sweetdream

very slpy now... o well. at least today not off. but.. still.. timing not right. tmr he'll be busy anyway
 owell.

haiyo. phone thingy.. the line. bothering me. do i have to call singtel? my fren ask me go other telecom and tell them im from singtel, so i could get cheaper phone. but id unno. dang... i dislike al lthese .discount2 thingy...  hav to go here. .go there. .*roll eyes =. =
what to do. haiz

will figure that out in couple of months time ba. still long anyway.

gosh. super duper tired. and slpy. tired. huu =(
i hope i'll stop questiooning myself. am i being vaule at this complany or not.
i dislike .. my rgm the way he.. like.. dunno .. i don feel like he's making an effort to.. groom me? i dunno.
not sure hwats the plans like

anwyay, mm............. yea. another one of my colleague say it suits me. not suits the side fringe. haiyoooooooo dunno la. see how baaaaaaaaaaaaa

haiz.

oh yea. had such long dream. .vivid one ..about him. ha. yea. .nice.
so real..
and.. was thinking how we used to have dates. this particular enjoyable one.. at tcc ps. was waiting in line. ha. poking fun at each other .naww.. ..so swt. so fun. so mischievous
o well......... those smiles were always so sweet and happy ^^

those dates sure can cheer up my tiring day huh. and happy. simple happiness. .yet it represents the whole world

mm........... why ar. me too slpy and not enough rest isit. .feel so puffy all over .oh yea. water retention cos htat time of month is coming huh?
 so uncomfy

okk. watch abit more video and need to rest soon

nights peeps.

mm...oh yea! that day .. omg. was walking abck to store afte rbank. this maaly guy working at this restaurant ,, just came out, think he's going bank too. then i he say hi to me. of course i was already in front of him liao. opposite direction we walking mah. phew.
thank goodness for me walking fast always. o well. weird ppl there. rrly alot=.=

jaa

jaa

contest rules

haiz =( feels down sad and disappointed=(
was so excited and been waiting for this day... to enter this contest...
long story. but somehow. .rules noted theere.. .no multiple entries will be accepted for same phone number and same ic numbers. but. .my bro. he send it. under my name. i know. his gd intention. but. me also sedn at same time .my name n ic. =(
so yea. 2 entries.
sighs. he din know mah..
and i din know he'll send for me
i know he wanna help me win with more chances.

but.. yea. i really wanna win badly. i ahve 99% confidence. long story don ask.
so yea.. .then now this happens.. but bro say.. maybe what they are saying is.. multiple entries are not accepted = first entry can be accepted. but the 2nd, 3rd, 4th tey wont accept.
i dunno man=/
they nvr say will disqualified ne.. should be fien??=/ haiz. now worried about this also pointless. .cos dunno when the result will be out. .so yea=/
haiz.... o well. .. =(
just yea. unhappy... been looking forward to sending this contest sms for days now =/ then now this happened... haiz
i rrly hope my bro is right... at leats accept my first entry.. well, bro and i send together. at exact same time so yea. dunno whats gonna happen ba =/
haiz baka desu =(
soooo wish i could turn back time now .. rrly i do

o well

gee.. my face been puffy ne. like. .i think i drank too much water . especially late night. gosh

and my stomahc. huu pain n uncomfy . these few days . .not right. wonder why.

oh yea. ytd bumped into my auntie's son. adopted son.
he asked mum to give him a call if anything happen. feel free to call him. i was like. .=.= dots... better not. touch wood. who wanna call him. of course hope nothign will ever happen la!

..during that redz stole my money period, i thought mum will help me ask him.. but. .wlel.. mum forbids.. remmeber?
o wel. forget it
but. .some thigns will never be forgotten..
no matter how hard u try

so yea. gosh super late. gtg liao

haiz. .wish me luck and pray for me /... relly hope that. .my bro is right. i don care as long as they consider my first entry is accepted. .
wish me luck. me rrly wan win . huu...

oh yea. and bro never apologise=.=
o well.
dunn o ba

haiz

mata

haircut diary

so slpy. but its nice to head out. even though i thought of resting .. but yea. walk around for a short while, get my hair cut..

glad my fringe will be long soon. .according to hairdresser? lol .i dunno .. but we shall see.
next time, me gonna try out again the abit side bang.. ha. so yea.
thought off doing that... like again. but o well. long story.
its ok. i can wait.
just enjoy diff hairstyle for now ba. back to bangs. haha. still not use to it.. but will try. its fine actually.. ok. quite like it .but i hop0e to try out the sided one... mm.. last time i almost did(but ended up with bangs) but the way that diff stylist wanted to cut, .. so diff. me scared later cut not the way i wanted. but hten again. .fringe do grow fast huh?

anywya, gotta slp soon

am hoping everything will goes well for sammy tmr. al lthe best to him.

me slpyyyyyyy auto wakey so early=.=

even though it is a busy day for him, im glad to be there' in a way =)
well, he need to study hard mah. no wonder whole day.. O.o so its exam tmr. .i see... was like. .wow so long. .whole day . 
so yea. wishing him al lthe best. hoepfully all will be well and happy fo rhim 


slpyyyyyyyyy mm.. stomach not very good eh.. mm. .why ar.. 


okk. gtg. 

jaa mata ne

new stuff

wow .so tired. though got home early.. o well. not much of a difference anywya.

haizzzzz expect too much liao. thats why

anyway, slpy and friggin tired.

glad doing some window shopping is good. it helps. so yea. better than nothing to do.
mm... oh yea. found something interesting. tonight too late to check it out. tmr will do so ba. too tired n slpy. hate all these dl dl dl thingy. instructions so confusing, and not clear. =/= pfft. got me all frustrated

in the end, dunno hwat ive dl some setup or waht thing grr. .mafan desuuuuuuu

o well. i think there should be a way ba.
=/ just need to find time to find it

oh gosh slpy

so many weird men around. it makes ur wonde. what are they lookiing at. or what are thy thinking=.=

oh lol. saw this guy sitting right in front of me. in train. ha. his head was bending down. .lookie at game or his phone. but his hair skintone and eyes area. . yea. really look like sammy. i took a sudden shock 2nd glance. dots. was like no way he's gonna b in sg now. haha. nah course aint him.

slpy

oh boy. hope i'll have a good slp later on

steam cna be pretty useful sometimes. forgot how he installed fo rme liao. but o well.
just that i kept forgetting i have steam htere. ha. too much window shopping huh
dots
anyway thx to my fren, found it interesting.will reveal when me confirm everything works ba. so irritating all htese dl websites. argh =.=

huu just now dinner ate little. .omg. hungry again. =X but need to slp liao. huu too bad. craving for some spicy bowl of noodlesT_T

guruguru.. .zzz

wonde rif bro is playing diablo 3 later again
o well

kk gotta wash up now. slpy like hellll =.=
but online abit more ba ha.
o well
don wan my day to end mah

haiz.... jaa

off timing

such a tiring day. cos of med ba . stupid runn nose. huu.. .terrible med. im not gonna buy alreyad. even though it worked. but its like taking poisin .=( hate this numb fatique feelign. lasts throughout the day. huu.

