sighes..dunno why. .todya feels liek in need of someone to tlak with... =/
sighs........
anyway, so tired. but managed to get m closet sorted iut eh. so tired and sneexing all the way. so sick man. omg.
sighs...
very sianz.. ..ha. ..
o well... sighs........
wonder if frens words are true.. i fu want somehinng, u'll go fo rit. doesnt matter what they say.. but u'll just go for it.. no excuses..
come to think of it.. yea... i dunno why should i even care..
ha.. o well.. sighs...... feeling so terrible now.. =/ tch...
just not sure.. u know.. what to do.. or how to go...
o well, btw, just check out the tix man., wow. so tempting. im thinking should i pay for the tix now man. omg. yea.. im definitely thinking of getting them now. but somehow unsure.. ...=/ so yea.. i may need ur opnions on this. so yea..
gosh. cant wait for this long aawaited holiday man. and its so cheap to head to melb from syd. im thinking of tha paln too. somemroe i might not even hacve to pay for my accomdation. so yea. i dunno. but we shall see.... haiz... sometimes staying for one week at syd also nothing much to do =.= sianz..stores all closes sooo early. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
=.= what to do.. but anwyay.. yea.
omg. should i get now, or just wait a month or two alter/?? = / sighs.. i dunno ma.. such a delima. .=(
tch...!! haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz see howba.. gosh.. so difficult =(
i nreally need more advice and solutios on this. but such a great deaal man.. .933!! compared to last min purchase of mine las tyea at 1200 almost 1300 =.='' haiz. nvm ba
so eya....
sighs. .guees he slpgin now eh.. alk to u guys here ba..
feel so sad and tired.. o welll.........
haiz.. .
tch. dunno what to say ba...
last night .watched last night show.. pochantos.. omg. i hate that show. like the songs. but not show. kinda forced into watchign. but o well. nvm. anwyay yea. i hate her. alwyas refrained mysefl from watching.. =/ till now. finally get to watch the show sighs. just dont like her. somemore in 2nd series, she fall in love with another guy poor js. =/ sighs. .i jsut dislike the show man. .sighs. sad. yet so anguish.. argvh. hate her.
really feel like crying out loud now........
no support.. no nothing...... ... so tired. just fatique and darkness lurking. uncertainties.. tell me. .what shold i do......
sometimes no will to carry moving on..
it is so tiring when ther aint nothign to look forward to...
sighs.......
..... perhpas i just need a break from this crazy lifestyle huh.. but i cant even have one yet. ...
so difficult to breathe sometimes... sighes.
tired.. so tired.
and oh so nice. .my collegague bf picked her up from work... missed those days eh.... ha.. o.........well................
mata
31 May 2011
30 May 2011
where and who am i
mm.... really glad today is over.. sighs.. finally.... gosh.. dunno waht tmr will bring.. but owell.. .enjoy this moment fo rnow ba.. ..
haiz...
i guess ever since he's gone, i am looking for myself eh. so weird. sometimes dunno .. like. .felt so weird to be me. like. .i don even seems to be me. i dunno haiz. just weird feeling ba. ..o well... i guess..i am still serching eh..
last week or so, i went out.. this auntie commented that my face look very pretty. very sweet face look(lian heng tian) . LOL. guess what. i would rather hear such compliments from aunties, and yea.. better than to hear it form guys. at least u know aunties words are real. for guys, =.= duhhhhh compliment u with motives only..(some ) haha.
but yea. i like that auntie now. lol. XD
haiz.. so many couples.. went to supermarket.. couples walked past me. .somemore, the song is playing parting sad songs... how do i live without u... and another one.. omg. its like.. dotsssssss....... i walked abit, then hurried out fast. cant stand it man -_-
argh
sighs.. don feel happy .tch =/ maybe im too tired huh. ..ow ell
gosh. so many staffs leaving . all chinese btw =.= and.. yea. let me and another staff chinese. but the chinese one leavin ga month later. huuu... sad sia =/
i really hope new manager will be a nice chinese. there are too many malays. how are we gonna handle for hari raya?? omg. somemore.. seriously.. i find that chineses are really good with working.. sorry. but thats just how it is. the malays. .ok.. but not proactive enough =/ haiz..
o well. k ba. forget about work for now..
mm... sia la.. really cant be happy desu.
amybe too tired only ba huh?
so sianz and lazy to do anything else... cos at work too busy and with so many thigs to do. at home only wanna rot . lol. o well...
bahh..... like that ba.. don feel liek myself ne. okok.. must be too tired huh. o well
oh, kungfu panda 2 is such a greattttttttttt movieeeeeeeeee .wow =D totally awesome. so much more awesome.. and at the end, hehe.. hint of 3rd movie story line is out.. *whistles... haha
hai.z lost so many good chinese staffs.. =/ o well.. kk... gota stop about work man..
mata
haiz...
i guess ever since he's gone, i am looking for myself eh. so weird. sometimes dunno .. like. .felt so weird to be me. like. .i don even seems to be me. i dunno haiz. just weird feeling ba. ..o well... i guess..i am still serching eh..
last week or so, i went out.. this auntie commented that my face look very pretty. very sweet face look(lian heng tian) . LOL. guess what. i would rather hear such compliments from aunties, and yea.. better than to hear it form guys. at least u know aunties words are real. for guys, =.= duhhhhh compliment u with motives only..(some ) haha.
but yea. i like that auntie now. lol. XD
haiz.. so many couples.. went to supermarket.. couples walked past me. .somemore, the song is playing parting sad songs... how do i live without u... and another one.. omg. its like.. dotsssssss....... i walked abit, then hurried out fast. cant stand it man -_-
argh
sighs.. don feel happy .tch =/ maybe im too tired huh. ..ow ell
gosh. so many staffs leaving . all chinese btw =.= and.. yea. let me and another staff chinese. but the chinese one leavin ga month later. huuu... sad sia =/
i really hope new manager will be a nice chinese. there are too many malays. how are we gonna handle for hari raya?? omg. somemore.. seriously.. i find that chineses are really good with working.. sorry. but thats just how it is. the malays. .ok.. but not proactive enough =/ haiz..
o well. k ba. forget about work for now..
mm... sia la.. really cant be happy desu.
amybe too tired only ba huh?
so sianz and lazy to do anything else... cos at work too busy and with so many thigs to do. at home only wanna rot . lol. o well...
bahh..... like that ba.. don feel liek myself ne. okok.. must be too tired huh. o well
oh, kungfu panda 2 is such a greattttttttttt movieeeeeeeeee .wow =D totally awesome. so much more awesome.. and at the end, hehe.. hint of 3rd movie story line is out.. *whistles... haha
hai.z lost so many good chinese staffs.. =/ o well.. kk... gota stop about work man..
mata
where and who am i
mm.... really glad today is over.. sighs.. finally.... gosh.. dunno waht tmr will bring.. but owell.. .enjoy this moment fo rnow ba.. ..
haiz...
i guess ever since he's gone, i am looking for myself eh. so weird. sometimes dunno .. like. .felt so weird to be me. like. .i don even seems to be me. i dunno haiz. just weird feeling ba. ..o well... i guess..i am still serching eh..
last week or so, i went out.. this auntie commented that my face look very pretty. very sweet face look(lian heng tian) . LOL. guess what. i would rather hear such compliments from aunties, and yea.. better than to hear it form guys. at least u know aunties words are real. for guys, =.= duhhhhh compliment u with motives only..(some ) haha.
but yea. i like that auntie now. lol. XD
haiz.. so many couples.. went to supermarket.. couples walked past me. .somemore, the song is playing parting sad songs... how do i live without u... and another one.. omg. its like.. dotsssssss....... i walked abit, then hurried out fast. cant stand it man -_-
argh
sighs.. don feel happy .tch =/ maybe im too tired huh. ..ow ell
gosh. so many staffs leaving . all chinese btw =.= and.. yea. let me and another staff chinese. but the chinese one leavin ga month later. huuu... sad sia =/
i really hope new manager will be a nice chinese. there are too many malays. how are we gonna handle for hari raya?? omg. somemore.. seriously.. i find that chineses are really good with working.. sorry. but thats just how it is. the malays. .ok.. but not proactive enough =/ haiz..
o well. k ba. forget about work for now..
mm... sia la.. really cant be happy desu.
amybe too tired only ba huh?
so sianz and lazy to do anything else... cos at work too busy and with so many thigs to do. at home only wanna rot . lol. o well...
bahh..... like that ba.. don feel liek myself ne. okok.. must be too tired huh. o well
oh, kungfu panda 2 is such a greattttttttttt movieeeeeeeeee .wow =D totally awesome. so much more awesome.. and at the end, hehe.. hint of 3rd movie story line is out.. *whistles... haha
hai.z lost so many good chinese staffs.. =/ o well.. kk... gota stop about work man..
mata
haiz...
i guess ever since he's gone, i am looking for myself eh. so weird. sometimes dunno .. like. .felt so weird to be me. like. .i don even seems to be me. i dunno haiz. just weird feeling ba. ..o well... i guess..i am still serching eh..
last week or so, i went out.. this auntie commented that my face look very pretty. very sweet face look(lian heng tian) . LOL. guess what. i would rather hear such compliments from aunties, and yea.. better than to hear it form guys. at least u know aunties words are real. for guys, =.= duhhhhh compliment u with motives only..(some ) haha.
but yea. i like that auntie now. lol. XD
haiz.. so many couples.. went to supermarket.. couples walked past me. .somemore, the song is playing parting sad songs... how do i live without u... and another one.. omg. its like.. dotsssssss....... i walked abit, then hurried out fast. cant stand it man -_-
argh
sighs.. don feel happy .tch =/ maybe im too tired huh. ..ow ell
gosh. so many staffs leaving . all chinese btw =.= and.. yea. let me and another staff chinese. but the chinese one leavin ga month later. huuu... sad sia =/
i really hope new manager will be a nice chinese. there are too many malays. how are we gonna handle for hari raya?? omg. somemore.. seriously.. i find that chineses are really good with working.. sorry. but thats just how it is. the malays. .ok.. but not proactive enough =/ haiz..
o well. k ba. forget about work for now..
mm... sia la.. really cant be happy desu.
amybe too tired only ba huh?
so sianz and lazy to do anything else... cos at work too busy and with so many thigs to do. at home only wanna rot . lol. o well...
