ahh... its a lil boring today.. but.. with the companies of bro and redz,.. yeah.. things are better.. =/ kinda.
sometimes still feels really left out... :(
..
i don know what i am in this family.
hm....... oh.. now i confirmed one matter.. hahaha... when me really hungry(in bad mood), feeling down, in deep thoughts, or sad, me cant walk on the streets.. cos if i do, someone bump into me, i'll go nasty. lol!!
yeah it happened again ytd!! XD!
hahaha.. but this philipino woman really bumped me hard!! then me so hungry.. me went' tch!!!' loud abit bah :P hahaha.. then she apologize. lol
but very rude ne.. me really dont like rude things like these. but.. what to do.. its auto reflex! haiz.. like theres a evil ego me there.. so frightening. im trying to change.. erm.. somehow.. haiyo. auto thigny difficult to control ne.. =/ but me dislike rudeness to the core. really hate it. that swhy dislike cursing. but still, lol.. cos of my frens, i started at it too. haiz.................. dread it. well, can control this one. so no prob. ;) still me :)
..have u ever doubt say...... ppl.. whom u care.. ... hmm...... =/
nothing actually.. sometimes i just wonder how much can the extent or limit a person's concern can go.
sometimes.. life.. busyness, blinded us.. from seeing whats the truth behind. we couldnt notice.. we couldnt see.. we never realise. ..so..blinded.. dont we all need some quiet time altogether, to settle down, and see what have we been negleting or missing out.
hmm............. sometimes i question myself.. whats there to doubt.
oh.. u know.. i really dont wish to go back to those months.. now that i think back, its very scary... i was always crying after he left.. i couldnt eat well.. everynight i was crying too.. a meal a day, or none.. always feeling so upset.
its pathetic. cos its like.. well, a part of u being taken away, and.. its really so hard to adapt back to ur old life again. its like happiness being snatched away from u.
it was so painful..
it took me monthssss before i realised how to stop all these.
well, lets just say the method works abit, but not the best method around =/ but i gotta do it.
i dont wanan end up like that again
hm.. sometimes i think heading out beats better than staying at home. i dunno.. something isnt in the right place. its confusing me.
huu.. so tired..
:( so sad.. really wish to give sammy a call now. its just a mere 10mins! he's off to slp.. then me.. o well.. =/
i guess its gonna be like that.. another thing for me to get used to. we cant expect to chat everyday. there'll always be some silence at bounds.
hm.. k.. think me.. slp later bah.. =/
mata
30 November 2009
29 November 2009
Shoes, Done!
hmm..... gosh............ i sat for 4 straight hours without getting up!! bacause redz wanna rebond his hair, and colour it. guys... -_- haha. he's so particular about his hair. most men like that eh.
=.=
hhahaha
so..yup. he asked me to accompany him. omg.. sooo long.. 4 hours!! killing my back and neck.. i need a massage!! huu... been needing one u know.. so in need of it. =/
hmm... then ar... we meet bro for dinner.. then redz decided that we wait for him to knock off. cos anyway he's knocking off in 3 hours time. we ate alot of kfc. me took 3 pcs of chicken! XD
one marsh potatoe, and a cuppa drink.full.. ha.. now they're eating again. :)
hmm.. me and redz then walk around.. he wanna get a pair of jeans.. and bro's xmas pressy.. lol! i told them what i want for xmas already!! every year i have no idea. but this year its different. i know what i want! yay! lol.
its a receipe book. or rather a file. something to store and write ur receipes in. :) cooool :) love it^^ really hope can get it.
hm... oh... then me saw this shoes.. yeah.. caught my eyes the moment i see it.. so.. yup.
asked redz and the sales lady for some opinions.. to make sure my taste is alrite too.. and well, bought it. cool. now i wont have to worry about getting my feel wet when its raining :) but wont wear it now. heh. :)
did thought of getting it in aussy.. but.. i know myself.. if in case aussy doesnt have a pair i like, i;ll sure regret why didnt i buy it today. so.. yup. want no regrets. and bought the pair of shoes. yeah.. thats me.. so difficult to find something i like. =/ o well.. haha
today went to get a speaker.. for my lappy. really too soft ar.. the sound quality.. =/ so yup... bought a new set.. hm,.. saw a mouse.. really like it. its a gaming mouse though. but i dont mind. then see the price, lol. forget it .huu..
after the shoes,.. time for me to be extra tight budget eh. hmm.. but.. dunno ne.. should i really be spending lots on a good mouse? i love that brand sammy using too.. but... at this timing,... hm.. can i afford it?.. ..
well.. shall see. which ever mouse catches my eye. yeah.. today 3 mouse caught my eye. but all too expensive :( so.. o well.. and 2 of them are sooo unique!! huu... its from japan. sigh. o well...
hm.. ok.. so.. thats about it.. hm.. gonna test out my speaker now. cant wait.
mata!
=.=
hhahaha
so..yup. he asked me to accompany him. omg.. sooo long.. 4 hours!! killing my back and neck.. i need a massage!! huu... been needing one u know.. so in need of it. =/
hmm... then ar... we meet bro for dinner.. then redz decided that we wait for him to knock off. cos anyway he's knocking off in 3 hours time. we ate alot of kfc. me took 3 pcs of chicken! XD
one marsh potatoe, and a cuppa drink.full.. ha.. now they're eating again. :)
hmm.. me and redz then walk around.. he wanna get a pair of jeans.. and bro's xmas pressy.. lol! i told them what i want for xmas already!! every year i have no idea. but this year its different. i know what i want! yay! lol.
its a receipe book. or rather a file. something to store and write ur receipes in. :) cooool :) love it^^ really hope can get it.
hm... oh... then me saw this shoes.. yeah.. caught my eyes the moment i see it.. so.. yup.
asked redz and the sales lady for some opinions.. to make sure my taste is alrite too.. and well, bought it. cool. now i wont have to worry about getting my feel wet when its raining :) but wont wear it now. heh. :)
did thought of getting it in aussy.. but.. i know myself.. if in case aussy doesnt have a pair i like, i;ll sure regret why didnt i buy it today. so.. yup. want no regrets. and bought the pair of shoes. yeah.. thats me.. so difficult to find something i like. =/ o well.. haha
today went to get a speaker.. for my lappy. really too soft ar.. the sound quality.. =/ so yup... bought a new set.. hm,.. saw a mouse.. really like it. its a gaming mouse though. but i dont mind. then see the price, lol. forget it .huu..
after the shoes,.. time for me to be extra tight budget eh. hmm.. but.. dunno ne.. should i really be spending lots on a good mouse? i love that brand sammy using too.. but... at this timing,... hm.. can i afford it?.. ..
well.. shall see. which ever mouse catches my eye. yeah.. today 3 mouse caught my eye. but all too expensive :( so.. o well.. and 2 of them are sooo unique!! huu... its from japan. sigh. o well...
hm.. ok.. so.. thats about it.. hm.. gonna test out my speaker now. cant wait.
mata!
28 November 2009
Walking Long...
just done with my shower.. yeah i know its late.. was waiting for sma to hit the sack first..
glad he enjoyed his day.. he deserved it ne..
my day? gosh............
i don even know where to begin typing..
erm.. first.. me went to collect my visa and tickets.. then.. head to pp with the intention of changing my money.. but omg... -_- dunno what happen, the rates all up sooo high. -_- what a wasted trip.
hmm.. bought a packet of instant hot and spicy ramen.. then a chilli sauce.. :P
hm...
then 2 cup noodles. lol. all darn spicy. ha
tehn.. head to my workplace.. aww.. miss them.. hm.. then.. drop by redz workplace.. then went to ion.. wait for my bro to knockoff... omg.. waiting3............ walking3............. alot u know..
then before redz arrive, we went in this supermarket. omg........... they got the best chilli. erm not say best. haha.
theres this chilli sauce, cost $8 plus. another small bottle of chilli powder, cost $22 plus. -_-......
wow.
but its special.. thats why exp. and its not local. sigh..
then i thought of what i said in my previous blog.. since end of world is coming, i dont have to bother so much on money.
but still... gosh. its in my blood... i cant do it. so..never buy.. :(
huu.. plus theres this $14.90 chilli oil!! omg........ really wanted it soooo much.. huu......
:(
hmm.......... ... we had dinner at thai express... hm....... not bad... omg.. they got the yellow ginger tofu!! its good :D heee...
the prawn something also vey very cripsy..
hm...... gosh.. i think tmr might wanan wakey very early... hmm.. so late already.. how ar... ...=/
miss doing that. hm.. k.. think me wakey early ah. :)
ah. back home.. then watch dvd.. REC. hm.. yeah.. we walked alot today. wow.. me and mum. yup..
glad she off tmr. otherwise will be tired for her ne..
..
=/
how much can u feel a person's concern towards u....
mata
glad he enjoyed his day.. he deserved it ne..
my day? gosh............
i don even know where to begin typing..
erm.. first.. me went to collect my visa and tickets.. then.. head to pp with the intention of changing my money.. but omg... -_- dunno what happen, the rates all up sooo high. -_- what a wasted trip.
hmm.. bought a packet of instant hot and spicy ramen.. then a chilli sauce.. :P
hm...
then 2 cup noodles. lol. all darn spicy. ha
tehn.. head to my workplace.. aww.. miss them.. hm.. then.. drop by redz workplace.. then went to ion.. wait for my bro to knockoff... omg.. waiting3............ walking3............. alot u know..
then before redz arrive, we went in this supermarket. omg........... they got the best chilli. erm not say best. haha.
theres this chilli sauce, cost $8 plus. another small bottle of chilli powder, cost $22 plus. -_-......
wow.
but its special.. thats why exp. and its not local. sigh..
then i thought of what i said in my previous blog.. since end of world is coming, i dont have to bother so much on money.
but still... gosh. its in my blood... i cant do it. so..never buy.. :(
huu.. plus theres this $14.90 chilli oil!! omg........ really wanted it soooo much.. huu......
:(
hmm.......... ... we had dinner at thai express... hm....... not bad... omg.. they got the yellow ginger tofu!! its good :D heee...
the prawn something also vey very cripsy..
hm...... gosh.. i think tmr might wanan wakey very early... hmm.. so late already.. how ar... ...=/
miss doing that. hm.. k.. think me wakey early ah. :)
ah. back home.. then watch dvd.. REC. hm.. yeah.. we walked alot today. wow.. me and mum. yup..
glad she off tmr. otherwise will be tired for her ne..
..
=/
how much can u feel a person's concern towards u....
mata
27 November 2009
2012 What Would U Do
great news :)
the stocks has dropped yet again. but so sad!:( me cant go change today. haiyo.. wrong timing.. but i hope tmr will still drop somemore.. shall see how tmr.
yesterday.. its abit different.. im talking about my fren's birthday bbq.
its like.. yeah.. yeah.. quite alot of ppl.. come and go.. come and go.. unlike that time.. my fren's bbq, they come, stay longer, then go off in one group or so. last night was like.. mix2 here and there.. come and go.. haha.. confusing :P
hm... yeah.. nice night..
food.. ok ba..
hm.. yup. not bad bah..
o well
then in the middle of the night, ppl started to talk about ghost stories..
about 2012
hmm..... talking about 2012..
lets cut to the chase shall we.
the disturbing thing is, the guy who predicted it, is the one who predicted the titanic and tsunami.
and he's right on them. but no one belive him at the time.
and i didnt know till last night theres actually a fire comet passes by downtown east in year 2000. everybosy who's there to celebrate, saw it.
wow.
hmm..... then the girls there were like saying.. they don care. they are so gonna get married in jan. or early next year. and gonna have children before end of world is here.
dec 21 2012.
