wise ppl

haiz.
need a dog . think that;kll rrly help me out to destress. no sammy. no doggie. nothing helps is u know.
sammy not here. doggie faraway dream=/ o well
 dunno why been so stress
yea.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

rrly doesnt feel liek blogging=/

but u know. theres this contestant. wow. he cried when he sees his dad. his dad said. .he may not be rich, have any money( as in his son) but he himself( the dad) didnt have money nor wealth either. but he feel the wealthiest when his son stands on stage and perform.
even simon htinks his dad seem sot eb a nice man.
rrly wow. they are poor . even his son at age 37 still struggle. but such a great voice he has. theres also a cute son tooo.
though life's hard nowadasy, but his dad, didnt mind. nvr look down on themselves . which i think its absolutely fantastic.
absolutely.
its the mindset thats important.
and. .yea. lucky him. such a great understanding father there fo rhim.
very nice indeed.
i hope his boy will grow up to be liek both his dad n granddad.
not say he must be poor, but to have backbone. not give up. and dont look down upon themselves.
theres soemthing htats more waelth than money. and for his dather , its to see his son up on the stage to perform .
duno he can win the comp anot. but rrly wish him luck

the other day mum said to me. .in chinese .. ''you shi kan ni heng xin ku''.
translate to.. somethign liek.. soemtimes i see you very feeling troubled ,or in pain.. or terrible.
like.. xin ku.. as in.. something like. .u feel terribel inside ur heart. if that makes sense.
so yea.
was surprised ba. din ..u know. expect she can tell .but.. also din know i've been showing that? whaen? duno also
maybe.. jus tnot happy enough. or learn how to be happier ba
haiz. o well

oh. saw redz working at nex mall the other day =.= arghhhhhhh
quickly pulled mum away. then io tell her. as ezpected. she say if she'd known she wouldve gone up say hi to him. we both ahev a feelign he saw both of us.
but yea. sorry. i still cant forgive a man who hurt me extremely the top. and hurt my bro and family trust.
though my parents still ok with him, but i cant. i cant forgive him .
thats one thign abt cancer horoscope. u dont wanna mess with their fammily. dont talk bad stuff abt their family. and nvr ever try to hurt them. nveer.
ok maybe not all cancerians. .but yea. lol
but yea. anywya he hurt me so deep. to deep .i dont think i can ever forgive him. i'll rather forget his existenec. but somehow. .his name. .his news.. his sight. .jsut appeared time to time. arghhh =.= sianz. everytiem go nex must avoid that store liao

yay... bought bro's pressy finally. but wil arrived late bah. but yay. sooo oglad to finally settled it!! =) im sure he;l lbe surprised. .adn he'll liek it ^^ alot. its from his fav brand hehhe. mm.. yea we shall see then ne ^^

spoke to my gm .. for the last itme in person,... so nice of her. though she's watching our performance on shop floor.. .
very intimatiing
but i was jsu tdoing my best. heard she corredeted. .gave feeback to new staff.
then heard fulltiemr say liek they not smiling on shop floor.
i totally agreed with gm .rrly. she's rrly good. she knows.
so.. eya. so far liek no prob abt me bah. cos i was smiling lotssss talk loud loud. adn no comments given to m,e. so i think ok bah .

was teary when i was thanking her. .for her help with visa info n all.... =/
rlry. liek wanna cry. aw... uh huh. =/
she say shes sure i'll be back. she say rgm say. .im sure pl will be back .
dunno a. but so swt of her. say if im back maybe i can handle my own store.
anyway yea.
if not for. .sm and rgm of sg. .maybe. ..i wouldve stay on..
but. .o well

huu.. .my left eye. shoudlve stop waering lens for abit bah. think somethigns not right .dang. lens.. =.= troubels sometimes. haiyo

mm.. so yea. hoep the redness will subside soon

mata

playboy lovey future

wow.. was watching cesar spcial epi..

quite interint.g.. discovering.. O.o
so.. these few young womens.. under this PLAYBOY mansion. they live ther. and the man who own the place is an old man with white hair, and looks like he's about to die. seriously. nojoke.
=/.=

sp yea. he helped the ladies there. couple of them.. were the .. so called.. 2010 or 211 something playboy of the month or something.
to my surprised, one of them married a regular looking police officer! she prettyp pretty
ha. but yea. BUT. he looked pretty regular. he's not handsome to the top, he din have a body to the top type,but yea. wow. a regular man, with a playboy woman!! he's jsut a regular average joe !=0

i dunno why and how the playbow girls can get married!

another one. she lives with the playboy photographer. guess what.
hes fat.( big size) . regualr looking man. not handsome.
im like. whoa. all these playboy ladies actually don mind???

honestly. those men are not the most gdlooking guys. they are so normal looking. body size fat and normal. so yea. i was liek wow.

maybe.. .as a playboy girl,... they rrly didnt mind as long as somebody love them eh? ..
but yea..

i wonder.... rrly wonder.. hows it feel like... to move into playboy mansion... u know..etc. huge house n all....
espeically since i don think they truly love htat old man.. =/
haiz... o well.

but yea. this provex that... overall.. not ever pretty women, will marry a man with gorgeous looks.
though having said  tat, im not srue la.. whether that phoptogrpaher and policeman is  liek very rich or what...
sp yea

they sure hav a gd life there eh .. ha.

but yea. even IF im a playboy girl who's living hter,... if one day i find someone i love.  no matter how many awards or magazines im in, i'll still get outta there and marry that man.
not becos theowner is an old man. but becos i don love him. if i love him, then its fine. but if not, must still get outta that mansion and u knwo. love another man., and have my own life.

