. just that.. like. .not in th ebest condition to work ba. tmr.. sianz.. opening with manager. .haiyo.. .just hang on lor.. haiz... waking up in couple of hours tiemT_T huu... like neve rest.. then go back work liao.. haiz.....
mata ne
nyway,.. weird.. today got this angmoh uncle.. like the rock and roll kinda dressing style. .say im so beautiful. =.= he said it to his fren according to my fren. i was like... wth... =.= omg. .no wodne rwhne i reach teh cashier area, he asked me to smile fo rhinm. i thought what. then was like.. hee.. erm.. if u were there, u'll think i look so funny and u wanna laugh. yea. then like. .weird. .eh even ask me to call him if i nid a bf or sumtin. =.= joking i know.. but.. lol.. funny=,=
anyway, weird ppl all ard ba... or funny ppl? duno. don care
hm.. seems like. .according to our staffs.. alot of ppl dun like the new managers.. =/ especially the onie from mellbourne. haiz..
i knew it.. based on performance.. u know alreayd.. ..
todya. .was so glad to see sarbian drop by. she's having lunch with my fren. wow.. it was so great to see her. she's in radiance =) haha. anyway, sure her fiance also love to see her now. but htink she's leavin gon fri. ok anyway, me get the chance to ask her about my leave. and as expected, she's so pro!! she know what she is doing. she work for about 2 years. the manager worked for 3 years. and see?? gosh....
i think our new manager too young. only 22 or 21 this year. so yea.. .. =/ my collegaue also could tell too young = no experince to work cleverly. erm.. hard ot explain. this aside. anyway, seems like i gotten the answer from sabrina. so yea.. yay! i know agar2 how many days i have for leaves. she'l be back in sep.
aww....
anyway, htis time she'll be leavin gwith her fiance back to nz.
and yes.. they are going to bali for holiday first. so nice right!!!! so envious desu.. o well
hm.. what else... tired today.. hm.. sihg. .like. .nowadsy.. not much hapy mood to work.. like. .atmosphere is different now.. owe ll..
anyway, 2 days to go.. gosh. .i cant wait for my off..
oops.. huu.. ognna slp alreyad.. 1am.. yea.. mrg shift. .better go slp..
haiz..
hm.. so like that ba..
hm...
thinking abit about phones. .suddenly.. like.. it isnt so important to me alreyad. thats so weird. O.o i changed so fast.
hmm...=.=
anyway...... ...... i wonder what am i gonna do with the phone.. ok.. bets and first thing of course is i get to msg sam for free.. ... then what? oh yes. i book.. i do like to read.. but.. because no time, and im so lazy to carry ard my book .no space ne my bag.. so would be lovely if i could read. but duno how thigns will be. so yea..
hm.. whas next.. .. i duno already .. .i dun reall ytrust alot for the cam.. i might just get a camera. so yes. .double saving hard. hm.. ...
lets see... what else... .... video .wont be alot. unless got go anywhere special. .duno.. itune.. gosh..so troublesome.. =.= dots.. hope wont be too difficult to transfer and blah3 ba..
ok so.. .... .hmm... ..... what else.. =.=.. .... i duno.. what kinda apps will i like.. ah.. language^^
hm.. very few eh.. but i guess.. better than nothing ba. o well.. k time fo rme to slp now.
think too much also useless.
hm.. nothing much happen huh for todya. i guess. just that.. like. .not in th ebest condition to work ba. tmr.. sianz.. opening with manager. .haiyo.. .just hang on lor.. haiz... waking up in couple of hours tiemT_T huu... like neve rest.. then go back work liao.. haiz.....
mata ne
01 August 2010
Lucky One Partner To Treasure For Life =)
gosh.. my head.. so pain.. closing time. .suddely.. my head like so weird.. me was tlaking to colleague. .then head like wanna fanit for 2secs.. so scary.. i couldnt even stand.. was falling towards my right side.. haiyo.. scary sia.. but im fine.. then after that.. head weird. .adn my head like. .oiuch..