:(........
i know.........
heres the thing.... alot of ppl are skeptics. i think including sam.
but.............
..lets say what if.
ok.. its a what if.
this matter is true. some ppl dont belive its gonna happen, yet it will. let ssay its that case. i mena.. woulnt it be utterly pathetic when u realised its really the end of world, and u never cherish anything around u, or do anythign u've always wanted.
wouldnt that be such great regrets?
ok.. lets talk about me here...
hmmm
..
if say its true.. ..i guess i know how those girls feel when they say they wanna get married now.
hmm..
i'll like to improve on my languages ability..
i'll treat myself well.. treat my mum better..
hm...
cherish and treasure sammy all the more..
hm. .do whatever i like...even if it means abit bad. lol. hm..
lets see.. will try not to get stress at anything else much..
since world is ending right. hahaha...
hm......
money issue.. wouldnt be a prob anymore..
no need to consider about so much now......
can do anything i want without hesitations..
freedom eh..
=/
o well...
hm.. waiting for sammy to get home.. now watching tv.. then gonna wait for bro to come home.. then can have dinner together with redz too..
yeah.. gonna have a nice dinner.
me whipped up pasta today :)
its good ^^
each time i cook a new dish, i learn something new. and i love it.
hm.. after the aussy holiday.. .. i wonder if there'll be any other chance..
who knows.. theres the 2012.. might be abit tad too difficult to save up huh.. but.. well, who knows the future..
hmm.......
haven eaten anything yet.. not hungry.. weird..
but had a small bowl of pasta just now.. later tehn eat with bro and redz.. yeah.. for his birthday. ha
mata
the stocks has dropped yet again. but so sad!:( me cant go change today. haiyo.. wrong timing.. but i hope tmr will still drop somemore.. shall see how tmr.
yesterday.. its abit different.. im talking about my fren's birthday bbq.
its like.. yeah.. yeah.. quite alot of ppl.. come and go.. come and go.. unlike that time.. my fren's bbq, they come, stay longer, then go off in one group or so. last night was like.. mix2 here and there.. come and go.. haha.. confusing :P
hm... yeah.. nice night..
food.. ok ba..
hm.. yup. not bad bah..
o well
then in the middle of the night, ppl started to talk about ghost stories..
about 2012
hmm..... talking about 2012..
lets cut to the chase shall we.
the disturbing thing is, the guy who predicted it, is the one who predicted the titanic and tsunami.
and he's right on them. but no one belive him at the time.
and i didnt know till last night theres actually a fire comet passes by downtown east in year 2000. everybosy who's there to celebrate, saw it.
wow.
hmm..... then the girls there were like saying.. they don care. they are so gonna get married in jan. or early next year. and gonna have children before end of world is here.
dec 21 2012.
:(........
i know.........
heres the thing.... alot of ppl are skeptics. i think including sam.
but.............
..lets say what if.
ok.. its a what if.
this matter is true. some ppl dont belive its gonna happen, yet it will. let ssay its that case. i mena.. woulnt it be utterly pathetic when u realised its really the end of world, and u never cherish anything around u, or do anythign u've always wanted.
wouldnt that be such great regrets?
ok.. lets talk about me here...
hmmm
..
if say its true.. ..i guess i know how those girls feel when they say they wanna get married now.
hmm..
i'll like to improve on my languages ability..
i'll treat myself well.. treat my mum better..
hm...
cherish and treasure sammy all the more..
hm. .do whatever i like...even if it means abit bad. lol. hm..
lets see.. will try not to get stress at anything else much..
since world is ending right. hahaha...
hm......
money issue.. wouldnt be a prob anymore..
no need to consider about so much now......
can do anything i want without hesitations..
freedom eh..
=/
o well...
hm.. waiting for sammy to get home.. now watching tv.. then gonna wait for bro to come home.. then can have dinner together with redz too..
yeah.. gonna have a nice dinner.
me whipped up pasta today :)
its good ^^
each time i cook a new dish, i learn something new. and i love it.
hm.. after the aussy holiday.. .. i wonder if there'll be any other chance..
who knows.. theres the 2012.. might be abit tad too difficult to save up huh.. but.. well, who knows the future..
hmm.......
haven eaten anything yet.. not hungry.. weird..
but had a small bowl of pasta just now.. later tehn eat with bro and redz.. yeah.. for his birthday. ha
mata
25 November 2009
First Day Of Freedom
hmm.... ok.. so.. today is my first day of getting back to 'real' life.. haha.. erm.. not abd.. me feeling happy... hm... cleaned up my room abit.. but...... huu.. T_T got a runny nose now cos of teh dusts.. :( yeah.. me very sensitive to that.. so.. will bit by bit clean i guess.. =/
gosh.. now im so worried about my tickets and visa.. so troublesome to print them out!:( huu... i hope my frens have a printer.. one day no print out, me dont feel safe :( like a big stone lying in my heart.. so scary.. i wanna settle the tix soon.. =/
today.. wow. .so happy to cook again! :D haha... cool. :) really happy to be in the kitchen. :)
exercise abit, clean up, cleared my photos.. memory card.. cool.. :) not bad for the day. just that my nose... haiyo.. still sneezy..
i hope tmr will be a great day with a perfect weather.
tmr redz's birthday! omg.. he invited me and bro to his birthday bbq. wow.. i hope this will be fun. anyway know quite afew ppl there.. so should be alrite.. i just hope the fire can be started! haha..
hm.. tired...
sleepy ba ne..
today auto wakey early.
hm..
yeah.. tmr wonde rwhat to settle next.. need to make a trip down to p.p soon..
when the stock market is right. yeah. .change all money.
k.. gonna do my nails now.. wow. .another thing to do.. sooo long never done that =/
mata ne!
gosh.. now im so worried about my tickets and visa.. so troublesome to print them out!:( huu... i hope my frens have a printer.. one day no print out, me dont feel safe :( like a big stone lying in my heart.. so scary.. i wanna settle the tix soon.. =/
today.. wow. .so happy to cook again! :D haha... cool. :) really happy to be in the kitchen. :)
exercise abit, clean up, cleared my photos.. memory card.. cool.. :) not bad for the day. just that my nose... haiyo.. still sneezy..
i hope tmr will be a great day with a perfect weather.
tmr redz's birthday! omg.. he invited me and bro to his birthday bbq. wow.. i hope this will be fun. anyway know quite afew ppl there.. so should be alrite.. i just hope the fire can be started! haha..
hm.. tired...
sleepy ba ne..
today auto wakey early.
hm..
yeah.. tmr wonde rwhat to settle next.. need to make a trip down to p.p soon..
when the stock market is right. yeah. .change all money.
k.. gonna do my nails now.. wow. .another thing to do.. sooo long never done that =/
mata ne!
24 November 2009
Abit Sad To Leave Ne.. T_T
hmm.. was feeling a lil sad.. down.. cos.. its like. all the fun at work.. no longer there.. :( .. sigh.. sad... but..well.... what to do..
gonna miss everyone, and all the fun i had.. :( huu.........
gosh.. now i feel so sleepy........ gonna slp asap after online!!
yawn*..........
hm.. morning... soo busy. tons of stocks to do. non stop for 3 hours straight. alone doing it. then boss came down.. argh. gosh. what a last working day. -_- not good. kidna busy whole day.
hm.......... .. kinda couldnt belive its really over.. ..=/
my boss ask me call him when im back.. haiyo.. -_-
hm.......... oh! i think its ytd. my fren nisa say she dreamt of me eating mee goreng! and true enough. i ate mee goreng that night!! O.O... she say me wearing dark blue.. but actually me wearing light blue! i ask her if me wearing spec in her dream>? she say no..
but i did.. haha. if she say yes,.. OMG... shocking sia..
haha., hm.. yeah.. interesting:)
wow.. just now izuan.. passed me a farewell card so suddenly... aww
me really happy. .so touched :) and when he gib me, so funny! the atmosphere is so right! background playing a chinese romantic slow song.. wah... so nice sia.. so touching. haha :)
yeah. what a sweet surprised :)
theres this lil girl.. sometimes will drop by our shop with her bro. her name is ahshikha. haha.. she hug me today!! then also hug my arm so tight.. like.. aw..
haha.. first time i think.. a lil girl hug me like that . haha.. was so surprised. lol.
hm.. well.. overall... its a bad last day for me.. hahaha.. so many thigns went wrong early morning.. geez..
hm......... yeah. .had a last meal with nisa in aftnoon.. then at night also eat again.. hm.. :( sad ne..
nisa always ask me take pics with her... :( sooo gonna miss doing that.. as well as her. sigh.. :( ...
well.. guess imma start all new days now.. hm......... yeah.. so many things to settle now..
perhaps tmr get to cook! haha
shall see..
hm.. yeah.. gonna see how my new days be like.. gonna start all over again without a job days..
mata ne
gonna miss everyone, and all the fun i had.. :( huu.........
gosh.. now i feel so sleepy........ gonna slp asap after online!!
yawn*..........
hm.. morning... soo busy. tons of stocks to do. non stop for 3 hours straight. alone doing it. then boss came down.. argh. gosh. what a last working day. -_- not good. kidna busy whole day.
hm.......... .. kinda couldnt belive its really over.. ..=/
my boss ask me call him when im back.. haiyo.. -_-
hm.......... oh! i think its ytd. my fren nisa say she dreamt of me eating mee goreng! and true enough. i ate mee goreng that night!! O.O... she say me wearing dark blue.. but actually me wearing light blue! i ask her if me wearing spec in her dream>? she say no..
but i did.. haha. if she say yes,.. OMG... shocking sia..
haha., hm.. yeah.. interesting:)
wow.. just now izuan.. passed me a farewell card so suddenly... aww
me really happy. .so touched :) and when he gib me, so funny! the atmosphere is so right! background playing a chinese romantic slow song.. wah... so nice sia.. so touching. haha :)
yeah. what a sweet surprised :)
theres this lil girl.. sometimes will drop by our shop with her bro. her name is ahshikha. haha.. she hug me today!! then also hug my arm so tight.. like.. aw..
haha.. first time i think.. a lil girl hug me like that . haha.. was so surprised. lol.
hm.. well.. overall... its a bad last day for me.. hahaha.. so many thigns went wrong early morning.. geez..
hm......... yeah. .had a last meal with nisa in aftnoon.. then at night also eat again.. hm.. :( sad ne..
nisa always ask me take pics with her... :( sooo gonna miss doing that.. as well as her. sigh.. :( ...
well.. guess imma start all new days now.. hm......... yeah.. so many things to settle now..
perhaps tmr get to cook! haha
shall see..
hm.. yeah.. gonna see how my new days be like.. gonna start all over again without a job days..
mata ne
23 November 2009
Expensive Cut
haiyo... sooo full ne.. cant join bro and redz for supper tonight...
wow.. so fast ne. less than a month's time.. to prepare my trip.. and be happy again.. ...
hmm.. so many places to go.. and buy.. o well.. my visa.. haiyo...
oh.. perhaps ask my manager to help?.. haiyo.. ee..
hmm... sooo sleepy...
lets see...
after work.. trim my hair alil.. gosh!!waited for sooo long before they cut my hair! argh! and soo expensive somemore :( huu....
but.. hm.. okok la.. haiz.
at least not bad can le..
ha.. so surprised when they shampoo my hair first thign before cut.
hm.. then.. window shop around.. trying to keep my budget down right now... =/
o well.........
hm... yeah.. long day..
..gosh.. tmr working with soul.. omg.. been ages since we work together.. hmm...