mm......... so yea. still i headed out. i think better ba. if not sammy also busy whole day,no one to accompany with
wrong off ba. o well

bloody tired still. sometimes u have those moments. where you're working, and thousands and million of things are going through ur head. i understadn what my melb manager said alreyad. when we're doing review thingy. she did mentioned about that. so yea. i understadn now. can get sooo obusy... so many work to be done. and on top of that, more lil things to settle too. not easy.
ha. as though im talking liek a ceo huh. but noooooo. and yet job still plenty much to do.
the aussie ppl really are taking it easy huh..
so wanan try working at their enviroment. so scary yet exciting about ht eunknown.
but.. haiz. must wait for opportunity ba

mm.. today got a bit frustrated. ust  a bit disturbed ba. while trying to get the meaning or cerain particle in jap.
soooo complicated. oh good. bro has signed up for his 2nd lesson liao. as in u kown. part 2

sianz.. .feel very sianz=( suddenly day seem sgloomy to me

anywya.. so glad dad not drinking anymore. but his pooor leg=/ aww...
but yea. he can spend more time with my mum now. which im very glad.
and his money can use on  bills and food. yay.
so yea. very glad he not driking anymore =)

don u have thse days. .u havent even start ur work yet, and youre thinking of work stuff. .how to handle. .how to settle. .waht to do... etc... even on off day.
mm.. think i dreamt of work toda. did i dream of him too? i cant relly rememebr.. mm..

as long as i can cheer up.. that will be good enough

will find a way ba..

some things cannot be avoid

jus tnow still slpy. so slpy. at one time was like head faling backwards. cos sitting.. close eyes(tooooo slpy) then really fell aslp. lol. but wakey before i fall over la

i wonder where my work is gonna lead me to .
soemtiems so stress.
school holiday is here. nightmare is here too. haiz. will jia you ba. thats all i cxan do for now.
but still doing some thinking.. is this really what i want?

what to do ne...

mm.. wonder if theres any nice shows later.. jsut wanna sit and chill...
 take my stress away pls// =./

mata

bad day goodnight

i am extremely tired. again yes i know. nothing new

so. regarding the mystery shooper htingy. yea. wasnt me .but rgm was so sure it was me. =.= wth... omg. long story. but not quite. i am so too tired to type. wow. o well. anyway im not the one .glad he knows now

huuuu bad day tough day =( right form the start
haiz. but.. better now. sjut that. extremely tired.

the times when ur body is saying.. u mustnt go work. u need to stop right now.

but hwat to do.. no aply leave yet=( huuuuuuuuu

anyway, forgot what to say alreyad.

perhaps next time ba. kept forgotteing baou tht mystery thingy. but yea. still too tired to type it all out .

oh .that day this chinese lady told me that she thinks i look abit tan, and so she thought i was malay. haha. me dont mind looking like one or anything, but i think its just her ba. me where got tan. well, my dad is. lol

u know those days when....... u sat down finally.. afte rbath eat.....busy.. change... etc. u sat down. nothig else to do except perhaps online or tv time.
then u realized that.. wow. in less than 8 hours time or so, day is gonna repeat itself again.
tired itmes. stressful times. busy time. thats all gonna start in less than 8, 7 or even 6 hours.
=(

i think im too stress ? but no.. i duno. i think im more of tired rather than stress
or both. but more tired ba

omg.

at the other outlet.. i know i said i was tired. but did i say it in such an extremem way before? i dunno. but now my body is crumbling. wow.
really doesnt feel like moving at all =/

if only can get aust that kind of shifts=(
sighs...........
i think go pick fruits also not bad

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

tired. oh my xmas causal went to usa? i forgot. to pick fruits. school thingy or what cant remmeber. no. i think its her work. shees staying there for  one yea ror two. wow.... nice eh =)

mm...

seeing how my fren and their partners .. sometimes.. it really makes u treasure more eh..
liek u look at the couples around u... arent u glad u dont hav that kindof trouble? or arent u glad you're way pass over that trouble now? (cos your relationship is now stable). so its passed htat damaging stage.
well. no one will be perfect.
but.. its just u know. im grateful and glad the way we feel. looking at my frens' situations soetimes, yea...  really feel so lucky with sammy. =)
its either nvr had that type or problem, or passed that. though not much eh. nah. really a pea
lol XD wth

anyway,... yea. when u look ard, u do realized how lucky u are with ur partner. treasure them now ba!! =)

hehe. having a lil chat with my swty now ^^
imagine him on the bed looking through his cards...
so vivd the image.. dunno why. ha. o well. ^^
in a way .. as though im there righ tnow..
warms my heart.. .

will make me forget my bad day ba

jaa mata

sad about work

wow extremely tired today=( omg.

and. .very sad. .and disappointed.. plus down... just heard some result thingy aint that gd for last week =/
.. sighs/
even rgm taught me this and that.. i did. before he said that, i knew it .cos i knew what i was supposed to do first n all. i did everything the way he tol dme. before he told me
so eya. but still. what went wrong. not enough time? or my rgm given me too much tasks.
trust me when i said i relaly did it. i manges my time well too. did the most importantt ones
 blah3....
but.. sighs.

i even risk my own life. standing high up on ladder with out opening ladder. just to tidy backroom. or get some products. near fall, cut myself, .. sighs .why did i put myself through all these risks for these negative comments. i'll do my best. but eally. today i asked myself. why work so hard like this.

anway, was wondering if i should talk too soemebody. cos was feeling still sad n donwn wanna cry like that.
thnen really to talk, then like. .wah. relaly ne.. on the verge of tears. then gotta stop talking liao. haiz
..just hate it. put up a false front. soryr. i emant strong front. smile to customers even when feeling so sad and down=/
..baka desu =(
really hated my day. sighs

anyway, haiz. so tired. i really need to rest liao.

i really wish my leave is next week .i almost cant take thi anymore. extremely tired .. .caused by rgm cos the aussie ppl coming. =/ sighs

..wht is wrong ne =(

haiz...

jaa mata

im too tired liao. perhaps just need ot rest down soon
hope tmr be a betetr day =/

stay healthy

haiyo. so mafan. now everytime log in need ot re key in my email n password=( sighs .wonder wats wrong with my comp. too long le ba=/
i hope i did save my aust pics in my usb. doubt so. but.. sighs o well=(
hate my lappy now haizzzzzzz mafan =( and

im not gona say it here, but im shocked when my colleague ask em this one million question. lol. NOO! nt will u marry me kinda question. lol
but omg. shocking. XD
soooo weird too. omg
o well.