bahh..... like that ba.. don feel liek myself ne. okok.. must be too tired huh. o well
oh, kungfu panda 2 is such a greattttttttttt movieeeeeeeeee .wow =D totally awesome. so much more awesome.. and at the end, hehe.. hint of 3rd movie story line is out.. *whistles... haha
hai.z lost so many good chinese staffs.. =/ o well.. kk... gota stop about work man..
mata
28 May 2011
Biggest life's regrets
i guess... sometimes its like really awkward.. when u know.. i decied to give him a one last sort of gift. very close to heart one. just weird.. becos.. well.. he's not with me anymore.. so yea.. but still.. i don like the feeling of any regrets.. somemore.. ..just wanted to give my best.. to somebody i love most while i still can. so yea/ . no regrets of why not doing it. funny feeling though.. rrly weird.. ha... but yea... why not. to the first and last man. its ok ba. ..so yea.. was so dang shy .. omg. but.. well.. its all worth it i guess. take it while i still can afford to. ha
mm.. anyway... wow. today not feeling so well ne. but throughout after break.. and so.. then better alreayd. but yea. no mood to work today. well, still have to. then in the end , yea.. like that lor .
sighs... mm..
just feel like sleeping.. the only peaceful time.. .. no cares in the world.. just sleep.. haiz.. sometimes its all up to us.. to held on tight to the thnigs we cherished.. howabout u guys. have u done so alreayd?if not, try harder. the last thing u want to have , is regrets.
that.. word.. is a powerful tool.. it companies u for life.. be warned.. and beware... choose wisely.. do wisely....
gosh i am sooo slpyyyyyyyy
=.=
oh no. my fren failed his exam. taken in melb. duno how he is now. gosh. but in anycase.. o well. all the best to him ba
sighs.. =(( just not sure which path to take sometimes. sometimes its so blur.. out of touch.. like.. u're stucked. u moved.. but then not sure if thats the right way..or will htat casuses u more regrets.. the u stopped. and ponder.. now what. stucked. and blur visions mists. sees mists.. i dunno man. =/
haiz... life is so boring and sooo difficult. everyday almost the same.. everyday.. just so.. ...yea.. plain. o boring. i dunno what to say. yea. .perhasp after the one thing that makes u happy had been taken away form ur life, u'll understand what i mean.
tch.. very sianz desu. so many things kept under wrap. liek.. as though there are so many secrets.. =/ waht there to keep from eh. haiz... o well. .waht to do. secrets.. and lies. are alays part of pains.. and deceive..
ok. i am super duper sleepy now.
its totaly chaotic madness today. warnign. do not head out to town. do not head out to town!!!!!!! omg. its crazzzyyyyyy @_@ can faint sia... sighs.
mata
mm.. anyway... wow. today not feeling so well ne. but throughout after break.. and so.. then better alreayd. but yea. no mood to work today. well, still have to. then in the end , yea.. like that lor .
sighs... mm..
just feel like sleeping.. the only peaceful time.. .. no cares in the world.. just sleep.. haiz.. sometimes its all up to us.. to held on tight to the thnigs we cherished.. howabout u guys. have u done so alreayd?if not, try harder. the last thing u want to have , is regrets.
that.. word.. is a powerful tool.. it companies u for life.. be warned.. and beware... choose wisely.. do wisely....
gosh i am sooo slpyyyyyyyy
=.=
oh no. my fren failed his exam. taken in melb. duno how he is now. gosh. but in anycase.. o well. all the best to him ba
sighs.. =(( just not sure which path to take sometimes. sometimes its so blur.. out of touch.. like.. u're stucked. u moved.. but then not sure if thats the right way..or will htat casuses u more regrets.. the u stopped. and ponder.. now what. stucked. and blur visions mists. sees mists.. i dunno man. =/
haiz... life is so boring and sooo difficult. everyday almost the same.. everyday.. just so.. ...yea.. plain. o boring. i dunno what to say. yea. .perhasp after the one thing that makes u happy had been taken away form ur life, u'll understand what i mean.
tch.. very sianz desu. so many things kept under wrap. liek.. as though there are so many secrets.. =/ waht there to keep from eh. haiz... o well. .waht to do. secrets.. and lies. are alays part of pains.. and deceive..
ok. i am super duper sleepy now.
its totaly chaotic madness today. warnign. do not head out to town. do not head out to town!!!!!!! omg. its crazzzyyyyyy @_@ can faint sia... sighs.
mata
27 May 2011
Relationships that lasts
hi guys. sorry = last night was a lil out of mind. just too tired and abit stress i supposed. but after a gdnight slp, im better alreyad. soryr for the mindless talk eh. though.. haiz.. o well.. sometimes its liek that ba.. when u feel negative, questions from the down side will surfaced, and u know.. u start to question it all.. so yea. sorry for any worries cause or anythign like that. din mean it. just wanan thrash out my thoghts thats all.
yea it sjust so tough ya know. its a great job. but it comes with so much.. responsibilities.. and so much going on there.. its so complicated. ya know. u gotta handle staffs, u gotta handle almost eveyhingg in store. and its not like the previous job i had. its totally diff job workload to do. if i have to tellu in details, u;ll be shocked at how this sale job is so..diff everythign so diff form other stores u've ever work at.o well. but overall, im still lovign it. it makes me strives harder. just stress and tiring. but yea. im doing it. so yea. will hang on.
gosh. so slpy and tired still. @_@ i wonder if i can take any leave for july. reg manager coming again in july.. plus new manager gonna just get on hand this new job.. i duno man. i hope i can gget to train the new manager as well. o well. we shal lsee eh.
mmm.. am i forgetting to blog something here.. last night.. weird. what was it.. mm.......
..... sighs. o well.
mm... wonder hows it liek if i could have a life with just sammy alone without ppl bugging us eh. and.. .yea. soemtiems i wonder.. if australia is way too dangerous to work at.. it sure is no matter how i try to think its not. ha. the news there are friggin frightening .
mm.... oh yea. so.. i din know he was talkin gabout htose photos. msn. ya know. how msn work.. and.. i thoguht it was the normal pics with. .yea. then.. it took me somw time to realised whats he pointg at. lol. omg. but yea.. ya know... mm,,, i was jus tpissed off that time. so .. deciedd to u know. o well. do stupid thigns huh. i duno.
sometimes its difficult to share some stresses...
oh . one of my good fren, neevr visit me for so long. then suddenly travel to australia with his new gf. australian he said. but i dunon. i dun wanna ask much either. listening to otehr ppl love life is the last thing to do on my list right now.
anyway yea. he say its damn friggin cold in melb., next weekend he's dropping by to sydney. so nice sia. wonde rif he really save so much money. weird. but anwyay, his gf coming to sg and work here... i was like.. i mean he knew about me situation. he was like. .ok. so now im heading towards ur footsteps. lol. i was like. ya know. hope u don end up like me. but.. it aint rrly right adveice for him. cos.. we were separated cos of his parents. not cos of. ...sighs. o well. anyway, yea. was telling him its the best if he can just make her stay. asked if he's headin ..i mean migrate to aust in future. he say he dont think so. i said.. don head for something thats gonna u know... no results.. i mean. not no resutls. .but anwyay, yea. he asked.. like... ''marry her''? haha.. but he didnt really provide me with an answer. .perhaps he has no idea now either. perhapsy they just started out only. but.. u know. i wouldnt recommend my frens doing ldr kind of thing. unless they have confident the other party is meant for life and with their future they'll be staying with.
fo rme, though its tough. but i knew its possible. becos .. .i love him with all my heart. and i knew i'll be faithful until the end.i knew he is what i wanted. i knew he's my life and everything. i have a clear vision of hwat i want. what i need,. so its not difficult for me to stay put. of course. nothigs perfect and smooth at all times. no way. even 100 yrs old old cuple also encouter same probs. but at the end, they still spend their lifes together lovingly. for hte rest of hteir life. thats what im aftering. =)
but yea... u ust have to find the righ tperson. and.. well. .so many ldrs failed. .becos one of the partner, or both. .couldnt take it. they regard their situations of whatevers hapening, to be more important than their partners. they often overlooked the fact that having their partner n the end is far more important than anythig els ein the world. thus they forgot. and problems steps in, they focus on problems instead of solving for partner.. forget that how they love one another. when u forget, it means that .htere aint any strong relationship is built in the first place. foundation is weak. when ur love is weak, it doesnt matter where u are, u and ur partner wil lnever work out. its all about the love and work put in. 2 ppl in the same country, couldntve work out if u know... but in anycase, i wish him all hte best. and. .yea. i hope things will be fine.
i rrly hope he's able to carry this on. and his gf hurry come work here, and. well,, they work out everything in the end. alreayd told him to think of future. lol. either he migrate there, or make her stay here in sg . well, he prefers here mah he said. but anyway,... ..yea. who knows the future. never will. just wish him all hte best. and hopefully thign swill work out.
gosh. how to meet up man.. later his gf not happy. =.= haiyo.. o well, hoepfully get to see him again soon. so much to catch up on. and ya.. sbut soemtitmes its good to stay away. don wish to lose another fren just becos their partner doesnt liek it. am i a threat? or they are just super too insecure. i understand though.. as a woman. .but.. to think back of how i lost my precious fren solleh, still makes me real sad. =/ but yea... haiz... all in the past now.
mm.. if i remmeber on what to blog later i'll bbe sure to blog again aite.
so slpy with a lil stress goin gon man =/. ahiz... .need to destress.
oh..... ytd bought quite afewe of g strings. omg. so nice! sexy naughty and cute. rrly like them. but i don liek wearing g string. quite uncomfy if u know what i mean. ha. but what to do. haiz. those desgisn all come in g strings. =/ huu.... o well.... just liek the designs only ba.
good thing i feel beter abit now. last night. .just so upset.. =/
btu still wonders. .wahts the meaning behind lifes.. mm.... o well... this is how it is.. if only.. we dont have to suffer.. but then again... without downs. .how can there be ups.. .wihtout lessosn learnt.. how can u have a astronger foundatiosn buil dbetween u and ur partner..
jaa, mata
yea it sjust so tough ya know. its a great job. but it comes with so much.. responsibilities.. and so much going on there.. its so complicated. ya know. u gotta handle staffs, u gotta handle almost eveyhingg in store. and its not like the previous job i had. its totally diff job workload to do. if i have to tellu in details, u;ll be shocked at how this sale job is so..diff everythign so diff form other stores u've ever work at.o well. but overall, im still lovign it. it makes me strives harder. just stress and tiring. but yea. im doing it. so yea. will hang on.
gosh. so slpy and tired still. @_@ i wonder if i can take any leave for july. reg manager coming again in july.. plus new manager gonna just get on hand this new job.. i duno man. i hope i can gget to train the new manager as well. o well. we shal lsee eh.
mmm.. am i forgetting to blog something here.. last night.. weird. what was it.. mm.......