so yea. quite an interesting episode.
also to think that playboy girls will fall in love married/ live with an average looking man . even the fat ones.
thats nice

huu my ifngers.. still the same =(((

mata

poor fingers =(

huu my poor fingers.. after using that clean solutions n lighter fluid to get rid of the sticky double sided tape, my fingers.. skins.. seems to've gotten destroyed too =( huu

so sad
somemroe today got sotkcs. .my fingers all the more dry.
the white outlines of myh finger prints can see clearly =(
huu. so dry n rough.
so uncomfy. v poor thing=( hopefully theres an improvement by tmr morning

its cnie to see my fren again instore. ha. so swt. she say her mum commented i am really pretty. XD aw.. .happy la. like i'd said. if a woman comment, then its like yea. not so awkward . and meaning they mean it.
if its a man, then its like =.= oh whatever. maybe just tryign to tackle u or what. but yea. very nice auntie =)
hehe .shes a lucky girl. shes adopted. but yea. such nice parents. v lucky indeed....

damn. slashed my hnand cos of a thick paper.. liek card material. =.=
when i was ognna push the rubbish in, and thats when i slashed myself.
 gosh. so scary. that feeling.. the paper.. cutting htrough.. brrrr

gosh so late liao. gonna slp soon. fell aslp on sofa jus tnow.
mm.. though still feeling a lil stress. but may i find a way to be happier each day

mata

witches laughter

my nail bed hurts sooo much due to scrapping off the thick black double sidedd tape sm had put up... =( very difficult to remove.took me an hours time. huu... now my nails pain from scrapping it off =/
huu

still sooo slpyyy not enough slp
wil ldo my best to slp early tonight

haha. finally! i think maybe shld be the same store i saw in syd broadway. got sg dollars. was wondering how come sg don have. see.. now its here. =) but.. disappointed. the clothes is quite the same. .liek normal.
but thhe one i saw at syd. .mm.. i thought it was pretty good. dunno ne.
then theres this cashier there working liek so high =./=
as he saw my company wallet, i say yea i worked there. he asked can give discount anot. if can he gib me too. =.= like. .erm.. who wanna get discountfrom there sia. the thigns so-so only
but hopefully in future the designs will get bettter
however, his service is good though. rather than the boring ones liek thank u hi bye

odya heard a laughter sooooo frightening and eerie liek a witch. is aw a teen, aiwth her frens. she was laughing soooooo loud. that after she walked past my store, her ugly laughter still cna be heard inside my store=.=

its soooooo .. im sorry. but her laughter is incredibly rude, weerie liek a witch, ugley,  scary, loud, horriifying.
imagine how a scary witch laugh. im serious. not kidding at all. =.=
omg. shes a girl for goodness sake!!! eerie is bad enough. but its super loudddddddddd
wow.
i was so shocked. stunned .thats the word
dunno how someone can laugh till like that. horrible.
rrly. for a girl to do that. omg. scacry

kk. gonna try slp fast after fb bah. by the time i slp shld be midnight? mm
o well

was still looking at the dress i tried on ytd at topshop. all my colleagues say nice. say im sexy la wearing that=.=...
all the more i think is houldnt buy eh. mm.. yea. anyway dont think i shld ba
design is palin. but i liek hte material. quite comfy.

mata

tearful goodbye pics =(

oh no late liao.. nid to catch up on my reading! but blog abit first bah

so sad. this dog and this man in army...
=( they have to be separated... after 2 yrs together.. .
cant that man try to do something abt it??? =(

that dog pulled his bag.. don let him leave.... as in using his mouth to bite n pull
then he ended up carrying his bag in his mouth and walk to the gate... =((((
shoot. .gonna cry liao. hten suddenly his man ;s army hat flew off ,he ran and fetch it back for him...=((( huuu teary eyes liao...
im rrly so touched....
then yea.. the dog still in army.. whilst the man gotta leave liao. my heart broke too for them. =((( 9the dog must've misses his man,... huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu im soooooo sad =((((((((((((((((((( cant stop crying.. sighs..... the pics.. rrly touching. i can picture in my head.. how he pull his bag.. run to fetch his hat.. n carry his bag... like their final moments=((((
sobz....................
rlry sad. .poor thing
sighs
rrly broke my heart.. .=( poor dog... huuuuu
hope it's doing well.... sighs...

..o well.. =/

oh yea. today my sm noticed too. thought it was my imaginetion. but yea. turned out that sm also say.. that guy keep looking at u.
yea!! a malay guy.
hello. his gf is there k. (shld be his gf)
i rrly dislike guys doing that whilst their gf is ard. though they say its men nature.. etc. but stilol,... argh. very irritating. be discreet la. control. respect his gf bah.
rrly.... omg. so oooooo irriating!!!
my fren agreed too. or mayb e one day all hte girls shld start doing the same huh. when bf not looking, then sneak peek at other guys.. .*rolled eyes
rrly hate that type of ppl . look3... look at their own gf la! =.=
geez... but guess that cant be help ba. cos they say its mens nature
=.=
so yea. dunno la.
but i believe not all men are liek that ba

kk. got some catchings up to do.

mata!! bedtime reading time

lack of sleep

extremely slpy todya. perhaops too nervous abt the meeting today. anyway,
three hrs of slp thats all ive got. =.= soooooo slpy now. luckily nvr missed my bus. almost. phew

watched boa's hollywood movie make you move.
so ncie .
very nice dance.
mm.. .yea. jsut so.. nice. .to see a couple fight it through.. and u know. end up together.
swt nice ending.... =) but yea.. hoshii...
yearnings..

mm..
gonna slp soon

soooo slpy

mm.. nothing else to blog liao huh. so weird

oh ytd.. huuu oly had old chang kee for lucnh. cos ppl forgot my order of noodle =(
sad.
somemore glulped down old changkee in abt 5mins
gosh
not nice

kk.gtg bah


too slpy..but stil lwanna msg sammy..