god. so slpy =( almost couldnt wakey. thanks to no break
tch..as in ytd

haizzzzzzzzzzz

u know. suddenly i craved so much for vegies
..these few days ba. mayabe not enough nutrients? but if i eat salad, mum sure make nosie haiz=/
o well. anyway,
gosh. just super tired

gosh. i had liek 3 cuts. almost all at the same time within two hours. can u beleievr that? its the truth. omg .=X i was shocked. where the hell and how the hell i get so many cuts at such a short time!? 3 cuts. small but deadly painful k.somemroe at my finger snesitive area=/ dang. super pain. hope water later at bath wont kill me
haiz. .my poor hand =(

don u have those times whne u.. really noticed the vibe and warnings your body is giving u?
as htough its saying. stop doing that. no more. you gotta stop!
i do felt that way.. but.......... its not say stop...then stop.. =/
haiz. soemtiems worried. but. .o well. when it hppen it happes ba

..

adn yea.. so u guessed.. haizzz so weird n frustrating =/
ha
everytime i get a super early shift off, he will be busy and he wont be free=/
that cant be help i understand. but.. it sjust so frustrating.
i thin kits either once, or none so far that he's free  sicne i strated working there n get those liek early shifts off

haiz =( what to do. always so... i dunno. coincidence or waht

=/
o wellsee. late alreayd. i really wish i am in the afternoon shift today. ..so wasteed my mrg shift. but liek i said. .no one can predit the future so yea.. no ones fault ba.. just. .......too much of a coincidence thast all .. ..

anyway, cos of that, made up my mind tohead out went shopping
boght bras. everytime me buy bras, like. .one of the desigsn will be sold out without my size=.= ; then have to return omg
o well
return return ba
wat to do. nowadasy lingerie liek limited editions like tat =.= '' so eya

everytime those early shifts bubbbles just burst .haiz. whenim back  at the mother's outlet,.. want such shifts also must wait long long liao..
baka ne................
such chances hard to get by but.. yet.. still didnt manage to come across it. cant possibly ask him go home now right . that would be so stupid


oh no. forgot abot hari ya.. fasting month. if they need to fast, probably plans wont be able to proceed on. i dunno yet. ned to find out from them. worst to worst, i am prepared to go alone. hahahaa. who knows, i might be able to get to know some new ppl over there eh=)
but yea. im fine with going alone. cos im like super desperate to go uss!!!!!! agaiN!!!

so tired. gosh. wish i have a great massge now

okk. gtg

i am supe tired.  i am not happy at home

hopefully after a bath will brighten me up

haizzzz

i disliek this week .weekend better be good fo rme

mata

breakless

and so..... what a long day...

wonder why..

so. rgm said to have his break at 2 before rgm au arrive. later else he wont be able to get away.
well.. he ate something .but both me and my collegaue wentwithout break.

that day work with my vm manager from au at leats got ask me .. wow.
what a huge difference

dunno ba. he pretend not to know or waht=/
but was so tired n abit dizzy.
thank goodness night dinner was fine
omg
so.. .=/ haiz

anyway, yea thats it ba. shocking eh. no break . first proper meal at 7 plus
omg
haiz duno waht to say

im so tired to type now. bt before i forget , i better do

..waht an extreme day

jaa mata

resting day off

glad i cleane dup my room todya. much better now.

mm... tired dayy. but wakey to a better and refresher me. ha. so glad.
though stil lslpt kinda late last night .haha

anyway, aussie rgm is here. omg. this is it man.
wish me luck.
..wonder wats gonna happen
gosh. worries

wow. nowadays lasenza has so much nice bras eh. im surprise =) but i still prefer playboy. but well, at least a brand thast finally close. and its available in sg

hayo throat irritating.. cough cough

warm day... perhaps had to much ice water huh

kk. gotta rest soon.
startig to feel tired again

man. ghost rider 2 is such a disappointment=/

mata

lovey him time ^^

gosh so tire.d. so ncie to say it all for my darling ..share it with him... hiaz.. beenreally .. i dunno how to explain. so tired

anyway..

mm.. tired as always

oh.
gosh .i forgot. .what am i supposed to blog. me headache!!

oh yea. was watcing all over again this chinese drama...
.. adn hear of this ferraii r news huh .
this chinaman had this girl next to him.. heard my fren saiy shes form club. working at club

he got a pregnant wife. yet he.... =(... had a gf .. a bitc*.. haiz..
i feel sad for his wife. imagien he he never die.. she never found out=(
remineded me of the stoory frmo my rgm... i mentioned before. his bodyshop... time.
dunno what high position manager.. or dunno wt high position.. very high. jsut gotten married few montsh.. then had a mistress from same company ..bodyshoop. shes having an affair with him. wth =/

haiz... whats wrong with ppl nowadasy...  ..rrly? ... after all these marriage and stuff... u wotn cherish ur partner anymore=(? why
sighs. so sad for them=/
.haiz

scary to marry this type of man.. =( very scary and veyry sad=(..

sighs. what to do.

but i also believe in true love. like my fren case i mentioned .. ldr.. online meet.. ha. in the end still married =) nawww... .though two eyasr the longest they never see each other..

naywayyyyyyyyyyyy diff ppl diff destiny ba.. depends on how ppl look at it..cherish it..

so yea. .ewatching this drama..

...u know. sometimes if by doing nothign at all... then another person do all this romantic candle light dinner etc.. and all... its tempting. but.. if u love soeone stronly, u wont feel anything. but if yourre tempted.. ten yea.. candle night dinner alone is alone to.. make your heart swoon. whihc is not goofd=. not a good person u are too

anyway. .kinda headaceh now.. happy to msg my swty today=)

with his concerns and all.. uh huh.. glad to voice out my worries and stresses..

kk. gotta rest soon
so tired n headache

but happy becos of him. im smiling now=) wee...

love him ^^

mata

extremely tired=(

wow.... now just enjoying the wind from fan.. so tire.d. extremely tire.d. ive never worked lie this before ba?
enjoying my jap album now too..

sigsh. .very tired peeps=(

worknig non stop at all except for break.. 11 hours. two days straight .can u beleive it? =/
wow...
and i mean it. NON STOP. non stop working and movnig .not 100 % complete though. ver  tired i am =/

especially after bath n all. .sa tdown. tire.d. i cant explaine.. its. .wow. painful =/

anyway, had a bad dinner=/ sighs. cup noodles not nice. instant noodles also not nice=/
haiz... just ate abit. betetr than none.