..... sighs. o well.
mm... wonder hows it liek if i could have a life with just sammy alone without ppl bugging us eh. and.. .yea. soemtiems i wonder.. if australia is way too dangerous to work at.. it sure is no matter how i try to think its not. ha. the news there are friggin frightening .
mm.... oh yea. so.. i din know he was talkin gabout htose photos. msn. ya know. how msn work.. and.. i thoguht it was the normal pics with. .yea. then.. it took me somw time to realised whats he pointg at. lol. omg. but yea.. ya know... mm,,, i was jus tpissed off that time. so .. deciedd to u know. o well. do stupid thigns huh. i duno.
sometimes its difficult to share some stresses...
oh . one of my good fren, neevr visit me for so long. then suddenly travel to australia with his new gf. australian he said. but i dunon. i dun wanna ask much either. listening to otehr ppl love life is the last thing to do on my list right now.
anyway yea. he say its damn friggin cold in melb., next weekend he's dropping by to sydney. so nice sia. wonde rif he really save so much money. weird. but anwyay, his gf coming to sg and work here... i was like.. i mean he knew about me situation. he was like. .ok. so now im heading towards ur footsteps. lol. i was like. ya know. hope u don end up like me. but.. it aint rrly right adveice for him. cos.. we were separated cos of his parents. not cos of. ...sighs. o well. anyway, yea. was telling him its the best if he can just make her stay. asked if he's headin ..i mean migrate to aust in future. he say he dont think so. i said.. don head for something thats gonna u know... no results.. i mean. not no resutls. .but anwyay, yea. he asked.. like... ''marry her''? haha.. but he didnt really provide me with an answer. .perhaps he has no idea now either. perhapsy they just started out only. but.. u know. i wouldnt recommend my frens doing ldr kind of thing. unless they have confident the other party is meant for life and with their future they'll be staying with.
fo rme, though its tough. but i knew its possible. becos .. .i love him with all my heart. and i knew i'll be faithful until the end.i knew he is what i wanted. i knew he's my life and everything. i have a clear vision of hwat i want. what i need,. so its not difficult for me to stay put. of course. nothigs perfect and smooth at all times. no way. even 100 yrs old old cuple also encouter same probs. but at the end, they still spend their lifes together lovingly. for hte rest of hteir life. thats what im aftering. =)
but yea... u ust have to find the righ tperson. and.. well. .so many ldrs failed. .becos one of the partner, or both. .couldnt take it. they regard their situations of whatevers hapening, to be more important than their partners. they often overlooked the fact that having their partner n the end is far more important than anythig els ein the world. thus they forgot. and problems steps in, they focus on problems instead of solving for partner.. forget that how they love one another. when u forget, it means that .htere aint any strong relationship is built in the first place. foundation is weak. when ur love is weak, it doesnt matter where u are, u and ur partner wil lnever work out. its all about the love and work put in. 2 ppl in the same country, couldntve work out if u know... but in anycase, i wish him all hte best. and. .yea. i hope things will be fine.
i rrly hope he's able to carry this on. and his gf hurry come work here, and. well,, they work out everything in the end. alreayd told him to think of future. lol. either he migrate there, or make her stay here in sg . well, he prefers here mah he said. but anyway,... ..yea. who knows the future. never will. just wish him all hte best. and hopefully thign swill work out.
gosh. how to meet up man.. later his gf not happy. =.= haiyo.. o well, hoepfully get to see him again soon. so much to catch up on. and ya.. sbut soemtitmes its good to stay away. don wish to lose another fren just becos their partner doesnt liek it. am i a threat? or they are just super too insecure. i understand though.. as a woman. .but.. to think back of how i lost my precious fren solleh, still makes me real sad. =/ but yea... haiz... all in the past now.
mm.. if i remmeber on what to blog later i'll bbe sure to blog again aite.
so slpy with a lil stress goin gon man =/. ahiz... .need to destress.
oh..... ytd bought quite afewe of g strings. omg. so nice! sexy naughty and cute. rrly like them. but i don liek wearing g string. quite uncomfy if u know what i mean. ha. but what to do. haiz. those desgisn all come in g strings. =/ huu.... o well.... just liek the designs only ba.
good thing i feel beter abit now. last night. .just so upset.. =/
btu still wonders. .wahts the meaning behind lifes.. mm.... o well... this is how it is.. if only.. we dont have to suffer.. but then again... without downs. .how can there be ups.. .wihtout lessosn learnt.. how can u have a astronger foundatiosn buil dbetween u and ur partner..
jaa, mata
26 May 2011
shi
just... =( crying out loud. very stupidly in a way.. yea.. ..o well.. weird. tears wont stop. perhaps just need to destress while im crying tearfully. sighs. fml man. seriously. work so hard fo rwaht now. suddenly though tof that. for what god damn thing am i working so hard fo rnow. fuck man.
fuck....
things changes.. places changed... but. whhy must it turn out to be bad?
i duno....
sighs. where is the meaning of life right now. like .wahts the use of living am i right. for what. remind me. for hwat>?
ha.. haha.. hahaha........ life huh.. .such a vast living thing.. but yet so easy to diminish sometimes..
bah.. o well... i rrly cant stand this any longer.
whatvere ba..
jaa
thi sis how it is.. heart that could never be heal again-
fuck....
things changes.. places changed... but. whhy must it turn out to be bad?
i duno....
sighs. where is the meaning of life right now. like .wahts the use of living am i right. for what. remind me. for hwat>?
ha.. haha.. hahaha........ life huh.. .such a vast living thing.. but yet so easy to diminish sometimes..
bah.. o well... i rrly cant stand this any longer.
whatvere ba..
jaa
thi sis how it is.. heart that could never be heal again-
25 May 2011
Tired straight morning shifts
just recalled.. what ytd had wanted to type about.. ha. this angmoh customer.. as i was wonderig should i greet him on the sales foor,… i looke dat him for a sec,. cos obviously thinking. i try to avoid male customer if possible. becos uea.. thats why, have trouble sometimes. anwayy, he walked past me, he winked at me. ombg. i was like.. .dotsssssssss soooo awkward. luckily i don have to serve him at all. omg.
goodness.. i didnt realized i’ve been doing early morning fullshifts. for four days straight. omg. so slpy and tiring. slpy more . uh huh.
ha, i am resiting to shop sia. omg. anwyay, yea.. it slike.. i’ll shop online. place the items in my bag. and never check out to pay. hahahah… window shop k~~~~~
theres gona be heaps of work waiting for me soon after u know who is gone. but u know what. ima take thizx as a test. and do this man. one day imma do this. so good to pratice now. yea… will jia you. even though its tiring and.. yea. stess abit too. so yea. will hang on !
cant think now. too slpy and tired. veryrrrrrryyyyy slpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy zzzzzzzz
mata ne.
24 May 2011
sleepy mornings
soooo slpy and tired day by day.. haiz. soon be over. just hang on for another day ba
oh.. mm.... haiz.. well.... colleague was talking about how she spend the day with bf. ha. .exactly the same like mine sia. she reminded me alot of memories especially in the early dya sof dating with u know who. its nice. .to know what they are doing.. flashback ba. ...
mm.... yea.. trigger heaps of memories back.. but owe ll... hate the mas selamat guy. ruined so much of our dates. =.= and days. o well.
mm.. seems like something i forgot to say.. what ar... =.= i forgot..
mm.... .... geez.. i cant think now.
anyway... too tired and slpy ba. slpt in cab whhile deliver stocks to my customer too. oh gosh.
doc say she's pregnant, and musnt take heavy stuffs.
ahh.. .yea. .pregnant ladies.. shouldnt indeed.. but most customers i know, they don care. ha. some with even 9 months pregnant, still go out!! somemore alone. omg. so brave!! i wonder how a pregnant lady feel eh
mm... slpy
haiz. anyway, doing plenty of work ne.. must wait till next week confirm, then got new manager after one month. omg.. .one bloody month... as though im store manager for a month sia. omg. but my pay not of manager's pay . =.= so yea. for tha one month plus, grr..
sales on righ tnow. gosh. .still thinking about the corset i saw... =/ so wanna buy. huu.....
omg. must forget about it ne.
k. must rest now. otherwise wil lfaint. too slpy. very3 slpy.. =/
mata
oh.. mm.... haiz.. well.... colleague was talking about how she spend the day with bf. ha. .exactly the same like mine sia. she reminded me alot of memories especially in the early dya sof dating with u know who. its nice. .to know what they are doing.. flashback ba. ...
mm.... yea.. trigger heaps of memories back.. but owe ll... hate the mas selamat guy. ruined so much of our dates. =.= and days. o well.
mm.. seems like something i forgot to say.. what ar... =.= i forgot..
mm.... .... geez.. i cant think now.
anyway... too tired and slpy ba. slpt in cab whhile deliver stocks to my customer too. oh gosh.
doc say she's pregnant, and musnt take heavy stuffs.
ahh.. .yea. .pregnant ladies.. shouldnt indeed.. but most customers i know, they don care. ha. some with even 9 months pregnant, still go out!! somemore alone. omg. so brave!! i wonder how a pregnant lady feel eh
mm... slpy
haiz. anyway, doing plenty of work ne.. must wait till next week confirm, then got new manager after one month. omg.. .one bloody month... as though im store manager for a month sia. omg. but my pay not of manager's pay . =.= so yea. for tha one month plus, grr..
sales on righ tnow. gosh. .still thinking about the corset i saw... =/ so wanna buy. huu.....
omg. must forget about it ne.
k. must rest now. otherwise wil lfaint. too slpy. very3 slpy.. =/
mata
22 May 2011
Wear the right size! ^^
ok. im so loving my new lingerie collection. totally awesome. =) omg. now i understand why they say 8 out of 10 women are wearing the wrong bras! omg. tot hink all these years man!! i've been wearing too small sizes, and not wearing properly. wow. so baka. howver!! ha. now its gonna all change.. uh huh.. all change... no wonder.. now some of my questioins can be answered now. ha. gosh.. i;ve been wearing like. .the wrong way.. the wrong sizes.. omg. wth...................... =.= baka desu ne
anyway, glad i learn now. so yea. hopefully in future imma get the correct bra size. uh huh.