mata

sleepy mode

gosh.. borrowed soo many books. wanan do my best to read them all up on time
soooo slpy nearly fall aslp jsut now.
btu yea. knockout again in bus earlier on =.=
o well too slpy

gonna slp soon

wow. so difficult for me to slp early indeed. few asy back, i tried to slop at 10. ended up i tumble ard bed... cant slp. untill 1aam =.=
dots
ut was slpy..but.. i jsut cant rrly slp at 10pm ba.
very difficult.

cant wait to slp

oh yea. so was having lunch iwht my sm on monday. went to buy food.
then my sm say two malay guys checking me up and down .
=.= thats why i walk fast2. cos i don like ppl looking at me like that. somemore.. most of the times i din know=./=
til lsomeone tells me
anyway yea. so irritating! i can see la from the corner of my eyes.. like theirs eyes are on me.
argh... irritaing indeed.
wish my sm nvr tell me though ha.
awkward la.
somemore im only wearing spec.. like a normal girl u know.
mm.. did i blog this liao>? sorry rrly cant rememebr

sooo slpyyy
what else..mm.. o well.

kk. nid to hit the sack soon

mata!

cesar is still great

soooooooooooo slpyyyy
omg. fell aslp. hten wakey.. the watch little mermaid..
mm... actually.. lil meermaid.. isnt my fav princess show.
u know.. i love beauty n the beast the most.. cos i liek hwo hte fact taht this belle, is normal girl. loves reading, and fell inlove with a beast despite of his look.
thats why.. i go for the feel, and the way my man supposed to treat me. not how handsome he is.
did she inspired me? maybe.
but.. well, ive nvr been a girl to go after a super handsome guy or watsoever. its the way a man ..how they supposed to treat u. not their face or body.
face n body is great, doesnt mean they are true to u. doens tmean they love u deeply. htats why i find nerds are mroe atractive than some bloody super modedls...etc. though they wear thick glasses, buck tooth,(u knwo i have a thing for htat hahaha. i dunno whyXDexp the one from harry potter) ..
yea.
but that aside, i still find my bf the most attractive and lovey of all. so yea. ^^ dont get me wrong haha.
im faithful to him only. my samy darling=P
anywya, so yea. .i dun rlry liek that movei.. mermaid,. .cos..... ..well. .for one. her dada object.. ...the prince nearly amrried the evil witch..
..adn shes not gonna see her dad as often..
but yea. happy ending. .still makes me kinda sad. .cos.. i yearned fo rthat

huuu send a pic of me like. .pout wanna kissy look to sammy. but he say its duck lips T_T huuu
me failed. nv. treat it as a lesson. maybe i shoudlve look like htat whne i kiss him
but yea. .huu.. duck lips.. me dun like T_T
but its awesome. we skype today. his voice. .and the way he reacted.. .. uh huh.. everythign is in my head. i now exactly hwop his expressions are.. haha. so cute and kissable =3
expeciall the part where he say its been a whiel since he spoek to me over skpye. i was like.. a while??? (cos its more than a while duh... hah)
hes like.. 'fumbling wiht his words... and i know exactly his expressions when he does that^^
so miss it. rrly.


wounds on my nhand are healing.. but.. more stocks coming. .so .. ow ell

gosh. i mus tforce myself to read!!
cos i borrowed alot of cesar millan books XD
ohh almost forgot. .speaking of him,
.samy say soemthing abt some pl dislike his way of handling hte dogs.. he was busy so i din ask further. maybe its form news??
anyway,i know what he means. adn what the ppl are thinking.
cos.. displine. .and stuffs.. can be abit diff from what u see on tv.. or frens dogs.. they cuddles.. slp in same bed etc..
BUT. honestly. not 100% ppl are gonna think he's great.
eevry great ppl, normal ppl will bound to have some negative feedbacks.. eitherjealous, or lack of knowledge.. etc.
nobody is perfect. exp: i had some customers who like me alot, and hinted abt introdcuing heir childern to me.. but my bf parents disliek me. so yea.
u cant help that much.
nobody will be like100% by everyone.

potint is, i thoguht abt that before.
cos i wanna spoiled and cuddle my doggie if i have one one day. but .. i would rather \be prepared first. cos.. if i dont, theres a chance they might turn out to be tricky to handle.

now think .of how many dogs cesar had saved.
saved them from being put down by their owners.
thats somethign we cant deny abt.
without him, more humans wouldve givecn up on their dogs, and put them to sleep(= death)
his methods sure works with the problematic dogs(due to humans fauklts)
he saved them. so yea.
its ok.
just that vertain ppl cant see it ba.. and they think its being too straict' with the dogs..
o well
but still, he's a great man. a shame that his wife wanna leave himm.he almost commit scuicide when his wife filed fo rdivource and when is beloved dog daddy died. so poor thing. duno what happen .maybe no time for his wife? bad in bed? i dunno. bu well, its her lose ba?
anywa he got gf now. so yea.. thast great.

gosh. just realized.. not ussed to it. think im losing weight O.O
my legs.. was abit shocked.. then my arms..
dunno bah..
but.. yea.. not used to it.

was having lunch wiht sm on monday. (yea finnaly just recalled)
then thee two malay  guys.. like. checking me out. dunno ba.
from the corner of my eyes.. i sense not right. so i walked very fast as alwasy.. to excape guys. then sm say they were looking at me up and down checing me out.  which i did felt that . argh so irritating.
that same day la. where im wearing specs.. normal looking..
in my previosu post)
rrly dislike la.. that kind of attention =/

so yea. thast abt it. great that i skype with him finally.
and i need to rush through my books! =X
gosh

kk.. super slpyyyy

mata ne

trying to trick me? =.=

was thinking of what to blog..
accumulate first, then blog.