...tch.. o well...... see how ab..
so gonna remember my day tmr.. last day..
haha.. my boss in good mood eh?.. asking me if im gonan have a farewell party.. going pub or where to celebrate anot.. hahaha... i say no.. then he's like.. why ar.. ,my relationship with my frens like that ar.. haha.. geez.. -_-
o well... as if we got alot of money ar.. -_-
anyway, when he walk outta the shop, he mentioned.. ok.. we shall see ar.. whether we'll have a surprise party anot..
... dots.. as if!! -_-
hmm... =/ these few days stop feeling so hungry now though.. today had one meal.. and im full..
*yawn..
-_-.. sleepy ne..
last night slept for 10hours.. still aint enough..
mata
wow.. so fast ne. less than a month's time.. to prepare my trip.. and be happy again.. ...
hmm.. so many places to go.. and buy.. o well.. my visa.. haiyo...
oh.. perhaps ask my manager to help?.. haiyo.. ee..
hmm... sooo sleepy...
lets see...
after work.. trim my hair alil.. gosh!!waited for sooo long before they cut my hair! argh! and soo expensive somemore :( huu....
but.. hm.. okok la.. haiz.
at least not bad can le..
ha.. so surprised when they shampoo my hair first thign before cut.
hm.. then.. window shop around.. trying to keep my budget down right now... =/
o well.........
hm... yeah.. long day..
..gosh.. tmr working with soul.. omg.. been ages since we work together.. hmm...
...tch.. o well...... see how ab..
so gonna remember my day tmr.. last day..
haha.. my boss in good mood eh?.. asking me if im gonan have a farewell party.. going pub or where to celebrate anot.. hahaha... i say no.. then he's like.. why ar.. ,my relationship with my frens like that ar.. haha.. geez.. -_-
o well... as if we got alot of money ar.. -_-
anyway, when he walk outta the shop, he mentioned.. ok.. we shall see ar.. whether we'll have a surprise party anot..
... dots.. as if!! -_-
hmm... =/ these few days stop feeling so hungry now though.. today had one meal.. and im full..
*yawn..
-_-.. sleepy ne..
last night slept for 10hours.. still aint enough..
mata
22 November 2009
Stupid Matter!
omg.. i am sooo sleepy............... soo goonna sleep already!! so thirsty too.. gosh.. my eyes already half closeeeeeeeee huu.. T_T i wanna slp!!!
haiyo.. today almost get to cook.. but bro not home.. so.. yeah.. dad wanan go eat outside.. so.. o well.. cook maybe tmr or other day ba..
wow.. my dad, he loses alot of weight. his beer tummy, now gone! still got abit though. but yeah.. wow... never thought i could see it one day.. so flat. .hm.. ok.. still got abit la..
but yeah..
gosh my eye closing.. lemme type a quick blog here then..
hm.. tmr.. dunno wanna trimm, hair anot. see how ne..
hm.. :( sigh.............. u know right.. been blogging so long here... me hate it when ppl pushes the blame to me.. if in the first place, had they gotten the key, btw, it is their fault!!!
then me wouldn't have made that so called my fault mistake. gosh. dammit.
if i wanna be bad and mean, i can pick a fight. but i dont to.
its izuan we;re talking about here.. he;s my fren and i.. yeah.. =/ doesnt wish to blow up the matter and make things worse. :(
but. it aint my fault.. tmr i am not gonna apologize.. usually i;ll say sorry.. but whne it comes to serious matter, i cant say sorry when its not my fault in the first place. who started it first huh??!
geez!!
no i cant do it. small matter, its alrite.. this kind of thing, if i say sorry, i;ll be admitting its my fault.
argh!!!
but today.. aint bad actually.. feel refreshed.. but.. sigh.. this stupid matter.. blow things up. argh..
k.. stop here now.. gosh.. slping in about... 15mins? yay!!
mata!
haiyo.. today almost get to cook.. but bro not home.. so.. yeah.. dad wanan go eat outside.. so.. o well.. cook maybe tmr or other day ba..
wow.. my dad, he loses alot of weight. his beer tummy, now gone! still got abit though. but yeah.. wow... never thought i could see it one day.. so flat. .hm.. ok.. still got abit la..
but yeah..
gosh my eye closing.. lemme type a quick blog here then..
hm.. tmr.. dunno wanna trimm, hair anot. see how ne..
hm.. :( sigh.............. u know right.. been blogging so long here... me hate it when ppl pushes the blame to me.. if in the first place, had they gotten the key, btw, it is their fault!!!
then me wouldn't have made that so called my fault mistake. gosh. dammit.
if i wanna be bad and mean, i can pick a fight. but i dont to.
its izuan we;re talking about here.. he;s my fren and i.. yeah.. =/ doesnt wish to blow up the matter and make things worse. :(
but. it aint my fault.. tmr i am not gonna apologize.. usually i;ll say sorry.. but whne it comes to serious matter, i cant say sorry when its not my fault in the first place. who started it first huh??!
geez!!
no i cant do it. small matter, its alrite.. this kind of thing, if i say sorry, i;ll be admitting its my fault.
argh!!!
but today.. aint bad actually.. feel refreshed.. but.. sigh.. this stupid matter.. blow things up. argh..
k.. stop here now.. gosh.. slping in about... 15mins? yay!!
mata!
21 November 2009
6 Hours Concert -_-
gosh.. now my album's upside down.. never upload pics.. pics here and there from different timezones.. XD oh my goodness.. so messed up.. now me also duno when me took thsoe pics.. haiyo.. wasted ne..
too busy to sort them out. .then like. found them.. then like.. what? me have those pics? kinda like that. hahaha
ahh.. .theres a new staff... a girl.. partiemr.. i worked with her on fri.. wow. .she look sooo soft spoken and shy.. and sooo innocent.. but!! she smoke, she drinks, she clubs... OMG... O.O i was so taken aback!!
im serious! u could just imagine the most innocent looking skinny girl.. and when she told ya she did those stuffs,.. wow.... O.O i cant imagine it.. gosh... she's a chinese. so fragile looking. but nice to work with her:)
yup. a pity though.. sigh.. .gonna be my last day soon.. =/ huu
atz staffs ne.. nice to work with most of them:) at least to me.
hmm.. what else happen.. hmm... gosh my memory's sux...
too many things to do..
work..personal..fatique..
wow.. thsi weekend been so busy for me. also turned down away afew invitations..
yeah.. fri.. gosh.. so many invitations..
today too.. but turned down one. rather head home..
was out in vain early in the morning sacrificing my sleep for a fren's performance . gosh........ hell no.. its so boring.. and tiring.. and sitting there for 6 hours staraight!!! XD! goodness gracious....
but my fren performances is great. really good job done :)
so glad to be home now.. gosh.. really..
so sleepy.. countless of time si dozed off in the victoria theatre.. gosh.....
k.. talk next time..
mata!
too busy to sort them out. .then like. found them.. then like.. what? me have those pics? kinda like that. hahaha
ahh.. .theres a new staff... a girl.. partiemr.. i worked with her on fri.. wow. .she look sooo soft spoken and shy.. and sooo innocent.. but!! she smoke, she drinks, she clubs... OMG... O.O i was so taken aback!!
im serious! u could just imagine the most innocent looking skinny girl.. and when she told ya she did those stuffs,.. wow.... O.O i cant imagine it.. gosh... she's a chinese. so fragile looking. but nice to work with her:)
yup. a pity though.. sigh.. .gonna be my last day soon.. =/ huu
atz staffs ne.. nice to work with most of them:) at least to me.
hmm.. what else happen.. hmm... gosh my memory's sux...
too many things to do..
work..personal..fatique..
wow.. thsi weekend been so busy for me. also turned down away afew invitations..
yeah.. fri.. gosh.. so many invitations..
today too.. but turned down one. rather head home..
was out in vain early in the morning sacrificing my sleep for a fren's performance . gosh........ hell no.. its so boring.. and tiring.. and sitting there for 6 hours staraight!!! XD! goodness gracious....
but my fren performances is great. really good job done :)
so glad to be home now.. gosh.. really..
so sleepy.. countless of time si dozed off in the victoria theatre.. gosh.....
k.. talk next time..
mata!
19 November 2009
Missing Lots..
gosh.. huu.. couldnt sleep much ne.. just woken up abit. sooo hungry:( starving.. huu....
thought of getting up and eat. .but... hmm.. =/ too sleepy.. still tired ne.. haiyo... :(
hm.. today early morning haven open shop, sales already so good ;)
but.. at the end of night.. its liek always.. my manager trying to push my sales away by saying.. oh this big sales belong to this person's customer.. blahn3.. something like that.
.sigh... i miss sammy so much. :( ..i cant wait for the 21st...
....
i really wish sammy's back here.. :(...
..T_T.......... me sad... sammy's not here... sad.. huu............
.... almost 4 months already... :( ..........................
sigh.....
... so many years to go... :( ......... kurushii ne.......... ... =/
me wakey suddenly..
,,,,miss sammy..
i miss u salim.....
mata
thought of getting up and eat. .but... hmm.. =/ too sleepy.. still tired ne.. haiyo... :(
hm.. today early morning haven open shop, sales already so good ;)
but.. at the end of night.. its liek always.. my manager trying to push my sales away by saying.. oh this big sales belong to this person's customer.. blahn3.. something like that.
.sigh... i miss sammy so much. :( ..i cant wait for the 21st...
....
i really wish sammy's back here.. :(...
..T_T.......... me sad... sammy's not here... sad.. huu............
.... almost 4 months already... :( ..........................
sigh.....
... so many years to go... :( ......... kurushii ne.......... ... =/
me wakey suddenly..
,,,,miss sammy..
i miss u salim.....
mata
18 November 2009
No Halfbreak Before Marriage Please
omg... i was sooo sleepy and tired!! never bloggy.. huu..
hmm.. gosh. .cant remember what happen ne.. hm..
ok. .that night,.. nisa dropped by my place.. then becos she's a person who always look at teh ppl around her, even when she's walking.. she told me that my place here.. like.. why alot of ppl look like zombie. everywhere we go, they stare3...
then i was like.. really?? and true enough, i walk.. and yeah!! i noticed the ppl all staring at us! like.. not really stare.. but.. yeah.. they'll look u know. omg. .so weird. then me tell her.. maybe my area here not much girls like us.. perhaps more of older ppl..
haiyo.. wah.. she;s really good at this.. haha. cant wait to see her tmr i guess
ah.... sam fell aslp before me could reach home that night...
aw..
then me try to hang on till he's wakey.. then.. end up fallen aslp at 3am.. -_- haiyo.. no wonder today me sooo sleepY!!
but its worth it :) cos.. yeah.. just this close though.. 2more hours to chat when he wakey.. hee..
gosh! my knee hurts!
ouchie... but glad now better.. duno why ne,, my sitting position perhaps?
ah... wow.. i was surprised when redz told me about his manager, (me also know him) gotten married last dec!!
its a hush wedding.. but. yeah.. :) wow.. great eh.
i was surprised.. cos he was with this gf for like.. hm.. 10years? or more? something liek that.. then i heard they broke off. :(
then after dunno how long, perhaps months time or dunno what.. tehy actually patched back up, and got married! ;D cool .happy for him ^^ he's a very good tempered funny guy. :)
hm.. yeah.. another case already ne..
imagine u're with someone for years... long years.... then suddenly something happen, then break up,..its like wasting alot of precious time... cos.. life aint long u know.. :( but then,.. there might be some precious lessons u can learn from it..
then after that, get back together, and married. haha.. really.. lfie is so unpredictable huh...
its all in our hands...
but.. hm..
of course not that simple.
haiyo.. my shoulders...
everytime sit too long, type till it hurts..
the table la.. too high ne.. haiyo...
in need of a massage!!!
ah.. just now ne.. sam showed me around his new house. yeah. .great.. haha. i was thinking.. perhaps if his parents wanan show me around, i say yeah i know already.. this is where3... ha.. then they'll be like.. ehh... how u know ar.. ha..
nah.. wont ever do that.. no way:P
hm.. k.. time for me to rest soon..
so sleepy.. still need more rest..