anyway, glad i learn now. so yea. hopefully in future imma get the correct bra size. uh huh.
so slpy.. omg. not enough rest sia these few days.
wow. the maketing ppl from australia droop by the otehr day. drop by i mean.
and they are one man and one asian woman.
wow. the guy started out as a casual in our company first store. he's literally our boss spy!!! howver!! omg. he's so cool . i mean. not cool. but he s sooo frenly. the way he talk. he look handsome as well. ha.. yea.. very wow. XD but the woman's like. =.= uninnteractive. dots. o well
and they are one man and one asian woman.
wow. the guy started out as a casual in our company first store. he's literally our boss spy!!! howver!! omg. he's so cool . i mean. not cool. but he s sooo frenly. the way he talk. he look handsome as well. ha.. yea.. very wow. XD but the woman's like. =.= uninnteractive. dots. o well
anwyay, glad htey are gone now. howver, .. omg. nah. shoo shooooooooooooo why am i tlaking about work. cannot sia. haiz.. im so slpy. so yea. forget it for now. =/
where am i.. ..mm.. os yea. wow. i really cant wait to wear out my corset. its fabulous. totally !!
i love lingeries thats created to be worn fashionbly on the outside. awesome. of cours ewill be shy i think. but well, hwy no try. 2012 aint here yet eh. haha. jk
i love lingeries thats created to be worn fashionbly on the outside. awesome. of cours ewill be shy i think. but well, hwy no try. 2012 aint here yet eh. haha. jk
so yea. icant wait for the right chance man
..so. .another day passed. .... uncertainties.. doubts.. and questions.. surrounding..
how i wish.. amidst these crazy business in my life.. there could be this part .. thats sweet and something to look forward to.. ...sighs.............. thats not gonna happen anymore. fo rnow ba. .. so yea.
just. .sometiems really wish time.. couldve just stop itself at a certain timing.. and return me back all my happiness i once felt.
.. but . .this world isnt magical.. its not liek thats gonna happen when i wish for it.. so ea...
how i wish.. amidst these crazy business in my life.. there could be this part .. thats sweet and something to look forward to.. ...sighs.............. thats not gonna happen anymore. fo rnow ba. .. so yea.
just. .sometiems really wish time.. couldve just stop itself at a certain timing.. and return me back all my happiness i once felt.
.. but . .this world isnt magical.. its not liek thats gonna happen when i wish for it.. so ea...
wonder.. how does happiness sweetness feel huh... empty shells.. nothing but empty shells now.. illusions..
i jjst want some reality.. sweet.. sweet reality..
bah...
i jjst want some reality.. sweet.. sweet reality..
bah...
=/
mata
21 May 2011
Life Loss
well. .sometimes ppl need to fall a couple of times before they finally realized what is going on in their life.
y aknow. i've learnt my lessons again and again .. ..and thi stime.. yea. u know. i shouldnt be caring any more.
sighs. anyway, not liekthats any of my convern eh.
wow. lingeries are my weakness man.. omg. but its so worth it. and i get to learn my size.. i get to learn more of how a bra should be worn.. i wore a bigger size! ^^ yipeeeeeeeee...... ahhahahha.
but yea. really cool awesome desgins. luckily got promotion. buy one get one free. hahahaha.... yea so exp. but at least 2 for price of one. ok ba.
then bought a corset. omg. so difficult to choose the colour=/ wanna get both. but no promotion. and so exp..sighs... =/ so cannot... in the end have to choose only one.
so eya. that line of lingeries are meant to be worn on the outside. so yea. really cool. looking forward to trying that out ;)
mm,,,,
so yea.
u know. sometimes when u think back.. perhaps if theres any good.. that couldnt been.. sighs. u know. at least im not in a relationship with soemone who gets drunk now. guess how heartbroken i wouldve been.
acccording to my mum.. dad does that when he was young. even when she was pregnant with me.
i don twant to... ever. and never.. marry someoen liek that in my life. perhaps.. i might be loving the wrong perosn. but u know. well. .love cant be control in any other ways.. and. yea. .but yea. anywya.. not that it matters. cos im not. .u knwo. situations are different now. just wish.. he is still the man when his fren told me he wasnt drinking at all. but yea. thigns aint gonna be perfect. not liek im the lucky girl anyway. cases wont remain the same. found out long ago.. but yea.. liek i said. wounds will forever be wounds.. they would never be heal in any other ways even when time passes. but even with pain. still gotta carry this pains and carry on with life. but seriously. life sucks here. totally sucks to the core.
nothign is.. great. its just colourless. ea.. i live only to survive. thats it. life. .has no meanings nor purpose. its so stressful. .so blank.. so hateful.. its.. very irritating. yea.. =/
[i really don liek this in any other ways. but ya know... time is ticking.. and.. o well...
=/.. haiz... i hate life so much. not hate. more of dislike. yea.. .. .everyday u just carry the p[ains and movin gon.. pretending everythigns alright.. wtf is htat man>?
if not fo rmy parent.s. man.. tch.. i woudlve so abandon life right now. totaly sucks.
yea i know.. pay is good.. job's okok... but. u know. there are just thigns missing .. and. .i cant take it. y a know what i mean. that just sucks . and ttotall ydestroys the purpose of living.
but anyway.. mm.. oh. finally found the type of hangers i was lookign for soooooo long!! omg. cos i have too much lingeries.. and i really need space.. plyus somethign to protect their shapes.. etc. wow. soooo glad today i found them. cheers. totally awesome =)
mm.. so many things to settle.. yet im too tired to do so. at home. so yea.. lazy bum2 eh.. huu...
just no motivation ba. so eya
i know. irritatin eh.
wow. marina bay sands have so many nice bars. one is called tsuki-bar. u can view the superb night views over tere at night, i cant wait to one day man.. head over there and have an awesoe time. very vyer superbly cool place =)
marina bays sand.. very cool .i dunnow hat to say. u peeps should head on there. its totally suc h a cool and awesome place to visit. but. u should know whne to visit, who to go with, and when to do what u wanna do.
mm.. ok. i htink my heart lightens abit now. i think =.=
yea.. with everytig goin gon, and with bro who doesnt reall ylisten to me, u know. blog is the best solutions. thx guys.
today i wore soemthign diff. but i think thin kits evolution for me. so eya. even thought it s alil uncomfy, but y aknow. i want changes. so i shall make them.
force to make them, still, i shall.
and yea.
i wouldnt be drinking if it wasnt for them .
i chose my path. this is it. who's gonna change it i wonder.
mata
y aknow. i've learnt my lessons again and again .. ..and thi stime.. yea. u know. i shouldnt be caring any more.
sighs. anyway, not liekthats any of my convern eh.
wow. lingeries are my weakness man.. omg. but its so worth it. and i get to learn my size.. i get to learn more of how a bra should be worn.. i wore a bigger size! ^^ yipeeeeeeeee...... ahhahahha.
but yea. really cool awesome desgins. luckily got promotion. buy one get one free. hahahaha.... yea so exp. but at least 2 for price of one. ok ba.
then bought a corset. omg. so difficult to choose the colour=/ wanna get both. but no promotion. and so exp..sighs... =/ so cannot... in the end have to choose only one.
so eya. that line of lingeries are meant to be worn on the outside. so yea. really cool. looking forward to trying that out ;)
mm,,,,
so yea.
u know. sometimes when u think back.. perhaps if theres any good.. that couldnt been.. sighs. u know. at least im not in a relationship with soemone who gets drunk now. guess how heartbroken i wouldve been.
acccording to my mum.. dad does that when he was young. even when she was pregnant with me.
i don twant to... ever. and never.. marry someoen liek that in my life. perhaps.. i might be loving the wrong perosn. but u know. well. .love cant be control in any other ways.. and. yea. .but yea. anywya.. not that it matters. cos im not. .u knwo. situations are different now. just wish.. he is still the man when his fren told me he wasnt drinking at all. but yea. thigns aint gonna be perfect. not liek im the lucky girl anyway. cases wont remain the same. found out long ago.. but yea.. liek i said. wounds will forever be wounds.. they would never be heal in any other ways even when time passes. but even with pain. still gotta carry this pains and carry on with life. but seriously. life sucks here. totally sucks to the core.
nothign is.. great. its just colourless. ea.. i live only to survive. thats it. life. .has no meanings nor purpose. its so stressful. .so blank.. so hateful.. its.. very irritating. yea.. =/
[i really don liek this in any other ways. but ya know... time is ticking.. and.. o well...
=/.. haiz... i hate life so much. not hate. more of dislike. yea.. .. .everyday u just carry the p[ains and movin gon.. pretending everythigns alright.. wtf is htat man>?
if not fo rmy parent.s. man.. tch.. i woudlve so abandon life right now. totaly sucks.
yea i know.. pay is good.. job's okok... but. u know. there are just thigns missing .. and. .i cant take it. y a know what i mean. that just sucks . and ttotall ydestroys the purpose of living.
but anyway.. mm.. oh. finally found the type of hangers i was lookign for soooooo long!! omg. cos i have too much lingeries.. and i really need space.. plyus somethign to protect their shapes.. etc. wow. soooo glad today i found them. cheers. totally awesome =)
mm.. so many things to settle.. yet im too tired to do so. at home. so yea.. lazy bum2 eh.. huu...
just no motivation ba. so eya
i know. irritatin eh.
wow. marina bay sands have so many nice bars. one is called tsuki-bar. u can view the superb night views over tere at night, i cant wait to one day man.. head over there and have an awesoe time. very vyer superbly cool place =)
marina bays sand.. very cool .i dunnow hat to say. u peeps should head on there. its totally suc h a cool and awesome place to visit. but. u should know whne to visit, who to go with, and when to do what u wanna do.
mm.. ok. i htink my heart lightens abit now. i think =.=
yea.. with everytig goin gon, and with bro who doesnt reall ylisten to me, u know. blog is the best solutions. thx guys.
today i wore soemthign diff. but i think thin kits evolution for me. so eya. even thought it s alil uncomfy, but y aknow. i want changes. so i shall make them.
force to make them, still, i shall.
and yea.
i wouldnt be drinking if it wasnt for them .
i chose my path. this is it. who's gonna change it i wonder.