mm. .lets see if ill forget

so theres this new staff. half jap. eng accent.
very lucky young girl .
going to study in london in jan. study there for as long as she want.
her parents aint at home most of the time, so shes fine with jsut being therein london with parents.
yea typical rich kid
she sin international school now i think. shes quite alright. but .
for teenager.. theres always this childish side.. mm...
i kinda like talking to her. i do. but.. she revealed this side. .whihc i dun rrly like= /
she was talking abouther school..and how certain ppl stayed back twice. and she mentioend this girl. stayed back twice. i said it in a jk manner. maybe she liek that palce. amybe she liek a guy there.. so she wanna stay. she slike. no. she s just stupid. and she repeated that word Stupid a couple of times abt that girl. i was like.abit taken aback. O.o
...its mean. to say soemone stupid like that. but duno la. maybe shes a bitch or something? then shes angry and called her stupid to stay back for two yrs liao.
but ..i don think so. i think she just purely think that girl is indeed stupid enough to saty back two yrs=/
which isnt very ncie to say that of anyone.
sighs.
ut yea. gotta admit. envy lots.
ppl can just go anywhere to study. and she don have to work part tiem to support hersefl there. duh. rich parents

then seeing my fren got engaged... or those who're able to bring their paretns for travel..
yea.. sadden me quite abit i'll say.
ha
seven sins huh.. envyness.. it holds so much power within..
its scary. all i can do is try to avoid that other ppls path. and focus on mine ba

ha. i was jsut being normal today. u know. wearing spec. minimal makeup.
then need to wear xmas decor mah. i was wearing this horn headband .reindeer horns. btw 2 time salrdy. the angmohs will tease me about it. jokinlgy say oh i have horns! hahaha. v funny.
anyway, this rich looking auntie., looking for wine bag. as i showed her, i then turned my head, shes like ''oh you're so cute!''
XD! lollllll
duno she say omg or oh. but yea. she say youre so cute. hahhahaha
 i was like. oh thank u! =3 so shy.
maybe cos of my specs plus the horns... then yea. more innocent look bah>? lol
soemore i din wear liek fancy makeup or what. just like. .minimal school girl kinda look. the plus spec and reindeer horns, haha. = cute ar
wow

oh. during my last blog i got mentioned the weird man who said hello to me right. m.. yea think i did.

anyway,
oh bus interchange. nowadasy.. the teenager.s younger generations,. they don wait u konw. they will cut queue especially if they were the last to arrive. then they move to the middle. wth
ive seen a uncle scolded one guy before. now i know how he feel. and yes that guy deserves it.
seriously. yes the old ppl sometimes make the same mistakes. but even the younger generations too? omg. flabberghasted

mm waht else

oh .so. sm say.. you look say happy to leave this company. she said it in a ncie tone. not bad way.
so yea.
i was like. yea cos i still need to work mah
but yea. if i work sadly, later rgm will say.. oh too laidback cos no business here alrdy, can anyhow work.. wanna go away alrdy isit..
yes he will say that.
trust me
so of course i cant work liek im feelign down and sad.. etc

ohhhhhhh this girl. maybe about my age.??
in her 20s? she wore a decent.. liek office wear.. very normal. shes soooo normal decent  lookign girl. imagine me la.
liek u wont even think she will attempt to steal a $450 bag and a $223 compendium.

she even dare lied to me say she make hte payment alrdy with other girl .then i check. not right. sales sitll the same ne.
then my colleague say whilst i was away to toilet, she came back, and she put the bag into our paperbag herself. the paperbag is located at our counter area. cos busy. sowhen i was away to toiekt, that area is empty for a while, till my colleague came back, to see her does that .OMG.
if she din see, customer sure walk away daringly liao. then i check withj alll coleagues, nobody serve her. meaning no transacation gone through at all.
holy cow
she dare lie to me. crap.
then maybe she knew cant escape. so say.. help her put behind counter first cos its heavy. then blah3.. .skip forward ,her fren arrived, and when i ask her to pay , she sya will come back later.
wth.
obviously she kenw ba. cos even my sm was alerted. and shes out. and say she din serve her.

omg. this girl, rrly. her face and her look..what shes wearing, everything is so normal looking. like a normal person on break form ioffice job
u will nvr think she lied , and wanna steal
omg. so scary. luckily my ciollleague get ther ein time. jsut to witness she put the thing into paperbag. if not, she definitely dare to walk out liao. and luckily i got back from toilet on time too
phew
rrly. close call man
this woman... omg.. ..speechless
shameless to do such thing. lie somemore say her frens coming wanna see the iten. to share mone for for colleague.
wth
im not a mena person. if im mean. i couldve say in front of her fren. (one fren arrived only k. ) oh tot u say paid alrdy ? my collegues say u did not. and they see u putting the iteminto paperbag urself.
=.=

haiz. o well. disgustin gppl all exists. yes. this kind of ppl u wanna say stupid, go ahead.
=.=
i pity her. rrly =/
haiz. ...so blood boiling. hate ppl trying to trick me!

k bah. when i though tof anything else ot type will try to bah. getting late liao .
my hands.. as usuall... xmas.. more stocks, more cuts... huu

mata

right choice

so this episode of dog whisperer.. dog died.. the son took a liking to this dog (getting a new dog) tht looks liek hte one just died.
its also a dog companion for the dog that they had. an old builldog
theres another choice. chihuahua i think. mellow. swt. follow the boy. licking him. but the boy only has eyes have the other dog. which is a bad one. fierce one. they will need more time to train n teach him displin him if they wan the fiercer dog. whihch the boy like,.at one point cesar asked. the boy. u want (the old bulldog) to be challenged, or(something about relax). boy said.. well. .he can still be challenged... omg i wanted to slap the boy u know=/=
but in the end,(btw he's a celebrity's son)
he still deciced to choose the swt chi huahua. cos that other dog too difiult. and was fighting with the bulldog . pee to makrk his territory too. =/
so yea. was like. .phew...aww.. in the end he finally relented and choose the swt one