=/
mata ne!
hmm.. gosh. .cant remember what happen ne.. hm..
ok. .that night,.. nisa dropped by my place.. then becos she's a person who always look at teh ppl around her, even when she's walking.. she told me that my place here.. like.. why alot of ppl look like zombie. everywhere we go, they stare3...
then i was like.. really?? and true enough, i walk.. and yeah!! i noticed the ppl all staring at us! like.. not really stare.. but.. yeah.. they'll look u know. omg. .so weird. then me tell her.. maybe my area here not much girls like us.. perhaps more of older ppl..
haiyo.. wah.. she;s really good at this.. haha. cant wait to see her tmr i guess
ah.... sam fell aslp before me could reach home that night...
aw..
then me try to hang on till he's wakey.. then.. end up fallen aslp at 3am.. -_- haiyo.. no wonder today me sooo sleepY!!
but its worth it :) cos.. yeah.. just this close though.. 2more hours to chat when he wakey.. hee..
gosh! my knee hurts!
ouchie... but glad now better.. duno why ne,, my sitting position perhaps?
ah... wow.. i was surprised when redz told me about his manager, (me also know him) gotten married last dec!!
its a hush wedding.. but. yeah.. :) wow.. great eh.
i was surprised.. cos he was with this gf for like.. hm.. 10years? or more? something liek that.. then i heard they broke off. :(
then after dunno how long, perhaps months time or dunno what.. tehy actually patched back up, and got married! ;D cool .happy for him ^^ he's a very good tempered funny guy. :)
hm.. yeah.. another case already ne..
imagine u're with someone for years... long years.... then suddenly something happen, then break up,..its like wasting alot of precious time... cos.. life aint long u know.. :( but then,.. there might be some precious lessons u can learn from it..
then after that, get back together, and married. haha.. really.. lfie is so unpredictable huh...
its all in our hands...
but.. hm..
of course not that simple.
haiyo.. my shoulders...
everytime sit too long, type till it hurts..
the table la.. too high ne.. haiyo...
in need of a massage!!!
ah.. just now ne.. sam showed me around his new house. yeah. .great.. haha. i was thinking.. perhaps if his parents wanan show me around, i say yeah i know already.. this is where3... ha.. then they'll be like.. ehh... how u know ar.. ha..
nah.. wont ever do that.. no way:P
hm.. k.. time for me to rest soon..
so sleepy.. still need more rest..
=/
mata ne!
16 November 2009
Sleepy Boring To Video
hmm.................very sleepy... =.=.... whoof....... what a videoing day again... ha.. the lil girl insisted on it. gosh.. me so sleepy and bored doing the recording -_-...
hm... =/ boring day again yup.. but not too bad..
hm.. theres 3 fullshifts coming up.. this week gonna be hectic though.. personal stuffs.. work stuffs.. argh.. its ok.. ending job soon..
hm.. stil lcant believe what my boss said.. .. anyway,
today sales sooo bad. wow... still worried even though im quitting. its in my blood i guess.
i just wanna.. hm.. kinda make sure my work is done and alrite before i go.
hmm........ just now ne.. was having my late dinner with nisa.. below my block.. not bad ba.. hm... yeah.. so nice to sit downstairs.. wind abit breezy too..
hmm......
me drying my hair now... hm.. wanna sleep soon...
hm.. bored.. haiyo...
bro.. not coming back tonight...
hm.. not that lonely ba.. =/ hm........
hm... =/ boring day again yup.. but not too bad..
hm.. theres 3 fullshifts coming up.. this week gonna be hectic though.. personal stuffs.. work stuffs.. argh.. its ok.. ending job soon..
hm.. stil lcant believe what my boss said.. .. anyway,
today sales sooo bad. wow... still worried even though im quitting. its in my blood i guess.
i just wanna.. hm.. kinda make sure my work is done and alrite before i go.
hmm........ just now ne.. was having my late dinner with nisa.. below my block.. not bad ba.. hm... yeah.. so nice to sit downstairs.. wind abit breezy too..
hmm......
me drying my hair now... hm.. wanna sleep soon...
hm.. bored.. haiyo...
bro.. not coming back tonight...
hm.. not that lonely ba.. =/ hm........
just bored..and sleepy.. need so many nights of sleep to get back my energy.. geez...
mata
15 November 2009
Down Down... =(
............sigh......................................................
:(
i thought i manage to get myself outta it.. but din realsied i stupidly headed back in.. argh.... now im in trouble..
today ne.. only had lunch.. usually me eat alot.. but today.. hm.. no ne.. till now.. tummy now hurting abit.. huu..
=/
sianz
since ytd, nothing seems to be like.. right.. i guess.. im just kidna feeling down eh... =/
sigh.........
stupid sia...... :(
sigh.....................
:(
feel like cursing...........
sigh
perhaps all i need is food and slp....
tch......... =/
i wish communications can be easier.. even though this world theres phone and msgs around.. internet......
i dunno.. ppl might be depending on technology alil bit more isnt it?.. sometimes.. it just .. doesnt feels right...
certain thing.. i thought.. must be resolved...by.....
-_-.. gosh...
i must be crazy.. sorry.. perhaaps isnt the thing to write here.. its my own inner thinkings.
hm........
......
a lil matter can affect me so much.. :(
..i shouldn'tve let it get to my head..
hm... was freezing liek mad in teh bus just now.. gosh........ like the aircon is free sia..
its really a liar sometiems eh.. through the internet.. u may send a smiley face icon to ur other party fren. but at that time u're most probably be drinking and crying.
its all so.. ..hm.. whats that word.. .... cant see?... i dunno...
its so... sad.. that.. ppl cant actually really feel becos they aint....... .. u know.....
hmm..... right now in my life.. i need alot more care than ever.. also dunno why recently felt nothing coming from my family.
nah.. cant be bother. as long as im not led astray will do.
and i wont. ha.
hmm.. my supper's getting ready soon.. cant wait to eat..
i hope tmr will be a better day..
smile. cheers.....
stop thinking.
mata
:(
i thought i manage to get myself outta it.. but din realsied i stupidly headed back in.. argh.... now im in trouble..
today ne.. only had lunch.. usually me eat alot.. but today.. hm.. no ne.. till now.. tummy now hurting abit.. huu..
=/
sianz
since ytd, nothing seems to be like.. right.. i guess.. im just kidna feeling down eh... =/
sigh.........
stupid sia...... :(
sigh.....................
:(
feel like cursing...........
sigh
perhaps all i need is food and slp....
tch......... =/
i wish communications can be easier.. even though this world theres phone and msgs around.. internet......
i dunno.. ppl might be depending on technology alil bit more isnt it?.. sometimes.. it just .. doesnt feels right...
certain thing.. i thought.. must be resolved...by.....
-_-.. gosh...
i must be crazy.. sorry.. perhaaps isnt the thing to write here.. its my own inner thinkings.
hm........
......
a lil matter can affect me so much.. :(
..i shouldn'tve let it get to my head..
hm... was freezing liek mad in teh bus just now.. gosh........ like the aircon is free sia..
its really a liar sometiems eh.. through the internet.. u may send a smiley face icon to ur other party fren. but at that time u're most probably be drinking and crying.
its all so.. ..hm.. whats that word.. .... cant see?... i dunno...
its so... sad.. that.. ppl cant actually really feel becos they aint....... .. u know.....
hmm..... right now in my life.. i need alot more care than ever.. also dunno why recently felt nothing coming from my family.
nah.. cant be bother. as long as im not led astray will do.
and i wont. ha.
hmm.. my supper's getting ready soon.. cant wait to eat..
i hope tmr will be a better day..
smile. cheers.....
stop thinking.
mata
14 November 2009
Shocking Me
hm................ :(... today...
supposed to be heading to town grab some stuff, then head back home.. but then.. fren ask to go for a movie.. so.. o well.. no one accompany him.. =/ i agree to it.. then thank god.. bump into my childhood fren! phew... with another long time no meet fren. so really2 lucky to bump into them.. cos me feel kinda awkward and uncomfortable watching a movie with my fren.. yeah.. =/ so glad my frens can make it. phew..
and so.. we watched the paranormal activity. hm.. very disturbing.. but.. the bf love her so much.. ...sigh..
i shouldn't have agree to my fren's request.. its my mistake perhaps.. then away from sammy..
u have no idea how upset i was throughout the night... :( and somemore i should've known.. its a guy fren asking me out. .argh.. how can i make sammy feel down.. :( baka3.... huu.. i dunno what to do sometimes.. im torned.. i dont want that to happen again.. .. .. huu..
missing... thinking.. really lots.. :( sigh.. so wanna cry.. cos today went pass the places we used to hang out.. making matters worse.. :(
k.. so after movie.. my fren wanna chill at this mind's cafe. so we had some snacks there.. and played 2 board games. one of them which is truth or dare.
gosh.. they were asking about bedroom questions! what.. guys normal erm.. ahem.. making lvoe time is 15mins there.. i was like thinking.. huh?! isit??! XD thought its an hour?? lol.
sigh... =( really beenn thinking ltos ya know.. with such a heavy heart tonight.. of course feel bad.. i do miss him so much... yet im out there... :( huu............. T_T
sigh.. really not a great night.. my heart is wih sammy..
a number of times cant help but shed down some tears..
something really shocked me today.. totally. omg.
i just crossed the traffic lgiths with my frens.. just then, this couple, (i think they have other frens ard too.. not sure..) walked past me. the guy, accidentally bumpy into me.. abit hard.. ard my arm area..
while i was crossing the road, and before, i was already having lots of things in my mind.. and wih a heavy heart too. so i really wasnt in a good mood at all. don mess with me when im down.
and something really weird happen.
the moment he bump into me, i could hear myself saying somethign like.. ' its ok.. say sorry..' but AT THE SAME time, another voice say heck care! then another voice said again..' wait no.... keep quiet don say anyhing t that guy!'
the next second i know, i lost the battle. it all happened in a mere split second.
i turn my head around , by right i would've apologized to that guy. i always do when i bump into someone, or they bump into me. and the rudest i've gone to is say 'tch!!' by Mistake too. but not as shocking as this time round. as i was saying.. i turned my head, i say 'Oii!!' to that guy. then he say sorry.. ten i look back at my frens.. they were all looking at me. shocked. but most of all, im the one who get totally shocked by what i just did.
i have no idea who that was who just said 'oii!!' ...omg.. so rude. .so fierce.. so.. scary.. it wasnt me..
but.. its feels really weird.. as though.. that scary part of me just.... wanted to get out or something.. im kidna scared one day if anything big happen, i might change to a totally different person.. :(
huu.. i hope not... but....
yeah.. it feels as though it the deepest part of me yet...
cos.. i wasnt thinking straight.. and.. i was feeling down.. then suddenly this thing'bang' into me. .and i woke up outta a sudden.. so fast.. then.. i couldnt follow my usual sense.. and i shut up like what the voice told me to.. i retaliated to that.... .. huu.. me so bad..
and end up being someone im not. i couldnt stop myself from retaliating.. sigh
anyway.. yeah.. its very shocking.. so.. ... haiz.. o well... =/
lucky that guy isnt a ganster or what.. gosh.. skali kena scold by his gang die sia.. ha
hm.........
sigh.... =./ i dont feel happy that much eh.. o well.. what to do..
then.. we went to beach.. hm... saw the sky.. alot of planes.. flying off.. i look up... :( wondering if that day.. sam is sitting in there.. just like that.. flying off away together with the plane.... huu..... teary eyes again...
he was sitting in a plane.. just like that... he flew off.. just like that.. he never come back.. he's at another place now.. that day.. the plance fly him there.. and he's never back since... .. :..(
i looked at it.. wishing i was in the plane right now.. flying over.. 'take me there..' i heard myself whispering and yearning inside my heart...while looking up through the nightsky at the plane....