omg. i am so tired=(
.. my legs. .so painful

i need slp soon. me telling ya. one day off not enough(again)
my whole body aolmos t its max. sorry for speelings. my fingers too. i am not gonna correct my speelings. i am so tired=(

gonna type fast and get this blog over wit k

so yea. leggie painnnnn huu... i am slpy liao. gonna slpo soon. hope hair dry soon pls=/

need massage badly huuuuuuuu

u know those awkward moments .. .when i tired to liste n to sammy.. take a look at others.., then u realizes htat yea. htey ar eindeed looking at u, then u lok at them  ,and they hurrie look elsewhere. soooo  awkeward=X
omg

yea my speeligs wrong liek madddd sorry. no time to correct. im too tried=/
giners tired. numbed liao. fingers*

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG i AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDD =(

haiz.. img.. =( i duno what to do. =/
wat is the word beyond tired? cos im not just tired. i am extremely passed tired=(

i emna it

worked liek mad today. u cannot imagine my day =(

sihgs

i need lots of energy drinks and rest. rest cannot. dirnks, caxn.

haiz=/

wish me luck ba..
gonn afaint liao=(

mata

nuts day

so slpy now. luckily had a gdnight slp. phew... .felt better better

gosh. busy non stop. i also dunno how i managed to get myself over those hours=X omg

its crazyyyyyyyyy

bro told me that he had this ramen at iluma. he say itis dang good. very3 nice. aw.. me been wanting to try that. but keep forgetting! 

no chance too. but saw bros' pic. omg. their eggs... same! so expert sia... wow. .so wannseat there too

one day ba i hope. haiz.. movie also not ben watching=/ 

the latest everyone say so gd. even sammy went to watch it too. 

one day ba.. perhaps i'll go cinema again when alien is out

anwyay, gonna rest soon ba. such a crazy day =X

wow. i told my colleague they think we're octopus ar? 

so many hands to do so many things=.=

ha. even my colleague aso cannot tahan so many work to do. 

aw.. he went to slp liao. i think me betetr hurry my hair dry n slp too. its nice to slp along wth ur partner. well, same timing i guess hehe

hmm.. why iron man ..engineer.. mm.. .why ne? O.o

mata

true singer

SOOO freakin warm today=( omg. cant stand it. heard reads said that april and may are always sg most hottest time of year
i agreed.
as for cold aprt, it is always nov -jan time.
omg... sooo hot. wahts wrong with the weather man=/
huu.... the planets weather is changing drastically eh

omg. so tired today=/ wokey abit late today .that usually ahppenes  only if im so super tired. couldnt describe how i feel. like. every inch of my muscles is breaking about. .sore and aching=/
all i wanna do is sit and slp through the day. i am extremely tired =/
haiz.... so weak man=/
hate it.
numb and tired. thats how i feel
my body is extremely exhausted

hopefully july can get a good rest or something. unsure of what to do yet
but me so need some days off.. huu

have i eer mentioned that tvyxq or tvxq?? ahh whatever. lazxy to look up
anyway, so waster their jap sonsgs sooo.... super messed up mixed with electronic voices. like.. .i duno how to describe. like. .a backup voice. .double singing.. syncing with their voices.. sooo irritating. that only happens if singers doesnt know how to sing at all. as in their voice is bad, but daning and images are still fine .so yea. so called counting on their body and faces=.=

but anyway , by right they can sing u know. i think so. though vocal not strong. but i think not so bad. .but still, well they are koreans anwyay so yea... alot of electronic voice to sync to their voices.. .omg.
so . .irritating. and not nice at all. liek they are robots singing =/
so wasted.

but i noticed somethign. that usuall happens in a group. cos i think ne.. if solo singer, ur voice must be really dang good. then u can be solo. if not, how to fake ur voice sia if alone=.=
but seriously. .very easted ne nowadasy singers...
no real talent of sining.. but instead, only showing off their dancing moves and outer image=/

so glad ven though boa is korean, she isint like that. but i did noticed. her jorean album also got those electronic irritating sometimes. just soemtimes. but when she sings live, ahh.. .live... =) any singers singing live, u can tell immediately if htey are truely a really good singer or not.
cos its live. if still use the electrnice voice, then yea. too bad. u know they are too fake. haha

but prefer boa's voice. .withot all the fake thingy going on.. crisp clear voice.. no need backup singers.. or whatsoever..
ahh.. =)

gosh................ i am soooo tired. helppppppppppppp huuuu =/

omg. i cant wait to slp. im so looknig forward to slping time righ tnow. SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soon ba.. soon..
oh man=/

haiz... really dislike this fatique going on.. when will it stop..
stop sticking around with me . huu

kk. gtg. i need another bath soon. uh huh

u know. me so wan leave badly

oh i just recalled!! my med!!! nose med. no wonde rme so weak and numbbbb . oh man =/

mata

short bz hello

so sleepyyyyyyyy

=.=

anywya, gosh couldnt remember much of what happened..

mm. .just know that ive been sooo super busy.. heaps of stuffs to do non stop... went out with parents.. as usual. .only a couple of hours and me get so sleepy and tired=/ wasnt in a good mood. cos too tired ba.. haiz.
feel bad

anyway, just need a vvery good rest ba. .hoep to gain back my energy.

mm. .waht else huh..

o well.

dunno what to blog liao.
sleepy desu. just drop by to say hello ba

gosh. .so much more work..
mm=/

mata

cutting through

oh dear.. it is pretty wwarm right now..

ok. soooooo slpyyyyyyyyyyyy and tireddd  very4 slpy now huu

ok. so. since thursday onwards, i've been getting new cuts everyday

wed i think also have. cos changed alot of vm stuffs. but tues. .not sure. anwyay, today got one form paperbag. so yea it is paper cut. and its sooo painful. very painful .small cut, but deadly =.=
now still hurts a little. sighs. .wonder if tmr i'll get a new one =/ then yea when reached home, found another unknown cut. =.= wth. also painful ne..
so many cuts!!!! argh... =.=
huu. .hands full of scars liao... my poor finger and hands.. most of the time, i dunno where i get all my cuts from. tooengrossed in work ba
haiz...

gosh cant open my eyes liao.. so slpy.. huu.. i wanna slp.. .

so yea. rgm getting scolded by .. uh huh.... .
ppl ask him do something he nvr do, then push to me do cleaning.. then now yea... kena scold la. not scold but well yea

anyway , im so glad to work with the vm of national. theres regional.. and national. but national is like hte biggest.. according to my rgm. so yea. higher than regional vm ppl. so wow. .i am so dang honoured.. !!
wiorking with the vm national .oomg =) cool.
though time's short. .but well, better than none .

mm. .wonder what sammys doing now. .card gaming or studying huh... o well
busy him

anywya

what else.. .mm. .wish theres some aircon now

i am soo dehydrated these days. omg. and no time for more water. =.= throat not that good either .dry n itchy.. coughign too bits here n there. need more water..