but i totally understand his position. if i am a child, like him, he's a child only. i wouldve choose ..wanted to choose a dog that looks nice. the type i want. but. the type i want, doesnt mean its good.
can. he can tech the bad doog to be gd and all. but how much time he hav? his family? his bulldog must suufer abit more.
so he cant u know. so he chose the right one the swt mellow faithful dog.
yea. phew. rlry happy. cos thta dog relaly swt

haha. a customer complimented my eyeshadow look very nice today .=) i blushes immediately^^ but so happy

so tired... gosh. wherer got put me and with two new stafs . =/ somemore the other staff so long nvr work
oh man

mountain of stocks

mm.. soyea.
dunno why im thinking of myself. .
like,..
despite being the 'good' dog.. yet. .ppl have to think before accepting me..
ppl wanan reject..thinking im not gd enough..
=/ o well
..how great it would be if they are able to accept me.. huh
sniif. hah

mata

stress now and then

i knew it. ha. he wont msg sometimes for a whoel day or more days. i'd experienced that before. not the first time.
ow ell
busy man .so mcuh to.. u kwno

ha. was suddenly thinking of.. back in he days.. we went for date.. adn after movie how i pulled him aside to kiss him.. at the risk of ppl might see us. haha.but i just rememebr that i rrly wanted to kiss him badly so yea.
but it was exciting. and so swt. and so... yea. ;) u knwo what i mean
. so tempting too

mm.  . so tired.
very slpy still

new job kinda stressed me out here and then. its jsut hte stress im putting on my lysefl i guess=/
too hard on myslef
i dunno
 =/
but yea.
soemtimes i worried too much. stresses too much
but then again.. .what to do. usually i dont share with much ppl. someitmes jus tto myself. i dont liek bringing negative to ppl
or if ppl cant open up to me
what for share then
not a big issue but.. yea .
jsut ..stil lcan be stressed out over this. or yea

im so slpy now. mrg rained.. but ive to work.
man.
mm..

oh ya. gd thgin didnt see that stalker today phew. =.=

mm...   3 weeks. to go.. oh man =/
..o well... just gotta look forward now..

so wanan slp asap
been loving to nap iwth my minion balloon. ha. i'll hold his hand and go lalaland sometimes...when im heading  for a nap. he cheered me up when i se ehis wide smiel face
yea..

hionestly, last month, and of course this early month, been really bad and stressful fo rme=(
sighs
v sressful
thast why shop to destress haiz.
if i have him here, wont need to shop, maybe can save more money

oh yea. .mm. did i mention?
my new workplace xcan wear mostly whatever i wan)
yay.
cos usually i wont buy anything cos im lie htinking. .wear so nice. .buuy so exp dress, no bf to wear for.. whaat ffor then. 5days a week im wearing black ne.
then now, .... yay. wow. can wear whatever i want liao. mostly like i'd said=)
hehe. so yea.. .
wee

and yea. so sa.d. dogs being put down cos. .u kwno =/
especially pit bull. i dun liek them before. but cxos of cesar, i find them to be so gentle and swt. well. they are not. not all of them. but they are good dogs if u rain them well.

i lov ethis line form cesar.. .he's telling one of the ppl.. ''cos you know htere's always this gd side(of the dog) , its NOT LIEK YOURE DEALING WIIH THE HUMAN''./
get it?
meaing dogs can always be good. but u cant deal or predit. notr change a human being.  oh he's so good =)


mata

coooolll

ohhh ha. last night? or last two nights? was at interchange. then all was walking towards bus. time to leave. this woman still looking at her phone. i was like. i also dunno hwy. i was feeling rrly tired. like. no feelings. .calm. more of very tired. cant be bother mood.
then after 2secs, i was like.. using two of my fingers, using swipe motion, from right to left. in between her phone and eyes. then when she sees it, i swipe' towards the further left side. to let her see everybody is moving away lial .all waitinf for her to budge.
she jus tsmile and apologise very politely. i said its ok. gave a faint smile. liek id said. was too tired.
two nights ago. yup i recalled liao.
i wa slike. wow. so cool.XD lolllllll haha
i dunno why i was so cool' that night lol.
weird. maybe too tired ba. well, soemtimes i surprised myself. even wit h funny acts

mm.. abit nervous abt starting in new place .u know. with new ppl and all... especially after hearing stufsf..
so yea. will se ehow thigns go ba. wish me luck

so tired today. my legs.. aching badly huuu =(

kk. gtg

mata ne.
so wanna slp soon.
been so slpy these days... gosh
lesg aching due to ytd ba. not enough rest ye tstil lwent out fo rthe induction. o well

nerve wrecking moments

was so nervous about the induction today. but, .o well .

anyway, theres always a first itme bah. .remidned me of when i first started at my current workplace

though i hear bad thigns about this outlet.. i still hope thign swill work out. but that girl's look on her face.. like.. telling me.. she dislike im the asm there.
liek shes in a shocked.
i duno. but yea.
nothign much to be done. wil ljsut do my best ba

mm.. more or less abit stress bah. maybe jsut giving myself stress without knowing=/
thankfully theres sammy there msging me swtly though he's studying.
otherwise think i wouldve feel even more stress throughout the day=/
it sjust tough u know
first step..its always tough

i misses him alot.,, wis to se ehim badly again. but. .yea.. haiz.. what to do , money is an issue
if not sure fly there every month eh. ha
..o well

mm...
k bah.. thats abt it..
stress btu life goes on
unless oen ends it

today been such a sleepy day for me. sooooo glad ive finally got more than 5or 6 hrs of slp. omg. . finally. but yea. thats why me still so tired even after wakey. glad its raining in mrg.
but no sammy
still, it was a  nice slp.
rrly tired throughotu the day

kk. .hoep to release myself of negative energy asap

cant wait to slp seriously

sad when u watch the vis.. and realise.. yea.. alot of tiems. .so many dogs get to put down or put to slp due to humans.
even a angmoh old lady say.. put them to slp.. put them down. was like. .wow. how could she said that. =/
huu... rrly not their fault mah. when owners do wrong thing, their dogs get put to sleep. wat the.. =/ thats too bad u know
rrly sad