T_T huu...........
...
dunno why.. tonight so extra miss him..
feels kinda like my life is abit upside down.. :(
...
mata
supposed to be heading to town grab some stuff, then head back home.. but then.. fren ask to go for a movie.. so.. o well.. no one accompany him.. =/ i agree to it.. then thank god.. bump into my childhood fren! phew... with another long time no meet fren. so really2 lucky to bump into them.. cos me feel kinda awkward and uncomfortable watching a movie with my fren.. yeah.. =/ so glad my frens can make it. phew..
and so.. we watched the paranormal activity. hm.. very disturbing.. but.. the bf love her so much.. ...sigh..
i shouldn't have agree to my fren's request.. its my mistake perhaps.. then away from sammy..
u have no idea how upset i was throughout the night... :( and somemore i should've known.. its a guy fren asking me out. .argh.. how can i make sammy feel down.. :( baka3.... huu.. i dunno what to do sometimes.. im torned.. i dont want that to happen again.. .. .. huu..
missing... thinking.. really lots.. :( sigh.. so wanna cry.. cos today went pass the places we used to hang out.. making matters worse.. :(
k.. so after movie.. my fren wanna chill at this mind's cafe. so we had some snacks there.. and played 2 board games. one of them which is truth or dare.
gosh.. they were asking about bedroom questions! what.. guys normal erm.. ahem.. making lvoe time is 15mins there.. i was like thinking.. huh?! isit??! XD thought its an hour?? lol.
sigh... =( really beenn thinking ltos ya know.. with such a heavy heart tonight.. of course feel bad.. i do miss him so much... yet im out there... :( huu............. T_T
sigh.. really not a great night.. my heart is wih sammy..
a number of times cant help but shed down some tears..
something really shocked me today.. totally. omg.
i just crossed the traffic lgiths with my frens.. just then, this couple, (i think they have other frens ard too.. not sure..) walked past me. the guy, accidentally bumpy into me.. abit hard.. ard my arm area..
while i was crossing the road, and before, i was already having lots of things in my mind.. and wih a heavy heart too. so i really wasnt in a good mood at all. don mess with me when im down.
and something really weird happen.
the moment he bump into me, i could hear myself saying somethign like.. ' its ok.. say sorry..' but AT THE SAME time, another voice say heck care! then another voice said again..' wait no.... keep quiet don say anyhing t that guy!'
the next second i know, i lost the battle. it all happened in a mere split second.
i turn my head around , by right i would've apologized to that guy. i always do when i bump into someone, or they bump into me. and the rudest i've gone to is say 'tch!!' by Mistake too. but not as shocking as this time round. as i was saying.. i turned my head, i say 'Oii!!' to that guy. then he say sorry.. ten i look back at my frens.. they were all looking at me. shocked. but most of all, im the one who get totally shocked by what i just did.
i have no idea who that was who just said 'oii!!' ...omg.. so rude. .so fierce.. so.. scary.. it wasnt me..
but.. its feels really weird.. as though.. that scary part of me just.... wanted to get out or something.. im kidna scared one day if anything big happen, i might change to a totally different person.. :(
huu.. i hope not... but....
yeah.. it feels as though it the deepest part of me yet...
cos.. i wasnt thinking straight.. and.. i was feeling down.. then suddenly this thing'bang' into me. .and i woke up outta a sudden.. so fast.. then.. i couldnt follow my usual sense.. and i shut up like what the voice told me to.. i retaliated to that.... .. huu.. me so bad..
and end up being someone im not. i couldnt stop myself from retaliating.. sigh
anyway.. yeah.. its very shocking.. so.. ... haiz.. o well... =/
lucky that guy isnt a ganster or what.. gosh.. skali kena scold by his gang die sia.. ha
hm.........
sigh.... =./ i dont feel happy that much eh.. o well.. what to do..
then.. we went to beach.. hm... saw the sky.. alot of planes.. flying off.. i look up... :( wondering if that day.. sam is sitting in there.. just like that.. flying off away together with the plane.... huu..... teary eyes again...
he was sitting in a plane.. just like that... he flew off.. just like that.. he never come back.. he's at another place now.. that day.. the plance fly him there.. and he's never back since... .. :..(
i looked at it.. wishing i was in the plane right now.. flying over.. 'take me there..' i heard myself whispering and yearning inside my heart...while looking up through the nightsky at the plane....
T_T huu...........
...
dunno why.. tonight so extra miss him..
feels kinda like my life is abit upside down.. :(
...
mata
13 November 2009
Stupid Alarms
gosh.. so sleepy... my alarm.. lol... wanna kick it man..
the batt fall out, me din know..thats why it didnt ring.. then my hp, forgot to set alarm! XD haiyooooo
and me wakey right at the time i was supposed to be changing and doing my make up. . omg. so very rush..
rush3, finally made it on time. wah.... if me never wakey, dunno how sia seriously. i really cant and don wanna imagine that..
really lucky i gotta say.. good thing me wakey at the right time..
cos wokey in teh middle of night.. then cant slp back. online awhile.. then try to slp again. cos tired.. :( then.. omg.. no alarm.. ha..
hm.. shoulders in need of a good massage.... really.. hm.. i think i need some fun ne.. watch movie or something.. =/ been stuck at that working boring till like what place for days staright.. only lunch time and morning time get to see the light. once im outta the shop, i was surprised(can u belive it?) gosh. its night time already!! its BLACK! the sky's dark. haha.. o well.. what to do..
hm.... ..started to look back at alot of my old pics... then.. memories gushes back between me and sam.. =/ ...see.. teary eyes now.. haiyo...
those full of laughter sweet memories.. i dont have it in my life here now.
sometimes good things gotta end. it doesnt come easy.. not at all.
who says good things come easy? without struggles..
i miss.. i really3 miss.. everything.. since the day i met him.... ...
... shoot.. cry again.. sianz..
kk.. don think don think.. stop thinking about everything now.. otehrwise non stop crying. argh..
kk.. gotta relax.. concentrate and think of otehr stuff...
mata
the batt fall out, me din know..thats why it didnt ring.. then my hp, forgot to set alarm! XD haiyooooo
and me wakey right at the time i was supposed to be changing and doing my make up. . omg. so very rush..
rush3, finally made it on time. wah.... if me never wakey, dunno how sia seriously. i really cant and don wanna imagine that..
really lucky i gotta say.. good thing me wakey at the right time..
cos wokey in teh middle of night.. then cant slp back. online awhile.. then try to slp again. cos tired.. :( then.. omg.. no alarm.. ha..
hm.. shoulders in need of a good massage.... really.. hm.. i think i need some fun ne.. watch movie or something.. =/ been stuck at that working boring till like what place for days staright.. only lunch time and morning time get to see the light. once im outta the shop, i was surprised(can u belive it?) gosh. its night time already!! its BLACK! the sky's dark. haha.. o well.. what to do..
hm.... ..started to look back at alot of my old pics... then.. memories gushes back between me and sam.. =/ ...see.. teary eyes now.. haiyo...
those full of laughter sweet memories.. i dont have it in my life here now.
sometimes good things gotta end. it doesnt come easy.. not at all.
who says good things come easy? without struggles..
i miss.. i really3 miss.. everything.. since the day i met him.... ...
... shoot.. cry again.. sianz..
kk.. don think don think.. stop thinking about everything now.. otehrwise non stop crying. argh..
kk.. gotta relax.. concentrate and think of otehr stuff...
mata
12 November 2009
Sleepy Day!!
gosh... finally today is over.. i am soooo sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. omg...
i hope tmr will be a better day.. .huu.. why still not enough rest ne.. :(
ahh.. ate alot today ... goshhh soooo fulllll... haha....
had lunch with redz today. tehn before we part ways, i say i wanna have a look at the bread shop while he went other way.. he gib me this 'what! still food????' look. LOL...
yeah.. theres this choco puff thingy.. sooo yummy.. :P full of choco. haha
gosh. theres this malay man walk into the shop today.. speaking to me in malay! O.o hahahha.....
he say thought im a malay. ha.. do i look like a malay still? or cos of my colleagues eh
gosh.. cant stand it.. i need sooo much rest =/
sooo sleepy.. me stil llooking so tired everyday. ;( argh.. dislike it ne.
tmr talk more ne.. now too tired to type..
mata ashita ne
i hope tmr will be a better day.. .huu.. why still not enough rest ne.. :(
ahh.. ate alot today ... goshhh soooo fulllll... haha....
had lunch with redz today. tehn before we part ways, i say i wanna have a look at the bread shop while he went other way.. he gib me this 'what! still food????' look. LOL...
yeah.. theres this choco puff thingy.. sooo yummy.. :P full of choco. haha
gosh. theres this malay man walk into the shop today.. speaking to me in malay! O.o hahahha.....
he say thought im a malay. ha.. do i look like a malay still? or cos of my colleagues eh
gosh.. cant stand it.. i need sooo much rest =/
sooo sleepy.. me stil llooking so tired everyday. ;( argh.. dislike it ne.
tmr talk more ne.. now too tired to type..
mata ashita ne
11 November 2009
Thinking Of Only The Sweet Moments
hmm... ok... so... today.. finally.. im a lil bothered by money issue..
.. =/ nonetheless... i cant wait to head for my holiday.. i just wanna see sammy, and focus on matters there, and forget everythign else.
:( i don wanna think about other matters in singapore. or in the future after im back. ...huu.. i really just wanna head there.. and stop thinking for once.. about whats gonna happen in future.. or job..or money.. blah3... i don wish to think about those.. yeah.. hoping .. uh huh.. for the best..
dreamt of being there... so nice.. pass the customs so smoothly and easy too.. so happy. hahaha.
well.. ..i guess... my dreams of being in sydney will finally come true in afew more weeks time...
hm......
from there... i just wanna relax... think of nothing else..about singapore. hmm.........
...
dunno why.. ..feel kidna heavy heart now... =/
today.. was out with hammy and raz. haha. but very very tired... :(
hm.. they wanns shop.. so.. yup.. we eat at fish and co. very full!
hm.. went to ion.. heeren.. far east..
ah.. the decorations.. wow wow wow.. amazing this year. so much better than the past few years. cool.
hm...
oh Theres a new shopping mall opening soon. wow. so many. now orchard is like.. hahaha.. really shopping heaven sey..
hm..
k.. me try my best not to think about other things... jsut stay at sydney.. have fun.. enjoy my moments with sammy. thats the main point..
gosh.. me having the tired face for days... =/
haiz.. still so tired.. don like me looking like that ne..
mata ne..
.. =/ nonetheless... i cant wait to head for my holiday.. i just wanna see sammy, and focus on matters there, and forget everythign else.
:( i don wanna think about other matters in singapore. or in the future after im back. ...huu.. i really just wanna head there.. and stop thinking for once.. about whats gonna happen in future.. or job..or money.. blah3... i don wish to think about those.. yeah.. hoping .. uh huh.. for the best..
dreamt of being there... so nice.. pass the customs so smoothly and easy too.. so happy. hahaha.
well.. ..i guess... my dreams of being in sydney will finally come true in afew more weeks time...
hm......
from there... i just wanna relax... think of nothing else..about singapore. hmm.........