mata
19 May 2011
Sweetness
ok. so the other day, omg. it was soooo awkwarddddddddd .. dotsss
i was on my break.. i just walked out.. using my phone.. then this guy ( i could hear his fren promting asking him to stop me. .here i come. .blah3.. ) he was talking to me. i thought what model agency again. lol. hten he repeated himself.. saying he thinks i look kinda cute. =.='' pdotssss
i was liike. omg.. no way.. i said thanks.. and i just keep on walking. i have no intention of stopping man. lol. he asked fo rmy name still. his name is.. james. but he's a indian.. i dunno.. malay or indian ba. .looks younger than me. but anyway, yea.. so paiseh like hell.. onmg. i hate this kind of situation. .
o well.
sighs.. stupid work.. that woman don wan to do.. o wlel. wha tto do. they hire such ppl. sighs. nvm ba .argh.. nah. don wanna tlak about that here. sianz
=/
wow. had such a nice long sweet dream today. =)
lol. i have a date with a star. lol..... omg. cant really see with who ya know. but u kinda know it. its weird dream. its those type of deam where u wakey, hten wish to dream about it again, which u did. ha.. so yea. good.
yea.. just realised .. so long never had a proper long good nice dream.. haiz... =/ o well. guess my life aint happy after all.
im kinda reliveved that my new manager is a chinese guy. i think he's chinese. but in anycase, i just wish he aint a bitch. liek u know who. thats the hting im most concern about . so yea. i really hoppe he's gonna tkae this job seriously. really really seriously .
mm.... so yea. there u go. this is the out of usual sales job.. the serisous type of sales job. .and with a very .. very.. serisou tough attitude.. kind of job.. the hardest one out ther. uh huh. trust me.
its good though. its diff from other sales job. its not even a sales job to me. seriously no. im hanbdling the shop work and blah3.. .more than i handle customers nowadasy. goodness madness
so tired ne. mm... nah.. more like slpy.. o well
found an interesting app today. ha. using it..
*yawn..
oh i didn tknow tehres this old song by kenny rogers. caleld she believes in me. wow. so sweet and so nice. its like. .for every man to sing it . for their woman.. its so swt. such beautiful song =)
the lyrics were so good nice swt.. wow. =) i really like it. go check htat out eh. espiecially if u're a guy.
mata
i was on my break.. i just walked out.. using my phone.. then this guy ( i could hear his fren promting asking him to stop me. .here i come. .blah3.. ) he was talking to me. i thought what model agency again. lol. hten he repeated himself.. saying he thinks i look kinda cute. =.='' pdotssss
i was liike. omg.. no way.. i said thanks.. and i just keep on walking. i have no intention of stopping man. lol. he asked fo rmy name still. his name is.. james. but he's a indian.. i dunno.. malay or indian ba. .looks younger than me. but anyway, yea.. so paiseh like hell.. onmg. i hate this kind of situation. .
o well.
sighs.. stupid work.. that woman don wan to do.. o wlel. wha tto do. they hire such ppl. sighs. nvm ba .argh.. nah. don wanna tlak about that here. sianz
=/
wow. had such a nice long sweet dream today. =)
lol. i have a date with a star. lol..... omg. cant really see with who ya know. but u kinda know it. its weird dream. its those type of deam where u wakey, hten wish to dream about it again, which u did. ha.. so yea. good.
yea.. just realised .. so long never had a proper long good nice dream.. haiz... =/ o well. guess my life aint happy after all.
im kinda reliveved that my new manager is a chinese guy. i think he's chinese. but in anycase, i just wish he aint a bitch. liek u know who. thats the hting im most concern about . so yea. i really hoppe he's gonna tkae this job seriously. really really seriously .
mm.... so yea. there u go. this is the out of usual sales job.. the serisous type of sales job. .and with a very .. very.. serisou tough attitude.. kind of job.. the hardest one out ther. uh huh. trust me.
its good though. its diff from other sales job. its not even a sales job to me. seriously no. im hanbdling the shop work and blah3.. .more than i handle customers nowadasy. goodness madness
so tired ne. mm... nah.. more like slpy.. o well
found an interesting app today. ha. using it..
*yawn..
oh i didn tknow tehres this old song by kenny rogers. caleld she believes in me. wow. so sweet and so nice. its like. .for every man to sing it . for their woman.. its so swt. such beautiful song =)
the lyrics were so good nice swt.. wow. =) i really like it. go check htat out eh. espiecially if u're a guy.
mata
16 May 2011
Not so happy
recently. .felt that im kidan. .u know. .ready again. .to look through the pics id taken with him during my 2nd visit to sydney..
pics looks great as always.. ppl.. views.. feelings.. looking all so blissed.. and happy.. full of vibrant that time. ... ha.. ..
i thought i was abit naive looking . ha.. i guess.. sometimes setbacks just changed u as a person somehow. .and ur thinkings.
i wont say it makes me stronger. but.. i dunno what either.
haiz. couple of thigs to settle.. gosh. no time. ... =/
jia you ne i will.. .haiz..
just need to remember. .held my chin up and smile. ahh... oh nvm. forget hwat i just said. haha. thats so difficult.
today had a good long talk with sammy again. always feels so much better.
haiz.. if only we are at the right places huh.
haiz=/ from sydney to melb is 200 plus.. if . mm... o well. i duno man.
anyway.. perhaps should wait till aug. or sept.. arghhh i dunno man... tch.
just hope to find a great deal. co si really need another break real soon. jjune.. i didnt apply for leave.s. =( but yea.. .. haiz..
june is and will be a crazy month. but u know what. i have to do this. i have to.
jia you ba. =/
though saving up is difficult. .sa im stress from work. and i need to destress sometimes. using food and shoppings. ha. bad. .really bad. but yea. thinking of the future trip... u know.. i have to do this man. i think might still need 3 montsh before im ready to purchase tix. gosh.. mum so gonna kill me. lol.
but i deem it as a worthwhile deal. i deserve it.
toda.. =( sadly, i didnt get to go to sg audi fashion show. sighs. fren gib me the tix to go.. get the great goodie bag. .then we share.. but i don feel like going .. not today. =/ so yea. so wasted i know =( sighs.. but yea.. wah tto do.. ..too bad... .
haiz..
sighs. i really miss him alot. especially when times get tough, and night falls, .. tch.. oh man... =/
k ba. .perhasp best thing to do to destress, is to slp.
later in abit i shall
oh yea! theres this lingerie, omg. u can wear them on the outside. wow. must be so daring to do tha teh. but taht is soooo coooollll. omg. i will consider. bt.. o well. shall post up the pic in my facebook soon. haha. too bad i don post pics in my blogs =P too troublesome fo rme. dorry =P
mata
pics looks great as always.. ppl.. views.. feelings.. looking all so blissed.. and happy.. full of vibrant that time. ... ha.. ..
i thought i was abit naive looking . ha.. i guess.. sometimes setbacks just changed u as a person somehow. .and ur thinkings.
i wont say it makes me stronger. but.. i dunno what either.
haiz. couple of thigs to settle.. gosh. no time. ... =/
jia you ne i will.. .haiz..
just need to remember. .held my chin up and smile. ahh... oh nvm. forget hwat i just said. haha. thats so difficult.
today had a good long talk with sammy again. always feels so much better.
haiz.. if only we are at the right places huh.
haiz=/ from sydney to melb is 200 plus.. if . mm... o well. i duno man.
anyway.. perhaps should wait till aug. or sept.. arghhh i dunno man... tch.
just hope to find a great deal. co si really need another break real soon. jjune.. i didnt apply for leave.s. =( but yea.. .. haiz..
june is and will be a crazy month. but u know what. i have to do this. i have to.
jia you ba. =/
though saving up is difficult. .sa im stress from work. and i need to destress sometimes. using food and shoppings. ha. bad. .really bad. but yea. thinking of the future trip... u know.. i have to do this man. i think might still need 3 montsh before im ready to purchase tix. gosh.. mum so gonna kill me. lol.
but i deem it as a worthwhile deal. i deserve it.
toda.. =( sadly, i didnt get to go to sg audi fashion show. sighs. fren gib me the tix to go.. get the great goodie bag. .then we share.. but i don feel like going .. not today. =/ so yea. so wasted i know =( sighs.. but yea.. wah tto do.. ..too bad... .
haiz..
sighs. i really miss him alot. especially when times get tough, and night falls, .. tch.. oh man... =/
k ba. .perhasp best thing to do to destress, is to slp.
later in abit i shall
oh yea! theres this lingerie, omg. u can wear them on the outside. wow. must be so daring to do tha teh. but taht is soooo coooollll. omg. i will consider. bt.. o well. shall post up the pic in my facebook soon. haha. too bad i don post pics in my blogs =P too troublesome fo rme. dorry =P
mata
15 May 2011
Guys can be so brave when it comes to love sometimes =)
hmm.. it sounded as though.. weird.. i dunno.. O.o like this guy commented in my blog.. i duno what was htat.. but.. seems as though .. =.= nah... not that i matter anyway... but i wonde rif that was just a spam or somethng. ha
anyway. omg. i am soo tired... whoa.....
sighs... mm.... suddenly my song came up.. as i was listening to it.. .
.... that goodbye song.. i was singing halfway in my bro's lil room.. then he suddenly joins in. ..moments.. . which stayed behind... that one could wish .. it didnt have to go away like that...
at times when it is the hardest.. the more you'll realised .. which are happy moments.. and how precious that could be..
all... thats been left... residues.. of pain.. how would u even understand.. how i feel.. .
anyway...
mm,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,, oh. my fren.. said that becos her family is very very strict, her parents doesnt allow her and her bro to get hitch before they graduated from uni. hahaha.
she herself, with this currents bf of.. about 3 years alreayd? yea.. she undergone 2months of underground love with hin. before getting found out. or she reveal.. i cant remember. she recalled her parents at that time, like wanna break her legs type of reaction. lol. but she's a very very nice good girl. =) and im glad they are still together. they really make a perfect match. happy for her.
but her elder bro, now in uni... still undergoing his underground lovve relationship.. 2 years alreaady!!! omg............ wow. haha.
she then asked me why didnt i have a underground love relationship with u know who.