so slpy.. .kk gtg
brain's dead

mata

rooting for him! =)

really heavy flow... =/ no wonder was wondering how come i feel so weak n listless.. .haiz.
but pulled myself n finished up with the vm training thingy. but very different ba. from what i thought. its not so training training kind of thing. i duno. nonetheless, it is my houour that i am able to work with vm manager. first time u know this kind of thign happened

anywya, last night blog added theis post about women;s poll of their men's u know waht.
the length blah3... =.=''''
so yea. i still ahve no idea why theres such  a poll. =.=
and why women know what length they prefer. .blah3...
gpd thats so weird.
..eew.. better stop thinking liao. sooo wweird poll =.= and their thinkings.

anyway, sighs.. wish i could be there with him..
but it meant the world to me when he told me how it went. .adn why didnt it went well ...
i hope he'll be ok..=/
wanna say soemthing, but scared later he angry.
the least i could do is to listen and share it with him.
really hope that he will be fine.. .
well at least he got his cards n so now.

i know how that feels.. me also go shop n reward myself. .or when too much stress..
but not good la shop so much.. but yea.. need to ba..
no bf pick me up after work anymore mah.. .ha.
so nice to see my colleagues bf pick her up after work.. or off day ask her go out..

o well. .doesnt matter.. kinda used to it anywya..
im luckier tahn other girls too isnt it eh =)

ha. had a dream. wow. so happy.. dreamt about my visa to australia approved. for 14 years. haha. wth. XD
yea. approved.. .and suddenly theres monsters.. .horror thingy going on. .fighting monsters.. so scary. .
but yea. the approved part.. ha. so happy. was like. .so happy can go there liao..
o well

and so yea...
no more upset.. .if u knwo what i mean. .
no wonder. that was the day right before period. =/
but yea.. .at least he let me know huh. .so yea. .gotta wait all the way till his exam is over..
but hopefully things will be fine for him..
i don mind waht results he get.. just worried if he's gonna get stress from studies thats all.. .
=/ imagine if its sg uni.. isit worse?
mm.. i dunno. diff ba. the way thigns beig taught and all..

yay. had a phone chat with him jsut now. was quite ok. though time to time on n off.. but can tell he didnt sound that well..
=/
but u know. .i can only do my best to make him feel even if for a bit better. .or cheer up..

well. .if a person is angry or frustrated.. or upset,.. some stuffs u say will stil lamke that person frustrated..
so yea. .need to be very careful.. .
so scary..such a feeling..
but human nature mah.. s o yea.. even to bro also.. =/
bro also very scary. i dunno. men scary everytime they angry huh. =/

anwyay....... glad im feeling better now. if not. today sure die.. but throat sitll not good desu. haiyo...
nose still.. yea. alot of germs still in me i know.

anyway,
mm.. oh yea. last part of conversation.. dunno .. thought i heard he said somethign about his friends.. then i heard what hate me. got a shocked of my life=X ha. thoght huh how come his frens hate me just by looking at my pics, or heard abou tme. i dunno.
then he tol dme its his family. i was like ..ohh... yea. heard that so many times.. still not used to it.
and.. still dunno how anyone will dislike me like that.. most probably they think its my dirty hand touches their golden egg ba...
=/ o well.. sorry.. but.. also dunno waht to say.. imagine i stadn in front of them.. i think i ahven say a word, they punch me liao. ha. .

but yea.. now im just thinking.. it really isnt about my personaility or hwat. .just that background not as that of a well to do family ba..
why didnt his god parents say the same thing? hopefully not... ha. but yea. miss them . nice ol docuple =)
 but at least... no need to say hate me right. .
i thought of this before.. if i visit another guy's family.. wil lthey hate me too? my guts n heart din hesitate.. the answer is no.
and i am confident they will very much like me.

but.. i don care la.. haha. after all, the person i care most about will be the person im spending the rest of my life with isnt it .as in not don care. butmore of. .most important is how my man will treat me and love me.
well.. my cousin's mum dislike his gf.. then, suddenly she got pregnant first. no choice, hav to let them get married. lol.
but now also ok mah.
o well..

so thats abou tit eh..

just wish to be by his side.. and support him through all.. haiz..
heartpain to know he's disappointed. really pray that he wont feel stress...
well. .at least i'll always be there to share with him.
just hope he wont get too frustrated ba..

studies huh.. .so irritating at times.. .like me. .ha. of course cannot compare to his big exams.. but me,, ... trying to memorize the new jap words i ust learned. .memorize... imagine .. i have to memorizr n rememebr all my work tasks. .tasks for my team.. .at home. .personal.. .of course most important is him.
then still hav to remember the new jap words. lol.
so tricky n difficult. yea.. trust me. there are tons of issues to deal with at work. work alone, theres alot of thigns to be done.
i cant even explain to u how difficult that is..
but frustrated someitmes when one weke couldnt learn much words. ha. cos no time!!
XD

anyway, mm... im really curious hows the pressy look like now.. the photo album i gave him . .stuffs liek that. ha. i sitl lremember. .how i'll quickly trace back my emmories.. note down on a piece of paper. .date n tiem. .XD ha.. .so rush cos cannot let him se eim writing it down.. but yet its fun.
then i recalled which colours he like. .ha. couldnt find the exact match.. but yea. close ba?
and so difficult to decide on the colours.. cos for guy mah.. somemore he's my first bf.
ha.. nice swt memories ne. .key rings of date n names i given him. .reminded me of my fren gib his gf the dogtag names..
but yea.. keychain i still have.. my frens all say its cool. ha. i also duno why. XD
mm.. but all these small stuffs.. .including a handwritten bookmark..
wonder where are the small stuffs now. .easy to be lost huh.. o rb egone..
but.. well.. at leats i know that i've given my all.. and heldnothing back. though nowdays. .wanna give also difficult. .cos not near.. and theres his family ..
so yea. .
sometiems must hold back.nochoice.. but sometimes that'll resulted in regrets too..

thats why i am grateful enogh for the previous years.. where i got a chance to do everything with him. .and spend all my energy on him. .and itme too. and love. and cares. and everything.
msg and talk is diff.. talk always hav more things ba.. mm.. isit.

but yea. at least i can always look back and smile.. now also can smile. .cos he's safe n sound..
and he's smile is still so swt as ever to me..

but i dunno.. sometimes.. just.. mm..
haiz. so wish my goal and dream will come true soon..
man. i should just go pick some fruits. ha
=P

haiz. soemtiems so wish i can tag poics of us both.. o well..
better dotn wish so much ba.

oh huu.. =( my laptop . .last night was fine. .now dunno watt happened.. all my pic albums are gone! everything =( and some stuffs too. duno what. but no more spybot.. and. dunno waht. huu.. .my pics.. =( desktop changed on its own. .what happened..

