rooting for him! =)

really heavy flow... =/ no wonder was wondering how come i feel so weak n listless.. .haiz.
but pulled myself n finished up with the vm training thingy. but very different ba. from what i thought. its not so training training kind of thing. i duno. nonetheless, it is my houour that i am able to work with vm manager. first time u know this kind of thign happened

anywya, last night blog added theis post about women;s poll of their men's u know waht.
the length blah3... =.=''''
so yea. i still ahve no idea why theres such  a poll. =.=
and why women know what length they prefer. .blah3...
gpd thats so weird.
..eew.. better stop thinking liao. sooo wweird poll =.= and their thinkings.

anyway, sighs.. wish i could be there with him..
but it meant the world to me when he told me how it went. .adn why didnt it went well ...
i hope he'll be ok..=/
wanna say soemthing, but scared later he angry.
the least i could do is to listen and share it with him.
really hope that he will be fine.. .
well at least he got his cards n so now.

i know how that feels.. me also go shop n reward myself. .or when too much stress..
but not good la shop so much.. but yea.. need to ba..
no bf pick me up after work anymore mah.. .ha.
so nice to see my colleagues bf pick her up after work.. or off day ask her go out..

o well. .doesnt matter.. kinda used to it anywya..
im luckier tahn other girls too isnt it eh =)

ha. had a dream. wow. so happy.. dreamt about my visa to australia approved. for 14 years. haha. wth. XD
yea. approved.. .and suddenly theres monsters.. .horror thingy going on. .fighting monsters.. so scary. .
but yea. the approved part.. ha. so happy. was like. .so happy can go there liao..
o well

and so yea...
no more upset.. .if u knwo what i mean. .
no wonder. that was the day right before period. =/
but yea.. .at least he let me know huh. .so yea. .gotta wait all the way till his exam is over..
but hopefully things will be fine for him..
i don mind waht results he get.. just worried if he's gonna get stress from studies thats all.. .
=/ imagine if its sg uni.. isit worse?
mm.. i dunno. diff ba. the way thigns beig taught and all..

yay. had a phone chat with him jsut now. was quite ok. though time to time on n off.. but can tell he didnt sound that well..
=/
but u know. .i can only do my best to make him feel even if for a bit better. .or cheer up..

well. .if a person is angry or frustrated.. or upset,.. some stuffs u say will stil lamke that person frustrated..
so yea. .need to be very careful.. .
so scary..such a feeling..
but human nature mah.. s o yea.. even to bro also.. =/
bro also very scary. i dunno. men scary everytime they angry huh. =/

anwyay....... glad im feeling better now. if not. today sure die.. but throat sitll not good desu. haiyo...
nose still.. yea. alot of germs still in me i know.

anyway,
mm.. oh yea. last part of conversation.. dunno .. thought i heard he said somethign about his friends.. then i heard what hate me. got a shocked of my life=X ha. thoght huh how come his frens hate me just by looking at my pics, or heard abou tme. i dunno.
then he tol dme its his family. i was like ..ohh... yea. heard that so many times.. still not used to it.
and.. still dunno how anyone will dislike me like that.. most probably they think its my dirty hand touches their golden egg ba...
=/ o well.. sorry.. but.. also dunno waht to say.. imagine i stadn in front of them.. i think i ahven say a word, they punch me liao. ha. .

but yea.. now im just thinking.. it really isnt about my personaility or hwat. .just that background not as that of a well to do family ba..
why didnt his god parents say the same thing? hopefully not... ha. but yea. miss them . nice ol docuple =)
 but at least... no need to say hate me right. .
i thought of this before.. if i visit another guy's family.. wil lthey hate me too? my guts n heart din hesitate.. the answer is no.
and i am confident they will very much like me.

but.. i don care la.. haha. after all, the person i care most about will be the person im spending the rest of my life with isnt it .as in not don care. butmore of. .most important is how my man will treat me and love me.
well.. my cousin's mum dislike his gf.. then, suddenly she got pregnant first. no choice, hav to let them get married. lol.
but now also ok mah.
o well..

so thats abou tit eh..

just wish to be by his side.. and support him through all.. haiz..
heartpain to know he's disappointed. really pray that he wont feel stress...
well. .at least i'll always be there to share with him.
just hope he wont get too frustrated ba..

studies huh.. .so irritating at times.. .like me. .ha. of course cannot compare to his big exams.. but me,, ... trying to memorize the new jap words i ust learned. .memorize... imagine .. i have to memorizr n rememebr all my work tasks. .tasks for my team.. .at home. .personal.. .of course most important is him.
then still hav to remember the new jap words. lol.
so tricky n difficult. yea.. trust me. there are tons of issues to deal with at work. work alone, theres alot of thigns to be done.
i cant even explain to u how difficult that is..
but frustrated someitmes when one weke couldnt learn much words. ha. cos no time!!
XD

anyway, mm... im really curious hows the pressy look like now.. the photo album i gave him . .stuffs liek that. ha. i sitl lremember. .how i'll quickly trace back my emmories.. note down on a piece of paper. .date n tiem. .XD ha.. .so rush cos cannot let him se eim writing it down.. but yet its fun.
then i recalled which colours he like. .ha. couldnt find the exact match.. but yea. close ba?
and so difficult to decide on the colours.. cos for guy mah.. somemore he's my first bf.
ha.. nice swt memories ne. .key rings of date n names i given him. .reminded me of my fren gib his gf the dogtag names..
but yea.. keychain i still have.. my frens all say its cool. ha. i also duno why. XD
mm.. but all these small stuffs.. .including a handwritten bookmark..
wonder where are the small stuffs now. .easy to be lost huh.. o rb egone..
but.. well.. at leats i know that i've given my all.. and heldnothing back. though nowdays. .wanna give also difficult. .cos not near.. and theres his family ..
so yea. .
sometiems must hold back.nochoice.. but sometimes that'll resulted in regrets too..

thats why i am grateful enogh for the previous years.. where i got a chance to do everything with him. .and spend all my energy on him. .and itme too. and love. and cares. and everything.
msg and talk is diff.. talk always hav more things ba.. mm.. isit.

but yea. at least i can always look back and smile.. now also can smile. .cos he's safe n sound..
and he's smile is still so swt as ever to me..

but i dunno.. sometimes.. just.. mm..
haiz. so wish my goal and dream will come true soon..
man. i should just go pick some fruits. ha
=P

haiz. soemtiems so wish i can tag poics of us both.. o well..
better dotn wish so much ba.

oh huu.. =( my laptop . .last night was fine. .now dunno watt happened.. all my pic albums are gone! everything =( and some stuffs too. duno what. but no more spybot.. and. dunno waht. huu.. .my pics.. =( desktop changed on its own. .what happened..

mata ne...