.....but u know.. .well.. i am not the one who chose to give up first. so yea..
but anyway, applaud to her bro. ha
wow. i was like. .screaming so sweet''!! when my fren told me that her bf..(who just went to ns) asked her to print out some photos, so he can place them in his metal locker .OMGGGGGGGGG... .wth??? that is so friggin SWEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT . wow. for a guy to initiate such actions,... :') wow. that is amazing.
like.. best is like. .u don care what ur frens are saying.. blah3.... u do what u want. u aint afraid of ppl laughing at ya.. or mocking. .teasing at ya about it. .u just do what u want with ur girl. and u know. thast so friggin sweet and cool when a guy cares not a damn about ppl, and u know. just do what he want. be it.. wearing the same tshirt.. for couples.. or.. having a cute bear keyring from gf.. or putting up photos .. tahts so friggin .. wow. like really .amazing. nowadays where got guys say or do such things right.
anyway, yea... somemore his camp so many guys.. yet he's stil lalright with it.. ...
o well.........
yea.. that shoots me a lil.. .. ha.. .i.. =/ o well..... anyone would';ve yearn for this kind of affection wouldnt they.. ....
tired desu.. mm... so tired =/.
sighs.
oh yea.. ytd slpt so late.. but good thing today wakey quite alright. .still get enough slp .. about there ba
mm... haiz. ok .. jaa...
heart. .still .. feels empty... to fill it up again... i must......................................
mata
anyway. omg. i am soo tired... whoa.....
sighs... mm.... suddenly my song came up.. as i was listening to it.. .
.... that goodbye song.. i was singing halfway in my bro's lil room.. then he suddenly joins in. ..moments.. . which stayed behind... that one could wish .. it didnt have to go away like that...
at times when it is the hardest.. the more you'll realised .. which are happy moments.. and how precious that could be..
all... thats been left... residues.. of pain.. how would u even understand.. how i feel.. .
anyway...
mm,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,, oh. my fren.. said that becos her family is very very strict, her parents doesnt allow her and her bro to get hitch before they graduated from uni. hahaha.
she herself, with this currents bf of.. about 3 years alreayd? yea.. she undergone 2months of underground love with hin. before getting found out. or she reveal.. i cant remember. she recalled her parents at that time, like wanna break her legs type of reaction. lol. but she's a very very nice good girl. =) and im glad they are still together. they really make a perfect match. happy for her.
but her elder bro, now in uni... still undergoing his underground lovve relationship.. 2 years alreaady!!! omg............ wow. haha.
she then asked me why didnt i have a underground love relationship with u know who.
.....but u know.. .well.. i am not the one who chose to give up first. so yea..
but anyway, applaud to her bro. ha
wow. i was like. .screaming so sweet''!! when my fren told me that her bf..(who just went to ns) asked her to print out some photos, so he can place them in his metal locker .OMGGGGGGGGG... .wth??? that is so friggin SWEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT . wow. for a guy to initiate such actions,... :') wow. that is amazing.
like.. best is like. .u don care what ur frens are saying.. blah3.... u do what u want. u aint afraid of ppl laughing at ya.. or mocking. .teasing at ya about it. .u just do what u want with ur girl. and u know. thast so friggin sweet and cool when a guy cares not a damn about ppl, and u know. just do what he want. be it.. wearing the same tshirt.. for couples.. or.. having a cute bear keyring from gf.. or putting up photos .. tahts so friggin .. wow. like really .amazing. nowadays where got guys say or do such things right.
anyway, yea... somemore his camp so many guys.. yet he's stil lalright with it.. ...
o well.........
yea.. that shoots me a lil.. .. ha.. .i.. =/ o well..... anyone would';ve yearn for this kind of affection wouldnt they.. ....
tired desu.. mm... so tired =/.
sighs.
oh yea.. ytd slpt so late.. but good thing today wakey quite alright. .still get enough slp .. about there ba
mm... haiz. ok .. jaa...
heart. .still .. feels empty... to fill it up again... i must......................................
mata
14 May 2011
it all comes down to pain
sighs.. feeling sad todya… missing my manager. .the wya she guided us.. going throgh my sg manager hints of how bitchy blah3…
sighs….
this world is so complicated =(
i hated it.
sighs.. =(
what can i say…
i.. sighs. .just need someone to talk to. .i really hate saying goodbyes.. i really do. = (
i learnt that when i sai dgdbye to sammy.. it was the most painful thign to do besides breakin gup…
yea.. that was so hurtful.. and u went through all thos efor nothign. becos .. in the end u still have to separate..
yea.. that was so hurtful.. and u went through all thos efor nothign. becos .. in the end u still have to separate..
anyway,.. yea.. sighsssssssssss =(((( i am very very very upset ….. i lost my best manager.. and i m having prob at workplace.
sighss…. o well
sighss…. o well
just. .u knw.. …trying to do my best ya know….
haiz.. o well.. all the more i wann head to melb and visit my manager. sighs. .so many places i wanna go. but so little money =( what should i do..
haiz……….. i really wish to go melb too.. =/
haiz……….. i really wish to go melb too.. =/
sighs… tch.. nvm.. for now just save up ba… …. then will shall out the price. .of course if can travcel between 2 palces, i would lvoe to do so
wow. i didnt know. my bra size could went up just like that. uh hu. i llkike that . its good. versatile enough i didnt try it on as htere were too many ppl. diff brands have diff sizers.. despite b or c cups, i fit righ tit. all good.
…mm… sighs trying to numb myself ..
yea.. i certzinly wish to.. u know…… haiz. nvm ba
at time liek this…. i really wish time could turn itself back.. and let me go back to where i had my happiest time.. .dates.. etcc… u know =(.. .. those happiest moments of my life.. it is never coming back..
sigh… .=(
and i jst wish.. those happiest years of my life.. i could experincec it again… i really do.. now , everythign is nothing at all.
i just wish.. i could return back to those 3 year.s… i rrly do… =(
i just wish.. i could return back to those 3 year.s… i rrly do… =(
happiness seems as though a dream.. when its over, u wak e up.. and.. u know.. time moves on still… it never wil lstop for u… it will be saying. .go on.. move away from ur happiness now.. move further away……………..
i thoght i will be fine. but it still end swith a lie..
sighs. .o well… like that ba…
…
at least.. im stil lable to blog here while i last…
life .is so meaningless. i don see any meaning to it. jinseiwanani..wakaranaii..
sighs.. o well.. nothing’s gonna change anyway..
mata
11 May 2011
stupid bitch
today heatpai sia.. cried.. not becos of sammy.. but becos of stupid bitch
. sighs =(
... o well....... .... im still not giving up.. i am ever so close. .my melb manager is righ ..
she turned down opportunities.. she missed opportunities... etc..
but things happeneed.. and she once thought.. she was ready for a manager position. but she didnt get it. and they hired someone else for the job. she was very disappointed. becos she thought she was totally ready n bext for the position right now. but somebody told her.. that she aint ready just yet.
my manager wishes to see me as a manager in new store next time. dunno if theres gonna be a new store. no promises. it may take me another year's time or so(less or more) to be one . but yea.. will have chance. i just need the time now to perfect it all.
puntil the time is right. and now she's manager to sg.. then became senior manaager.. now she's heading back end of week plus she got the new position. vic area manager .so now besides chadstone, vic is hers now too. cheers. wow. rrly so glad for her. she rrly worked so hard in sg man =. she deserves it all. i wouldnt she say is perfect.. she followed all rules.. etc. .but she's busy. .and worked hard for this job. so cheersx fo rher =)
i hope i can end up like her one day too. soon i hope. so far, im the most senior anyway. but yea. still need to hang on.
sighs. .duno why ppl just. .sighs...... =( i hate typical malays =((((( appeares to be so humourous.. very funny.. nice to hang out with.. joke ard with.. but i tell u... deeep down, such an asshole. bloody bitches. bloody hell i tell u. i hate typical malays. seriousluy =/.
sighs...
prefer my malay frens who studies.. n decent type. unlike those marids.. minnas type ..eewwwwwwww omg. faint =.=
the other day another customer thoght iwas 18 =.= i was like... dots.. sigh.. wonder if ppl could ever take me seriously.. but u know what. imma do my job well. they can use their own eyes to see it. i don care
sighs. i need to destress somuch. which taking a shower, i suddenly had an urge to cry.. so huggie the pole,. amd cry =( sighs......... felt good though.. thinking iits sammy . lol.not funny =.= but yea.. felt good to have somehting to hold on to and cry for abit.. sighs...
so long nvr cry.. and this time its over a stupid bitch =(
...... sighs.......................
o well. haiz...
just need his support so much right now.. god knows how much i wish to cry over his shoulders while hugging him.... tears.. .rolling down now...
why must i feel so sad just becos of this worthless bitch... =(...
sighs...
o well. ...
oh..today.. sighs.. last night too tired to think. .miscaculated. .then wakey an hour earlier. .dindt realsied it till when im done changing and stuff. then like. .omg. 6 plus onlly.. omg.. .wanna stab myself sia T_T sighs.......... wakey so early an hour only.. but yea.. for nothign =.= omg...
called my amnasgers to u know.. destress abit too.. thknign of how to solved the prob. .melb prob. .when asked if she had the same prob. .she say yes. .she then talk to her manager.. regionall... ,manager.
i talked to my rm too.. but he erm.. well. .let sjust sya........ ..... dots. nvm.. .totally make me more sad only sighs=/. nvm ba
mm.. surprisingly.. not slpy.. tired .. and legs like wanna break liao.. but not slpy.. just dang tired...
k ba.. sighs.. .maybe should go rest.. see hojw... ....
jaa mata.. =/
. sighs =(
... o well....... .... im still not giving up.. i am ever so close. .my melb manager is righ ..
she turned down opportunities.. she missed opportunities... etc..
but things happeneed.. and she once thought.. she was ready for a manager position. but she didnt get it. and they hired someone else for the job. she was very disappointed. becos she thought she was totally ready n bext for the position right now. but somebody told her.. that she aint ready just yet.
my manager wishes to see me as a manager in new store next time. dunno if theres gonna be a new store. no promises. it may take me another year's time or so(less or more) to be one . but yea.. will have chance. i just need the time now to perfect it all.
puntil the time is right. and now she's manager to sg.. then became senior manaager.. now she's heading back end of week plus she got the new position. vic area manager .so now besides chadstone, vic is hers now too. cheers. wow. rrly so glad for her. she rrly worked so hard in sg man =. she deserves it all. i wouldnt she say is perfect.. she followed all rules.. etc. .but she's busy. .and worked hard for this job. so cheersx fo rher =)
i hope i can end up like her one day too. soon i hope. so far, im the most senior anyway. but yea. still need to hang on.
sighs. .duno why ppl just. .sighs...... =( i hate typical malays =((((( appeares to be so humourous.. very funny.. nice to hang out with.. joke ard with.. but i tell u... deeep down, such an asshole. bloody bitches. bloody hell i tell u. i hate typical malays. seriousluy =/.
sighs...