mata ne...

extreme workover

omg. i am so shocked. =X so disgusting!! my fren posted this post dunno where this pic came from .theres this women poll of how long they want their future husband of bf private u know what lenthgth to be. wth/.. =X hwat.. .. when hard. how lnog .when soft, how long? blah3... omg  .how long they prefer.. n dunno what. omg. me so dun wanna take another look .yuck. whats wrong with these ppl?? take a ruler n measure?> then write on a piece of paper? *faint. =.= sounds so wrong to me. goshhhhh cant believe this. eeerie.

hey u look for a husband for his personaility. not his.. length of u knwo waht .. .dots................ some woemn. .rrly.. .too typical. i cant stand them. geez.... length is not everything! wth

was wondering why i was so upset about last night till late aftnoon he nvr reply me
not the first time. so why

then was like. oh yea.. cos.... ytd was too bored. n kept waiting. .n so tired.. i sounded very down huh?
thought he slpt very alte cos too tired.. .but i was so wrong.
ended up so long ago wakey alreayd but no msg at all. adn there i was. so fucking stupid thinking anythign happen to him. or whats happening with his family again.. blah3... .
ha. all for nothing.
yea. i know nothing..

just thought. .at least he wouldve msg oh he fell aslp.. o rosmehting.. he used to but. o well. if only i wasnt liek expecting him for a reply since 840pm... soemmore feeling so down

o well.

anwyay, shit. my room is ful lof tissues now. =.= no time to clear. been sick whole weke mah. 6th day huh.. getting better.. but nose still... o well

mm...

lucnh no appetite. had only a piece of small bread. so much thigns to do today. but glad so. was on the verge of tears till he appeared and handle me so much stuffs to work with. so yea. the he i emntioned is not sammy. don get the wrong idea.

still not happy now.

hope. .tmr will be better.

so dehyrated my bnody. very extremem=(

sighs

anyway,

ha. sianz..so sianx

fuck. so wanna just slp all the way without thinking of anything

o well.

anwyay, hope his exam will be fine ba. don thin kits any harder than sg ones eh.

wonder if he's giinv up on sg citizenship huh. i dunno such stufs. but. .so wasted huh. ppl so ddifciult to get sg ones. .somemore must be so rich then can. .o well. he know whats he doing ba.

feel so helpless..
=(
still cant stop my tears . so tired. so sianz

so wish to be by the sea right now. .breeze. .wind.. sounds of nature.. sea.. waves. .splashing... moonlight.. dark sky. .clear sky... cold.. sandy sands.... soft sands.. sitting down. .watching the moon. .how i wish fo rthat now. .


jaa

bored = tired part 2

2nd blog for teh night .ha. was soooo tired i almost coundt eat. had to push n pull myself up from the bed. was liek lying there just resting... wiating for his msg.. but he nvr did. guess he fallen aslp ba. i can imagine how slpy he mustve been. wakey early do this n htat

anyway, im feeling better now. though of course still tired. but yea.

mm...
glad had some dinner. perhaps just a little too weak huh.
so yea. now, back to bed again. but this time must slp

same old days.. .o well..

a little boring huh don u think

anywya, please let me get well soon... sick n working aint fun at all =/ sighs

i wan my holiday..

o well...

kk. gtg

so yes. im feeling ok now.

phewwwwwww

hate being so tired

mata

bored = tired

so nice. my fren is sick and he gets two days mc. =( wish i could mc too. but i cant . o well..

anyway, been such a rough n tough day =( omg... so tired. all i wan is some peace. but theres none. him. but no.
rest, not enough
haiz. so frustrating

fan blowing on my face.. whole body still tired.. .waiting for redbull to work its magic..
so bored.. so tired.. so..... tch.. dunno how to explain this feeling to u guys.
all i can sit .. online.. youtube... youtube till nothing to youtube no more..
then shop online. but not gd cos making e spend money .. haiz.. baka desu

wanna msg him but scared cannot. cos he need to watch out for his family eyes.
so here i am. bored as a wat.

suddenly i dunno what else to do =(

and sometimes, i also dunno wahts he doing. ha

bored.. very bored.. being bored makes me realized how much fatique im having right now
tiredness.. bored... no energy...
holy crap. i feel like crap. yes i know=/
sighs

today is the 5th day now. but... i think ne. .perhasp its longer? cos it slowly builds up mah..
like yea.. been unwell.. but 5 days ago, i just got worse.
now im coughing =/ sighs


doing my best not to hunch back. cos totally too tired. my body is collasping.... holy cow=/

and needed so much energy just to sneeze.

just thought of somethign interesting to blog. but too .. tired. i don feel like it.. sorry =/ haiz...
i think i am too tired ,and so i feel more bored. .n being bored.. mm.. really. .me dunno waht to do except to online n shop online .window shopping online..
sit n sit.. n online..

but still very tired. the more i think i think its worse huh. O.o
but. .waht cani do
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tch.desperate.. .=((

feel so desperate

anyway, v m is such a important matter part of our job in my company. i relaly hope im able to focus n concentrate during the trainings. two days mate.
gosh.
i relaly hope to get everything down. as much as i possible can

yea. asu cna see. blog is very long? cos i feel bored with nothing to do. but to talk to u guys here

mm.. no reply msg. perhaps he's busy again ba.. o well............

*pouts...

haizzzzzzzz..........
k. gonna get tissue again now

o well..

hope i'll get well soon.

everyday tired sucks. this kind of life i don need nor like

oh yea. thoday this malay uncle courier... asked me my age. tought im still schooling. everybody asked me the same question. .u working part time of full time here?
still schooling? ur age? what?? i thought you're younger. u look so young! i bet im the first person to said tha right.
it slike. .in my heart im thinkin.g.. .=.='' yea .everybody repeated the same thign to me. ...dots.............
as though theres a script written somewhere -_-''
but his face was so shocked todya. ha. so funny

mata

sick for so long

oh wow. so tempting. the syd trip. 545?? wow.
but hotel still exp.. but.. wow. if ticx always so cheap, hahaha... so cool. anyone can coem back n forth alread huh

anywya, headahce now.
just ate med. had a lot of meds. diff types. lost count=.=
uh huh. very bad. siighs. ..heard news. alot of ppl see doc. cos weather not good. been very warm, then rain then warm again then rain. .then ppl get drenched , then sun again.. plus work stress...
so yea. thats why all ppl sick
including me=(

sighs.... i hope i can get better ..get well before the training with vm expert ^^ wee.... can u believe it? rgm from australia wanted the vm in charge to train me vm =) im so glad something new finally!

me adn my colleaguess were liek thinking.. we're doing the same thigns over n over.. =/
keep saying n tlaking the same things to customers n all. .haiz. so boring =/
but o well.. see how this two days ba. i really hope its a good one=)
wee..