kk gtg slp liao

mata ne

jobs

so late liao. extremely slpy. =/
just finished dvd in case youre wondering

anyway,
gtg slp asap

i knew it. everytime a staff wanna quit, he will htink of something to ruin' tat person reputation.
stupid.
pp make so many mistakes nvr   give warning, then ppl wanna leave, find faults here n there
wth
rrly .
my decision is right i think
even if u ask me to work for 1000 worht of pay now, i will still leave
i jsut cant stand them any longer.
dunno abt the new place.
heard thigns abt the sm there. but yea.
dunno how theyh work etc..
haven sign contract but wan me go induction n meeting liao O.o so weird ar
but anyway, we'll see hwo that place goes

jsut very nervous abt tmrs induction =/ wish me luck
kk. eyes closing. brain shutting down night

mata

idiotic ppl =.=

haiyo everytime say wanna slp early. .then .. yea=.= nvr

anyway, see. i knew another oen will come up very soon. diaster ... nature is crazy nowadasy. i wonder which place will be next .like i'd said earlier month back. i still remember.
mm.... i rrly wonde rne..
but yea. its sad news though. but what to do,. nowadasy.. the mother nature is going bonker. and. yea=/
many ppl dying.. places got destroyed.
o well
haiz. whats next. thunder?
thunder storm?
mm.. or raining pebbles?
duno ba. but im pretty sur ethis aint the end of it

oh man. always so many irritating customers. espeically those rich taitai. =.=
what for u wanna show off ur branded thigns to stranger? choos ehte ppl u talk with. then the low rank ppll u can bark on? oh pls
no wdoner teenagers young ppl nowadasy .. rrly. ill mannered.
=.=
irritating. rrly. man y ppl will agree. nowadays the ppl or those schooling ppl, very rude and proud .ill mannered

aww.... so swt. my childhood frem, well, we're not in contact. but i know her in school so yea
so on direct contact. but u knwo. fb
so yea. she got engaged!!! i think she's slightly shorter than me?
but her fiance veryyyyyy tall.
she's at his shoulder height. no wonder she's always wearing heels. from her pic, as well as ive seen her walked past my store before. hahaha
yea.i think im at ard sammys height too. but i cant wear high heels when i visit him=/
cos had experience before.. .painsssssss
haha .in the end wore one or two day tats it. haha .hurts liao. need slipper
thats why only wedges or slippers fo rme. luckily that time the wedges not painful.
so yea. sadly cant wear heels when i visit him.
but back to myh fren.' its nice to know la.. that u know. frens getting engaged and stuff. they been together for three years according to her fb posts. ha.
so yea
rrly glad for her. but at the same time a lil jealous. envy ba ....
so yea. o well

so yea. liek tat bah
lucky girl.

oh no midnight liao =((
huuu slpy in bus jus tnow.

kk gtg mata

what do they want?

and so its like... rgm is disappointed with my reaction??
i rrly dunno.. have no idea . shld i react by smiling? angry? or cry??
his words din even get through me. like abit insincere too. i dunno. sometimees im fed up with all these stupid huamns behaviours, words, nonsense. very onnsense
argh i dunno waht they want!!
its getting on my nerves. thogh i dont wish to. but.. its so.. arghhh say one thign do another. say team quote is no question is too silly, then say use common sense when i ask. wth
dunno what they wan la

anyway, haha .customer took a pic with me. form india. cos i let her use up all her conins. before she go back to india.
she say wanna tell everyone i very nice to let her do that. XD gosh. hope shes not serious abt doing it.

mm.. oh yea. induction coming up soon. im abit nervous ne...

and yea. these days im no getting enough slp. ay be ard 4-6 .
o well... tahan ba
haiz. jsut glad im finally getting outta there. .though dunno the ppl and sm are rrly as bad a what time girl tiold me, but even if it is, its ok ba. cos here, like i'd said. can no longer stay there. cos the ppl there.. i have no faith in them liao. =/
im tired. so much thignx t o do eetc
empty promises.. etc
im not happy laio.
so yea. anywya wish me luck

mata

time for gdbye

omg. ha... this fren of mine, well , rather is a stranger to me. .tiem to time will post photos of herself.. i know her. i know how she looks like in person.. bu this time roun, .. wow. it is so bloody obvious that she 'corrected' her face using god knows if htats some kind of app or photoshop. its liek her face..chine..so sharp. unnaturally sharp =.= like super sharp v shape of her face and jawline. omg
uh huh. very fake. oh gosh
like.. paiseh ne.. if u do such thing to urself.. =/

haiz. so yea. this is it. ive submitted it.. etc.. rgm talked weird stuffs... etc..
din help at all.. so yea. no reason for me to stay at all.
i duno what hes talking abt. but. o well
its over now so .. uh huh
..haiz.
was like so stress.. now.. finallyh its over.. yet.. u know.. its gonan be the .. final month here... and.. yea...
if only theres no ppl like them... i wouldve ..stay here longer.. ive no problem with the previous aussie rgm and sm. though firm, yet they are awesoem to work wwith
.hey. even the previous melb sm.. promoted to senior sm.. then to cluster sm, she still decided to leave after a couple of months of being cluster sm.
i think she started out as fulltimer perhaps. in that new store .then after abt 5-6 months time, shes now a sm in that store.

uh huh. sometimes u just have to give up everything
she's almost 5 yrs there u know.
bu she still give up that cluster sm position..to start out as fulltimer.

anyway,

mm..
geez.. as though i'd wanted to type somehting important today..but i cant rememebr liao =.=

glad to msg him when i am having a tough stress mooment of day.. though he slpt early...but yea. better than nothing,
just hope.
tat everything will be fine fo the rest of one months time
skalia kena mistreated eh. ha
o well
nvm ba. i bear with it.
jsu toen motre month to go.. =/
glad to have sammys support. cos iwhtout him, i wouldnt be so sure abt my decision too

ssad. soemtiems.. most of the time, it is humans fault.. but cos they cant contorl a dog, they decided to put the dog down. which is a big mistake =/ they dont deserve that.
its humans fault. not the dogs. =/
haiz.