prefer my malay frens who studies.. n decent type. unlike those marids.. minnas type ..eewwwwwwww omg. faint =.=
the other day another customer thoght iwas 18 =.= i was like... dots.. sigh.. wonder if ppl could ever take me seriously.. but u know what. imma do my job well. they can use their own eyes to see it. i don care
sighs. i need to destress somuch. which taking a shower, i suddenly had an urge to cry.. so huggie the pole,. amd cry =( sighs......... felt good though.. thinking iits sammy . lol.not funny =.= but yea.. felt good to have somehting to hold on to and cry for abit.. sighs...
so long nvr cry.. and this time its over a stupid bitch =(
...... sighs.......................
o well. haiz...
just need his support so much right now.. god knows how much i wish to cry over his shoulders while hugging him.... tears.. .rolling down now...
why must i feel so sad just becos of this worthless bitch... =(...
sighs...
o well. ...
oh..today.. sighs.. last night too tired to think. .miscaculated. .then wakey an hour earlier. .dindt realsied it till when im done changing and stuff. then like. .omg. 6 plus onlly.. omg.. .wanna stab myself sia T_T sighs.......... wakey so early an hour only.. but yea.. for nothign =.= omg...
called my amnasgers to u know.. destress abit too.. thknign of how to solved the prob. .melb prob. .when asked if she had the same prob. .she say yes. .she then talk to her manager.. regionall... ,manager.
i talked to my rm too.. but he erm.. well. .let sjust sya........ ..... dots. nvm.. .totally make me more sad only sighs=/. nvm ba
mm.. surprisingly.. not slpy.. tired .. and legs like wanna break liao.. but not slpy.. just dang tired...
k ba.. sighs.. .maybe should go rest.. see hojw... ....
jaa mata.. =/
09 May 2011
Healing love angel
wah liao... kena taken advantage sia =.= bloody hell @##!$^%^$% idiotssssss
=.=
like the dram type ya know.. wtf. like trying to help, then hand touch my hand. asshole. but anyway at least he spend a bomb. but still mad. kinda . like first time in my life ba i think>? kena such dramatic event =.=
curse him!!!
ok. so my fren started going out with fren's bro. i duno. like normal frens only. then seems like they are tlaking toeach other everynight. her bro ar.. omg. power sia when wooing a girl. but i despise that type of actions too. omg. like take this chance to .. dots.. =.= o well. up to my fren ba. but personally, i rrly don like him. marid sia. eew
gosh. .again that other day ask me to hurry up find a man and get marry soon. cos bro's frens getting married etc. .so suddenly she said.. wait. did i talk about htis in my last blog ? O.o i cant remember. .but sounds familiar ne.. deja vu.. o well. maybe i did.
anyway, tired n slpy sia. mm.. this week could be a good one. i attend to good parties once in a while. i hate ppl who party.. but im still a good girl k. muahahaahhaa.
need to destress mah. what to do ne
mm... no matter how i try to get back my health, seems like nutrion aint enough at all ne. still not improving. =/ haiz.... o well. don care ba. i eat what i want.. and.. well, we shall see how in the next 2 months. dang ..
oh. .goodness.. helping ppl to get away from sadness again. @_@ wtf..... omg.
another one came along. don really mind. .glad to help . kinda . dots.. eya.. just don really like it. cos.. well, i don like words from me. cos i dont heed them though i know its true. so like. .yea. .facing my words too. damn
mm.. o well.
cant rememebvr waht to say again. haiyo...
anwyay, so tired ba. cant wait for good thigns to happen man. gosh...
days are so miserable sometimes. but u know. just hanging on. thtas sll
okok.. doing my best to give great advice to my fren. hope he'll be fine soon. will be so glad if i could help sorten out his thoughts man . haiz...
omg. tired. haiz..... =/ sighs..... nah. i don wan to think of future days now.
there snothign left . nothing.
ok. erm.. so.. my colleague... aka colleague's sis also. came into the store. .she then tilt her head when making payment.. she was like surprised to see me. then turns out that she couldnt recognize me at all. las ttime i met her.. .about december ?? i tink. yea. lol. she and her sis said the same exact things sia!! waht i look so different now... =.= i dunno man.. i asked what exactly diff about me now, compared to few months back.. its good diff btw. haha. but she couldnt but she cant quite put her finger into it(her sis too ). so yea o well. mystery auras im now emitting eh. lol
well, whatever it is, its good so cheers. ;)
u know. .its absurd when u have no idea why ppl get angry at ya for what. liek for nothign. i dunno man. human beings are such strange living creatures. goodness. =.=
haven u ever felt that.. u understand something. .something u shouldnt ever be .. like.. thigns falls into place. u have no idea why. but u gain that knowledge. and u know exactly whats the situation.. even though u never learnt of it.. u have no clues.. but u figured everything out. the fact that.. no one sees... no one.. around ur frens or family could tell. but it is so obvious fact.. right in front of u. and no one in history ever said it. u felt as though u know the whole truth out there.
puzzles all falls into place .simplest explanation is out there righ now. u get what i mean> ? i so simple. yet.. no one sees it. u kinda know the meaning.. but becos no one sees it, u felt as though it isnt real. but hten u knew it must be . .. i duno. but .. mm.. o well. perhaps time will tell.. perhpas... future will find a way.. we'll just have to wait and see. .tiem shouldnt be too long now. actions should've been taking place liek. .yea.. .o well. pardon me for my deep talk. but yea..
i truly think that... soething big is coming. and.. well, i just wanan u know. do whatever i can righ tnow.
and..... sighs. nvm ba. don wan think n talk about sad stuff here. what will be will be.
mata
=.=
like the dram type ya know.. wtf. like trying to help, then hand touch my hand. asshole. but anyway at least he spend a bomb. but still mad. kinda . like first time in my life ba i think>? kena such dramatic event =.=
curse him!!!
ok. so my fren started going out with fren's bro. i duno. like normal frens only. then seems like they are tlaking toeach other everynight. her bro ar.. omg. power sia when wooing a girl. but i despise that type of actions too. omg. like take this chance to .. dots.. =.= o well. up to my fren ba. but personally, i rrly don like him. marid sia. eew
gosh. .again that other day ask me to hurry up find a man and get marry soon. cos bro's frens getting married etc. .so suddenly she said.. wait. did i talk about htis in my last blog ? O.o i cant remember. .but sounds familiar ne.. deja vu.. o well. maybe i did.
anyway, tired n slpy sia. mm.. this week could be a good one. i attend to good parties once in a while. i hate ppl who party.. but im still a good girl k. muahahaahhaa.
need to destress mah. what to do ne
mm... no matter how i try to get back my health, seems like nutrion aint enough at all ne. still not improving. =/ haiz.... o well. don care ba. i eat what i want.. and.. well, we shall see how in the next 2 months. dang ..
oh. .goodness.. helping ppl to get away from sadness again. @_@ wtf..... omg.
another one came along. don really mind. .glad to help . kinda . dots.. eya.. just don really like it. cos.. well, i don like words from me. cos i dont heed them though i know its true. so like. .yea. .facing my words too. damn
mm.. o well.
cant rememebvr waht to say again. haiyo...
anwyay, so tired ba. cant wait for good thigns to happen man. gosh...
days are so miserable sometimes. but u know. just hanging on. thtas sll
okok.. doing my best to give great advice to my fren. hope he'll be fine soon. will be so glad if i could help sorten out his thoughts man . haiz...
omg. tired. haiz..... =/ sighs..... nah. i don wan to think of future days now.
there snothign left . nothing.
ok. erm.. so.. my colleague... aka colleague's sis also. came into the store. .she then tilt her head when making payment.. she was like surprised to see me. then turns out that she couldnt recognize me at all. las ttime i met her.. .about december ?? i tink. yea. lol. she and her sis said the same exact things sia!! waht i look so different now... =.= i dunno man.. i asked what exactly diff about me now, compared to few months back.. its good diff btw. haha. but she couldnt but she cant quite put her finger into it(her sis too ). so yea o well. mystery auras im now emitting eh. lol
well, whatever it is, its good so cheers. ;)
u know. .its absurd when u have no idea why ppl get angry at ya for what. liek for nothign. i dunno man. human beings are such strange living creatures. goodness. =.=
haven u ever felt that.. u understand something. .something u shouldnt ever be .. like.. thigns falls into place. u have no idea why. but u gain that knowledge. and u know exactly whats the situation.. even though u never learnt of it.. u have no clues.. but u figured everything out. the fact that.. no one sees... no one.. around ur frens or family could tell. but it is so obvious fact.. right in front of u. and no one in history ever said it. u felt as though u know the whole truth out there.
puzzles all falls into place .simplest explanation is out there righ now. u get what i mean> ? i so simple. yet.. no one sees it. u kinda know the meaning.. but becos no one sees it, u felt as though it isnt real. but hten u knew it must be . .. i duno. but .. mm.. o well. perhaps time will tell.. perhpas... future will find a way.. we'll just have to wait and see. .tiem shouldnt be too long now. actions should've been taking place liek. .yea.. .o well. pardon me for my deep talk. but yea..
i truly think that... soething big is coming. and.. well, i just wanan u know. do whatever i can righ tnow.
and..... sighs. nvm ba. don wan think n talk about sad stuff here. what will be will be.
mata
07 May 2011
pucking saturday
as usual.. i could probably be slping for the whole day today...
today sucks.. totally =( sighs
fuck
anywya, sianz. today polling day. luckily no queue. but... was sick. so ruined. and this poll thigny is such a bloody waste of my time. i dunoo who they are. blah3... just vote only. -_-
i dun care abt it .not one bit .not especially when my block had alot more murders occured already. so yea. o well. haiz. just hope my family will be safe ba.
even my cousin heeard of the palce being in danger. and asked my bro abt it. lol
o well.
o. my fren broke up liiao. everytihing she described is exactly the same as what i encouintered. but of course that wasnt her first love.i knew it when he said such thing to her when he gave her a cam. how could he. wtf.
anyway... haiz. hope she'l be fine soon. she's going through what im going through everyday.
that time. so yea... all the same =/ .. today she went out with our fren's bro. who liked her. dots. but up to her ba. hope she'll feeel better soon
sick again on off dya. my worklaod is to much. so perhaps why ba =/. .. haiz. even if itmeans im getting less pay in future months, i stil lwanna make sure i get to apply for leave. shld be alrite.. but i duno how they count .whatever ba.
haiz.. its suhc a fucking bad day for me =/
duno waht to say ba..