ouchie. .usually after taking med it'll heal almost immediately.. but now stil lhurts ne.. huu... hope tmr will be better. usually headache easily alrite with me. .so yea.. hope ok ba.. duno why ne. .so outta the blue.
was talking to my colleague abit about relationship today.. ...then taklk..2.. she was like.. she got a bf who like to spend money on branded stuffs. but he's not so rich. htoguh family is rich. so like.. she asked him to changed.. he changed for the nbetter abit already..
then she.. like.. already 8 months with him now. plus previous few realtioships.. she didnt relaly put her heart into it. including this one. cos she's somehow not prepared yet.. or just.. somehow still comparing her bf to her previous nicer 3years relationship bf. so yea.. maybe her heart still missing her ex. .thats why.. then she duno wanna give up anot. but scared no one wants her anynmore. she say..
its so difficult to find a super nice guy nowadays. and i agreed... yea. .hten she sya.. if really found on, must die2 don let go. catch onto him. lol XD! then i was like. .aw.. uh huh. .im thinking to myself.. gosh.. im so lucky.. i have sammy with me.. =) and he's mine^^ nawwww~~~
erm anyway, yea.. then the other day i reacaleld.. my new partimer also ask.. is he handsome anot. i say erm.. lol. i hesistated XD anyway me don like to tell lies. then he say he haven got a gf yet. and he's still a virgin. =) hahaha.. aw..
but anyway, i adviced him. .its alrite.. take ur time.. slowly look.. just try not to find a gf before ns.. and my other colleague also agrees on htta. ha.. so yea.. and im like. .aw.. so proud of myself. .me so glad im not the type of girl who abandon bf when their bf is on ns duty and stuff. tehn cannot spend time with them.. my situation worse ba.. knowing he;s gona leave one day, somemore he kena the shifts of.. what.. mas selamat.. whatever his name is. htta idiot =.= caused me my time with sam!! argh.. =.=
anyway, gosh.. back to topic.. yea.. then i tell him slpwly look.. don go for girls who like handsome guys.. or rich ppl.. or looking for hte outter appearence...
he say.. his fens alot of girls are like thta. lol. .poor fellow sia.. he say.. ''but those girls(those who wont go for looks and go for personaility) already extincts leh..'' i was like. .hm.. i should be counted as one of those good nice girl ba? lol.. but anyway, im taken!^^ lalalal...
ok back to topic aagin .haha... then i was like.. saying.. have .just that yes its very rare.. but still, u'll eventually find the girl who's right for u, and who'll accept who u are. and not how u look .
he's ok looking.. average.. not say wah so handsome or what. really very normal.. not so handsome. but. he got this bubbly personalilty.. which i think girls will one day liek him for who he is.
poor fellow.. hope he wont thnk himself as too ugly then gilrs don like.. haiz..
oh.. speaking of personailty. .i was so surprised. .haiyo.. =/ forog tabout this matter. .headache mah.. then never get to tell sam.. anyway, my colleague say.. she's a very negative person. .everything keep to herself.. she find me good .cos me always so bubbly and positive.
right at hte moment when those words were out, i was like.. gosh.. say what???O.o me/? bubblyh and positive all the time??? NOOO..... ~ XDLol.... hahah.. .
so weird! i wonde rif thtas what all ppl thought of me.. hm..
anyway.. yea.. i have my fragile moments too mah.. where got positive all the time. me also got through all the struggles mah.. have to try and think positive.. otherwise. .its gonna be so hard to survive till i see sam again right.
so yea.... ... well.. i guess thats the impression of ppl who don know me well. ha.. o well
nvm.. at leats i gib her htta nice impression ba.. didnt know she'll be envious me of that. O.o feels so weird.. .. ha. o well
so yea.. there u go.. see.. last night was talking about htis right. ...
hold on to ur dearest possession. and don take it for granted. always remind urself why are they so important in the first place.
put ur heart and soul into it. make it work. nothing is free and easy . not especially when u come to the point where u have to fight for something u love. and u want it to stay in ur life forever.