mm.. woke up late. thought haiyo wakey early again? but didnt. yay. wakey late.
god.. what a boring day. no wonder it feels good to head out. somemore only get to msg him late aftnoon

sianz... i relaly dislike being sick=( huu........

makes me all ... goen crazy =/ haiz....
bloody hell... sighs

o well....

mata

another sick day =/

nose still super runny huuuu =(( why sick so long de.. huu..

then somemore daytiem body stil lwarm. .think now no more fever ba?
but nose and throat.. huu.... this type of sickness ne. .usually will las tme weeksss to come. if not, months. or a month
=.= haiz

so bored of thigns sometimes.

anyway, haiz. my poor colleague getting a warnign.. uh huh.. letter... = / from our rgm cos she .. i dunno man. its a small matter. but.. .sighs. i just dunno . i couldnt be bother with it anywaym just feel abit unfair for her ba

shoot my throat now not good either=/

oh man. .so slpy now.....
fainting!

o well.... perhaps should rest soon

mm..

gosh. hate block nose..

kk. gtg. brains dead=.=

oh yea. had a nice slp ytd. ha. so squashy with bloster.. bet my face is smiling huggie tight bloster. weird. i swear i smell him.. o well

mata

feverish

and so................

2nd day of fever flu sore throat and weakness

dang.

i hate this feelign.

=(

sighs.. what to do. cant hold on any much longre. so needed to get home early for a rest.
but it didnt seems to work though
stil lsick as ever
sighs
dammit

=/

i hope by tomorrow will be fine ba.
my nose is blocking like hell.

come to think of it, i looked at my hands the other day.. so many small scars around them. ha. i mena on them.
wow..
little little small cuts n wounds.. overtime, they became scars all over.. so poor thing. ha. as though ppl might think what have i bene doing eh

gosh so slpy
could be the med. but without med also die haiz
=/

anywya,
weird. why do i hav this feeling i wanna blog about sammys call.. eh. when ar.
o well skip ba. cant remember

good thign he sounded fine now. perhaps thasnk to winning the second place ha.
yugioh huh. .ahh... one of my fav memories.. =) i started yugioh even way before cardcaptor sakura ba?
i think so yea
but my very first comin. .forgot if its yugioh or that other one.. theres liek gods.. ner zha, weird animal. about china legend.. but thast a great one man. geez.. so sad too. ending so many heros died=( haiz
so memorable. but too sad to read a second time

wonder hows he feeling now.. should be better i hope.

wonder whats the reason if parent check ur phone. and you're not even 12, or 16.
o well.. nvm ba. hope thigns will be better after he locked it

anyway. .gonna rest now. huu slpy n late now=/

so many thigns to be done at work today . almost sounds liek crazy. can u imagien emailing and wriotng down the emaisl of a few thousands of our stores members/
?
uh huh. bloody hand is bloody pain.
need to search for 9 alphabets. starting from r. guess waht. after 2 hours of non stop writing, (need to check one by one fo remails), i am still stuck at R. letter R.
=.=
uh huh. a4 size of paper. 5pages. still at R.
...dots right? now im starting to think if its more than a fwew thousands.

remind me why i like my job again pleas.e sometimes i wish just to jump over to witchery=/

haiz.

o well.....

so many thigns so little time life is short
sometimes i wish that there can be little ..more little thigns in life to keep me happier
but sometimes.. ppl will be too busy to look fo rit

pray that i'll get well soon. lucky enough i have energy to keep myself form fainting

mata

they brewed troubles again

its gonna be late soon....

actually, it slate now=.=

and im down with a slight fever plus my nose.. haiz... im terrible now =(
just hope i'll be fine by tmr... totally sick mode now. huu

throat still bit of pain. .haiz. shouldntve gone out. but too late to say no. o well

anywya,
im thinking u know.. mm... his family is the only ppl i know who hates me. only htye themselves can get it. fo rme i don. for him he dont know why either. for ppl who know me also don understand.

but u know what. my conscience is clear.. no matter hwat they think of me, i know its unreal. sometimes, ppl just need some weird excuses pretended to be reasons for them to backup their hate for that person or matter ba.
u knew its untrue. but u need to think it is true, so that u get the result of what u want. perhasp its that way for them?
i thought.. sighs. i thought for a parent, whats most important is for ur child to have their happiness. listen care n be there for them. but.. somehow i dunno... everyone is different ba..
i just wish.. sammy couldve been happier with his family..if only his family isnt that complicated..

its not that right isit.. to stil lwanna control somebody when they're alreayd all grown up, and step into adulthood..

its just hard huh.. when u wanna get along well, but yet.. they aint giving a dang about u. .they don wan to listen to u.. i hate it when anyone takes my explanation for excuses. especially at work. or even in personal life.
why cant they just sit, listen with respect, and take it in as well> ? give n receive mah..
..but liek i sadi. .everyone is different. .i think this way, doeant mean my boss or anyone else would huh.
perhaps they know. but they don wan to admit theiy're in the wrong

just worried for him.. with or without me , if they wont change, he's not gonna be happy with them in future either =/

one of my fren say if his familly make thigns diffifult fo rhim, he'll get outta house. and he did .
yea........... brave huh.

i felt that.. sammy alreayd done his best.. but u cant expect him to do all the work alone right. trying to listen n all. .explain..etc. if they don do the same, nothgins gonna ever work out .. i just don wan him to be so unhappy in that house u know

i hope he'll feel betetr soon....
i understand how he's feeling now...
course aitn a good feeling.

u know.. i think perhaps his family blames me for everythign they dislike him doing.. but even without me in the picture , they'll still find fault with others ba? liek perhaps next target.. his frens? his work> ?

so weird huh... to be hated for the thigns n reasons you've not done n deserved. if u know what those reasons are, i bet you'll go huh'?? thast the reason they hate u??

i don know ba.... no chance for me to say or do anythign anyway.. imagine me wanna speak with them, also no chance.
yea... very strict n .. i dunno..
just diff form other ppl sfamily ba..

u dont need reasosn to hate or dislike somebody. all u need is excuses.
anything can be used against u

but yea.. my main concern is him. i really hope he can smile n be happy.
liek without any worries..

oh man.. my  fren going melb. did i post that last night? i think i did?
her relatives lives there. fren study there too so yea.
man so nice. free tic n accomodation. oh hey wait. yea i did blogged abo thtis! =/.= gomen..
bad memory sometimes

so yea. i'l lalwyas stand by his side n support him.
he done nothing wrong.
as for his family.. i have no palce to judge so yea...
just felt that they are diff from other parents thats all...
only important person is him. and thast all it matters. just him.
no one else.
so yea..
i wont think of hate, angry or what. i try not to think of anything. just only him. and i feel at peace. with only him i think about. just concentrate on him

kk. .gtg.