oh yea. so sweet. this dog video... omg. this dog helpoed another dog to swim. soooo sweet =)))))) she s like a hu,man. she gave her a floating ..erm.. platform in case she don dare to swim or scaed or drown. wowo.so impressive. =) swt dog ^^ im very impressive =D


mata

i said it

iw as so nervous.. such nerving wreckingd ay. was like woke up, and think. this is finanlly the day.. bt wait n wait.. sm still not back in store. no choice.emailed her. she called back. in a way im relieved la.
so yea. told her abt the job. she sounded calm and quite nice. like normal.
not angry. no objections and all..
so yea...
im very glad. phew....
but rgm tmr.. gosh. dunno nice me to stay back after meeting anot =/ opw e;;

but i do need to submit my letter tmr ba
one month notice ne. cant believe im still thinking.. do i wan to do this?
its definitely a scary thing. bt. well, i decided to do it.
first step is always hte hardest

ahh... see tol dya.
=. =
was telling my colleagu who din go for the bbqa. told her 'u can defintely tell im not in a gd mood. im sad and swollen looking face and eyes cos i cried so mcuh that day. was so sad'. and she was like yea. she looked through the pics of another fren's cam. whioch i haven sene yet
but ea. she was like. your eyes looks like O.O
o well. what to do =/
sad huh
even teh instax cam i brought also din use at all
din take pics with them when they taking. in fact i was kinda avoiding it
so yea.
o well
ytd slp tso late. gosh. gona not enough slp again

oh yea. hope my letter is ok. was thinking of how to write resignation letter. also asked my fren abt it. mm... think will double check before i send ba

mata

sad xmas dinner

sighs... now still stressing over how am i suppoesd to strt this conversation...to quit my job.
very stress. =/
hopefully they're free tmr. i need to settle it this week =/
though when they are nice, they are very nice. can joke can laugh. tlak frenkly etc. but sometimes.. its difficul for them to understand.. or trying to tlak to them.. or maybe their expectations wil lalways be so nhigh.
i dont know. i rrly dont.
but yea.
ytd morning was a nightmar. having slashed at for god knows hwat ive done. i am clueless.
ive done my best. i am clueless. what went wrong
i rrly dunno.
whatever ba
haiz
even if they are gonna get angry, ... =/ nothign i can do. jsut kena scold ba
was rrly crying out so badly  u know. maybe cos sterss all break loose
but yea. eyes swollen.
whole day crying .somemore not enough, rgm tlaked to me. not in a scolding manner but yea tlak3...
i din even bother to explain or fend for myself. useless. pointless.
yes. it is tempting when ur colleagues ask u to think thrice. one of them even came back. soon after quitting.
rgm was also saying how ppl wanted to return cos they thought its greener over the other side of job)
even in australia.
he was saing how all his working experineces, this company is the best.. the ppl all so nice. etc.
yes. all very tempting. but the unhappiness and the job wise ..the things to do..etc .its too much. enogh is enough ba

ytd  .worst day ever. sad day ever =(
sad looking face, swollen eyes, no mood at all. din even take more than 5 photos
sighs. rrly no mood. rrly. ruined the bbq.

i know what my heart is saying. its not in this store now. i do want to get ot of here. i dislike working here.
i rrly do.
i am not happy working there.i am not looking foward weither. yes. ppl ar efrenly n nice to talk to. but sometimes u dunno what they're thinking either.
who kwnos maybe they are jealous youre close with certain higher ranking ppl, or u instructed them too much. etx
that happened before wat. with the melb sm and me. they jealous,.
wahtever

ok. finally tmr is the day. i know they're busy. but i do wish to se ethem
or talk to sm first.
i think they'll be shocked
i must be prepared for their angry or negative faces eh

lecturing ur staff in front of the other staff saying so tat person can learn from it,  its such a .. wtf thinking.
seriously .
wth.
i dont get it.

ha. itz interesting to se esammy saying working with frens these days
at one point he used to always tell me. frens are frens. colleagues are colleagues. htough i was trying to tell him colleagues can be frens too. but of course. when it comes tow ork, its all abt business. work. not play time. though yes, htere canbe play time. but at the righ ttime. with right amount .
so yea. maybe he see the point now huh? =)
thats why it seven more tricky n difficult whne you're telling someone close to u to do this and that. yes htey understand. but if they are those type of ppl who dont understan , thats it.
o well.
thinking they can get through anything cos they are frens with ppl in charge=.=
someites htey meant no harm , but jsut that they are not serious at work
jsut too playful

slpy. din slpt much... headache is coming.
late iao. dang =.= wakey too late huuuu

bro slp liao. im all alone.
sammy also slp liao .he slpt early today

im slping late otnight

oh yea. saw 3 bras i rrly like today. similar to the desigs i was searching for in aust. anyway, sadly,. .one of the design i wanted, is out of stock. and wont be coming. huuu =( sad.
rrly want all of them .so ncie u know.
one of the sales person sucks. a malay girl .dunno shes new or what. =. =
told her my size ,but i wasnt tat sure. then she measure. i told her c cup. but she say b. s i ry it on. luckily another china lady help me see.haha .she say i am very slim lol. XD shy me.
then yea she ssay i may need c cup. which is the size i was telling taht malay abt. but i jsut wasnt 100% sur eu see. dunno how she measure one .=.=
then ask that malay girl if these two bras deisgns are the same only diff colours? she say yea. same deisng only diff colours. then when the china lady handed me the black one, i realzied its diff desigsn from the purple one. =.=
dots
but yea. luckily she show me the black. but anyway, thats cos purple one no stocok liao. what a sham,e

kk. better get this blog over with.
gonna slp after watching abit mroe of cesar heh

mata

anxiety?