get what i mean?
aw.. so nice to heaar sam say he love me so much when me got home. .uh huh...
dunno why he so sudden.. maybe mish me too much eh?.. but yea..
washes away my fears.. not sya fears.. but. .worries? i duno. O.o
he said wanna msg.. but never did.. so yea.. was like. .missing him. .and wondering.. if he could've forgotten about hwat he said to me. .u know.. girls mind alot of these bits and pieces words and stuffs.. then got home.. aw.. have his swt love, enuff liao.
feeling good now .=) always my best med . his love desu.
sigh.. my public holiday. last month.. =/ they stil lhaven gib double pay.. .. then my fren never talk to manager. .then supposedly should have another extra off u know.. huu.. baka desu.. =/
somemore national day is coming. .i dun wanna work for free again . haiz.. hope my fren will say this out to her ba.. ... haiyo. .hate to lose my money and off just like that=(
sianz.
o well.. anyway, me still on my saving track.. hopefully can save 600 this month.. yea.. keeping tigh tmy budget. .me not spending on anything for 2 dyas liao. .so h apy. lol. =) so yea. .keep it up ne.. me hope to pull it through aug.. then yea.. happy if know me sve more than 600 . or.. .yea.. just 600. haha. then will be so proud of myself. well done =)
hm... .....so yea.. like that ba.. i like this camera.. but.. duno.. bene almost a year or about a year since its out. .i hope the price will droppppppppppp all the way down. however, me still not buying. so yea.. wait long itme. ha.. maybe item wil lrun outta stock soonXD
ok.. 3 days to go.. jia you!!!!! haii.
k hten.. me gonna prepare fo rbed soon. nights!
hm.. wonde rif i missed out anything again.. ohm, btw head is ok now. .phew. .hope will have nice slp. oh yea! almost forogt. this aftnoon wokey.. i mena mrg.. hten go work. .omg. .sooo tired!! like yea whole body so tired ne. .duno why.. never slp too late mah. .o well..
mata ne!
ouchie. .usually after taking med it'll heal almost immediately.. but now stil lhurts ne.. huu... hope tmr will be better. usually headache easily alrite with me. .so yea.. hope ok ba.. duno why ne. .so outta the blue.
was talking to my colleague abit about relationship today.. ...then taklk..2.. she was like.. she got a bf who like to spend money on branded stuffs. but he's not so rich. htoguh family is rich. so like.. she asked him to changed.. he changed for the nbetter abit already..
then she.. like.. already 8 months with him now. plus previous few realtioships.. she didnt relaly put her heart into it. including this one. cos she's somehow not prepared yet.. or just.. somehow still comparing her bf to her previous nicer 3years relationship bf. so yea.. maybe her heart still missing her ex. .thats why.. then she duno wanna give up anot. but scared no one wants her anynmore. she say..
its so difficult to find a super nice guy nowadays. and i agreed... yea. .hten she sya.. if really found on, must die2 don let go. catch onto him. lol XD! then i was like. .aw.. uh huh. .im thinking to myself.. gosh.. im so lucky.. i have sammy with me.. =) and he's mine^^ nawwww~~~
erm anyway, yea.. then the other day i reacaleld.. my new partimer also ask.. is he handsome anot. i say erm.. lol. i hesistated XD anyway me don like to tell lies. then he say he haven got a gf yet. and he's still a virgin. =) hahaha.. aw..
but anyway, i adviced him. .its alrite.. take ur time.. slowly look.. just try not to find a gf before ns.. and my other colleague also agrees on htta. ha.. so yea.. and im like. .aw.. so proud of myself. .me so glad im not the type of girl who abandon bf when their bf is on ns duty and stuff. tehn cannot spend time with them.. my situation worse ba.. knowing he;s gona leave one day, somemore he kena the shifts of.. what.. mas selamat.. whatever his name is. htta idiot =.= caused me my time with sam!! argh.. =.=
anyway, gosh.. back to topic.. yea.. then i tell him slpwly look.. don go for girls who like handsome guys.. or rich ppl.. or looking for hte outter appearence...