later fever got worsen =/

don worry about me too..
false thigns set again me.. but yea. i wont argue liao..
cos i only care about sammy now. how he's feeling and all.. if he's ok. .etc.. so yea.
even if his family wanan think of false facts about me.. .then. yea. what can i say. i cant brainwash them or what. they are so adament huh

just dont ever become u know... like.. trying to squeeze a banana.. too tight, they will burst. and get squashed. or sorry2.... take a puppy for example. after u squeeze n suffocate them, u think when they grow bigger, will they run towards u and give u licky on ur face, loving u? no they wont. course they wont.

is that what u called love for your child? i dont understand about that kind of 'lvoe'.

once bitten, twice shy

or somethin gliek that

kk... pray that he'll feel betetr soon. only wanna think of him, not me.

please be ok dear..

mata

remember

oh dear. i fell aslp while watching supernatural. =.= dots.
wakey.. tried hard to stay wakey.. then unknowingly fell aslp again haha. haiyo...
now better liao.
so bloggy abit

throat hurts alot today. huu... but dinern got curry so yea cant resist. ha

mm. .getting slpy.. and late too.. think i'd betetr catch some rest.

what a busy day today. alot of tasks to complete.. haiz. job of asm eh. store in charge.

anwyay, met a long time agoooooo ex staff today. haha .so long liao.
heard another ex staff graduated adn working now. aw.. how time flies eh..
uni i think. so yea. once its over fast, its work time. ha

mm.. so yea..

that day was out and went into my store. rememerb? then that colleague of mine kept saying kawaii.. asked who am i.. ha.
nowadays my memory not good again =.= she told me that i wore something very sexy. if she didnt know me, she would've have thought i am a japanese whe i walked in. lol. so kua zhang.
anyway, i thnk3.. .recall3.... then i rememebrd what i wore. was like. .huh. me never wear very sexy outfitmah.
then i remembered! geez.. that was just a dress. what sexy. don hav la haha dots.
normal dress only. but i really like that one. hehe bought it in syd. really nice =)

anwyay , yea. sodiffcult for me tryign to rememebr a single small thing. haiyo must think realll hard then can remember.
cos of work isist? to many thigns to do. plus fatique ba

but hey! its a good compliment u knw to be liek a japanese. hahaha. they are so pretty.
nah. im not like them ha. they are too good ba XD

hm... hopefully tmr my throat will feel better

aw. .so envious. .my colleague going melb cos her relatives there. can stay for free =( huu.. so nice!!!
if  only don have to worry about accomodation fees..
anyway, her tix are free given from her dad who worked at sia. always got free tix for family. dang. .sonice

but yea. thats abot it ba

slpy. kk gtg mata.

Ayuni ^^

morning stil lvery tired. cos no rest went out mah.. .but somehow.. all these forcing to go out. .relaly help me out. i feel more refresh now. mm.. tired yes. but just feels different ba.
better. ne..mm.. good thing ba.
but just still tired.. ha

mm...
everyday msg sammy am happy. of course nothign beats being with him in person.. doing everything together in person.. but still, yea.. .at least work hard towards the future ba.. thogh alot of things i really wish i t can happen..
it is always nice to be with your love one huh. no matter what kind of a situation it is. .
its always nice to stay close n near each other.

oh hahaha... quite happy. today found a muslim name i like!!!!! =D after so many.. but this one, i really like haha.
hahaha..... ayuni. ^^  ayuni, separeates them = a yuni. i like yuni. and i like ayuni ^^ haha.
now i've found my fav muslim name.
just u know... ...not like its happening now or what.. but i like to search ard hahah. so funny right. XD
but o well, wonder if ... mm..
o well. just like the name thats all . they say if u married a muslim guy, yo'll have to get a malay name. so yea. lol. been on the lookout. XD i mean well,.. .nvr know the future mah.. somemore my malay frens quite alot. but i relaly like sammy hahahha. =P bleah

throat been dry i think? uncomfy.
gosh slp y liao

last night so nice to company him though was so slpy =)
but worth it. ha... i like ^^
msg2... as though he's next to me

mm............ oh another fren dropped by to see me today haha. so nice to see them all while im here.

no matter how hard it is, at least i have a dream n goal now. i do wanna go far. i like it here. but.. the person i care most aabout is there.. so yea..

sometimes. .like is so tricky eh.. u cant have everythign u want nor easy.
nothing is easy to gain somethign sweet n nice.
you have to fight for it, be firm, believe, and cut ur way through. needs alot of courage, but it is definitely possible.
and at the end of it all, you'll know htat it is all worth to fight for =)

rgm mc again. wonder hows his back now

for me * cough3.... gosh. .throat really not gd =/
continue. .for me.. , just simple. love care understands, respect trust me.. not asking that if you're my partner, u have to provide me with riches, notes, prada, branded, big house , car, credit carrds.. i don need those. i only need the above mentioned. those aint money can buy for ya.
if u have those, and u give it to ur partner, good thigns wil lonly happen to u.. =)

but i don understand how certain ppl.. craves for those fame, and stuffs liek that..especially most women isnt it? im not sure. but i think so?
too superficial eh =/
haiz. good luck to u guys out there=.=

kk gtg. gona be late need to go!
before too late ha

mata

long holiday please...

sooo tired n sleepy. but its quite a nice feelign whne u forced urself to go out. but.. i dunno. ended up sitll super tired.

short trip out with parentes left me bloody tired again

cos i auto wakey early ba?

anyway, had a sudden surprised call from sammy today. ha... but due to some reasons, thats the final call for the day. but so glad its our off today ^^ yay...

gosh. my back is aching..i cant sit up straight
have to try

yawning alreyad..

my brain is empty now. no idea what to blog about. everyday you'll see me type. .so tired so sleepy.. ha

gosh. i need all sorts of victamins!

so nice. my melb manager went for a holiday to paris. i thin kher fren is living there so yea. going there fo r a month =/ sooo envy. huu. 5 weeks off form work!! if sg, i dunnno wil lapprove anot. but. .huuu... sooooo shoiock =( so wan that too.
haiz.
its always nice when u have someone u knew overseas huh. only then can u save ur expenses. but then again if not familiar with each other. .nor close enough, will be pretty much awkward... so yea.
but.. omg... me always wanna stay longggg longgg over in syd huu

haiz... just so wish i could do the same .but well, im not her so yea...

o well...

so ncie huh =/

i also need that sort of super long break.. after workign for years...., you;ll crave fir something like this

goodness. that day the banker asked me if i'd just finish work. even if he's beig frenly, seriously, .. i just wish fo rhim to shut up . =.= uh huh.
goodness. irritating guy. pfft

kk. gtg.
backache from sitting. huu

mata