so stress today.
gosh=( maybe due to time of month coming
tch. just not a great feeling =/

so. i knew it. sometimes sm will say yes. btu its actually wrong. i asked her if the item she was lookiiing for was checked off ofrm the list, she say yes3... tehn end up no. we din receive at all. its not meant for us=.=
anyway go tmore thigns to worry about bah. how . if nvr find hte missing signages. .rgm sure gonan scold n make lots of noise
also dunno why is this always happening. cos its a busy store?
argh
=/

sighs.
dunno ba.
sometimes so sick n tired of these unfair noises they make.

tryign to calm down.. uh huh

k ba. think imma hit the sack now.
hopefully tmr is and will gonna be a very good day.

mata

dog whisperer

ok gonna slp right after this. so slpy. din slp much ne

so.. learned abit more about dogs again from cesar. yes.that dog whisperer.

anyway, watched a couple of his vids today =)
and yea.. wow. din know the author of marley and me ' (movie) is a true story.
but theyve gotten a new dog since marley's death. then they seek's cesar's help. lol when the dog frightened the chicken into laying egg. omg. hilarious hahaha.
but yea... so sad huh. i dunno ba.. but i did heard ppl say very sad teary ending to the dog =((
i nvr dare to watch it. i knew i'll cry liekmad. liek the ... shoot whats that called... that movie.. harrison ford.. with that dog.. the dog waited for him nine years based on TRUE stoory. dang. =.= suddenly cant recalled his name. but yea.. i cried ... =( left me heartbroken
 so no way am i wathcing marlye and me. unless sammy is wit me . i can cry on his chest, or at home.. with him.. but yea. =/ i sitll.. rrly do not wish to wastch that sad movie though its funny at the beginning =(

and this couple. so lucky. this old man. seems to be a baseball starlet in his younger days. he say.. he got everything he nid righ tnow. he have a beautiful wife(ab same age as him ba) , he got house, monehy, awesoem bike, he go tnothign rto worry about. everythign he nid is right there(probably too much money he no need tow work now. yea) . they married over 10 yrs , no children. htey treat their dogs as childrensonly prob is his dogs behavious. so yea cesdar save teh day.
bt wow. so ncie huh. u have ur partner, no need to worry abt work, money etc... u have ur home. enough money to get by. o fine. no children. but ehy have lovely dogs. so its fine. wow. this kind of life.who would want???
sadly.. my dad. .at his age, still needs to work..mum too. ow e.. =/ thats life. eevrybody is diff... ...sigsh
but yea.
can tell tehy're quite a nice couple though =) lucky wife of his too.
no worries for her liao

so eya. thats abt it.

and i got bothered by a call jsut when i was abt to go on a rest.. from sm. sayingrgm angry abt thigns that cannot be found. ..sigsh= /
why always liek taht..
then tell sm me and other stuffs must find no matter what .hello??? if sm dont know anyting ,u htink i'll know???
even though im doing vm, doesnt mean ive seen taht stuff.
sighs
thas why sometimes im rrly stressed out. and i jsut wanna get out of that placve. =(

o well

sigsh

gonna have a gd slp i hope

haiz.

oh almost forgot. saw a vey nice watch today
by g shock.
quite a few i like .but two caught my attention. the bigger one is numebr 1 of choice. the otehr one, the sales person say its not so new collection .
its liek... violet? with gold inner rim

the other one, reminded me so much of evangelion shinji ikari.
yea. well. .logn story.but thats part of a special anime on my heart as it started my anime childhood. besides cardcaptor sakura. yea. thats the first i think .all cos of bro. even if i dislike, he play, i no choice but to watch. otehrwise more boring .llol
so nice. .but... well its exp.. and... too big fo rme=/
see how ba

but nice to hear from sammy regarding his chidlhood. abt g shock watch with hjim. then i shared with him my story regardin baby g watch too =)


kk gtg mata slpyy

stress

gosh.. still stressing over how to break the news to my rgm n sm =/
i knew she'll say that .she was talking abt herself. and say of course she wouldnt be irreponsible and leave now during busy dec period.
sianz. if ionly i am able to ignore how others feel .
thats how i always get hurt

anywya,

oh .wanan share this.
this comedian was talking about why  he like dog.
its so tru eu know. cos there was this article i read ebfore too,.
anwaym, he said. .why dogs are better than cats because they dont care whether u have food, money, house, etc. they stay by ur side. thats why you see alot of homeless ppl have dogs! XD
cats will say bye hte moment u dont have anything..etc. lol. so funny
though its funny, but its true if u look at it.. homeless ppl alot have dogs ar.
and yes. faithlful dogs does stick with u eternally .

so slpy .=,=
looking forward to tmr
not looking forwards my stress. need to destress =/

mmm.. how ar. huu

sometimes still have the kind of fears.. when u wonder if ppl are hiding some ..  u know

o well. not a happy day. not a very sad day. stress.
sighs
may tmr be a better day =/

mata

tired day again

dunno what to blog..

so tired today =/
huu
stocks3 everyday. how i wish im alrdy not workign there. xmas is lieka  nightmare for us
so tired. =/
hardly have time to care about sales now.
so many tasks yet to be done.
why do they expect so much
even if it meant its coming from the ho.
i just don feel happy workign tehre anymore.
colleageus are nice. but. thats abt it = /

sighs
so tired

so nice .my fren maybe can get to go australia to stay  long olong time n study there. dang. not syd. if not i can stay at my fren's house for free=.=
argh
ha
but yea .some ppl are lucky. can afford to u know
o well

cant wait to hit the sack.
started this audible thingy recently .still getting used to it though
wouldvce prefer book. but book too heavy.
if its those e learning. .mm... batt prob.
o well
wil blog again soon ba

mata zzzz