he say.. his fens alot of girls are like thta. lol. .poor fellow sia.. he say.. ''but those girls(those who wont go for looks and go for personaility) already extincts leh..'' i was like. .hm.. i should be counted as one of those good nice girl ba? lol.. but anyway, im taken!^^ lalalal...
ok back to topic aagin .haha... then i was like.. saying.. have .just that yes its very rare.. but still, u'll eventually find the girl who's right for u, and who'll accept who u are. and not how u look .
he's ok looking.. average.. not say wah so handsome or what. really very normal.. not so handsome. but. he got this bubbly personalilty.. which i think girls will one day liek him for who he is.
poor fellow.. hope he wont thnk himself as too ugly then gilrs don like.. haiz..
oh.. speaking of personailty. .i was so surprised. .haiyo.. =/ forog tabout this matter. .headache mah.. then never get to tell sam.. anyway, my colleague say.. she's a very negative person. .everything keep to herself.. she find me good .cos me always so bubbly and positive.
right at hte moment when those words were out, i was like.. gosh.. say what???O.o me/? bubblyh and positive all the time??? NOOO..... ~ XDLol.... hahah.. .
so weird! i wonde rif thtas what all ppl thought of me.. hm..
anyway.. yea.. i have my fragile moments too mah.. where got positive all the time. me also got through all the struggles mah.. have to try and think positive.. otherwise. .its gonna be so hard to survive till i see sam again right.
so yea.... ... well.. i guess thats the impression of ppl who don know me well. ha.. o well
nvm.. at leats i gib her htta nice impression ba.. didnt know she'll be envious me of that. O.o feels so weird.. .. ha. o well
so yea.. there u go.. see.. last night was talking about htis right. ...
hold on to ur dearest possession. and don take it for granted. always remind urself why are they so important in the first place.
put ur heart and soul into it. make it work. nothing is free and easy . not especially when u come to the point where u have to fight for something u love. and u want it to stay in ur life forever.
get what i mean?
aw.. so nice to heaar sam say he love me so much when me got home. .uh huh...
dunno why he so sudden.. maybe mish me too much eh?.. but yea..
washes away my fears.. not sya fears.. but. .worries? i duno. O.o
he said wanna msg.. but never did.. so yea.. was like. .missing him. .and wondering.. if he could've forgotten about hwat he said to me. .u know.. girls mind alot of these bits and pieces words and stuffs.. then got home.. aw.. have his swt love, enuff liao.
feeling good now .=) always my best med . his love desu.
sigh.. my public holiday. last month.. =/ they stil lhaven gib double pay.. .. then my fren never talk to manager. .then supposedly should have another extra off u know.. huu.. baka desu.. =/
somemore national day is coming. .i dun wanna work for free again . haiz.. hope my fren will say this out to her ba.. ... haiyo. .hate to lose my money and off just like that=(
sianz.
o well.. anyway, me still on my saving track.. hopefully can save 600 this month.. yea.. keeping tigh tmy budget. .me not spending on anything for 2 dyas liao. .so h apy. lol. =) so yea. .keep it up ne.. me hope to pull it through aug.. then yea.. happy if know me sve more than 600 . or.. .yea.. just 600. haha. then will be so proud of myself. well done =)
hm... .....so yea.. like that ba.. i like this camera.. but.. duno.. bene almost a year or about a year since its out. .i hope the price will droppppppppppp all the way down. however, me still not buying. so yea.. wait long itme. ha.. maybe item wil lrun outta stock soonXD
ok.. 3 days to go.. jia you!!!!! haii.
k hten.. me gonna prepare fo rbed soon. nights!
hm.. wonde rif i missed out anything again.. ohm, btw head is ok now. .phew. .hope will have nice slp. oh yea! almost forogt. this aftnoon wokey.. i mena mrg.. hten go work. .omg. .sooo tired!! like yea whole body so tired ne. .duno why.. never slp too late mah. .o well..
mata ne!
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