jaa mata
today sucks.. totally =( sighs
fuck
anywya, sianz. today polling day. luckily no queue. but... was sick. so ruined. and this poll thigny is such a bloody waste of my time. i dunoo who they are. blah3... just vote only. -_-
i dun care abt it .not one bit .not especially when my block had alot more murders occured already. so yea. o well. haiz. just hope my family will be safe ba.
even my cousin heeard of the palce being in danger. and asked my bro abt it. lol
o well.
o. my fren broke up liiao. everytihing she described is exactly the same as what i encouintered. but of course that wasnt her first love.i knew it when he said such thing to her when he gave her a cam. how could he. wtf.
anyway... haiz. hope she'l be fine soon. she's going through what im going through everyday.
that time. so yea... all the same =/ .. today she went out with our fren's bro. who liked her. dots. but up to her ba. hope she'll feeel better soon
sick again on off dya. my worklaod is to much. so perhaps why ba =/. .. haiz. even if itmeans im getting less pay in future months, i stil lwanna make sure i get to apply for leave. shld be alrite.. but i duno how they count .whatever ba.
haiz.. its suhc a fucking bad day for me =/
duno waht to say ba..
jaa mata
03 May 2011
Wrong picture
just thought of something. lol. im gonna be so afraid of slping time if im alone in a hotel T_T huu.... gonna be dark and errie.. glups*... scary at the thought of that.. =/
o well..... i have to get used to it ba.
anyway, gosh. so .. wow. tired. dead tired. and so... =/ haiz. kinda stress today man . not good. stupid thing happened. =( but i've donemy best mah.. so if u know.. theres no full picture for her to see, then what to do.
anwayy, haiz. in need of destress.
and like. .me busy non stop working today. so tiring.
thigns to complete are like piles of .. .omg. u don wanna know. =.=''
anyway, haiz. glad hte day is over. just hang on ba... huu
legs pain desu =( haiz... =/ just do it ba. will gambate lots ne ..
huu.. seems liek i've lost my package. baka desu..
o well.. long story,.
kk.. gtg. another tired day for me.. haiz
mata
o well..... i have to get used to it ba.
anyway, gosh. so .. wow. tired. dead tired. and so... =/ haiz. kinda stress today man . not good. stupid thing happened. =( but i've donemy best mah.. so if u know.. theres no full picture for her to see, then what to do.
anwayy, haiz. in need of destress.
and like. .me busy non stop working today. so tiring.
thigns to complete are like piles of .. .omg. u don wanna know. =.=''
anyway, haiz. glad hte day is over. just hang on ba... huu
legs pain desu =( haiz... =/ just do it ba. will gambate lots ne ..
huu.. seems liek i've lost my package. baka desu..
o well.. long story,.
kk.. gtg. another tired day for me.. haiz
mata
02 May 2011
Misses...
ohhh... didnt know there's like bombs aroudn recent;y. and with the death of bin laden.. im afraid the world might get insane anytime soon =/ o well... what to do
oh now then i remember!!! so long ago. omg. weeks ago liao i think.
i was in the bus..(mm.. don think i blog this before ba ) then everybody drops off at the bus interchange.. then theres this box.. like cargo box.. in the middle of the bus. no one pick it up. the driver n passengers alos look at it. then i hurried down to take a train. in case it blows up. lollll but yea. u knw. in these situations.. u never know when these thigs will rrly blow up one day. =/well, it sjust frightening i have to say. i duno what jhappen with that box. or could that be one of the bombs which the tv was talking about just now? i hope now. brr... scary.
but yea... .mm... hard to predict ba.. somemore me always around the danger target zone. huu.... touc wood. thigns will be fine eh. i hope
gosh was so bored today. good thing theres nice tv to watch. then nap. then online. so boring. bt its good to rest ba. like yea. so tired my body. .always T_T
haiz... cold and slpy ne. need to cover well with blankie later...
mm.. thinking of my birthday pressy now... lol. i think i might know what i want..
oh yea. then the last blog. .so my fren bf was like saying. .he bought her the cam. .becos she's always the one remembing things.. liek their firs tkiss... dates.. etc.. so its easier to take the pic, and yea. use it as a memory guide or somehtng. then chose a blue coloud instead of pink. why?? becos he want her to remember him. cos he like blue colour. so when look at the cam ,will rememvber him .
aw.. see... usually girls are the one to rememver lil thigns ne. first kiss la.. how they go ondates.. met. .etc.. first movie. .blah3...
miss him alot. used to able to do so much together.. =/ didnt know he felt the same way too.
i guess... love never cease after all.
still so wish he could be right here.. doing all sorts of things together with me.
how i miss someone to celelbrate birthday with me.. =/
o well..
haiz..
life is so short.. yet.. how many could ever find true love within a lifetime.. and how many is able to.... u know. o well
gosh. dad asked me if i have bf. and when im getting one. he offers to introduce me sia. joking i think he is. omg.. like.. so frustrated to get nag at by ur parents.
=.= o well. just need to be firm and brush him off ba . sianz
jaa mata
oh now then i remember!!! so long ago. omg. weeks ago liao i think.
i was in the bus..(mm.. don think i blog this before ba ) then everybody drops off at the bus interchange.. then theres this box.. like cargo box.. in the middle of the bus. no one pick it up. the driver n passengers alos look at it. then i hurried down to take a train. in case it blows up. lollll but yea. u knw. in these situations.. u never know when these thigs will rrly blow up one day. =/well, it sjust frightening i have to say. i duno what jhappen with that box. or could that be one of the bombs which the tv was talking about just now? i hope now. brr... scary.
but yea... .mm... hard to predict ba.. somemore me always around the danger target zone. huu.... touc wood. thigns will be fine eh. i hope
gosh was so bored today. good thing theres nice tv to watch. then nap. then online. so boring. bt its good to rest ba. like yea. so tired my body. .always T_T
haiz... cold and slpy ne. need to cover well with blankie later...
mm.. thinking of my birthday pressy now... lol. i think i might know what i want..
oh yea. then the last blog. .so my fren bf was like saying. .he bought her the cam. .becos she's always the one remembing things.. liek their firs tkiss... dates.. etc.. so its easier to take the pic, and yea. use it as a memory guide or somehtng. then chose a blue coloud instead of pink. why?? becos he want her to remember him. cos he like blue colour. so when look at the cam ,will rememvber him .
aw.. see... usually girls are the one to rememver lil thigns ne. first kiss la.. how they go ondates.. met. .etc.. first movie. .blah3...
miss him alot. used to able to do so much together.. =/ didnt know he felt the same way too.
i guess... love never cease after all.
still so wish he could be right here.. doing all sorts of things together with me.
how i miss someone to celelbrate birthday with me.. =/
o well..
haiz..
life is so short.. yet.. how many could ever find true love within a lifetime.. and how many is able to.... u know. o well
gosh. dad asked me if i have bf. and when im getting one. he offers to introduce me sia. joking i think he is. omg.. like.. so frustrated to get nag at by ur parents.
=.= o well. just need to be firm and brush him off ba . sianz
jaa mata
01 May 2011
Sweet birthday from my friend
wow. everytime. i suddenly forgot what i wanna say . =.= mm....... o well....
oh. my fren's bf so swt to her. lol. she said.. he was tkain gher around. .n aournd. .walk3.. then blind fold her. .then surprise her with fren her frens around, and her birthday cake .then go sing karaoke. then her gift form bf is a instax camera. i was like. .ok. so lucky =.= i have to buy with my own money sia. .huu.... but she got it for free. ha.
but yea. happy for her anwyay. seems liek she had such a enjoyable day . uh huh
i guess. its knda nice in a way. being the girl everybody wants, but couldnt get their hands on.
its good in a way i guess. o well
anyway, so tired. OMG>... =.= huu.... very2 tired....
mm............ ........ perhaps didn slpt well. wokey at 5 am.. for over an hour plus my nose keeps running =( it was terrible. then no choice. .go eat med. almost immediately im ok liao. stil lterrible. .but at least i was able to fall asllp. why didnt i eat earlier? i thought of too. but one, i didnt have any food, the oitehr, i was afraid of the dark to go to kitchen n get water. so in the end cant stand it anymore, just sawallow the med lor. huu T_T but yea. glad im ok now. duno why ne. suddenly wakey n nose so bad.. liek so sick. omg
=/
mm... o well. so like that ba. hopefully soon, i can get my tickets.. don wan drag too long. otherwise expensive again =/
haiz.. guess too stress, or nothig t o do. so end up spending money =.= haiz .o well. nvm ba.
hope next month will control better
ok. forgot what to say still. nvm. if i ever recalled while im sitting here, i'll ltype it down again
mata
-if the pains of one, could bring relieve and joy to many, I wonder if .. this sacrifice.. is worth it at all.. ;to kill one, and return the peace for others... yea. kill me. oh wait. that's already been done. -
oh. my fren's bf so swt to her. lol. she said.. he was tkain gher around. .n aournd. .walk3.. then blind fold her. .then surprise her with fren her frens around, and her birthday cake .then go sing karaoke. then her gift form bf is a instax camera. i was like. .ok. so lucky =.= i have to buy with my own money sia. .huu.... but she got it for free. ha.
but yea. happy for her anwyay. seems liek she had such a enjoyable day . uh huh
i guess. its knda nice in a way. being the girl everybody wants, but couldnt get their hands on.
its good in a way i guess. o well
anyway, so tired. OMG>... =.= huu.... very2 tired....
mm............ ........ perhaps didn slpt well. wokey at 5 am.. for over an hour plus my nose keeps running =( it was terrible. then no choice. .go eat med. almost immediately im ok liao. stil lterrible. .but at least i was able to fall asllp. why didnt i eat earlier? i thought of too. but one, i didnt have any food, the oitehr, i was afraid of the dark to go to kitchen n get water. so in the end cant stand it anymore, just sawallow the med lor. huu T_T but yea. glad im ok now. duno why ne. suddenly wakey n nose so bad.. liek so sick. omg
=/
mm... o well. so like that ba. hopefully soon, i can get my tickets.. don wan drag too long. otherwise expensive again =/
haiz.. guess too stress, or nothig t o do. so end up spending money =.= haiz .o well. nvm ba.
hope next month will control better
ok. forgot what to say still. nvm. if i ever recalled while im sitting here, i'll ltype it down again
mata
-if the pains of one, could bring relieve and joy to many, I wonder if .. this sacrifice.. is worth it at all.. ;to kill one, and return the peace for others... yea. kill me. oh wait. that's already been done. -
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