...
dunno why.. ..feel kidna heavy heart now... =/
today.. was out with hammy and raz. haha. but very very tired... :(
hm.. they wanns shop.. so.. yup.. we eat at fish and co. very full!
hm.. went to ion.. heeren.. far east..
ah.. the decorations.. wow wow wow.. amazing this year. so much better than the past few years. cool.
hm...
oh Theres a new shopping mall opening soon. wow. so many. now orchard is like.. hahaha.. really shopping heaven sey..
hm..
k.. me try my best not to think about other things... jsut stay at sydney.. have fun.. enjoy my moments with sammy. thats the main point..
gosh.. me having the tired face for days... =/
haiz.. still so tired.. don like me looking like that ne..
mata ne..
10 November 2009
Life Lessons
gosh.. finally this day is over. .good thing theres manager to help out.. otherwise alone is like. wah....
hm.. beginning.. well.. me went to see my boss... i told myself to remain calm.. actually no need to say anyting to myself.. i appeared to be calm.. and cool.. talking to him also like. ok.. yup.. uh huh.. cos i don wanna talk much. just wanna get out. but he suddenly talk3... then tlak to the mostb sensitive part of me.. its like ouch! he hit the nail on the spot! then within a sec, i cried already -_- always in front of him. sianzzzzz .haha.
well.. i know whats he trying to say about me being so 'poor' . while sam is being so 'high' up... u know.. that kind of. ...yeah..
=/... i know.. i knew it all along.. but.. yeah..
idiot ne.. ..ha.. ..=/ go and say it out... ..
hmm..
sianz..
but glad this matter put to rest for now.. he gib me so much life lessons sia..geez. hm.. me like. .wow. .didnt realised i only have 2 weeks left in tis company... aw..... ...
sigh..
and my manager.. anyhow talk about me to my bosses. another one from today. wah.. bloody hell.. but i don wanna mention anuthing to my boss. im leaving. sick of this kind of childish stupid backstab ppl stuff. i don want my part in it. its irks me much.
but some of my boss words,.. surprisingly, its really good..
like he said..
a high educated man, doesnt mean he'll be rich. like in my case,.. i went through more tough life than that person, with everything thing i got, i learn more, isnt it better he said.
u can agree to that somehow.
its way too long and complicated to say it all here of how i think of that.. but... hm.. well.. anything or anyone is different. if u put 2 persons together, doing the same thing, it might turn out different. or it will. its just.. humans.. is really complicated... everyone is different.. sometimes.. ... hmm. u just cant... hm... u cant expect everyone who do the same thing , will definitely have the same results, or future to it.
..i don belive that.
uni students also end up selling chicken rice. dots.
whatever it is, .. hm..
well..
to eahc of his own. everyone got their own strong points. u just gotta know how to and where to put it to good use. isnt it... ..
o well,... complicated..
lets talk next time shall we..
gosh.. today.. amazing....... really3 amazing.. since morning, all the transportation im tkaing, always left when im so near it. trains.. bus... geez.. tough luck today.. all the way till me get home. lol. weird!
hmm.. nisa and her ex in JB finally got back together. so.. oh well.. pity her few days or ratehr one week ex bf... :( sad sia..
hm....... =/
o well.. its her decision..
mata
hm.. beginning.. well.. me went to see my boss... i told myself to remain calm.. actually no need to say anyting to myself.. i appeared to be calm.. and cool.. talking to him also like. ok.. yup.. uh huh.. cos i don wanna talk much. just wanna get out. but he suddenly talk3... then tlak to the mostb sensitive part of me.. its like ouch! he hit the nail on the spot! then within a sec, i cried already -_- always in front of him. sianzzzzz .haha.
well.. i know whats he trying to say about me being so 'poor' . while sam is being so 'high' up... u know.. that kind of. ...yeah..
=/... i know.. i knew it all along.. but.. yeah..
idiot ne.. ..ha.. ..=/ go and say it out... ..
hmm..
sianz..
but glad this matter put to rest for now.. he gib me so much life lessons sia..geez. hm.. me like. .wow. .didnt realised i only have 2 weeks left in tis company... aw..... ...
sigh..
and my manager.. anyhow talk about me to my bosses. another one from today. wah.. bloody hell.. but i don wanna mention anuthing to my boss. im leaving. sick of this kind of childish stupid backstab ppl stuff. i don want my part in it. its irks me much.
but some of my boss words,.. surprisingly, its really good..
like he said..
a high educated man, doesnt mean he'll be rich. like in my case,.. i went through more tough life than that person, with everything thing i got, i learn more, isnt it better he said.
u can agree to that somehow.
its way too long and complicated to say it all here of how i think of that.. but... hm.. well.. anything or anyone is different. if u put 2 persons together, doing the same thing, it might turn out different. or it will. its just.. humans.. is really complicated... everyone is different.. sometimes.. ... hmm. u just cant... hm... u cant expect everyone who do the same thing , will definitely have the same results, or future to it.
..i don belive that.
uni students also end up selling chicken rice. dots.
whatever it is, .. hm..
well..
to eahc of his own. everyone got their own strong points. u just gotta know how to and where to put it to good use. isnt it... ..
o well,... complicated..
lets talk next time shall we..
gosh.. today.. amazing....... really3 amazing.. since morning, all the transportation im tkaing, always left when im so near it. trains.. bus... geez.. tough luck today.. all the way till me get home. lol. weird!
hmm.. nisa and her ex in JB finally got back together. so.. oh well.. pity her few days or ratehr one week ex bf... :( sad sia..
hm....... =/
o well.. its her decision..
mata
09 November 2009
Bad Day =/
hmm.. what a bad down day.. unlike yesterday.. :(
first.. i guess i got no choice but to go meet my boss up tmr morning.. huu... early morning. .waste my time:(
hm. feeling nervous though.. . haiz. just wanna get it over with, and look forward to my off. get rid of tmr. thats it. hmm... i realy hope i wont get too soft hearted though.. =/ haiz..
oh then.. hm.. might have some prob ne.. sam might be getting a job.. and if i go there, he might have no time to spend with me.. :(
i mena. .the main purpose for me to be there is to have a great enjoyable holiday(my first time oversea like this), plus to see him. yeah.. its to see him.. well.. .. =/ i dunno.. gonna wait for a reply i guess.. but theres no way.. definitely no way imma stay at home and not go anywhere to have fun for 5 days a week. but i know myself that its kinda dangerous for me to head out alone and. yeah.. -_- duh.. ION shopping mall in singapore i can get lost. much less other place. but. when theres a will, theres a way. sure can get back home safely somehow. yup. tough maybe. but what to do ne. so.. well.. hm.. =/ see how things go bah..
i know he'd been trying to find a job. so.. .. .=/ o well.......
worse to worse.. ... hm.... just .. ..sigh.. nah.. cant worse to worse.. this might be my only trip.. i cant afford to miss out anything.. really wanna enjoy lots.. so.. yup. better start to learn my way just in case. ha.. ..o well............. look up into the sky for directions.. ... ha
ok..then.. atlas.. my buscard.. huu... T_T lost... i lost it! huu.. im pretty sure its in my shop.. but.. :( haiyoooo inside the card still got plenty of money ne.. huu.. :( haiz. what to do
my fren nisa.. haiyo.... ... her ex been calling her a few times.. her current bf picked up the phone that time. ask him not to call again.. but still he keep on calling. today. .she had a fight with her bf. angry cos he suddenly say not picking him up. hm.. come to think of it.. i think sammy last min also did that before.. guys.. haha. but me never angry at him once. im pretty sure. hmm.... lol.
anyway, she's so angry. then he angry too. never msg each other. jsut then, her ex called she picked up.. then blah3.. they decidede to meet tonight. ..haiz... duno la.. she.... ..hmm.. =/ worry about her a lil.. but... ..o well.............
hm... .. i guess.... .. hm. .even though she broke up with him.. she still cant give him up. somemore he never give up... waiting to get back with her. ..so tonight. .well.. he got his wishes. so.. hm.. ..o well.. =/ hope she know what she's doing....
haiz. hope the poor guy wont get hurt.. he seems so nice... =/ i hope her choice is good. she say.. she still love her ex.. but he's in jb.. so.. ..hm.... ..
gosh.. my neck hurts.. so tired and sleepy today.. no heart to work.. =/
sales finally pick up at near closing. phew.. otherwise another trouble to face when meet the bosses tmr.
ouch. my shoulders.. huu.. need massage... >_<
hmm... really cant wait for the day for me to stay at home, clean and cook. :) ahh.. nice!! ^^
hm.. k.. hoping everything will go well tmr. and asap let time flies..
mata
first.. i guess i got no choice but to go meet my boss up tmr morning.. huu... early morning. .waste my time:(
hm. feeling nervous though.. . haiz. just wanna get it over with, and look forward to my off. get rid of tmr. thats it. hmm... i realy hope i wont get too soft hearted though.. =/ haiz..
oh then.. hm.. might have some prob ne.. sam might be getting a job.. and if i go there, he might have no time to spend with me.. :(
i mena. .the main purpose for me to be there is to have a great enjoyable holiday(my first time oversea like this), plus to see him. yeah.. its to see him.. well.. .. =/ i dunno.. gonna wait for a reply i guess.. but theres no way.. definitely no way imma stay at home and not go anywhere to have fun for 5 days a week. but i know myself that its kinda dangerous for me to head out alone and. yeah.. -_- duh.. ION shopping mall in singapore i can get lost. much less other place. but. when theres a will, theres a way. sure can get back home safely somehow. yup. tough maybe. but what to do ne. so.. well.. hm.. =/ see how things go bah..
i know he'd been trying to find a job. so.. .. .=/ o well.......
worse to worse.. ... hm.... just .. ..sigh.. nah.. cant worse to worse.. this might be my only trip.. i cant afford to miss out anything.. really wanna enjoy lots.. so.. yup. better start to learn my way just in case. ha.. ..o well............. look up into the sky for directions.. ... ha
ok..then.. atlas.. my buscard.. huu... T_T lost... i lost it! huu.. im pretty sure its in my shop.. but.. :( haiyoooo inside the card still got plenty of money ne.. huu.. :( haiz. what to do
my fren nisa.. haiyo.... ... her ex been calling her a few times.. her current bf picked up the phone that time. ask him not to call again.. but still he keep on calling. today. .she had a fight with her bf. angry cos he suddenly say not picking him up. hm.. come to think of it.. i think sammy last min also did that before.. guys.. haha. but me never angry at him once. im pretty sure. hmm.... lol.
anyway, she's so angry. then he angry too. never msg each other. jsut then, her ex called she picked up.. then blah3.. they decidede to meet tonight. ..haiz... duno la.. she.... ..hmm.. =/ worry about her a lil.. but... ..o well.............
hm... .. i guess.... .. hm. .even though she broke up with him.. she still cant give him up. somemore he never give up... waiting to get back with her. ..so tonight. .well.. he got his wishes. so.. hm.. ..o well.. =/ hope she know what she's doing....
haiz. hope the poor guy wont get hurt.. he seems so nice... =/ i hope her choice is good. she say.. she still love her ex.. but he's in jb.. so.. ..hm.... ..
gosh.. my neck hurts.. so tired and sleepy today.. no heart to work.. =/
sales finally pick up at near closing. phew.. otherwise another trouble to face when meet the bosses tmr.
ouch. my shoulders.. huu.. need massage... >_<
hmm... really cant wait for the day for me to stay at home, clean and cook. :) ahh.. nice!! ^^
hm.. k.. hoping everything will go well tmr. and asap let time flies..
mata
08 November 2009
Age Doesn't Matter ;)
hmm... ok..... just... now a lil excited.. wonder if it works though..
my bro.. got this mp 4 player from his fren as a birthday gift afew years back. dunno why, i suddenly thought of it, and ask my bro if he using it anot. he had never open that up before. brand new. he say no. then i ask if i may have it. he say ok.
then yeah.. so happy. :) i might not be getting a new one after all if this one works. :)
hm.. transferring songs now.. yeah.. hoping it works.. =/
nisa drop by my house just now.. had dinner together.. wow. .she's so brave.. ask for more noodles for my behalf.. O.O haha..
yeah.. noodles like half portions only >_<
yeah.. she drop by to upload some photos to her web. her sis wont let her use her line or something. so.. yeah. haha.
then all this while i was tlaking to sammy on the phone. ha
hm.. i had mee kuah.. gosh.. ever since sam left,.. i've not eaten there any more.. :(
hm.....
so.. well today .. its kinda exciting i guess... i might be staying in a hotel for 3nights in sydney.
we shall see how things go :) . sound really nice to me though. hehe.
wow.. today neevr auto wakey early. :) yay...
was so sleepy. now also.. cant wait to sleep after bloggy.. yup.
wow. .talked to sam over the phone for an hour today. haha... :) nice^^
his laughter always the best.
hm.. yeah.. miss sam alot..
wow.. one month plus to go... hm.. counting down.. ..
lol. my fren's classmate, about 19yrs old or 18.. came to my shop. my fren ask her to guess my age. she say 18. lol. thanks ar. hahaha...
but.. i dunno ne.. i think my family got the blood. of ppl looking young. that wedding i attended, yeah he look so good too. even another relative was commenting on how he look like a boy boy. lol. :P
that day this guy at the bbq, he's 26b or 25. but he look like soo yoing like a student! like 21! omg. was so shocked to know his age. but we both agree. looking young can have some probs. ppl tend not to trust u alot. especially at work. o well...
only we know how that feels bah.. =/
hm.. k.. done with the songs.. tmr will check if it works.. hoping so.. then will be yeah.. :)
... hm... miss him........
..counting down to the days.. from 3, 4months.. counting down till now....
..hang on..
mata
my bro.. got this mp 4 player from his fren as a birthday gift afew years back. dunno why, i suddenly thought of it, and ask my bro if he using it anot. he had never open that up before. brand new. he say no. then i ask if i may have it. he say ok.
then yeah.. so happy. :) i might not be getting a new one after all if this one works. :)
hm.. transferring songs now.. yeah.. hoping it works.. =/
nisa drop by my house just now.. had dinner together.. wow. .she's so brave.. ask for more noodles for my behalf.. O.O haha..
yeah.. noodles like half portions only >_<
yeah.. she drop by to upload some photos to her web. her sis wont let her use her line or something. so.. yeah. haha.
then all this while i was tlaking to sammy on the phone. ha
hm.. i had mee kuah.. gosh.. ever since sam left,.. i've not eaten there any more.. :(
hm.....
so.. well today .. its kinda exciting i guess... i might be staying in a hotel for 3nights in sydney.
we shall see how things go :) . sound really nice to me though. hehe.
wow.. today neevr auto wakey early. :) yay...
was so sleepy. now also.. cant wait to sleep after bloggy.. yup.
wow. .talked to sam over the phone for an hour today. haha... :) nice^^
his laughter always the best.
hm.. yeah.. miss sam alot..
wow.. one month plus to go... hm.. counting down.. ..
lol. my fren's classmate, about 19yrs old or 18.. came to my shop. my fren ask her to guess my age. she say 18. lol. thanks ar. hahaha...
but.. i dunno ne.. i think my family got the blood. of ppl looking young. that wedding i attended, yeah he look so good too. even another relative was commenting on how he look like a boy boy. lol. :P
that day this guy at the bbq, he's 26b or 25. but he look like soo yoing like a student! like 21! omg. was so shocked to know his age. but we both agree. looking young can have some probs. ppl tend not to trust u alot. especially at work. o well...
only we know how that feels bah.. =/
hm.. k.. done with the songs.. tmr will check if it works.. hoping so.. then will be yeah.. :)
... hm... miss him........
..counting down to the days.. from 3, 4months.. counting down till now....
..hang on..
mata
07 November 2009
Birthday BBQ
too tired.. so missed out on bloggy..
erm..
lets see..
realized my memory is getting worse.. ha. a fren asked me what did i don on my weekend few days back. and my mind, guess what.its totally blank. i cant evem recall what i'd done.. or where i've been. working what shifts.. gosh.. really bad eh.. =/
hm... theres this fren of mine say to me.. face to face. that he like me. i think thats the first time someone ever dare to express their feelings to me in person. but.. =/ o well... its not meant to be. so.. no.. ..
I love sammy chan. ^^
lol.. that day i was in the ladies with my fren. i was lookign in the mirror, making my hair.. she suddenly say.. i look so innocent doing that. Lol XD!! am i?? hahaha... i dunno...
if sam saw, i think maybe he go awww... lol. but.. haha.. maybe that day its my exxpression or what la. hahaha.geez
omg.. a new phone is out. the phone i've been waiting for. really dunno what colour to choose.
but.. well... gosh.. love it :) freaking cant wait to own it:D
hehehe...
yeah.. the phone im currently using now is giving me some probs.. especially the keypad,, always got trouble. argh.. can make u type wrong.
hm. ..or perhaps i type too fast. ..
wow.. last night attended my fren's birthday bbq party. lots of food. really worried when we cant seem to start the fire for over an hour.
hm.. long story..
din expect to have so many ppl there.
hm.. but ok.. some of them jokes.. so.. yup.. not too awkward the atmosphere.
soon.. one by one gone. .and i swear to god.. i really didnt know the time is so late!! we left in the morning!! huu... i really thought that by 11 or 12 plus i can get back. so.. well.. he's happy.
and atlas..
ha
i almost fall into the dark sea...
hm....
...was crying out loud.. ..
at the sea there...
=/
.. o well
feel bad though.. to let my frens worry.. =/
sorry.. and thanks guys.
ah.. talked to sam twice already for today :)
hehe.. he sounded so happy over the phone. awww....:) yeah.. really wish he could be like that everyday. that suits him the most. and one of the best thing to love about him :)
kawaii.. laugh so much today.. he must be smiling big.. i know:)
hm.........
...wow.. what a night. .never look at the time. lost track of it.. but really whats important is the birthday boy is happy.
ah.. yes.. my first time bbq at east coast.. ha.. even washed chicken at the bowling toilet basins just to defroze the wings. haha. o well..
left with camping with a tent there.. never done before.. ha.
ah... my first time see how the ppl trying to set up the bbq.. start fire.. me even help to wrap some of the food..
yeah.. nice...
mata
erm..
lets see..
realized my memory is getting worse.. ha. a fren asked me what did i don on my weekend few days back. and my mind, guess what.its totally blank. i cant evem recall what i'd done.. or where i've been. working what shifts.. gosh.. really bad eh.. =/
hm... theres this fren of mine say to me.. face to face. that he like me. i think thats the first time someone ever dare to express their feelings to me in person. but.. =/ o well... its not meant to be. so.. no.. ..
I love sammy chan. ^^
lol.. that day i was in the ladies with my fren. i was lookign in the mirror, making my hair.. she suddenly say.. i look so innocent doing that. Lol XD!! am i?? hahaha... i dunno...
if sam saw, i think maybe he go awww... lol. but.. haha.. maybe that day its my exxpression or what la. hahaha.geez
omg.. a new phone is out. the phone i've been waiting for. really dunno what colour to choose.
but.. well... gosh.. love it :) freaking cant wait to own it:D
hehehe...
yeah.. the phone im currently using now is giving me some probs.. especially the keypad,, always got trouble. argh.. can make u type wrong.
hm. ..or perhaps i type too fast. ..
wow.. last night attended my fren's birthday bbq party. lots of food. really worried when we cant seem to start the fire for over an hour.
hm.. long story..
din expect to have so many ppl there.
hm.. but ok.. some of them jokes.. so.. yup.. not too awkward the atmosphere.
soon.. one by one gone. .and i swear to god.. i really didnt know the time is so late!! we left in the morning!! huu... i really thought that by 11 or 12 plus i can get back. so.. well.. he's happy.
and atlas..
ha
i almost fall into the dark sea...
hm....
...was crying out loud.. ..
at the sea there...
=/
.. o well
feel bad though.. to let my frens worry.. =/
sorry.. and thanks guys.
ah.. talked to sam twice already for today :)
hehe.. he sounded so happy over the phone. awww....:) yeah.. really wish he could be like that everyday. that suits him the most. and one of the best thing to love about him :)
kawaii.. laugh so much today.. he must be smiling big.. i know:)
hm.........
...wow.. what a night. .never look at the time. lost track of it.. but really whats important is the birthday boy is happy.
ah.. yes.. my first time bbq at east coast.. ha.. even washed chicken at the bowling toilet basins just to defroze the wings. haha. o well..
left with camping with a tent there.. never done before.. ha.
ah... my first time see how the ppl trying to set up the bbq.. start fire.. me even help to wrap some of the food..
yeah.. nice...
mata
05 November 2009
Important Or So
pretty upset today.. perhaps i never say it all.. perhaps i was too naive or foolish..
i think.. yeah.. really foolish. this is the reason why im so upset.. because i let myself 'in' again.
..was feeling sleepy the whole day..
.. couldnt really fall aslp..
the only thing in mind is waiting to call up someone important.
its boring today.. very..
then theres disturbing huggies want anot msgs from his fren. i know its nothing.. but.. u know.. i guess girls sometimes still feel uncomfortable no matter what.
sometimes i really dislike facebook. they're right. .it can lead to bad things to happen cos of websites like this.
i never get to call up straight away.. i think i know why.. but don wanna ask..
so.. ..
o well.
i thought this call was important to me. i didnt know if its ever the same on the other side..
whats there to be afraid i wonder.. but i never ask.. just pondering.. whats so.. ..secretive..
am i so dark..
that i cant be shown to the light..?
im not that worthless right..
but .. truth's out.. i know whats the reason.. but..
now.. here i am.. .. quiet rainey day..
...now.. again.. waiting to call...
feels a lil different now..
hunger is gone too..
but..
yeah..
waiting for a dinner later..
so wanting to cook.. but.. mum cant have meats today.. so..
deostn feel like having anything.. but will force myself to.. ..no worries..
me.. tried out new dish. its raw herrings. kinda yummy. my fren recommended them to me. so.. yup. so difficult to get them though. longgg way.
o well.. what a day huh..
so... here i am.. blogging..
before dinner..
cold..
dead
mata
i think.. yeah.. really foolish. this is the reason why im so upset.. because i let myself 'in' again.
..was feeling sleepy the whole day..
.. couldnt really fall aslp..
the only thing in mind is waiting to call up someone important.
its boring today.. very..
then theres disturbing huggies want anot msgs from his fren. i know its nothing.. but.. u know.. i guess girls sometimes still feel uncomfortable no matter what.
sometimes i really dislike facebook. they're right. .it can lead to bad things to happen cos of websites like this.
i never get to call up straight away.. i think i know why.. but don wanna ask..
so.. ..
o well.
i thought this call was important to me. i didnt know if its ever the same on the other side..
whats there to be afraid i wonder.. but i never ask.. just pondering.. whats so.. ..secretive..
am i so dark..
that i cant be shown to the light..?
im not that worthless right..
but .. truth's out.. i know whats the reason.. but..
now.. here i am.. .. quiet rainey day..
...now.. again.. waiting to call...
feels a lil different now..
hunger is gone too..
but..
yeah..
waiting for a dinner later..
so wanting to cook.. but.. mum cant have meats today.. so..
deostn feel like having anything.. but will force myself to.. ..no worries..
me.. tried out new dish. its raw herrings. kinda yummy. my fren recommended them to me. so.. yup. so difficult to get them though. longgg way.
o well.. what a day huh..
so... here i am.. blogging..
before dinner..
cold..
dead
mata
04 November 2009
Baby My Foot
i don belive in.. everything thing or problems gotta be told to best frens.
i belive in talking about the right matters , with the right ppl.
i guess im more of eh.. ... pissed off right now thinking back what mansoor said to me in the afternoon. i know his difficulties. but!! that aint my prob too isnt it. '...u're not a baby anymore.'
well mannered, i wont shoot him back.
i understand his position.
but for ppl to say that, i freakingly HATE it to the core!!
i know who i am.
and i know what im supposed to do.
that is his own probs. not mine.
wth!!
geez!! i need nobody tell me that! i HATE it when ppl treat me like a kid.
i may be blur. but im a grown up too. ok.. just grown up. so??
i need ppl's love and care. not this kind of a .. what??!
argh,,....
whatever.
..
doesnt wish to talk to him for now. anyway my off day.. so.. yeah. .gonna relax.. enjoy it.. whatever it..
hm..
totally tired and sleepy today.. :( really3 wish to go home straight after work.. but.. o well..
=/ already agreed,.. so..
..
tch..
cant wait to quit.. i couldnt care less anything regarding work now..
its late.. i've yet to slp.. though yes tired.. but.. .. haiz.
..=/
i don know.. if there's anything too late to.. ...
i wish i could join in some part of fun with bro and redz... they're staying in hotel for 2 nights.. ..
..
i wish i could be a part of it.. .
:(
kinda.. . =/
.. feel really left out.. by my own family.
mata
i belive in talking about the right matters , with the right ppl.
i guess im more of eh.. ... pissed off right now thinking back what mansoor said to me in the afternoon. i know his difficulties. but!! that aint my prob too isnt it. '...u're not a baby anymore.'
well mannered, i wont shoot him back.
i understand his position.
but for ppl to say that, i freakingly HATE it to the core!!
i know who i am.
and i know what im supposed to do.
that is his own probs. not mine.
wth!!
geez!! i need nobody tell me that! i HATE it when ppl treat me like a kid.
i may be blur. but im a grown up too. ok.. just grown up. so??
i need ppl's love and care. not this kind of a .. what??!
argh,,....
whatever.
..
doesnt wish to talk to him for now. anyway my off day.. so.. yeah. .gonna relax.. enjoy it.. whatever it..
hm..
totally tired and sleepy today.. :( really3 wish to go home straight after work.. but.. o well..
=/ already agreed,.. so..
..
tch..
cant wait to quit.. i couldnt care less anything regarding work now..
its late.. i've yet to slp.. though yes tired.. but.. .. haiz.
..=/
i don know.. if there's anything too late to.. ...
i wish i could join in some part of fun with bro and redz... they're staying in hotel for 2 nights.. ..
..
i wish i could be a part of it.. .
:(
kinda.. . =/
.. feel really left out.. by my own family.
mata
03 November 2009
Towards A New Year
gosh.. sleepy from morning till now.. -_- need to slp asap..
hm.. i think im feeling better now..
wasnt so hours ago.. ..
hm
perhaps too sleepy i think.. .. =/
tch..
oh. .tmr.. hm. .guess i just gotta act as though i forgot morning i must be in the office then.. argh.. so tired to go there -_-
hm...
.. u know.. things are getting abit .. just a lil bit easier when i try not to think or focus too much on one thing.. but once something trigger me to do so, ahh.. breaking loose again.. =/ haiz.
.. i think its better this way now.. but.. .i dunno. .sometimes i feel like i do not want any regrets..
..tough eh.. .. haiz.. ..
i need my time to think.. probably next year.. .
hm..........
its quiet now.. .. =/
... i still cant feel much love from my family sometimes.. especially my bro.. we used to be so close. :(
even my aunties.. they've always love my bro more i think.. not that i mind but... sometimes i don think my existent matters. kinda sux really when u think about it.. hm..
but o well... i don care about them one bit. if not for my parents, i would've ignore them totally.
i've always wanted.. close relatives to u know.. keep in contact with. .especially like my malay frens.. keeping in contact with other cousins.. hm.. =/ o well.. its alrite.. i don need them i guess..
i have sammy and other frens. and my mum.
sometimes i can get pretty lonely. but..
well.. i always got my lappy here.. and someone important.
sigh..
alot on my mind. i try not to think about it too much.. i dunno.. i wanna see whats the outcome when 2010 arrived..
for now.. just go with the flow..
..whatever happen, happens.. through my holiday.. its more than just that.
its a important trip.
important matters to be.. u know.
so.. yeah...
towards the end of year.. ..hm...
pretty good i hope?
lifestyle's abit upside down sometimes.. but... i will get my way back.. i will.
focus less, worry less.
..hm..
k. .just wanna enjoy my week.. next week aint gonna be that fun.
mata
hm.. i think im feeling better now..
wasnt so hours ago.. ..
hm
perhaps too sleepy i think.. .. =/
tch..
oh. .tmr.. hm. .guess i just gotta act as though i forgot morning i must be in the office then.. argh.. so tired to go there -_-
hm...
.. u know.. things are getting abit .. just a lil bit easier when i try not to think or focus too much on one thing.. but once something trigger me to do so, ahh.. breaking loose again.. =/ haiz.
.. i think its better this way now.. but.. .i dunno. .sometimes i feel like i do not want any regrets..
..tough eh.. .. haiz.. ..
i need my time to think.. probably next year.. .
hm..........
its quiet now.. .. =/
... i still cant feel much love from my family sometimes.. especially my bro.. we used to be so close. :(
even my aunties.. they've always love my bro more i think.. not that i mind but... sometimes i don think my existent matters. kinda sux really when u think about it.. hm..
but o well... i don care about them one bit. if not for my parents, i would've ignore them totally.
i've always wanted.. close relatives to u know.. keep in contact with. .especially like my malay frens.. keeping in contact with other cousins.. hm.. =/ o well.. its alrite.. i don need them i guess..
i have sammy and other frens. and my mum.
sometimes i can get pretty lonely. but..
well.. i always got my lappy here.. and someone important.
sigh..
alot on my mind. i try not to think about it too much.. i dunno.. i wanna see whats the outcome when 2010 arrived..
for now.. just go with the flow..
..whatever happen, happens.. through my holiday.. its more than just that.
its a important trip.
important matters to be.. u know.
so.. yeah...
towards the end of year.. ..hm...
pretty good i hope?
lifestyle's abit upside down sometimes.. but... i will get my way back.. i will.
focus less, worry less.
..hm..
k. .just wanna enjoy my week.. next week aint gonna be that fun.
mata
02 November 2009
Sleepy!!
arghhhh... :( sux man!! today feeling so angry.. arghhh
tch..
aint a good day dude. sigh
:(
wed.. gotta meet up with boss.. that, i do not care one bit. just wondering how to turn him down.
i can turn down once. but not thrice.. ... i dunno.. shall see.. ..
\feeling better since last night.. .yeah. .the wedding thingy..
hm.. ....
oh sammy was telling me about this matter.. about asking a fren to sms me.. then his fren never did.
.. i don like the sound of that. if my fren did that, i'll so darn pissed off. i trusted him or her to deliver the msg, yet.. i mean like.. wth. i don think its a matter to be let go of easily.
..
..argh.. i must be going outta my mind.. too sleepy i guess.. :( look at what im saying now.. sigh..
im angry.. im sleepy.. abit tired.. geez.. .. :(
kk.. i'd better here. :(
been long since im sleepy like this..
mata
tch..
aint a good day dude. sigh
:(
wed.. gotta meet up with boss.. that, i do not care one bit. just wondering how to turn him down.
i can turn down once. but not thrice.. ... i dunno.. shall see.. ..
\feeling better since last night.. .yeah. .the wedding thingy..
hm.. ....
oh sammy was telling me about this matter.. about asking a fren to sms me.. then his fren never did.
.. i don like the sound of that. if my fren did that, i'll so darn pissed off. i trusted him or her to deliver the msg, yet.. i mean like.. wth. i don think its a matter to be let go of easily.
..
..argh.. i must be going outta my mind.. too sleepy i guess.. :( look at what im saying now.. sigh..
im angry.. im sleepy.. abit tired.. geez.. .. :(
kk.. i'd better here. :(
been long since im sleepy like this..
mata
01 November 2009
Wedding Heartfelt Moments
ok... so.. didnt expect the wedding dinenr to end so late.. at 11pm..
hm... been feeling so sleepy and tired the whole day.. =/...
but kidna lookign forward to the wedding dinner..
and for the first time in my life,.. sigh.. i didnt know that it has such a huge impact on me..
they were playing the videos.. and the pics.. yeah the wedding pics.. over and over again... over an hour.. and during dinner.. it was soo well taken. i like it. classy. abit funny. cute. natural. elegant. cool. pretty so darn real nice:) really2 nice .because they;re so loving. i eman teh body actions. poses.. wow. :) so... aww.....
..yeah.. .. i felt a sense of loss so sudden.. .. :(
..
sighhhhhhhhhh
yeah. all becos of the pics. reminded me of so much.. ..
both of them look great in pics. the girl not so pretty in person. but yeah.. my cousin, look really young. he's 26. yeah. perfect time for marriage i guess. ha.. look so nice together both of them.
..hm...
=/ o well....
looking at their phtots.. beautiful.. just brings me lots of memories.. .. ......
sigh
..
erm.. so basically.. hm... ok. .peaceful night.. the service sux.. food not that great.. nice place though. decorations too. the stage looks great when they toasted each other, theres this curtain open up and revealed this erm.. nice background. anyway, yup.. its nice decor.
hm...
i think i missed out something.. couldnt remember.. .hm..
anyway yup. .thats all folks.
haiyo.. hungry already.. din eat alot there...
the months ahead gonna be tough.
....argh
mata
hm... been feeling so sleepy and tired the whole day.. =/...
but kidna lookign forward to the wedding dinner..
and for the first time in my life,.. sigh.. i didnt know that it has such a huge impact on me..
they were playing the videos.. and the pics.. yeah the wedding pics.. over and over again... over an hour.. and during dinner.. it was soo well taken. i like it. classy. abit funny. cute. natural. elegant. cool. pretty so darn real nice:) really2 nice .because they;re so loving. i eman teh body actions. poses.. wow. :) so... aww.....
..yeah.. .. i felt a sense of loss so sudden.. .. :(
..
sighhhhhhhhhh
yeah. all becos of the pics. reminded me of so much.. ..
both of them look great in pics. the girl not so pretty in person. but yeah.. my cousin, look really young. he's 26. yeah. perfect time for marriage i guess. ha.. look so nice together both of them.
..hm...
=/ o well....
looking at their phtots.. beautiful.. just brings me lots of memories.. .. ......
sigh
..
erm.. so basically.. hm... ok. .peaceful night.. the service sux.. food not that great.. nice place though. decorations too. the stage looks great when they toasted each other, theres this curtain open up and revealed this erm.. nice background. anyway, yup.. its nice decor.
hm...
i think i missed out something.. couldnt remember.. .hm..
anyway yup. .thats all folks.
haiyo.. hungry already.. din eat alot there...
the months ahead gonna be tough.
....argh
mata
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